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    “I lost my virginity to one of the Ravens,” Jean had said with a shrug in a moment of silence. “Does that count?”

    The two of them had shared story after story and if Jean was normal in that silence he would’ve shared his own. But he isn’t normal, so he didn’t. He instead said that and didn’t realize the effect it would have until it was too late.

    Jean did not talk about it a lot, at all really, not since Grayson had shown his face and allegedly killed himself a week later. But the girls knew enough.

    Jean had looked up to see small, sad smiles staring back at him. He had meant the words to be casual but the implication made them sink fast like heavy weights dropped into still water. He felt the intense need to claw off his mouth with his nails, but Jean had learned quickly with the Trojans that it was not a thing well-adjusted people do and caused unnecessary worry. Instead, since Jean was still in grips with his sanity, he clenched his hands into fists and let the nails bite into the skin of his palms. Effective and discrete.

    “No, Jean,” Laila had said sweetly. “That doesn’t count. Not if you don’t want it to.”

    Jean hadn’t understood.

     

    Or Jean’s exploration of intimacy and love

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    18 Jun 2025

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    “I want this,” Jeremy says, his voice cracking as the words tumble hopelessly out. “I want to keep playing. I think I will die if I don’t. Jean, I—”

    “Okay,” says Jean, thumbing under his eyes. “Then you will keep playing.”

    Jeremy shakes his head. “Is it really that simple?”

    “Yes,” says Jean. “It is.”

    Jeremy navigates the reality of his future. He also navigates the reality of Jean.

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    27 May 2025

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    “Um, okay,” Nicky says. Stops. Thinks. Looks at Aaron with too much urgency, like he has to entertain him fast or he’ll disappear into thin air. “Uh—Andrew! Yes. Andrew and I are having a fight right now.”

    Andrew shakes his head at Aaron. “Completely one-sided.”

    “He thinks his gaydar is better than mine. Can you believe that?”

    “Never said that.” But it’s probably true.

    or: Nicky and the twins bond about gay shit

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    23 Apr 2025

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    this is fcking hilarious and also so in character

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    Aaron's trial ended with a not-guilty verdict. That should be the end of it. Andrew testified and now he can wash his hands of that part of his life.

    But though it's ancient history to him, it's front page news to the rest of the world. The fallout is never that easy.

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    “Concussion. My helmet-I...” Jeremy can hear the slight slur of his own words, and tries his best to carefully speak again. “I think I'm okay.”

    Jean treats him to a withering glare, unimpressed, before his expression pales slightly, and Jeremy does not have to guess as to why. The backliner pulls his hand from Jeremy's skull, holding it in front of him so he can see as well.

    Red.

    Slick and bright, coating Jean's fingers.

    Or: Jeremy is badly injured, and finds it increasingly difficult to keep his feelings for a certain former Raven under wraps as some interesting facts come to light.

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    19 Mar 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    It ain’t canon but man it’s good