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My head started to spin as the thoughts of what just happened. Pennywise was carrying me somewhere but I couldnt comprehend where. I was just staring at him in awe. At his yellow eyes that were glowing. Just enough light to see his face. His cute baby like face that dripped drool onto me. His words they swirl through my head like a tornado. It was so unexpected. I honestly thought I was going to be in for the worse. What was going on in his head? I truly believed his words. They were spoke with such passion and meaning. He was starting to care about me. Me? And on top of that I couldn’t understand who I was? Or what was happening to me.
“Pennywise, Im gonna...” I threw up all over his chest. Out of surprise he dropped me.
“What the fuck!” He shouted.
I landed in water. Shallow water. Smelling of swage sore through out my nose. Thats all I could tell. Darkness surrounded me. Except his glowing eyes that were now blue.
“Im so sorry, I’m not feeling well. I feel very nauseous. My head is...” I threw up again.
I felt his hand on my shoulder.
“I don’t understand! Too much is happening! What is with you!? What is with me!?” I burst out into tears. He picked me up and pulled me into his chest.
“Change.”
He caressed my hair and rocked me a bit as I fell asleep.
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I woke up in a bed. Pennywise was behind me cuddling me. I jumped up out of surprise. I was in my room. Like actually my room from my house. A clean room with a proper bed. No broken windows. There wasn’t a cold breeze at all. Blankets and a warmth.
“Good morning, Pet!” Pennywise sat up. His voice was high pitched and sing-songy.
“Whats going on?” I sleepily asked.
“Youve been sleeping, youre sick. Haha!” He poked my nose.
“No. Why are we here? Thought you’d never take me back here? And wheres my punishment? Ive been disobeying you! How does this comply?” I was frantic and mad that he was being foolish.
“Oh! Oh! Hehe! I need to keep you safe. Its getting too cold out to keep you where Id like. Missy” he pinched my cheek. I rolled my eyes. He gave me a puppy dog frown. He took the hint. He started to calm down.
“Youre words... last night, I could tell you finally believed yourself.” He smiled at me and pushed my hair behind my ear.
“If you’ll fully be devoted to me now, I don’t want to reprimand that. Plus, all you’ve shown me is how delicate you are. Youre so much more now than something to use. I need to figure you out. Youre the first thing that has me in wonder. I must protect that. I must protect you.”
Such soft words coming from his mouth that didn’t follow abuse. He was right, change. Change is coming.
He leaned over and opened my nightstand draw. He held and object behind his back. The look on his face was that of excitement and anticipation.
“I have a surprise!”
I blushed and put my hands out.
“Close your eyes!” He sang.
He put the object in my hands and I opened my eyes.
It was my collar. In perfect condition.
“How did? What? How?” I was over joyed
“Will you do the honors!” I held it out to him to put it on.
“I have my ways. Haha heheh” he was laughing. He reached over and clasped the collar together. But he just couldn’t help but sniff at me. He growled as he retracted.
“Perfect. Just absolutely perfect now! My property! The way it should be!” He was looking over my body.
I threw my body and gave him a great big hug.
“ I have a plan,” he began.
“What!”
“They are all going to go down, there is going to be no evidence anymore of me here. With you, I am becoming more in control now. I will rule without doubt again!
I will feast on their fear and feed on their flesh! All with you at my side! Pet!”
He was manic, lunging towards my neck biting into the same spot. I screamed. Pain and fear sore through my vines. His actions have taken me by surprise. His plan, there was no need to hurt anyone anymore.
‘But I'll be there for you, As the world falls down’ As he sucks, he whispers in my head. On repeat. That... that was the hum. That melody! whats the rest of it? Why?
I pushed at him as I felt nauseous again.
“Pennywise! Get off! Pennywise! I have to vomit!”
He let go. I got up and ran to the bathroom throwing up over the toliet.
He was quickly behind me.
“You keep feeling sick, but you aren’t sick. I dont understand what kind of human thing is this? Are you lieing?” His voice grew dark.
“No.Pennyiwse. Are you seriously telling me Im fine.” I wiped my mouth with toilet paper. It was nice to have some little luxuries back in my life now.
“I can sense you are completely fine. You taste divine!”
I barfed again.
“Maybe I just have food posioning. All that blood you made me suck” I gave him the stink eye.
“Oh! You were moaning for it!”
I couldnt understand why I wanted it so bad. It tasted so good though. Does blood always taste like that? I mean I have never tasted blood. I couldnt imagine, it always smelt like iron and I imagine it would be bitter and meticalic tasting.
“What does it taste like to you?”
“Well almost every human is the same except for you. With fear, it like seasoning meat, salting for flavor. I would say its like the best premium seasoned pieced of beef. Ha! The Irony! I eat fearful humans. Humans eat fearful cows!”
“Pennywise Im serious”
“Yes yes, you are sweet but salty! Sweetness something I only ever imagined being able to taste. Sweetness comparable to that of the euphoria of the human drug Heroin, I can only infer. I think you described it perfect as chocolate covered pretzels.”
“Pennywise. Am I... Am I what you are?”
He nearly bursted out laughing!
“I am the last of a dying breed! I am Contrasted to another being! You are certainly not!”
He continued to laugh at me.
“Pennywise, what was that hum?” I was worried about myself. I might be changing his world but he’s turned mine inside out.
“Hum?... deadlights.” He said under his breathe.
“Ill be there for you, as the world falls down,” I sang
“its the same melody?” I wondered.
“Oh!” He gave an embarressed look.
“Mystery! Mystery! You are!”
I continued to throw up. Forgetting about the hum. Certainly he didn’t know or wanna tell me. Pennywise held my hair back and proceeded to mock me.
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Pennywise feed me after I settled down from throwing up. It was the usual goop and I had to eat it on the floor. To which he laughed the whole time. He laid with me in bed almost all day. I loved this. He Intermediately drank from me. I didn’t love that. I wondered soon when he was going to feed or at all. He had me.
“Why do you still kill people if you can just feed off of me?” I asked.
“I like the hunt. Although you are amazing! I can only use you up to a point.” He gave a silly frowny face.
“As it is today. Ive drank to much. Youre weak. Its going to take you days now to replenish.”
“Why do it?” We were cuddled in bed facing each other.
“Do you not understand how an addiction works? Everytime i keep wanting more and more. It takes more to satify my desire.” He turned away.
“I just want to devour you. Rip your limbs off. Consume you and get the ultimate high. But then what happens? I cant destroy you, I wont hurt you, I don’t want you to be sick.”
I put my hand on his shoulder and pulled to motion him to turn back. He did.
I went in for a kiss. He grabbed at my butt knowing where I wanted this to go.
“I’m fine for now.” I smiled at him. Giving him consent I wasn’t going to be sick.