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Helloooooooo...
If you have or haven't seen it, I did kind of get back into writing after like two years and then some thanks to TMNT, so I'll clap myself up for that one lol.
Real talk though, I wasn't sure if I'd ever really get into writing again. I did stuff on the low, just not to the same degree as what I was doing up here, but I guess that goes to show that I do enjoy writing and likely won't ever fall out of it, at least not entirely.
Anyways, after way too much debilitation and indecisiveness, I've decided to mark this as discontinued. I know I promised a while ago that I wouldn't do that and would just rewrite some stuff so the fic felt more satisfactory to me, therefore giving me the motivation I needed to continue it and eventually finish it, but I think the problem I faced the entire time as I was writing it was what I was writing about. A story about Karamatsu dealing with depression or feeling suicidal or anything remotely similar is a trend that's been done to hell and back, and I personally don't like to hop on bandwagons because I'm not plucking from my own inspiration in the process. It also didn't help that I started this on a whim without much planning.
I won't deny what good I did with this fic and the amount of attachment I have with it (I started writing it while I was still in high school), but I can say with certainty that I won't be finishing it. When I said "rewrite," I meant practically uprooting everything and possibly changing the flow of the story as well. And I know there were readers who liked what I had going on, no matter how strongly I wanted to disagree with them, so I won't be changing anything.
I'm sorry to anyone who held out hope for me eventually giving a satisfactory ending to this, but I'm thankful for everyone who read it and gave me all of those heartfelt comments I could never bring myself to reply to after so much time has passed. In spite of everything I said, I'm glad I wrote this.
I'm still trying to figure out what to do with the other unfinished fics I have lying around (I do have a second chapter in my drafts for Deep Sleep, so keep that in mind if you'd like), but other than that, I'm back into writing. Albeit slowly, but I'm doing it.
If only I felt the same way about art💀