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Date: November 29
Time: 12:00AM
Final Video
The video starts with the camera facing Jaime, who is sitting in bed in their pajamas, with a tube affixed to their face with some tape that seems to feed into their nostrils. There are heavy bags under their eyes and they are laying back against their pillows with a tired smile, “Hi Mellie.” Their voice is raspy, and quiet, quieter than they’ve ever spoken, “I don’t suppose you were expecting this, and you’re probably thinking it’s some kind of cosmic punishment. You have a tendency to always think that you’re at fault, or that this is retribution for something you’ve done.”
They cough a bit, and they cover their mouth with their fist so that their spittle doesn’t get all over the lens. When the fit ends they just go back to smiling, “I don’t have a lot of time, because I don’t know how long my memory’s going to last me, so I’ll just cut to the chase. It’s not. I’m not making this video to blame you and condemn you for everything. I’m not doing this so I can have one last final scream and so that I can die angry.” They huff, “I was never angry with you.”
“I am doing this so I can say goodbye, so I can tell the woman I love with everything I am, that it’s going to be ok. That you’re going to be ok, and that no matter what you think, none of this is your fault. This is not something you could control, this was not something either of us could control. This is just life, and life is shit, and mean, and terrible. You and I know that better than anyone. So I’d like, to make the ending of it, as kind as possible.”
“You’re probably angry with me, considering how I didn’t ask you to come see me in my last days, or to help with the funeral. However, my Lovely, you already had to go through this once with your wife. No need to rinse and repeat for little old me, and you know how much I hate hospitals, so there’s no way I was going to go through with that in the first place.” They laugh, breathy and soft, “So that’s my reasoning for it, also, because I don’t want you to see me like that. I want you to remember me how I was. Though, I guess that’s all null and void when I send you this.”
“Where was I? Oh yeah, I know that when we separated it wasn’t on the best of terms, that we were throwing ourselves practically back to the start. But I want you to know, that I never stopped loving you. I was angry, and hurting, for a goddamn long time, but I never stopped loving you. You were, and are everything that I ever wanted, and our daughter? She’s the extension of that. If I could go to X Manor right now, without forgetting why I was there every five minutes, I would and I’d just hold you for as long as you’d let me. I’d take every fire filled insult and accusation, if you had any, just so I could see you again.”
They smile.
“I love you so much Mellie, please don’t cry for me, please don’t beg for me back. If I’m lucky, I’ll see you again, one day. Oh… and Happy Birthday Love.”
The Video Ends There.