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The world around me was dark with only one light source in front of me. A bright screen. A screen so eye-damagingly bright; in front of me. Did that matter? No. Of course not. At that moment, the world around me disappeared and all my attention was focused on the person on my screen.
"Hey everyone! It's BJ Alex, live!" he announced as the chat started to get flooded with comment after comment.
"Come on in, and don't forget to hit that like button," he has wavy curled hair that lightly fell down his face, covering his eyes.
"Thanks for the 10 chestnuts Alex2Sexy!" he said with a smiley tone. I couldn't tell whether he was smiling or not because of the mask covering his mouth, but his eyes were smiling so brightly.
"Get ready. It's Friday night, so the show's gonna get real steamy," he said as leaned back on his chair, running his hand through his hair, adjusting his bangs to the side to reveal his golden eyes and the mole by his left eyebrow.
"'Okay, Okay. Just take it off already'? Haha! Let me do my own fucking stream, okay?" he said as he leaned into the camera, making the mole on his neck more visible.
"Like, Damn, you're all so horny but- I guess that's fine. 'Cuz tonight's theme is... I'm your horny boyfriend!" he said as he tore off his shirt, making the buttons pop out, revealing his chest. I was taken aback but I a grin slowly planted itself onto my mouth as I bit my lip. The way he ran his hand up and down his chest made me wish that my hand was touching him.
"I bet your dicks are twicking already. Go get some tissues, and make sure you're alone." I let out a breathy sigh as I leaned forward. He unzipped his pants, pulled down his underwear, and I did that same with a gulp. He leaned back and started stocking his dick and I did so too. At this point, I think I'm just following his lead now. Not that I'm complaining.
I watched Alex attentively, paying no mind to the music playing in the background. I bit my shirt to muffle my moans but seeing him turn his head to the camera, with begging and lustful eyes then pull down his pants and underwear all the way down, made me shiver a bit.
He leaned in forward, making his eyes more visible and his sound more audible. His hand reached behind and, while I didn't see it, I knew what he was doing. He was touching himself there, inserting a finger or two... or maybe even more. His moans were getting louder and louder. His chest was pressed against the desk that held his setup so I couldn't see his chest, his ass, or his dick but the sounds of his moans were more than enough.
Or so I thought...
He stood up and sat back down on his sit and brought his feet up to his shoulders and presented himself to the audience so beautifully. Sadly, I can't see because of the censorship but I hung my mouth open at how flexible he really is. Dammit . I started to stroke my dick faster and harder. Both of his hands were now pleasuring his dick and finished with a sweetly moaned orgasm. I did the same...
"Oh no! I just got this..." I exclaimed as I realized that I've cum all over my newly bought laptop. I quickly wiped it.
"How was that? Good?"
I smiled and put aside the wipe as I happily started typing and...
"Oooh~ Thanks for the 104 chestnuts, DG. Always Greatful DG~"
I couldn't help but blush a bit and smile. "Wanna request a song DG? or a reaction?" he asked and I gleefully responded.
As stupid and pathetic as it was, I couldn't help but have to admit that I've fallen in love with a gay cam boy named BJ Alex.
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I rested my cheek on my palm as I leaned forward. I'm in a meeting for a group project and I honestly shouldn't be thinking about it but- I can't stop thinking about last night's stream. It was so amazing~
How can he be so perfect? I bet he's got a cute face under that mask too... Everything about him is so cute that it's hot. He's got a model's boy... with those abs and slender, soft-looking, beautiful chest and the mole on his neck and collarbone that somehow compliments the birthmark on his side. I bet he's pretty down there, both front and back.
If I could have sex with him... I would bang him so hard until the room was filled with his moans as he whimpered about how rough I was going, only to sweetly whisper into his ear that he loved it like that.
"Sunbae... Nate Sunbae.... Nathaniel Davis-Gardener Sunbae!" I shot up as I heard my name and embarrassedly realized that I've been drooling on the thought. "We were deciding on team leader," I wiped the drool on my palm on my shoulders and apologized in response.
"Nathaniel Sunbae, are you okay? It's not like you to space out like that..." one of the females pointed out.
"Yea Yeah! Did you fall asleep? You were drooling all over your am. Were we too boring fro you? I'm so sorry..."
"Nah! Was probably thinking something nasty. Come on~ You totally were~" the guy beside me said as he nudged me with a smirk on his face.
I mean, he's not wrong but- I wish he wasn't so spot on...
"Well, as an apology for drefting to space, How 'bout I be the team leader," I offered with a smile. Making sure that my (totally existent) sparkles and flowers were present. They all cheered.
I've never led a group project before so, you'll have to excuse me. I hope I don't do too horribly," I said humbly as I looked down with a small smile. Maybe I shouldn't have made that offer? Maybe I shouldn't have even talked at all...
"Come on! You're out sunbae! We're sure you'll do a better job than us!"
"I guess.." I said as I looked away and tugged the hood of my shirt. I looked back at them to see them all leaning forward, awaiting my response. "Okay then..." I said as I admitted defeat to my hoobeas.
I let out a sigh then stood up and asked the professor if we could be excused.
"Wait- wait! Sunbae! we still haven't decided on a topic!" they exclaimed as walked out the door.
"Sorry, I have somewhere to be. I'll make the group chat asap and we can discuss the topic later," I said as I waved goodbye.
As soon as I walked the door, with it closing behind me, I started off by making the group chat. Trying to remember people's names is so tiring sometimes... only sometimes. I let out a sigh as I apologized to the group once more through text.
As I put my phone down, I saw a small boy in the corner of my eyes. Small would be an understatement. I mean, come on... we're both in college. Okay- maybe it's an overstatement. I guess he's pretty average in height since I was pretty tall.
"Hey there!" I called out to him.
He glanced my way before taking off his buds. "Hi..."
Damn, he's so quiet I need to turn on my second pair of ears.
"Do you need something?" Damn... His voice hit me so hard I thought I would be sent to the moon. No, scratch that. Mars is more like it. His voice was so soft and heavenly I thought I was listening to a singer or a voice actor. It was slightly pitched from my voice and it was a bit breathy as if he was whispering sweetly into my ear... I couldn't help but get heated up a bit but- I can't help but recognize his voice from somewhere....... Well, that doesn't matter right now.
I let out a low couth then started introducing myself. "I'm Nathaniel Davis-Gardener! Graphic Design Major. You're Allen Xavier, right? You're in the photography club, the secretary," I said with a friendly smile. Well... I'm pretty sure it was friendly.
"I know who you are... Mr. club president. You're also the Student Council Vice-President," he said with a clear tone as he directed his body to face me. I looked him up and down.
He's pretty short, compared to me, but he's pretty average, honestly. He has a pretty face and a cool expression. I can't put my finger on it but something about him screamed soft-core bishounen. Maybe it was the clothing? Or the face.. maybe it's both? Yeah, it's definitely both.
"You're also the club's president," he stated.. and for a while, there was an awkward silence. Like we're both holding our breaths, waiting for the other person to respond. "Yeah... You're also the secretary?" I don't know what we're doing, honesty, I was kind of confused.
He let out a sigh before turning his whole body to face me. "I don't know why we're doing this. We've introduced ourselves twice already. At the council meetings and the club," he said and rolled his every and turning the back to me.
I mean... he's not wrong. We both know each other from the council meetings and club meetings but we never really talked to each other. He gave of the "Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know" and the "blank stare, don't care, don't ask" vibes too but, he was really... pretty and worked well in the student council. Not to mention the beautiful pictures he takes in addition to the artwork he makes.
He's really good at art and has an artistic point of view. The problem is, he doesn't look like the type. He looks like the stereotypical nerd that studies all the time.
I don't know much about him so, I can't really say much about what he does during his free time and his work. So, I can't say, whether or not he really does study all the time, but, you can't really blame me for turning to the stereotypes when I barely know the person. That's honestly why I tried talking to him.
"The club's going to go drinking later, you're going, right?" I asked but he just turned away, facing the ground. Why do I feel like a high school girl during her first heartbreak?
"I'm so sorry... I've love to but- as you can probably already tell, I'm not really the sociable type," he said and I couldn't help but look over him again and let out a soft chuckle. He honestly doesn't look that bad, he looks really cute with that outfit he's wearing.
"You'll be fine. I'll talke care of you so... if you ever run into any trouble, let me know," I said as I extended my arm.
He stared at it for a bit and turned to the side, furrowing his eyebrows as he covered his mouth with his hand as he fell into thought.
"Hmmm..." I don't know why but- he looks kind of fami-
"Okay, I'll go. Please take care of me," he said as he shook my hand.
He bowed a bit then waved goodbye to me. "I'm sorry btu, if you'll excuse me, I have somewhere to go."
"Okay, I'll see yout there!"
(Allen Xavier (Alex))
That- was really something... It's been a while since someone's talked to me and invited me that I almost forgot how to interact. Should I really go? I have a lot of things to do... Should I change into something more fitting? Should I fix my hair up a bit? Gosh. I don't know what to do.
I've been in the student council for quite some time so... I've thought about socializing but it's never been part of my public vocabulary... I know it- but don't use it. It's like an emerald to me, it's precious and shouldn't be seen by anyone but me... and a selected few.
I let out a sigh, letting thoughts and questions continue to race inside my head as I unlocked my front door. Maybe I'm overthinking this a bit too much. I mean, I have someone to look after me so, I don't have to worry much but, I really can't help but worry. The last time I went and tried to socialize was freshmen orientation and I blew it. I spoke without filter and insulted a few of my upperclassmen.
I also joined the student council and a lot of clubs so that I would be crushed under a lot of work and had some sort of excuse to avoid socializing. I don't know anymore... Maybe this is the backlash of attending so many clubs and having a lot of classes.
You know what they say, with great power comes great responsibility. Hmmm... I think it needs a bit of rephrasing. With great work comes great responsibility. Yeah, that's much much better.
I let out another sigh and left my house with slumped shoulders after changing into proper clothing. I had on a white button-down shirt with a caramel-colored open swing coat, with some plain black pants and a black leather belt.
When I arrived at the party, I found myself a seat and after a while... it got so awkward because I couldn't find the vice-president. I just told myself I'd have a drink or two then leave but an upperclassman approached me with a sigh. "Fuck! Why do I get stuck sitting next to this guy? Yo, secretary," he said with a low irritable tone.
"Um, who are you?" I titled my head as I scooted slightly away from him.
"The fuck? I'm also in the student councel!" he exclaimed, practically growling and glaring at me. I bet you're not really popular, huh?
"I'm sorry. I don't have a good memory when it comes to people's names and faces," I said with a serious straight face so that he wouldn't misunderstand me in any way.
He clicked his tongue in response then shrugged his shoulder as he grabbed more to drink and poured it into my cup. "Forget it. Just chug this."
I'm glad I don't remember you. I don't want you to ever come to mind. If I've known you were going to be here... I would have avoided this party like a plague. I really regret going to this gathering now. I'm done for...
As he continued to offer more and more drinks to me, I could hear the people around me saying:" Poor thing. Sat next to the wrong sunbae." I was drinking so much, my throat couldn't handle it and practically choked with the overloading amount of alcohol. It didn't take me long before I was drunk and out of it. I couldn't even get up when we were going to another pub. "... then you go ahead with the others. I'll get him home," that's the vice-president's voice.
Before I realized what was going on, I was in sunbae's car.
(Nathaniel Davis-Gardener (DG))
"Hey President, do you know where Allan lives?" I asked through the phone. "Hmmm? No, why?"
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Nathaniel: We went drinking with the Photo club, and he drank too much
President: Allan drank with you guys? That's a first.
Nathaniel: Yeah, I know right?
President: Where are you guys? I'll take him home.
Nathaniel: Nah! Promised him that I would take care of him when I invited him.
President: Ah, okay then. I don't know where he lives but if you find out, tell me for future reference.
Nathaniel: Okay, I'll let you know when I find out.
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I hung up the phone then turned to Allan - who I've been subconsciously been calling L, even though it seems that there's no Light in the world right now, in so many ways. "Hey, Allan. Where you do you live? I'll take you home," I said as I held unto his shoulders as I put his seat belt on. "Mmmhmmm"
"Huh? What was that? Where do you live?" I asked as I started to put on my own seat belt. "Yesh~"
"Yes? Is he dreaming?" I let out a sigh. "Hey Allan, can you please tell me where you live?" I repeated and leaned forward.
"Yesh.. Mmmh" he said as his face fell into my chest and before I knew it he blaaarrgghhhed all over my shirt. "I-" I let out a sigh and facepalmed as I leaned back on my seat.
"I hope you don't mind... I'll take you to my place instead," he responded with a yes, but I'm pretty sure that's the alcohol speaking.
With that, I drove home with my shirt and car smelling like puke but, I can't really complain since I told him I would take care of him. I glanced at him and saw that he also had a bit on his clothes. Maybe I should lend him some of my clothes.
I took him (to my) home and set him on my couch. I took off my shirt and tossed it into the wash and started making myself a drink and something light to eat. It didn't take long for him to wake up after I took off my shirt. I'll wait for him to wake up to give him his shirt. Taking off his clothes while his asleep is a bit---
"Sunbae?" I turned around and found Allan awake. "Hey there!" I said as I poked my head out holding a tray of food and something for him to wear.
"I've got you something light to eat and some water. You wouldn't tell me what your address was while you were asleep and you... puked on both of us so... I took you home, I hope you don't mind," I said as I placed the tray down and handed him the glass of water which he gladly took with a nod.
"Also, if you don't mind giving me your shirt so that I can wash it, I'll give it back to you at school when it's clean, wear this in the mean time," I said as I handed him the shirt but he just tilted his head so I let out a sigh and turned away. "I didn't want to take your clothes off while you were sleeping to change you 'cuz that just felt wrong...."
"Pfft!" he burst into laughter and I couldn't help but get even more embarrassed "Hehe. I'm sorry to ask something so personal vice-president but, are you perhaps gay?" My eyes widened as I turned to face him once more.
I mean... I get why he's asking and why he'd think that but—-
"I guess? I'm bisexual," I said sigh and a shrug and I got a low "I see".
"Anyways, how are you feeling?" I asked with a smile as he took his shirt off.
When he took his clothes off, I couldn't help but look him over. He had a pretty and pretty chest, he also had... a birthmark? A mole on his neck and collarbone? "You- No. Way... This can't be true..."
I was so taken aback that the drink spilled all over me as I fell. "Sunbae, are you alright?" he asked as he rushed over to my side, offering a hand that was forced to hang there as I asked:" You're BJ Alex, right?"