Chapter 1: Go From Here
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Hermione adjusts her phone between her shoulder and her ear as she packs the last few bottles, smiling apologetically at the cashier. “Okay, so that’s you, Ginny, Ron, George, and Fleur but no Bill? Should be enough. I didn’t get wine though, just beer and cider. Do you think Fleur will bring— well, I know, but it’s always best to be sure. At least without Bill there’ll definitely be enough to eat. Sorry I just threw this on you, I thought I’d be home by now. Work was— Oh, one second, Harry.”
She puts the phone down so she can search for her card, once again smiles at the cashier as she waits, and then grabs her bags and the phone, wishing she could just get out her wand and cast a featherlight charm. Ah well. Not far.
It’s raining and dark as she leaves the supermarket, but that’s actually a bonus as it means she can hurry around a corner into a dark alley, and disapparate.
Appears in her kitchen.
Harry puts down the phone and grins at her. “Is it raining out? You look like the Giant Squid got you.”
Hermione drops the bags and wipes some hair out of her face before casting a drying spell. “Pouring. Well, in London at least. How’s dinner going?”
He grabs an oven glove that’s flung over his shoulder, opening the oven door and checking the pizzas. “Just about done. We’ll have to put more in later but these three will do for now, and I had a look around in your fridge and managed to make a salad.”
Hermione walks over to look at the salad, quite impressed by what he’s come up with. “Well, it looks great. I can’t believe how long it’s taken for us all to find a time to meet for dinner. I thought I might have to postpone again. You’re a lifesaver.”
He starts hovering the bottles out of the bags. “You mean a saviour? Hmm. Never been called that before.”
She whacks him gently on the head with a big bag of crisps before emptying them into a bowl. “And you’re sure Ginny is up to this with…well…”
Harry holds out his arms in front of his stomach and puffs out his cheeks. “The one-week-old child that doesn’t seem to want to come out of her just yet? Yeah. She definitely wants to come. She was snoring when I left, but she said she’d be over later, and bagsys the chair closest to the loo and the biggest slice of pizza seeing as she can’t drink.”
Hermione snorts. Fair enough. “Well that will work out fine then, seeing as Fleur told me she’s on a diet but intending to drink a lot tonight seeing as she has the night away from the baby. Is that why Bill isn’t coming?”
Harry nods, checking his watch. “Think it’ll be the first time she’s away from Dominique. Remember how she wouldn’t let Victoire out of her sight until she was about three? This one’s barely a month old and she’s off like a shot.”
Hermione shakes her head, following a miaowing Crookshanks over to his bowl and giving him some food. “She’s less anxious. Think that’s normal with a second child.”
Harry hums. “Mess up the first one, and learn from your mistakes with the second one. Got it.”
She straightens up to look at him. Check his expression.
Ah. Joking but worried.
She squeezes his shoulder. “Good job you’ve had so much practice looking after me and Ron then. We’re your practice batch. The baby’ll be fine.”
Harry runs a hand through his hair awkwardly. “More like you looking after us. But thanks. Why don’t you go get changed out of your work clothes? I’ll turn the oven off and go back to my place for a sec. See if Ginny’s gotten herself stuck on her back on the sofa like a tortoise again.”
Hermione barks out a laugh and walks off towards the stairs. “I’m telling her you said that!”
He is so getting a bat-bogey hex to the face later.
Hermione hastily moves the bottles out of the way before Fleur can knock them over as she pours herself another large glass of wine.
“I am telling you! This is true! I turn by back for un moment, and Victoire and Teddy have eaten the whole thing. Comme ça!” she snaps her fingers and takes a large mouthful of wine. “Petits monstres. And now I have another one. Remind me to never do that again.”
The wine swills out of the side of her glass, and Ron sends up a subtle protego, pushing some bread and a jug of water towards her hintingly. “Sound like a handful. I’ll have to watch them for you for a bit whilst Andromeda’s away. They could come hang out at the shop with us, right George?
George grins. “We do need some new test subjects,” he winks.
Hermione rolls her eyes but smiles. She knows he’d never.
Ginny snorts. “The last thing we need is those two learning more mischief from you. I’ve lost track of the number of ton tongue toffees I’ve accidentally eaten recently.”
“You fell for it?” Ron laughs. “More than once?”
Ginny flicks her wand at him. A jelly-legs jinx that he deflects. “I thought they’d run out! Didn’t know you were giving them a secret stash.”
Fleur nods gloomily. “It is never-ending. Send me back to the grindylows. I am begging you.”
Harry opens another beer and smiles across at her. “You don’t mean that. Remember how freezing the lake was? I’m surprised you ever got in.”
Fleur’s head snaps up. She puts her wine down, pushes it away, and sits up straight, staring Harry down. “Of course I got in! I was a champion too, non? Just because one of those connards caught me by surprise!”
Then she grins. Raises her wand. “You did not even know the bubblehead charm, little boy. Tu souviens? Maybe we should have a rematch. A real competition.”
Harry laughs, glancing around and giving everyone knowing looks at Fleur’s unsteady hand. “Sure. We’ll have to put it in the calendar. Set up a duel or something. Invite Viktor.”
Ron claps him on the back. “You should! That would be wicked, mate! When was the last time we saw Viktor? We haven’t played a friendly in a while either. How about it? Gin—”
He glances at Ginny and cringes. “Oh. Right. Forgot. Guess it has been a while.”
Ginny huffs, folding her arms over her stomach. “Forgot? Alright for some. Yeah. It’s been a while. But I swear, as soon as this thing’s out of me, I’m getting straight back on a broom.”
“Thing?!” Harry squawks, reaching for Ginny’s stomach. “Child. Baby. James, or Lily, or—”
Ginny laughs. “Okay, okay! I didn’t mean— ugh, whoever it is, they’re pushing on my bladder. Hermione, help me up, would you?”
Hermione is already getting to her feet, used to this by now. “Here we go. Anyone else want anything whilst I’m up? More to eat, Ginny? I could see if there any biscuits in the tin if you want? Or fruit? I might have—”
Ginny waves her off. “Stop fussing. You’re worse than Mum. I’ll be as big as Aunt Marge if you lot aren’t careful.”
“Aunt Marge?” Fleur asks confusedly.
George leans in to whisper to her. “Harry’s Aunt. He blew her up when he was thirteen,” he says solemnly.
Fleur’s eyes go wide.
Hermione fights a smile and nods sadly too, sitting back down and reaching for her almost empty glass. It’s a strange joke they’ve had for years now. Always nod seriously when Aunt Marge is mentioned.
It cheers Harry up. And George.
Fleur looks around at them all.
Then rolls her eyes, muttering about never understanding English humour.
Ron cracks first, laughing into his sleeve. “Wish I’d seen it. Dad knew the poor bloke who had to fetch her down. Did I tell you? They tried to accio her but— but the wind kept blowing her away. Had to— had to get a net and—"
Hermione’s shoulders are shaking now, holding back laughter. Not from the story. She’s heard it a million times before, and it’s not even that funny. It’s Harry. Harry and his ridiculously serious expression. She never knows how he manages it.
Fleur accios some firewhisky from the back of a cupboard and pours some into both her and Hermione’s empty glasses. “I think you are the champion, Cherie, dealing with these idiots for so many years. What is your secret? Because it is not alcohol. Drink! It is Friday night, drink!”
Hermione does drink. Quite a large sip that makes her eyes water but her heart warm.
Or maybe it’s just having everyone together like this. It’s nice to sit back and just…soak it in. Her family.
She frowns down at her glass. How much has she had to drink? She’s getting sentimental.
Fleur adds some more firewhisky. That witch!
Hermione snatches the bottle from her with a stern glare. “No more. I mean it. It’s for the best. You’ll regret it tomorrow.”
Laughter echoes from down the hall, and Ginny appears. “Uh oh, Fleur, you’re in trouble. Hermione has spoken. And you’d better do as she says, with that look on her face. We all know that look.”
Wha— what look?
Ron nods. “The prefect look. Although actually I think you’ve had it down since first year. You always were scary.”
He takes out his wand and tuts. “It’s leviosa. Not leviosaa!”
Ron! “But it’s true!” Hermione cries. “Intonation is a very important part of—”
Harry stands up, eyebrows pinching together and chin jutting out. “I’m going to bed, before either of you come up with another clever idea to get us killed. Or worse, expelled.”
George snorts. “She didn’t.”
Harry grins at Hermione and sits back down. “Word for word. You were an amazing kid, Hermione.”
Hmph.
Hermione sends some empty plates and glasses to wash themselves in the sink. Glares at everyone. There’s nothing wrong with being the sensible one. Someone has to be.
They just smile back.
And…she can’t help but crack a smile too. Raises her glass. “You were all amazing. Every one of you. And…I hope Victoire, and Teddy, and Dominique and whoever is hiding out in your stomach, Ginny…all make friends at Hogwarts that are just as amazing as you lot.”
Ginny raises her glass too with a grin. “To amazing kids.”
“To family,” Harry says, joining in and throwing an arm around Ron.
Family, Hermione thinks as the glasses clink together.
Maybe she’s not an only child after all.
…Huh?
What is…ugh her head is so fuzzy. How much did she drink last night? Who is— oh!
Someone is shaking her awake. In the dark.
Hermione lunges for her wand on instinct.
“Whoa! Hermione! It’s me!”
She pauses mid-reach. Blinks and rubs at her eyes as she peers around. Oh. It’s Ginny. She’s still here?
Where is here? Where…
They’re…at the Burrow? How…
“Sorry,” she mumbles out confusedly. “Where…I thought…”
She pushes herself up on her arms to look around properly, turning on the bedside lamp.
Ginny is crouched next to the bed, pulling a jumper on over her t-shirt and shoving her toothbrush into a rucksack, yawning. “Wow, you’re even less of a morning person than me. Quidditch World Cup? Portkey to catch? Remember?”
World Cup?
No. No, that isn’t—
Hermione slowly pulls the sheets back and gets up. Really takes in the dimly lit room.
And Ginny.
Not pregnant. Younger. So young. Thirteen?
Thirteen-year-old Ginny.
What’s going on? Is this a dream? It has to be. Too much to eat and drink, and talking about the Triwizard Tournament. Her brain is just…muddled or something.
But it feels real.
Ginny is staring back. Has looked up from where she’s packing her bag and frozen at the sight of Hermione.
Hermione looks down at herself. Checks this isn’t one of those dreams where you’re not wearing any trousers.
Nope. She has pyjama shorts on.
Ginny stands up. Steps closer to her. “You…uhh, maybe you should look in a mirror, Hermione. You— what— umm…Did you, like, have a crazy growth spurt over the summer?”
Hermione frowns. Wanders over to look in a mirror on the wall.
She looks…normal. A bit tired. Hair a bit frizzy. She combs her fingers through it.
Oh wait.
She watches Ginny in the reflection. Younger Ginny.
Hermione’s hand comes up to her neck reflexively. Checking for that little hourglass. That she doesn’t have anymore. That she hasn’t seen in years.
Not there. Gave it back to McGonagall, and then they were all destroyed.
But Ginny is younger. And…all of their school things are here. Ginny’s posters. It does look like…
Fourth year. The Quidditch World Cup.
She forces a casual smile onto her face. “Guess I did have a bit of a growth spurt. And I used that time turner so much last year to get to my classes that I think I must have lived third year twice. That’s probably it. You know I’ve read that can happen. A sudden change of appearance due to time travel.”
It is true. But she’d actually read that in reference to changing time. One small change, and someone has a different hair colour.
Or a different child. A different partner.
Oh gods. Oh gods, she really hopes she hasn’t travelled back in time. She really, really—
A loud knock on the bedroom door interrupts her thoughts.
“Girls? Are you up? The tents are all set, and there might be time for a cuppa if you’re quick, but—”
Arthur peeks his head around the door and smiles as he spots them. He’s wearing muggle clothes. Jeans and a golf jumper. “Ah. Good. Well done, you two. Remember to wrap up warm. It’s chilly out.”
And he’s already off again, apparently not noticing anything amiss.
Hermione stares at the space he left. Red-haired. Definitely less grey hair than…
So it really is—
She pinches her arm. Last resort. Ow. Ow, right.
Real. This is real.
She slowly drifts back over to her bed. To the bag she apparently packed the night before.
Ten years before.
She quickly throws the clothes on that she’s conveniently left on top. The clothes she remembers wearing before, the memory trickling back to her.
And grabs her toothbrush. “I’ll go use the bathroom,” she says shakily. Avoids looking at this strange, young Ginny, and hurries out of the room.
Shit. Shit shit—
Time travel?
Okay. Okay—
She shuts and locks the door behind her, leaning against it, head resting on a damp towel. She’s too panicked to even care that—
How? All she did after dinner and drinks was go to bed, and now she’s back in…1994. But— but that’s not even the strangest thing. The strangest thing is…she’s herself.
She looks in the mirror. Yep. Herself. Twenty-five-year-old body. Definitely not fifteen, as she’s supposed to be.
Or will be in a few weeks. It’s not September yet.
The rules of time travel are very clear. Don’t change anything. Don’t show yourself. And whatever you do, don’t see your past self. It will drive you mad.
But…
Her old self isn’t here. She’s replaced herself. And not just her mind. Her body. A ten-year growth spurt overnight.
Oh this is not good.
It really does feel like being in a dream. Or falling unexpectedly into a pensieve. At first, it’s uncomfortable. A nervous twist in her stomach every time someone looks at her, certain she’s going to be caught out. She’s hesitant to do anything. To speak. Desperately trying to remember how she used to act. Everything she did all those years ago, so she doesn’t alter the course of events.
But after a few hours, once they’ve arrived, set up their tent…
It’s nice. Nostalgic. She misses this. Being so carefree. She can appreciate everyone so much more. Little conversations with Harry.
Seeing Cedric Diggory is…
And Fred! She can barely tear her eyes from the twins.
Part of her wants to…
No. No changes. For now, push the thought away. Get through the day.
Enjoy the day. It won’t be long before the happy bubble is burst anyway, when the Death Eaters arrive.
So when Harry offers to buy her and Ron omnioculars from one of the stalls, she just smiles and nods.
“Three pairs,” Harry says firmly from her side, already handing over some galleons.
“No—” Ron jumps in awkwardly. “Don’t bother…”
He’s going red. Thumbs resting in his empty pockets. He’s already spent all of his savings on a dancing shamrock hat, a green rosette, and a miniature Viktor Krum figurine.
Oh Ron. This year really is going to be tough.
Harry just shakes his head, thrusting the omnioculars at him and Hermione. “You won’t be getting anything for Christmas. For ten years, mind,” he jokes light-heartedly.
Ron grins. Takes a pair. “Fair enough.”
Hermione resists the urge to hug them. Adorable. They’re so young and adorable. And maybe Harry is a little more observant than she remembered.
“Ooh, thanks, Harry! And I’ll get us some programs, look…” She hands over some knuts for the programs. So she has something to pretend to read. And can check for any alterations to the timeline. She hasn’t spotted any so far, other than the conversation with Ginny this morning and a few comments on her ‘summer growth spurt’.
They begin to make their way back to the tent. The match will start soon.
Ron catches her eye. She leafs through a program.
Time to think. Next step. Soon they’ll be up in the box, watching the match. So she has to sit in the right place. Make sure that Winky is behind them with the invisible Barty Crouch Junior. That no-one accidentally uncovers him.
She swallows uncomfortably. But nods to herself. She’s made up her mind. So far…the best thing to do is make sure everything happens exactly as it should. Even though it’s horrible, even if it will mean a future where Harry will be terrified in that graveyard, a future where Cedric Diggory will die, where Fred will eventually die…
It’s the best option. Because it’s Hermione’s future. One where she knows, for a fact, that they win. Whatever happens, Harry lives. The light wins.
And until Hermione figures out how she got here, or how to get back, the best thing to do is keep a low profile, and make sure everything goes as planned.
Hermione jumps as a loud gong sounds from the woods, and red and green lights fill the air. She reaches for her wand, eyes scanning the tree line for black cloaks and—
Mr Weasley comes out of the tent next to them, Irish flag draped over his shoulders, Ginny and the others following after him, all wearing green rosettes.
“It’s time!” Mr Weasley announces excitedly. “Come on, let’s go!”
Hermione lets out a quiet breath and stores her wand up her sleeve, giving Harry a reassuring look as his forehead crinkles for a second. He noticed. Noticed her reaction.
She reaches past him to adjust Ron’s hat before it dances off his head, and then grabs Harry’s arm. “That made me jump. I guess I’m a bit on edge! It’s so exciting, isn’t it?
Harry still doesn’t seem convinced, but Ron laughs. “You’re excited? About quidditch? Finally! Did you hear that, Harry? Only took four bloody years!”
Hermione follows along next to him, rolling her eyes. “I meant the atmosphere. And I do appreciate the talent that comes with quidditch. The strategy, and the physical dedication. I just don’t see why it’s so celebrated compared to other specialisms such as—"
Ginny comes up to her and wraps an Irish-green scarf around her neck. And her mouth. “Two weeks. Two weeks, Hermione, and you’ll be back writing essays. Until then, the topic is quidditch. Use that brain for the power of good and talk gameplay with me. See, I reckon if they send Moran after Levski, then…”
Hermione chuckles and leans against her. Lets her friends voices wash over her, and pays a bit more attention to the players. She knows a few of them from the future, the best ones still around, some even friends with Ginny now, or friends of Viktor.
Viktor. Now that’s going to be strange. Seeing his face everywhere has brought back so many memories. Some a bit embarrassing.
That kiss at the Yule Ball. No chemistry whatsoever. And they’d both known instantly. Pulled back and laughed. She’d even shaken his hand. Friends. Definitely better off as friends.
Not that she usually has much chemistry with anyone, to be honest. It’s why she’s given up on dating. Tries not to think about it. Friendship is fine, but anything past that and…well first Viktor…then she realised it felt the same way with Ron…
And after a few dates here and there…
She shakes herself from her thoughts. Not the time. Dating should be the last thing on her mind. Especially as everyone thinks she’s fifteen.
She jogs to catch up with the boys and Ginny, who are beginning to climb the stands two steps at a time in their eagerness. The background hum of the crowd is a roar now, lights flashing and magic buzzing through the air. Crackling. Hermione can feel the hairs on the back of her neck stand on end as she takes it all in. Magic. Everything is so much—
She comes to an abrupt stop as they reach the box.
Her stomach flips.
Because sat one row behind Arthur and the twins…are the Malfoys. Already in their seats.
But Winky isn’t there. There’s no house-elf.
Just Lucius, Draco, and Narcissa Malfoy. All glaring and looking as if the Weasleys brought a disgusting smell into the box with them.
“Excuse me, sweetheart,” a voice comes from behind Hermione.
She turns. Cringes as Cornelius Fudge gives her a condescending look.
She’s blocking the stairway.
She makes her feet walk her forward and falls down next to Ginny in the front row, muttering out an apology. She can’t do much else but…
Changed. Something changed.
So…is Crouch even here? Where is he? What…
She turns around in her seat to watch as Lucius introduces his family to the Minister and the Bulgarian delegates. Definitely no house-elf. Just the three Malfoys on one side, a couple of empty seats behind Harry and Ginny, the aisle, and then where Fudge, Ludo Bagman and the Bulgarians are getting settled.
Or maybe the seats just seem empty. Maybe Winky and Crouch are both invisible.
Her hand drifts to her sleeve. Her wand. She thinks she might be able to perform an homenum revelio without anyone noticing if she’s quick.
And then she freezes as Narcissa Malfoy’s gaze fixes on hers. A curl to her lip that becomes a sneer of disgust. Hatred. Pure hatred and anger. Hermione feels her face heat up with the shame of it. It’s been a long time since someone looked at her like that.
But she glares back. She won’t back down to bigotry. Never has.
And she thinks about how much she pities them. She does. She really pities them. How far they’re about to fall, with nothing to pick them back up. These Malfoys and their glass houses.
“Slimy gits,” Ron mutters, loud enough for the sound to carry, and Ginny pulls her around to face the field just as Ludo Bagman charges into the box.
“Everyone ready?” he calls jovially. “Minister, everyone ready to go?”
“Ready when you are, Ludo,” Fudge says comfortably.
And Bagman pulls out his wand, casting a sonorous. “Ladies and gentleman…welcome! Welcome to the final of the four-hundred and twenty second Quidditch World Cup!”
The spectators scream and clap, flags waving and voices soaring as each national anthem blurs together in a cacophony of noise. Hermione grips her seat as her thoughts whirl, outside world disappearing.
If Crouch doesn’t steal Harry’s wand, he won’t escape. Won’t cast the Dark Mark. Won’t impersonate Moody and put Harry’s name in the Goblet.
Everything will change. A horrifying ripple effect.
Bagman’s booming voice manages to drift past her thoughts. “…the Bulgarian National Team Mascots!”
Arthur leans forward. “I wonder what they’ve brought— ah!”
And he whips off his glasses, rubbing at them and looking away. “Veela!”
“What are…” Harry starts to ask. Then abruptly stops as the Veela fly into the stadium.
His face goes slack and dopey, as does Ron’s. The other wizards have looked away, knowing what was coming. Hermione glances around. Even Lucius Malfoy is studying the floor. Narcissa is holding her hand over Draco’s eyes, turning to further block his view as he tries to pull her hand away.
And that’s when Hermione sees it.
A hand.
A hand appears, from nowhere. From mid-air, just over the seat next to Narcissa Malfoy.
And as Harry stands up…the hand reaches forward carefully, clasps the end of Harry’s wand, and deftly slips it from his back pocket. There and gone in an instant. Disappeared.
Oh.
Hermione knows she should look away. Knows she just witnessed something she definitely wasn’t supposed to see.
Crouch? Is Crouch there? Invisible? Sat next to Narcissa Malfoy?
Except…
Well, she might have imagined it, but the hand looked…small. Feminine.
And strangely familiar. How could it be familiar? If it isn’t Crouch, who could it be?
Lucius Malfoy looks up.
Hermione hastily turns around. Grabs hold of Harry as he tries to climb over the edge. “Harry? What are you doing?”
Harry just gapes at her like a confused fish, one leg hanging in the air.
Hermione tugs him back into his seat with a tut. “Honestly.” Hormones sending Harry plummeting to his death is the last thing they need right now.
Because if something has changed…then things are even more complicated than they first appeared. Winky isn’t here. Isn’t guarding Barty Crouch. Which means this is not the fourth year that Hermione remembers.
She can’t have changed that. Not from anything she’s done today. There’s no way her actions could have changed these course of events.
Which means…
This isn’t just a different time. This is a different world. Just slightly.
And if one thing is different…
Then Hermione can’t be certain of anything. Who knows what will happen? What other changes might suddenly appear?
She glances sideways at her friends as the match begins. Their young, smiling faces.
Grips Ginny’s hand tightly.
First priority, then. Figuring out how she got here can wait. The first thing she needs to do, is to keep them safe. Figure out what’s changed. What will be the same, and what will be different.
How to get things back to how they’re supposed to be.
And that begins with finding out who is sat behind her, with Harry’s wand in their hand.
Chapter 2: Follow Closely
Notes:
Hi folks!
Wow, your response to this has been amazing, thank you so much! I couldn't keep you waiting for long, so here's another chapter.
Oh, and this does overlap with canon, so some dialogue has been stolen. Anything you recognise doesn't belong to me!
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Hermione remains tense for the rest of the match, unable to ignore the hidden figure sat behind her.
It could be Crouch. The more time passes, the less she’s sure about that hand. It would make sense if it was him. Then there would only be one difference. No house-elf.
And wizards can sometimes have small hands. She’s never actually met Barty Crouch. He was disguised as Moody the whole time, and then died from the Kiss. Maybe she’s overthinking it. Maybe he just has slender fingers and is relatively small in stature.
By the end of the match, she’s itching to turn around. Casually drop something behind her. Then it would land on the person. Reveal them.
Bad idea. Don’t change time even more just because you’re so impatient.
So when Viktor catches the snitch, finally ending the match, Hermione jumps to her feet in relief.
“Ireland wins!” Bagman bellows, wand pointed at his throat. “Krum gets the snitch…but Ireland wins! Good lord, I don’t think any of us were expecting that!”
No, and neither were you Hermione thinks, wishing she could warn the twins that they were about to get leprechaun gold as their winnings. Another reason to make sure Harry still wins the tournament. So the twins can open their joke shop. People need laughter and a bit of mischief to—
Oh, ouch! She forgot about poor Viktor.
She steps closer to the edge, omnioculars in hand. Did he always get that hurt? His nose looks broken. “He was very brave, wasn’t he? He looks a terrible mess,” she comments to the others, watching Viktor refuse help from the mediwizards and witches as he sulks and bats the flying leprechauns away. He seems young too now. His brooding obviously embarrassment. Anger. Awkward with the attention.
“And as the Irish team performs a lap of honour, flanked by their mascots, the Quidditch Cup is brought into the Top Box!”
What?
Oh!
Hermione quickly sits back down, blinking awkwardly in the floodlights as their box is illuminated for all to see.
She turns to face the other direction, not enjoying all the omnioculars now pointing her way. Watches Fudge instead as he stands to accept the cup from two panting runners who have carried it up the steps.
Cameras flash. The Bulgarian ministers put on diplomatic, congratulatory smiles. The Malfoys preen at the attention.
Or two of them do. Narcissa still looks like she’s swallowed a lemon, even as she gets to her feet…
Gets to her feet, and moves over in front of the chair to her right. The one with the invisible person.
Hermione smiles and claps with everyone else as her mind whirs. Is the person there? Have they left? Surely Narcissa would be standing against them if—
“And let’s have a really loud hand for the gallant losers! Bulgaria!” Bagman announces.
The Bulgarian players fly over and climb into the box, one by one going up to shake Fudge’s hand despondently. More and more file in. There isn’t much space to hide, if Crouch has wandered off. Is…crouched somewhere.
Hermione looks around for possible hiding spots, moving out of the way as the Irish players begin to arrive, much more jubilantly. Raucously.
Oh. Oh, that’s such a good idea!
She surreptitiously shuffles down the aisle, pretending she’s trying to get closer to the celebrities and get a better view.
And backs into the row behind them. Moves closer to the two ‘empty’ seats. It won’t look too strange. She’s just making room. And if she just happens to get close enough to the seat behind Harry to—
“What do you think you are doing?” a voice hisses close to her ear from behind her.
Hermione jumps.
Turns to meet angry eyes. Grits her teeth. “I’m just giving the players some space, Mrs Malfoy. I have as much a right to be here as—”
A wand digs into her side, hidden from view, just below the heights of the seats. “You have no right. None,” Narcissa whispers steely. “These seats belong to us. Get back where you belong.”
Wha—
She has some nerve! Threatening her? In front of everyone? With all the cameras, and spectators and—
Spectators. People are watching.
Hermione reaches down and firmly pulls Narcissa’s hand away from her. “Careful, Mrs Malfoy. Wouldn’t want to show the world your hand too soon,” she can’t help but bite back.
Narcissa’s eyes narrow. “Oh I believe I’ve made myself perfectly clear. You’ll see very soon. And if you know what’s good for you, you’ll get away whilst you still can.”
And she pulls her hand back, shoving Hermione away. “Be careful, girl! You’re stepping on my robes!” she sniffs more loudly. Haughtily. Casts a cleaning charm at herself and moves back, closer to Draco.
And as she goes…glances at the empty seats. Just quickly. Hermione wouldn’t have noticed if she hadn’t been looking for it.
A glance.
Hermione backs out of the row, not wanting anyone else to start paying her any attention. Paying any of this any attention.
A stray glance…
These seats belong to us.
These seats. The Malfoys paid for the empty seats.
So that means—
Harry throws an arm over her shoulder. Leans to whisper in her ear. “You alright? Draco’s mum didn’t do anything, did she?”
Hermione blinks at him. Quickly shakes her head. “No. Nothing much. Guess she just didn’t like someone like me getting too close to her.”
Harry ducks his head awkwardly. “Oh. Look, Hermione, you know you’re like, the best witch in the whole school, right? And that everything they say is—”
She smiles at him. “I know. A load of pureblood rot. It’s fine. It honestly doesn’t bother me. They’re just ignorant. I feel sad for them.”
Harry frowns, nodding to himself. “Yeah. They must be…pretty pathetic to believe all that. I mean, Draco should know better after seeing everything you can do. Bet the prat’s just jealous.”
Hermione laughs. “Don’t let him hear you say that. Now come on. We’d better get Ron away from Viktor before he pounces on him.” She can spot Ron edging over behind Harry, quill in his hand and taking a program from Ginny to start asking for autographs.
Harry gives her an odd look and then turns around. “Viktor? Since when do you call quidditch players by their first names? But— he really should leave him alone. I know what it’s like when— Hey, Ron! Come on, let’s go celebrate! Did you see Fred snuck some firewhisky into the tent and—”
“Firewhisky?!” Percy squawks, popping out of the crowd from nowhere. “Underage drinking is a serious issue, Potter. Something which I do not condone under any circumstances, celebratory or otherwise,” he says overly loudly, looking at the Minister.
Mr Weasley pats him on the back good-naturedly as everyone ignores him. “Well said. But come on, think it’s time for us to get out of here. Time to go, you lot. I’m sure everyone has their own celebrating to get to. Come on now, Ron, leave that young chap in peace. You too, Ginny. I see you there. Now where is— Ah, Bill, lead the way, would you?”
Shoot. Leaving already? But what about…
Hermione hangs back. Pretends to tie her shoe.
Keeps glancing at the Malfoys. What are they hiding? Who are they hiding?
Ron hangs back with her. “Good idea, catch them on the way out. Hey, you’re a girl, they might pay more attention to you. Think you could like…bat your eyes at them or something?”
What?!
Hermione straightens and folds her arms. “Bat my eyes? What— no! Of course I’m not going to— What does that even mean? When have you ever seen me…flirt?”
Ron raises his hands in surrender. “Okay, okay. I dunno, alright. Just thought— it’s something witches can do. Thought you could just…smile at them, maybe. You have a nice smile.”
Oh.
Hermione sighs. Tucks her hair behind her ears awkwardly. “Thank you. But…it’s not very me. Flirting. I’m just as…clueless as you are. You can just talk to them the same as I would, and…”
She’s distracted as she spots Lucius introducing Draco to Viktor. She never knew that happened. Has that changed too?
She looks at Ron. Makes a decision.
Trust him. If she really is stuck in the past, then she’s going to have to build some trust this year. She knows Ron can be rational. The Ron in the future is so clever. And sensible. He can do this, if he doesn’t let his insecurities get in the way.
She can’t have him feeling left out, with her or Harry. She’s not having them fall out again if she can help it. Things have already changed. She might as well make things easier for herself.
So she moves closer to whisper to him. To confide in him. “I think the Malfoys are up to something. I can’t explain it, but…Draco’s mum. Narcissa. She’s hiding something, I’m sure of it.”
Ron frowns. Turns and stares—
Hermione tugs him back around. “Don’t look! It’s too suspicious. Just…go back to the others and say I left my purse behind and I’ll catch up. I can stay here and— Oh shoot, she’s leaving!”
Narcissa is slipping towards the exit. And she does look suspicious! She is definitely—
“See!” she hisses to Ron. “Why is she looking around like that? What’s she up to?”
Ron nods, and they both edge their way to the end of the row. “Don’t know, but you’re right. She’s walking weirdly too. She normally like…glides, doesn’t she? That sounds stupid. It’s probably nothing. Maybe she just really has to pee, I know I do.”
Hermione looks at him in surprise. Glides?
He looks away. Rubs at the back of his neck uncomfortably.
Hermione catches his eye. “No, you’re right. I hadn’t even thought of that. She does usually move more fluidly.”
Ron’s shoulders fall slightly in relief. “Yeah. That’s what I meant. Walks all proper.”
They start following Narcissa down the steps, about a staircase behind so it’s not too strange. “So…what do you think she’s doing?” he whispers.
Hermione pulls out her wand. Casts a muffiliato. “I can’t explain completely right now. I’ll have to tell you more once we’re somewhere private, and we can tell Harry too. But there’s…I think she might be hiding someone. An invisible person. I saw someone take Harry’s wand.”
“What?!” Ron shouts. Pulls them to a stop. “Why didn’t you say!” he says more quietly. “Someone stole Harry’s wand?”
Hermione gives him a firm look. “Later. I’ll explain later. It’s dangerous. Until we know for sure who it is, we have to be discrete. Not let them know we know. Now come on, before she gets away. Or— maybe you should go find Harry before he comes looking for us.”
They carry on down the last few flights. “Are you sure that’s a good idea?” Ron asks. “Going alone? What if Malfoy shows up? I mean Lucius Malfoy. He’s a nasty piece of work.”
Hermione shakes her head. “I’ll be fine. I know spells to hide.”
“Or we could go back for Harry’s cloak?”
Narcissa turns right, heading into the woods without a backward glance. Hermione falters, torn.
A cloak would be good. Concealment charms might not be enough.
But there isn’t time. She has no idea where Narcissa is headed, or even where the Malfoy’s tent is. Although she could probably guess. Look for the biggest one.
Did they even stay overnight in a tent? Or did they apparate in?
Oh gods, what if Narcissa has already disapparated—
Hermione shoves Ron towards the path. “Go back to the others. Tell them I’m catching up, and see if you can explain to Harry a little bit if you can. He doesn’t have his wand, so watch out for him. Something bad might happen so— I’ll see you later!”
And before he can protest, she taps herself on the head, the familiar feeling of a cold, raw egg sliding down over her as the concealment charm falls into place.
“Hermione!” he hisses, eyes darting around for her.
She just heads off between the trees, wand in her hand. It’s dusk now. But she can’t exactly cast a lumos.
Does Narcissa have night vision or something? This is ridiculous.
She fumbles her way over a few roots, feeling out for ditches and rabbit holes.
Oh.
She ducks behind a tree. There’s a light ahead. So Narcissa has given in and used a lumos to light her way.
She sneaks closer, making sure to stick to the shadows. She thinks she must still be close to the path. Parallel, but hidden behind the trees. Narcissa must be heading back to the campsite.
Voices.
Hermione stops. Holds her breath. Yes. Yes, there are definitely voices ahead now. She can’t quite make out…
She edges closer. Towards white wand light.
“…and that’s my final word on the matter. We have not waited this long just for you to—”
And Hermione’s breath is stolen from her lungs as cackling laughter filters through the trees towards her.
She covers her mouth in horror. No. No, it can’t be—
“Waited? That’s what you call it?” a witch’s voice replies harshly. Followed by more laughter. Low and rough this time. “This isn’t waiting. This is dying. A never-ending agony. And I might have given my word, but this is my decision to make. Enough. I’ve been patient with you, Cissy. But it’s worn out. Enough now. It’s my turn. Even if it means going back.”
Hermione grabs hold of a tree to support herself as her knees almost give out in shock. That voice.
That hand. She’d recognised— she remembers—
The voices fall quiet once more, and Hermione dazedly drags herself closer. Pulling herself from one tree to the next. Has to see. Has to be sure—
“…sister?” Narcissa finishes saying, her voice an almost whisper. Oddly flat. “You can only accomplish this if—”
“Stupefy.”
There’s a dull thud, only a few metres away from Hermione now. She swallows harshly. Grips tightly at the tree she’s reached, and ever so slowly peeks around.
There. A figure lying crumpled on the floor, just about visible in the fading light. Blonde hair glinting.
And another figure crouched at her side. Her polar opposite. Dark hair and black dress blending into the surrounding shadows.
“Obliviate,” Bellatrix whispers, brushing some hair off her sister’s forehead.
Then jumps to her feet. Spins around, wand held aloft.
And casting light over herself. A bright, shining lumos, beaming out of Harry’s wand like a headlight, painting the forest scene in harsh, stark lines of light and shadow. It lights up the dark witch. Glowing skin. High cheekbones. Hooded eyes that scan around her. Her eyes are the only sign of movement now, the rest of her held firm. Perfectly still. Seeming not to breathe, all of her focus channelled into her search.
Hermione flinches back out of sight. Stays desperately still and tries to calm her thundering heart.
Closes her eyes. Can’t bear it.
It’s her. It’s Bellatrix. She’s— she’s not in Azkaban. She’s here. Right here. And she’s armed, and she’s looking right at—
Distant screams and shouts filter through the air. A sudden glow through the trees, not harsh and white but warm. Orange and smelling like smoke.
Birds begin to squawk and flap from the trees. Flying away. Escape. Danger. Danger is coming. Is here.
And Hermione flees too. Doesn’t think. Just runs as fast as she can.
Towards the glow. Towards the screams. Towards the campsite, and the Death Eaters, and her friends who are helpless children in this burgeoning war.
She hears crashing behind her through the undergrowth. Doesn’t look back. Doesn’t dare. Feels her back pricking with sweat and her wand slip slightly in her grip as her fingers tingle, numbing.
Get away.
Fight.
Run.
Form a shield. Find a weapon.
Get to the tent.
Hide in the woods.
But the woods aren’t safe now. There’s a demon in the woods. A nightmare. A ghost. A boggart. A—
“Hello?” a voice calls cautiously.
Hermione stumbles to a stop. Harry?
“Who’s there?” Harry calls again, and she can see him now. Him and Ron, getting to their feet in a nearby clearing and moving towards her.
She walks quickly to join them. “It’s me. Come on, quickly. We have to—”
“Hermione! Thank Merlin you’re okay, there’s a riot or something at the camp. They’ve captured these muggles and—”
No!
She stumbles closer and pushes a hand over Harry’s mouth. He said her name. He—
There’s a rustling right behind them now, through the bushes. Hermione grabs hold of Harry’s jacket and Ron’s arm and urges them away, mouth not even able to form words as—
Harry looks over her shoulder, eyes wide.
“Morsmordre!” comes Bellatrix’s excited shout.
And a green, glittering light bursts forth behind the treeline, erupting into the darkness and then up over the trees into the night sky. The Dark Mark. Glowing high above them.
Hermione watches in horror as the boys just stand there looking at it. She tugs at them. They have to move. Bellatrix is right behind them, just out of sight. Right there. She’s right here and—
“Who’s there?” Harry calls again innocently, ignoring Hermione and peering behind her in Bellatrix’s direction.
“Harry, come on, move!” she calls desperately, tugging at the collar of his jacket.
And feels the concealment charm trickle off of her. She forgot about that. Thank Merlin.
Harry finally looks at her. Can see her. Takes in her expression. “What’s the matter?
“It’s the Dark Mark! You Know Who’s sign!” she croaks out, pulling at him with all her might. They have to go! Bellatrix could come out and kill them any second!
“Voldemort’s— Harry, come on!” Ron shouts, scooping up his dropped Viktor Krum figurine and leading them across the clearing, Harry finally running with them as—
Popping sounds fill the air. About twenty witches and wizards apparating into existence all around them, wands drawn and pointing—
“Duck!” Harry yells, dragging them all to the ground.
“Stupefy!” about twenty voices call out in unison, red lights sizzling through the air over their heads.
“Stop!” a voice yells. “Stop! That’s my son!”
Arthur. Thank goodness. He’s still there. Still here.
Hermione slowly sits up. Checks that Ron and Harry are still alright. They seem fine. Okay. Okay—
“Ron. Harry— Hermione?” Mr Weasley says shakily, coming towards them. “Are you all— all alright?”
“Out of the way, Arthur,” Barty Crouch Senior clips, coming towards them. So he’s still here. That hasn’t changed…
Why? Why is Bellatrix—
Bellatrix! They need to catch her!
Hermione hurriedly gets to her feet. “It came from over there!” she interrupts, pointing to where Bellatrix had been. “There was someone behind the trees. They shouted a word. An incantation—”
“Oh, stood over there, were they?” Crouch practically spits at Hermione, eyes wide and bulging as he takes her in. Takes in all three of them suspiciously. “Said an incantation, did they? You seem very well informed about how that Mark was summoned, Miss…who are you?”
Uh oh. He’s looking at her even more closely. And— she forgot! She looks older! Like an adult!
Mr Weasley clears his throat. “She’s one of my son’s friends. Hermione Granger. They’re about to go into fourth year at Hogwarts, Mr Crouch.”
Crouch’s eyebrows pinch. He takes a step back.
Another wizard edges towards where Hermione pointed, wand at the ready. “I saw a stunner head this way. It could have got them…”
“Amos, be careful!” a witch calls.
Oh. Mr Diggory.
Hermione readies her own wand. If Bellatrix is still there, she could catch him by surprise and…
“No luck. No-one here,” Amos Diggory sighs disappointedly as he parts the bushes. “They must have…There’s a wand!”
Oh no…
He holds it up.
“Hey! That’s my…wand,” Harry trails off uncomfortably.
“Your wand?” Amos says sharply. “Is that a confession? You threw it aside after you summoned the Dark Mark?”
“Amos, remember who you’re talking to! Would Harry Potter have conjured the Dark Mark?” Arthur says exasperatedly.
“Oh. Er…Sorry. Must have got carried away,” Mr Diggory mumbles.
“I…didn’t drop it there anyway,” Harry says haltingly, glancing at Ron and then Hermione. “Think it slipped out of my pocket a while ago, during the match, I’ve been looking for it.”
“During the match?” Diggory frowns, looking at Harry’s wand and then handing it back to him, Harry sliding it straight back in his pocket.
Hermione nods. “It wasn’t Harry. It was someone else. We heard them.”
“Yeah, sounded like a witch,” Ron adds.
Hmm. Should he have said that? This might complicate things if—
Harry agrees. “Definitely a witch. I saw—”
“Halt!” Diggory suddenly shouts, interrupting and looking further behind the bushes, wand raised once more. “Who goes there?! Who— Oh blimey.”
And Narcissa Malfoy stumbles into the clearing, looking around dazedly.
Oh no…
“Mrs Malfoy!” Barty Crouch snaps, walking closer, wand directed at Narcissa and smiling sharply, eyes lighting up in triumph. “Could you explain what you are doing here?”
Narcissa blinks. Looks around.
Sees all of the wands pointed at her and reaches into her robes.
Wands raise—
“Stop!” Hermione shouts, stepping in front of Narcissa. “She seems confused! Can’t you see? She’s not threatening you!”
It’s not Narcissa’s fault that she’s been obliviated! If twenty stupefies hit her, it could kill her!
“Step out of the way, girl. This is a Ministry investigation—”
“What is…might someone explain what is happening?” Narcissa asks timidly. “Where…how did I get here?”
Wands begin to lower.
Arthur cautiously steps closer. Looks over Hermione’s shoulder at Narcissa.
“It could be a trap,” Diggory whispers to him. “You know Malfoy—”
“Do you know your name?” Arthur gently asks Narcissa, searching her eyes.
Hermione moves sideways slightly.
Narcissa frowns. Rubs at her face. “I…yes, of course I do. Why would I not know my name?”
Arthur glances at the other wizards and witches, a concerned look forming. “Then…what is it?”
Narcissa’s eyes dart back and forth. She looks at Arthur. Then Mr Diggory. Then Hermione. “I…Mrs Malfoy.”
“…and your first name?” Arthur insists.
Narcissa begins to look panicked. Her eyes dart to everyone. To—
She points at Harry. “He’s Potter. He— there’s— there’s a war. Some kind of— Where’s my family? Where are we? I don’t—”
She grabs hold of Hermione. “Who are they?” she whispers in her ear. “I’m not— I’m not telling them anything! Why should I—”
Touching Hermione? Okay, something is definitely wrong. How strong was that obliviate spell? How much did Bellatrix erase? Should Hermione tell anyone? There’s a Death Eater on the loose! What if Bellatrix kills someone?
Her stomach twists anxiously. It somehow feels...wrong to tell them what she saw. Dangerous. Risky. Not when she knows so little about what's going on.
“The Granger girl’s right, Barty. Definitely signs of a memory charm,” a witch says firmly. “We should get her to St Mungo’s. Mrs Malfoy? It’s alright. I know you’re confused, but we can help you. If you come to—”
Barty Crouch grabs Narcissa’s arm. “Mrs Malfoy will be coming with us. She’s been found at the scene of the crime, and her behaviour is suspicious to say the least. I’m sure a night in Azkaban will jog her memory quite—”
“No!” Narcissa shrieks in pure terror. “I won’t— Get away! Get— don’t take me— Please!”
She pushes at Crouch and turns to Hermione. “What did I do? What’s happening? You— you have to— Don’t let them take me! I’ll die! I’ll die if I—”
“Stupefy,” Crouch says firmly.
Narcissa slumps. Hermione catches her, Harry jumping to help too. “Why did you do that?” he asks. “She was scared!”
“She’s Lucius Malfoy’s wife!” Crouch smiles sharply. “I knew it. I never believed that nonsense about an imperius curse. And here we are. At the scene of the crime.”
“Mr Crouch, she was clearly distressed. Are you suggesting she modified her own memory?” Mr Weasley asks cautiously, casting a featherlight charm on Narcissa and taking her from Hermione and Harry.
“Of course she was distressed!” Diggory says. “She knew she was off to Azkaban. That her memory charm trick wasn’t working, and she’d been caught out in her support for You Know Who, just like her sister!”
“Sister?” Ron asks. “Who’s her sister?”
Mr Weasley hands Narcissa over to some aurors uncomfortably, giving Mr Diggory a quieting look. “Never mind that now. I should get these lot back to the tent and check on my other children.”
He starts to usher them away. Hermione tries to stall. This is all wrong. This didn’t happen. And she might dislike Narcissa, but she doesn’t deserve this. “Mr Weasley, they can’t lock her up! She’s had her memory erased. Like Professor Lockhart. They need to help her.”
Mr Weasley sighs tiredly. “I know, Hermione. But that’s for the Wizengamot to decide. I’m sure a trial will sort this all out. They’ll find evidence and—”
Oh!
Hermione comes to a stop. “That’s it! Harry! Give me your wand! Mr Crouch! Mr Crouch, wait!”
She snatches Harry’s wand as he holds it out and jogs back to the group of witch’s and wizards. “You should perform prior incantato! Then you’ll know what Harry’s wand was used for!”
Crouch sneers at her. Spits out the spell, tip of his wand to Harry’s.
“Morsmordre…” Harry’s wand echoes quietly.
Hermione grins. “See? That proves Mrs Malfoy didn’t do it! She must have been obliviated before this was cast.”
Crouch folds his arms. “Proves? It proves nothing, Girl. Or have you forgotten that Mrs Malfoy has a wand of her own?”
Oh. Shoot. Yes, she could have…
But did she?
Hermione frowns. “Is she armed? I didn’t see a wand. Even when you grabbed her, she didn’t use a wand.”
“Uhh…she’s right, Mr Crouch,” an auror calls. “The lady’s unarmed. We’ve searched her.”
Unarmed…
Hermione swallows. Bellatrix. Bellatrix must have taken her wand too. Used Harry’s to disarm her sister, but taken Narcissa’s to use.
How horrible. And selfish. So she’s taken her sister’s memories, left her alone and confused, framed her for her own crimes, and left her unarmed to get arrested?
Cruel. Bellatrix is so cruel. Even to her own family.
Harry comes around next to her and takes his wand back. “Come on, Hermione,” he says softly. “We need to see if Ginny and the others are okay.”
She nods to herself. Looks around at all the witches and wizards.
At Narcissa Malfoy lying unconscious on the floor once again.
It’s fine. She recognises some of these people. They’re…rational, right? Good people? Like Mr Diggory. And Amelia Bones is still alive. So she’ll be in charge. She’ll make sure this is…a fair investigation.
Won’t she?
Hermione turns her back, and walks away towards Ron and Arthur. Ignores the guilt churning in her stomach. Tries to forget the fear in Narcissa’s eyes as she’d clutched at her shoulders like a lifeline.
Left lying on the floor. Surrounded by enemies. And Hermione is doing nothing. Leaving her there. Even though she knows she was telling the truth. It was Bellatrix’s fault.
It was Bellatrix.
Chapter 3: Pause to Reflect
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Hermione spends the whole night tossing and turning, sick to her stomach with fear, and indecision, and guilt, and just…
This isn’t fair! They won the war! This is over. Why is she back again? Back again…and just as confused as the first time, nothing quite making sense. Yet another mystery to unravel, but none of the childhood naivety to quell the panic. Hundreds of possibilities keep unfolding in her mind. Everything that could go wrong. Everything that’s already gone horrifically wrong.
The weight of it is suffocating.
And as selfish as it is…she doesn’t want to bear this alone. And— and she knows that her friends are children now, but they’re still those familiar faces that she trusts more than anyone in the world. More than the Ministry. More than the adults that should be protecting them, but never seem to understand until it’s too late. Every time.
It’s always been her. And Harry. And Ron.
But they’re so young. Didn’t even know what the Mark was. At dinner, Harry asked Mr Weasley what a Death Eater was. It’s not fair. She shouldn’t put this on them.
She already has.
But time travel? The future?
They have to understand the severity. To keep them safe. Keeping them in the dark only ever made it worse.
She sits up, wand still in her grip. Digging in from where she’s been clutching it all night. This is useless. No sleep for her tonight.
She gets up. Rubs at her face and tiptoes past Ginny and over to the kitchen to make a pot of tea. Moves to the entrance to the tent whilst it boils.
Peeks out. All is still.
She casts the wards anyway. A buried reflex, this tent and these wards. Protego totalum. Salvio hexia. Cave inimicum.
She wraps her arms around herself. Steps back inside. Wanders over to the kitchen, eyes drifting over Ginny, Harry, Ron, the twins…
Sits down at the table.
They’ll be leaving soon. As soon as they can. Back to the Burrow. But she’ll take a few moments of peace before she has to make a decision.
She wonders what’s happening with the Malfoys right now…
Where Bellatrix is. Has she left? Is she already with Voldemort? Has she captured Mad-Eye? Is she brewing polyjuice potion, ready for the year ahead?
Or will that not happen at all? She isn’t Crouch. She might have a completely different plan to get to Harry without anyone noticing. The tournament was a good distraction. A good way for Harry to die tragically without anyone thinking anything of it. But she could do other things. Set the tents alight. Set up a train crash for the Hogwarts Express. Jinx his broom like Quirrell did, or a bludger like Dobby did. She could—
A hand waves in front of Hermione’s face, and she looks up.
Charlie grins at her. “Your teakettle’s starting to sound like a wailing banshee. Think that means it’s ready.”
Oh.
She hovers the water off the stove. Hovers a few mugs over. “Thank you. I was miles away.”
“And using magic outside of Hogwarts...”
Hermione freezes. Oops.
Charlie just shakes his head. Zips his lips shut and hovers the teabags and milk over. “It’s fine. A hover charm never did any harm.” He laughs quietly at his own rhyme. Then laughs again. “Actually, that’s a lie. I got into a lot of trouble as a kid for hovering the gnomes around. I stuck fake wings on them. Pretended they were dragons and followed them around. Observing them, I called it. I was a weird kid.”
Hermione smiles. “Me too,” she says quietly. “But…I think it pays off. I mean, look at you. All that practice obviously worked.”
Charlie sits up straight, mock proudly. “It certainly did. Observation is a key skill with dragons, I’ll have you know. That and a few nifty little tricks.”
Hermione’s head snaps up, tiredness suddenly gone. “Really?” she asks as casually as possible. “How do you control a dragon? It must be difficult, with their spellproof skin. How do you…keep them calm? Or protect yourself if they think you’re a threat?”
Charlie raises an eyebrow. “Protect yourself? You’re not looking to slay a dragon, are you?”
Hermione focuses on pouring them some tea. “Not slay one. I’m just curious what you do, if you can’t use magic. They’re strong animals. Powerful. How do you…show them you don’t mean any harm?”
His eyes seem to sparkle, and he leans closer, sipping at his tea. “Knew you were a smart one. Looks like my little brother’s chosen a good friend in you. See, you’ve got it already. It’s not about controlling the dragon. It’s controlling yourself. Patience. Calm. Feel the magic in the air. Dragons are ancient beings. They know more about magic than we could ever imagine. What do you think fuels their fire? That spark? You have to learn to feel your magic too. Show that you’re at one with it, not controlling it. Not fighting it. That’s what makes some wizards and witches more powerful. An inner power. Some call it confidence. Charisma. Like…Dumbledore. Or Professor McGonagall maybe. Have you ever noticed it? Seen it? Those people who draw the eye of the whole room with their presence? Their magic?”
Hermione stares back at him. Slowly shakes her head in…awe. Complete surprise. Goodness. That’s so…interesting.
Charlie grins. Takes another sip of tea. “Think about it. Try to feel it. I reckon you’ll be able to, soon enough. You have a bit of a presence yourself.”
And he gets up, stretching. Scratches the back of his neck and steps into a pair of boots to head off out into campsite.
Hermione stays sitting at the table.
Well. New conversation with Charlie. Another thing to add to the growing list of differences in this…world. Timeline. Universe.
She doesn’t really want to think about it being a different universe.
Sensing magic. She knows you can feel magic sometimes. When it’s performed on you. Or wards, if they’re strong enough. But she’s never thought about practicing feeling magic. Fascinating.
Well, that’s something to think about that’s a bit more intriguing and less panic inducing.
She sips at her tea. Puts it down.
Casts a bluebell flame. Holds it in her hands.
Feels for her magic.
It wasn’t long before Mr Weasley woke up the others, anxious to leave as soon as possible. They’re almost back at the Burrow by the time the sun is beginning to rise. Trudging along the damp lane and up the garden path to the house.
Molly comes running out. “Oh, thank goodness! Thank goodness!” she cries, hurrying over, still in her slippers and clutching a copy of the Daily Prophet. Scenes of Terror at the Quidditch World Cup and a moving image of the Dark Mark clearly visible on the front page as Mrs Weasley throws it on the floor and rushes to hug the twins. “You’re all alright! Oh boys!”
“Ouch! Mum, you’re strangling us!” one twin complains.
Mrs Weasley just holds them tighter, letting out a sob. “I shouted at you before you left! The last thing I said to you, about not getting enough OWLs. Oh Fred…George…”
Mr Weasley eases her away and walks her into the house, whispering to her.
Hermione swallows harshly. Looks away as a lump forms in her throat. Avoids looking at Fred. Fred. Maybe she can do something about Fred.
Ginny hip bumps her. “You okay?”
Hermione hastily nods. Walks over to the back door. “Yes. Just tired. And missing my…parents, I guess. You’re so lucky that your parents can understand these things. That you can talk to them about…magic. That they understand your world. It’s…it’s a bit tricky having two. Keeping secrets.”
It’s the only explanation she can think of for why she looks upset. And…
She looks over at Ron. Checks that he’s listening too, as he takes off his shoes. Come on, Ron. See what’s good in your life. What you have, that Hermione and Harry don’t. Money and fame aren’t everything.
She’s not sure if he’s listening. But Harry looks like he is. Gives her a half smile.
Ginny gives her a brief hug and kiss on the head and then says something about making her mum a cup of tea, heading inside with the others.
And now Ron and Harry share a look. Ron nods towards the stairs.
Hermione sighs. Nods back. Right. They all need to talk.
“I’m gonna go check and see if Hedwig has arrived, Mr Weasley, if that’s alright?” Harry calls into the kitchen. “I sent a letter, but she hasn’t got back yet.”
“I’ll go with you, Harry. She might be in my room,” Ron calls too.
Hermione just follows them up the stairs. It’s not like they need an excuse to talk to each other.
They race up the few flights of stairs to Ron’s room, and Harry shuts the door behind them. Folds his arms. “Right. Hermione. What’s going on? Because I think you’ve figured out a few things that we don’t know about.”
Hermione sits down on Ron’s bed. Nods to herself.
Looks up at them. Smiles. “So…you know how every year something more and more crazy happens to us? And we always have to figure it out? And…well basically try to keep Harry alive?”
Ron laughs. Sits down next to her. “Well that’s one way of putting it, yeah.”
Hermione pats the bed. Waits for Harry to join them and scoots back so she can look at them both. “Well, this year is going to be even more of a nightmare. But you’re right. I’ve already put a few pieces together. I know who conjured the Dark Mark. And I know why. And…I’m sorry, Harry, but they’re going to try to…use you. Hurt you. They…want you to…they’re working for You Know Who.”
Harry looks down at the bed. Nods to himself, as if he was expecting it. “Right. I thought maybe…I had this dream. It— it made my scar hurt. And He was there. Voldemort.”
The same. It's the same. Just like she'd thought...
Hermione reaches for his hand. “Did he mention a loyal servant? That was coming to help him? Something to do with…Hogwarts maybe? Or the World Cup?”
His head jerks up. “Yeah! How did you— He told Wormtail! That they had to be patient, wait for his most loyal servant to return to him. And they mentioned me. Needing me. Hermione, how did you—”
Ron stands up. “So You Know Who has some psycho supporter that— that’s gonna come after Harry?! We should tell someone! The aurors! Or Dumbledore, or—”
“We don’t have proof, Ron,” Hermione sighs. “We might be able to tell. Once we get to Hogwarts, we could try. I think this supporter is going to go to Hogwarts in disguise. As the new DADA professor. They’ll have to get a new one after Professor Lupin, so it’s the perfect way to get near to Harry, like Quirrell did.”
“…You know who it is, don’t you?” Harry says, frowning at Hermione. “It’s…is it the woman that made the Dark Mark?”
Ron pauses in his pacing. Turns to look at Hermione too. “What happened? After you went after Malfoy’s mum? I mean, it looked like it had to be her. She was there. And she’s a Malfoy, so…but you didn’t think it was her.”
Hermione shakes her head. Wrings her hands together. “It wasn’t her. I— I saw who it was. I saw who obliviated Mrs Malfoy. Like Lockhart tried to do to you. That’s why I knew so quickly what had happened to her. You see, it was Narcissa Malfoy’s sister. She’s the one who stole Harry’s wand. Who was invisible in the Top Box. She’s a Death Eater. Her name is—”
“Bellatrix Lestrange,” Ginny says from the doorway.
They all spin to face her.
Ginny walks into the room and shuts the door behind her. “You lot need to be a bit more careful with your secret conversations, you know.”
“Ginny!” Ron says. “Get out of my room! This is private! It’s nothing to do with you, or—”
“How did you know her name?” Hermione blurts out. Can’t help it. How the hell does Ginny even know Bellatrix exists?
Ginny skips over and perches on the bed next to Hermione, flicking her hair over her shoulders. “The thing with being the youngest? You get good at listening. I was there when you were all talking about Mrs Malfoy during dinner. Didn’t you all notice how funny Dad got when we talked about her going to Azkaban? So I asked Bill. Asked if Dad was worried that Narcissa would break out of Azkaban like Sirius did. And guess what?”
Ron sits down on the floor, rolling his eyes at Ginny’s dramatics. “What? Go on, spit it out if you want to be in on this so bad.”
Ginny grins. Twirls an imaginary moustache. “Well, dear brother, prepare to be amazed. Because I have found out, that Narcissa Malfoy…is Sirius’ cousin!”
Harry’s mouth falls open. “The Malfoys? He didn’t tell me that!”
Ron barks out a laugh. “Harry! You’re related to Malfoy! Gross!”
Harry cringes. “Not by blood! Sirius is family, but he’s not…so…Narcissa Malfoy…was Narcissa Black?”
Ginny nods. “Yep. The Black family. A dark wizarding family. They’re like the Malfoys, but worse. See, Narcissa isn’t Sirius’ only cousin. She has two sisters. One was good, like Sirius. She caused a huge scandal by running away and marrying a muggleborn. Her family disowned her. The Malfoys still don’t even acknowledge her existence. But the other sister…”
Hermione holds her breath, the tension unbearable. Will it be the same? Is the story the same? Is Bellatrix the same?
Ginny continues. “The other sister, was as evil as could be. A dark witch. The darkest witch of our time. She wasn’t just a Death Eater, she was the Death Eater. You Know Who’s right-hand man. Or woman, in this case.”
Ginny stands up. Draws her wand, raising it in a fighting stance. “She was his lieutenant. Devoted to him. And she was deadly. People say no-one fought against her and lived. She could duel three people at the same time and win. She was ruthless. Mad. The sound of her laughter enough to send grown wizards running.”
“And she’s the one coming after Harry?!” Ron squawks.
Ginny pauses. Frowns.
Sits down on the carpet. “No. She’s dead. That’s what Bill told me. They caught her right after You Know Who vanished. She got sent to Azkaban at the same time as Sirius…and she died. Ages ago. Couldn’t fight off the dementors and refused to eat. They think she starved to death.”
Ron flops onto the bed in relief. “Thank Merlin. Cos I don’t think we’re up for that. A battle with a psycho warrior witch? Sirius has some crazy relatives, no offence, Harry.”
Harry doesn’t reply. He looks pale. Resting his head in his hands.
He looks up at Hermione. “Most faithful servant. Mrs Malfoy’s sister,” he says tiredly.
Oh, Hermione just wants to hug him. To tell him it will all be alright. That he doesn’t have to worry. That she’ll protect him. That everything will be okay.
She scoots up next to him on the bed. Leans sideways against him. “Harry…I don’t know how…but it was her. I saw her last night. Her name is Bellatrix Lestrange. I know what she looks like, and I watched her obliviate her sister. I think…I think Mrs Malfoy has been hiding her sister somehow. Somehow got her out of Azkaban and…but Bellatrix got fed up with hiding. They were talking. Arguing. Bellatrix said she’d had enough. And then she stupefied Mrs Malfoy. Obliviated her. When I met you in the woods, I was running away from Bellatrix. I don’t know if she saw me.”
Harry nods against her. “So this is like last year all over again. Another murderer out to get me.”
Hermione squeezes his knee. “Yes. But this is different to last year too. We know what she’s up to. We know who she is. And…”
She takes a deep breath.
Casts a muffiliato charm on the room, and stands up. Walks over to the window and looks out over the fields. “There’s something else. Something I need to tell you all. Something…that I’m trusting you all to know. Because I love all of you. You’re all my family and— and if we’re all going to be safe this year then— then I have to— you need to know—”
She clenches her fists.
Turns to face them. Three curious, waiting young faces, looking up at her.
She holds back the odd urge to cry. “You all trust me, don’t you?” she asks quietly.
They all nod. Instantly. Exchange worried looks.
She smiles through a shaky sigh. “Okay then. Here’s the truth…”
It is a weight lifted off once they know she’s not the real Hermione. Once she’s told them what happened last time, with Moody, and Crouch, and the Goblet of Fire.
But at the same time, it’s agonising. And opens up more questions than she’d anticipated.
“So where’s our Hermione,” Ron asks, still looking at her oddly. “Is she…back in your time? Or world. Right? Different world?”
Hermione taps her wand against her lip and reaches for another sandwich. They’d convinced Mrs Weasley to let them eat in their room so they can rest. “I…suppose. I don’t really know. I just…woke up here. And everything is almost the same. Everything, in fact. Except instead of Barty Crouch, Bellatrix is the one who’s escaped.”
Harry reaches past her to grab an apple. “We’ll need to work out how to get our Hermione back then, once this is all over. But first, we should think of a way to catch Bellatrix before she can put my name in the goblet or bring You Know Who back to life.”
Hermione chokes on her sandwich. Whirls to face him. “No! We can’t trap her. Harry, what Ginny said was true. She’s an insanely powerful witch. No, we have to make sure there’s no way she even suspects you know anything. All three of you. You can’t confront her. Can’t question her. You have to seem completely ignorant. It’s the only way. Because as soon as she knows we know…that’s our advantage blown. Do you see?”
Harry opens his mouth to argue, but Ron lays a hand on his shoulder to stop him. “She’s right, mate. It’s like…a chess game, you know? The only advantage we have, is playing a strategy, and being able to predict some of her moves.”
Hermione grins. “Exactly! And things should go our way. We’ll know as soon as she puts your name in the goblet.”
“Which means I have to fight a ruddy dragon,” Harry complains.
Hermione winces. Yeah. Sorry, Harry. He really does have the worst luck.
“We can prepare,” she reassures him. “I’ll help you. I promise, Harry. You’re not alone with all this. I’m going to keep you safe. None of this is your fault. And I swear, the second you’re in danger, I’ll—”
Harry laughs. “This is so weird. You’re like…really an adult, aren’t you? That’s why you’ve been acting so strange. You keep looking at us like we’re little kids.”
“You are!” Hermione says exasperatedly. Then bites her lip at their offended faces. “To me. Not in a bad way. You’re just young, you know? My friends are ten years older than you. I just think you should all get to…enjoy being teenagers without having to worry about these things. It isn’t fair. On any of you.”
Ginny scoffs. “We’re used to it. There is a Dark Lord on the rise. But it’s fine! We can still have fun. I’m quite looking forward to this tournament. Sounds like nothing too bad will happen until summer.”
“Except fighting a dragon,” Harry jumps in again, but this time a bit more jokingly.
“And dancing,” Ron whines. “A ball. Why us?”
Then he looks up at Hermione, a sudden thought. “You know the future. Which girls should we ask to this dance? No point asking ones that will say no.”
Ginny brightens up too. “Ooh, yes! Who are we all dating ten years in the future?”
Uh oh. Umm…
Hermione stands up, brushing some crumbs off her and vanishing them. “Nope. I’m not telling you about the future-future. It just feels…wrong. I shouldn’t change events that much. Influence you. And my future might not even be your future. So I really don’t—”
“Well, who are you dating?” Ginny prods, actually prodding her as she stands up too. Poking her. “Seeing as it’s a whole different universe, it won’t matter if you tell us.”
Hermione bats her fingers away. “No-one! I’m not— not dating anyone. It’s not really— I mean I’ve— but recently—”
Ginny bursts out laughing. “Oh you’re still so awkward! Even after ten years you won’t talk to me about boys. Not since Lockhart.”
Argkfdg—
Hermione sinks onto the bed in embarrassment, head in her hands.
“Lockhart?” Harry almost whimpers.
“No! I didn’t—” Hermione groans. “I just thought he was clever. I admired him. Until…I was young! I didn’t notice how fake, and phoney and—”
“How much of a complete knob he was?” Ron says.
Hermione looks up, groaning again. “Language, Ronald. But yes.”
They fall into silence. Hermione lies down on the bed. Stares at the ceiling. Should she have told them? They’re not mature enough for all this. Especially Ginny. Still too young to get it.
Although maybe it’s just bravado. Ginny’s always been like that. Ever since Tom Riddle…
“What about Mrs Malfoy?” Harry asks quietly.
Hermione sits up. Looks over at him fondly. His concerned expression.
He shrugs. “She’s a Malfoy, and she’s horrible, but…Azkaban? She’s innocent.”
Hermione can almost see his brain working. The conflict. He still has that good verses evil mindset. Innocent. Guilty. Right and wrong with no overlap.
But he’s starting to understand. He will soon, once he spends more time with Sirius.
Sirius. He’s probably thinking about Sirius too.
Hermione shakes her head. “She is innocent. But…again, this didn’t happen before. I don’t know what’s happening to her. Hopefully…Lucius Malfoy has a way of getting what he wants. His wife was obliviated. That’s enough proof to say she was attacked. Was the victim.”
“Her own sister,” Harry says bitterly. “Sounds like this Bellatrix is just as heartless as You Know Who.”
Hermione starts to nod. Then pauses. That’s not quite right. “I think…no. She’s not like You Know Who, Harry. She’s almost…the opposite of him. He’s…cold. She’s hot.”
Ginny snorts. “She’s hot? Alright, Hermione. Whatever does it for you.”
“Ginny!” Ron shouts. “You shouldn’t— You’re thirteen, don’t say stuff like that! And Hermione wasn’t even saying that!...right, Hermione?”
Hermione feels her face heat up. “Of course not! I didn’t mean— well, she does actually happen to be a very attractive witch...objectively speaking... But— What I meant is that Voldemort is unfeeling. He uses people. Treats people like objects. And Bellatrix…well she kind of does too, seeing as she thinks we’re dirt beneath her feet, but she’s not cold. Not unfeeling. She’s doing all of this out of feeling. Out of passion. That’s what doesn’t make sense!”
She gets to her feet. Begins pacing around the room. “I can’t understand how she’s been in hiding for this long. How Narcissa has been keeping her a secret. Bellatrix could easily overpower Narcissa. And she did. It’s like she was…letting Narcissa hide her. But why? Bellatrix is devoted to the Death Eaters. She’d die for the cause. Why would she not go looking for Voldemort sooner?”
Silence greets her.
She looks around at them.
Harry shrugs. “Dunno. You’re the one that usually figures out this stuff. I’m sure you’ll get it soon. Until then…what’s the plan, Hermione?”
Hermione nods. Right. Don’t get ahead of yourself, Hermione. “The plan is, we go to Hogwarts. We keep our heads down. We do nothing suspicious, and we wait. We wait for proof of what Bellatrix is up to. And we watch each other’s backs. If you do see her getting up to something, then you come to me, okay? You don’t do this alone.”
Ron pulls at some stray loose threads on the carpet. “You say that, but it sounds like you want to do this alone. Like…I dunno, you want to…go after her or something.”
What? That’s ridiculous. She doesn’t want to be anywhere near Bellatrix if she can help it. What does—
“Do you know her somehow?” Harry asks. “Do you want revenge? Did she…do something to one of us?”
Hermione tries to stay neutral. Holds her hand at her side as it itches to come up and touch her arm. The scar.
She shakes her head. “She’s just one of his followers. I’ve heard of her, that’s all. Everyone knows her. She’s infamous. She’s…done a lot of awful things. I just don’t want her hurting anyone.”
They…don’t seem convinced.
She walks over to look out the window again. At the bright blue sky. Nods to herself. “Now come on. Enough of this. I bet you lot are itching to play a game of Quidditch after talking about it non-stop all weekend. How about a friendly game? I’m sure Bill or Charlie and the twins will join in with you.”
She hears movement behind her. “I’ll go get my firebolt!” Harry says excitedly. “Meet you guys outside. You playing, Hermione?”
She turns around and laughs. “Still awful at flying, sorry. I’ll just watch. I’m perfectly happy with a good book, and I actually need to reread some of them. It’s been ages since I studied potions or herbology or—”
Harry and Ron share a look. They’re making fun of her, she just knows it.
Harry shakes his head and makes his way out of the room. “You’ll be fine. Better than fine. You need to practice not using magic.”
He disappears down the stairs. Ginny heads after him. “He’s right. You’ve been using nonverbal magic, Hermione. Might want to stop doing that.”
Oh. Oops.
She checks her wand is still in her pocket. Thinks about maybe leaving it upstairs for a while, get out of the habit of using it for everything.
Doesn’t. Keeps it there. It…still doesn’t feel quite right being unarmed. Just in case. Especially with Bellatrix and Voldemort just…out there.
And maybe Barty Crouch Junior. Where the hell is he?
Ron clears his throat.
Oh. Ron’s still here. Sat on his bed and fiddling with a hole in his Chudley Canons duvet cover. “Guess I’ll go get a few of the old cleansweeps from the shed,” he mutters. “Seeing as not all of us have firebolts.”
Hermione sighs.
Sits down next to him. “Yeah. Harry can be…a little tactless sometimes, can’t he? Doesn’t think about…money. But he means well, Ron. He doesn’t notice…because he doesn’t see it. You know he told me you’re the first family he had? That before your Mum hugged him, he never knew what that was like? Having a mother to care for him? You know, sometimes, he gets jealous of you too.”
Ron looks away. “I’m not jealous. I’m not. Only a dick would be jealous of Harry. He hasn’t got parents. And he’s always got some nutter coming after him. People are always gossiping about him, and staring. Who’d want that?”
Hermione frowns. Searches his face.
Then stands up. “You’re right. You’d have to be a bit of a dick to think he’s better off just because he has a vault full of gold. Money isn’t everything. But it does help. So if you’re ever worried about—”
He glares at her. “We’re fine. We don’t need pity. Didn’t you hear? I’ve got a family. I’ve got brooms too. And a new wand. And Dad knows loads of people at the Ministry. They even interviewed him for the paper last night. And Bill’s a cursebreaker. And Charlie’s a dragonkeeper. We don’t need money. We’re doing fine with what we’ve got.”
Hermione smiles at him. “Exactly,” she says quietly. “Now come on. I’ll show you a few spells to polish and care for the cleansweeps in the shed. Get them up to scratch.”
And she turns and heads off down the stairs. Hears Ron scurry after her. “You know spells for brooms? When did you bloody learn that?”
Hermione laughs. “I learnt from you. You’re all just as obsessed with Quidditch in my time. I know way more about broomsticks and quidditch players than I need to. Guess some of the knowledge has filtered through from you lot and Viktor.”
“Viktor? Viktor Krum?!” Ron roars from behind her, tripping down some steps.
She reaches the bottom of the stairs and turns to grin at him. “Oh, didn’t I mention that? We often hang out with Viktor when he’s in England. He’s a good friend. He thinks you’re a great keeper.”
Ron’s face flashes through an alarming number of colours. Parchment to puce and back again.
Hmm. Maybe that was too much.
She walks out into the sunshine, Harry and Ginny already waving them over. Time to watch some quidditch. Again.
Chapter 4: Board the Train
Notes:
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Thanks for the comments and kudos. Here's another chapter, and once again not all the dialogue belongs to me.
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The long summer days slowly draw in over the next couple of week, the heat fading away and leaving an unsettling sense of loss hanging in the air. Unease. Every morning, Hermione wakes up expecting to be back in her own house with only Crookshanks for company and a meeting to go to. But no. Each morning, rain or shine, Crookshanks or no Crookshanks, she’s still in the past. At the Burrow.
And every morning, her, Harry, Ron, and Ginny anxiously check the Prophet for any sign of Bellatrix, or news on Narcissa.
Nothing. Not a word of it. Just more speculation on the Death Eaters and the Dark Mark, but no word of the Malfoys having anything to do with it. No trials or hearings.
Lucius must have lined some pockets.
After a week passes, they barely give it a glance. Distract themselves with games, and water fights, and de-gnoming the garden. It’s a welcome distraction. Allows Hermione the headspace to breathe.
But it can’t be held off forever, and soon the start of the school term rolls around. Summer is over. Bring on the coming storm.
And there is a storm today. The rain is becoming heavier and heavier as the Hogwarts Express chugs further north. The sky is so dark, and the windows so steamy, that the lanterns had been lit by midday.
But in a way…
It’s also comforting. So familiar. The noise of the train. The smell. Putting her trunk up above the seats. Sitting with Crookshanks in her lap, a book in reach, and every face that moves past through the corridor bringing back so many memories.
Lots of people stop to say hello as the afternoon progresses. Seamus, Dean, and Neville, all excitedly talking about the World Cup. Seamus especially. For a while, Hermione just curls up in her seat and listens. Enjoys watching them chatter away.
Hours pass. Soon Seamus and Dean leave, and rather than letting thoughts of the tournament and Bellatrix return, Hermione continues looking through The Standard Book of Spells, Grade 4, needing to remind herself what level of magic people will be expecting of her. She can probably get away with magic that’s a bit advanced for her age, but eyebrows might raise if she starts performing NEWT spells with ease.
She’s brought out of her reading as Ron accidentally knees her in the side, reaching up to the luggage rack to open his trunk and pull out his Viktor Krum figurine.
“Check this out, Neville.” He drops it into an awed Neville’s hands. “We saw him right up close too. We were in the Top Box—”
“For the first and last time in your life, Weasley.”
Everyone turns to the doorway where Draco is leaning, Crabbe and Goyle at his back, as usual.
“Don’t remember asking you to join us, Malfoy,” Harry says coolly, getting to his feet.
Hermione stands up too. Quickly closes Ron’s trunk and tucks his dress robes inside before Malfoy can spot them and make fun of him like last time.
“What’s this? Got Granger tidying up for you, Weasley?” Draco sneers. “She going to be your little housewitch one day? It makes sense. You two are made for each other. You’re both used to living in filthy hovels.”
“Eat dung, Malfoy!” Ron says, turning the colour of his hair. “At least my family aren’t a load of psychos that get off on hurting people who can’t fight back! Or hurting each other. How is your mum? She remembered who she is yet?”
Shit.
Hermione turns to face Malfoy, wand at the ready—
Oh.
Draco looks…
He takes a step back. Eyes wide. “What did you say to me? How dare you! How— you’d better watch it, Weasley!”
His words are threatening, but he hasn’t drawn his wand. In fact, he’s slowly edging out into the corridor, looking over his shoulder. “Come on Crabbe. Goyle. We’re nearly at the castle. We’d better see if we can get the Weasley stink out of our robes.”
And he’s already stalked off.
What…
She shares a look with Ron and Harry, who seem just as confused as she is. Does…does Draco know? How much does he know about what his father is up to? Or…does he know about Bellatrix? Has he been living with her? Does Lucius know about Bellatrix?
“Uhh, I’d better go and get changed into my robes too,” Neville says awkwardly. “Thanks for showing me your figurine, Ron. It’s really cool. Here.”
He hands the miniature Viktor Krum back to Ron and leaves, closing the sliding door behind him.
Ron drops into a seat. “Sorry. I didn’t mean to say that. It just came out. But— but that was weird, right? Malfoy looked—”
“Frightened,” Harry says, still looking out into the corridor and frowning. “He seemed nervous. You don’t think he knows, do you? About…you know who?”
Ron blinks. “Do you mean You Know Who…or you know, her?”
Hermione laughs quietly. Sits down with him and pulls Crookshanks onto her lap. “You’re right. We need better code names. It’s confusing.”
“Snakeface and crazy lady?” Harry suggests with a grin.
Hermione rolls her eyes. “A bit too obvious. And you shouldn’t use crazy as an insult. Especially for a woman. Some of the most brilliant women in history have been labelled as crazy by men just because they didn’t conform to societal expectations of womanhood.”
Harry reaches for a leftover cauldron cake. “What, like…trying to start a war and killing people because their blood isn’t pure enough? Sure, Hermione. She sounds brilliant. Such a brilliant role model.”
Okay, he has a point. Bellatrix probably deserves the crazy title. But still. It’s the principle.
She watches the raindrops slide down the windowpane. The storm is really coming in now. They’re going to get soaked on their way to the castle. They did, if she’s remembering right. “I just don’t want us to underestimate her,” she thinks aloud. “She’ll have a plan. And it seems like…maybe she’s been planning for a long time. Or Narcissa did. Draco knows something, I’m sure of it.”
“Did he know before?” Harry asks. “In your time, did he know about the Death Eaters?”
Hermione slowly turns to face him. Shrugs. “We never asked how much he knew. Not when he was this young. He made some comments but…no. I don’t think he ever knew the true horrors of what his father was up to.”
“So Lucius Malfoy is a Death Eater?” Ron whispers loudly, looking around their compartment.
Hermione stands up. “He was one in the first war. And he will be again, if You Know Who comes back. But he’s following more out of fear than anything. They all are. Except Bellatrix. They’re tied to him by the Mark, and they can’t exactly say no. It’s…quite sad, really.”
Ron scoffs. “He deserves it. He shouldn’t have signed up to begin with. Serves him right after what he did to those muggles. It’s sick. Let’s see him be scared for a change.”
“No-one deserves to be scared for their life, Ron,” Harry suddenly says. Firmly. Very seriously, for his still youthful face.
And Hermione recognises that look in his eyes. She wishes she didn’t. Feels her heart weep to see that look on him so early. The look that clouded his eyes more and more as the war went on.
He clenches his jaw. Reaches for his trunk. “Let’s get into our robes too. Malfoy’s right. We’ll be there soon.”
Everyone begins getting their trunks down in uncomfortable silence, the rain hitting the window the only sound.
Hermione squeezes Harry’s shoulder. “Remember that spell I taught you to keep your glasses dry. And we can do the same for our robes, it’s stormy out.”
He nods. Smiles at her quickly and looks away.
Ron clears his throat. “Thanks. And I didn’t really mean it about…well I did, but…”
He drifts off. Looks at Harry. Then nods firmly to himself. “Let’s keep an eye on Malfoy this year too then. I mean, his whole family is completely…uhh...not the best. If he’s scared, we should keep an eye on him. Even if he’s a prat. He can’t help it if his whole family are nutters, right? And it’s not like Crabbe and Goyle have the brains to help him out.”
Hermione’s mouth falls open. She doesn’t think she’s ever been this shocked in her life. Where did that come from? Empathy? Emotional intelligence? From Ron?
And for Draco?
Harry seems just as surprised, but shakes himself out of it quicker than her. “You…yeah. Guess you’re right. I mean… I wouldn’t have made it through first year without you two. Or second year. Or any year. I’d hate it if the Dursleys were the only family I had. They don’t really count.”
Ron chuckles, opening his trunk and cringing at his dress robes before moving them out the way to get to his regular school robes. “Nah, mate. They’re not your family. Not even close. Glad we got you right out of there this summer. It’s been wicked having you stay. Both of you. Way better than when it’s just me and Ginny and the twins. Do you know how many years I had to hang out with her and her friend Luna? I mean that witch is crazy— uh— I mean—”
He looks up at Hermione. “I mean brilliant. Different? Anyway, they were a nightmare.”
Hermione smiles. “Luna is quite quirky, yes. And brilliant. Now go on, get ready. I’ll go get changed in the girls’ bathroom.”
She grabs her folded robes from the top of her trunk and heads for the door.
“Watch out for trolls!” Harry jokes from behind her as she slides the door shut. She shakes her head, still smiling to herself.
Idiots.
Her idiots.
They did get soaked, despite the impervius charms. They managed to get to the castle alright, but Hermione had forgotten that Peeves had chosen tonight to throw water balloons at people as they entered. One got Ron right in the head, and Hermione almost got strangled by Professor McGonagall as she skidded on the wet floor, grabbing Hermione around the neck for balance.
Just like last time. Why does that part of the timeline have to be the same?
And the sorting seems to last forever. Not that Hermione is able to stomach dinner once it does arrive. She’s too nervous for that.
Harry doesn’t seem to be faring much better, pushing food around his plate. Ron, on the other hand…
Well, his plate is piled as high as ever. And he seems to have picked up some of Mrs Weasley’s fussing habits.
He holds out yet another dessert to Hermione. “Treacle tart, Hermione!” he says, deliberately wafting the smell towards her. “Or you, Harry. It’s your favourite. No use starving yourselves just because you’re waiting for…uhh…” He glances at Neville and Dean. “Waiting for something brilliant to happen,” he says more quietly.
Hermione’s eyes dart to the teacher’s table. And then the door. She knows Mad-Eye isn’t there. No Bellatrix. But she still can’t help checking. Can’t help checking where her wand is every few seconds, even though she knows it’s right there in her pocket where—
The Hall begins to quieten. Dumbledore has gotten to his feet, everyone but Ron finished with pudding.
“So!” Dumbledore says, smiling around at them. “Now that we’re all fed and watered, I must once again ask for your attention as I give out a few notices!”
Hermione taps her foot against the side of the bench, making herself face forward as her thoughts ping around her head once more.
Any moment now. She’ll be here. At Hogwarts. Right here. Teaching them. Bellatrix Lestrange will be—
There are gasps of outrage all around her.
“What? No quidditch?!” Harry croaks out, scandalised. “Why? I didn’t know that—”
“— due to an event which will be starting in October, and continuing throughout most of the school year, taking up our teachers’ time and energy,” Dumbledore continues, smiling knowingly. “But I am sure you will enjoy it immensely. I have great pleasure in announcing that this year—”
And with a deafening rumble of thunder, the doors to the Great Hall bang open.
Hermione jumps almost a foot in the air, still taken by surprise, even though she knew this was coming.
She gives Harry and Ron a look, catching Ginny’s eye down the table, and then turns around, craning her neck to see past everyone else’s curious heads.
And…it is Mad-Eye Moody. Or it looks like him. Same scarred face and crooked nose. Stood framed in the doorway and lowering his hood as lightning crackles over the enchanted ceiling.
…is it Bellatrix?
It’s dramatic enough.
‘Mad-Eye’ begins walking down the central aisle towards the teachers’ table, long wooden staff clunking on the stone floor with each stride, echoing through the silently staring room. He limps heavily towards Dumbledore. Reaches out his hand for the Headmaster to shake.
Dumbledore takes it, leaning forward to mutter quietly to the other wizard.
Or witch.
Is it?
Hermione frowns. Squints.
This is harder than she’d thought it would be. What if it is Mad-Eye?
Harry subtly jerks his head towards Moody and raises an eyebrow. “Brilliant?” he mouthes.
Hermione frowns further. Looks back over to the staff table. Tries to look for certain postures. Mannerisms. Signs of Lestrange.
Mad-Eye flops down in a chair at the staff table, pulls a plate of sausages towards him, sniffs one, and then takes a small dagger from his pocket and spears a sausage with it to eat it off the blade.
Hermione almost throws her hands in the air in exasperation. Argh. Well that could be her. Or not. Why…
She freezes.
Moody is still looking down. But his enchanted eye has looked up.
Is looking at Hermione. Right at her. She’s sure of it.
Look away. Look away, idiot!
She tears her eyes away. Focuses on Dumbledore instead.
“May I introduce our new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher, Professor Moody!” Dumbledore says brightly, smiling around at the sea of stunned faces and beginning a feeble round of applause that only Hagrid takes him up on.
Moody doesn’t seem to care in the least, ignoring the Hall of students completely. Hermione can finally breathe again as the magical eye darts from her and continues scanning the room, spinning in all directions.
And then Moody reaches under the table. Pulls out a hip flask and takes a swig.
Ron nudges her in the side. “Look! Just like you said!” he mumbles behind his hand, obviously trying to be discreet.
Hermione slowly nods. It does seem to be signs of polyjuice, like before. If only they could test it. That would be evidence, polyjuice in the flask.
Or it could just be alcohol. She’s seen the real Moody drink from a flask too. That’s the point.
Oh. The real Moody. Is he…trapped in a trunk already?
That would be proof too. And a lot more convincing…
Now how could they open the trunk? Or get into the DADA classroom when no-one was around?
She puts her head in her hands and frowns down at the table as she thinks, letting the hubbub around her drift into a background rumble. She already knows what they’re talking about. The tournament. The Cup. Durmstrang and Beauxbatons.
Should she let it all just happen? The same as before?
But poor Harry. And Cedric. She can’t let that happen.
If Voldemort doesn’t return this year…she has no idea what will happen!
…But it would stop him. Stop the second war. They could go after the Horcruxes whilst he’s still weak.
But what if he hides them in new places? Or makes more?
It would stop a war! What’s stopping you? Make a plan to stop Bellatrix, and then take down Voldemort before he even has a chance! This is a different world! Save this one from the War!
She could make it so much worse…
Sirius could live! Harry will have a family!
Harry has a family. Is Sirius actually a good role model? Better than Remus? Or Arthur?
Remus could live too. And Tonks. And Fred. And Cedric. You just have to stop Bellatrix now.
…or Bellatrix will get the Kiss, like Crouch did.
She might get it sooner if you tell Dumbledore who she really is!
…if it is her. Is it?
Hermione looks up.
Oh.
The Hall is almost empty, Ginny grinning down at her, and Ron and Harry looking at her in concern.
“Finally,” Ginny says. “We called your name enough times. I was going to drag you out of here, but Harry said you had your thinking-face on, so we thought we’d leave your brain to do its thing. So?”
Hermione stands up. Checks around for eavesdroppers.
And more specifically, Mad-Eye.
But all the professors seem to have left already.
She shakes her head and starts heading for the doors. “I’m not sure. This is harder than I expected. I’ll need some time to plan things out.”
“Well we have until Halloween for things to get going. That’s when the champions are picked,” Ron says. “After that we’ll be busy though, making sure Harry doesn’t drown or get his face fireballed off…uhh, I mean, sorry, mate.”
Hermione stops. Steps back into an alcove and waits for them to huddle closer to her. “I’ve been thinking,” she whispers. “Maybe Harry doesn’t have to compete. What if we make that the goal? We know they’re going to try to put his name in, whoever it is. So what if we stop them?”
“Sounds good to me,” Harry whispers. “Don’t exactly want to enter a competition with a death toll.”
“And Tom waiting at the end,” Ginny says quietly. “We should stop him. It’s…I want to help too, Hermione. So what’s the plan?”
Hermione squeezes Ginny’s arm sadly. “Haven’t figured that part out yet. Sorry. I don’t know. I don’t even know if it’s her. How can we stop a piece of parchment falling into a goblet, when—”
“Well, well. Miss Granger. You seem very…informed, of the events taking place this year,” a low, nasal voice drifts towards them.
Of course. Snape. Slinking out from behind a suit of armour and glaring down at them, arms folded disapprovingly.
Hermione almost wants to smile at him. Here he is. Different world, still spying on Harry and catching them in their little planning sessions. It’s strangely nostalgic.
So she does smile. Just slightly. “I’m always well-informed, Professor. I am an insufferable Know It All, after all.” She holds in laughter at his twitch of surprise. Continues. “I’ve read about the tournament. You see, so that it’s impartial, they use an enchanted goblet instead of a person as a judge. It’s like the Sorting Hat. Choosing the best candidate for—”
“Enough. Five points from Gryffindor, Miss Granger, for wasting my time and dallying in the corridors when you should all be up in the Common Room. Or need I remind you that you are all still underage and that curfews still apply? Even for the great Boy Who Lived.”
Harry opens his mouth in protest, but Hermione puts a hand to his back to quieten him. “You’re right, Professor,” she says softly. “We should be getting back. We were just worried about Harry. This tournament seems so dangerous. And we seem to have a habit of getting mixed up in things. Hogwarts is never very safe for Harry, is it?”
Come on. They need an extra pair of eyes. Unbiased eyes. See Harry for who he is. He’s not James. He’s just a scared kid. Snape needs to know that Harry doesn’t want the glory. It’s someone else pulling the strings.
Snape’s eyebrows pinch in a frown, his gaze practically drilling into Hermione.
She looks away. Looks at Harry’s eyes. Gives him a reassuring smile.
Harry smiles back awkwardly. “Yeah. We were just trying to figure out how to stay out of trouble, Professor. Guess it didn’t really work out.”
Snape hums skeptically. Crowds closer to Harry. “A likely story. Don’t lie to me, Potter. It may work on your ever-growing number of fawning fans, but your measly excuses won’t work on me. Now get. To. Bed. All of you.”
Hermione quickly nods and tugs at Harry’s sleeve, urging him away as he settles into a staring contest with Snape. Something that…could be good or bad, seeing as Snape is a legilimens. She never found out if he could perform it without a wand...
“Let’s go, Harry,” she whispers.
And then more loudly as they all walk away up the stairs. “Goodnight, Professor!”
Just to mess with him. Intrigue him. She needs him suspicious. Watching. He might catch Bellatrix out, if he’s on the lookout.
“Five points for your cheek, Miss Granger,” Snape snaps after them, already sweeping off down the stairs to the dungeons.
“Greasy bat,” Ron mutters. “What was that about? What were you being nice to him for?”
Hermione smiles to herself, jogging up the stairs. “Haven’t you noticed he always seems to be watching us? Catching us out? Always the first to notice what we’re up to?”
She stops at the foot of the moving staircase and waits as they all nod at her confusedly.
She steps on. “Well. If he’s watching us, and someone else is watching us, he might notice what’s going on. Like he did with Quirrell, remember? If he knows we don’t want Harry in the tournament, he’ll realise what’s going on sooner, and might be able to help.”
Harry snorts. “Snape? Help us? When has he ever done that?”
Hermione stops. Leans against the banister and raises an eyebrow at him. “When hasn’t he helped us? Helped you? Think about it. He’s horrible to you, but if you ignore that…?”
Harry frowns.
“He did try to stop Quirrell,” Ron says. “And stop him from jinxing your broom.”
“And he tried to save us from Padfoot when he thought he was a murderer. And Professor Lupin, even when he was a werewolf,” Harry reluctantly agrees.
Ginny huffs. “Okay, you guys need to catch me up on a lot of details about your adventures. No-one told me Snape was even there, and I thought the werewolf thing was just a rumour. You didn’t even tell me about the time-travelling until a few weeks ago!”
“That’s because you’re still a little girl,” Ron says. “You shouldn’t know any of this. Hermione is right. It’s dangerous. You should just forget about this, go back to the Common Room and—”
“I’m one year younger than you!” Ginny shouts back. “One! I’m older than— than Harry was when he fought the basilisk. Than you when you went after the Philosopher’s Stone and ended up in the Hospital Wing. Just because I’m a girl doesn’t mean I can’t be part of your adventures—”
“They’re not adventures,” Harry snaps. “And if you think they are, then Ron’s right, and you really are still a little kid who needs to grow the hell up.”
A horrible silence falls around them. Ginny swallows harshly, holding back tears. “Don’t you worry. I stopped being a kid the moment I got here. The moment a Dark Lord took over my mind, and my body, and my soul. Nearly took my life. I’m sorry I used the wrong words to tell my friends that I wanted to be included.”
And with that, the tears begin to fall. Her bottom lip wobbles. She rubs at her face furiously, and runs up the last few steps. Shouts a shaky “balderdash” to the Fat Lady, and slips inside the portrait hole before they have time to do anything but shout after her.
Ron kicks the side of the staircase. “But she is young! What am I supposed to do? She’s my little sister. I’m supposed to protect her, not involve her in this…crap! It’s for her own good!”
He stomps up the steps. Stops at the top.
Turns around. “Right? It’s better this way. Even if she gets stroppy about it.”
Hermione follows him up with a sigh, climbing through the portrait hole tiredly and coming to stand in front of the fire in the Common Room. It’s empty. The sound of distant chatter coming from up in the dormitories. “You’re all too young to be dealing with this,” she says, staring into the flames and warming her hands. “I’ll talk to Ginny later. Make sure she knows we’re not going to leave her out. But—”
She shakes her head. Looks at them both. At their too-long hair and scruffy robes. The circles under their eyes. Worry on their faces.
Stupid. They’re too young. Hermione shouldn’t have told them. Shouldn’t have given in. They’re her safety blanket. She’s falling into old habits. Forgetting that she’s the adult this time.
She clears her throat uncomfortably. “I’m sorry. I…shouldn’t have told you all about this. I should have let you enjoy this year, as much as you can. It…I’ll figure this out. I’m the adult here. Tomorrow, I’ll tell Dumbledore, and we’ll get all this sorted out.”
Harry grabs her arm, making her jump.
It’s the arm with the scar.
He let’s go, searching her face. “We’re in it together, Hermione. Like always. All three of us.”
Ron nods. “Yeah, who gives a rat’s arse how old you are? You seem pretty much the same to me.”
Hey! The same as a fifteen-year-old?!
“In a good way!” he hastily adds. “You always know what to do. And…you said we needed proof. That we can’t tell anyone yet. I mean…what are we gonna say? That we just have a feeling the new DADA professor is secretly a witch and out to get Harry? It sounds bonkers!”
Harry steps closer, looking around the room for eavesdroppers. “It’s like you said. If she finds out we know, but they don’t believe us, she’ll know we’re onto her. If it is her, anyway. We need to find that out first. And to do that…I think I have an idea.”
Hermione bites her lip.
Should she go along with this?
They are being quite sensible. And are making a very good counter argument.
She sinks down to sit on the carpet near the fire. Gives them a lopsided smile. “What’s your idea, then?”
Harry grins. Looks at Ron, and they both sit down with her.
“Okay, it’s not much,” Harry says, pushing up his glasses. “But we could just be really annoying to Moody. Be teachers’ pets. Keep going to see him, asking him stuff, knocking on his door at all hours. That way, if it is her, and she slips up, we’ll know. Like if she forgets to take the potion.”
“Spend more time around him— her— them?” Hermione frowns. “That’s a bit risky. What if she just…decides to kill you? Or kidnap you?”
Harry shakes his head. Taps his forehead. “My dream. Voldemort mentioned the servant, and Hogwarts. They’re definitely using the tournament. If she’s really so loyal, she won’t go against his orders, right?”
“Right,” Ron says. “If it is her. Because the bloke looks terrifying, but he definitely looks like a bloke, not a witch. This is a different world. She could be someone else in disguise. Like McGonagall! She just about strangled you, Hermione, on our way in.”
Hermione rolls her eyes. “She slipped on a puddle, Ronald. That hardly makes her a suspect.”
“So far, Moody is the best bet,” Harry says. “Right? So we should watch him. We can pretend we think he’s…cool. It won’t seem strange. You’re already a bit of a teacher’s pet, Hermione—”
“Hey! All I do is read the books they give us. It’s not like I bring them apples, or—”
“Well maybe you should this year. Or do badly so you get detention and have to stay after class. One of us needs to be there at all times. Then she might not even have time to put my name in the Goblet!” he says excitedly.
“So…your plan is to babysit a Death Eater at all times until Halloween?” Ron says slowly.
Harry’s smile drops. He runs a hand through his hair. “Uhh…yeah. Well I did say it wasn’t the best plan. But…any other ideas?”
Ron shakes his head. Hermione looks back to the fire.
On Bellatrix watch. For two months.
Watching her twenty-four seven isn’t very plausible— oh!
She scrambles to her feet. “Harry! The Map! Check the Marauders’ Map! It will say her name!”
Harry jumps up, eyes wide. “Oh yeah! I completely forgot about— I’ll go get it! It’s in my trunk. Just— just stay here, I’ll—”
He runs off, practically falling up the staircase.
Ron walks after him. “I’ll go too. Here.”
He reaches into his pocket and hands her his Viktor Krum figurine. “Come and knock on the door in a couple of minutes. You can say you found it. So Neville and that lot don’t ask us what we’re up to.”
Oh. That is a good idea.
She takes it. Watches him climb the staircase, a confused frown on her face.
One change. How can one alteration have made such an impact? Ron was a sulky, selfish fifteen-year-old. Jealous, and with such a lack of confidence in himself.
Was this all he needed? A bit of trust? And someone to remind him how much people need him?
It had taken years for Ron to mature into this person last time.
But this time Ginny is upset and feeling left out instead.
Hermione sighs to herself. Seems like teenage drama is inescapable.
Will Harry have looked at the parchment yet?
She heads for the stairs—
Ron comes running down. “Oh, there it is, you found it. Seamus! It’s alright, Hermione found it!” he shouts back up.
Hermione hurries over, giving him the miniature. “Well?” she whispers, unable to stand it any longer.
Ron nods frantically. “It’s her,” he breathes, looking around as if the walls have ears. “It said Bellatrix Black. She’s in the castle. In Moody’s rooms. It’s her!”
Chapter 5: Read the Map
Chapter Text
The next morning is cloudy. White and still.
It feels like the inside of Hermione’s head. A heavy white fog, that just won’t leave. All throughout breakfast. Herbology. Even the blast-ended skrewts can’t seem to shake her from it.
‘Moody’ is nowhere to be seen, which should be a relief.
It isn’t. Leaves Hermione so on edge that eventually she just gives in to the feeling. Gives up trying to be on the lookout. Leaves the Map in her pocket, eyes heavy from squinting at the blurred jumble of overlapping names.
She knows she needs to snap out of it. Can see Harry and Ron’s concerned looks. Managed to offer them a few smiles every now and then before she headed off to arithmancy without them.
But she just can’t…face this. Another night of no sleep. Too many thoughts in her head. Except this time, they seem to have become stuck. Melded into a thick toffee, pulling her mind apart and holding it together.
She’s in the past. But she’s not.
And Bellatrix is here. Here. In the castle.
Hermione just can’t deal with this. Can’t face this. Not yet. It’s too much. Deliberately spending time with Bellatrix? Or sending Harry and Ron off to talk to her? As much as it could work, she’s not ready for that. To take that first step.
“…and Padfoot hasn’t got back to me yet, but when he does, I reckon we could tell him about—”
And that finally seeps through into Hermione’s mind. Harry can’t tell Sirius about Bellatrix! Or talk about Padfoot with Bellatrix around! She might know his nickname!
Hermione jogs the last few steps to meet Harry and Ron at the top of the Entrance Hall staircase, shifting a few books in her arms and helping Ron as he almost drops a star chart. “Ssh!” she hisses, looking around. “It’s not a brilliant idea to talk about that dog right now, Harry. He’s quite a memorable breed. Purebred, remember?”
It takes him a second to catch on, but then his eyes widen and he looks around too. “Right. Yeah. Forgot about…umm, how was arithmancy?”
She nods quickly at the subject change. “Quite interesting. And Professor Kettleburn didn’t give us any homework, so—”
“Weasley! Hey, Weasley!”
They stop outside the Great Hall and turn…
Malfoy?
Draco, Crabbe, and Goyle. All looking thoroughly pleased with themselves.
And holding a copy of The Prophet. Oh.
“Your Dad’s in the paper again, Weasley,” Draco announces cockily, holding up the paper for all to see. “Listen to this! They even got his name wrong.”
And he begins reading out Skeeter’s article, ‘Arnold’ Weasley going to investigate when Mad-Eye raised the alarm about an intruder in his house. A false alarm.
False.
Not so false.
What is Malfoy up to?
He continues reading, flourishing the paper and smirking at the gathering crowd.
And glares daggers at Ron. And Harry.
Pokes a finger at a picture of Mrs Weasley. “And there’s a picture, Weasley! Of your parents outside their house. If you can call it a house, more like a hovel. Your mother could do with losing a bit of weight, couldn’t she?”
Ron narrows his eyes at Draco. Holding back, but shaking with pent up rage as a few bursts of laughter come from the students waiting to get into the Great Hall for lunch.
“Get stuffed, Malfoy,” Harry says. “C’mon, Ron…”
“You’ve been there! Haven’t you, Potter!” Malfoy spits, strangely angry too now. “So tell me. Is his mother really that porky? Or is it just the picture?”
“Well what about your mother, Malfoy?” Harry taunts back, eyebrows raised. “Does she always have that expression on her face? Like she’s got dung under her nose? Or was that just because she was sat next to you at the World Cup?”
Draco’s cheeks flush with fury. His eyes dart over the crowd and down the surrounding corridors. “Don’t you dare insult my mother, Potter!”
And Harry already seems to be regretting his own temper. Deflates, snapping his mouth shut almost ashamedly. Sighs.
Grabs hold of Ron’s robes to tug him towards the Great Hall. “Then try not to be such a prat, and keep that big mouth shut,” Harry says quietly, turning around—
Draco draws his wand, a hex shooting out with a bang, white light firing right at the back of Harry’s head—
It misses as Harry turns. But only just.
The same as last time. So this is going to happen again.
Hermione’s hand comes up to cover her mouth, to mask her shock. Or a smile, she’s not sure what expression she’s pulling. “Ferret,” she can’t help but whisper.
“Wha—” Ron says from her side, baffled. But he’s cut off as another bang of wandfire sounds, this time from behind them.
“Oh no you don’t, laddie!” comes a shout from the top of the main staircase.
Bellatrix shouts. It might look like Mad-Eye, but the wizard posed dramatically and making everyone scream in surprise is all Bellatrix.
Of course it’s her. Hermione never should have questioned it.
And where Draco had been…there’s a pure white ferret, cowering on the stone floor and squeaking.
Bellatrix comes down the stairs. Turns to look at Harry carefully, eye scanning over him. Other eye looking though the back of her head. “Did he get you?” she asks lowly.
“Uh— no. Missed,” Harry stutters out.
“Leave it!” Bellatrix suddenly shouts, making Harry and a few others jump.
“Leave— what?” Harry says, bewildered.
“Not you, him,” Bellatrix growls, jerking her thumb over her shoulder at Crabbe, who freezes, about to pick up the ferret.
And she turns. Begins limping over towards the three Slytherins.
Draco’s squeaks turn into a high-pitched frenzy, and he takes off, a white blur streaking towards the dungeons—
“I don’t think so!” Bellatrix roars, firing off a spell quicker than Hermione can blink and sending the ferret flying ten feet in the air, falling with a smack on the floor and then rising once more.
And again. And again.
Hermione looks around desperately for Professor McGonagall. She should be here. Why isn’t she—
Draco lets out another terrified squeak, and Hermione can’t help it.
Steps forward, raising a protego and shielding the bouncing ferret behind her. “Stop! This— this isn’t how punishments work here!” she shouts.
Bellatrix’s wand doesn’t lower. It rises. She aims over Hermione’s head.
“He should know better than to attack when his opponent’s back is turned!” Bellatrix growls, moving her wand side to side as Draco whimpers, smacking into the walls. “Stinking, cowardly thing to do.”
Really?! Ethics is her argument? Teaching him a lesson about…manners?!
“Never— do— that— again!” Bellatrix punctuates, still managing to send Draco thudding against stone.
Enough!
Hermione steps forward, shield raised higher and staring Bellatrix down. “Transfiguration isn’t a punishment! Never! A professor should know that. Or was it different when you were at school?”
For a second, a flash of anger appears on Moody’s scarred face, making Hermione flinch and pour more concentration into her shield charm.
But then Bellatrix’s wand pauses. Lowers. “Oh, I have a feeling I’ve got very different experiences of teaching than you do,” Bellatrix mutters. “Miss…?”
Hermione holds her head high. Keeps her breathing as even as possible, and cancels her protego. “Granger. Hermione Granger.”
Bellatrix looks her up and down. Nods. “Granger. What would you suggest I do then, Granger? Give him detention? Is that enough of a lesson, do you think?”
Hermione looks behind her at the crumpled ferret. “Yes. You should change him back. And you could always talk to his Head of House if there are any issues that need to be resolved. That’s how everyone deserves to be treated. Talking calmly. Violence isn’t the answer.”
She doesn’t turn back. It’s too intense. Just knowing that it’s Bellatrix Lestrange in Moody’s skin.
Bellatrix Black. That’s what the map said. Says. It’s still in Hermione’s pocket.
And she watches as the ferret suddenly transforms. A boy once more. Pale and wincing as he gets to his feet, but otherwise unharmed. Thank Merlin for that.
“I’ll do that then,” Bellatrix says coldly. Or hotly. The heat of it making Hermione turn to glance at the witch. Just quickly, before looking away again, back at Draco. The magical eye has always made her uncomfortable, no matter whose head it’s in.
Draco avoids everyone’s gaze, reddening with shame and muttering to himself. Something about his father.
“Oh yeah?” Bellatrix says quietly, limping forwards a few steps, past Hermione and reaching Draco. “Well I’ve known your father for a lot longer than you, boy. You tell him Moody’s keeping a good eye on his son. You tell him that from me,” she whispers.
Draco grits his teeth, but steps back. Looks around for Crabbe and Goyle.
“Now,” Bellatrix continues. “Your Head of House is Snape, is it?”
“Yes,” Malfoy says, clearly bitter.
Bellatrix grins sharply. “Another old friend. I’ve been looking forward to a chat with old Snape. And seeing as it’s the school rules according to Granger over there…”
She turns and looks at Hermione, still grinning. “…I’d better do as she says. Come on, Malfoy.”
And she seizes Draco’s upper arm, marching him away towards the dungeons.
Hermione watches them go anxiously. Let’s the chattering mass drift past her and into the Great Hall.
Harry comes to stand next to her. “So...That’s…”
He drifts off.
“Yeah,” Hermione answers hoarsely. Her mouth is oddly dry. She loosens her grip around her wand. Shakes her hand out. Cramp from holding it too hard.
Harry takes a slow breath. “When is it we next have DADA?”
Ron reaches into his bag, rummaging around before remembering an accio and pulling out a crumpled piece of parchment. “Uhh…Thursday.”
Harry just nods silently, still staring towards the dungeons.
“Think he’ll be alright? Malfoy?” Ron asks.
Hermione reaches into her pocket. Pulls out the Marauders’ Map and taps it, whispering the password.
Searches out the dungeons…
Two little dots. Draco Malfoy, and Bellatrix Black, moving swiftly down a corridor towards…Snape’s office.
Hmm.
“They’re going to Snape,” Hermione murmurs. “So he should be fine…”
She keeps her eyes locked to the names as she drifts towards the Hall, stomach rumbling and twisting—
Bumps into someone. “Oh! Sorry, I didn’t see you— Ginny!”
Ginny glares at her. Picks up some pieces of parchment, playing cards, and a few sickles that she’s dropped, and then brushes past Hermione. “Figures. Guess I’m invisible to you too now, now that you’ve got your real friends back and don’t have to hang out with me anymore.”
What? No!
Hermione slides the map into her pocket and turns around. “Ginny, wait! It’s not— Can I please talk to—”
Ginny disappears into the crowd without a backward glance. Argh!
Hermione pulls the map back out. “I’ll go after her. Can you spot her? She should be around…”
Outside. Heading across the grounds towards the lake.
Hermione looks up at the enchanted ceiling. Cloudy ceiling. Rain clouds.
Well, if Ginny is so stubborn that she’s going to run off in the rain rather than talk to Hermione, then she really is too immature and needs to get over herself.
“Teenagers,” Hermione huffs to herself. Turns around and marches towards an empty spot at the table near Lee Jordan and the twins. She’s hungry. And she has enough to think about. Ginny knows that. They can talk later. Calmly. In the Common Room. Not out in the pouring rain.
She grabs the pot of beef casserole and doles out three bowls for her, Harry, and Ron, angrily.
Harry and Ron sit down opposite her and share a look.
She ignores them. So what if she has a temper? She has a lot to think about. A lot. Dark witches wandering around the castle. A witch who now knows her name, and was grinning at her for some reason.
And did as she was told. Why did she do that?
Why did Hermione do that? She’d never talk to a real professor like that. That was so suspicious. Everyone must be talking about what just happened.
That just happened. She just spoke to Bellatrix.
She slides the map back out of her pocket. Looks for the little dot.
Bellatrix Black. Still in the dungeons. Alone now.
She traces her finger over the name. Tries to let it sink in, her mind not really grasping it. Unable to put the two…completely opposing images together. It just feels…wrong! Having a sadistic murderer like her around, but in the wrong body. It’s too surreal. She wants to see Bellatrix. Face her properly. Then it would feel right. Not this weird Moody-hybrid.
She can’t read her like this. Can’t understand her motivations. Can’t see her.
She has to see her. Has to catch her out without the polyjuice. It’s the only way. She needs to be exposed.
Ow! Hot!
She reaches for a jug of water, tongue burning from where she’d been shovelling her casserole into her mouth too quickly.
Harry sniggers at her. “Done with your teenage sulking?”
Hermione takes a few gulps of water and then sticks her tongue out at him. It’s immature. But she guesses being back here is kind of rubbing off on her.
Ron isn’t laughing though. Is frowning down at the Prophet. At the picture of his parents outside the Burrow. They wave at him, smiling.
Hermione puts her spoon down with a sigh. “You know, what Malfoy said—”
He bats his hand at her dismissively. Folds the paper in half and turns it over, pointing out something else.
Hermione and Harry lean in to read it.
Mystery Millionaire Funds New Research for Magical Maladies Ward at St Mungo’s
Oh.
Hermione scans the rest of the article.
Anonymous donation…research into mind magic and mental trauma…famous patients…
Oh no.
Gilderoy Lockhart - still doesn’t know who he is.
Narcissa Malfoy - attacked at the World Cup, and in the process of having her memories restored whilst recuperating at home...
And Frank and Alice Longbottom. Long-term patients, who haven’t left the ward since an almost lethally strong cruciatus curse was used against them by Death Eaters Bellatrix Lestrange, Rodolphus Lestrange, and Barty Crouch Junior.
Hermione’s head jerks up. She looks down along the table, searching out….
Neville. Staring into his casserole. His head coming up to meet her eye.
She smiles at him.
He ducks his head back down.
Doesn’t look back up.
“Bellatrix…tortured Neville’s parents?” Harry whispers croakily, reading the whole article.
Hermione turns to look at him. At Ron. Feels her heart sink at their shock and…betrayal, as they see her expression.
“You already knew,” Ron says.
Hermione fiddles with her spoon. Looks at the table. Nods. “I knew. But…Neville isn’t ready for people to know yet. It wasn’t my place to—”
“Give me the map,” Harry says firmly.
Hermione frowns. “But—”
“Now. Let me see where she is. Draco is— We should tell Dumbledore. This isn’t safe. We should show him the map, and—”
Hermione was about to hand it to him, but swiftly pulls it back. “We can’t!” she hisses. “Do you really think Dumbledore, or any of the professors, will give it back to you once they see this? You need to keep it. Trust me. For next year and— the information on it is lifesaving.”
They use it next year to outsmart Umbridge and Filch. And the year after when the Death Eaters enter the Astronomy tower. Ginny uses it all throughout the War against the Carrows and Snape. They can’t give it to—
Harry holds his hand out. “You don’t know that. Not this time. Not for sure. And I don’t care. We have proof. Let’s go. Now. Before someone else gets hurt.”
Hermione hesitates…
Harry snatches the map from her and walks off.
She clambers out of the bench, swinging her bag over her shoulder and hurrying after him. Great. Fantastic.
Dumbledore peers over his half-moon spectacles at them. Then looks back down at the map. “Ingenious. Now this is quite a clever little thing. I myself did not even know there was a twelfth floor, let alone thirteen. Quite the architectural feat, wouldn’t you say? Highly intriguing. Sherbet lemon, Mr Weasley?”
He holds the bowl out to Ron, who raises an eyebrow but takes one anyway. “Uh, cheers. But what we really wanted to show you was—”
“Bellatrix Black,” Harry interrupts. “She’s alive. And in the castle. We saw her name in the Prophet, and we saw her on the map today. The map doesn’t lie, Headmaster. Professor Lupin told me. Bellatrix is in disguise as Mad-Eye Moody!”
Dumbledore smiles softly. “Professor Moody, Harry. And I am sure you are quite correct that this map is tremendously accurate. But as you can see…Alastor is at this very moment within his office. And I’m afraid as lovely as it would be to be reunited with dear Bellatrix, she does not appear to be on here.”
What?!
Hermione, Ron, and Harry all get to their feet, heads crowded over the map. Impossible…
She finds the DADA classroom…
Alastor Moody. In the office.
No Bellatrix.
But—
She searches the dungeons. The staff room. The grounds.
A huff echoes from above them. “Yet another self-righteous Gryffindor making accusations against a Black. We don’t need a map to know where Bellatrix is. Buried with the rest of them outside Azkaban, poor girl,” Phineas Nigellus Black calls down.
Harry shakes his head. Searches the map once more and then looks up at Dumbledore. “Please, Sir. Could you just check? What if the real Professor Moody is…being held hostage in his office? We saw Bellatrix. Last night. And today. She took Draco to Snape, we saw it!”
Dumbledore frowns. “And as I said, Harry. I do want to believe you. I really do. And if it will reassure you, I will check. If you are certain. These are some serious accusations, and Alastor may not take very kindly to being called one of Voldemort’s followers. Especially one he had a hand in capturing. One who, as Phineas rightly points out, died many years ago.”
“So did Peter Pettigrew,” Harry says firmly, frustration edging into his voice. “But he’s still alive. And Sirius escaped too, so why not Bellatrix? His cousin?”
Dumbledore steeples his fingers. “Ah. So you have discovered that connection also. But remember, Harry, it is our choices that shape us far more than our blood. The friends we make. The family we choose. Bellatrix’s relation to Sirius, and so to you, does not make you any more connected to her misdeeds.”
Harry glances at Hermione and Ron, sharing their disbelief at this strange misinterpretation. “I know,” Harry grits out. “But Sir, if we go to the DADA classroom just to check…”
Dumbledore gets to his feet with a sigh. “Alright then, Harry my boy. Perhaps your young eyes are keener than mine. Let’s go pay Alastor a visit, shall we?”
And with another smile, he strides off to the spiral stairway, stepping on with a nod to the statue, and already moving downward.
Harry runs after him, and Ron gives her a sheepish look before doing the same.
Hermione stays standing beside the desk, conflicted. As usual.
“What are you doing, girl?” Phineas Nigellus shouts down at her, making her jump. “Get out of here. Go on. And take that useless map with you. I don’t know what Orion was doing naming his idiotic eldest after my brother. Not an ounce of intelligence in that one. Can’t even make a map that works.”
Oh. Dumbledore left the map behind.
Hermione picks it up. “It does work,” she mutters. “Bellatrix is just…hiding, somehow.”
Alastor Moody is still in his office. But that could be him inside the trunk. Maybe Bellatrix just…left. Went out to lunch. Professors don’t have to stay on the school grounds…
So as she thought. Bellatrix has outsmarted them already. They went to Dumbledore too soon. She told Harry they needed to wait.
She watches Harry, Ron, and Dumbledore’s names stop on the changing staircase as they make their way over to the other side of the castle.
Maybe there’s still a chance. Maybe they’ll get there in time. Open the trunk, with Dumbledore’s help, and find the real Moody. Then Bellatrix won’t be able to come back. Her plan won’t work. The tournament— oh!
She looks around. Surely the goblet is being kept in here! Maybe she could…ward Harry’s name out or something. Just in case.
Is that possible? Could she—
“What are you still doing here?” A portrait shouts. “This isn’t a common room, young lady.”
“Off with you! Go on, now,” another shouts.
She makes her way towards the stairs and steps on, reluctantly spinning down toward the entrance.
Okay. Fine. Too many witnesses. But maybe she should stop by the library and find out how the age line works. And how Crouch got Harry’s name in there last time. If Bellatrix is going to do it, then Hermione might be able to think up a counter-spell of some kind.
She walks down the corridor, considering it. Runes, perhaps? Or arithmancy. Numbers are involved, after all. And probability.
What are they using to assign qualities of worthiness for the tournament? Is it bravery? Resistance? Willpower? Intelligence?
Could she adjust it, so Harry isn’t worthy?
She taps her finger on the stone banister as the staircase moves, ready to take her across the castle towards the Common Room, where she can take the hidden shortcut down to the second floor and classroom 3C. The DADA classroom.
The staircase judders to a stop. She makes her way down and gets off, reaching into her pocket. Maybe she should check the map again and see if Harry’s there—
“Constant vigilance!”
Hermione leaps a foot in the air, clutching the map to her chest, head jerking up and fumbling for her wand—
Mad-Eye is stood in front of her. Grinning at her, magical eye spinning wildly.
“See you’ve still got a lot to learn, Granger. These are violent times, as much as you try to deny it. You’ve got to keep your wits about you.”
Hermione tries to calm her pattering heart. Fails. “Where did you come from?” she accidentally gasps out, still in shock but at least with enough sense to slide the map—
Bellatrix grabs her wrist, trapping it. “As I said. You should have been paying attention. What’ve you got there, girl?”
Oh no.
Hermione shrugs casually. Tries to act…young. “It’s from Zonko’s joke shop. I caught my friend Ron with it. It’s not very nice. Makes fun of people. He got a lot of mischief managed,” she says as calmly as she can. Taps her wand to it. As if gesturing. Please work.
Bellatrix looks down at the parchment. Magical eye no longer spinning. Both eyes focused. “Really? A joke? Looked more like a map of the castle to me. Extremely dangerous in the wrong hands. Give it here, Granger.”
Hermione doesn’t let go. Tries to pull her hand free. “Dangerous? No. It’s just a silly toy. It isn’t worth—”
“Then you’ll let me look at it,” Bellatrix growls. Squeezes Hermione’s wrist so tightly she jerks her fist open on instinct, wanting to get away.
Bellatrix smirks triumphantly and holds up the thankfully now blank piece of paper.
Smirks. Seriously smirks, chin raised. Nothing like Moody.
She’s slipping up. Harry was right. If they spend enough time around her, they could catch her out.
Bellatrix’s eyes narrow. She takes out her wand. Moody’s wand. Hovers it over the parchment. “Specialis revelio,” she mutters.
Oh no…
Words are appearing.
Hermione swallows. “As I said. Joke parchment. Always says something horrible, no matter what you—”
“Messrs Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot, and Prongs…” Bellatrix reads aloud. Then abruptly stops. Frowns at the parchment as words continue to appear.
Hermione leans to look—
Bellatrix smacks her in the nose with it, lifting it out of Hermione’s reach, folding it up, and then shoving it into her robes. “As I thought. Extremely suspicious magical item. I’ll be confiscating this, Miss Granger. And ten points from Gryffindor for not handing it in sooner.”
No! She can’t—
Hermione rubs at her face. “But I— will you give it back? If it’s not dangerous?”
Bellatrix is already striding off, wooden leg tapping on the floor and taking out her hip flask. “I’ll make it twenty points if you’re not careful! Now get going. Don’t you have arithmancy to get to?”
Hermione opens her mouth. No more words come out. She just watches Bellatrix turn the corner out of sight.
She does have arithmancy next. Double arithmancy on Monday afternoons.
…was that just a lucky guess? Ah!
She draws her wand as someone taps her shoulder—
Shoves Harry in the chest. “Don’t do that! I’m going to have a heart attack at this rate!”
Then remembers where Harry and Ron have been. “So? Was Moody—”
Harry shakes his head. “He wasn’t there. We checked all of the tanks and cupboards and trunks. Dumbledore did this spell. Homenum revelio. Nothing. Just a load of protection wards and sneakascopes that went crazy. Ron stayed to help Dumbledore shut them up and get these weird creatures back in this crate that— anyway. No Moody.”
Hermione smiles sadly. “Sorry. I did try to warn you. It’s never as easy as that.”
Ron comes up behind him, shoving a handful of sherbet lemons into his mouth. “Should’ve figured. Our luck always sucks,” he mumbles around them, almost spitting one out. “Where’ve you bin? Did ya remember the map?”
Hermione cringes. “So…more bad news. I did have the map. Until about a minute ago. I ran into…her. She saw it. Confiscated it.”
“What?!” Ron shouts, sending sweets pinging across the corridor.
Hermione vanishes them, crinkling her nose. Disgusting.
“She was here?” Harry says, looking around.
Hermione nods. “You just missed her. I tried to stop her, but she’s a professor. There wasn’t much I could do. She took points.”
Harry’s mouth falls open. “Points? Hermione, who cares about points! Now—”
He edges closer to whisper frantically. “Now a Death Eater has a map to the whole school! Knows exactly where everyone is, where we are, at all times!”
Hermione groans. “I know. I know, I fucked up. I’m sorry. But…if it helps, I don’t think she knows the password to get it working?”
She tries to plead for forgiveness with just her eyes. But knows she would be so mad too if Harry had lost the map. She was. She’d been angry thinking Dumbledore would have it, let alone Bellatrix.
Harry just stares at her, an odd expression on his face.
Steps back. Looks at Ron and then slowly begins to smile. “You just swore. Hermione Granger just swore.”
Hermione sighs in relief.
And rolls her eyes. Boys.
She hooks her arms through theirs and walks them off down the corridor. “I’m an adult. I’m allowed. Now we’d better get going. We’ll be late for afternoon classes, and you both have to make it all the way up to the divination classroom.”
They trudge along the corridor in silence for a while. Harry holds up the tapestry for them to duck under and take the shortcut, jumping the disappearing step.
And they still don’t say anything. Just walk.
Hermione glances at them. Sighs. “I’m sorry. For not telling you about what she did to the Longbottoms. I should have. I just…it’s so horrible. And Neville really won’t want people knowing about this,” she whispers.
Ron shrugs. “You told us she was bad. Like, really bad news. And fought in the War. Don’t worry about it. And it makes it…kind of impressive that you keep standing up to her. Talking to her. It freaks me out, to be honest. Dunno what I’m gonna to do if she asks me a question in class. Proper scary, she is.”
Harry considers this. “I think for nerves you’re supposed to picture people in their underwear, right?”
Hermione trips down a couple of steps, her brain helpfully supplying an image of Bellatrix in just her underwear. Pale skin and dark curls falling over her shoulders. Standing in the middle of the classroom and walking towards Hermione—
“Ew! Gross! Mad-Eye in his underwear? What are you on about, Harry!” Ron shouts for all to hear.
Everyone. The corridors are full of students, all waiting to get into class. And staring at a rapidly reddening Harry.
Ron clears his throat. “Sorry, mate. That sounded— it’s not like it sounded!” Ron tries to correct. “It wasn’t— oh forget it.”
Harry sighs. “Yeah, maybe that wasn’t great advice. Anyway. We’d better hurry before Trelawney tells everyone I’ve died or something. We’ll see you at dinner, Hermione. Yeah?”
Hermione takes a sharp breath, still rather confused at where her thoughts were going. “Yes. Maybe. Actually, I might go to the library after class. To read up on the tournament and…plan some things. So I guess I’ll see you in the Common Room tonight.”
Ron snorts, heading off. “Library. Of course. Never change, Hermione.”
Hermione smiles. Waves goodbye to Harry— oh! “And if you run into Ginny, try to talk to her! This is ridiculous! We need to sort it out!”
Harry gives her a thumbs up. Turns around and jogs to catch up with Ron.
Hermione adjusts her bag on her shoulder. Okay. Back to class. Fifteen years old. Arithmancy.
Chapter 6: Watch and Learn
Chapter Text
It doesn’t take long for the gossip about Neville’s parents to spread over the next few days, and every time Hermione, Harry, or Ron try to talk to him about it he closes up. Walks away. Stumbles down a flight of stairs or mutters about needing to get to the greenhouses or the Great Hall.
He melts his cauldron clean through in potions class. For the sixth time. Snape, of course, is livid, instantly giving him detention for the next week. On Wednesday, Neville comes back trembling and talking about disembowelling a barrel of toads.
Trevor isn’t anywhere to be found. Hermione really, really hopes it’s a coincidence.
“You’ve noticed why Snape’s in such a bad mood, right?” Harry whispers to her as she finishes teaching Neville a scouring charm to get the guts out from under his fingernails.
She nods tiredly, moving over to sit by the fire. “Moody,” she says quietly.
Ron sits next to her on the rug, nodding too. “So you noticed. Twitchy, isn’t he? Avoids her— him. Always avoiding eye contact too.”
“I reckon he’s scared,” Harry whispers. “But…I don’t know if he’s scared of Moody, or of…could he somehow know something?”
Hermione looks around the crowded common room. Pulls out a book and clears her throat. “Some wizards and witches have learnt a kind of magic called legilimency. Mind magic. It’s like…mindreading, but a lot more complicated. The— the most accomplished legilimens can look into someone’s mind just by making eye contact. Can see thoughts. Memories.”
She looks back up. Cringes at the panic on their faces.
“So you think…” Harry says quietly. “Can she do it?”
Hermione bites her lip. “I…don’t think so. But it’s possible. She knows how to block her mind. Block legilimency. She taught…umm…her nephew. When he was sixteen. But someone who definitely knows about legilimency, at least with a wand…is Snape.”
Ron’s hand come up to cover his forehead, turning deathly pale. “Snape can read minds?” he croaks out. “Why didn’t you tell us? I’ve thought…oh no! Oh bloody hell, I’ve thought so many things in front of him.”
Hermione snorts. “I’m sure he’s not interested in what’s going on in your head. And I think he probably needs a wand to perform it. But I’ll find a book on occlumency if you really want to protect your mind. It might be a good idea.”
Harry lies down on his back on the floor and groans. “That’s the last thing we need. Mind magic. What’s next? What’s the next surprise going to be? Because I can’t take many more of these, Hermione.”
She pats his leg sympathetically.
Doesn’t really have an answer to that.
The portrait hole suddenly swings open. Ginny steps through.
Sees them by the fire.
Hermione raises a hand. Moves to get up and—
Ginny climbs straight back out again, the hole closing behind her.
Hermione’s hand falls back down to her side, heart sinking.
What did she do?
Hermione skids to a stop outside classroom 3C, searching out Ron and Harry in the line— there! Right at the front.
She hurries up to them. “Been in the—”
“Library,” Harry finishes for her. “C’mon, quick, or we won’t get decent seats.”
He moves to go in, but she stops him. “Are you sure you want to be at the front? Seeing as she might be showing us…the spells I told you about?”
The unforgivable curses. She’d warned them in advance. Had wanted to warn Neville too, but couldn’t figure out how.
Harry reflexively rubs his forehead, briefly glancing at the floor. “I’m fine. Better us at the front than anyone else,” he mutters.
And he’s already through the door after Ron, the three of them taking the seats right in front of the teacher’s desk and pulling out their copies of The Dark Forces: a guide of self-protection. It’s painfully ironic.
The room is unusually quiet as they wait. None of the usual chatter, even from Seamus or Lavender, who can never keep their mouths shut for long.
Soon the familiar clunk of a wooden leg on stone reaches their ears from down the corridor. Hermione takes a slow breath. Rubs her sweaty palms on her robes and checks her wand is still in her sleeve.
“You can put those away,” comes Moody’s gruff voice from behind them, before Bellatrix stumps around and falls into the seat at the desk, right across from them. “Those books. You won’t be needing them.”
They put their books back in their bags, Harry meeting Hermione’s eye. So it will be like she thought.
Bellatrix begins calling the register, leaning back in her seat. Her real eye scans down the list as she reads out each name, the magical eye studying each person. One by one.
Hermione is quite proud of how steadily she manages to answer, unlike the squeak Ron produces.
“Right then,” Bellatrix says, putting the register away. “I’ve had a letter from Professor Lupin about this class. Seems you’ve had quite a thorough grounding with dark creatures. Boggarts, red caps, hinkypunks, grindylows, kappas, and werewolves. That right?”
There’s a general murmur of agreement.
“But,” Bellatrix sighs. “You’re behind, very behind, on dealing with curses. So. Guess it’s up to me to bring you up to scratch on what wizards can do to each other. I’ve got one year to teach you Dark—”
“You’re only here for one year, then?” Ron blurts out. Then winces. Maybe Harry kicked him.
The magical eye spins to stare at Ron, who gulps apprehensively, leaning back on his stool.
Bellatrix smiles wickedly. It looks very strange on Moody’s face. “You’ll be Arthur Weasley’s son, hmm?” she asks. Doesn’t wait for a reply. “Your father got me out of a very tight corner a few days ago…”
She pauses. Seems to drift into memory. Ron gives Hermione a distressed look.
The magical eye moves to Hermione, and Bellatrix continues. “Yeah. I’m here for the year. Special favour for Dumbledore, and then I’m back to my…nice quiet retirement.”
Hermione holds backs scoff. Yeah right. More like back to terrorism and—
And Bellatrix barks out a harsh laugh, apparently amused by her own inside joke. Claps her hands together. “So! Straight into it. Curses. Where to start?”
She gets to her feet. Walks over to a blackboard. “They come in all sorts of shapes and forms. Can even create your own, if you’re clever enough. Which you’re not. So forget that right now.”
She begins writing things down, handwriting sharp and scribbled.
Different. This is different.
Hermione reaches back into her bag for her quill and parchment—
“Granger!” Bellatrix barks. “No writing. Watching only. Or should I deduct more points from Gryffindor for your rule breaking?”
Hermione puts her bag back down, feeling her face heat up as whispering fills the room, people in shock at Hermione Granger losing points.
Bellatrix just continues scribbling away.
Then steps back. Admires her handiwork. It’s…
A venn diagram. With lopsided shapes instead of circles, and different spell names scattered everywhere. What?
“Potter!” Bellatrix barks. “Name a curse. Any curse.”
Harry runs a hand through his hair self-consciously, pushing it down over his scar and glancing behind him at Neville. “Uhh…petrificus totalus?”
Bellatrix turns to face him. Snorts. “Alright. Not what I was expecting, but that’ll do.”
She writes it down on the board, inside one of the misshapen bubbles. “And how did you know it was a curse? Not a hex or a jinx?”
Harry frowns. Looks at Ron, shrugs, and then mumbles something.
“What was that, Potter? Come on, speak up, lad. You’ve got a voice. Use it.”
“I don’t know,” Harry snaps. “It’s just what it’s called. The body bind curse.”
Bellatrix spins around. Raises her wand. “Well you should know. It’s in the first-year textbook. You’ve been in the magical world for four years now. Surely you’ve noticed that words have meaning? Power? Harry Potter. The Boy Who Lived. The Chosen One. The Saviour.”
Harry just continues to glare at her.
Bellatrix’s wand flicks in their direction. “Petrificus totalus—”
“Protego!” Hermione calls out, wand already in her hand—
Too late. And protecting the wrong person. The curse smacks Ron in the face, his arms snapping to his sides as he falls backwards off his stool and thuds onto the floor.
Lavender lets out a shriek of surprise and the class begins to chatter—
“Silence!” Bellatrix roars.
The room falls still.
Bellatrix walks over to Ron. Nudges him with her wooden foot. “Miss Brown. Seeing as you’ve got such a gob on you, you can tell me what counter-curse to use to wake him up.”
Lavender sniffs. Leans forward in her seat to look down at Ron. “Re— rennervate?”
No. That’s for stupefy. He’s not asleep. He’s frozen.
But Bellatrix just nods. “Possible. Not the most common approach, or the one in the textbook, but possible all the same.”
What? No it isn’t! It’s completely the wrong spell!
Bellatrix raises her wand once more. Points it at Ron. “Totus corpus rennerva!”
And Ron’s body slumps back onto the ground. He blinks. Takes a few breaths.
Sits up and rubs at the back of his head. “What— Bloody hell! Ow! My head—”
Bellatrix reaches down, grabs his shoulder, and pulls him to his feet. “Stop complaining. Sit back down. You’re fine. Now.”
She walks over to the board. “That was an example of how words work. You pick the ones you want. And you use them. Can’t believe I’m teaching fourteen-year-olds rather than four-year-olds such basic crap, but there we go. Someone tell me why that just worked, and why it isn’t in your textbook. Mr Thomas. How about you? You figured out this world faster than Potter?”
Dean hesitates. Points at himself, surprised to be called on.
Bellatrix doesn’t even turn around. “Yes. You. Or is there another muggleborn Dean Thomas in the room?”
Dean shifts uncomfortably. “You…used a word for body. Like…corporal means body. And you said totus. Like total. So…you told his whole body to wake up. And it worked. So…I don’t really know why it wasn’t in the textbook, sorry Professor.”
Bellatrix hums. “Correct. Partly. Five points to Gryffindor.”
She draws another line on the board. Hermione has given up figuring out what it means. It looks more like a crazy spiderweb now, to be honest.
Bellatrix suddenly throws her piece of chalk over her shoulder, hitting Hermione square in the forehead. Wha—
“And the reason it isn’t in the textbook,” Bellatrix carries on without pause. “Is because there are things the Ministry doesn’t want you figuring out. Doesn’t want magic to be manipulated. Experimented with. Doesn’t want your average Weasley realising the power they could have.”
“Hey!” Ron whispers.
Bellatrix turns around. Leans back against the board. “Words have limitless power. Magic has limitless power. The Ministry likes to chop them up. Separate them into near little boxes. Curses and jinxes and hexes. Herbology and potions. Charms and transfiguration. Dark magic, and then everything else. Defense against the dark arts. Nice and neat, isn’t it? Has a nice ring to it.”
“But…some spells are dark,” Harry says. “They’re made to hurt. To kill.”
The room falls deathly silent.
Bellatrix walks closer once more. Tap. Tap…
Leans closer to Harry. “Intent,” she whispers, her voice carrying through the room in the stillness. “Yes. That’s what it tells you in your standard book of spells. Here’s the answer to my earlier question, Potter. Curses…are made to inflict serious harm. To a person. It’s what they are intended for. To hurt. To control. To torture. To kill.”
Her hand twitches. Reaches up. Hovers in front of Harry’s face. As if about to touch.
And then she abruptly moves back. Goes back to the board.
Taps on the word petrificus totalus. “Controls the body. Traps it,” she barks.
Then moves along a line, and writes Imperio at the end. “Imperius curse. One of three unforgivable curses that will earn you a one-way ticket to Azkaban. It controls the mind. Gives over complete control of your mind to the caster. Would you want me controlling your mind, Miss Patil?”
Parvati jumps. “No, Sir. Unless…well maybe during exams.”
There’s some weak laughter.
Bellatrix grins sharply. “Quite right. That would be nice, hmm? Getting to sit back? Relax? Let someone else take over?”
Parvati nods. Does relax slightly.
Bellatrix draws her wand. Taps it against her lip. “And if in this exam, you were told to cast a diffindo, a slicing charm, would you know how to do it? Have you been taught that yet?”
Parvati shakes her head. “I think we were taught it in charms class in first year, but I can’t remember it very well.”
Bellatrix walks down the central aisle. Comes to stand in front of Parvati and Lavender’s joint desk. “Well, lucky for you, I can. Accio apple!”
Hermione turns to watch curiously as an apple flies out from the back room and into Bellatrix’s hand.
She puts it down on the desk. “Geminio.”
The apple duplicates. And then again as Bellatrix mutters out another spell, now with four apples.
“I know what you’re thinking, Mr Finnigan. But make these apples into cider and you’ll seriously regret it. Gamp’s Law. No playing around with food, or it will mess up your insides. No, this isn’t for eating. This is for…”
She picks up an apple.
And launches it high into the air, almost touching the rafters. “Diffindo!” she shouts, slashing her wand through the air.
The apple falls. Split clean in two.
Show off.
Ron whistles lowly. “Bloody brilliant.”
“Want a turn, Mr Weasley?” Bellatrix calls.
Ron squeaks. “Me? Uhh…”
He looks around at everyone. Puffs out his chest. “Yeah. Sure. I’ll give it a go.”
Bellatrix raises an eyebrow. Beckons him over.
She’s not even trying to hide.
“Ron, stop!” Hermione hisses. “Don’t volunteer to—”
He ignores her and walks over to the table. Idiot.
Bellatrix nods at him. “It’s pronounced diffindo. Emphasis on in. Say it for me.”
Ron glances at Hermione. “Diffindo,” he grins.
Bellatrix smacks him on the head. “Five points from Gryffindor for staring at witches instead of paying attention. Now the wand movement. Do you know it?”
Ron flushes bright red. “I wasn’t— yeah. Yeah, it’s uhh…like a slash down with a flick at either end.”
Bellatrix shrugs. Shoves an apple into his palm. “Off you go, then.”
Ron looks at the apple. Looks at the ceiling.
Throws it up in the air. “Diffindo!”
A spell shoots out of his wand. The apple falls.
Bellatrix catches it. Examines it. “Missed. You need to work on your timing. It glanced off the top, see?”
Hermione can’t see. It’s too far away. But she can see Ron leaning in curiously, looking relatively pleased with himself.
Hermione…is just confused. Very confused.
Teaching. She’s actually teaching. Helping. A Weasley.
Ron comes back over, throwing and catching his apple. Shows them the very faint line.
“Anyone else? Patil? You still want me to take your exam for you?”
Uh oh.
Hermione slides off her stool and gets to her feet.
Parvati laughs nervously. “If you want to. I could never do that. I don’t think I could even throw it high enough.”
Bellatrix points her wand at Parvati. “Your choice then. Let’s try it. Imperio!”
No!
“That’s illegal!” Hermione shouts.
“Says the Ministry,” Bellatrix growls back. “You blindly agree with everything the Ministry does, Granger? Think you shouldn’t be taught what the world’s really like? You think Miss Patil is ready for the real world?”
Hermione steps closer. “I…”
She looks around at her classmates, all of them staring at her in confusion for arguing with a professor. Looks at Parvati’s blank, glazed stare.
Looks back at Bellatrix.
Bellatrix slowly shakes her head. “She has no idea. But she will. Constant vigilance!” she suddenly yells.
Everyone in the room except Hermione jumps.
Bellatrix folds her arms. Looks at Parvati. “Stand up. Go walk into the middle of the room.”
Parvati does. Slowly. Dazedly drifts over. Hermione reaches out to her as she passes. Takes her arm.
Parvati doesn’t even react. Brushes her off and keeps walking. Stops. Waits.
“Cut this apple in half. Like I showed you,” Bellatrix says. Then throws the apple in an arc—
“Diffindo!” Parvati says calmly, wand slashing through the air.
The apple halves fall onto Neville’s desk with a kethunk.
“Ooh! She did it!” Lavender squeals. “Her aim is usually awful. So that was all you, Professor?”
Bellatrix picks up the last apple. Studies it. “I told her to do it,” she murmurs. “So she did it. That’s how the imperius curse works. “Stay still.”
Parvati doesn’t stay still. She walks back over to her desk. A few muffled laughs echo around the room.
Bellatrix ignores them. Walks up to Lavender. Places the apple on her head. “I said, stay still, Miss Brown.”
Lavender freezes. Her eyes widen. Her laughter has faded, unsure once more.
Harry stands up. “Hermione,” he whispers in her ear. “Should we—”
Bellatrix holds up a hand. “Silence. Don’t break my concentration.”
The whole room seems to hold its breath. Watches. A room of frozen forms, apart from Parvati.
Who raises her wand. Directs it at Lavender, hand steady.
“If you move now, Miss Brown…you could die,” Bellatrix whispers. “So don’t do that.”
Lavender swallows, apple wobbling. “Professor. I don’t— I don’t like this. Can you stop her? Please?”
And Parvati spins around. Aims her wand at Hermione. “Should I get her instead, then?” Parvati says in an eerily dulled voice. “You were talking about her hair yesterday. Should I chop it off?”
“No!” Lavender shouts, apple falling off her head. “Parvati! Stop!”
Parvati turns her wand on herself. “I could cut my hair off. Or my ear. What about…my tongue.”
Parvati slowly sticks her tongue out. Raises her wand—
Harry dives at her and pulls her wand from her grasp, sliding it across the floor out of her reach.
Bellatrix laughs harshly. “Yes, Potter! Look at the Saviour go! So one of you has a brain in your head. But you shouldn’t have done that. What should you have done, lad?”
Parvati starts fighting Harry off, kicking at him as he tries to help.
Hermione growls. Spins and slashes her wand at Bellatrix. “Petrificus totalus!” she spits.
And it hits.
Bellatrix stiffens. Falls. Topples backwards and hits the ground with a smack.
And Parvati falls still.
Then sits up. Gasps. “Oh!”
She looks at Harry. “Oh, I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to— Lav!”
She stands up and runs to Lavender, hugging her. “I…it felt so nice. I couldn’t stop it. It was like I was dreaming, I didn’t…I could hear…Professor…”
She notices Bellatrix lying on the floor.
Turns to look at Hermione.
Everyone is now looking at Hermione. Getting up and edging closer to crowd around Bellatrix.
Hermione swallows. Moves closer with them. “It’s what you’re supposed to do,” she explains. “She— he was controlling the imperius curse. The only way to stop it, is to stop the caster. Otherwise, the person has to use their willpower to…fight it…”
She pauses. Looks more carefully at Moody’s petrified body.
It’s…
“He’s moving,” Seamus whispers loudly. “He’s breaking out.”
Hermione watches in amazement. It’s true. That was the strongest body-binding curse she could muster, but…
Bellatrix is moving. Vibrating. Straining.
Breaks free with a grunt, bolting up so that she’s sitting on the floor, panting. “Twenty points— to Gryffindor— Miss Granger. For quick thinking. Disarming the true opponent. And for a bloody strong binding curse.”
Bellatrix reaches into her robes. Takes out her flask and takes a gulp from it.
Looks up at a still ashen Parvati. “And twenty points from Gryffindor, Miss Patil, for giving your control away so easily. You learnt your lesson, girl? All of you?”
Parvati nods jerkily. Steps back.
Bellatrix struggles to her feet. “Good. Constant vigilance. It’s my motto for a reason. Be on the lookout. Don’t let them control your mind. Don’t let them control your body. Don’t let them take the thoughts from your head. You have a brain. You have agency. Use it. Every person you meet in this world has a deadly weapon in their hand, and the ability to harm you with it. The killing curse isn’t the only lethal spell. The cruciatus curse isn’t the only spell that can inflict pain.”
She walks over to the board. Writes down a dozen more spells, including the cruciatus curse and the killing curse, all connected in a huge web. “The Dark Arts. Every spell is dark, in the right hands. You just have to know...how to stop it.”
She drops the chalk. Breathes heavily in the stunned room.
Turns and looks at Harry. “And that’s why the killing curse…is the most unforgivable of all,” she mutters. “Its intent…is to kill. There’s no stopping it. No blocking it. No counter-curse. No-one has ever been hit with it…and survived.”
Harry bends down and picks up Parvati’s wand. Hands it back to her.
Raises his chin defiantly. “Until me,” he says firmly.
Bellatrix smiles. “Until you. Words have power, Potter. Not everyone realises that. But with you…I reckon someone found the right words, hmm? Stopped the most powerful spell of all time. Stopped death itself.”
“Killing isn’t power,” Harry replies. “It’s cowardly. It’s weakness. It shows you have something to fear.”
Bellatrix studies him for a moment.
Limps over and sits at her desk, pulling out a quill and parchment. “Killing is a mercy,” she says coldly. Distantly. Not looking up. “Death is an end to suffering. There are things in this world far worse than death. People beg for it, in the end…”
She drifts off. Stares into space.
Hermione shudders.
The bell rings from outside in the clock tower. Shatters the horrible silence.
“Class dismissed,” Bellatrix mutters. “Except you, Longbottom. You hang back. I need a word with you.”
Hermione has never seen a classroom empty so quickly. It helps that no-one had any books out, but still. One second they’re all there, the next it’s just her, Harry, Ron, and Neville.
And Bellatrix.
Harry clears his throat. “I’ll stay too, if that’s alright? I…wanted to talk to you, Professor.”
“Yeah. Me too,” Ron says. “About…that diffindo. Think maybe I did the wand movement wrong.”
Bellatrix pushes her chair back. “Just Mr Longbottom. If you three want a chat, you can come during my office hours next week. Until then, off to dinner with you.”
Hermione folds her arms. She isn’t going anywhere. She isn’t leaving Neville here alone with—
Neville nods. “I’ll see you guys later. I’ll…I would quite like a chat.”
Bellatrix stands up. Claps Neville on the back. “There’s a good lad. Come in the back, I’ll make us a cup of tea. Might even have a biscuit or two. This lesson was a tough one, I know. But you had to learn sometime. No point pretending…well. We all know what we know, don’t we?”
The magical eye scans over the four of them.
They do. They all know.
Some more than others, though. How much does Bellatrix know? What did that mean?
Bellatrix raises an eyebrow at them.
Harry nods and heads towards the door. “C’mon, guys. Before we miss dinner.”
Hermione sighs, but follows after him, pulling her bag over her shoulder.
“Oh, and Granger?” Bellatrix calls.
Hermione stops. Doesn’t turn. Waits in the doorway.
Hears the uneven footsteps come up behind her.
Turns around.
Bellatrix takes out her hip flask. Drinks from it. “I wasn’t really going to chop your hair off, but in a fight, long hair can be a hindrance. You should tie it up. Maybe ask Professor McGonagall for some tips.”
Wha—
Hermione’s mouth falls open in complete—
That is ridiculous.
And she can talk! Seeing as her hair is always flying around everywhere, getting in her face when she fights. “Plenty of witches and wizards duel with long hair,” Hermione grits out. “I’m sure I’ll be fine, Professor.”
Bellatrix puts the flask away. Shrugs. “Your choice. Right then. Longbottom! Professor Sprout says you’ve got a bit of a knack for Herbology. I think I have a few books that might be of interest…”
She turns and wanders off, going into the side room with Neville, whose face has come back to life a bit at the mention of plants.
Hermione steps out of the room to meet Harry and Ron in the corridor.
“Barmy,” Ron whispers. “There’s no other word to describe that. Absolutely bloody mental.”
Hermione…can’t exactly argue with that.
She sighs. Leans against the wall, just outside the classroom door. Shrugs helplessly at the others. Well? They should at least make sure that Neville gets out of there unharmed.
Ron’s stomach rumbles as he looks longingly down the corridor.
Harry comes to lean next to her.
Ron glances at the classroom door.
Comes to slump against the wall on her other side.
This…is going to be a long year.
Chapter 7: Keep Your Head
Chapter Text
Hermione was wrong.
Completely off the mark when it came to her predictions about how long the year was going to feel, because the next few weeks fly by. Time playing tricks on her again.
It seems like the professors have collectively decided that as they’ll be missing so much class time due to the tournament, they’re going to cram a year load of homework into the first term, essays coming out of their ears. It’s not too bad for Hermione, as she can still remember most of it, although History of Magic is a struggle, but Harry and Ron are always behind with something these days, scribbling down the last few inches of their essay over breakfast.
And she’s often falling asleep in her cereal too. This goblet business is tricky. She’s read almost two dozen books now, and still has no idea how to stop Harry’s name getting in the goblet without disrupting the whole tournament. She’s not sure she wants to go that far.
At this point, the only plan they’ve got is Ron’s suggestion of tackling Bellatrix and locking her in a trunk of her own until the champions are chosen.
Which would be very satisfying…
But impossible. They can never pin the witch down. She’s already shown she can break free of a petrificus totalus, and Hermione swears she must have found a way of apparating inside Hogwarts because…she seems to appear and disappear at the drop of a hat! There and gone and grinning as people jump out of her way.
Hermione stares up at the dormitory ceiling, arithmancy book lying on her chest. Wednesday night. It’s Wednesday night. Thursday tomorrow. Defense class. And then the other schools arrive on Friday for the tournament.
The champions will be decided on Saturday.
She puts her book on the floor and rubs her eyes with a groan. Think. You can do this. You just have to stop one witch from putting one piece of paper into one goblet. It can’t be that difficult.
Except she’s a sneaky, devious, deadly, murderous, surprisingly smart, highly unpredictable, practically criminal mastermind witch!
You are not making Harry fight a dragon! Think of something!
What else is there? Warding, protection, or…poison Bellatrix? Make her sick, so she’s stuck in the hospital wing?
Except she always drinks out of a flask. And casts detection spells on her food as part of her Moody-disguise. Paranoia.
Magic…is power. Words are power.
What words is Bellatrix using to break Dumbledore’s protection spells? Other than Harry’s name?
She supposes that’s it, really. Bellatrix is old enough to cross the age line. She just has to trick the goblet into choosing Harry’s name when he’s nowhere near the strongest candidate.
So how is she doing that?
Inner strength…
Once again, she thinks about what Charlie had said. That people can…feel magic. It’s a thought that keeps coming back to her. Instead of fighting it, you accept it. A different way of seeing the magical world. Ancient. Like dragons do.
Hermione closes her eyes. Reaches her hand back and presses it to the stone wall behind her. The castle. Hogwarts has so much magic. She should be able to feel it.
She’s been trying, at least, for the past couple of weeks. Every now and then.
Can she feel anything? Magic is all around her. It’s like she’s…desensitised to it. The same way you can’t smell your own scent.
She picks up her wand instead. She can feel that. Like a comfortable hum.
She makes it blue in her mind. Just to visualise it. Mental associations are always helpful, and she can’t think of a dangerous spell that’s light blue, so she won’t accidentally set the curtains alight or something.
She reaches behind her once more. Brushes her fingers against the wall. Purple. Make Hogwarts purple. Try to feel…
Something. Maybe something. But she’s not sure.
She tries again.
She needs anything, at this point. Any magic she can get.
She spends all of the next day feeling for magic. Really tries this time, consistently. More than she has over the last few weeks. She assigns colours to different people, the same as she did for herself last night.
And quickly realises that it is surprisingly difficult, and that she doesn’t know enough colours that she can picture clearly.
Instead, she whispers names to herself in her head. She’s going for a Pavlovian approach. Every time she uses magic, before she does anything, she whispers Hermione to herself. Even for the tiniest hover charm. Hermione. This is her magic.
And every time someone else picks up their wand, she does the same.
Harry accios a glass towards him at breakfast. Harry.
Ron repairs his ripped star chart. Ron.
Every demonstration in transfiguration class. McGonagall.
And all the while, when they’re covering something she’s already learnt before and doesn’t need all of her attention for, she focuses on feeling the magic. Feeling her own magic, and trying to…open up.
By the afternoon she’s exhausted. But that might be the concentration more than the magic. And all of the nights she’s stayed up reading and writing essays.
Except for DADA. They don’t get many essays for that. Bellatrix seems to be taking a very practical approach, much like the previous Moody imposter in Hermione’s memories.
Apparently Death Eaters all enjoy trying out curses on teenagers. Bellatrix seems determined to teach them every counter-curse in existence. Every spell, and how best to fight it.
It’s oddly helpful, actually. Hermione doesn’t know if she’s just showing off and getting carried away, but she really is schooling them on absolutely everything in the textbook and more besides.
By…showing them the curses.
Hermione gives Harry and Ron encouraging looks as Bellatrix strides into the classroom, wand already drawn and face set in a stern glare. “Out of your seats!”
And that’s the only warning they get before her wand is moving through the air, and all of the stools and desks push themselves along the classroom walls.
Hermione watches intently. Feels the magic as she backs into the centre of the room. Bellatrix.
“That’s it. Everyone in the— Watch it, Longbottom! Vigilance! That means not bumping into anyone!” Bellatrix barks.
Neville flushes and steps away from Seamus, who just nudges him back with a grin.
“As I was saying,” Bellatrix continues. “We won’t be needing desks. Today, I’m going to be testing each of you. One by one. Every single one of you is going to fight off whatever curse, hex, or jinx I send your way. All of them. Including the imperius curse. We’ll see if you can do better than Miss Patil did, now you’ve had a bit of training.”
“But it’s illegal to—”
“Dumbledore wants you to know what it feels like,” Bellatrix snaps, interrupting Ron. “But if you want to face it for the first time unprepared with an enemy whispering into your head…then you’re free to head on out the door.”
She gestures to the classroom door.
Ron clenches his jaw shut. Doesn’t leave.
Bellatrix nods. “As I thought. Right. Finnegan. You’re up.”
Hermione grips her wand tighter. Curses. Random curses, flying unpredictably from Bellatrix.
That…
Surely she can’t get away with that? Is…how are curses usually taught in class? This can’t be allowed. When Snape had taught them in sixth year…
He had sometimes used spells on them.
Hermione keeps her wand at the ready, just in case, and watches uneasily as each of her classmates just...goes along with it. Bellatrix doesn’t try too hard, which makes it a bit more acceptable. Professor persona. Doesn’t jump around or cackle. Just stands in the centre of the room, sending spells calmly. Verbally. Slowly.
First at Seamus, who manages to block a petrificus totalus but quickly stumbles into a stupefy, unable to get another shield up in one try. Then Lavender, who makes use of the desks, hiding behind them until Bellatrix growls out a reminder to use magic and bring up a protego.
Lavender does, but it’s weak, flickering, and Bellatrix’s hex travels straight through it.
Boils. She gives Lavender boils, all over her face. Lavender bursts into tears.
Bellatrix just shrugs. “Put more power into your shield next time. And it’s nothing to cry about if you know the anti-hex. Do you know it?”
Lavender shakes her head, frantically flicking through her textbook.
Bellatrix shrugs again. “Should have studied. Okay then. Longbottom!”
And it continues. Neville is instantly hit with a dancing legs jinx, stumbling around and accidentally dropping his wand. Bellatrix moves on to Dean without comment. Then Ron.
She casts the imperius curse at Ron. Straight away. No warning.
Ron tries to resist, but only makes it a few seconds before he’s pirouetting and gliding around the room in a one person waltz, arms held aloft. Steps in time to imaginary music. Far more graceful than Ron’s dancing has ever been. Bellatrix Hermione thinks as the witch controls his every move. Bellatrix. It’s her magic doing this. Feel it.
And then there’s Harry. Harry, who steps forward and braces himself as soon as his name is called.
Bellatrix sighs. “Here we go, then. Potter. I’m…going to try something different with you.”
Different?
Hermione steps forward with a frown. What does different mean? What is she going to do to Harry?
Bellatrix’s gaze darts towards Hermione. She subtly shakes her head. Lowers her wand.
Looks back at Harry. “I know you’re quick. Fast. You have good instincts. I know you can cast a protego, which is good enough for pretty much all of these. But what I want to see, is how resilient you are. Strong willed. So…I’m going to cast the imperius curse, like I did with Weasley. You’re not going to block it. You’re going to fight it. Break free from it. Alright?”
No! Not alright! Don’t just let her—
Harry nods. Lowers his wand too. Stands tall, and accepts the challenge.
Hermione steps forward again. “Harry—”
“Imperio,” Bellatrix mutters.
Harry’s eyes lose their spark. His face falls slack.
Bellatrix looks around the room in thought. Accios a desk over. “Jump onto the desk,” she whispers.
Oh. Same as before. Except...
Bellatrix, Hermione thinks. Her magic. It feels...
Harry bends his knees.
Pauses. Frowns.
He’s doing it! He’s resisting! Harry, Hermione thinks. Harry’s magic. Fighting back.
“Jump onto the desk,” Bellatrix says, a bit louder this time.
Bellatrix
Harry doesn’t move.
Harry
Bellatrix steps closer. She’s breathing faster. Eyes scanning over Harry, almost excitedly. “Jump! Now!” she shouts. Bellatrix.
And Harry jumps. Except his feet stay on the floor. Legs bending and straightening, but not lifting very high, smacking against the edge of the desk.
He falls backwards onto the floor with a thump. “Ow!”
“Now that’s more like it!” Bellatrix shouts. Looks around at all of them. “Did you all see that? Potter fought! He fought it, and he damn near beat it! We’ll do that again, Potter. Come on. Get up.”
Harry stumbles to his feet, eyes watering and rubbing at his knees, looking like trying again is the last thing he wants to do. “What about Hermione?” he mutters.
Bellatrix pauses. The magical eye spins in Hermione’s direction.
Bellatrix huffs. “No stamina, huh lad? Fine. I’ll give you a break. Granger, get over here.”
To be imperioed?
Hermione takes a sharp breath. Pulls out her wand. “No.”
Bellatrix’s head jerks to face her. “We haven’t started yet. You can fight back in a minute. You’ll know when you feel it.”
Hermione shakes her head. Raises her wand. “No. I’m not going to willingly have my mind taken away. Like you said. Constant vigilance. Why should I trust you?”
Bellatrix raises an eyebrow. Her lip twitches. “Because I’m your professor.”
Hermione laughs. Can’t help it. “So was Quirrell. So was Lockhart. So is Professor Trelawney, or Professor Snape, but I wouldn’t want their wands pointed at me.”
Surprisingly, Bellatrix barks out a laugh too. “So you are a smart one. That’s what everyone’s been saying, but I haven’t seen it yet. Although not as smart as you think. Why tell an enemy your reasoning, hmm? Your allegiances? You don’t trust me, and now I know who else you don’t tru—”
“Expelliarmus!” Hermione shouts. She doesn’t want to talk? Fine. Hermione. Feel your magic.
But Bellatrix just blocks it. Bellatrix. Glares at Hermione, nostrils flaring and wand arm outstretched. “Imperio,” she growls.
Bellatrix… Hermione briefly manages to think. And then…
Warm. Floating. Everything is so nice, and light. Peaceful. Her worries fade from her mind. What worries? What was she worried about?
Tell me the password to the map.
What?
Tell me how to open it.
Oh. Well, that’s easy. It’s—
Bellatrix.
Wait. Wait…what password? The map? She shouldn’t tell anyone that!
Tell me. What are the words, Granger?
Granger. Bellatrix.
Tell me! Now!
“No!” Hermione shouts. Feels a surge of pure panic, and the buzz and crackle of—
Stumbles backwards, hitting into the desk and rubbing her arm. She can feel tears running down her cheeks. “I’m not— not telling you anything!” she stutters out, backing away from…
Mad-Eye Moody. Oh. Classroom.
She wipes at her face.
Bellatrix’s magical eye is going crazy. Spinning around, darting over Hermione. “Another strong minded one,” Bellatrix hums. “Stubborn. Bit of a given with Gryffindors, but to have two of you in one year is quite the anomaly. There’s not many witches or wizards who can fight that. That temptation. One in a thousand…I’d say.”
Hermione steps closer to Ron and Harry. Tries to get her breathing under control. She can’t breathe.
“And to fight against me…” Bellatrix continues. “To fight me off completely…”
She raises her wand again. Hermione flinches.
“Right, Potter,” Bellatrix barks. “Get back over here. Fight me again. Beat it properly this time, like Granger did.”
Harry swallows. Frowns at Hermione and then raises his own wand. “No.”
And with a grunt, Bellatrix has jerked her wand through the air, disarming Harry of his wordlessly. “Stubbornness isn’t everything,” she barks. “You defied me, an opponent you know is stronger, and now you’ve lost your weapon. Think. Don’t just copy your friends or give me what you think I want.”
Harry’s eyes dart to his fallen wand. “You’re not stronger,” he says. “Hermione is. She just beat you, and that surprised you. Scared you. That’s why you’re always on guard and scaring us. Because you’re scared.”
He edges behind a desk. Closer to his wand.
Bellatrix chuckles. “A good try. Taunt your opponent. Knock their confidence. Anger them, so they don’t think so carefully. But again. Brash. Reckless. And too busy talking to think of your own plan. Imperio!”
Harry lunges for his wand too late, right into Bellatrix’s path. Bellatrix.
“Did you see what he did wrong? Never rely on luck. Never underestimate an opponent. Never try to play the hero, even if you are one. And…”
Harry walks over to the classroom window.
“…never expect the enemy to play fair. That your owl at the window, Potter? Beautiful snowy owl. She seems to want to come in. Be a good lad and let her.”
Hedwig?
Hermione moves closer to the window. It is Hedwig. And she has a letter.
Harry opens the window latch. Doesn’t even seem to resist.
Ron comes up next to Hermione, eyes wide. “What if it’s from him?” he whispers in her ear.
Him?
Oh no. Sirius.
Hedwig flies into the room, settling on a desk and holding out her leg.
Bellatrix walks over to Hedwig. Reaches into her robes and pulls out…an owl treat. Offers it to the bird.
Hedwig ignores her.
Bellatrix huffs. “Come get your post, Potter. Let your loyal familiar get some rest. Looks like she’s been on a long journey for you.”
Harry practically runs towards Hedwig. Unties the letter and puts it in his pocket—
“Stop!” Bellatrix shouts. “Read it aloud.”
“You can’t!” Neville shouts. Then falters. Continues more hesitantly. “I mean, you shouldn’t. Letters are private.”
Bellatrix shrugs. “Then he’ll stop me. He did it before. He just has to mean it. Hurry up, Potter. Let’s see who’s been writing to you.”
And now Harry is fighting. Clenching his fists at his sides and jerking. Twitching. Struggling.
His hand jolts into his robe pocket.
“Accio letter!” Ron shouts. The letter flies—
Harry snatches it from the air with a seeker’s speed. Opens it up. “Harry,” he reads. “I’m flying north immediately. This news about your— your scar is the latest in a series of strange rumours that— that— that—”
The parchment crumples in Harry’s fist, sweat breaking out on his forehead.
He shakes his head and shoves the paper into his pocket. “No. I’m not— I’m not reading it!” he shouts, eyes sharp once more.
Silence fills the room.
The bell rings.
“Flying north,” Bellatrix mutters. “Sounds like you’ve got a visitor coming, Potter. A reunion? Won’t that be nice.”
And she bends down and picks Harry’s wand up off the floor. “Homework for the week is once again to keep your wits about you. We all have visitors arriving tomorrow. All Hallows’ Eve soon enough...”
Her eyes move over Harry, considering. She hands him back his wand. Chuckles darkly. “Funny time of year. Keep your heads down, but your eyes up, the lot of you. Class dismissed.”
And she turns on her heel, limping out of the room, desks and stools rearranging themselves behind her as everyone scrambles out of the way.
Harry ducks under a desk and grabs his bag, eyes lowered.
“You alright, mate?” Ron whispers. “You both did bloody well fighting her off. It wasn’t your fault that—”
“I’m fine!” Harry snaps.
Then kicks a stool so it goes crashing across the room, making Lavender and Parvati squeal as they dodge out of the way.
Harry cringes. A flash of regret. Looks at Hermione and Ron. “It is my fault. I told him about my scar, and my dream, over the summer. And now he’s coming. Risking his neck. Could get caught by the Ministry, or the dementors, and now she knows too. She knows everything! Knows what my ruddy bird looks like and— Did you see her face? She knows. She knows something.”
Hermione sighs. Loops her arm through his and walks him towards the door. “It’s not your fault. Ron’s right, you did everything you could. They’re the adults. He can make his own decisions. And…if it helps, this happened last time too. He came last time.”
Harry’s head jerks up. “Yeah? And he was alright? They didn’t spot him?”
Hermione feels her face freeze up. Forces a smile and pretends to rearrange some books in her bag so she can look away. “Only his…furrier form. No-one recognised him. He was pretty careful. Stayed in the background.”
This year. Next year, on the other hand…
Ron claps Harry on the back as his shoulders fall in relief. “See? You were wicked, mate. Pretty much told her to sod off with that letter reading bollocks. And hey, between us?”
Hermione raises an eyebrow. Waits.
Ron grins. “I reckon I could have stopped her too. But that was good practice, wasn’t it? For the Ball. Thought I’d let her take me for a bit of a spin around the room. She gave away some good moves. Think Miss Brilliant fancies herself a bit of a dancer.”
Harry shoves him with a laugh. “Give off! You did not want dance practice!”
Ron grins wider. “I did! The voice was all: stand up straight, Weasley, and follow these steps. You’re a pureblood. Act like it. Don’t be an embarrassment, or no witch will ever want to dance with you. And I thought, you know what? Fair enough!”
Harry smiles. “You did look pretty elegant, I’ll give her that. It was an improvement to your usual lolloping. She must know her stuff.”
“Oy!” Ron complains. “I don’t lollop. Let’s see you dance if you’re so clever.”
Harry runs a hand through his hair and sighs. “Everyone will at this rate. Maybe I’ll have to ask Moody for dance lessons too. All the champions have to dance. And…unless you’ve come up with something, Hermione, it looks like I’m still going to be one.”
Hermione steps out of the way of a suit of armour, turning the corner towards the entrance stairs, frowning. “She’s not a dancer. She’s a Death Eater. The only time she looks like she’s dancing is when she’s spinning through spellfire. She’s arrogant. And she’s getting cocky. And we are not letting her win. She’s toying with us. You shouldn’t let her.”
She doesn’t know why she’s suddenly angry, but she is. She knows Ron is joking. Just cheering Harry up. But he shouldn’t. They shouldn’t joke about this. Shouldn’t humanise Bellatrix. Talk about her possible dance skills and…relax around her. They need to keep their distance. Not be pulled into her…strange charisma, and presence, and that confusing blend of knowledgeable teacher and screaming threat.
“So uhh…you’ve seen one? A real fight? With…her?” Ron asks hesitantly as they join the dinner crowd.
Hermione grips her wand tighter. Feels it. The hum. Hermione.
She looks at Ron and opens her mouth to—
The hairs on the back of her neck stand on end. An instinct. A feeing. A sense.
She spins around—
“Constant—” Bellatrix barks out—
“Silencio!” Hermione whispers, sending the charm over the crowd and up to the top of the stairway.
Moody’s mouth opens. No words come out.
The magical eye searches out Hermione. And the real eye.
Hermione smirks.
Bellatrix.
She’d felt it. She’s sensed her magic. And if their homework is to be more vigilant…
Then Hermione is going to pass with flying colours.
Ron elbows Hermione in the side as he cranes to get a better view of the lake. “You’re not pulling my leg? It’ll really be him? Here? Viktor Krum?”
Hermione rubs at her side and smiles. “Really. But he’s honestly just an ordinary wizard. He’s…a good quidditch player—”
“— bloody great quidditch player.”
“— and he trains hard, but he’s also pushed hard. Has a lot of expectations riding on him. And he doesn’t like all the fame and attention, so don’t go asking him for an autograph or anything, we’ll get one later.”
Ron gives her a sheepish look. Slides his quill back into his robes. “I wasn’t going to. I mean, unless he just happened to sit with us. Maybe if we get— look!”
And he almost knocks Dennis Creevey over as he steps forwards, pointing at the lake. A mast is appearing.
Harry snorts. “You sure Ron doesn’t ask Krum to the Ball?” he whispers to her.
Hermione laughs quietly. “Well last time he asked Fleur and got rejected. Maybe he’ll change it up this time.”
Harry glances back towards the castle. “So Fleur Delacour, Cedric Diggory, Viktor Krum, and me.”
Hermione slowly shakes her head, eyes on Karkaroff as he greets Dumbledore. “No. No, I’ve…I’ve decided…well if we can’t get you out of it, then I’m putting my name in too.”
Harry grabs her arm. “What?!” he says a bit too loudly. Gets a glare from McGonagall.
He mouthes an apology, but continues to stare at Hermione like she’s grown a second head.
Hermione ignores him. It’s perfectly reasonable. She’s old enough to pass the age line. Harry will need an ally. Especially in the maze. Just in case. In the graveyard, if it goes that far, which she really hopes it won’t. If worst comes to worst, she’s at least saving Cedric. It might not even work, but…
Well, she can give it a shot. She’s brave. And resilient. And she knows more now than any of the teenagers. There isn’t an upper age limit. And she’s a representative of Hogwarts. She’ll try to get Harry out of it, but if not, last resort, she’s fighting with him.
Harry keeps trying to catch her eye. She smiles at him and shakes her head. Non-negotiable.
And it’s time for them to go inside, everyone hurrying up the steps after Durmstrang, the French students already inside trying to get warm. Hermione still can’t understand it. Silk robes. On a Scottish mountain. Why?
Everyone around them is just as bad as Ron now, Seamus jumping to see the back of Viktor’s head, and Lavender wondering if he can sign something in lipstick as she forgot her quill.
They enter the hall. Watch Beauxbatons settle at the Ravenclaw table, and the Durmstang students head for Slytherin. Ron gives her a pleading look. “He’s about to sit with Malfoy,” he whines. “Can we at least warn him about that tosser?”
Hermione pushes him towards the Gryffindor table. “He’ll figure it out. He’s observant enough to see through it. Let’s just sit down and—”
Harry.
Hermione turns and frowns at Harry. “Did you just use magic?”
She’d felt it. Like a hum. Or a spark.
He shrugs. “Yeah. A warming spell. So what?”
A warming spell…
Hermione nods to herself.
Stops next to the Ravenclaw table and scans along it for Fleur.
More allies? Is that a good idea?
Can’t hurt. And it will be nice to see Fleur. She misses her.
She looks for…
Luna. Opposite Fleur. Well that’s handy.
She beckons to Harry and Ron, and makes her way over. “Hi Luna,” she says brightly, knowing Luna won’t think anything of it, even though they’ve barely spoken yet. “That’s a…nice necklace. Did you make it yourself?”
Luna turns to look at her. Then looks down at her peacock feather necklace as if only just noticing it. “Oh yes. Professor Moody gave me the idea, you see. It’s easier to be vigilant if people think you have a lot of eyes on them. That’s what peacocks use their feathers for. As fake eyes. Why are you talking to me, Hermione Granger?”
Hermione blinks. It’s been a while since she’s spoken to Luna. She’s gotten out of the strange rhythm of it.
“Uhh, you haven’t talked to Ginny, have you, Luna?” Ron asks. “Only she’s been giving us the silent treatment for ages, and we don’t really know why.”
Luna tilts her head at him thoughtfully. “No. You don’t understand. But you will eventually, it’s alright. And Ginny has found some new people to talk to. So she’s not alone, don’t worry. Is that why you’re here? You need to sit down at your table soon. People are funny about these things. Houses. Years. Ages.”
She turns and looks across at Fleur. “This is a very peculiar school, but it can be very nice,” she explains. “When people aren’t stealing your clothes. Is that why you’re cold too?”
Fleur scoffs, mouth open and seemingly appalled that this strange girl is even addressing her. “Our clothes are not stolen! It is the chateau that is too…open. The cold air is everywhere, even inside. Why do you live like this?”
Hermione pulls out her wand with a sigh. “It is a rather harsh climate, yes. But there’s always magic to keep us warm. You should remember that too, Luna. Here.”
She casts a warming charm on Luna. Then on herself. Then on Ron. “Anyone else?”
Fleur shakes her hair behind her shoulders with a tut. “We can also do magic. We do not need your help. We just thought you would be more welcoming…but…”
And she casts a warming spell at herself and the other Beauxbatons around her.
They all relax in relief. Hmm. Strange. Why didn’t they do that earlier?
“Good evening, ladies and gentlemen, ghosts, and, most particularly, guests!” Dumbledore calls.
Hermione hastily sits down next to Luna, dragging Harry and Ron with her. They get some odd looks, but at least there’s lots of space, and Luna seems happy not to be sat alone anymore.
“I have great pleasure in welcoming you all to Hogwarts. I hope and trust that your stay here will be comfortable and enjoyable.”
Fleur lets out a derisive laugh. Guess she still hasn’t grown up yet either. Hermione forgot how arrogant and spoilt she used to be. Kind of wants to kick her, under the table.
Ron and Harry seem to have other ideas. Staring across at the witch and practically drooling.
Oh.
Is that what’s so funny? Fleur’s uncomfortable…because of the boys?
Hermione…feels out for Fleur’s magic. It’s easier to feel than everyone else’s. The Veela thrall.
Hermione takes her wand out of her pocket and holds it in front of her casually. But pointed backwards. At Ron and Harry. “Protego…totus corpus,” she tries under her breath. Protect the whole body. From the Veela.
Luna leans to whisper to her. “Not body. Mind.”
Oh.
“Protego mentes,” she whispers, combining a protego wand movement with the legilimens movement. Protect the minds.
And Fleur’s gaze snaps to hers. Harry and Ron shift in their seats. Rub at their mouths and look down in surprise at the dishes of food that have appeared whilst they were gawping. Pick up their cutlery.
It worked. It actually worked. She can feel it. Or she can’t feel it. Fleur’s magic stopping behind the shield.
Hermione smiles at the witch. Shrugs.
Leaves her shield up and picks up her fork with her other hand to begin eating.
Fleur slowly begins to eat too. Reaches for the bouillabaisse. Eyeing Hermione suspiciously.
Hermione takes a breath and turns to Luna. “So. Tell me about these stolen clothes. I think it’s high time you got them back, don’t you?”
Chapter 8: Stand Vigil
Chapter Text
Hermione has to recast the shield spell a few times during dinner to keep the boys focused and Fleur free from their creepy leering, but now she has other things to focus on.
Because this is it. Their last chance. Twenty-four hours. From…now!
Filch carries the jewel encrusted casket containing the goblet down the aisle and over to the table in front of Dumbledore, who smiles and nods. “There will be three tasks spaced throughout the school year, and they will test the champions in different ways. Their magical prowess, their daring, their powers of deduction, and, of course, their ability to cope with danger.”
Hermione scribbles it all down on a piece of parchment. So those are the differentials! She’d forgotten! Maybe that will come in useful. Not that she has much time for any calculations. She’s run out of time, to be honest. It’s embarrassing. The amount of times she’s scolded Harry and Ron for leaving things to the last minute is— But this is difficult! Too difficult! Outsmarting Bellatrix, whilst having to keep up the teenage act and not causing any kind of diplomatic friction by tampering with an ancient relic or disrupting—
“…The Goblet of Fire!” Dumbledore announces, breaking her from her thoughts. He draws his wand with a flourish, and taps on the casket three times, the lid creaking open so he can pull out the small, wooden goblet, magical blue flames dancing around the rim.
“Didn’t think it was going to be that small,” Harry whispers. “Think we can just nick it once everyone’s gone to bed? Hide it in a sock drawer?”
Hermione smiles and shakes her head. If only.
“So! Anybody wishing to compete must clearly write their name and school on a piece of parchment, and place it in the goblet some time in the next twenty-four hours,” Dumbledore continues.
Oh!
Oh that’s it! Hermione can remember now! She can’t believe she forgot!
Schools!
That’s how Crouch did it. He confunded the goblet into thinking there were four schools. That way, Harry was the only option for the last, imaginary school. And so had to be chosen. One hundred percent probability.
So if Bellatrix is doing the same thing…they could maybe catch her in the act and have the confundus removed! Counter it!
They’d have to get the timing right…and she’d definitely notice what they’re up to…
But it’s something.
She grins at Harry. Nudges Ron. “I have a plan!” she breathes out excitedly. “I think I know how she’s going to do it!”
Ron and Harry duck closer to her, eyes sparking with a mixture of excitement and relief. “So? What is it?” Harry whispers.
Hermione nods. “We have to stand guard over the goblet. You’ll need to get your cloak, and we’ll have to take turns. Two of us at least at all times. For twenty-four hours. Thank Merlin it’s Saturday tomorrow.” Constant vigilance. How ironic.
Ron sighs. “Great. And if we’re guarding it…what do we do when she does show up?”
Hermione gets to her feet with a determined nod. “She taught us. Counter-curses, remember? There’s one for everything. Words. Magic is limitless. If all three of us form a strong enough counter-spell and hold it for long enough, at the right moment, she won’t be able to trick the goblet. She’s going to use—”
She pauses to move out of the way as Karkaroff passes with Viktor.
“Thank you,” Karkaroff says absentmindedly. Then spots Harry and does a double take, freezing in place.
He stares at Harry’s scar, as do all of the Durmstrang students stopping behind him to see what’s going on. Harry stares back uncomfortably.
“Yeah, that’s Harry Potter,” a voice growls from behind the crowd of students.
Karkaroff whirls around. The Durmstrang students part. Edge away from Moody.
“You!” Karkaroff shouts shakily, hoarsely, as if he can’t believe his eyes.
“Me,” Bellatrix replies grimly, leaning on her wooden staff. “And unless you’ve got anything you want to say to Potter, you’d better move. You’re blocking the aisle.”
Karkaroff pales even further, and then turns without comment, leading his confused students out of the Hall and back to the ship. Bellatrix watches him go, an…unreadable expression on her face.
Hermione sits back down on the bench, avoiding eye contact, but watching the witch out of the corner of her eye.
Then glances at Harry. Nods to the door. Go. Get the cloak.
Harry seems to read her mind, nodding at Bellatrix and then quickly leaving.
And Bellatrix wanders back over to the staff table. Way too close to the goblet for comfort. Magical eye scanning the room.
Her eye. Now that’s another problem. Hermione has no idea how that eye is powerful enough to see through Harry’s cloak, but it is. The cloak won’t help against Bellatrix.
But it will help them sneak back and forth to the Common Room over the next twelve hours. And not be seen by anyone else. So if Bellatrix sees them guarding the goblet…
There’s nothing they can do about it. She’ll know they’re suspicious. And that’s that.
But they could still stop her. Get in the way. Derail her plan.
And that’s the only hope they’ve got.
Hermione readies her wand. And waits.
It’s twenty minutes before Bellatrix leaves. Twenty minutes of Hermione and Ron pretending to look over some transfiguration notes, all whilst keeping their wands trained on the goblet.
A difficult thing to do surreptitiously, with a magical eye that can see straight through a table scanning over them.
But Bellatrix does leave, and Harry comes jogging in to meet them. No cloak in sight.
“C’mon then,” Harry says overly loudly. “Stop studying you two, it’s Friday night. Seamus has started a game of exploding snap up in the Common Room.”
And he pulls them towards the door.
“Harry!” Hermione hisses. “We can’t—”
“Snape!” he mutters back, opening his robes to show her the invisibility cloak held under his arm.
Oh.
Snape has followed Harry in, watching from the entrance. Shoot.
Well they definitely need to be careful about putting the cloak on now.
Although at least with Snape here, Bellatrix can’t do anything.
They reach the doorway.
Snape raises an eyebrow at them. “Trying to slip your name in before the age line is drawn, Potter? Or you, Weasley? I thought Miss Granger would have warned you against such foolish, asinine behaviour.”
Harry glances at Hermione and then grins. “Actually it was Hermione who wanted to hang around and see how age lines work, Professor. We were hoping we could watch Professor Dumbledore perform the spell.”
…What? Well…that could work.
Since when is Harry so sneaky?
Snape seems to be thinking the same thing, staring down at Harry, and then directing his fury at Hermione instead when Harry doesn’t react. “So now even the Headmaster owes you a private lesson, does he Miss Granger? You think so much of yourself that you believe you deserve to be set apart from your peers. How grand it must be…above them all…”
“Now, now, Severus,” a voice comes from behind them. Dumbledore. “No need to quell such inquisitive minds. It is, after all, the mark of a true young scholar, to question and investigate the ins and outs of magic. Something I believe you yourself have always been adept at.”
Snape draws in a deep breath and closes his eyes, just briefly, as if drawing on his last ounce of willpower to get through this interaction without snapping anyone’s necks.
Dumbledore smiles twinklingly. “Mr Weasley, would you be so kind as to fetch the goblet for me? It can go in the centre of the room, once we’ve gotten these cumbersome tables out of the way. Shall we, Severus?”
Ron hastily jogs off towards the goblet, looking a bit unsure about if he’s allowed to touch it, eyeing the flames warily.
And Harry pulls Hermione back out of the way as tables begin to hover around them. Snape and Dumbledore working together to move one at a time to the far edges of the room.
“You and Ron might have to take first watch,” Harry whispers. “There’s no way Snape will let me out of his sight. Here.”
He opens her bag and shoves his cloak inside.
Hermione quickly nods. “It’s seven o’clock now, so we have three hours before curfew. Try to get some sleep, but be back here before ten so Filch doesn’t catch you. Then Ron can go back and get some sleep. I’ll tell him to wake up at five to come and take over for me, and then we’ll be free to take turns throughout the day without it being suspicious.”
Harry groans quietly to himself. “Let’s just hope we catch her before midnight so—”
“There we are,” Dumbledore sighs contentedly. “Just there is fine, Ronald, my boy. Thank you, Severus. You were a marvellous help.”
Snape doesn’t respond.
Dumbledore continues beaming at them all. “Right then. Don’t be shy, gather round. Ah! But what am I saying? Stop!”
They all freeze.
Dumbledore chuckles to himself. “We can’t have any of you on the wrong side of the line. Now that would be quite the conundrum, especially for those too young to cross back. Yes. I suppose I should mark the circumference!”
And with a sweeping, swish of his wand, hands outstretched as though conducting, Dumbledore turns in a slow circle, a gold line engraving itself into the stone floor under their feet. A wide, ten foot circle all around the goblet. Dumbledore, she thinks to herself. She thinks she might be able to feel his magic already. A…presence.
Ron nudges her. “Quite a lot of entrances to watch,” he murmurs, looking around.
Hmm. He’s right. The main door isn’t the only way in, especially for staff.
“And now for the incantation! Or in this case…some magic of my own making,” Dumbledore winks. “With a little help from fundamental charms, of course. Have to remember those wand movements. And so…”
He clears his throat, eyes glinting. “Cavete intrantes, nec sapientia nec robore vos succurrent. Septendecem aetatis superare necesse, nisi expellemini ex circulo. Barba crescit, caput nescit!”
And for a shining moment, they’re blinded by a domed, neon blue light.
And then nothing.
The thin golden line the only hint of a boarder.
But…
Hermione feels out. Dumbledore.
Yes. Still there. Hanging in the air.
Dumbledore claps his hands together. “Rather anticlimactic, I’m afraid. But there we are.”
Anticlimactic? That was fascinating! He just created an entire warding system. Those wand movements! What were those? The combination of—
“And I’m afraid I must be going,” Dumbledore continues. “I’m sure our guests shall be settled by now, and what kind of hosts would we be if we did not welcome the new staff? I believe the staff room is calling us, Severus. And a slice of cake, if I am not mistake. How I love Fridays.”
He hooks his arm through Snape’s walking him towards the door.
“Friday night or any other, some of us still have duties to attend to,” Snape scowls, trying to slip his arm out of the headmaster’s apparently firm grip. “Dunderheaded students to supervise. Speaking of which, Potter—”
Dumbledore chuckles, leading him out of sight. “I’m sure Harry can find his way to the Common Room on his own. Or wherever else in the castle he wishes to be. Ah, to be young and free to walk in the moonlight…”
His voice fades away as they leave up the stairs.
Ron laughs, shaking his head. “Bloody bonkers,” he whispers. “But that was a stroke of luck, wasn’t it? Come on! Let’s get the cloak on, quick!”
Hermione pulls it out. Holds it up. “Can we still all fit?”
Harry shrugs. “We can try. Don’t want anyone else telling us to leave. Should be alright if we all sit down on the floor. Better sit at the edge though so no-one steps on us.”
And so they settle against the side of the Hall, under the tables so it won’t matter if a stray foot peeks out.
And they wait.
And wait.
Hermione pulls out a book.
“Hermione!”
She puts a hand over Harry’s mouth. “What? You could get your essays done too. And don’t say my name. We’re supposed to be discreet. Muffiliato!”
She opens her charms book to the page on the confundus charm. Taps it. “This is what I think Bellatrix will use. A really powerful confundus. Powerful, but quite easy to stop, actually.”
She shows them the counter-charm. Or in this case, a simple protego shield. “Even a protego might work with enough power behind it. But we should try a more precise variation. Protego confundus, for example. Or protego corruptis. She’s relying on the fact that nobody knows it’s her. Underestimating her opponent,” she smiles.
Ron huffs from where he’s squashed up next to her, head touching the underside of the table. “Yeah, I’m not sure you get to sound all smug when you’re using what she taught us to beat her.”
Harry yawns. Probably nods, although she can’t see him. “We’re the ones in a tight spot alright. She’s probably up in the staff room eating cake.”
True. Hermione’s bum is getting a bit numb.
But it’ll be worth it! She can’t wait! And she’s so curious to see what happens if Harry isn’t in the tournament.
Plus, once that’s out of the way, they can focus on getting Bellatrix discovered.
And then there’s the whole wrong-time-slash-universe problem to work on. But she’s pushed that very, very far to the back of her mind, for obvious reasons.
Ron nudges her. “Someone!”
What?
Oh!
She tucks her feet closer to her and raises her wand…
Durmstrang. One of the Durmstrang boys.
She holds in a disappointed sigh. Feels Ron slump against her.
Reaches for her book. Starts working out the wand movement for a modified protego so she can teach it to Ron and Harry.
And all the candles go out. As they do after every mealtime is over.
Well, perfect.
“Tempus,” Harry mutters, voice gravelly from disuse. “Five to ten. One of us had better get back to the Common Room. Whoever it is can get some sleep and swap in later.”
Hermione practices the wand movement again. And again. “One of you go. I need to stay. Need to…stop her,” she yawns.
“Why don’t we all just stay?” Ron says. “It’s not like they check our beds. If they did, we would have been screwed in first year. Pretty much every year. And if we all stay—”
“Door!” Harry whispers.
They all freeze. Staff entrance this time. It could be her.
Shit. And Hermione’s leg is completely numb and useless.
They all raise their wands. Ready to go.
Whoever it is doesn’t cast a lumos. Just edges closer in the dark, the blue flames and the moonlight the only source of light, shadows flickering…
Hermione tried to kneel up. Just in case. Grits her teeth and holds her wand steady…
“Ginny?” Ron whispers.
…It is Ginny.
Harry pulls the cloak off of them. Casts a lumos. “What are you doing?”
Ginny spins to face them, right at the edge of the line. “Shit! Harry? Ron! Hermione, what— Why are you here?”
They all get to their feet, Hermione picking up the cloak, and make their way over to Ginny.
There’s a small piece of parchment in Ginny’s hand.
Ron groans. “You’re trying to put your name in? Are you stupid? There’s no way you’ll get past the line.”
Ginny folds her arms and glares up at him. “Fred and George are trying. I don’t see why I can’t. And anyway, why are you here? Don’t go off on me just because—”
“And look what we have here. Just as I suspected.”
And Snape appears from the shadows by the staff entrance. Smirks at them gleefully.
“…Tempus,” he pronounces.
Looks at the hovering numbers. His smirk sharpens. “One minute past ten. Tell me, Potter. When is curfew at this school?”
“Ten o’clock, Sir,” Harry grits out. “But—”
“But…this time does not apply to you, and your…friends. I see.”
Hermione almost groans in frustration. “Professor, please listen. We have to watch the goblet. Someone’s going to tamper with it. They want to—”
Snape folds his arms. “Tamper with an extremely powerful, ancient relic, imbued with protection by the Headmaster himself, and placed in the most secure location in the country? And you are arguing…that it needs to be guarded by three fourth years, and a third year?”
Hermione shakes her head. “We need your help too! It’s not safe. The age line only stops teenagers, not adults. Anyone seventeen or older could put a name in. Any name. We—”
“Out!” Snape shouts. Casts a lumos and practically blinds them as he points toward the door. “You are all out after curfew, and so will all be in detention for the next week as it is. And think yourselves lucky that you won’t be expelled for interfering with such a ceremonious, diplomatic event. Your foolish arrogance could have a lasting impact on the school’s reputation. Do you have any idea what would have happened if one of the judges had found you in here? Hogwarts students? Cheating?”
And he opens his arms wide, somehow sweeping them all towards the door with his presence alone, none of them wanting to accidentally knock into him.
What should they do? Could they stop him? They have to stay!
They reach the Entrance Hall—
“Wait!” Ginny shouts. “Wait, I— I need the bathroom! Let me go to the bathroom. There’s one back there.”
Snape snorts. “Twenty points from Gryffindor for such outright lies.”
Ginny wriggles past him anyway. “It’s the truth! There’s one here. I’ll just—”
And she starts running down the corridor.
“Weasley!” Snape barks, whirling in her direction, face white with anger. “Ten more points from Gryffindor, and three weeks detention if you do not get back here—”
Ron runs after her. “I’ll get her, don’t worry, Professor,” he grins. “Oy! Gin!”
Snape growls. “Weasley—”
Harry runs off down a different corridor. “I’ll cut her off! I know a shortcut!”
Hermione holds a hand to her mouth to cover a smile.
Snape whips to face her. Glares at her. Looks at the door to the Great Hall suspiciously. “Whatever you’re up to…”
Hermione schools her expression. Swallows. “Please, sir. We’re just trying to keep Harry safe. Someone’s out to get him. An imposter in the school.”
Snape frowns.
Looks down the corridor Harry ran down.
Starts striding off after him, cape billowing. “Stay there, Granger. Or you will regret being born.”
Hermione breathes out a sigh of relief.
Waits for him to get nearer the end of the corridor.
Puts the invisibility cloak on and sneaks back towards the Great Hall—
Ginny comes sprinting back down the corridor. “Hermione!” she hisses, looking down each corridor and then behind her. “Where are you?”
Hermione pulls the cloak off again. Waves and steps—
Feels a tingling—
“Ah!” Ginny shouts, smacking straight into…
Moody. Bellatrix. Suddenly appearing from around a corner.
Ginny clings onto Bellatrix as they wobble unsteadily.
Then shouts again and scrambles away when she realises who she just bumped into. “Shit! Professor! I’m sorry, I— Snape saw me out after curfew and—”
“Ten points from Gryffindor, Weasley,” Bellatrix barks. “What are you doing roaming the castle in the middle of the night? And— Granger!”
No no no…
Eyes in the back of her head. Hermione forgot.
Could Hermione petrify her? Maybe if—
And Snape rounds the corner, dragging Harry and Ron with him by the collars. He’s panting. Red cheeked. And furious.
He throws the boys at Hermione. “All of you. Up to your dormitories. Now,” he spits. “And be sure to explain to your housemates in the morning why Gryffindor is in minus points.”
Bellatrix snorts. “What are you doing chasing students around, Snape? Never heard of a stunning spell? Or is that too tame for your tastes? Enjoying the chase?”
Snape freezes. Notices Bellatrix’s presence and stiffens. Stares steadily at the wall. Doesn’t reply.
Bellatrix barks out a laugh.
Walks over to the doors to the Great Hall. “Why don’t you make yourself useful, lad, and walk them up to bed? Seems they need to be kept on a shorter leash. Especially the little one. She’s got a slip of parchment in her hand. Guess she thinks herself a champion…”
Snape whirls to face Ginny. Grabs her sleeve.
Drags her off up the stairs. “Detention. One month. Every weekend. And the same for any of you who do not come. With me. Now!”
Hermione looks at him. Then at Harry. Then turns to—
Bellatrix is gone.
And the door to the Great Hall is closed shut.
No. No, she—
If Hermione opens the door, Bellatrix will see. And could run away. And could know that Hermione knows.
But Harry…
But Snape is watching! And if she gets detention, she won’t have as much time to—
Stop Bellatrix! Just stop her!
Hermione runs towards the Great Hall. Pushes the doors open and rushes inside, squinting around in the darkness and raising her wand, protego on the tip of her—
Bellatrix is stood over the goblet.
Her fist opens.
A glint of white is visible in the moonlight. Parchment.
A small piece of parchment, drifting down to fall past the blue flames and into the cup.
Bellatrix catches her eye. Grins at her.
And begins coming towards her. Foot tapping.
Hermione can’t believe it, frozen in shock. Can’t believe this is happening again. That she was too late. That—
Bellatrix reaches her. Grabs her still raised wrist. “Detention. You’ll be serving it with me, I think, seeing as you’re so keen to come running after me. What was it Snape said? One month’s detention? Guess I’d better follow the school rules.”
And she walks Hermione out of the room, grip tight.
Hermione tries to tug herself free. Tries to dig her heels in. “What were you doing?” she grunts out. “Why were you near the goblet?”
Bellatrix carries on dragging her up the stairs, no sign of Snape or the others. “I’m the defense professor, girl!” she shouts. “We have strangers all over the castle! We have the boy who lived in our midst! We have Snape, and Karkaroff! Ex Death Eaters. We have Barty Crouch, whose own son was a convicted Death Eater. I’m here as a favour to Dumbledore. Extra protection. I was guarding the goblet, idiotic witch!”
Hermione finally manages to push her away as they reach the next floor. “No, you weren’t!” she cries. “I saw—”
“Prove it!” Bellatrix snarls. Pushes up close to Hermione, backing her into a wall, eyes to crazy eyes. “Can you prove it? Hmm?”
Hermione backs away. Presses herself to the stone.
Bellatrix grins at her once more. “Think you’ve still got more to learn, Granger.”
And she ducks behind a suit of armour, walking off up a spiral staircase.
Hermione’s shoulders slump. A lump forms in her throat. Stupid. It went so wrong. How did it…
Harry…
Poor Harry…
Hermione looks up the main staircase.
She should get back to the others. To the Common Room, before Snape finds her again and gives her detention for the year.
She doesn’t.
Trudges down the steps. Let’s her feet carry her down, down to the Entrance Hall.
She pulls a piece of parchment out of her bag. Rips a corner off.
Takes out a quill.
Hermione Granger. Hogwarts.
Pushes the door to the Great Hall open.
Strides over to the goblet. Up to the age line.
Steps over it.
Reaches up…and puts her name in the Goblet of Fire.
Chapter 9: Await the Results
Chapter Text
Hermione heads to breakfast early the next morning, unable to sleep. Sips at her tea and watches over her book as different students nervously cross the age line to submit their names. Warrington from Slytherin. Roger Davies from Ravenclaw.
It’s not long before Harry and Ron come and slump down next to her, bleary eyed and miserable looking. They’d waited up for her in the Common Room last night.
She’d told them about Bellatrix. And about putting her name in.
“Did you see the house points?” Harry asks quietly, reaching for a piece of toast.
Hermione nods. She’d seen it. Empty hourglass for Gryffindor.
Ron sighs heavily. “Bit of luck that everyone’s focused on the goblet instead. But I am not looking forward to whatever nightmare Snape is going to have us acting out in detention. If Neville got disembowelment just for melting one stupid cauldron…we’re doomed. Goodbye freedom. Goodbye evenings sat by the fire.”
Hermione takes another sip of tea. “Well, he can’t give Harry detention for a whole month. Not if he’s a champion. And I’ve got detention with Moody, so—”
“So it’s just me and Snape then. Perfect. Oh, and Ginny. Who I’m not going to talk to now either for ruining everything. She—”
“Ssh,” Harry interrupts him. “It’s Ginny. She’s coming over.”
Ron scoffs, folding his arms. “She has some nerve. We were this close to catching her. And Snape would have seen too. We’d be bloody heroes by now rather than—”
Ginny skips over the last few steps and plops down next to Harry, stealing some of his toast with a deft swipe and smiling brightly at them. “Morning! You guys alright? My legs are aching from sprinting around the castle so fast. Worth it though.”
They all give her incredulous looks.
“Worth it?!” Ron squawks. “You’ve gone and got Harry pretty much killed is what you’ve done! Helped bring a Dark Lord—”
Ginny shoves the piece of toast in his mouth. “Sshh!” she hisses as some people turn to look at them curiously. “And you don’t get it. We got Snape away from the goblet.”
“Snape?” Harry says, eyebrows raising into his hair in disbelief. “It wasn’t about Snape! It was—”
They’re interrupted as Fred, George, and Lee Jordan come running into the room, whooping excitedly.
One twin sidles up to whisper to them. “We’ve done it!”
Hermione rolls her eyes.
“Done what?” Ginny asks.
He sticks out his tongue. “Ageing potion. One drop each for me, Georgie, and Lee. Whoever gets picked is gonna split the winnings three ways.”
Hermione sighs. “I’m not sure that will work. You do know we watched Dumbledore create the age line? I’m not sure a potion will fool it.”
George comes over. “Course it will! Besides, it’s only a couple of months until our birthday anyway. We only needed a couple of months extra. Ready, Fred?”
“Ready, George. Sure you don’t want a bit, Gin? Or are you still doing your own thing?” Fred asks, wiggling his eyebrows.
Ginny’s face pales. She leans closer. “You knew? How did you know what I was doing?”
The twins wink at her, tapping the sides of their heads. “Can’t outsmart us. We saw you sneaking off to the dungeons—”
“— and hanging out with those older years—”
“—Coming into the Common Room late—”
“— Hiding things up your—”
Ginny is getting steadily redder now. Shoves the nearest twin. “Don’t you have a line to cross before your potion wears off?”
Fred salutes her and walks off with a chuckle. Stops at the edge of the line.
Steps over.
George lets out a whoop when nothing happens. Idiot.
Hermione doesn’t even bother watching the rest. She hears the laughter when the beards appear.
Watches Ginny instead. Sneaking off to the dungeons? What’s she been up to?
Ginny catches her eye.
Snatches another slice of toast and slips it into her pocket, getting to her feet. “You’ll see,” she whispers to Hermione with a wink, ducked so her hair is falling around them and no-one can see. “Now I’d better go. Someone just walked in.”
Ginny spins and walks out of the Hall, and Hermione looks around…feels around…
Bellatrix. Standing near the staff entrance, magical eye scanning the room. Pausing on Hermione.
Hermione gets to her feet too, suddenly not hungry. “I was thinking of going to Hagrid’s,” she says to the boys. “It’s what we did last time, and we haven’t seen him outside of class yet. Nothing else to do…so…want to get away from here for a bit?”
Harry gives her a grateful look. “Yeah. That sounds great, actually. Need a distraction.”
Ron nods absentmindedly, grabbing some pastries and pushing as many as he can into his bag, flaky crumbs getting everywhere.
He catches Hermione’s eye. Shrugs. “One benefit of those French lot. They can keep their cheese and bouillabaisse, but croissants and pain au chocolate? Whoever’s making these knows their stuff.”
Hermione transfigures a napkin into a more sensible, separate bag and hands it to him. “Put them in this. Or I’m sure we can just go down to the kitchens and talk to the house-elves if you want some more.”
Harry frowns. “House-elves? Like Dobby? They work in the kitchens?”
Hermione smacks herself in the forehead. SPEW! This is the year they all found out about house-elves because of Winky and Crouch! But Winky wasn’t—so they have no idea who makes the food or cleans up after them or—
She marches them out of the hall. “Yes, Harry. House-elves. Like Dobby. And it’s a very complicated issue rife with ethical dilemmas and almost certainly tied into race issues. Luckily I know a fair amount about the rights of magical creatures. You see…”
And she begins a much more nuanced explanation of house-elves as they make their way out of the entrance door and down through the grounds towards Hagrid’s hut. They pass the Beauxbatons carriages and Fleur on the way, who glares at them apparently for just passing through.
Hermione casts the shield charm she’d come up with and keeps walking. She can’t have the boys getting distracted. She’s only reached the fourth amendment on her most recently revised bill of house-elf rights. Or will write, ten years from now. Maybe she can lay down some foundations in this world too and get ahead of the game. Earn the other Hermione more time to act.
…If there is another Hermione.
She’s not thinking about that yet.
If they’d thought waiting for the feast last night to end was agony, then the one tonight is pure torture. The table piled high with food.
The goblet ready and waiting, now sat in front of Dumbledore’s chair.
Even Ron has barely touched his dinner, which says it all, really.
But finally, finally, the long wait is over. The goblets and plates clean themselves, the chatter in the hall mounts.
And then dies away instantly as Dumbledore gets to his feet, Madame Maxime and Karkaroff watching expectantly and tensely from either side of him, and even Ludo Bagman and Barty Crouch Senior making an appearance, sat at the very ends of the staff table.
“Well, the goblet is almost ready to make its decision,” Dumbledore announces. “I would like to ask that when the champions’ names are called, they each come forward, walk along past the staff table, and exit through to the back chamber where they will receive their first instructions.”
He shakes his sleeves back and raises his wand…
And extinguishes all of the candles in the room apart from those within the carved pumpkins sat along the tables, plunging them into shadowy semi-darkness.
Hermione reaches for Harry’s hand. Squeezes it tightly.
Harry gives her a nervous smile.
“Any second now…” Lee Jordan whispers from a few seats away.
And he’s right. Hermione turns back towards the front, the goblet glows red, and a piece of parchment is spat out, shooting into the air and drifting downwards.
Dumbledore catches it. “The champion for Durmstrang…will be Viktor Krum!”
And there’s a roar of applause as everyone gets to their feet, Ron pulling Harry up with him and flinging an arm over his shoulder to hold him steady. He’s shaking. “No surprises there then!” Ron yells. “At least that’s something!”
“Bravo, Viktor!” Karkaroff booms, loud even above the crowd.
But then the noise dies down once more, all eyes on the goblet.
It glows red.
Dumbledore clears his throat. “The champion for Beauxbatons is Fleur Delacour!”
And Fleur of course gets to her feet with the grace of a ballerina, long blonde hair swishing behind her as she makes her way between the Ravenclaw and Hufflepuff tables and disappears into the back chamber to yet another round of thunderous applause.
Hermione can’t even muster the energy to stand up this time. She’s light-headed. She thinks she might be sick. Why did she put her name in? Dragons? And a maze of…deadly creatures, and deadly hedges, and a deadly psychopath waiting at the end. A graveyard of psychopaths. Why—
“The Hogwarts’ champion…” Dumbledore calls into the now silent hall.
Please be Cedric, a very small part of Hermione whispers from the back of her mind.
“…is…oh dear.”
Dumbledore pauses. Frowns. Muttering breaks out as his eyes scan up the Gryffindor table.
He lowers his glasses down his nose.
Disappointed and worried eyes fixed on Hermione.
“Hermione Granger,” he announces solemnly.
The nail in the coffin.
And now everyone turns to look at Hermione.
Shit.
It worked.
…now what?
“What is the problem, Mister Dumbledore?” Madame Maxime asks confusedly. “You do not want this witch as your champion?”
Dumbledore just continues to frown.
“Miss Granger is…underage, Madame Maxime,” McGonagall explains, and the disappointment on her face is infinitely worse than Dumbledore’s. “She is barely fifteen years old.”
Some of the beauxbatons students gasp in realisation, and both Karkaroff and Madame Maxime rise to their feet. “This an outrage! So your age line did not work!” Madame Maxime shouts.
And then Karkaroff barks out a laugh. “Well, she has been chosen! Her magic is tied. It looks like Hogwarts is already at a disadvantage, with only a young girl to fight for them! Oh Albus, my friend. I am sorry for your misfortune,” he chuckles.
Dumbledore smiles uncertainly. Beckons to Hermione. “Miss Granger! Up here, if you please!”
Harry nudges her. “I’ll see you soon,” he whispers. “It’s fine. They won’t be angry with you for long once my name appears. Go on.”
Hermione stands up and climbs off of the bench. Grits her teeth and nods to herself as she makes her way down through the rows.
It’s fine. It’s fine.
This is taking forever.
Breathe. Just breathe.
She stops in front of Dumbledore. “Headmaster, I—”
“Through the door, Hermione,” he says, unsmiling. Eyes hard. “We will—”
And he pauses as shouts ring out throughout the room.
The goblet glows red once more. And another piece of parchment flies out. Drifting into the air and falling into Dumbledore’s reaching hand.
Harry. Here they go again.
Hermione’s eyes drift along the staff table, looking for….
“Bellatrix Black,” Dumbledore whispers.
Hermione blinks.
…what?
Her head jolts back around to stare at Dumbledore, not believing her ears.
Dumbledore pushes his glasses more firmly onto the bridge of his nose. Looks to McGonagall. Then Snape. Then Moody.
Draws his wand and lights all of the candles in the Hall, bringing the whole room into startling clarity.
He holds up the piece of parchment. “Bellatrix Black!” he shouts.
Hermione draws her own wand, wide eyes searching out Harry and Ron.
What the hell is happening?
Harry jumps to his feet. “It’s him! It’s Professor Moody! He’s Bellatrix! She must have put her own name in!” he shouts, pointing at Moody.
Bellatrix gets to her feet too with a growl. “Be careful where you’re pointing fingers, lad! Especially at those of us who have been fighting the dark forces for longer than you’ve been alive!”
Then she limps closer to Dumbledore. “What do you say, Albus? Should we put the castle into lockdown? Interrogate every single one of them until the slimy traitor comes forward? You know I’ve got some veritaserum ready, and I’m betting either Snape or Karkaroff will be quick to talk.”
And Bellatrix turns on Snape, reaching into her robes.
Harry comes running down the aisle, wand drawn. “Get away from him! We know it’s you! Give up! We know you’ve been drinking polyjuice from your flask!”
“Oh you mean this flask?” Bellatrix roars, face twisted with fury. Takes the flask from inside her robes and holds it up. “This flask, that I’ve drank from since nineteen seventy-eight, when one young wizard by the name of Severus Snape decided to slip a sleeping potion into my drink? Hmm?!”
She upends the flask.
Water pours out onto the floor.
“Constant vigilance,” she hisses.
Then grabs a very pale Snape by the scruff of the neck, dragging him to his feet.
By now the noise in the Hall has risen from confused babbling to shouted speculations and accusations from all around.
Dumbledore casts a sonorus and directs it at his throat. “Silence!”
All falls still.
Dumbledore nods measuredly. “I believe there are some elements that need to be explained before we move forward,” he says calmly. “Now, as some of you may be aware, there is no student here at Hogwarts by the name of Bellatrix Black. She is a witch that attended this school some…twenty years ago, if I do recall correctly. Her name appearing from the goblet, is something that can only be assumed to be an elaborate prank. And a rather distasteful one at that. Miss Black cannot compete in this tournament…because she died more than a decade ago, whilst serving out her sentence in Azkaban prison as a supporter of the wizard known as Lord Voldemort.”
“And we have another two supporters sat right here,” Bellatrix barks over the growing commotion, glaring at Snape and Karkaroff.
“Alastor!” Dumbledore snaps harshly, the name echoing in the stillness.
A crackling fills the air. A buzzing. Dumbledore.
“I understand that tensions are running high,” Dumbledore says firmly and clearly. “But I would ask that you not make accusations of my staff or my guests within this school. Both Severus and Igor have long been pardoned for any actions taken in their pasts, and are no more followers of Voldemort than I am. And will be treated with respect.”
Bellatrix let’s go of Snape. Huffs and looks at the floor sulkily. “Innocent until proven guilty. You’re still standing by that motto?”
Dumbledore smiles. “As it should be for us all, in a civilised society.”
Bellatrix shrugs. Nods.
Goes and sits back down. “Then I guess we’ll have to wait for the guilty bastard to come forward. Someone’s out there stirring the pot. If you change your mind about your methods, you know where I am and what sort of spells I have up my sleeves. Until then, you’d better get back there with the other champions, Granger.
Hermione startles on hearing her name, still just…gobsmacked and utterly bewildered by everything that is happening. She— but—
“But it’s her!” Ron yells, pointing at Bellatrix.
Bellatrix grins. “Innocent until proven guilty, Weasley. But if you want to imagine I’ve got a dead witch under my robes, go ahead.”
She’s not dead, Hermione wants to blurt out. You’re not dead. I saw you. I saw you at the World Cup. And I saw you put a name in the goblet.
But Bellatrix’s words from the night before echo around her head, and she keeps her mouth shut, shaking her head at Harry and Ron resignedly.
Can you prove it?
Hermione still can’t quite believe what’s happening as she leaves the Great Hall, making her way past the teachers’ table and through the door into the back room, a smaller chamber filled with portraits and a large glowing hearth.
Bellatrix’s name was in the goblet…
How? Why? Why on Earth was it Bellatrix’s name and not Harry’s?
The other two champions are silhouetted in the firelight, Viktor leaning against a column and deep in thought, Fleur turning to face her.
But before either can say anything, their eyes move over her shoulder.
“Miss Granger. A word, if you please,” comes Dumbledore’s voice.
Hermione’s shoulders fall.
And tense. He left Bellatrix alone in the Great Hall?
Fleur and Viktor give her matching looks of suspicion as Dumbledore leads her into a dark, far corner of the chamber.
Hermione fiddles with her wand and looks at the floor. She knows what he’s thinking. Oh this is horrible.
Dumbledore squeezes her shoulder. “Look at me, Hermione.”
She slowly raises her gaze. Yep. There are those disappointed eyes again.
“Hermione, did you put your name in the goblet of fire?” Dumbledore asks gently.
Hermione bites her lip. Looks over at Viktor and Fleur instead, unable to take it. “I…I’m sorry, Headmaster,” she whispers. “I…I asked an older student to put my name in. I wanted to compete. I thought I was— that I was clever enough. And when you made the age line, you didn’t say that you had to put your own name in. Anyone could put a name in. So I…took my opportunity. I wanted to try. To prove myself.”
That’s the lie she’s come up with. The one they’ll believe. The one that will take the suspicion off her age.
Even if it will make her seem like a stupid, arrogant, naive little child.
It’s for the best.
Dumbledore sighs. “As I feared. And now tell me this, Hermione, and this is important. You must tell me the truth now.”
Now Hermione frowns. Turns to look at him.
He looks around. Smiles at Bagman and Crouch, who have now come through, and walks her further away, stopping them to look at a portrait of a wizard with a ridiculously large, walrus-like moustache.
Dumbledore clears his throat. “A young lady with a keen mind, and a point to prove. But what I would like to know…is if there was another point that you…and perhaps Harry and young Ronald Weasley…were proving.”
Umm…what?
She glances sideways at him. He smiles sadly. “You are quite correct in your assessment that my age line was flawed. That anyone could put another’s name in…even without their consent. Now, a few days ago, I do recall Harry coming to me with the belief that one Bellatrix Black was hidden within the castle. So I am asking you, Hermione. Did you also put Bellatrix’s name in the goblet, in order to convince me of your theories?”
…what?
He thinks…they not only imagined Bellatrix’s name on the Marauders’ Map, but also confunded the goblet and added Bellatrix’s name just to prove a point?!
“No!” Hermione exclaims, probably a bit too loudly, her voice echoing around the room. “No, we have no idea how her name got in there! And that’s what’s even more suspicious! We saw her on the map, and now she’s in the goblet too? Professor, you can’t believe that’s a coincidence!”
He smiles at her knowingly. “Hardly a coincidence at all. But if you are certain…?”
Hermione folds her arms. “Yes. Professor—”
“Kids will be kids, am I right, Headmaster?” Ludo Bagman says with a boyish grin, coming up behind Dumbledore. “Bellatrix Black. Now that would have been an interesting tournament.”
“Interesting?” McGonagall snaps as she comes into the room too, worry in her features and pace hurried. “This is no time for joking, Mr Bagman.”
And then more quietly to Dumbledore. “Are you sure it is wise to continue?” Her eyes dart to Hermione. “You cannot be expecting us to stand by and let this happen. As qualified as that goblet, and apparently Miss Granger, have deemed her to be, she is still underage.”
Oh Hermione wishes she could reassure her. Hermione is probably the most qualified contestant. Knows what’s to come. Has years of practice. Much more than the other champions.
Well, except for maybe Bellatrix.
And speaking of which, here she comes now, close on the heels of Snape and Karkaroff, watching them suspiciously. Karkaroff does seem jumpy, and Snape…
Has regained some composure. And seems to have found a new outlet to focus on. Swoops in on Hermione.
“Curious about the age line? Someone tampering with the goblet? I believe we need look no further to find the instigator of this so-called prank, Headmaster.”
Everyone else gathers around too, all stopping their private conversations to openly stare at Hermione.
Mr Crouch pushes forward, hands behind his back and glaring down at Hermione. “Yes. Very curious that of all people, Miss Granger here has been chosen. You have a habit of being in the wrong place at the wrong time, girl. Getting mixed up in matters that don’t concern you…”
Hmm. Still angry about Narcissa, then.
Hermione raises her chin. Glances at Bellatrix. Continues anyway. “Being in the wrong place at the wrong time isn’t a crime, as I told you before. No matter who you are.”
Crouch’s eyes narrow further. “Indeed? Is that what this school has been teaching you? You think you can talk down to your elders? Stick your nose in and—”
“Get on with it, Crouch,” Bellatrix barks. “We can discuss all that later. Now is the girl competing, or do we need another champion for Hogwarts? Or better yet, maybe we can cancel this ruddy tournament altogether. It should never have been held to begin with. Told you as much, Albus. Asking for trouble.”
Crouch’s jaw clenches. He almost looks like he might call Bellatrix out on her tone, daring to speak to a Ministry official so brashly, but Bellatrix continues staring at him and he balks, stepping back and clearing his throat. “As unusual as events this evening have been, I see no option but for the tournament to continue as planned. Miss Granger is underage, but her name has been entered. This constitutes a magically binding contract. She must compete in each task, as poor as her performance is likely to be. Perhaps she will serve as a warning to those foolish enough to enter unprepared.”
“Has to compete? Albus, this cannot be true,” McGonagall whispers.
Dumbledore nods gravely. “I’m afraid Bartemius is correct. “However, I’m sure by now Hermione has realised her lapse in judgement, and will do her utmost to learn all she can for each of the tasks ahead.”
Hermione ducks her head and quickly nods. She hates this. Hates everyone looking at her like she’s stupid. Arrogant. Looking for glory.
A loud clap startles her into lifting her head. Ludo Bagman. “Right then. Now, uh, now that’s settled, gather around, champions. Don’t be shy. Not that any of you are,” he laughs.
Viktor and Krum take a step further forward, clearly unamused, but eager to…
Moody has stepped closer too. Shifted closer, just slightly.
Seriously, Bellatrix?
Hermione resists the urge to give her a look, knowing that would be a bad idea with this many people around.
No-one else seems to have noticed.
"The first task is designed to test your daring," Bagman tells them excitedly. “So we are not going to be telling you what it is. Courage in the face of the unknown is an important quality in a wizard or witch. Very important.”
Hermione almost laughs. See. She’s definitely qualified. Facing the unknown? She seems to be doing that a lot more often than she would have suspected, given she’s living in the past.
"The first task will take place on November the twenty-fourth, in front of the other students and the panel of judges,” Crouch continues in a more serious monotone, as if reciting the guidelines from memory. “The champions are not permitted to ask for or accept help of any kind from their teachers to complete the tasks in the tournament. The champions will face the first challenge armed only with their wands. They will receive information about the second task when the first is over. Owing to the demanding and time-consuming nature of the tournament, the champions are exempted from end-of-year tests. Any questions?”
There aren’t any questions. Not aloud.
But Hermione can definitely read about a dozen questions on everyone’s faces.
She can’t help herself. Raises her hand.
Bagman grins. “Yes! Miss Granger, Hogwarts. Any questions?”
Hermione looks around at everyone, gaze pausing on Bellatrix. “So all champions have to compete in every single task, otherwise they…lose their magic?”
Bagman grimaces, laughing awkwardly. “Uh…yes. Magically binding, as Barty said. So just…do your best, alright?”
Karkaroff chuckles too. “Yes. I would suggest you show up and try not to die. You do not have to have the best points. Save those for the real competitors.”
Hermione nods. Keeps her eyes on Bellatrix.
Okay. So Bellatrix has to show up to each of the tasks, or lose her magic.
Well that should hold her up a bit in her plans to kidnap Harry.
After that, they’re quickly sent off to bed so that the staff can get back to the possible ‘Bellatrix issue’.
And the whole time with Bellatrix stood right there in Moody’s body.
Fleur and Viktor barely glance her way before leaving.
It’s strange without Cedric there. Or Harry. She’d been certain Harry would be here with her.
She’s changed things. Really changed things now. Cedric won’t be champion. Won’t compete. Won’t die.
So this must be a good outcome? Right.
Hermione isn’t so sure as she heads back to the Common Room, alone.
But when she gets there, gods, it’s bizarre! People are smiling at her. Cheering! Think she outsmarted the goblet, Fred and George clapping her on the back and asking how she did it without getting a beard. Offering her food, and sweets, and drinks, and— just—
“I’m tired!” she bellows when ten minutes has passed without a break from their clamouring, looking around for Harry and Ron. “I’m going to bed! I’m—”
No-one listens, busy celebrating.
She pushes through the crowd and heads towards the stairs to the boys dorms instead. Where are they? Did they even come back?
She knocks on the door to the fourth-year room and then walks right in. Oh.
They’re sat on Harry’s bed with Ginny.
They turn to look at her. Harry grins. “It was Ginny! You’ve gotta hear this, Hermione! It’s amazing!”
Hermione frowns. What? It— what does that mean? What did—
Ginny shuffles over and pats the bed. “Quick. Before the other boys come up here.”
Hermione hurries over and sits down. “What did Harry mean? What did you do?”
Ginny leans in, eyes glinting mischievously. “So now you don’t think I’m too young? Don’t think I can’t understand this stuff? Can’t be discrete?”
“Just hurry up and tell her!” Ron says.
Ginny bounces on the bed and smiles. “Fine. You see, I wasn’t really angry with you. Well, I was at first. But that’s what gave me the idea. You said that Bellatrix was powerful. And was watching. So…I stayed away from you all. Pretended I hated you. That way, she wasn’t paying attention to me,” she explains.
Tucks her hair behind her ears. “The next thing, was that if she’s so clever, then she was bound to get past the enchantments and put the parchment in the cup. There was no stopping that. She was going to put a name in the goblet. But…”
She shows Hermione her empty palm. Then flicks her wrist. A piece of parchment appears.
It reads: Harry Potter – Hogwartes
Hogwarts is spelt wrong. And she recognises that handwriting.
That’s Bellatrix’s handwriting.
Ginny flicks her wrist again. The parchment disappears. “Magic,” Ginny whispers. “But not real magic. Muggle magic. It’s called slight of hand. I caught some older Slytherins doing it and asked them to teach me. Told them if they didn’t, I’d tell the other Slytherins that they were using muggle magic.”
Slight of hand? So…
Hermione gasps. “You bumped into her! Before she went into the Great Hall and confunded the goblet! You— you bumped into her on purpose? To switch the parchment? How did you know she’d be there?”
Ginny squints at her. “I’ve been watching her. And if I didn’t know she was after Harry…I’d say she’s watching you. Seems to follow you everywhere. And it happened again. I shouted your name, and then she showed up. I figured I just needed to make a lot of noise and chaos so we’d be a distraction for her to sneak in, but you being there really helped.”
Hermione scoffs awkwardly. “Me? She’s not following me. Why would she be following me?”
Harry frowns. “She does talk to you a lot. Maybe…maybe she knows you know. Maybe she saw you at the World Cup, and has known the whole time that you’re onto her. Do you think she caught you looking at her?”
Oh.
Oh dear.
She…had been quite slow to turn around when Bellatrix stole Harry’s wand. And her and Ron weren’t very subtle when they followed Narcissa.
Maybe Bellatrix has known all along. She has made a few hints…
Hermione shakes herself from her thoughts. Smiles at Ginny as she remembers something. “So you tricked her into putting her own name in the goblet?”
Ginny stretches. Preens. “Yep. Let’s see her get out of that. Magical contract.”
Hermione swallows.
No magic.
…she can’t even imagine it. Not anymore. It’s such a big part of her life now. Part of her. Losing that…
She almost feels sorry for Bellatrix. Responsible, for putting her in this situation where she might lose her magic. No-one deserves that. Taking something…so innate.
She rubs her face tiredly. Looks around blearily at the others.
Their smiling faces. Harry is obviously relieved not to be in the tournament. Ginny proud of herself for her plan. Ron just happy to be a part of it. To be in on all the plans.
They really…haven’t realised what this means, have they? All of the potential consequences are already laying themselves out in Hermione’s mind. All of the unknowns coming their way.
Because yes, they’ve stopped Bellatrix’s plan. Voldemort’s plan.
But that just means they have no idea what the next move will be. How they’ll get Harry’s blood for the resurrection. If they’ll still use the cup. If they’ll now just decide to kill Harry. If they’ll decide to use Bellatrix at all, or cast her aside now that she’s tangled herself up in the tournament.
What will Bellatrix do now? Compete or lose magic. But can she compete without being sent to Azkaban? What’s worse? No magic, or no freedom?
Or the Kiss. She could get the Kiss.
Yes. Hermione definitely wouldn’t want to be Bellatrix right now.
Chapter 10: Whisper your Words
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A day goes by, and all eyes are once again on Hermione. She doesn’t know how Harry stands it, the constant scrutiny.
It can get quite bad for her in the future, once she’s known by all as the Golden Girl, one of the Golden Trio. But she’s not used to it at school. She even has to leave the Common Room to get some peace and hide out in the library. She can understand now why Viktor was always there escaping his fans.
But also for the tournament. Where else would you go to prepare for a test?
A…very tricky test, she has to admit. Especially as, if this goes as she remembers, Fleur and Viktor will be using the most logical approaches to bypass the spell resistant dragon scales - a powerful sleeping spell from Fleur, targeting the mind, and a conjunctivitis curse from Viktor, blinding the dragon, eyes being their weak point.
Not that she actually wants to hurt the dragon if she can help it. Nesting mothers. It’s barbaric. If she was the Head of the Department for the Regulation and Control of Magical Creatures in this time—
She closes yet another book and adds it to the growing pile of rejects in the centre of the table with a drawn-out sigh.
“No good?” Ron whispers to her from across the table.
She shakes her head. “Too violent. Fighting tactics, not negotiation. How about you?”
He shows her the cover of his book. Men Who Love Dragons Too Much. “You do not want to know. Trust me.”
“Do you think we should…talk to Malfoy?” Harry asks cautiously.
Hmm?
Wait, what?
“Talk to Malfoy?” Ron frowns.
Harry shrugs. “About Bellatrix. She’s his aunt. He might know something.”
That could work, she supposes. Although she’s really not sure he’ll be that much help…
“But why would Malfoy talk to us?” Ron asks. “Unless…”
He looks across the room. Watches Viktor as he hands a book back to Madam Pince and leaves. “Oh! I know! Someone give me a piece of parchment and a quill.”
Harry passes over his quill, and Hermione absentmindedly accios some parchment from her bag, her mind already back on other things.
Dragons. Is she being ridiculous? Should she just find a way to fight one? The books are all here.
But that’s cruel. So cruel.
Should she look into charms? A modified containment charm, perhaps? She’d have to transfigure a very large cage. Maybe from a rock…
She could just use Cedric’s idea, now that he won’t be there. Transfigure a rock into a dog as a distraction, like he did.
Or a horse. A horse might be more sensible. Bigger than a human, but clearly prey rather than a predator.
Cedric did get burned though…
“There!” Ron says proudly as he finishes writing something down. “Now it’s not us that wants to meet up with Malfoy. It’s Viktor Krum. No way he won’t show up. Hey! Dennis!” he hisses.
He reaches out and drags Dennis Creevey towards him as he passes. Hands him the scroll. “Give this to Malfoy for me, would you? Viktor Krum wants him to have it, but he had to leave for training.”
Dennis’ eyes widen. “You know Viktor Krum?! He’s a champion!”
And then he noticed Hermione. His eyes gleam. “And so are you! Can I get your signature, Hermione? I’m collecting famous people, and I already have Harry, but now you’re famous too!”
Madam Pince clears her throat pointedly and shushes them as Dennis’ voice carries squeakily through the room.
Hermione quickly writes her name down and hands it to him. “Here,” she whispers.
He nods at the piece of paper in awe and backs away, tripping over his feet slightly on the way out.
Ron snorts. “Looks like you’ve got your first super fan, Hermione.”
Ginny shoves him. “Leave Dennis alone. It’s sweet.”
“Yeah, like when you wrote that poem for Harry. What was it again? Eyes—”
And a bat-bogey hex hits Ron in the face, sending him sprawling and shouting on the floor. Ginny.
“Out!” Madam Pince snaps. “All of you! This isn’t a Common Room. If you want to mess around, you can go out on the grounds.”
Hermione sighs, packing up her things as Ron flails around, fumbling to aim his wand at his face and remember the anti-hex.
He does, to her surprise. Huh. Looks like Bellatrix’s intense teaching so far this year has already sharpened his practical skills.
Ginny smiles but quickly bites her lip, tidying her books. “Sorry. Didn’t mean to get you kicked out,” she whispers.
They head for the door under Madam Pince’s steely glare.
“Oh!” Ginny shouts as soon as they get past the door. “I’m meant to be meeting Luna for a walk around the grounds. Want to come? It’s a bit rainy but not too bad?”
Hermione shakes her head. “I need to do some more research. I have some Charms and Transfiguration books in my dorm, so I guess I’ll head back.”
Harry nods glumly. “I’ve still got that Herbology paper to write for tomorrow. And I need to work on my switching spell for McGonagall.”
Harry! How is he this behind already with— he should have said! Why was he looking up dragons if—
Right. Studying in the Common Room, then. She’ll just have to use her prefect voice if people start to hassle her.
It is possible to transfigure a rock into a cage, but it would have to be a very large rock. And she might have to hover it over the dragon to capture it, which isn’t ideal.
And containment charms work better on airtight materials like glass or dense wood.
So she’s hit a bit of a snag.
She might have to go back to the library alone and beg forgiveness from Madam Pince. All she has left to read now is yesterday’s edition of the Daily Prophet, which she’s half-heartedly scanning through for any new research. Or timeline inconsistencies. She’s still wary about that. News on the Malfoys or any more Death Eater attacks…
A scroll is dropped onto her newspaper.
“Hey. I have a note for you from her,” Ginny’s voice comes from behind her chair. “Don’t think it’s cursed or anything, but you might want to check.”
What?!
Hermione pushes Harry’s half-written paper out of the way on the coffee table and puts the newspaper and scroll on there instead, avoiding touching it. Turns to stare at Ginny.
Ginny huffs, taking off her wet cloak. “She gave it to me out in the corridor and then stomped off. Go on! Open it!”
Hermione turns back around. Glances at Ron and Harry and then raises her wand. Casts some detection charms. A revelio.
Nothing.
Oh fine!
She undoes the seal and unfurls it. Scans…Oh for goodness—
“Detention! She’s still given me detention with her tonight and…every Sunday night until the first task! That’s four Sundays!”
Ginny leans over her shoulder and hums. “You’re lucky. I’m seeing Snape every weekend till Christmas. That’s where I’m going now, once I’ve changed my clothes and grabbed something to eat. You’re welcome, by the way.”
Hermione sighs. She’s right. “Thank you. For stopping her. And for getting Harry out of the tournament.”
Ginny looks a bit bashful at that. Shrugs awkwardly. “Well. Guess you’ve got it worse than me. I mean, Snape’s Snape. But at least he’s an ex-Death Eater and not a spy for You Know Who.”
Hermione clears her thought as a strange sound escapes her. Well he’s not a spy. Not quite yet, but…
Alone with Bellatrix. All evening. Doing whatever task she’s come up with.
Harry clears his throat too. “Maybe you shouldn’t go. Or maybe we should come with you. She must be…furious with us. We’ve ruined her plans. You’re in the tournament instead of me. So if there’s anyone she can blame…”
Hermione swallows. He’s right. Bellatrix had a mission from Voldemort, and thanks to Ginny…she’s failed. But she doesn’t know it was Ginny. All signs do kind of point to it being Hermione’s fault.
Which is just perfect, given Bellatrix’s wonderful anger management skills and self-restraint.
Hermione takes a breath. Right. Don’t panic. Think logically.
And don’t put this on them. She doesn’t want the others to worry. “No,” she reassures Harry. “She’s already under enough pressure. Has had enough suspicion pointed her way. She can’t do anything to me, or any of us, especially before the tournament. That’s her main problem now. Thanks to Ginny, her priority isn’t you anymore. It’s keeping her magic somehow. It must be. She’d never lose her magic, not even for Him.”
She thinks. She’s not sure. Bellatrix’s devotion seemed to run deep. She’d probably die for Voldemort.
But give up her magic? Everything she knows? Her power, her strength, her usefulness to Him and the cause?
Hermione shakes her head, standing up. “I’m going back to the library. I’ve got to go…”
And she doesn’t even look back before walking away, straight out of the portrait hole and down the stairs. She’s not sure what’s wrong, she just…
Everything is so…confusing, and overwhelming, and complicated. And she just knows that the library always makes that better. It’s what she always does. And she knows it’s not exactly rational, that if anything she should be working on practical skills and physical fitness, but— ah!
She reaches for her wand as she’s pulled into a classroom. Wh—
“Expelliarmus!” she shouts as soon as her wand settles in her palm, panicked instincts setting in. Pushes…blonde…
Blonde?
A hand covers her mouth. “Chut! Arrête! I just want to talk to you.”
Hermione lets out a breath and slumps back against the windowsill, pulling the hand away. “Fleur! What are you— Why didn’t you just come talk to me at breakfast or lunch like a normal person instead of…waiting to ambush me?”
Fleur steps back, eyeing the door, eyebrows raising. “We cannot be seen talking! We are competitors. Rivals. Even if you are a little girl, I still cannot let the others see this!”
Hermione smiles. Little girl. How ironic.
And Fleur seems so serious. It just feels…ridiculous. She thinks she has problems? Is keeping secrets? It’s not the worst thing in the world if two of the champions talk to each other. “And what is this, exactly?” Hermione asks lightly. “Why are we in here and…ugh, I have ink on me! You pushed me into an ink pot.”
Who leaves their ink lying around on windowsills? Ugh it’s all over the back of her top.
Fleur rolls her eyes and casts a non-verbal cleaning spell at Hermione. It even smells nice. Fleur’s cleaning spells always do.
Fleur Hermione thinks. Fleur’s magic.
Fleur comes to lean against the wall next to her. Folds her arms, wand still drawn and pointed casually towards the door. “How did you do it?” she asks quietly. “How did you stop the veela?”
Oh…
Hermione once again sighs in relief. “I thought you were going to ask me about the goblet.”
Fleur doesn’t reply. Waits.
Hermione draws her wand. Clears her throat. “I noticed that you…had an effect on the boys. So I thought of a spell that would shield their minds. It doesn’t last very long, it’s basically just a modified protego, but—”
“Show me. Please.”
There’s…a vulnerability here. A very different side to Fleur than she’s seen before. Younger.
Hermione quickly nods, raising her wand. “It starts like a protego, and ends like the legilimens spell. Do you know it? And the incantation is protego mentes. So it’s like this.”
She flicks her wand up, and then points it back toward herself to shield her own mind. “Protego mentes!”
Looks at Fleur. Cancels the shield “See? That was to protect my own mind, though. That’s why I aimed at myself. You—”
Fleur drags Hermione to stand in front of her. Readies her wand. “Protego mentes!”
Fleur, Hermione thinks. It feels like…
A weird combination of Fleur, and not Fleur.
Fleur being stopped, but Fleur doing the protecting.
And then Fleur laughs. A bright, excited laugh. “I feel it! Feeled— felt— ça marche!”
Hermione smiles back. Now it feels like the Fleur she knows. Happy, and confident without being so full of herself.
Hermione shrugs. “I saw that you were uncomfortable. It must be awful, affecting everyone around you all the time. You know, maybe there’s a way to make it last longer. Like lumos, that lasts…well infinitely until you cancel it, so maybe—”
Fleur throws herself at Hermione, wrapping her arms around her neck and pulling her close. “Now I know why you are a champion! I see! The goblet is not wrong! You are intelligent!”
And she pulls back to kiss Hermione’s cheeks. O— okay. Why is— normally only Harry— she—
Hermione feels her face heat up and pushes Fleur away. “Really, it’s nothing. I just— like trying new things. I mean— and I’m not young. I’m old for my age. I mean I feel older.”
Fleur studies her. Seems to look at her properly for the first time. “Yes, you do look older. I thought you were a final year, like me.”
Hermione just stares back uncomfortably, not knowing what else to say.
The silence drags.
She clears her throat. “Okay, well…I’m off to the library. Got to get ready to fight— fight my way through whatever the first task is. Good luck, by the way.”
Fleur nods happily and walks past her towards the door. “Yes, I should practice too. And I am going to practice your veela shield. I will hit all the boys with it! Protect all the boys. That is why we are champions, non?”
Hermione chuckles, following her out the door—
Fleur pushes her back in. “Not together. It is suspect. Me first.”
And she whips her head around, hitting Hermione in the face with her hair before she’s out the door and away.
Hermione waits.
But only for about thirty seconds, because not being allowed to be friends with Fleur is ridiculous.
She steps out into the corridor—
“Having fun with Delacour, Granger?”
Almost bumps into Bellatrix.
Okay, she’s starting to think Ginny is right and Bellatrix is stalking her for some reason. She’s always there!
“Yes, thank you,” she replies, not bothering explaining herself. “Now I’m sorry, Professor. But I need to get to the library. I have to prepare for the first task, and as you know, this evening I’m going to be busy.”
Bellatrix raises an eyebrow. “I’m not stopping you. Off you go. I’ll see you at seven sharp. Wear something appropriate.”
And Bellatrix walks off.
Wear…what?
Appropriate?
Appropriate for what?!
Hermione stands in front of the long bathroom mirror and frowns.
There’s a knock on the door. “One minute!” she shouts.
“It’s me. I heard Lavender and Parvati talking about you at dinner. They said you were acting weird.”
Hermione turns around and sighs at Ginny. “I don’t know what to wear.”
Ginny slowly walks into the room, eyebrows raising. “To…detention?”
Hermione groans, pulling off her top. “She said to wear something appropriate! But she didn’t tell me what we’ll be doing! I’m just going to wear my school robes. Appropriate. Appropriate schoolgirl…plus it makes me look younger.”
She feels hands pull her top back on. “School robes? On a Sunday? Just wear this, Hermione! It looks fine! I don’t see why you’re trying to impress Bellatrix with—”
Hermione twists back into her top and checks her hair in the mirror. “I’m not— impress? I just don’t know if I’ll be…in the Forbidden Forest or something! But you’re right. This is fine. I have my cloak just in case. And my bag. And my wand so— yes. I’ll be fine. Don’t know why I’m panicking. Sorry.”
She feels for her wand in her pocket. That’s why she’s nervous. Alone with a probably very angry and vengeful Bellatrix. With no witnesses.
Ginny marches her out of the bathroom. “You look great. You’re an adult witch posing as a teenager. You’re always gonna look way better than us, it’s totally unfair. And it seems like you’ve figured out how to make your hair look nicer since last year. So just get out of here before you’re late. It’s almost seven. It’s detention, not a date.”
Nearly seven?!
Hermione runs down the stairs straight for the portrait hole. “Thanks! I’ll see you later, maybe tomorrow depending how long she keeps me.”
Ginny snorts. “Tell her you have to be back by curfew!” she calls after her.
Hermione nods to herself, skidding around a corner and then down the hidden spiral staircase that leads down to the second floor.
Jumps the disappearing step.
And burst out into a crowd of Hufflepuffs. What? “Excuse me! Running late here! Could you move—”
They don’t move. Just glare at her. And then laugh as she slips on a gobstone. Why are they playing gobstones in the corridor? She wishes she was still a prefect so—
“Alright, you lot! Back to the Common Room if you want to play that, it’s obviously a hazard,” Cedric calls. Helps Hermione steady herself and grins at her. “Sorry about them. You okay?”
Hermione adjusts her bag. Smiles back gratefully. “I’m fine. Thanks. Just in a bit of a rush. Late for detention.”
Cedric’s eyebrows raise in surprise, but he’s still smiling. “Detention? You? And after tricking the goblet too? I think I’ve got you all wrong.”
Hermione rolls her eyes. “I didn’t mean to…well I did but…I’m sorry it didn’t pick you. I know you wanted to be champion.”
He shrugs easily, only a brief flash of sadness on his face before its gone. “It chose you. You’re obviously the better choice. I look forward to seeing what you can do.”
Hermione ducks her head, still uncomfortable that she kind of stole his place. His dream. Even if it’s for the best. He’s just so nice. Practically made to be the dashing hero.
“You can find out what Granger can do on your own time, Diggory,” a voice barks. “But for the next few hours, she’s mine. Get in here, Granger, or I’ll add another week.”
Hermione almost rolls her eyes again, but stops herself. Bossy. And quite needy, actually! She’s only…a minute late or something!
She smiles apologetically at Cedric and then walks past him, over to the DADA room.
Bellatrix is stood in the doorway, but turns around and makes her way into the room as Hermione arrives.
“Come on, then. Through to the back room.”
Umm…
Right. Okay. Just a classroom. Nothing dangerous or deadly.
Other than the Death Eater.
It’ll be fine.
Will it?
She’s a professor. She’s pretending to be a professor. She can’t hurt a student.
She could imperio you to get to Harry…
She can get to Harry anyway. She walks past him every day. Now be a Gryffindor and get in there!
Hermione does as she’s told and quickly makes her way past the desks and into the smaller…back…room.
Not smaller. A huge back room. What? This isn’t the same as—
When Harry had mentioned trunks, and tanks, and cases, he hadn’t mentioned that there were dozens of them. So many creatures. Plants. Books. Would Moody really have—
Alright, there are still sneakascopes everywhere too. And a foe-glass on the wall. A secrecy sensor. But also an owl, spiders in a tank, hinkypunks in another. There’s a rat in a cage…
She counts the fingers and toes. Not Wormtail. Well that’s a—
Bellatrix comes to stand next to her. Pulls out a—
Knife—
Hermione flinches. Backs away towards the exit and—
Bellatrix looks at Hermione. Frowns and reaches into her other pocket. Pulls out an apple.
Cuts a slice and gives it to the rat. Oh.
Cuts another slice. Walks over and gives it to a Cornish pixie in another cage in a corner. It’s awake and watching them, the other pixies floating around sleepily. “Hungry?”
Hermione swallows. Is…she talking to her? Or the pixie?
Bellatrix turns to look at her over her shoulder. Raises an eyebrow again.
Hermione just shakes her head.
Bellatrix takes a bite of the apple. “Fair enough.”
And she waves her wand to open a crate on the far side of the room. Throws what’s left of the apple inside and then closes the crate up again.
Hermione wanders closer. “What’s in there?”
Bellatrix shrugs, limping through the room and over to a door. “Nothing special. Doxies. Definitely got to be vigilant with those. They’ve bitten at least half a dozen third years by now. Turns out they like biting apples too.”
She opens another door and walks through. “Come on. In here.”
Hermione edges along past different boxes and…enclosures, careful not to knock over any of the sneakascopes or…books. There are some Herbology books scattered around, next to some Care of Magical Creatures books. So she wasn’t lying to Neville about the plants.
This…
Wasn’t Dumbledore suspicious when he saw this? Mad-Eye never cared about animals.
But neither did Bellatrix, she doesn’t think. And it is technically part of the job, so…
“Granger!” Bellatrix barks. “Stop gawping and hurry up! This is detention, not— And don’t open that. There’s a boggart in it!”
Hermione steps away from the rattling trunk. Boggart? Or the real Mad-Eye trapped inside?
She leaves it for now. Walks through to another back room…
A small office room, with two large side-by-side desks, a stack of parchment, a clock on the wall, and not much else.
The desks are identical. Bellatrix probably duplicated her one.
Bellatrix sits down at one of the desks. Pulls the stack of parchment towards herself. “Sit. You’re going to help me mark some essays. First and second years. Think you can manage that?”
Hermione slowly sits down too, frowning. Bellatrix’s mood seems to have taken a sharp turn. The strange casualness from earlier has disappeared. “Yes…” Hermione replies questioningly. Tries to study her. Figure her out.
Not angry. Just…grumpy. Irritable. Tense.
“Yes, Sir,” Bellatrix corrects, handing her half the essays and a mark scheme.
Hermione takes them and nods. “Sir,” she repeats. And then more quietly under her breath. “If you say so.”
Bellatrix ignores her. Starts marking.
Okay…
Hermione shivers in the draughty room, but decides against casting a warming spell, instead pulling the first essay towards her to make a start. It’s…not great. And short.
She turns the parchment over to check there isn’t more on the back. There isn’t.
Well then. Let’s see what the second years know about Cornish pixies…
As it turns out, not a lot. None of them know much of anything. And they can’t spell to save their lives, which isn’t surprising seeing as there are no literacy lessons at Hogwarts.
Hermione sighs to herself, unclenching her hand as it cramps.
Stops and looks at Bellatrix, who has been slowly and steadily marking this whole time, without pause or complaint. Just the occasional sip from her flask.
“Don’t you get tired of this?” Hermione can’t help but ask.
Bellatrix’s quill still doesn’t pause, but she shifts slightly in her seat, hunching further over the parchment. “Of what?”
Hermione raises an eyebrow. Surely Bellatrix can read between the lines. Knows what she’s asking. Harry and Ron shouted her identity to the entire school, she must know what Hermione knows. Keeping up the act all the time must be exhausting.
Bellatrix continues marking.
Hermione sighs. “This. Don’t you get tired of this? All the time?”
Bellatrix writes a large letter E at the top of the page and pulls another sheet towards her. “Do you?” Bellatrix murmurs. “Get tired?”
Hermione blinks. Feels her breath catch for a second.
Did she mean…did that mean…
“Of course. Sometimes,” Hermione whispers.
Bellatrix glances at her. The real eye.
Hermione hesitantly continues. “It can be hard sometimes. A lot of the time. But there are a lot of good moments too.”
Her heart pounds as she speaks so truthfully. It’s the truth. Being here in the past is so hard. But getting to be back at Hogwarts with all of her friends again is…so comforting. Nostalgic. Safe. It feels oddly safe. Being watched over again by the professors. All those familiar faces and places.
Bellatrix holds eye contact. Seems to stare into her soul.
Hermione really hopes she doesn’t know advanced legilimency. Should look away. Can’t bring herself to.
Bellatrix looks away. Looks back to her marking. “You put your name in the goblet,” she says. A gruff statement.
Hermione slowly shakes her head. “I’m too young. Someone else put my name in for me.”
No reply.
Silence once more, other than the scratching of quills. The tick of the clock.
Bellatrix takes out her flask. Unscrews it. Brings it to her lips.
Pauses. Doesn’t take a drink.
Screws it back up and puts it down on the desk. “You put your name in the goblet,” Bellatrix repeats. Firmly this time.
Hermione continues marking. Decides that this one is acceptable. Writes an A at the top.
Glances up at Bellatrix.
Sod it. “You put your name in the goblet,” Hermione says right back, just as firmly.
Bellatrix meets her eye. Tilts her head to the side. “You’re…hiding something.”
Hermione’s heart picks up. The hairs on her arms standing on end under Bellatrix’s certainty. She feels exposed. Impossibly caught out in her fifteen-year-old act.
But…
Was that…confirmation from Bellatrix too? She didn’t deny anything.
Hermione darts her eyes to the flask. “You’re hiding something,” she repeats back.
Because it seems like this is what they’re doing. Exchanging statements that are true to both of them.
Bellatrix chuckles lowly. Eye glinting. Hovers all the marked essays into one drawer, and all of the unmarked ones into another.
Leans back in her chair and stares at the ceiling. “You’re scared,” Bellatrix says calmly. Continues staring up.
Oh.
Hermione shifts to sit up in her chair. So she can look at Bellatrix properly. Or as well as she can, in Moody’s skin. At her lying back in the chair, rocking slightly. Wooden leg at an awkward angle. Magical eye rolled back. Heavy leather cloak on.
Scared?
“You’re tired,” Hermione says slowly instead.
Bellatrix’s real eye falls shut. A calmness falls over her demeanour. “You’re pushing it, cheeky witch. You’re good at that. Pushing your luck.”
Hermione can’t help but smile, slightly confusedly. True. For both of them.
Bellatrix lifts a hand and gestures lazily at the door. “Go. Go on, go. You’re right. I’m tired. Goodnight, Granger.”
For a moment, Hermione doesn’t move. Has the strange urge to…stay. Find out more.
But soon makes herself get up. Bellatrix is right. Pushing her luck.
She heads for the door, glancing at the clock. Nine. She’ll be back before curfew.
She pauses in the doorway. “You hate me,” she says quietly. Another truth for their game. You hate me, I hate you. We’re on opposite sides. We’re both just pretending.
Except…
The words don’t strike true. Fall flat. For the first time tonight.
There’s no reply. She turns to look.
Bellatrix sits up. Shrugs out of her leather cloak. Picks her flask back up and takes a sip. “If you say so, Granger. If you say so.”
And Hermione feels an odd…guilt. She’s not sure why. She shouldn’t. Because she does— because they are—
Hermione shakes her head. “Goodnight, Sir.”
Walks the winding path past the various creatures and scattered objects, through to the classroom and leaves for the warm glow of the Common Room.
With one thought nagging at her mind.
Whatever world she’s in, this Bellatrix…
…doesn’t actually seem crazy at all.
Chapter 11: Retrace the Steps
Notes:
Hi folks!
That was a bit longer than usual, wasn't it? Thanks for waiting so patiently! I just had to jiggle a few things around a bit to get some pieces into place with this plot. That probably doesn't make much sense, but...
Oh well! Guess I should add 'mystery' to the tags.
Enjoy!
Chapter Text
The week passes by, and the odd interaction with Bellatrix keeps returning to her mind.
More often than Hermione can explain, and for reasons that she certainly can’t explain to Ron and Harry. Luckily they don’t ask her much. Just smile at her at breakfast on Monday morning, glad to see she made it through detention unscathed, and then the conversation is back to homework and moaning about having to look after the blast-ended skrewts.
It’s nice. So nice, that she’s given Harry a year off. One school year where he can be free, and happy, and safe.
Or safer than he would have been. There’s still probably a plan B plot to kidnap or kill him.
But that’s the same as every year for Harry.
As nice as it is, however, it does mean that all of the pressure is on Hermione this time. All of the plans. All of the attention. She’s not sure the others really understand everything she’s dealing with right now.
Maybe that’s why she feels this strange…camaraderie with Bellatrix. Both hiding. Both keeping secrets. Both making plans, and finding themselves trapped and pinned in by the school, and the rules, and this whole scenario.
It’s getting quite annoying, actually. Hermione never thought she’d be fed up with lessons, but she is. She already knows all of this. Accio might have been useful to Harry, but she’s going to need some training that’s a lot more advanced if she’s going to get through this tournament.
And to do that, she’s had an idea.
Wednesday afternoon. They have Wednesday afternoons off. All of them. So it’s time for some training.
She leads Harry, Ron, and Ginny up to the seventh floor. Stops opposite the tapestry of the ballet dancing trolls.
Checks the coast is clear…
And walks up and down three times. I need a place to train for the Triwizard Tournament. Somewhere secret. Somewhere safe.
And the door appears.
“Wicked…” Ron whispers.
Hermione smiles. Drags them all in. Oh.
The arena. The dragon arena.
Does the room know? Or did it see the image in her mind?
She takes off her cloak and leaves it on the floor out of the way as Harry and the others wander around, taking it in.
“This…is incredible!” Harry laughs. “So you can imagine anything you want?”
Hermione frowns. “I think so. There are probably limits. Like food. But—”
“We could have an inside quidditch pitch!” Ginny shouts. “Just for us! And firebolts for everyone!”
Harry climbs up onto an elevated mound. A dragon’s nest. “We could do training drills. You’re right, Oliver would— well, Wood would probably faint on the spot if we showed him a magical quidditch pitch.”
Hermione groans. “Look, could you all just forget about quidditch for one second? And Harry, you need to move. That’s where the dragon will be.”
Harry ducks his head sheepishly and slides down. “Right. Sorry. How do you want to do this?”
Hermione takes a slow breath. “I need to test something first.”
And she imagines a mannequin with her clothes on. It appears in front of her. Right. Let’s try this then.
She casts a flame-freezing charm at the mannequin. A simple charm from the Grade 2 textbook to make fire feel like a soft summer breeze. It was used during the witch trials.
There. Now just to…
She steps back. And back. Beckons the others over until they’re all crowded behind her, out of the way.
She raises her wand. Steps forward. Takes a steadying breath, and feels for her magic. The warm buzz. “Fiendfyre!”
And with a roar, the flames come forth. Curl from her wand with a blast of baking heat, making the others flinch back against the wall in surprise. It’s not dragonfire, but it’s close. Magical flames.
Hermione quickly casts the counter-charm. One second. She only had to…
The charred remains of the mannequin crumples to the floor in a pile of ash.
Well. If dragonfire is anything like that…
Then she needs to go back to the drawing board.
“You can be scary sometimes, Hermione,” Ron squeaks out. Turns to look at her, eyes wide. “You know that, right? Brilliant…but bloody terrifying.”
She smiles. “Sorry. Maybe I should have warned you. Let me just try one more possibility. A charm I saw your mum use…”
“Mum?” Ginny frowns. “You got battle tactics from Mum?”
Hermione barks out a laugh. “Who do you think killed Bellatrix?” she mutters more to herself as she walks forward, imagining another mannequin and vanishing the old one.
Examines it closely. Hmm. Maybe if she can at least manage the clothes…
She directs her wand at the fabric. An imperturbable charm. Molly had used it on the door at Grimmauld Place so the twins’ extendable ears couldn’t get through. Nothing can get through. A barrier, that things will bounce off of.
Like dungbombs. Tonks had suggested Ginny test for the spell with dungbombs.
She smiles at the memory. Mutters the charm as she directs her magic over every inch of fabric. It can’t be used on the body. On skin. Skin needs to breathe. But at least it offers some protection.
There.
Now to try again with the fiendfyre.
She steps back. Raises her wand.
Glances behind her at the others, still pressed to the stone wall.
Smiles. “It’s alright. I know what I’m doing. This spell is—”
“Bellatrix said anyone who uses fiendfyre is an idiot and will fry themselves to death,” Harry blurts out.
Hermione tuts. “Well yes. If they’re not in control of it. Don’t use it correctly. What she meant is that none of you should use it. It’s fine for us. Once you’ve reached a certain control and level of comfort with your magic, it’s a lot less dangerous. Less unpredictable. So.”
And she raises her arms once more. Centres herself. “Fiendfyre!”
Once again, there’s a fraction of a pause, and then a burst of heat. Hermione holds it this time. Three seconds.
And then cancels it. Wipes at her brow.
Sighs as the head of the mannequin falls to sand before their eyes.
But the clothes are unharmed. So it did work.
Although she may have to put off imagining a dragon into the room to a later date. No more fire today.
Harry shudders. “Think you just gave me Quirrell flashbacks.”
Ron walks forward to toe at the clothes. “Yeah, great spellwork and all that, but…maybe you should practice not being hit by the flames.”
Hermione vanishes the mannequin, Ron’s foot falling through it. “And that’s what we’ll do now,” she nods. “Ideally, I’ll still find a way to be flame-proof. But that doesn’t seem possible at the moment, so my only other option is to dodge any flames that come my way. I’m going to transfigure a rock into a horse, hopefully distract the dragon enough to get it away from the nest, and if I can find a containment charm strong enough…contain it. If not, I’ll have to run for the egg. So that’s where you lot come in.”
And she walks over to the ‘entrance’ to the arena. “Right. You all know enough spells now from Bellatrix. So try to stop me getting this egg!”
A fight. She needs to practice a fight. And a workout. Agility.
She imagines a golden egg up on the nest. “Stick together though. You’re one opponent. And start over there.” She points to the egg.
“We’re the dragon?” Harry calls confusedly as they all climb up. “What spells can we use?”
Hermione shrugs. “Any. Nothing too dangerous, but— and definitely no fiendfyre!” she hastily adds. “Bellatrix is right. It can be fatal. It’s how Crabbe died. Dies. Died last time.”
They all glance at each other. Oops. She really should stop mentioning that people die. Get your head on straight, Hermione.
She readies her stance, raising her wand. “Come on, then. You could all use the practice too. Duelling is a good skill. And I haven’t really been able to show you anything without the professors getting suspicious. I’ll try to go easy on you,” she smiles.
Harry grins back. “Go easy? Oh it’s on, Hermione. Expelliarmus!”
She has a protego raised before he even says anything. Knows exactly what spell will come out of his mouth. Laughs. Oh, Harry. That’s the best you can—
“Stupefy!” two voices shout at the same time, aiming at her head and her feet. She ducks and lowers her shield, crouching and moving off behind a rock.
So Ron is playing tactically.
Now this will be interesting.
Duelling is actually surprisingly fun. And surprisingly tiring. Hermione had been right, she really needs to up her fitness. She hasn’t had to run around that much in a long time, and it’s not long before one of them catches her out with a stupefy.
Luckily, thanks to Bellatrix, Harry and Ron have both practiced enough counter-spells to wake her up. It does take them a few tries though, and they seem very relieved when she opens her eyes.
It’s…strange to think that...in this world?
Bellatrix’s teaching might actually save one of their lives one day.
Why? Why is she teaching them so well? Why is she here? Why—
Why does it seem like she doesn’t hate Hermione?
Hermione doesn’t know. Has absolutely no idea. And it’s defense class again tomorrow. The first time she’ll be face to face with Bellatrix since detention. That strange detention. A detention…
Where she probably said too much. Definitely spoke too honestly. It was stupid. Why did she do that?
She’s broken from her thoughts as Harry comes to sit next to her on the rocky ground.
“Ron and Ginny have left. Gone to dinner whilst you were staring into space again. You know what they’re like with food,” he laughs quietly.
Pushes his glasses up. Runs a hand through his hair. Clears his throat. “I said we’d catch up. I thought…well, tell me if you don’t want to talk about it, but— Are you okay?”
What?
Hermione frowns. Frowns more deeply at his worried expression. “I’m fine. A bit tired after all the running around, but…what is it? Are…you okay?”
He quickly nods, looking at the ground. “Yeah! I’m great! Fantastic, even.”
Well…alright. That’s…good? He seems cheerful.
He runs his hand through his hair again. Hmm.
“Like, I’m doing quite good in lessons. And people aren’t mad at me or whispering about me this year. I’ve got all of you lot. I can write to Sirius now, and it’s ages until I have to go back to the Dursley’s or— And with the tournament we’ll have a few days off, and everything…everything’s good,” he finishes quietly.
Hermione rests a hand on his knee. Squeezes. “Yeah. Everything’s good.”
He looks up at her. Tears in his eyes. Smiles weakly. “You’re— you’re really good at fighting. Looks like…you’ve had a lot of practice.”
Hermione feels a lump form in her throat. Leans sideways against him. Breathes him in. Harry. He’s always so perceptive. Surprises her with how perceptive he is. “I…I have had a bit of practice,” she says softly.
“As much as me?” Harry whispers.
Hermione closes her eyes. Can’t face it. Not yet. Not when his hair is still so long it’s tickling her face. “No,” Hermione eventually says. “Not quite as much as you. You’ve…had to be braver than all of us. But I was there. I never leave you, Harry. We’re always there. I did— we all did everything we could. And now that I know more…I’m teaching you more. Helping you more.”
Harry’s arm goes around her shoulder. “So you are doing this for me. Fighting instead of me.”
No. No, that—
She sits up. Wipes at her face. Dries her hands on her trousers and then takes his hands in her own. “I’m not fighting. Not really. This tournament isn’t— We already fought, Harry. We did it. And we won. And it’s over. And now I’m making sure we never have to fight again. Not a real fight.”
She squeezes firmly. Looks at him firmly.
Stands up and dusts off her trousers. “This tournament is just a competition. The professors have safety measures in place. People to step in. This is supposed to be a safe, inter school competition. That’s all that’s happening.”
Harry stands too. Walks along with her towards the door. “And Bellatrix? Voldemort?”
At that, Hermione stops. Sighs. “I don’t want to fight them either. And right now, Voldemort is very weak. That’s why he needs the ritual. So just…don’t go anywhere with Bellatrix alone. And if she tells you to touch anything…don’t.”
Harry nods. “Avoid the Death Eater. Got it. Don’t drop in for tea and biscuits.”
Hermione opens the door and checks it’s safe to leave with a quiet laugh. The coast is clear. “She never even offered me biscuits,” she whispers. “Just half an apple.”
Harry gives her a weird look. “Half an apple? Were you practicing diffindos or something?”
She shakes her head. “No, just marking essays. Mostly in silence. Although, she did say…”
And she drifts off as they head down the stairs to the sixth floor. There are portraits lining the staircase, and all along the next corridor between the busts and cabinets. She really should be more careful about talking about—
Harry drags her behind a display cabinet holding a mooncalf skeleton and then straight through the doorway to the East Wing, holding a finger to his lips.
And peeking back through towards…
Draco? Coming out of a boys’ bathroom? Why are they hiding from—
Harry leans to whisper in her ear. “No-one uses that bathroom. The toilets don’t work. It used to be Fred and George’s shop, but—”
And Draco turns around, looking back into the bathroom. “I don’t care! Leave me alone!”
And he whirls around. Comings towards them. Shit.
Hermione backs further into the East Wing, pulling Harry with her. But it’s so open. There’s nowhere to hide. Only a few suits of armour and—
Harry pulls them through a solid wall, both of them almost tripping over a chest in a small alcove, steadying themselves wobbily.
“Muffiliato!” Hermione whispers as Harry reaches around in his bag. “How did you—”
Harry grins, pulling out his invisibility cloak. “I hid here from Snape last year. C’mon. Get under the cloak. Malfoy’s definitely up to something!”
And he throws it over them before sticking his head through the wall, making Hermione lean with him.
Empty. Just the central fireplace and portraits—
Draco backs into the room, wand drawn. “Stay away from me! Or I’ll tell my father what you did! Who you are! I know it’s you!”
Oh no.
Then that means—
A bark of laughter from the doorway. “You don’t know anything. If you did, you’d know how stupid you’re being,” comes Moody’s voice. “So just lower your wand, go down to dinner with the other kids, and—”
Draco raises his wand. “I’m not a child! I know more than you think!”
Moody comes into view. Bellatrix. “I’m sure you do. So keep it to yourself. Never know who’s listening in…”
And she looks around the room. Gaze pausing on Hermione and Harry. Shit. She can see through the cloak.
But Bellatrix doesn’t say anything. Her gaze carries on drifting over the portraits.
And she walks straight past Draco, marching off towards a door and pushing his wand down as she goes. “Fine. Don’t go to dinner, if you’re going to be stubborn about it. I’ll see you in class, lad.”
Draco stamps his foot. “Don’t walk away from me! Don’t ignore me! Mother isn’t here. It’s just you and me. Don’t you have anything to say?”
Bellatrix continues towards the door. “Sorry, kid. I gave you a chance. I don’t feel like talking now. Think I’ll—”
“Flipendo!”
A jet of white light bursts from Draco’s wand.
Hits Bellatrix in the back.
Hermione holds her breath as the room falls deathly silent. Meets Harry’s wide, disbelieving eyes.
Bellatrix turns around. The knockback jinx had been too weak. Shoving her, but not pushing her over.
And now Draco seems to be regretting his actions. Backing towards them fearfully.
Bellatrix’s jaw clenches. Her hand tightens around her staff. “Stupid,” she spits. “Anger? I get that. You want revenge? You want to have a try? See if you can get me? That’s bold. That’s brave. Hitting me in the back? Alright. Fair enough. Take all the advantage you can get.”
She limps closer. Eyes fixed on Draco. “But hit me with something weak? That doesn’t even help you? Stupid. That’s just stupid. Think. Plan ahead. Otherwise you’ll find yourself trapped in a situation you don’t want to be in.”
“Says you!” Draco calls out shakily. Bravely. Stupidly.
Bellatrix laughs darkly. “True. Still. Going to have to teach you a lesson.”
A lesson? Don’t—
Bellatrix’s wand curves and slashes before Hermione can even think to move.
“Petrificus totalus!”
And then Bellatrix has turned her back and limped away again. Before Draco’s frozen form has even touched the floor, a dull thud echoing through the room and punctuating her exit.
Harry pulls Hermione back behind the wall. “What do we do?”
Umm…
Hermione nods firmly. “We leave, take the cloak off, and then come back in and find him.”
And they head out, edging past Draco and making sure their legs aren’t visible as they move towards the door.
Not the way Bellatrix went. Back towards the boys’ bathroom, behind the cabinet, where Harry pulls the cloak off them.
Then pauses. “Do you think…only you should go? He might be embarrassed if I find him,” he whispers.
Hmm. That’s true. But…
Hermione sighs. “He won’t want help from me either. Let’s just not make a big deal of it. And—”
“Malfoy?”
Wait. Ron?
Was that Ron’s voice?
Harry goes to walk in. Hermione stops him. He was right before. Draco won’t want to be humiliated in front of all of them. It feels like a bit of an ambush. And suspicious if anyone else turns up.
She throws the cloak back over them instead, and then goes back through the doorway to the East Wing.
It is Ron, looking around uncomfortably and then bending down next to Draco. “A body bind curse? Is that what it is?” Ron mutters.
Draco doesn’t reply. Obviously.
Ron sighs. “Right. Uh, give me a sec to think. I know this one. It was…”
He points his wand at Draco’s wide eyes. “Totus corpus rennerva!”
And Draco sits up with a gasp. “That’s not the counter-curse! What do you think you’re doing to me, Weasley?”
Ron huffs. “It worked, didn’t it? Next time I’ll just leave you on the floor. What happened, anyway?”
Draco quickly gets to his feet, brushing down his robes and glaring at Ron. “Nothing. Not until you came along and hit me with some kind of made-up spell. I’d better go to the Hospital Wing. Check you haven’t—”
“I didn’t make it up!” Ron shouts, turning red. “I learnt it in DADA! Bel—Moody used it on me!”
He catches the slip too late. Freezes.
As does Draco.
Draco looks around the room.
Then nods towards Harry and Hermione. “Come with me, Weasley. We need to talk.”
Oh. Not nodding at Hermione. At the doorway.
Ron folds his arms. “Why should I? I just helped you and you didn’t even say thank you. Why’d you think I want to talk to you?”
Draco smirks, already walking towards the door, leaving Hermione and Harry to scramble out of the way. “Because you do want to talk to me, Weasley. Or should I say Viktor Krum.”
Now Ron comes after him. “You know I sent the note? That’s why you didn’t show up last night?”
Last night? That’s when the meet-up was? Whilst she was in detention? Why—
Harry pulls her after them, into the boys’ toilets. There’s water all over the floor. Ugh, it’s worse than Myrtle. And smells—
Draco walks right to the back of the room. “Of course I knew it was you. Do you think I can’t tell your handwriting from a Durmstrang student’s? From someone who’s had tutors, rather than whatever garden gnome you had teaching you?”
Ron whirls around, almost bumping into Harry as he storms back towards the door. “Piss off, Malfoy. You’re such a—”
“Wait! Get back here! Tell me— tell me how you knew!” Draco demands.
Ron laughs. “You’re not very good at asking for things, mate.”
“I’ll pay you!” Draco calls again, coming closer. “How much do you want? Five galleons?”
Ron stops. His back still to Draco. Expression hard. “I don’t want your money. I’m leaving. I never should have written to you to start with.”
“Fine then,” Draco shouts. “Guess I won’t tell you what I know.”
Now Ron does turn around. “And I won’t tell you what I know. Sounds like a stalemate.”
For a moment there’s just a tensely awkward silence. Draco’s eyes dart over Ron. Searching. Frowning.
“You play chess?” Draco asks cautiously.
“Yeah…”
Draco nods. Steps forwards on the tile floor. “I was petrified. You unfroze me. You…helped me,” he mutters out reluctantly.
Now Ron is the one frowning. Analysing.
Steps forward. “You were hit with a curse. You…knew the person that hit you with the curse.”
Draco nods. “We both know the person that hit me with the curse.”
“Someone who…likes using curses? Uses them a lot?” Ron asks.
Draco folds his arms. Looks away. “Yes.”
There’s another long pause.
Draco break it. “…So? Will you answer my question now?”
And whatever this strange game is suddenly ends as Ron walks over to Draco. “Her? That’s why— Did you try to fight her?” he whispers. “What were you thinking? She’s bloody insane!”
“She’s not insane!” Draco hisses back, looking around. “Why does everyone always say that? All the— How did you know it was her? And Potter? And I bet Granger knows too. Is this— and how did you know about my mother? It— get off me. What are you doing?”
Hermione can’t really see what Ron’s doing. Her and Harry are stuck by the door, the ground too wet not to make a splash or a ripple if they move closer.
“I’m just checking you’re alright! She knows about a billion curses. Can’t believe she hurt you. Thought family might be safe at least. Who does that?”
Draco shoves him away. “She didn’t hurt me. I’m fine. Now hurry up and answer my questions!”
“Fine, fine. We— we knew from the World Cup. We…saw what she did to your mum.”
Ron! Why is he— Don’t tell him the truth! He—
“So it was her…” Draco whispers. Folds his arms and turns his back. Turns again when he realises there are mirrors everywhere. That he can’t hide his expression.
Ron looks at the floor. Kicks at the water and puts his hands in his pockets. “Uhh…yeah. An obliviate spell. That’s what Hermione said.”
Draco’s chin wobbles. He grits his teeth. “I should have been there. I should have done something. And now…”
Ron clears his throat. “How…how bad is it? In the paper they said she was being treated. That there was money going towards it. So…that seems good. Right?”
Draco doesn’t answer. Then adjusts his bag on his shoulder and turns around. Walks straight past Ron, head lowered. Straight for the door.
Hermione steps back out of the way. Both her and Harry watching warily as…
Draco pauses in the doorway. “Guess you’re right. Money doesn’t always make a difference. And now…she’s forgotten. The last ten years. My mother thinks I’m four years old. She’s taken my mother from me.”
Four years old? Oh no…
Draco slams his hand against the doorframe. It makes Hermione jump. Hold in a gasp.
“And now she’s going to pay,” he mutters to himself. “Soon, everyone will know who she is. Soon, she’ll be back in Azkaban where she belongs.”
“So…you’ve known about her for a while, then?” Ron calls hesitantly, coming up behind him. “You think she deserves it? Azkaban?”
And strangely, the anger disappears from Draco’s face. A flash of unease. Conflict.
He shakes his head jerkily. “None of that matters now. She’s in the tournament. She has to compete. And when she does… everyone will see her for who she is. I was going to tell them. Tell my Father. Or the Minister. Or even Dumbledore. But I don’t think I will. I think I’ll just leave her to get herself caught on her own. There’s nowhere to hide now.”
Ron comes even closer, looking at Draco curiously. “Is that where she was? Was she hiding at your place? With you? How—”
Draco whirls around. “It doesn’t matter!” he shouts. “Look, Weasley, just stay out of it, alright? You, and Potter, and Granger. Just steer clear of her. You always think you can help. Can be the heroes. Can figure it all out and save the day. As if it’s that simple. As if a bunch of filthy bloodtraitors and mudbloods winning the House Cup every year will matter once we get out into the real world.”
Ron’s fists clench. His face reddens. His right hand twitches, as if reaching for his wand.
Hermione sticks her arm outside of the cloak behind Draco’s back. Makes a calming motion. Stop. Think.
Ron’s eyes go wide in surprise. His anger disappears.
And then he sighs to himself. “Your mum will be alright, you know. They’ll figure it out. You’ve got all this money, and mediwizards, and I bet Snape and the other professors know potions or spells and stuff. There’s always a counter-curse. That’s what…well that’s what she always says, right? That you just have to know what to do? How to stop it? Maybe Hermione knows a book, or—”
Draco spins around again. Leaves the bathroom and walks away down the corridor, wiping at his face. “Go— go away, Weasley. Go— go stuff your face at dinner like you always do and leave me in peace.”
“I already have!” Ron shouts after him. “But you haven’t! You should eat dinner! It’s good for—”
Draco turns a corner. Gone.
“Well, be that way, then,” Ron huffs to himself. “That’s what I get for trying to be nice. Prat. What a tosser.”
Hermione pulls the cloak off her and Harry, making Ron jump. “Shi— so it is you. Thought I recognised your arm. That’s lucky. Did you hear him though? What a dick.”
Hermione sighs. “He’s just upset. And I can see why. Ten years? Ten years of memories? That’s…”
“…the amount of time Bellatrix has been ‘dead’,” Harry finishes thoughtfully. “Right? That’s what Dumbledore said. She died a decade ago.”
Right. So she faked her death a decade ago. A few years after being imprisoned. Somehow got out. Somehow hid for ten years.
Probably with Narcissa.
And then obliviated the whole thing from Narcissa’s mind, right before the aurors showed up.
Took ten years of Narcissa’s life. And if Narcissa had been hiding her sister…ten years of memories of Bellatrix.
To keep herself safe? Is that why? To destroy all traces of information on herself and what she’s up to?
Ron wanders over to them. “Told you their family was nuts. I’m genuinely starting to feel sorry for the bloke. Poor sod. Pretty ruthless. Worst I ever get from Ginny is a bat-bogey hex.”
The boys walk into the bathroom again, Harry looking around. “Where is Ginny, by the way? What were you even doing here?”
Ron walks up to an empty wall. Looks at it critically. “She was talking to her friends. You two were taking ages, and then I noticed she wasn’t at dinner either. Thought she might be coming after one of you, so I came back. Found Malfoy instead. Can you remember what the password is, Harry? We might as well take the shortcut to the Common Room.”
Password?
Harry frowns. “Uhh…dunno. Last time I used it, it was…flibbertigibbet.”
And the wall shifts. Shimmers.
Ron grins. “Nice. I’m off, then. You two coming? It’s probably faster to go this way to the Great Hall, too. If you hurry you won’t miss dinner.”
Hermione smiles and follows after him through the wall. Dinner. Always the top priority in the Weasley household.
And Ron’s way of caring.
Even if you’re Malfoy, apparently.
An owl arrives Sunday morning at breakfast. Reminding her to come to detention. Seven o’clock.
So here she goes again. Back with the paradoxical professor. Alone.
And this time, Hermione doesn’t even care what she’s wearing. Doesn’t care about arriving on time. Just focuses on keeping her face neutral and her mouth shut. She’d been very close to hexing Bellatrix in class on Thursday. She’s so cocky. It’s rubbing Hermione the wrong way. Her persona. Acting all knowledgeable when— when her solution to a problem is just to obliviate someone?! Is that being vigilant? Planning ahead? Because it just seems…thoughtless! Selfish!
Not that she should have expected anything different from Bellatrix, but for a moment Hermione had almost…
She raps on the door, wand held firmly in her other hand.
It swings open instantly. Magically. “You’re late, Granger,” Bellatrix calls from the other side of the room, sat at her desk.
Hermione holds back a huff. Granger. Why does she always say her name? Why does she say it like that? Granger. Like there’s a smirk behind it. An inside joke.
Instead, Hermione just heads for the back room. “More essays this week?” she calls behind her. Hears the wooden leg as Bellatrix gets up from the desk.
“No, I only have final year essays. Too difficult for fourth years…”
Was that another hint? A jab at her age?
Hermione doesn’t care.
She stops next to the rat cage. Counts the toes again. Definitely not Wormtail. “Then what would you like me to do, Professor?”
No reply.
Hermione walks over to the owl. It hoots at her grumpily.
“Malfoy needed to learn a lesson,” Bellatrix says slowly. “I know you think students shouldn’t be punished with magic, but—”
“Did he?” Hermione snaps. Turns to look at her. “Did he really need one of your oh so wise lessons?”
The magical eye scans over Hermione. The real one narrows. “Careful, girl. Don’t push it too far.”
And Bellatrix takes a step closer. And another.
Hermione reaches for her wand—
A crate on the far side of the room bangs open. A swarm of billywigs fly out.
Bellatrix turns and walks off towards her office. “Clean their crate and then get them back in. Try not to get stung, because if you end up floating around on the ceiling, I’m not coming up to get you.”
Great. Perfect. Get them back in? Well that is going to be a pain in the—
The door to Bellatrix’s office slams shut, as does the door to classroom. The billywigs fan out, spreading through the whole room.
The owl darts forward and eats one. Hermione cringes.
So…that wasn’t her fault. Right? Can’t blame that on her. Bellatrix should have thought of that.
The owl snaps at another one. Misses.
Hermione hurries over to the crate. She’d better get this done quickly before— no!
“Immobulus!” she yells, freezing all of the billywigs in the room. That was close. One nearly stung the rat. She does not need a floating rat. Or a dead rat. Those stingers are powerful.
Now. Time to cast a lot of scourgifies.
She’s gone through five crates and tanks now. One after the other. Bellatrix seems to know when she’s finished with each one. Comes out. Inspects it. Sends her on to another one with nothing more than a grunt or two.
Maybe she’s watching Hermione through the wall the whole time. A…creepy thought.
It’s now ten o’clock. Curfew. And Hermione is still going.
And a lot of the creatures are nocturnal, so that’s a fun challenge.
But she’s finally finished with the hinkypunks, all back in the tank and ready for the third years.
She transfigures a stray jar into a goblet. Fills it with water at a sink and takes a few gulps. This is tiring. How does Bellatrix look after all these creatures every day?
She looks at the office door. Waits for the uneven footsteps.
None come.
Hmm.
She transfigures the goblet back. Washes her hands in the sink.
Still no Bellatrix. Weird.
Hermione heads over to the door. Knocks. “Professor?”
No answer.
“Professor, can I go now? I finished the hinkypunks!”
“Do the next one,” Bellatrix calls gruffly.
Alive, then. What’s she up to in there?
Hermione moves over to the next trunk. Casts an alohomora and opens the latch—
The office door bangs open. “No! Not that— shit!”
Bellatrix comes rushing out of the room, surprisingly fast for someone with a wooden leg. Sends a spell to shut the trunk. Too late. Something comes out and—
Bellatrix shoves her towards the door. “Get out of here! Detention’s over, get—”
What is it? What—
Oh no. The boggart.
Hermione backs towards the door. It’s forming. Whirling. And she’s looking at it. What if—
“Do you know how to make yours ridiculous?” Bellatrix hisses out, backing away next to her.
“I— I don’t know—”
She doesn’t know what it will be. It might be Bellatrix. How will she explain that? What if it’s something from the future? What— “I can’t fight it!” Hermione shouts. “Please, I don’t know—”
And Bellatrix pulls Hermione behind her, right as they reach the door. “Go. Get out. Go back to your—”
The boggart stills. It’s found a form. Found a fear.
Oh…
Harry?
Harry is stood opposite them. Smiling gently. Hands resting casually in his pockets.
That…well that isn’t Hermione’s fear. So it has to be…
Harry? Seriously?
She tries to see Bellatrix’s expression—
Harry steps closer. Chuckles. Runs a hand through his hair, scar visible for a second. “So that was you trying your best, was it?” he asks softly. Then sighs. “But not good enough. Failed again. And I wasn’t even trying to—”
“Riddikulus,” Bellatrix growls.
And Harry is hit by a green light. Drops down dead.
Silence falls.
The lid to the trunk bangs open once more. Bellatrix blasts the boggart back inside.
It locks shut.
Well.
So…
Well Bellatrix can’t really deny that…Mad-Eye Moody?
Probably not terrified of Harry Potter.
Although the fact that Bellatrix’s worst fear is Harry just seems completely mind-boggling. What the hell?
Bellatrix clears her throat. “Goodnight. I’ll…see you around tomorrow.”
Hermione just nods confusedly. Doesn’t…have any idea where to go from here. Oh.
“Can I get a note?” she whispers. “In case I run into Filch? It’s…after curfew.”
Bellatrix turns and frowns at her. Looks a bit out of it herself. “Right. Yeah. Sure.”
She reaches into her pocket. Pulls out—
Is that the Marauders’ Map? Please say she forgets. Please give her—
No. Puts it back and limps over to a random table. Tears a page from a book. Hermione holds in a shudder.
“Here. Tell Filch that if he bothers me about this then I’m telling Peeves where he keeps the ink pots,” Bellatrix grins. The smug grin is back.
But looks a bit off. Forced.
Hermione takes the note with a smile of her own. “I won’t do that. But thank you for the note, and…uhh…”
She breaks off under Bellatrix’s gaze.
Swiftly heads for the door. “Goodnight!”
She opens the door. Steps into the classroom—
“Fears are private, you know, Granger,” Bellatrix calls. “That’s why I won’t be bringing out the boggart in front of the class. Won’t be giving you all a refresher lesson.”
Hermione stops.
Refresher lesson? Bring the boggart to class? Have…everyone see Hermione’s fear?
She swallows uncomfortably at the thought. “I know,” Hermione says quietly. “I’d…never share someone else’s fear. It’s…personal.”
Silence from behind her.
She continues on out the door. Shuts it behind her.
Leaves the boggart behind her.
Chapter 12: Reassess the Players
Chapter Text
Hermione doesn’t tell anyone about Bellatrix’s boggart. For one thing, because it’s so unexpected that she’d rather figure out what it means first, and for another…
She kind of promised. Not in words, not directly, but Bellatrix had made it very clear. Fears are private. Don’t share mine, and I won’t share yours.
And in a way, it had been Hermione’s fault. Bellatrix didn’t have to stand in front of her. Didn’t even have to come out of the office. She could have left her to face it. Watched gleefully through the door. Learnt Hermione’s secrets. Her weaknesses.
But instead, Hermione is the one who got a look into Bellatrix’s head. Her deepest fear.
Harry.
What’s…so scary about Harry? Is it because he’s the Boy Who Lived? Because he stopped Voldemort, and Bellatrix wasn’t there to protect her master? Failed?
Does she think Harry has a secret power? A power the Dark Lord knows not?
No. She wouldn’t know that yet.
Unless she found out the other half of the prophecy.
Has Bellatrix been trying and failing to kill Harry this whole time? Ten years. In this world, she’s been faking her death for a decade. And it sounded like at least for some of that time she was with the Malfoys. In this world, did she…do anything to find Harry? Or to help Voldemort? Did she know about Tom Riddle’s diary?
Surely she’d just be angry at Harry. Frustrated. Hate him. Not fear him.
Hermione glances across the room at Harry as he practices the knockback jinx with Neville. It’s what they’re all practicing. Flipendo. Bellatrix wants them to strengthen their jinxes.
She wonders if the Slytherins are getting taught the same thing in their lessons. If this is a hint to Draco.
Or helping Draco. Why—
And she’s suddenly flying back and hitting into the blackboard. Ow. She must have lost focus on her shield charm.
“Sorry!” Ron shouts. “You alright?”
“Don’t apologise, Weasley,” Bellatrix barks, leaning against her desk and sipping from her flask. “Five points to Gryffindor for catching your opponent unawares. Granger should have been paying attention instead of staring at Potter. Something on your mind, Granger?”
Hermione brushes chalk off herself as everyone looks between her and Harry curiously. There’s a scary glint to Lavender’s eyes. Great. She’d thought this time around she’d get out of the rumours about her and Harry. But no. Thanks a lot, Bellatrix.
“I wasn’t staring,” Hermione says. “I was just checking my stance. I’m fine with the wand movement, but Harry always seems a bit faster than me. You said he had good reflexes. I was watching to see how he does it.”
Half-true. She’s always been amazed at how fast Harry’s reflexes are. His instincts. There’s a reason he had so much to teach them in DA. That, against all odds, he got out of that graveyard alive.
Bellatrix raises an eyebrow at her.
Then looks at Harry. Nods. “He goes with his gut. Gut instincts. And he does have a good stance. Come over here, Potter. To the front. We’ll do a demonstration.”
Uhh…she hadn’t exactly meant...
Harry makes his way over—
“Flipendo!” Bellatrix
“Protego!” Harry
Harry skids back down the aisle, the knockback jinx from Bellatrix strong enough to push him a few paces, although his protego holds.
“I wasn’t ready!” Harry shouts, steadying himself against a desk and lowering his shield charm.
Bellatrix grins. “Exactly. You weren’t expecting it, and you stopped me. That was a strong jinx, Potter. That was good. Now send one at me.”
At her?
Harry looks around the room hesitantly.
Steps closer again. Readies his stance.
Casts a dancing-legs jinx at Bellatrix’s feet. Harry!
Bellatrix jumps sideways out of the way, stumbling on her wooden leg. Laughs. “Bloody cocky— flipendo!”
“Protego!” Harry grins, holding his wand with both hands and keeping his place this time. Drops it. “Flipendo!”
Bellatrix casually holds her wand up. “Protego.”
It’s strong enough to stop him. She doesn’t even strain. Doesn’t tense. Moves around to sit at her desk.
Harry frowns. Widens his stance and holds his wand firmly. “Flipendo!” he bellows, a crackling jet of—
“Protego,” Bellatrix whispers. Chuckles to herself as his jinx bounces off and scorches the floor.
Twirls her wand between her fingers. Then lazily flicks it at Harry. “Flipendo,” she says calmly.
And Harry flies backwards, lifting two feet into the air and crashing down on top of Neville at the other side of the room. Ouch.
The bell rings. Bellatrix laughs again. Glances at Hermione. “It’s not about your stance. Think about that for your homework. Class dismissed.”
Everyone begins collecting their things, those on the floor getting to their feet, and everyone shuffling towards the door, murmured chatter starting up.
…Okay then. Definitely doesn’t seem scared of Harry. Or to even hate Harry. Is actively teaching him to be stronger.
…what?
She catches Harry whispering his spells a few times that evening and the following day. Feels it, even if she’s not paying attention. She’s gotten used to it now. Harry. Ron. Ginny. Bellatrix. She can feel them. People she sees often enough. She can’t really describe how they feel. Just…familiar. Harry more of a spark. Ron’s magic seems to flicker. Bellatrix…
Is like a shiver. Like…
Like when a song hits that certain note, and your body erupts into goosebumps. An unexplained awe. Catching your breath. Catching you by surprise.
So…yes. A shiver. That’s what Bellatrix is.
Hermione tries to feel out for more magic as she waits outside of potions with Ron. Double potions with the Slytherins on Friday afternoons. They’d arrived early from lunch, Harry off helping Neville with his shield charm.
She can’t feel Neville yet. She’d tried.
She looks around for possible targets. Seamus, Dean, Pansy, Draco…
Huh. She might be able to feel Draco. That’s strange. But she supposes she has seen him use magic quite a lot. Even this year, outside of class, he’s used…
Draco. Why is it so strong? What’s he doing? Is it because he's upset or something?
He seems…perfectly fine. If she hadn’t seen him talk to Bellatrix and Ron last week, she wouldn’t know anything was bothering him.
Smiling and joking with his friends. Not worried about Narcissa at all…
Draco looks in her direction and she quickly glances away, not wanting another tooth-growing hex to come at her like last time. This was when it happened. She can still remember it. Feel it. The humiliation.
Although that was more Snape’s fault.
She runs her tongue over her teeth in memory.
Oh no. Draco is making his way over, Pansy, Blaise, Crabbe and Goyle following after him.
“So you tricked your way into the magical world and into the tournament, did you, Granger?” Draco says loudly. “Bet you learnt some filthy muggle trick. It’s the only way a mudblood like you could even think of representing the school. Here, Weasley. Catch.”
And he throws something at Ron. A badge. Oh! That’s what she can feel. All the badges. Draco. So that means—
Seriously? Again? This is still happening?
Hermione puts a calming hand on Ron’s arm as he turns over the ‘Granger Stinks’ badge. Opens her mouth to—
Harry comes up behind Draco with Neville, looking at the badges. “You think muggles are smarter than Dumbledore?” he asks casually. “I guess some muggle inventions are quite clever. It’s nice of you to point out though, Malfoy.”
He picks up a badge, and pushes past the stunned Slytherins to stand next to Ron. “Check out the charms on these. Must have taken hours.”
Ron laughs in surprise. Harry’s face stays completely serious.
Ron looks at the badge. “Yeah. Looks like a lot of thought went into this. Don’t think Hermione stinks though. Although I haven’t gone around sniffing her too closely recently.”
Hermione smiles at them. Idiots.
She reaches out and takes a badge from Draco, who seems too confused to stop her. “Very advanced charmswork to have it permanently flashing. It might be distracting in potions class though. Wouldn’t want to— ah, Professor!”
She turns to Snape as he comes out of the door. “Draco made badges for the tournament. Are we allowed to wear them in class?”
Snape’s eyebrows knit together as he looks at first Hermione, then Harry, and then Draco, more and more intensely. “Made…badges?”
Goyle chortles, badge proud on his robes. “Because Granger stinks.”
Draco elbows him in the ribs with a scowl.
Snape looks at the badges. Back at Hermione.
“No accessories. And ten points from Gryffindor for delaying the start of class, Miss Granger. Get to your cauldrons and begin preparing your antidotes. Individually. I’m sure by now all of you with working brain cells have come up with an appropriate way to counteract a poisonous substance…which I will be testing…at the end of class.”
He gives Hermione a pointed look. Then Neville.
And then whirls around and swoops off back through the door.
Hermione sighs dramatically as she puts the badge in her pocket. “Sorry, Malfoy. I’ll have to put it on later.”
And she follows Snape into the classroom, hearing Ron holding back laughter behind her and choosing a table for them all to sit together.
Including Neville. She doesn’t care if it loses her points. She’s helping Neville.
Hermione is just finishing writing out an explanation of cutting techniques for Neville when a loud knock at the classroom door interrupts the lesson.
“Enter.”
The door creaks open. Hermione shivers.
Bellatrix.
Why is it always Bellatrix?
Bellatrix…looking straight at Hermione.
“Sorry to interrupt. Looks like brewing hasn’t started yet though, so that’s good. I’ve got to take Granger from you. She’s wanted upstairs with the other champions for photographs.”
Oh! She forgot— pictures for the Prophet! And the wand weighing with Ollivander.
Snape looks at Hermione. Raises an eyebrow. “Very well. If being a champion means…posing for the papers…then I suppose such trivialities as learning magical skill are unimportant. Pity. It appears you are on your own, Longbottom. How…unfortunate for whoever will be testing your antidote.”
Neville gives Hermione a very panicked look, and she just smiles helplessly, pushing her notes towards him and then packing her things.
“Antidotes, you say?” Bellatrix calls from the doorway. “Not too difficult. Any good teacher should be able to get acceptable results out of all of these lot. I’d drink the poison and antidote myself if I was you, Snape. Unless you don’t have the guts? Or the faith in your teaching abilities?”
Hermione’s mouth falls open in astonishment. Wha— is she standing up to Snape?
…a furious Snape, who can’t seem to make up his mind between glaring at Bellatrix or avoiding even glancing in her direction.
“Drinking anything brewed by Longbottom is a death sentence,” Snape eventually grits out, dark eyes burning into Neville. “He is utterly inept, even in the most basic of potionmaking.”
Bellatrix snorts. Beckons to Hermione, who remembers to get her feet moving again.
“What, he can’t do any of it? He manages to follow instructions in my class,” Bellatrix says. “He can grow OWL level plants in Herbology, already taking into account temperature, timing and planning. Technique. You must have heard Sprout gushing about him in the staff room. No. This is on you, lad. And look at that. An empty spot next to Longbottom for the next hour. Guess you can give him some extra tuition. Really figure out what you’ve failed to teach him.”
Holy— she is! What the hell is happening? Is this just because she doesn’t like Snape? Is that it?
And Snape doesn’t even get a chance to respond. As soon as Hermione is through the door, Bellatrix shuts it behind her and starts marching off to wherever the meeting is.
Hermione hurries along next to her. Lets out a laugh she can’t quite hold back. “I’ve been waiting years for someone to say that to Snape! Finally!”
“Plenty of people have said that to him,” Bellatrix grunts. “Just not in front of students. Anyway. I wasn’t saying it for Snape. It was for Longbottom.”
Their pace slows as they climb the dungeon steps. Hermione glances sideways at Bellatrix. It was…to be nice to Neville?
Bellatrix taps her temple. “Magic is fifty percent mental. At least. Remember that, Granger. It’s all in your head. Not in your notes. Longbottom needs to snap out of it. Tell Snape to sod off, and get on with it. Or he’ll fail every time.”
Hermione…is out of words.
This…
Fifty percent mental. Is that what Bellatrix was teaching them yesterday?
Hermione looks down at her feet. Frowns in thought.
Different world. This…this Bellatrix is clearly different. There’s no denying it now. This is not the Bellatrix she knows at all.
So…who is she? Why is she doing this?
Still supported Voldemort. Still went to Azkaban. Still a Death Eater. Still Voldemort’s most loyal lieutenant.
But it feels like she’s helping them. Helping everyone. Is that just an act? Being a professor?
She did try to put Harry’s name in the goblet. The same as before. The plan is the same. The scenario.
Except now. She doesn’t think Moody came to get Harry last time.
Bellatrix clears her throat. “You’re not going to ask where we’re going?”
Hermione shrugs. “You already said. It’s for photographs.”
“Yes. But you don’t want to know more? You’re being very trusting, Granger.”
Granger. Again with the— “Well, what else is happening, then?”
They reach the Entrance Hall. Bellatrix grins. “Too late. We’re already here. In you go.”
And she knocks on a classroom door.
Hermione huffs. Well why bother asking her in the first place? She’s so frustrating! She…
Oh.
Is that…a curl? A darker curl of hair on the back of Moody’s head?
It is. Her hair is growing. Is—
Bellatrix moves to open the door—
Hermione grabs her arm.
Bellatrix wrenches her arm free. “What are you—”
“You need to drink,” Hermione blurts out. To explain herself.
Even if she has no idea why she just did that! Why did she— This is the perfect opportunity. The potion is wearing off. With witnesses. The press. Tournament officials.
But too late. Bellatrix’s eye has widened in realisation. Shit.
Hermione swallows. Just watches as Bellatrix holds her gaze. Reaches into her robes.
Pulls out her flask.
Then frowns. “You…should go inside. They’re waiting.”
Hermione doesn’t move. Carries on watching. It’s too tempting. Proof. She wants indisputable proof that it’s Polyjuice. That it’s Bellatrix. Even if she’s already certain. She wants to see.
Bellatrix brings the flask to her lips. Doesn’t drink. Her face begins to…ripple.
And then the door handle—
Hermione hurriedly moves further into the doorway as it opens.
Ludo Bagman is on the other side. “Aha! Here she is. Come on in, then.”
Hermione steps into the room. Turns to check behind her…gone.
Bellatrix is gone.
How does she do that?!
“Here we are. All three champions ready to go,” Ludo continues. “Just the other judges to wait for now, for the weighing of the wands.”
“Three champions?” comes a voice from the corner of the small classroom. “Because a little birdy told me otherwise. That there was a somewhat thrilling, quite unexpected fourth appearance?”
Rita Skeeter. Raising an eyebrow at Bagman, and then sauntering towards Hermione. Looking her over curiously, quill hovering at her shoulder.
Hermione smiles sweetly. “A bird told you? I didn’t spot any birds in the Great Hall. Although I thought I saw a beetle at breakfast this morning, so you never know what animals are listening in.”
Skeeter freezes mid-step.
Hermione smiles even wider.
Sits down in a chair by the door. There are three chairs there, presumably for her, Fleur, and Viktor, five chairs being at the other side of the room for the judges.
Viktor comes and sits next to her. He has to. She’s in the middle seat. He doesn’t say anything though. If she didn’t know him, he’d seem quite grouchy and rude.
But she does know him. And knows his English isn’t great yet, something he’s embarrassed about. “Zdraveite. Kak si?” she says in very clunky, probably too informal Bulgarian. Hello. How are you?
He looks at her in surprise.
And then leans closer to her and says a very long sentence in fast Bulgarian.
She laughs. “Sorry. My Bulgarian is hopeless. Very bad. I only know a few basics from…a friend.”
Viktor nods in understanding. “Is difficult language. Not many speak. I—”
And he stops as the door opens once more, and Madame Maxime squeezes through, followed by Karkaroff, Crouch, Dumbledore, Ollivander, and…
And Bellatrix is back. Walks over to stand in a corner and survey the room whilst the judges take their seats.
For once she isn’t looking at Hermione though. In fact, she seems to be looking at everyone but Hermione.
Hmm.
Dumbledore takes his seat at the judging table and smiles across at them. “May I introduce Mr Ollivander? He will be checking your wands to ensure that they are in good condition before the tournament.”
Ollivander had been looking out of the window, but now turns to face them, pale eyes slowly taking in all three of the champions as he makes his way into the centre of the room. Smiles. “Mademoiselle Delacour, would you like to go first?”
Fleur has just sat down, but stands once more, handing her wand to him with a firm nod.
Ollivander turns the wand over in his hands, very gently. “Hmm…”
With a flick of his finger, he twirls it, and pink and gold sparks fizz from the end. He holds it to eye level. Examines it carefully.
“Yes,” he says quietly. “Nine and a half inches, inflexible, rosewood, and…containing…dear me…”
Fleur straightens her spine and folds her arms defensively. “A hair from a Veela. From one of my grandmothers.”
Hermione leans forward, head on her hand to see Fleur’s expression. She isn’t sure…
Yes. There it is. The pride. The lingering shame. The frustration. Having to explain herself and who she is to yet another wizard.
Ollivander’s frown fades though as his eyes move from the wand to Fleur. There’s a glint to his eyes. “Yes. Yes, I’ve never used Veela hair myself. I find it can make wands rather temperamental, but if it suits you…”
His lip twitches into a smile as he runs his thumb along it, checking for bumps or scratches. “Orchideos,” he says quietly. Ollivander.
Flowers. Really?
Hermione resists the urge to roll her eyes as a bunch of flowers bursts from the tip, and Ollivander hands them to Fleur with her wand. “Very well, it’s in fine working order,” he says. “Mr Krum next.”
Fleur comes to sit back down, smiling briefly at Viktor as she passes.
Hermione leans to whisper in her ear. “Do you think he’ll give Viktor flowers too? Or maybe some chocolates?”
Fleur barks out a laugh and quickly covers her mouth as the sound echoes through the room and everyone turns to look.
Oops. Karkaroff and Crouch don’t look very happy with them. Or Madame Maxime, actually. Glaring at Fleur for…consorting with the enemy, apparently.
And Rita Skeeter is writing something! Didn’t she get the message? Stop that!
But Dumbledore is smiling, and Fleur has managed to find a more serious expression.
Ollivander continues muttering over Viktor’s wand. It’s a Gregorivitch wand, so, again, he’s not too happy with it.
Ollivander points the wand towards the window. “Avis!”
Ah. Birds. So at least not overly mascu—
The spell explodes out of the wand like a gunshot, birds soaring off out the window.
Fleur nudges her. “No flowers. An explosion for the boy champion,” she murmurs.
Hermione laughs quietly, getting to her feet. “Guess he’ll have to share yours then,” she whispers back.
Walks towards Ollivander with a smile, holding out her wand. It’s nice to see him again under better circumstances. She hasn’t seen him since…
Her eyes drift to Bellatrix.
Since the Manor. Since Shell Cottage. Since…
“Ah, now this is one of mine,” Ollivander says warmly, drawing her attention back. “Oh yes. Ten and three-quarter inches, slightly springy, although can become brittle if not well maintained. Well-used, but not overly worn. Do you polish your wand, Miss Granger?”
Uhh… “Semi-regularly. Maybe not as often as I should. Although actually, I’ve read conflicting reports on how often a wand needs a polish—”
She’s interrupted as Bellatrix begins coughing in the corner.
“Whenever you feel it’s needed, I’d say,” Bellatrix croaks before taking a sip from her flask and clearing her throat.
Ludo Bagman starts openly laughing at the judges’ table.
Oh.
Oh no! She hadn’t— Ollivander was the one that—
Dumbledore chuckles. “Wise words as ever, Alastor.”
Eww, gross. Don’t—
Hermione feels her face heating up, but ignores it. Clears her throat pointedly. “It’s vinewood. Dragon heartstring.”
Ollivander nods absently. “Yes, great magical potential. The potential for extraordinary magic, in fact. Vinewood seeks a greater purpose. It has hidden depths. Is made for visions beyond the ordinary. Dragon heart string…great power. Quick to learn. Loyal, but willing to accept a change of allegiance if fairly won. It is, however, a core prone to accidents, and needs a firm and sure hand.”
He holds her wand delicately but precisely in his hand, pointing upwards. Whispers an incantation.
A fountain of wine shoots out. “Perfect. Perfect condition,” he says fondly.
Talking to the wand. Not Hermione.
She takes her wand back from him slightly uncomfortably. Looks to Dumbledore to find out what’s happening next.
Dumbledore claps. “Well then! Thank you all. You’d best be getting back to lessons, or perhaps straight to dinner, as they are about to end—”
“Photos, Dumbledore, photos,” Skeeter shouts, steering her photographer over.
Oh dear. Really? Do they have to have photos? She’s not sure she wants to have to pose or— And especially stood next to Fleur! She is definitely sticking Viktor in the middle if she can. She learnt that lesson years ago. If you want to look reasonably nice, don’t end up next to Fleur in the photo. The comparison is just—
Oh. They want all the judges too. And separate individual shots. Oh this is going to take forever!
She wanders over to stand next to Viktor. Who is actually very sulky now as everyone faffs and fusses, Karkaroff twirling his goatee around his finger and Madame Maxime getting in the way wherever she stands. She needs to sit down. It’s the only way. She’s too tall for the frame.
Hermione sighs. “I wish Ollivander said that wine spell a bit louder,” she mutters. “Do you think he’d tell us what it is?”
A smile twitches at Viktor’s lip. “You want a drink? But you are young.”
Oh. Damn. She forgot about that.
“And Mr Ollivander is busy,” Viktor continues. “He talks with crazy professor.”
Crazy—
“Alright, everybody smile! That’s it. Everybody looking?”
Hermione isn’t looking. She’s trying to see whatever Bellatrix is up to with Ollivander. But she can’t quite—
“You, girl on the left. Looky here, come on.”
Hermione reluctantly looks away. Smiles for the camera.
And again.
And again.
Gets moved next to Fleur. Slumps in defeat.
Fleur tuts. Presses a hand between Hermione’s shoulder blades. “Stand straight. You are not Quasimodo.”
Quasi—
She straightens and glares at Fleur—
The picture snaps.
Rita Skeeter smiles wickedly. “Excellent. I think that’s all of the group shots we need. Now for the individual champions, alright? Fantastic.”
Hmm. Well that’s not good.
Now where is—
Gone. No Ollivander. No Bellatrix. The judges all beginning to leave for dinner.
She is not looking forward to reading the Prophet tomorrow.
Hermione’s starving by the time photos are over, practically running across the Entrance Hall for dinner. Poor Viktor was left till last and is still in there with a far too eager Rita Skeeter. Hermione has managed to drop a few more bug hints though, so that might help to keep her at bay. She will need to talk to her properly later. Make some demands.
Harry and Ron wave her over from halfway down the almost empty table. They’ve saved her some food.
She smiles gratefully and climbs in. “Hi. I wasn’t sure you’d still be here, that took ages!” She gets herself a large portion of cottage pie and starts eating.
Harry looks around the table. Then leans closer. “We were going to meet you in the Common Room, but then this came. Look.”
And he slides a piece of parchment across the table towards her. Oh.
Harry,
I can’t say everything I’d like to in a letter, it’s too risky in case the owl is intercepted, especially after what you told me. We need to talk face to face. Can you ensure that you’ll be alone by the fire in Gryffindor Tower at one o’clock in the morning on the 22nd of November?
I know better than anyone you can look after yourself, and with Dumbledore there, you’re in safe hands. However, with what you’ve been telling me…
If I’ve understood your message correctly, then I need to speak with you about what you have uncovered. Be on the watch, Harry, and let me know about the 22nd as soon as you can.
Snuffles
Hermione quickly hides the letter under her plate.
Then remembers the magical eye and looks around. No Bellatrix.
“What did you tell him?” she whispers to Harry. “How much— because if your letter had been intercepted—”
Harry shakes his head. “I used a barn owl, not Hedwig. And we didn’t say everything. Me and Ron and Ginny came up with it. We didn’t say anything about you. Just said about her name coming out of the goblet and how weird it was, and that Professor Moody has been watching us closely and using curses on us in class.”
Ron nods. “We didn’t want to say too much in case she got Harry’s bird again. But this is good, right? If anyone knows more about her and what’s going on, it’s him.”
Possibly. Yes.
Hermione swallows another few mouthfuls of food. “Do you…it was strange today, wasn’t it? When she stood up for Neville.”
Harry and Ron glance at each other.
Hermione continues hesitantly. “She’s not what I expected. She isn’t…the same. I thought everything was the same here, that she’d be the same person, just escaped early. But…”
The more time she spends with Bellatrix…the more she seems…
Hermione continues eating, shaking her head. “You’re right. We need to talk to him about her. I’m sure we’ll be able to have the Common Room to ourselves that late at night. It will be a Hogsmeade weekend, so hopefully everyone will be tired out by then.”
Ron grins. “Ah, nice! Hogsmeade weekend. I forgot!”
Harry’s expression falls. “Me too. And I don’t have a permission slip. Did they send us new ones? I never managed to…Oh well. Under the cloak again.”
Hermione looks around in her bag. She thinks she has…aha!
She finds her own form, duplicates it, and removes her name and her parents’ signatures. “Here. Send it to Sirius. You have a week for him to reply, and you can give it to Dumbledore. He’s your godfather. He counts as a guardian.”
Harry’s face lights up as he scribbles his name down. “Of course! I should have sent it with the last note, but— I’ll go the owlery now!”
He gets up—
“Hang on a sec!” Ron says.
And then takes a cake from the table and hands it to Harry. “Send this too. No-one’s touched it. Uhh…Hermione, do you know how to make a box or something?”
Hermione waves her wand with a smile, transfiguring some parchment and hovering it over to Harry.
He carefully lowers the cake in and then heads off for the door.
“Good thinking,” Hermione whispers to Ron. “Did…you save me the cottage pie too?”
He shrugs. “It’s horrible being hungry. Me and Harry have to skip dinner tomorrow for our detention with Snape, so it kind of reminded me. How were the photographs?”
She sighs. “Very tedious. And I think I accidentally glared at Fleur right as they took a picture, so who knows what nonsense they’ll say about me tomorrow. It’s Rita Skeeter. She lies about everything just to create the most scandalous—”
Someone clears their throat behind her, and Ron’s mouth falls open in shock.
“Hermowninny?”
Hermione smiles. Turns around. “Hi, Viktor. So you’re finished! Come and sit with us. This is my friend Ron. He saved some food. Here.”
She moves up so Viktor can sit between them, next to Ron too.
Viktor frowns and glances over at the slytherin table. It’s almost empty, and Karkaroff is nowhere to be seen. In fact, the whole hall is almost empty now.
He sits down with them. “Thank you. I am hungry.”
Ron springs into action, piling cottage pie onto Viktor’s plate. “Course you are. Here, you can have it all. You need to eat a lot. For energy. I mean, not that you don’t know that. Of course you know that. Quidditch players need to eat. Have diets. Not— not girly diets. I’m not saying you need a diet. I mean—”
Hermione laughs and puts a hand on Ron’s arm to stop him as the food on Viktor’s plate becomes a mountain. “I think that’s enough,” she says quietly.
Ron freezes, and Viktor just looks very uncomfortable.
Hermione keeps smiling. “Everyone is so strange about quidditch. I don’t see what the fuss is about, to be honest. It’s just a game.”
“Just a game?!” Ron squawks. “Hermione, don’t say that! Not in front of—”
Viktor chuckles. “Is good game. But yes. Sometimes it is…” He sighs frustratedly. “I am good player. I like to fly. I do not like…people. Photos. Questions. Cameras. Game is good. Challenge. Work is…not good. Boring.”
Ron sits back. “You sound like Harry. Harry Potter. He hates fame too.”
Viktor eats some pie and nods at Ron. “Fame. Yes. This is the word. You are very lucky. Don’t have fame. Annoying witch asking questions for newspaper.”
Oh dear. “Rita Skeeter interviewed you?”
He frowns at her in confusion.
“The blonde witch,” she explains. “For the paper.”
He nods grumpily. Spoons more pie into his mouth. “She say I am strong and…handsome. She see I talk to you and to Fleur. Now she say I choose between you for girlfriend. Is not true.”
Great.
She grits her teeth and leans closer to Ron and Viktor. “She’s a liar. She always tells lies. You can’t believe a word of it, alright? And…”
She looks around. Checks no-one is in earshot. “She’s an animagus. A beetle. It’s how she spies on people. Watches them. Illegally. Do you understand, Viktor? Spy? Animagus?”
He nods very seriously. “Yes. But what animal is…beetle?”
“An insect,” Ron explains, frowning too. “Like, really small. Like this!”
He pulls out some crumpled parchment from his pocket and draws a beetle on it. Just a black circle with six legs, but Viktor seems to understand.
Hermione nods. “So watch out for beetles. And if she does say something horrible in the newspaper tomorrow, I’ll write to her. I’ll tell her that I know her secret, and that should stop her.”
Viktor chuckles again and eats more pie. “You are a clever witch. Good champion for Hogwarts.”
Ron laughs too. “She’s bloody brilliant. Wicked scary. You’d better train hard, mate. She’s competition. The best in the year.”
“In the school,” Hermione corrects jokingly, glad Ron’s lost his awkwardness. “But I’m not a quidditch star. I’ll leave that to you. We saw you at the World Cup, Viktor. You were amazing.”
But at this, Viktor loses his smile. Hunches over his plate and keeps eating without looking at them. “World Cup is not good. We lose.”
Ron claps him on the back. “Not you though. You caught the snitch! With a Wronski feint!”
Viktor shakes his head. “I catch too soon. The team loses. I am not good with team.”
They fall into awkward silence. Ron looks at Hermione pleadingly.
Hermione sighs. “Well then. I’m sure you’ll prove yourself in the tournament. We have to do that by ourselves. It would be nicer if we could help each other, though…”
She feels her stomach clench uncomfortably. She keeps pushing the thought away, but…
She’s never had to fight on her own before. She’s always had Harry and Ron. Or Ginny. Or Luna. She’s…she’s really not looking forward to the tasks.
Viktor stands up. “Yes. We train alone. But I saw you read in library with me. This is good training. I…go now. Go back to ship.”
Hermione looks at her watch. Yes, it’s getting late.
Her and Ron get up too. “I’ll probably see you again in the library tomorrow, you’re right. All we can really do is prepare and practice. It was nice talking to you.”
Viktor nods and walks away, scowling and head lowered against the whispers as he passes people.
“Bye,” Ron says too quietly and too late, hand hanging in the air.
Hermione snorts and hooks her bag over her shoulder, beginning to walk them out of the hall. “See? I told you he’s just a normal person.”
Ron shakes his head dreamily. “Viktor Krum. We just talked to Viktor Krum. He talked to me. Do you think he remembered my name? I can’t wait to tell Harry. Can’t believe he missed it.”
Hermione rolls her eyes. Well. This is better than Ron being jealous, at least.
Chapter 13: Attract Attention
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Jealous. That’s the word of the day on Saturday. The gossip mill has been spinning once again, and now everyone seems to be jealous of Hermione and Ron for talking to Viktor yesterday. The staring is back. Whispering. Pointing. Even worse than the week before.
And it only gets worse when the evening edition of the Prophet arrives. A Love Triangle. That’s what Skeeter is calling it. The Triwizard Love Triangle.
The picture of Hermione glaring at Fleur is in there. And her talking to Viktor, him laughing. Fleur smiling at Viktor.
But that isn’t what catches Hermione’s attention when she manages to find a spare copy on the table in the Great Hall before dinner.
Because there are photographs of each of the champions on the front page.
Including Bellatrix.
Skeeter hasn’t left her out. Is apparently using all the gossip she can get. The handsome quidditch star, the ambitious Golden Girl, the seductive French Veela…and the mysterious, thought-to-be-dead Death Eater.
A photograph of Bellatrix. With a large question mark next to it, and a smaller photo of her headstone outside Azkaban.
“That’s her?!” Ron squeaks. Turns to look at the staff table and then hurriedly looks away, realising he doesn’t actually want to catch Bellatrix’s eye.
Hermione slowly nods. “Yes, that’s her. But this must be an…old photo. She’s older now.”
The photo is of Bellatrix in her early twenties. Or that’s what Hermione would guess, given she’s not in Azkaban yet but obviously out of Hogwarts, and…
Well she’s young, and rather beautiful. She can understand Ron’s shock at the sight of her. She’s…striking.
Even if, from the looks of it, she’s up to her usual destruction. This time in Diagon Alley. Blasting open the front of the apothecary and then turning to glare at whoever is taking the photo, raising her wand at them before the image goes white. Repeats.
Did she…kill the photographer?
Oh.
Her heart aches as she has a sudden thought. Looks for Neville. Poor Neville—
He’s not here…
“Neville?” she whispers to Harry.
Harry smiles sadly, patting her on the back. “Left for the greenhouses.”
She nods. Well…that’s not surprising.
She looks back at the paper. Her own photo waves at her. At the photographs of Viktor and Fleur. Smiles at them as they cautiously wave back. Photo-Fleur begins to walk over…
And then the Hermione in the photo glances sideways at photo-Bellatrix nervously. Waves at Bellatrix too.
Stop it! Why would—
Bellatrix blasts away the front of the apothecary. Whirls around…and then pauses mid-spin. Looks sideways instead, at the photo of Hermione.
A snort comes from behind Hermione. “See? I was right. She’s even stalking you in picture form,” Ginny laughs. “Photos don’t lie, Hermione.”
Harry stands up. “Then you’d better sit here and keep an eye out during dinner,” he says. “Me and Ron have to get to the dungeons for detention.”
Ginny falls into his spot. “I just came from there. He had me pickling rat brains all afternoon, but there were still some left to finish up, so have fun with that.”
Ron grimaces. “Pickled— What potion even uses that?”
“Brain elixir…” Hermione mutters absentmindedly, still watching her photograph interact with Bellatrix. Both of them looking at each other from the edge of their frames.
Death Eater. She’s definitely still a Death Eater in this world. She’s blowing up a shop. And she’s dressed the same as before, black dress, same wand, same hair and same…
Is scowling. Folding her arms and scowling as Fleur and Viktor walk into Hermione’s picture to talk to her and point at Bellatrix.
Ginny takes the paper from her and looks at it. “She doesn’t look anything like Mrs Malfoy, does she? Kinda looks like Sirius though. Oh, ha! Well fuck you, too!”
What? Oh. Photo-Bellatrix is giving Ginny the finger.
“Ten points from Gryffindor for such appalling language, Miss Weasley!” Professor McGonagall’s voice suddenly snaps from behind them. Uh oh.
Ginny turns bright red. “Uh, Sorry Professor. But it was— She started it!”
She holds up the front page to McGonagall and points at Bellatrix. Who sticks her tongue out at them.
McGonagall sighs shakily, taking the paper. “A bad influence from beyond the grave…” she murmurs to herself.
Bellatrix skips over to the picture of her gravestone. Studies it critically. Then leans against it, folding her arms, crossing her ankles, and raising an eyebrow at them.
“I’m not sure she is dead, Professor,” Hermione whispers back.
Turns to look at her Head of House. Searches her face. “You knew her, didn’t you? You…Professor Dumbledore doesn’t believe us, but you heard what Harry said. That Professor Moody—”
McGonagall abruptly hands the paper back. “You’d do well not to listen to gossip and rumours, Miss Granger. I’d thought perhaps seeing how you yourself have been portrayed by Ms Skeeter would have shown you that. Let me assure you that Alastor Moody, is Alastor Moody, and that it is quite impossible that he is in fact Bellatrix Black.”
“It’s not impossible!” Ginny says. “What about polyjuice potion?”
McGonagall smiles sadly. “Polyjuice only alters appearances. And as you have pointed out, I did once…know Miss Black. Almost all of the staff here did. And she…you’re too young to understand. That’s why you should trust our judgement. It is not her. So put that worry aside. You have other things to worry about, hmm, Miss Granger?”
And with that she raises an eyebrow and walks over to the staff table for dinner.
Huh?
Hermione turns back around. Whispers to Ginny. “It is her. I saw it. Yesterday, her potion was wearing off and I saw her hair coming back. Curls. Like that.”
She taps on the picture of Bellatrix.
Food begins to appear. Ginny shrugs. “I believe you. But McGonagall sure as hell doesn’t, does she?”
No. Not at all.
And Hermione can kind of see why.
Because the Bellatrix in the photo? The one cackling and blowing up a shopfront? Dancing around and shooting out hexes? Glaring at Hermione?
That’s not the Bellatrix she’s seen over the last few weeks at Hogwarts.
Ginny passes her the peas. “So…did she tell you what you’re doing with her in detention tomorrow?”
Oh. Sunday again. Detention with Bellatrix.
No. Hermione has no idea what will happen tomorrow.
As it turns out, nothing. Nothing happens. Because Bellatrix has cancelled her detention. Which is…
Suspicious. Confusing. Infuriating.
Two months. For two months now, almost three, Bellatrix has been showing up everywhere Hermione goes. Staring at her. Watching her. Grinning at her.
And now nothing. The whole week, Bellatrix barely looks her way. Doesn’t talk to her. Doesn’t appear at any point outside of class.
Avoiding her. It’s the only explanation. She got caught out with her polyjuice potion, and now she’s avoiding Hermione altogether.
“Or it could be that her face is all over the papers and it’s spooked her,” Harry points out as they make their way towards the Three Broomsticks, Hermione finished with her rant.
Hmm. Well, that’s true too.
“Speaking of which,” Ron whispers. “We’ve got a bug following us.”
Hermione knows. She spotted Skeeter and her photographer lurking a while ago. Cast a muffiliato charm against eavesdropping. She’d thought the witch would have more sense, but—
Hermione spins around. Marches towards Rita Skeeter, wand drawn. “Stop bugging us. Just leave us alone. All of us. Or at least stop using that quill and tell a true story for once in your life. You know, actual journalism? Fact checking?”
Harry puts a hand on her arm. “Come on, Hermione. Just ignore her. It’s not worth it.”
Hermione shrugs him off. “Words matter. They’re important,” she grits out. “Spreading lies can have a real impact on people’s lives. It’s not just about me. Do you think it’s fair on Fleur? On Viktor?”
Skeeter laughs. “Well! What a brave lion we have here! So protective of the other champions. I can see the inter-school relations are going well. So Viktor and Fleur, hmm? Close with them, are you?”
Hermione frowns. Steps back. “They’re both very friendly. We get on well when we do see each other, yes. A competition doesn’t mean we have to hate each other.”
Skeeter produces a quill and a little leather book from her pocket. Begins making notes. By hand. “Close with the competition. And…have you been helping each other? The first task will be…in three days time. Any idea what it will be?”
Hmm. Well this is suspicious, but doesn’t seem…overly malicious.
Hermione shakes her head. “None of us know what it will be. And we don’t talk about it. I don’t know what the others have been doing, but I’m sure they’re practicing a lot of spells and reading up on different topics like I am. I’ve seen Viktor in the library quite often.”
“In the library with Viktor…” Skeeter murmurs, tongue wetting her lip as she writes. “And you haven’t seen Miss Delacour at all?”
Hermione shrugs. “We’ve spoken a few times. She might be in Hogsmeade today, I’m not sure.”
“You’re going to the Three Broomsticks?”
Ron clears his throat. “Yeah. We’re about to go in now. So…”
Skeeter shrinks her book. Puts it back in her pocket. Twirls her wand through her hair. “Then I’ll leave you to it!”
She turns to leave. “Oh, one last question…”
Hermione huffs. Carries on towards the Three Broomsticks. “I think that’s enough questions for—”
“Bellatrix Black. Any idea how her name came out of the goblet?”
Hermione carries on walking. “No idea. She’s dead, isn’t she?”
“Mr Potter, what do you think? I heard you had a lot to say on the matter? Made some accusations?”
“Uh…no. Well— I did think— but Professor Dumbledore said—” Harry stutters.
Hermione grabs Harry’s arm and drags him towards the door. “No comment. Come on, Harry.”
“Are you disappointed you couldn’t enter, Harry? You are the Saviour, after all. People say you’ll be a powerful wizard one day!” Skeeter calls. “Didn’t you want to see what you could do?”
“Sod off and leave him alone!” Ron shouts. “Course he didn’t want to enter. He’s fourteen. He could bloody die.”
“Just ignore her, Ron,” Hermione hisses, pushing open the door.
It’s busy inside. Fred, George and Lee Jordan are already there, at a table by the window. There are some spare seats. Ron waves at them and gestures to the bar, motioning that he’s getting a drink but to save the chairs for them.
They all push through the milling crowd. “I’ll get it, Ron,” Harry says. “First round’s on me.”
Ron shakes his head, fumbling around in his pocket for the money. “I’ve got it. I can buy a sodding butterbeer, Harry, alright? It’s not like—”
“I know that. I just thought—”
“Well, stop it. I know you’re being nice and all that, but you don’t have to—”
“Hermione!”
And Hermione is yanked away from the boys by the back of her robes.
Relashio! she thinks, spinning around and—
Fleur raises her hands in surrender. “It’s me! I am only saying hello!”
Oh.
Hermione lowers her wand. “Sorry. You surprised me. Umm…hi.”
A table of Beauxbatons girls, all looking at Hermione suspiciously.
Except for Fleur. She kisses Hermione’s cheeks in greeting. “Hello. I was wondering if you and your friends wanted to sit with us? We have wine?”
Hermione smiles. Maybe Fleur hasn’t changed that much over the years then.
“Oh, sure. We definitely want to join you,” Ron says, quickly coming over. “I’m Ron Weasley, and this is Harry. Harry Potter.”
Hermione sits down next to Fleur. “And they are both fourteen, so won’t be drinking.”
“Hermione!”
Fleur laughs, subtly casting the Veela shield Hermione taught her between herself and the boys as they get closer. “But of course they can! Look how small the glasses are. It is nothing. You English are too strict with these things.”
Ron sits down, pulling Harry into the chair next to him. “Yeah, Hermione. Lighten up. She’s right. It’s not that big a deal.”
Not a— “Madam Rosmerta could lose her license! Just because you’re all seventeen doesn’t mean—”
“I am eighteen,” Fleur grins. “My birthday was yesterday. And as an adult…I think your law says that I can accompany minors and buy drinks for them, as long as they are eating in the pub, non?”
She gestures to a few plates of food on the table.
The sneaky…
“That’s only for sixteen-year-olds…” Hermione mutters. Hang on. “Wait. It was your birthday! I forgot!”
Fleur gives her an odd look. “Of course you did not know. It is fine.”
Oh. Right. Not friends yet. Gah. It’s so confusing with Fleur and Viktor! They don't look that different to in the future, it's so easy to forget!
Ron stands up. “I’ll get butterbeers for us then. Don’t want to get Madam Rosmerta in trouble.”
Harry frowns. “So…we’re allowed butterbeer but not wine? Why?”
“Butterbeer doesn’t count as alcoholic because the alcohol percentage is so low,” Hermione explains automatically, looking across the table at the other Beauxbatons students. Who are still just staring at her. Do…they never talk? Do they not speak English?
She waves at one. “Bonjour.”
The girl’s eyes widen. She looks at Fleur.
Fleur sighs and says something in French about…interdite…Madame Maxime…
“They’re not allowed to talk to me?” Hermione sputters. “That’s ridiculous!”
Fleur shakes her head. “Madame Maxime does not want us talking to the other champions. But yes. I also think this is ridiculous. We are not talking about the tournament! It is fine. So, I say the subject is forbidden, and we talk about other things, bon?”
“Like the terrible wine?” one girl says sulkily.
“And the strange professors?” says another.
“And that this is Harry Potter and nobody is talking to him?!” Another girl says, hands flying into the air in exasperation as she leans closer to Harry. “He is famous! Where are all of his friends and admirers? Are you horrible or something?”
Harry leans back as she scrutinises him closely for his hidden defects. “Uhh…no. And I do have friends! Hermione is— and Ron. And— I was going to sit over there with my friends, so—”
“Do you have a girlfriend?” the girl interrupts him.
“Do you want one?” another quickly asks.
“Arrêtez!” Fleur shouts through laughter. “Leave the poor little boy alone. He is cute like a baby.”
Harry splutters. His mouth falls open. “I— baby? I’m not— I— Oh look, Ron needs help carrying the drinks.”
And he shoots out of his chair and over to the bar.
Hermione laughs. Looks like Harry won’t have any trouble finding a date to the Ball this time.
“Does he?” Fleur asks. “Have a girlfriend? Or boyfriend?”
Hermione looks at Fleur in surprise. Raises an eyebrow.
Fleur tuts. “Not for me. I am just curious. Camille is right. It is strange that he is famous but people do not…like him.”
Hermione checks that Harry is still at the bar. Then leans in to talk to the girls. “He doesn’t want to be famous. He likes being normal. Being treated like everyone else. And…no. He doesn’t have a girlfriend or boyfriend or anything. There is a girl I think he might like, but—”
Camille squeals. “Who is it? We should tell her!”
Hermione holds up a hand. “But she has a boyfriend already.”
Cho. Does Harry still like Cho this time? Hermione hasn’t noticed.
Plus there’s the whole ‘married to future Ginny’ thing, not that she’ll be telling them that or forcing them together when they’re this young.
Fleur clears her throat loudly. “So, Hermione, do you like anyone?”
Wha— Well that’s— Why is—
Has Fleur been drinking too much? Why is she being so nosy and— Oh, Harry is coming back. So Fleur was changing the subject.
Ron puts the tray down, and Hermione takes a butterbeer gratefully. “Thanks. And no. No, I— well I don’t have time for dating, do I? Not with…the thing we’re not talking about.”
“The newspaper said you like Viktor Krum,” one girl says, folding her arms and smirking. “Is this true?”
Hermione glares at her. “No.”
Fleur throws an arm over Hermione’s shoulders. “Do not listen to Isabelle, she is of a bad mood today. She knows the newspaper is not true. Fighting over Viktor. That is why I ask you to sit with me. To show we are friends. Even if you are English and strange.”
Strange?!
Fleur smiles at her. “A joke. So tell me, Ron Weasley, your hair, it is natural?”
Ron flushes to match his hair and shrugs uncomfortably. “Yeah. Runs in the family. Red hair.”
Fleur nods. “It is magnifique. I have never met someone with red hair in France, but I see many since I arrive here.”
“Uhh, thanks. I guess. You probably saw my brothers and little sister.”
Fleur looks around the tavern. “Your family is here? Oh, I miss my sister so much. She also has blonde hair, like me. This is also in our family. It is hard to be away from…oh. Those are your brothers? They are jumeaux?”
They follow Fleur’s gaze to Fred and George.
The twins look up. One of them winks.
Ron scowls. “Ignore them.”
Fleur takes a sip of wine. Winks back.
Oh dear.
What…
What happens if Fleur…
She can’t be interest in Fred or George! That— But Bill!
Red hair. Cheeky. Mischievous. Up for an adventure.
Hermione turns Fleur around by the shoulders, so the twins aren’t in her line of sight. “So. Your sister. Tell me more about her. Did she send you a birthday card?”
Fleur huffs. “You don’t want me looking at the wizards? Pourquoi? You are jealous?”
The grumpy witch, Isabelle, mutters something in French and all the other girls start glancing at Hermione and whispering.
Hermione sighs. “I’m not jealous! I told you! I’m not interested in anyone. What is this obsession with talking about boys and dating?”
Fleur pours herself some more wine with a hum of amusement. “They are not talking about boys. They think you are in love with me.”
Hermione freezes in surprise and Harry spits butterbeer everywhere as he starts laughing. “Wha— Hermione— you— why?!”
Fleur shrugs, cleaning up the spillage with a flick of her wand. Fleur. “It often happens to me. And it is true, Hermione, we do not know each other very long, but you are often touching me, whispering to me, joking and smiling. They notice.”
Hermione groans. Oh dear. She’s accidentally…oh and she is touching Fleur!
She moves her arm away. “Sorry! I’m not— You’re very pretty, Fleur, but I’m not in love with you. I just— I’m being friendly!”
Fleur sighs. “Ah. Dommage. You— oh. I think that big wizard over there is waving at us.”
Big…Hagrid?
Oh, the dragons!
Hermione stands up. “That’s Hagrid, our Care of Magical Creatures Professor. I’ll go see what he wants.”
And she quickly walks over. She definitely needs to get out of that conversation. In love with Fleur? This is a very strange universe to be dropped into—
Shit. Bellatrix is with Hagrid. Hermione hadn’t noticed her stood behind him.
“Alright there, ‘ermione?” Hagrid greets her cheerfully. “Not too nervous abou’ the first task I ‘ope?”
Hermione smiles. “A little. But I’ve done my best to read as much as I can, just in case. It’s so hard not knowing what it will be!”
Hagrid glances around awkwardly. “Yeah, very ‘ard. Very difficult. Still, yeh always know what to do, don’t yeh? Got a good ‘ead on those shoulders, as I was jus’ sayin’ to Professor Moody over ‘ere. Nothin’ our Hermione can’t ‘andle.”
Hermione glances at Bellatrix.
Bellatrix shrugs. “There’s only so much you can prepare. Guess we’ll have to wait and see how much Granger can handle.”
Well. What is that supposed to mean?
Hagrid clears his throat. “Uhh…right. Okay then. Is tha’ Harry and Ron over there? Looks like you lot are making some new friends this year. Good, tha’ is. Makin’ those French lot feel at ‘ome.”
Hermione looks over. Harry waves. And Fleur.
Bellatrix barks out a laugh. “Interesting choice of friends, Granger. Very trusting.”
Hermione turns back around with a huff. Will she stop with the— “There’s nothing wrong with champions being friends! I like Fleur. What does trusting have anything to do with—”
“Being vigilant, are you? Watching yourself? Or are you letting her pour the wine?”
“I’m not drinking wine,” Hermione grits out. “I’m underage. We all are.”
Bellatrix raises an eyebrow. “She’s not.”
Wha…
Why…
Hermione looks at Hagrid in complete confusion at where this conversation is going.
Hagrid shrugs. “Whelp. Guess we’d better ‘ead on back to the castle. You lot have fun, and say ‘ello to ‘arry for me. Oh.”
He leans closer to whisper to her. “And ask ‘im to ask after Witherwings. Been too long now since I ‘eard from ‘im and Padfoot.”
Oh no. He whispered. But loudly enough to still reach Bellatrix.
Bellatrix’s magical eye spins towards Hagrid. She steps closer. “Witherwings and…Padfoot? Unusual names…”
Hagrid laughs. “Well ‘course they are! Did Dumbledore not tell yeh? ‘Course they got right unusual names when one’s an ‘ippogriff and one’s—”
“Hagrid!” Hermione shouts. Just because— because— gah shut up!
She clears her throat as he falls silent. “Maybe…maybe leave that up to Dumbledore? Telling people?” she says more gently.
Hagrid nods, running a hand over his beard. “Right. Yer right. Good thinkin’, Hermione. Should no’ of said tha’. Never know who’s listenin’, do yeh?”
Bellatrix claps Hagrid on the back. “Let’s get on back to the castle. Too many bloody strangers hanging around here. Too many eyes and ears. We can go back to your hut and put the kettle on, and you can tell me more about those skrewts.”
They begin to leave. No. But— but how can she—
“You don’t want to stay?” Hermione calls. “Sit with us? There’s room at—”
“I’ll see you tomorrow, Granger! Detention. Seven o’clock,” Bellatrix shouts back.
And they leave out the door.
Hermione heads back towards the table defeatedly. Prays to all the gods that for once Hagrid keeps his mouth shut.
And he didn’t even tell her about the dragons! Why? Does he just think she’s smarter than Harry? Does he like Harry more than her? Did Crouch convince him last time, but this time Bellatrix didn’t bother?
Why is Bellatrix even hanging out with Hagrid, then? Because it’s definitely not to talk about skrewts. She must be trying to get information out of him.
Although she does have her fair share of magical creatures to care for…
“Hermione!”
Someone grabs her arm as she passes the door, and this time Hermione manages not to draw her wand.
Ginny smiles at her. “Good, I found you. Wasn’t sure if the boys would have left yet for their detention with Snape. He just let me go. Is there space for me at…You’re sat with the French girls?”
Oh, yes, detention. Harry and Ron had better get going.
Hermione shrugs. “Fleur asked us to sit with her. They’re actually quite nice. Well. Fleur is, at least. I didn’t get much of a chance to talk to…wait. Why do you always have detention without the boys? Have you been…alone with Snape all afternoon?”
It’s strange. And a bit creepy.
Ginny rolls her eyes, moving out of the way of the door to let Ernie Macmillan get past. “He says we can’t be trusted together. Make too much mischief. So he keeps me separate. But Neville was there today too, working on his antidote. It exploded twice, so Snape made him go right back to basics and started teaching him how to prepare his cauldron and do temperature gauges and stuff like that. First year stuff.”
Oh.
He’s…teaching Neville? Privately? Did Bellatrix change—
Harry and Ron come up behind Ginny, putting their cloaks moodily. Ron looks especially sour faced. “Stupid, rotten Snape. Witches! French witches that want to talk to us, drink with us, and we have to go and crush up dung beetles or something for greasy Snape.”
“Flobberworms, actually,” Ginny says. “Mincing flobberworms.”
Ron’s mouth practically bends off his face in dismay.
Harry chuckles. “We’d better go. If we’re late, he’ll have us there until midnight. And anyway. Don’t think you were having much luck with Fleur. She obviously has someone else in mind.”
Someone— “Not Fred and George,” Hermione groans. Oh this is so going to complicate things.
“Fred— what?!” Ginny shouts, looking around for her brothers.
Harry laughs again. “No! Not— Hermione, did you not notice that you just rejected Fleur Delacour? I think she likes you.”
Wha…what?
But—
That’s not—
Hermione pulls all three of them outside into the village and around a corner. “Fleur likes me? That’s— Fleur doesn’t like me. She can’t. She—”
Ginny whistles. “Delacour. Damn. And you rejected her? Why the hell would you do that? You said she was nice.”
Hermione leans back against a wall and groans, casting a muffiliato and then covering her face. “She is! But she— You must have got it wrong. I’m only fifteen. She can’t like me.”
“Uh, Hermione, you’re twenty-five, remember?” Ron whispers loudly.
Hermione pulls her hands away to look at them. “She doesn’t know that. She thinks I’m fifteen. And she doesn’t like me! She’s never liked me. Not like that. We’re friends.”
Ginny crowds closer, grinning. “You’re friends with her in the future? After all those years? And you’re not going out with anyone. Are you sure you’re just friends?”
Yes! And— it’s—
“She’s married to Bill!” Hermione can’t help but hiss out as they laugh at her. “Your brother! They have kids!”
Ginny steps back, mouth falling open. “Bill?”
“I’m an uncle?” Ron says. “Bloody hell. Fleur’s my family?”
Finally.
Hermione relaxes. “Yes. That’s why I’m so used to her. We see each other all the time. Her and Bill.”
Harry clears his throat awkwardly. “So…okay, I might be wrong. But…I think if you’re not careful you might steal Bill’s wife.”
Hermione leans against him. “I’m being friendly! That’s all! I haven’t…kissed her or anything!”
Ginny laughs. “Maybe you should. You said this is a different universe. If Fleur likes you—”
“She shouldn’t kiss her!” Ron shouts. “Hermione doesn’t want to— Do you want to?”
Hermione pulls away from Harry. Feels her face heat up as she considers…
Hmm. Kiss a witch. She’s never really contemplated…
She’s not opposed to it. If Fleur did kiss her, then…she’d probably try it. Kiss back. Ginny’s right. Fleur isn’t married yet.
But if Fleur actually likes her, she wouldn’t trick her like that. Use her. Hurt her feelings. This is just hypothetical. It’s to imagine how it would feel for a witch to—
She’s broken from her thoughts as Ginny snorts and grabs her arm. “Well, there’s your answer. You boys have fun with Snape. Me and Hermione will go say hi to Fleur.”
Hermione tuts. “We’ll say goodbye to Fleur, and then I’ll go back to the library. The task is on Tuesday and I still need to improve on my plan. It’s still quite risky.”
If only she could use Fleur’s sleeping charm idea. It’s the best approach by far, but would look very suspicious if they both used it…
Ginny leans to whisper in her ear. “Going to kiss Fleur goodbye? You know you want to.”
Hermione smacks her arm. “No. It wouldn’t be right. She’s my friend, and doesn’t really know who I am,” she whispers back as she opens the door.
Ginny pauses them by the entrance. “But…so you do like witches?”
Hermione bites her lip. Looks around the tavern. At Fleur. Angelica, Katie, and Alicia. At Madam Rosmerta. Imagines…possibly… “Maybe,” Hermione whispers. “I haven’t really thought about it. But…yes. I might. A little. I think?”
She tries to picture it. If she had the choice, who would she have asked to the Yule Ball? Ron? Viktor?
It was fun going with Viktor. But...the same as it would have been to dance with Harry. They had a good time. But kissing him…
Who does she want to kiss?
Ginny squeezes her arm. Smiles at her. “Me too,” she whispers back.
Oh.
Well, she knew that. Bisexual. Ginny told her that ages ago.
But not when she was thirteen.
Hermione hugs her. “I know. You told me in the future. We all know.”
Ginny hugs her tighter. “You do? Even— and Mum and Dad aren’t— or my brothers?”
“They’re fine with it. It’s never an issue. They love you.”
Ginny laughs quietly. “Thank Merlin. Okay. Okay, but— But you didn’t know that you—”
Hermione groans. “Romance and dating aren’t a big part of my life! I’m busy with work. I’ve dated wizards, but— Look, do you want to go talk to some French girls? And maybe warn me if I’m accidentally…signalling to Fleur?”
Ginny pulls back with a grin. “Want me to pretend to be your girlfriend?”
Hermione’s face screws up. Ew, no! “No! You’re so young and— No! Just— I don’t want to hurt her feelings if Harry is right about...all this. And keep her away from Fred and George too, she likes redheads.”
Ginny flicks her hair over her shoulders. “Redheads? Hmm, maybe I should get to know Fleur.”
No. Ginny— don’t—
And she’s walking over.
Fantastic.
Notes:
Oh dear, Hermione. Now that's a possibility she didn't expect!
And don't worry, this is still bellamione, not fleurmione. Hermione's just too obliviously charming for her own good haha. But look at that. Questions questions. Kiss a witch? Now that's a novel idea ;)
Chapter 14: Consult with an Expert
Notes:
Hi folks!
Thank you all so much for the kudos and comments, it's amazing how many of you come to talk to me in the comments. I love hearing from you!
And after edging into Fleurmione last chapter, I had a little go writing an unrelated one shot for them. Go check it out if Fleurmione is your thing!
Anyway, back to the story. Enjoy!
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Hermione wraps her cloak around her more tightly, casts a lumos, and hooks her arm through Ginny’s. It gets dark so quickly now. At least it’s not raining, otherwise this walk back to the castle would be dreadful.
They probably should have left Fleur and the others earlier. But Ginny was having fun, and it was nice to talk to Fleur. Even if it was a bit awkward now that there’s a possibility that…
No. It’s fine! Fleur is just being friendly. She has to be.
She’s your friend, and she’s eighteen, and if she does like you, it’s probably because you’re the only person at Hogwarts who’s treating her like a normal person.
“So Charlie’s really here, then? Can’t believe he didn’t tell us,” Ginny says, looking towards the forest.
Hermione nods. “He’ll be out there right now with the dragons. It’s all a secret. Or should be. I bet Viktor already knows. And Fleur will, by tomorrow.”
They pass through the school gates, and Ginny pulls Hermione sharply to the left. “Well let’s go see him then! The rules said you couldn’t get help from your professors, but Charlie isn’t a professor! He’ll know what to do.”
Hermione tries to pull her back towards the path to the castle entrance.
Half-heartedly. She has a point.
“Ginny, if someone sees us—”
“You know hiding spells, right? Invisibility or something?”
“Well, yes, but—”
“Come on, then. It’s only two days now until the first task, and all you have is that charm for fireproof robes that you found, and a plan to dodge a dragon!”
And she could still use what Cedric did and conjure a distraction. What she really needs is some kind of warding spell. A containment spell. Or a way of freezing the dragon.
She hasn’t found anything strong enough.
Hermione…gives in. Taps Ginny firmly on the head with her wand, and then does the same for herself. Concealment charms.
“Ugh, what was that? It feels like an egg dripping down my neck!” Ginny complains.
Hermione chuckles. Casts a muffiliato. “It’s a concealment charm. I’ll teach it to you later when I have time. But it’s not full invisibility, you need a cloak for that, so stick to the shadows.”
“And watch out for dragons…” Ginny says quietly as they head deeper through the trees.
Trees that grow taller and taller. Hermione isn’t quite sure where the dragons will be. Probably where Grawp was. Outside of Centaur territory, but only just, so they’re not visible from the grounds.
She leads them through the dark. Through—
Tingling—
“Nox,” she whispers, pulling Ginny against a tree.
Magic. She’d felt…where is…who is…It feels familiar, but she doesn’t quite recognise it.
Footsteps. Wandlight.
Oh.
…Tonks?
What is she doing here?
Hermione slowly pulls Ginny along after her, just on the edge of the wandlight so they don’t trip over any stray roots.
She can’t believe…Oh she misses Tonks! She’d forgotten how much. Seeing her again is— Maybe Tonks will survive in this world. It feels like…well almost everyone died because of Bellatrix. If she’s changed, then surely Tonks could survive. And Sirius. Anything could happen!
“Ah!” Tonks stumbles. Falls over a log and into a pile of leaves. “Bloody— oh bollocking—”
Ginny bursts out laughing. Oh no. Hermione hopes the muffiliato is strong enough to—
“Expelliarmus! Homenum revelio!” Tonks shouts, getting to her feet. Tonks.
Hermione manages to cling onto her wand. Ginny doesn’t.
Tonks catches Ginny’s wand, and dusts some leaves and twigs off of herself with a sigh as the concealment charm disappears. “Alright. C’mon, then. What years are you in and what are your— Hermione Granger? You’re a champion. You really shouldn’t be here.”
Hermione smiles. “Neither should you, right? You’re not a professor…Auror Tonks.”
Tonks’ eyes narrow and her hair darkens. “Have we met?”
Hermione walks closer, pulling Ginny with her and unable to keep the wide smile off of her face. “No. But I’ve heard of you. Professor Moody trained you. And you’re a metamorphagus. You’re a great auror.”
Tonks scratches the top of her head awkwardly. “Huh. Ain’t had no-one recognise me before. Didn’t know I had a reputation. Did…Mad-Eye talk about me? Weird.”
Then she brings her hand down, wagging her finger at them sternly. “But you still ain’t supposed to be here. It’s the Forbidden Forest. It’s in the name.”
Hermione taps her lip with her wand. “So…you’ll tell a professor that we’re here? In the Forbidden Forest? And that you were here because..?”
Tonks barks out a laugh. “You’re a clever one, ain’t you? But that ain’t gonna work. I’m an auror. I’ve got permission to go on patrol and investigate suspicious activities.”
“You’d better get investigating, then,” Hermione says. “We’ll find our way back to the castle by ourselves.”
Hermione doesn’t move though. Just stands there. Winks at Ginny, who still looks a bit nervous at being caught.
Tonks folds her arms at them. Looks behind them, back through the trees.
And then huffs. Hands Ginny back her wand. “Too dangerous. You’ll have to stick with me now. So…c’mon then, I guess. And keep those concealment charms on, and your gobs shut.”
And she whacks them both on the head with her wand, concealment charms falling back into place.
“Kingsley will bloody murder me…” Tonks mutters to herself. Starts walking again.
Hermione squeezes Ginny’s arm and speeds up to walk together. Now what is Tonks up to? Because aurors are not supposed to interfere at Hogwarts, no matter what she says.
For a while they walk in silence though. Tonks did say not to talk. Hermione shouldn’t push her luck too much.
That’s what Bellatrix said. That she pushes her luck.
Most people don’t notice that about Hermione. They call her sensible. Too cautious. It’s quite strange that Bellatrix somehow—
“Wait…I think I know you too,” Ginny suddenly murmurs. “You…did you used to have longer hair? Brown hair?”
Tonks laughs. Lengthens her hair until it’s halfway down her back. And dark brown. “Depends on the day. Like this?” She shortens it to her shoulders, makes it mousey and curly. “Or like this?”
“Have you ever been to Ottery St Catchpole?” Ginny asks.
Tonks stops.
Her hair shortens, and she turns to look in their direction.
Then her eyes widen. “Red hair. Oh shit! I mean— Let’s go back. I should have taken you back. We can—”
“Tonks!” a voice shouts from through the trees.
And someone jogs towards them, not quite visible behind a bright lumos.
But that voice is very familiar. Hermione can’t believe their luck.
Charlie.
Charlie barrels into Tonks and wraps her in a bear hug. “It’s so good to see you! How are you? You alright? How’s—”
“Oh!” Ginny shouts. “That’s how I know you!”
Charlie pauses.
Steps back from Tonks. Looks in their direction.
Smiles. “Hi Gin. And Hermione. See you’ve met Tonks then.”
Hermione cancels the concealment charms. Well. Look at this. Tonks and Charlie?
Tonks leans down to look at Ginny properly. “Wotcha. We’ve already met, haven’t we? When you was like…four? How old are you now?”
Ginny nods. “Thirteen. You visited over the summer holidays. You were…Charlie’s girlfriend.”
Charlie laughs easily. “Yeah, that was a weird summer, wasn’t it? Mum loved you.”
Tonks grins, standing up straight. Starts walking along next to him. “And then hated me when we broke up. Kept calling me Nymphadora.”
They all start moving deeper into the forest, where Charlie had come from.
“She didn’t hate you,” Charlie sighs. “Not really. But yeah. Sorry about that. I tried to tell her that—”
Tonks pats him on the back. “You were fourteen. We both were. Don’t worry about it. Besides, weren’t your fault or nothing.”
“Why did you break up?” Ginny asks.
Hermione elbows her. “Ginny! Leave them alone, you can’t ask people that!”
Tonks looks at Charlie. He looks ahead. Leads them to the left a bit and…
They’re nearing the edge of the trees. How strange. So they’re not going deeper.
Charlie sighs again. Moves closer to Ginny and hugs her sideways, arm around her shoulders. “I was going out with Tonks when I was fourteen. She was my best friend. Funny, and smart, and listened when I was going on and on about dragons like I always do. But…that’s it, you see. I…kind of realised after a while that I was more interested in dragons than girls. I told Mum. Said I never wanted to get married, settle down. That I wasn’t interested in all that. Mum said I’d change my mind once I was older.” He laughs softly. “Hasn’t happened yet though.”
Oh.
Ginny hugs him back. “Yeah. Mum’s probably wrong about that then. So…can we see the dragons now?”
He lets out a breath. “Right. Right, the— wait. How did you know about—”
“We already know,” Hermione says. “It’s…well it’s obvious, isn’t it? Why else would you be here?”
Charlie stops and turns to Tonks. Glances at Hermione and frowns. “What do you think? They really shouldn’t be here. I mean…Hermione really isn’t allowed to be here.”
Tonks leans back against a tree. “No. But, if she already knows, then it ain’t our fault. Plus, you know, she’s underage. Reckon people will be more pissed if she dies.”
Charlie seems to consider this.
“Please, Charlie,” Ginny says. “She’s my friend, and…we need your help. I don’t want her to get hurt.”
Oh, Ginny.
Hermione pulls her into a hug. Strokes her hair. She’s so small. “I’ll be fine. I’ll be okay. Don’t worry about me.”
“I didn’t know you were going to put your name in,” Ginny whispers. “I should have told you my plan. So you knew Harry was safe. You didn’t have to enter.”
Hermione pulls back. Looks at Ginny sternly. “It was my choice. And it’s fine. I can do this. Really. I have lots of options that I could use. Sleeping charm. Conjunctivitus hex. Transfigure a rock into a horse to distract it, or iron chains to—”
“Blimey, look at you, little Miss Clever Clogs,” Tonks says, eyebrows raising. “Maybe the goblet was right, and you don’t need our help.”
Hermione shakes her head. Looks at Charlie pleadingly. “I do. I really do. I want to do this right. I don’t want to hurt the dragons, or harm their eggs. It’s cruel. Magical creatures have rights too.”
Charlie just stares at her.
Then slowly reaches out and taps his wand on her head. Concealment charm. Charlie.
“Come along, then,” he says softly. “There’s a spot we can sit and watch, away from the others. I’ll explain…have you practiced what I talked about?”
Hermione nods. Then remembers he can’t see her. “Yes. I can feel it. With people I know.”
Ginny and Tonks frowns at them in confusion, but Charlie just leads them off a bit more to the right. “Good. That’s good. I’ll point out the dragons to you. You can sit and…feel them. I’ll teach you how to let them feel you.”
“Feel a dragon?” Ginny whispers. “Think I’ll leave that to you lot.”
Tonks laughs. “Same. Maybe I will take you back to the castle, Gin. Reckon running into Filch won’t be as bad as burning alive. I’d still avoid McGonagall, mind you. If she found out I took her lions into the forest…” She shudders. “On second thought, take me to the dragons.”
Hermione smiles. Shivers as Tonks casts a warming charm. Tonks. Tonks. She’s back. And making jokes.
The clearing comes into view.
Right. Focus, Hermione. Feel…
Feel…
Oh. It feels…
A blast of flames lights up the treeline. Charlie leads them around the edge, voices and shouts bouncing off of the trees.
He holds a finger to his lips. “Voices carry in the woods,” he whispers.
And walks them further around. To a fallen tree. Walks around and sits behind it, ushering them over. “There. Can you see?” he breathes out gently.
Hermione follows his gaze. Towards the glowing flames. The silhouettes of people holding ropes, and raising wands, and…
Towering dragons. Half hidden by the trees, but stood tall on their hind legs. Shrieking roars come towards them now, piercing the air.
“They’ve sensed us,” Charlie says. “Dragons are territorial. They know the feel of every plant and creature around them. They feel it. It’s a part of them. They…well they really shouldn’t be here,” he whispers sadly. “They should be home. Where they belong. Can you feel it? Their discomfort? The…wrongness?”
Hermione tries. Tries to feel it. But…well she can see the dragons are upset, or angry. And she can feel their…aura of magic. It’s a bit like Hogwarts. An ancient, old, strength. Safety and threat. Power.
But no. She can’t feel their emotions, or even single them out individually.
Ginny is shaking her head in confusion, and Tonks…
Has metamorphed scales over her face. Her pupils are slitted. Hermione isn’t sure if she’s deliberately turning into a dragon, or if she’s trying too hard to connect with them.
“I’m not sssure,” Tonks hisses. “There’s sssomething. Oh.”
Did she morph her mouth too? Ha!
Charlie ruffles Tonks’ hair with a grin. “You’re doing it again. It’s supposed to be mental. Not physical, puff-brain.”
Puff-brain?
Tonks launches herself at Charlie and pushes him down into the muddy grass, dragon skin disappearing and shoulders broadening, arms more muscular. “Mental and physical is connected, Einstein. Hello? Have you never met me!”
Oh.
Oh wait.
“Magic is at least fifty percent mental…” Hermione mutters to herself. “Physical and mental are connected. You choose the words you want…and feel…”
Magic is mental. You have to believe in what you’re doing. But you also have to do it right. Have the right words, and guidance, and a history of…
She welcomes the feeling of the dragons. Remembers watching them. The Welsh Green. The Swedish Short Snout. Chinese Fireball. Hungarian Horntail.
Looks out over the log at the treeline. Tries to spot the different coloured scales. Tries to pinpoint…
She cancels the concealment charm on herself. No hiding. No tricks. Hermione. Her magic. She can feel it. And she knows what Ginny feels like. What Tonks feels like. What Charlie feels like.
Harmony, she thinks. Tries to feel it. Calm. Friendship. Peace. Aid.
What spells do that?
Charms, perhaps. Or a calming draught.
She doesn’t want the dragons to think she’ll drug them though.
She points her wand towards the clearing, inches closer, leaning over the log.
“Hermione…what are you doing?” Charlie says warily, sitting up as Tonks moves back.
Hermione takes a calming breath. “Protego totus corpus. Protego mentes. Protego horribilis,” she whispers gently.
Fire continues to light up the night, roars shaking the air. What about…a cheering charm?
She whispers the incantation. Warmly.
“That…won’t work, Hermione,” Charlie says, placing a hand on her shoulder. “Their scales are spell repellent. Almost no spells affect them.”
Hermione shakes her head. Intent. She doesn’t need it to work. She just needs to show her intent. “Do they have names? Names are important. Have you named them?”
Charlie shuffles closer and points over her shoulder. “Ah, okay. So the green one is a Welsh Green—”
“No,” Hermione interrupts him. “Their names. Have you given them names? Even nicknames? In your head?”
Ginny snorts. “What? Like Fluffy and Norbert?”
Hermione turns to raise an eyebrow at her. “Exactly. Or Aragog. Creatures that everyone is terrified of, but Hagrid managed to befriend. Friends of Hagrid. If an acromantula can have a friend, recognise a friendly face, then so can a dragon,” she says firmly.
Then turns her gaze on Charlie.
He smiles. “I’ve always thought that too. And I’ve tried. I really have. And sometimes…sometimes I swear they know me. But they still attack. It won’t stop them, Hermione. Even if they know who you are.”
Oh.
Hermione slumps back to sit in the grass. She’d thought maybe…
But no. Dragons have never been domesticated. Never trained. Only taught through pain and fear. Only ridden once, when she’d jumped onto that poor dragon’s back and broken out of Gringotts, soaring free into the sky.
Freedom. She can still remember that freedom. That relief and…terror. How her muscles ached with clinging on. How exposed she’d felt in Bellatrix’s dress.
And a shivering vibration thrums through her. As if from the earth. From the forest, and the heat of the fire, and the night air.
It feels like flying. The thrill of flying.
Silent.
Everything is silent.
“They’ve stopped,” Ginny whispers.
Darkness falls around them. The moon the only light. No flames.
And then the shouts return. Roars and shrieks. The crash of rocking cages.
But for a second…
There’d been peace.
Hermione and Ginny manage to get back to the Common Room five minutes before curfew, without running into Filch or McGonagall. Which doesn’t make a difference, because they said goodbye to Tonks at the gate before she headed into Hogsmeade with Charlie. Hermione still finds it…
Part of her is sad. An ache in her chest for the Tonks in her time.
Was her Tonks ever friends with Charlie? Did they date when they were younger? Did Tonks come to see him in the forest?
She doesn’t know. She never had the chance to know that about Tonks.
Alive. She’s still alive.
Ginny yawns, leaning against her on the sofa, eyes closed. “What’s the time now?”
Hermione casts a tempus, still staring into the crackling fire. “Gone midnight. You can go to bed if you want. I’ll tell you what Sirius says tomorrow.”
Ginny shakes her head. “Not long now. I’m just glad I’m not in the dungeons. It’s freezing down there at nighttime.”
Now Hermione turns to look at her. “What have you been up to in the dungeons at night?”
Ginny opens her eyes. Reaches behind Hermione’s ear and pulls out a sickle. “Saving the Saviour. Duh.”
The Saviour…
Hermione smiles. “Harry should be back soon. Snape can’t keep them forever. It’s…nice, isn’t it? Seeing Harry so relaxed. No dementors this year.”
Ginny closes her eyes again. “He’s a lot happier. And it’s good he has Sirius now. Even if he’s on the run. He’s still like…someone he can write to. Mum says Harry can always write to her if he has any problems. But—” She laughs. “Can you imagine it? Harry writing to Mum? She’d just tell him to eat more and get to bed on time. Ask if he’s keeping his room tidy. Don’t think she’d be much help with this. She doesn’t get it. Treats us like kids.”
You are kids, Hermione thinks.
Doesn’t say it aloud.
“I think most mums are like that. I got sent a toothbrush a couple of weeks ago,” Hermione smiles instead.
Doesn’t admit that it almost made her tear up. That little letter with a stamp on, making sure she was okay and hadn’t eaten too many sweets over Halloween.
Ginny hums an agreement. Yawns again. “Tonks was nice, wasn’t she? I’d forgotten all about her. She was friends with Charlie all through school, but I was only eight when he left for Romania. I recognised her voice though. And something about her. She’s fun. Warm.”
Hermione leans into Ginny a bit more, sinking lower in the sofa. “I never knew that. I know Tonks though. We meet her next year, in my time.”
Ginny sits up with a laugh. “You know everyone! Quidditch stars, aurors, Veela, even Death Eaters! Next you’ll be telling me you’ve met the Wyrd Sisters!”
Hermione grins. “I didn’t tell you? Who do you think is the band for the Yule Ball?”
Ginny shoves her. “You’re lying! Why would you…really? You’re not joking? They’re really—”
Hermione keeps nodding.
Ginny grabs a cushion and screams into it. “Okay, now I have to go to the Ball! You need a date. Why don’t you take me?”
Hermione smiles. “I’d love to. If no-one else asks you…”
Ginny stills. Puts the cushion down.
Tucks some hair behind her ear. “Someone asks me? Who?” she asks quietly.
Hermione stands up and moves closer to the fire. It’s nearing one o’clock in the morning. “I’ll leave it as a surprise. I know who asked you last time, but it might not be the same. But…if it gets close, and you don’t have a date, we’ll go as friends.”
Ginny comes to sit next to her. “Deal. But you should get a real date if you can. You deserve to have fun with someone.”
Hermione looks away into the flames again. Shrugs. “I can’t really. It’s too complicated. Either I’m too old, and it’s creepy, or I’ll be with someone older who thinks I’m fifteen. Either way, that’s an awkward opening dance.”
“I still think you should go with Fleur,” Ginny whispers. “She’s so hot. I would, if she didn’t keep calling me a little girl and saying I could be friends with her eight-year-old sister.”
Hermione smiles. Yes, Ginny’s flirting hadn’t exactly gone to plan with any of the Beauxbatons witches. Thirteen is just too young to be taken seriously.
The portrait hole creeks open.
“Hermione?” Harry whispers.
She waves him over. “Just us. Everyone else is in bed,” she whispers back.
Harry and Ron tiptoe over. “Can’t believe how long Snape kept us,” Ron complains. “Mincing flobberworms and plucking lacewing flies. Without gloves.
“Yeah, you stink,” Ginny’s says bluntly, nose wrinkling. “Have you not even washed your hands? Ugh, it’s like rotting—”
“No time,” Harry whispers, edging closer to the fire. “Sirius will be here any minute.”
Ginny catches Hermione’s eye. Smiles at his eagerness.
Hermione smiles back. Checks the time. “Two minutes.”
Ron sniffs his hands, grimaces, and then casts a scourgify at them. “Ow! Shit, that hurt.”
Hermione sighs. “Don’t use that on skin. Objects only.”
He nods to himself.
They wait.
“So did you kiss Fleur?” Harry asks with a sly smile.
“No,” Hermione says calmly. “We stayed for a drink and then went to find out about the dragons from Charlie. We left the Beauxbatons at the tavern.”
“You saw Charlie?” Ron asks excitedly. “How is he? What did he tell you? Bet he knew loads about—”
He’s interrupted as a head appears in the flames.
“Sirius!” Harry grins, face lighting up. “I wasn’t sure— Are you okay? You haven’t been spotted, or—”
Sirius smiles back, but not as widely. Cautiously, as he looks behind him and around at them all. “I’m very well, Harry, but I don’t have much time. I’ve broken into a house to borrow a floo. But…what about you? Are you alright?”
His voice is still rough and croaky from Azkaban. But he doesn’t look too gaunt. Not worryingly unhealthy, so that’s a relief. And he looks how he should. How she remembers.
Harry pauses before answering.
Leans closer. “I’m fine. I really am. But it was close. It— well it all started when we were at the Quidditch World Cup. Hermione saw someone steal my wand. They were invisible, and sat with Mrs Malfoy, she— she’s your cousin, isn’t she?”
Sirius slowly nods, frowning deeply now.
“Well, Hermione followed her,” Harry continues. “And she saw who it was. It was Bellatrix. Hermione saw Bellatrix obliviate Mrs Malfoy, and now we know that Bellatrix is at Hogwarts, disguised as Mad-Eye Moody using polyjuice potion, and she tried to put my name in the goblet, but Ginny tricked her into—”
“Hang on a moment, Harry,” Sirius laughs in shaky shock. “Just one— I’m struggling with…Bellatrix is alive? And she…she’s the one who obliviated Narcissa?”
He says both of their names hesitantly. As if they’re uncomfortable in his mouth.
Should Harry really be telling him all this? She has no idea what Sirius’ reaction will be…
Harry nods firmly without pause, not even questioning it. “Yes. She’s alive. And she’s here in the castle. We saw her name on the Marauders’ Map. Bellatrix Black.”
Sirius runs a hand over his mouth. “That…is…”
He drifts off.
Then takes a deep breath. “So she was trying to put your name in the goblet. She must have wanted you to…to die in the tasks. It’s the only…it’s…I don’t understand how Narcissa could have…”
Hermione clears her throat. She just too impatient. “Could you tell us about Bellatrix? Only— well we heard that she was a Death Eater. That she was cruel, and— and we know what she did to the Longbottoms. But— well she’s different here. It could be acting, but she’s oddly…calm. Rational. She…she’s quite nice to me, actually. Sometimes. I’m a muggleborn. That’s— it’s strange, don’t you think?”
There’s a long pause whilst Sirius stares at her.
Then he nods. “She…I know what you mean. I’ve also been trying to…”
He looks back at Harry. Smiles grimly. “My cousins have always been bloodpurists. My whole family were. Prejudiced, elitist. Convinced that being Blacks made us practically royalty. Toujours Pur, that’s the Black family motto. Always pure. Well, I very quickly decided that I didn’t want to be like them. Like my parents, or my elder cousin, Bellatrix. Narcissa was just as arrogant and deluded, but she was younger. The same age as me. More spoilt than anything too malicious. Just rather annoying and stuck up.
“Sounds like Draco,” Ron mutters.
Sirius smiles. “Yes. Precisely. From what little I saw of Draco last year, he’s exactly like his mother. Although…perhaps not as cunning as Cissy was. Is. I forget that…”
He shakes his head. “Anyway. Narcissa was one thing, Bellatrix…had joined the Death Eaters by the time I was in second year. She was eighteen. And she…terrified me.”
He looks away uncomfortably. “I never admitted it. Especially not to her. Never showed fear. But other than…my parents, and my aunts and uncles…she was what I feared. What I hated.”
“So…she is bad,” Harry whispers. Then nods. “She’s a Death Eater. She’s tortured people. Killed people. She’s evil.”
Sirius sighs. “It’s not that simple. As Hermione pointed out, something…must have happened. She changed.”
He rubs at his forehead. “Twice, actually. Looking back on our childhood…she really wasn’t that bad. Not until she was fifteen or so and got into…well, she called it politics. Before that, she was relatively…normal.”
He laughs. “Normal for her. For a Black. None of us were exactly normal. Being told all your life that you’re above everyone else creates…monstrous egos that are hard to temper. All of us struggled with it, even myself. I can admit that now. We were all exceedingly arrogant. Embarrassingly so.”
He cringes at himself, lost in memory.
Then tilts his head to the side. Nods slowly. “Except…maybe Andromeda. She was my favourite cousin. Always managed to calm Bella down when she got into one of her moods. Made it funny. Made it ridiculous. Our whole lives were…ridiculous. Dromeda helped me see that. I was amazed when she ran away. She married a muggleborn. Ted Tonks. And just…left. That’s what made me realise I could leave it all behind too.”
He drifts off into thought again, staring blankly across the room.
Harry clears his throat. “You ran away?”
Sirius blinks back into focus. Looks at Harry fondly. “I stayed with your Dad. With the Potters. I was always welcome at the Potters, even once I was seventeen and got a place of my own with the money my Uncle Alphard left me. Another good one in the bunch. My parents hated him for it.”
Harry nods. “So you didn’t have to see your cousins after that. It’s the same as me and Dudley. You were just stuck with them.”
Sirius laughs hoarsely. “Yes, I’m not exactly welcome at the Malfoys’ for tea. I was quite glad to be rid of them. As I say, when we were young children, we could almost manage to get along, but people change, and by the time—”
He suddenly freezes. Then looks behind him. “I have to go,” he whispers harshly. “But just— You’ll be safe so long as you’re at Hogwarts, but I need to tell you more. Hermione is right. Bellatrix changed again. I thought I’d imagined it, that it was just the madness, but when I was in Azkaban with her, she spoke to me. Often. She was insistent. She told me that—”
He turns around again. Flickers. “I really have to go. I’ll contact you again soon. Goodbye, Harry.”
And he’s gone.
Well—
That—
Damn it!
Hermione falls onto her back on the carpet with a groan. “Told him what?! We already knew the other stuff! He could have gotten to the point a little faster. Now we still don’t know anything!”
“We…know she’s into politics?” Ron says cautiously.
Hermione sits back up. Looks at them all.
Really?
“Politics is Voldemort, Ron. That’s what the Death Eaters are. Radicalists who wanted to see a change in the Ministry’s attitude to muggleborns. They want to take over the Ministry, and be in power. Politically. It’s not just about randomly killing people they don’t like.”
“Except me,” Harry says. “I’m a pureblood, and they still want to kill me.”
Hermione sighs. “Yes. Because your parents fought against them. Opposed them. Plus, they don’t think you count as pure enough as your mum was a muggleborn.”
Harry frowns. “Voldemort’s Dad was a muggle.”
“Yeah, but no-one knows that,” Ginny says quietly. “That’s why he changed his name. He didn’t like being called Riddle. Or Tom. He wanted to change it as soon as he got to Hogwarts, but then his name was called out at the Sorting Ceremony.”
Oh.
Ginny hugs her knees to her chest.
Harry puts a hand on her shoulder. Squeezes gently. Ginny smiles gratefully.
Hermione stands up. “Let’s all get some sleep. As Sirius said, we’re safe here. We can all see each other at breakfast. We have all day tomorrow. It’s just a normal Sunday.”
Ginny gets up too and puts an arm around her. “Normal apart from your detention with Bellatrix. You should be careful. Even if she’s being nice to you, you shouldn’t trust her.”
Hermione starts walking them up the stairs, a guilty twist in her stomach. “I know don’t worry. We’ll figure out what she’s up to. She’s not fooling us,” she says firmly.
As firmly as she can. Tries to believe herself, even as her brain fights against her. Logically…
Logically what? Bellatrix has changed. Sirius admitted it. He believes Hermione. He’s noticed what she noticed. Something about Bellatrix is different.
She’d talked to him in Azkaban.
And now Sirius thinks they’re safe at Hogwarts.
Chapter 15: Face the Truth
Chapter Text
The others go into Hogsmeade again the next day, but this time Hermione stays behind. The first task is creeping up on her, and it’s making her nervous.
She wakes up early. Heads straight for the Room of Requirement, the only one awake, wandering the chilly, empty corridors.
And once she's asked it to appear, asked for an arena, a realistic but safe arena, she begins.
Imagines a dragon on the nest. Casts the charms to protect her clothes. Takes a calming breath, and transfigures a rock into a horse.
And waits. Waits for an opening.
Runs for the—
Is hit by a blast of flames. Fake flames.
Again. She tries again.
Transfigures a rock that’s further away this time. Sprints— ducks!
Hides behind a rock. Okay. Closer. That’s closer.
And the dragon has moved away to look for her…
She transfigures another rock into a heavy iron chain. Animates it. “Incarcerous!”
It clamps around the dragon’s ankle, and it lets out a roar. Thrashes and flaps its wings—
Hermione clambers up the nest. Reaches the—
Got it! But here comes the—
She slides back down, bringing up a protego and panting as—
Flames hit her shield. Pass through. Burnt.
She imagines the dragon away, and collapses down to lie in the dust.
Great.
This…cannot be the best plan. It’s not.
Oh why did Fleur have to have the best plan?! And Viktor’s isn’t that bad. If she didn’t care, she could just blind the dragon and be done with it!
But she does care. Just the feel of the dragons last night. Magic, in the most…muggle sense. They feel like magic. Extraordinary. Breath-taking.
She struggles to her feet. Dusts herself off. Right. She needs a new idea.
So she needs books.
And a door appears in the arena wall. Huh. That’s never happened before.
She puts down the golden egg. Takes her wand out instead, and slowly makes her way over. Cautiously tries the door handle.
It’s unlocked. She peeks through…
Oh. Is this a secret library? There are bookshelves. Chairs and sofas. High ceilings, and tall windows, with calming blue wallpaper and—
Two girls hurry through the room, putting their cloaks on and then heading—
Oh! Blue and bronze!
Is this…the Ravenclaw Common Room?
No-one else is around. She pushes the door open a bit more.
Realises she’s higher than the floor. Is behind a portrait.
Checks again for Ravenclaws. Looks longingly at the books covering the walls.
Climbs through. She just wants a look. A little—
“Hello, Hermione Granger. You’re in the wrong house again.”
Hermione jumps and spins around. Luna. Curled up in a window seat.
Hermione smiles through a nervous laugh. “Yes. Sorry. I just— I was looking for books about…dragons.”
Oops. She’s didn’t mean to say that. The dragons are still a secret.
Luna just smiles and jumps up to pad over. “Oh, well you’re in the right place, then. There are an awful lot of books here.”
They both stand and look up at the nearest bookshelf. In awkward silence.
Hermione clears her throat. “Where…is everyone else?”
Luna begins to sway, twirling her skirt. “Third years and above can go to Hogsmeade with a permission slip. It has to be signed though, and Daddy doesn’t believe in signatures. Names are powerful, you see. And…the first and second years have all left too. I’m not sure where they are. They didn’t tell me.”
So…oh. All alone.
Hermione reaches for Luna’s hand. Squeezes. “He’s right. Names are very important. Maybe he could just sign with an ‘x’ so you can go next time.”
Luna squeezes back. Swings their hands. “I suppose he could. As long as he doesn’t think his name behind it. It’s the thought that counts.”
Thought. Names. Intent. Words.
Hermione looks at Luna curiously. “Luna…if you had to…take something from a dragon, something…they think belongs to them, but it doesn’t, how would you do it?”
Luna takes her wand out from behind her ear and taps her lip with it. “It doesn’t belong to them? And you really need it? Could you tell them that it’s not theirs? Ask for it back?”
Hermione smiles. “I could, if I could talk to dragons, which I can’t.”
Luna wanders over to look at a plant in the corner. Sighs. “Then I suppose they would be rather angry with you. No-one likes their things being taken. I have my clothes back now. Did I tell you? Ginny helped me explain that I need them back. She was very cross. It was quite a relief. And I’m much warmer now.”
She taps her feet together. Her trainers.
Hermione starts perusing the books. Charms. Maybe a shield charm. A book about protection. “I’m glad. And if it happens again, tell me or Ginny. Or Ron and Harry. They’ll help you too.”
Luna laughs softly, and it echoes through the room. “Ask Harry Potter? Oh, no. He doesn’t need to help anyone else. He’s saving far too many people already. It does make him happy. And sad. People needing him.”
Right. Luna is right. No more pressure or responsibilities on Harry.
“I’m sure he’d still like to talk to you though, Luna,” Hermione hums as she flicks through a book. “You’re a good friend. And very wise.”
Arms go around Hermione from behind. A warm hug. “Thank you. You’re very clever too, Hermione Granger. But you know that. You’re very clever at doing exactly what’s needed, at exactly the right time.”
Hermione freezes. Time?
She feels Luna lean on her to look over her shoulder. At the book.
“Protection,” Luna whispers. “Yes. Very sensible. Charms.”
And she accios a book from the shelf. Gives it over to Hermione. “Don’t forget this, though. You often forget this.”
And then the warmth is gone from her back. Luna skips away. Leaves the room completely. No explanation or goodbye.
Hermione looks at the cover. It’s…The Tales of Beedle the Bard.
She groans. Not again. There is no way she needs to read this again. There’s nothing about dragons, or—
It opens in her hands. By itself. Opens to The Fountain of Fair Fortune
A tale about four people who travel to a magical fountain to get a cure for their different problems, but, once they arrive, realise that they had what they needed all along.
It’s basically the magical version of the Wizard of Oz.
So…
She has what she needs?
In the story, the people help each other to get what they need. The first witch is very ill, and looking for a cure. The second witch saves the life of the first with a potion she brews. This makes her realise she has a talent, and can become a potioneer for money, meaning she’s no longer in poverty, and doesn’t need to ask the fountain for riches. The third witch comes to terms with her lost love along the journey, washing away her sorrows in the fountain rather than asking for her lover back. And marries the final member of the party. A wizard. Sir Luckless. Who is finally lucky enough to find a witch to love him.
So…
Hermione puts it in her bag with a sigh.
What…is Luna trying to tell her?
She puzzles over the book for the rest of the morning. Then makes herself go down to lunch. And returns to the Room of Requirement to practice, none the wiser.
By late afternoon, she’s managed to get the egg four times without getting ‘burnt’.
And is caught off guard half a dozen more times.
Goes to the library. Researches wards. Shields.
Nothing.
She might have to accio a literal shield and suit of armour towards her at this point. There are enough of them in the castle.
Day turns to dusk. Her eyes become heavy, squinting in the dim light.
Enough of this. Time for some fresh air. There are other ways of studying. More practical ways.
The trip back to the dragons is a lot easier than the night before, now she knows that you don’t have to go through the forest to get to them. They’re not in the forest. You can walk around the lake, and reach them as soon as the castle is out of sight.
Charlie is busy. Constantly surrounded by other keepers, trying to calm the increasingly agitated dragons. Tonks isn’t there.
The cold sets in, breath visible in the air, even with the bursts of flames.
Hermione stays. Curls up against a tree under her cloak and a concealment charm, and watches. Tries to keep her heart steady as the dragons snap their jaws and fight off the keepers.
It will be okay. She’ll be fine. She knows the charm for fireproof robes. And she has a plan. It will work. She thinks. She’ll just…transfigure more chains. Chain the dragon away from the nest.
For now though, she just watches. Feels the magic. Lets it calm her. Reminds herself that these dragons are nesting mothers. That they’re just defending their children. Are caring, really.
She names them. By their colours. Assigns the same colours to their magic. Blue. Green. Red.
Black.
The Hungarian Horntail.
She…hopes she doesn’t get the black one. It has more fight. Fighting the hardest.
She focuses on it. On her. On that one. Feels the magic. The heat of it. It’s the fiercest. The biggest threat.
The one she needs to feel the most. Understand the most.
Soon the sun has set completely. Pitch black.
Not long until dinner now.
And then detention.
Hermione stays. Watches.
She pushes open the door to the DADA classroom at seven o’clock sharp, determined to have as much time as possible to figure out once and for all what Bellatrix is—
Ducks a spell that hisses and sparks towards her, leaving a mark on the door where her head had been. Wha—
She stays ducked and crawls behind a desk, casting a protego as she leans slightly to…
No-one there. Gone again.
Hermione waits. And waits.
Huffs in frustration. Time to go off a hunch she’s had for a while. “Using an invisibility cloak is cheating!” she calls out into the room.
“Tell that to Potter.”
Ah!
Hermione spins around and falls on her arse on the floor at the whisper in her ear.
Bellatrix grins at her. Stands up straight again from where she’d been crouching behind a nearby desk, wand pointed at Hermione. “There’s no such thing as cheating in a fight. Fights are never fair. And it looks like you need a lot more practice before the first task, Granger.”
Hermione gets to her feet. “That’s not what you told Draco about cheating. When he hexed Harry from behind. You turned him into a ferret.”
Bellatrix frowns. Lowers her wand.
Opens her mouth. Closes it.
Shrugs and walks towards the blackboard. “You’re right. Guess I was just in a bad mood that day. Plus it wasn’t a real fight. Just Malfoy tripping over his ego.”
She starts cleaning the blackboard. Rubbing off the writing. Without magic.
Hermione wanders over curiously. Here it is again. That calm, easy conversation.
Different. What did Bellatrix say to Sirius? He said…that they were safe at Hogwarts. That Bellatrix has changed. “Actually, for once Draco didn’t seem very sure of himself,” Hermione says cautiously. “It was because Harry mentioned Narcissa. I think he was upset.”
Bellatrix pauses.
Picks up a piece of chalk without comment.
“Is…is Mrs Malfoy any better now?” Hermione asks.
The chalk snaps in Bellatrix’s hand and falls to the floor. “How should I know?” she asks roughly.
Okay. One question too far…
Hermione doesn’t bother replying. Walks away to look out the window.
It’s dark. She can’t see out. But can see the reflection of the classroom. Can keep her wand at the ready.
Bellatrix taps her fingers on the board. Drums them. One two three four. One two three four.
“How long have you been here?” Bellatrix asks quietly.
…What?
What does she mean? She’s…been in the classroom for a few minutes.
One two three four. One two three four.
“When did you come from?” Bellatrix asks.
And Hermione feels her heart plunge into her stomach. The breath leave her lungs.
She stares helplessly at her reflection. “I— I don’t understand what you’re talking about,” she says shakily.
She hears footsteps coming closer behind her. Can’t bring herself to turn around.
“Yes. You do,” Bellatrix says firmly. “You know what you know. And now you know what I know. What we both know. So. How do you want to…proceed with this? Does anyone else know?”
What is happening what is happening how is this happening?
How? How does she know?
She opens her eyes. She isn’t sure when they fell shut. Bellatrix is stood right behind her.
Hermione shakes her head. “It— you don’t know. I don’t know. None of this— I saw you. At the Quidditch World Cup, I saw you.”
Bellatrix chuckles. “I know. And you saw because you were looking. And I’ve seen. Because I’m looking. Do you understand?”
Hermione spins around. “No,” she groans frustratedly. “I have no idea what you’re talking about. You— you don’t make any sense!”
Bellatrix grins. “And neither do you. It’s exciting, isn’t it?”
Hermione laughs. What? Exciting? “This is…fun for you? It’s a nightmare! This whole thing is—”
Bellatrix barks out a laugh. “Oh, Granger, you have no idea. If you only knew. But gods, it’s nice to have someone that knows. Can we say it? Please just say it.”
Hermione puts her head in her hands and pushes past Bellatrix. She needs space. She needs— “This is too complicated! I can’t tell you— or I shouldn’t— this shouldn’t be happening!”
“Should or shouldn’t. It’s happening. Should I go first?”
Hermione brings her hands down. Turns around.
Bellatrix is just stood there. In the centre of the room. Casually.
Looking like Mad-Eye Moody.
Bellatrix sighs. “You’re not from here. You’re not from now. You’ve come back. Accidentally, by the sounds of it. And I’m fucking up your plans.”
Hermione doesn’t nod. Can’t nod. Can’t admit it.
But…
“You’re Bellatrix Lestrange,” she whispers, fiddling with her wand. “Bellatrix Black. And…I don’t know why you’re here.”
Bellatrix doesn’t nod either. Doesn’t react.
Slowly walks back over to the blackboard, repairing the chalk on the floor and picking it up.
“So…know anything about dragons?” Bellatrix slowly asks.
Then chuckles, shoulders moving up and down. “Because I fucking don’t.”
A surprised laugh escapes Hermione’s mouth.
She— that—
She doesn’t know anything about dragons?
“Maybe. I don’t think the champions are supposed to help each other though, if that’s what you’re asking.”
Bellatrix shrugs out of her cloak and drops it on the floor, freeing her arms and throwing them up in the air, stretching. “I didn’t ask to fight a bloody dragon!” she groans out, looking at the ceiling. “You’re the one crazy enough to put your name in. Spell resistant scales. Merlin's balls.”
Hermione can’t believe this. Just cannot believe this is actually happening right now.
She falls down to sit at a desk in shock. “You’re admitting it.”
Bellatrix stops.
Lowers her arms. “Are you going to tell anyone?”
Hermione opens her mouth.
Closes it.
Opens it again. “I…already have. And Harry did. You know that. We always knew it was you.”
Bellatrix bends down and picks her cloak up. Reaches into the pocket. Takes out a folded piece of parchment. “From Sirius’ map,” she mutters.
Holds it out to Hermione, behind her back.
The Marauders’ Map.
Hermione slowly gets up. Tiptoes over. Carefully pulls it from Bellatrix’s hand, amazed that she’s giving it back. “Did you look at it?”
Bellatrix shakes her head, still facing away. “I never knew the password.”
Right. Well…that’s good.
“I won’t tell anyone,” Bellatrix says quietly. “About you. I’ve known about you for a while too. I haven’t told anyone.”
Hermione puts the map in her pocket. “How? Why?” she asks just as softly, not wanting to do anything to break this strange atmosphere. This strange calm.
Bellatrix doesn’t answer. Just stands there.
And her hair…starts to move. To curl. To darken. Very quickly.
Hermione watches.
Watches as Bellatrix…begins to shrink. Steadies herself on the blackboard.
“I should go,” Hermione whispers.
“You have detention,” Bellatrix replies gruffly. Roughly. Voice wavering in pitch.
Hermione hurriedly shakes her head. Steps back. “I don’t— I’m not supposed to see this. I don’t— I don’t want to see you.”
Bellatrix laughs. It’s throaty and feminine. “Don’t want to see the truth? Can’t face it? Can’t accept it? I thought you wanted to see who I am. You watch me enough.”
“I…”
Bellatrix groans. Grabs her knee. Starts unscrewing the wooden leg.
Why is— “I should turn you in,” Hermione says shakily, raising her wand and backing towards the door. “I should tell Dumbledore. You— you’re dangerous. For— for Harry, and— and—”
Bellatrix wobbles and curses to herself. Falls to sit on the floor. There’s a loud tap as the magical eye falls out. Bounces and then rolls across the floor and under a stool.
Her hair is completely dark now. Long and curly. And she’s smaller. Drowning in Moody’s clothes.
“You could tell Dumbledore,” Bellatrix says, nodding. Her voice is— it’s her voice. “You could show him your memories in the pensieve. You could tell him everything.”
And Bellatrix twists around on the floor. Turns, so she’s facing Hermione.
Hermione freezes. Can’t look away. Thinks her heart might beat out of her chest.
Her. It’s her. Those eyes. Both eyes, and that hair, and that familiar expression on the right face. Right there. Exactly as she remembers. The face imprinted in her still lingering nightmares, but…
Calmer. Relaxed features. Not twisted in anger, or fear. Looking at Hermione…openly.
And then shifting as Bellatrix smiles sadly. “Please don’t. I won’t tell anyone about you. Please don’t tell anyone about me. I…really don’t want to go back, if I can help it.”
Hermione swallows. Can’t find any words.
Bellatrix sighs shakily. Brings her hands up to her newly revealed face, and just trails her finger over it. Over her cheeks, and her nose. Over her hair.
Touches her chin, and neck, and shoulders. Rubs her hands up and down her arms, as if warming them up. Splays her legs out in front of her. Wiggles her feet and then reaching to touch her shins. Both shins. No wooden leg. The relief on Bellatrix’s face is obvious.
But then she pauses. Pulls back.
Crosses her legs and rolls up her sleeve. Looks at the Dark Mark. “Now what am I going to fucking do about this?”
What…
Hermione takes a careful step closer.
Then hastily retreats as Bellatrix’s finger moves to the Mark. Touches it.
Hermione hits into the door, raising her wand.
Bellatrix looks up. Frowns in confusion. “What…Oh. Oh, no. I’m not calling him. Can’t do that. It’s gone grey, see? Because he hasn’t got a strong enough body.”
She casually holds up her arm to show Hermione.
Hermione grits her teeth. “I know. That’s what you’re doing. You want him to get his body back. That’s why you wanted Harry to be in the tournament. That’s why we stopped you.”
Bellatrix’s arm falls to her side. Her sleeve falls down over it, too long. “Yes, how did you do that? You said I put my name in, but I didn’t. I put— And look, you don’t have to worry about Potter. You never have to worry about Potter. We’re the ones who are royally fucked. Me more than you, if I’m honest. You seem to be doing just fine.”
Hermione resists the urge to laugh again. This is— whatever universe she’s in, Bellatrix is somehow funny now. And chatty? Very chatty.
And looks kind of ridiculous still sat on the floor in a puddle of clothes. Hermione hadn’t realised before how small she is.
Right. Let’s just get a few things straight then.
Hermione clears her throat. “So…you don’t want to kill me?”
Bellatrix leans on her knees as she gets up, stepping out of the one boot on her left foot that's so big it just falls off. “What? No. I told you. You’re interesting. You’re the only exciting thing going on around here.”
Only— There’s a whole tournament! And time travel! And a resurrection plot! And— “I’m a muggleborn!” Hermione shouts, completely flummoxed now.
Bellatrix rolls her eyes. “I know. Hermione Granger. Muggleborn. Friends with Harry Potter. Thinks too fast but moves too slow. I’ve been teaching you for months, I know who you are.”
Thinks too…what? So she knows she’s a muggleborn, but has been watching her, and analysing her, and— but—
“And my blood doesn’t bother you?!” Hermione squawks.
Bellatrix points her wand at herself and starts shrinking her clothes. “Nope. I’m done with all that. Done with everything, actually. Can’t quite figure out what the point of anything is anymore. I was just going along with it. Teaching is fun though. Or would be, if I wasn’t stuck in the worst body imaginable,” she finishes with a quiet mutter.
Hermione…walks closer to Bellatrix once more. As close as she dares. Right up to her. Searches her face. The slight frown of concentration as she judges when to stop the shrinking spell. The look in her eyes.
Focused eyes. No madness. No…
Hermione takes a shaky breath in the suddenly heavy air…and reaches out. Touches Bellatrix’s shoulder. Just taps it. To check she’s real.
Bellatrix stops the shrinking spell and looks up. Grins. “Hi.”
Hermione stares back. “You don’t make any sense. Who— who are you? What are you doing here? You’re not supposed to be here.”
Bellatrix frowns.
Then holds out her hand for Hermione to shake. “Bellatrix Black. And I’m just as confused as you are. Try not to think about it too much. Messes with your head. Just…if you’ve met me before, try to forget all that, alright? It hasn’t happened to us yet, whenever you’re from.”
Hermione doesn’t shake her hand. Of course she doesn’t. Why would she— “You’re not easy to just forget,” Hermione says coldly. “Or forgive.”
Bellatrix’s expression falls. She takes a step back. Turns to face the blackboard.
Draws a large circle. “I didn’t ask for forgiveness.”
Hermione shakes her head jerkily. “You want my help. With the dragons.”
Bellatrix shrugs. “Not really. I have a few ideas. Just wasn’t sure if I should…don’t know. Too many options. Just wanted to talk to someone about it.”
Oh.
No. No, Hermione is not feeling sorry for her. She doesn’t— They’re not friends. They’re not anything! They’re—
Don’t trust her. Remember what Ginny said, don’t trust her.
The chalk scrapes down the centre of the blackboard. Bellatrix is drawing a dragon eye.
“You can go now, Granger. End of detention,” she mutters.
Hermione frowns. “It’s only been a few minutes. And what are you going to do? How are you going to even compete? Everyone thinks you’re dead. How—”
Bellatrix points her wand over her shoulder at Hermione. “You worry about yourself. I’ll worry about me. Discussion over. Class dismissed.”
“But I—”
A silencio hits her. And then her jacket sleeves grow longer. And longer. Come to life and wrap around her like a strait jacket.
There’s a bang as the door behind her flies open.
And then a gust of wind blasts her backwards, feet skidding on stone. Through the doorway and out into the—
Ow!
Corridor.
She smacks into a stone wall, losing her balance and sliding down against it.
The door to the classroom closes and locks itself.
She sits on the floor in her too-big clothes, cursing silently to herself and trying to find her wand.
What the fuck?
Chapter 16: Enter the Arena
Chapter Text
Hermione runs up the spiral staircase, panting and stumbling as she jumps the disappearing step. Pushes her way through the tapestry. Sprints towards the Fat Lady. “Balderdash!”
“Someone’s in a hurry,” the Fat Lady comments as she swings open.
Hermione staggers through. Looks around for—
Spots Harry and Ron.
Drags them away from Seamus and Dean.
“Hermione—”
“Upstairs. Now. Have to talk to you. Is Ginny—”
“I think she’s in her dorm. What’s wrong? Did she—”
She urges Harry up the stairs. “I’ll go get her. I’m fine, but— We’ll meet on your bed.”
And she heads off to Ginny’s room. She cannot believe what she has to tell them.
Harry pushes his glasses further up the bridge of his nose and then takes the Marauders’ Map from her with a frown. “But…why?”
Hermione throws her hands in the air. “I don’t know! I don’t know anything! She just said she knew about my time-travelling, wasn’t going to tell anyone, and that she doesn’t want to hurt or kill either of us! I don’t think she even follows You Know Who anymore!”
Ron tucks his knees up, checking the curtains around Harry’s bed are still completely drawn shut. There’s a silencing charm too. “So she’s an ex-Death Eater now, like Snape and Karkaroff? She’s turned good? Why did she try to put Harry’s name in the goblet then?”
Hermione sighs. “Again, no idea.”
Silence falls, all of them lost in their shared confusion.
Then Ron shrugs. “Guess she’s not our problem anymore, then. Sucks for You Know Who, but she doesn’t want to work for him anymore. Can’t blame her. Most loyal servant. I wouldn’t bring him back to life either if I was just going to be bossed around.”
...A bit simplistic, but also true. Hermione lets out a quiet laugh at the ridiculousness of the situation. “So…she’s not a problem. She’s just…there.”
“If she’s telling the truth,” Ginny says.
This again. Which she understands, of course, but…
She squeezes Ginny’s ankle. “She’s not manipulative like him. None of you understand how…terrifying she was in my time. Impulsive. Violent. She wasn’t like…the Malfoys. She didn’t play a part, or tolerate people like me to keep up appearances. She’d never even touch someone like me except to hurt them. She didn’t think we were worthy of speaking to her. But now she talks to me all the time! She’s…different!”
Harry nods. “Like Sirius said. She’s changed.”
Hermione lies down, head in Ginny’s lap.
Changed. She’s definitely changed.
And now everything has changed.
So…if Hermione isn’t here to stop Bellatrix…
Then why is she here?
Tuesday. It’s already Tuesday. She hadn’t even registered Monday passing, too caught up in her thoughts, drifting from Herbology to Care of Magical Creatures to Arithmancy.
And now the day is here. The dreaded day. The first task.
She can’t stand it. She feels nauseous. Thinks she might actually faint if something doesn’t distract her soon, stuck in History of Magic. It seems even in this universe, history doesn’t change. She already knows everything about the goblin wars. There’s nothing else to learn.
Instead, she feels for her magic. Closes her eyes like everyone else beginning to drop off to sleep as Professor Binns drones on and on.
She can feel Hogwarts. It’s soothing. And she thinks she can feel Harry’s magic, even when he’s not using it now.
It is comforting. Calms her magic. Makes her more…aware of it. Self-aware. Like her magic is clearer. Sharper.
Right then. Now you’re awake, be productive.
She sits up. Wakes herself up, and writes out her list of spells. Her plan for the task.
Fireproof robes. Transfigure a horse. Transfigure the chains. Accio the egg, if she can. Run.
It seems far too risky. Unpredictable.
But she can’t think of another way. Fleur and Viktor already took the best approaches. And Cedric’s idea wasn’t bad. It doesn’t matter what marks she gets. So as long as she doesn’t catch on fire, and distracts the dragon long enough to get to the egg—
And the bell rings for lunch.
Okay. Okay, nearly time.
Harry throws an arm over her shoulder. “You okay? Is there anything we can do to help? I could—”
“I need to get out of here,” she whispers. “Just— fresh air. And then lunch. And then I’ll be taken down to…”
Ron takes her bag from her. “One step at a time, yeah? And remember, we’ll be in the stands. Harry’s bringing his broom, so if you need to get out of there—”
She pulls them to a stop. They’re outside in the corridor now. She’s not sure when that happened.
And stares at Harry. Feels tears gather in her eyes.
Cups his face. “You— you have your broom? Harry, you don’t have to—”
He smiles awkwardly. “Someone has to be there to save you. Just in case. I know you’ll be brilliant. You always are. But if you need help, well, me and Ron remembered what you told us about the firebolt. I can be there in a flash.”
She hugs him. Drags Ron over and hugs him too, blocking the corridor. Breathes in the smell of Harry. “I love you both so much. You know that, right?”
Harry clears his throat uncomfortably. “Uh— Yeah. We— I mean—” he pulls back. Shares a slightly panicked, confused look with Ron at how emotional she's getting.
She smiles at them both.
Continues walking down the corridor. “I know. And don’t worry, I have a lot of spells I could use. A lot of options. I’m just trying not to hurt the dragon, but if I have to?” She shrugs uncomfortably. “It’s better than burning alive. And I could always use the same spell as Fleur, even if it seems suspicious.”
They reach the Great Hall. Luckily there isn’t a line today. And there’s space at the— oh good, Ginny.
She takes her bag back from Ron and squeezes onto the bench, Ginny giving her a hug.
“Hey. I didn’t know how long you’d have, so I’ve filled up a plate for you. Probably best if you eat a little bit. Just slowly. Energy,” Ginny says softly.
Hermione fights tears yet again and forces herself to eat a bite of a sandwich as her stomach churns as flips. Fine. It’s fine. Protection, distraction, take the egg, leave. It will be over before you know it.
And the next task will be so much easier. Swimming in a lake. No problem. And you already know the clue.
She wonders who will be taken into the lake this time. Harry, maybe? Or Ron? Or Ginny?
She eats another bite. And another.
Makes herself drink some pumpkin juice.
Fine, fine, fine.
Breathe. You—
She jumps as someone taps her shoulder. Turns—
Oh.
Bellatrix bends down to whisper in her ear, close enough so Harry can probably hear, but that’s about it.
“Hi. It’s nearly time. McGonagall is coming to get you.”
Well this is strange. She'd thought Bellatrix might ignore her again, but it seems like...they're still talking. When they don't really have to.
Hermione swallows. Slowly nods. “Thank you…for telling me. What— Do you know what you’re going to do?”
Bellatrix looks…tired. Quite pale. Her expression is difficult to read on Moody’s face.
Hermione almost wishes…
But Bellatrix suddenly grins. “Worried about me? I’ll be fine, Granger. I’ve narrowed down my options. You know what you’re doing?”
Hermione cautiously smiles back. “Yes. I think so. I’m keeping my options open though.”
Bellatrix stands back up. “Sounds sensible,” she says, more loudly now, some people turning to look.
Including McGonagall, who is hurrying down the aisle towards them, clearly anxious.
There’s a brief flash of fear on Bellatrix’s face, there and gone. Her eyes dart to Harry. Then back to Hermione.
And then she gently squeezes Hermione’s shoulder. “Good luck. Be vigilant. And try not to die, I was just starting to like you, Granger.”
“Alastor!” McGonagall gasps, aghast. “This is no time for jokes! This— Miss Granger, I’m sorry but you need to leave now to be with the other champions, ready for the first task.”
Hermione distractedly gets to her feet, glancing from Bellatrix, to Harry and Ron and…just…
Likes her? Bellatrix likes her? Why is she being so nice to her? What is—
She doesn’t need all this confusion right now! Why—
Ginny pats her on the back. “Good luck. We’ll see you soon. It’ll be fine, you’ve got this.”
Harry smiles and nods. Gives her a weak thumbs up.
Ron hands her an apple. “Here. Just in case, you know, don’t know how long you’ll be—”
McGonagall takes the apple. “That is very thoughtful of you, Mr Weasley, but I’m afraid Miss Granger is only allowed her wand,” she says gently. Puts the apple down on her table and looks at Hermione. “You may give your belongings to me…or to your friends now, if you would like.”
Hermione swallows. Hands her bag to Ginny.
Gets another tight, wavering smile from McGonagall, and is lead from the room.
Don’t be sick. Don’t— you can do this. You can do this. Viktor is doing this. Fleur will be there. And Dumbledore will— If you’re about to die then—
She breathes deeply as they make their way around the lake. Tries to feel the wind, and the cold November air, and the magic.
Magic. Can she feel McGonagall?
She thinks so. Yes. A steady presence at her side, or…no, steady isn’t the right word. More…directed. Precise.
The warm buzz of the castle is fading. And as they move past the trees…
Blue? Black? Red? Green? Can she feel any of the dragons? Can she picture any of them?
She doesn’t think she can.
McGonagall puts a hand on her shoulder. “Now, don’t panic. Just keep a cool head. We’ve…got wizards standing by to control the situation if anything gets out of hand, so…”
They round the corner to where the dragons are usually kept, but instead a large tent is blocking the view and their path.
Now McGonagall is the one who looks like she might faint. She clears her throat, and continues. “In you go. It’s just like any other examination, Miss Granger. You are…the best student I have seen in a long time, with knowledge far greater than even some of my NEWT level students. Remember that. As erroneous as you were in entering your name, the goblet picked you to represent our school for a reason.”
Oh. Oh that’s so—
Hermione forces a smile onto her face. “Thank you, Professor. I’m— I’m sure I’ll be fine.”
That’s all she can really manage to say. So.
She looks back to the tent. Stands tall. Clenches her jaw, grips her wand tightly, and walks inside.
“Ah, here she is! Good-o!” Bagman says, practically bouncing up and down in excitement, and oblivious to the tension in the room. Viktor looks so nervous that his whole body is tensed, and she’s never seen Fleur so shaken, perched on a wooden stool in the corner and staring at the ground.
No Bellatrix. Obviously. But how is she going to—
“Don’t just stand there. Come in, come in. Make yourself at home,” Bagman grins. “Now you’re all here, it’s time to fill you in!”
Hermione makes her way to the centre of the room. Offers a shaky smile to Viktor and Fleur as they come over.
Bagman rubs his hands together and then picks up a purple sack. “Good. So once the audience has assembled, I’ll be offering each of you this bag, from which you’ll each select a…uh…variety of the thing you’re about to face! Oh! And I have to tell you something else too. Your task…is to collect the golden egg!”
He looks around at them, waiting for a reaction.
There isn’t one. They all know what they’re facing.
Bagman smiles at them brightly and then walks over to the entrance, ducking through the tent flap.
Hermione feels a tug on her sleeve. Oh.
Fleur smiles weakly, fingers brushing Hermione’s wrist and then retreating. “So…I think perhaps we are all picked by the goblet because we are very stupid.”
Hermione lets out a quiet laugh. Looks at her and Viktor. “Definitely. Do you think they’ll notice if we all escape to the Three Broomsticks instead?”
Viktor walks closer, frowning. “I think they notice. I think this is not allowed. We are champions. We compete.”
Hermione resists the urge to roll her eyes. Still struggles with sarcasm then.
Fleur gives her a look, turning so Viktor can’t see. “Ah well. You are right. Afterwards then. We drink later.”
“Yes, winner buys the wine,” Hermione says, pointing at each of them. “Deal?”
Now Viktor smiles. Holds out his hand. “Deal. I—”
Bagman comes back inside, and Viktor’s hand falls to his side as he turns and walks away to the side of the tent again. And Hermione can hear the crowd now. Hundreds of footsteps, excited conversations. Laughter.
Soon. It’s soon. Out there all alone, with everyone watching.
She glances at Fleur. Really wants to hug her. Knows that she probably shouldn’t.
“We’ll be fine,” Hermione whispers. “We’re brave. We’re champions. We were chosen for a reason.”
Fleur just nods, turning faintly green she’s so pale. Clammy.
Bagman comes back over. “Right! We’d better get started. I’ll have to be quick, because I’m commentating. Miss Granger, how about youngest first?”
He holds out the sack.
Right. Okay. Colours. Which colour do you want?
She just reaches in. Feels around. Deftly pulls out…
“The Chinese Fireball!” Bagman announces. “Yes, there we are, there we are. And now you, Miss Delacour?”
Third. Hermione is last, a number three around the tiny dragon’s neck. She was hoping she’d be able to get it out of the way, but…”
Fleur is second with the Welsh Green. And Viktor is going first.
With the Swedish Short Snout. No Hungarian Horntail this time. It must be a spare.
Unless Bellatrix…
She’d been planning on fighting a dragon. Is she just going to…demand a fight?
“Well, there we have it!” Bagman calls, already leaving. “Wait for the whistle, Viktor, and then you’ll be out first. Good luck!”
And he’s gone.
Viktor starts pacing around the tent. Maybe being first is worse than being last.
The time ticks on, and Hermione just concentrates on staying upright. Goes through her plan in her head over and over.
The whistle blows. Viktor heads straight for the entrance to the arena. Doesn’t look back, even as Hermione smiles at him and—
Hermione suddenly has a face full of blonde hair and is being hugged tightly. Thank Merlin. She didn’t want to be the first one, but she really needs a friend right now.
They hug for a long time. She can feel Fleur’s heart beating wildly. Knows her own is doing the same. Under any other circumstances she would have pulled away by now, awkward and flustered. But she's too nervous. Needs the comfort. The familiarity. Fleur smells the same. The same as she always does, except no sea-lavender, sand, or salt.
No Shell Cottage yet.
Fleur starts muttering in French, too quickly and quietly for Hermione to understand anything. And then takes a breath. Steps back. “We can do this. I have a plan. Do…do you have a plan?”
Hermione smiles. “Yes. I have a few ideas.”
Fleur searches her face. “Really? Because if you cannot think of one, I can tell you mine. Remember, you cannot stupefy them. They are too powerful because—”
“I know,” Hermione interrupts. “And it’s alright, I do have a plan. Thank you, though. What…so we’re not rivals anymore?”
Fleur shrugs awkwardly, a smile pulling at her lips. “Of course we are rivals. It does not mean I want you to burn alive, or…”
She drifts off. The crowd outside is going wild. Viktor has the egg.
“See?” Hermione says. “It will be over before you know it. You have a plan. You can do it.”
Fleur nods to herself. Turns towards the entrance and rolls her shoulders back. Flicks her hair behind her head and raises her chin.
The whistle blows.
“Bon courage,” Hermione whispers.
And then Fleur is gone too, a deafening applause greeting her as she reaches the arena.
Hermione sits down on the ground. Her legs are too shaky.
She plucks at the grass. Pulls out a few longer blades by the roots.
How did Harry do this? He was fourteen and it had taken him all night to learn accio.
She takes out her wand. Feels the hum of magic. Transfigures the wooden stool in the corner into a cushion. And then a teapot. Then a pot plant.
“Ooh! That was close! Thought she was going to get it then!” comes Bagman’s voice from the commentator’s box.
Come on, Fleur. You can do it.
Hermione directs her wand at herself. Begins casting the imperturbable charm on her clothes. No-one said they couldn’t. She knows she’ll be facing a dragon, and she’s only using her wand.
She really hopes it works on dragon—
The crowd erupts into cheers. Fleur did it. She’s done it. Which means—
Hermione stumbles to her feet. Heads towards the door.
Ties her hair back. A last-minute decision, but probably sensible just in case her hair catches on fire.
Come on. Get this over with. You’ve fought in a war. You’ve been through worse.
But never alone…
The whistle blows.
She takes a breath, and opens the tent flap.
Continues past trees to the gap in the enclosure fence. Forces her feet forward as hundreds of faces look down at her.
The dragon is there. At the other side of the rocky arena. Crouched over a nest, just like in the Room of Requirement, and already roaring at the crowd. Blue.
She stops in the entrance, just inside some wards. Dumbledore. Yes, he must have added them to keep the spectators safe.
If only wards could be cast on people. But only bloodwards on a location really do that...
She takes a second to try to spot Harry or—
And then she’s shoved from behind, hitting into a rocky wall and stumbling —
What—
But the dragon’s over there! What was—
Gasps and shouts break out from the stands.
“Good Lord,” Bagman’s voice comes from the commentator box. “It can’t be. It’s—”
Bellatrix reaches down and pulls Hermione upright, brushing some curls out of her own eyes with a grin. “Sorry, Granger. You’re going to have to wait a bit longer.”
Bellatrix. And she looks like Bellatrix. She’s dressed like Bellatrix. She—
She winks at Hermione, and walks out into the arena, arms held wide. Casts a sonorus. “Surprise! Sorry I’m late! Or early. Or…alive. Did you miss me?”
The dragon roars. Spreads it’s wings and begins coming towards her, right at the edge of the nest.
Bellatrix laughs. Looks around the stands at the shocked, terrified, or confused expressions. Scanning through the crowd. “Everyone got their scorecards ready?”
And her eyes stop. Focus on someone. Hermione follows her gaze…
Harry.
And Bellatrix raises her wand at him. Right at Harry.
More wands draw. People get to their feet. Dumbledore. Harry. Ron. McGonagall. Crouch. Hermione begins to move forward, wand in hand and ready—
The dragon hisses out a warning, fire curling from its nostrils—
“Accio firebolt!” Bellatrix yells.
What?!
And Harry’s firebolt comes soaring towards her. She—
She stole Harry’s idea!
Bellatrix jumps to grab the broom and swings on, ducking a jet of fire and curving off around the arena.
“Uh, well I’m not really sure of the rules here,” Bagman shouts confusedly as people stand up and sit down, murmuring and pointing. “This hasn’t happened before in the history of the Triwizard— But look at her go! Bellatrix Black can fly!”
Hermione stays flattened against the nearest wall, not wanting to catch the dragon’s attention, but she has to admit that…
Bellatrix spirals through the cloudy November sky, dodging in and out as the Chinese Fireball defends its nest. Flames shoot from its gaping mouth, but Bellatrix is too fast. Flying around and around and…
Her wand is drawn. But the sonorus has been cancelled. She’s muttering something.
Hermione shivers. She can feel it. Magic. Bellatrix.
The fire stops. The dragon stills. Stays stock still, staring at Bellatrix.
Its wings fold in.
Bellatrix swoops down. Snatches the golden egg.
And shoots back up into the sky, a black figure getting smaller and smaller.
And away.
A heavy silence falls over the arena.
And then it’s broken as the dragon begins to shriek in fury. Oh dear. Oh no. Oh—
Hermione casts a sonorus. “Am I still…is this my dragon? I think I might need another dragon, Headmaster!” she shouts, ducking behind a rock. “Or an egg?”
“Leave the arena, Miss Granger!” Dumbledore shouts back. “The whistle will call you when—”
“You are giving her more time?!” Madame Maxime shouts angrily. “She is at an advantage! She has more time to prepare!”
Advantage?! This is definitely a disadvantage!
Hermione tries to edge closer to the exit without the dragon spotting her, trying to keep her magic calm.
“We should halt the tournament altogether!” Karkaroff shouts. “We all saw who that was! She’s alive! Free! We need to call the aurors!”
“And Miss Granger needs to compete, or risk losing her magic,” Dumbledore says firmly. “Another dragon, please. Another egg. And back to the tent, Miss Granger.”
Easier said than done! Where’s the exit? She can feel the heat of the flames. The dragon is— there!
She jumps through the barrier. The shimmering protection ward at the gate. Dumbledore.
And sits in the grass for a second, catching her breath.
Okay. Maybe she should have worked on her fitness a bit more. That was more tiring than she’d expected.
Not that she’d expected any of this.
She gets to her feet. Brushes the mud off.
Takes one last look at the arena. The confusion. The chaos. The roaring dragon.
And heads back for the tent.
Right. See? Not so hard. Bellatrix got her egg in a few minutes flat. So just go back there, get on with it, and get your egg. You have a plan. And the dragon won’t hurt you. Feel it.
She steps into the tent. Feels for her magic. The magic in the air. Feels out for…Hermione. Dumbledore. McGonagall. Harry…
Dragons. Feel it. Dragons. Hogwarts. Old, peaceful, long lasting magic.
Bellatrix?
No Bellatrix. Her magic has faded. Gone.
The whistle blows.
Hermione turns around. Returns to the arena.
The crowd is still buzzing. Still on edge. Restless.
And so is the dragon.
The Hungarian Horntail.
Hermione stops at the entrance. Outside the wards.
Hello, she thinks. I need to pass through.
Intent. Words.
She takes a slow breath. “Balderdash,” she whispers. The password to the Common Room. Entry granted. Going home. Warmth. Safety. Friendship.
Imagines stepping through Platform Nine and Three Quarters…and moves forward.
“Protego totalum,” she mutters. “Protego horribilis. Cave inimicum. Salvio hexia.”
Not for herself. For the Horntail. The black dragon tensed and screeching before her. Safe. You’re safe. I want you to be safe. “Protego mentes. Protego totus corpus.”
“…Well, here goes our youngest champion,” comes Bagman hesitantly. “She seems to be casting protection spells. An…interesting approach.”
Hermione smiles. So he hasn’t noticed who she’s protecting.
Black. The black dragon. That’s the colour she assigned. Feel it.
It feels…old. Ancient. Earthy and…hot. Molten.
She makes her way around the very edge of the arena. The edge of the territory. Remove she thinks. She needs to remove the golden egg. It isn’t supposed to be here. It belongs in the water.
She casts a bubblehead charm. Remembers the water. Feels the lake. Imagines the golden egg in the lake.
The black dragon tracks her. Its magic ebbs and flows. She feels it. Surging and releasing with every fiery huff of breath.
It doesn’t move from the nest though. And Hermione pauses with every torrent of fire. She understands. Understands the need to protect. This dragon is a mother. Is caring for her children.
Hermione casts a warming spell. Warmth. Protection. Just like she’d cast one on Luna, and Ron. Offered for Fleur. Protego mentes. Protego totus corpus. Cave inimicum.
And she edges closer. This wasn’t the plan. She should have transfigured a rock by now. Into a horse. A clear enticement.
But no. She doesn’t want to. Doesn’t want to fool this creature. Ancient. Understands more about magic than any of them.
Hermione…feels out for the golden egg. It’s magical. She tries to sense it. Water. Song.
“That one doesn’t belong here,” she whispers, looking up at the Horntail from the bottom of the nest. “Do you see? It’s been taken. I want to take it back.”
Rocks begin to fall and crumble under the dragon’s scraping claws, pattering over the lip towards her. Restless. The dragon is restless.
Peace Hermione thinks. “It’s almost over. You’ll be home soon. Once I have that one. Let me take that one.”
She climbs up the slight slope. Edges towards—
The dragon’s head whips to face her. It screeches. Mouth wide and backing away—
Its tail swing around. Comes in her direction and—
Hermione quickly continues forwards. Closer, out of range of the spiked club at the end. Focuses on the hum of her magic, and remembers riding the Norwegian Ridgeback out of Gringotts. Flying free. Escaping. Letting it free. Peace. Flight. Escape.
And she ignores the rage. Ignores the possibility of fire and burning flesh. Ignores the crowd, and the people watching, and heads straight for the golden egg that's nestled amongst the others by the Horntail's feet. “Protego totalum,” she whispers. “Protego horribilis.” Casts a warming charm. A cheering charm. Mine, she thinks. This one is mine. It belongs with me.
Silence falls. Complete silence. All movement stills. A stadium of held breaths.
And…she reaches the egg. Touches it. Cold metal beneath her fingertips.
Picks it up.
Turns—
Meets the gaping maw of a dragon. Feels the tingle of magic in the air, and watches the spark catch at the back of its throat. Brings her arm up in front of her face, blood rushing in her ears and—
Is flying. Is soaring up into the air, feet dangling, her arm— arm—
Bellatrix swings her onto the back of the broom. “Are you fucking insane?! Granger! What the— That was a fucking dragon, Granger!”
Hermione squeezes her eyes shut as the world tips and blurs. Reaches out on instinct to cling onto Bellatrix, unable to steady herself properly with the egg still in her other hand, held to her chest. “I— I didn’t—”
Bellatrix groans. “I have to leave. I have to hide. I wasn’t counting on actually having to save you from burning to— You’re not going to die. Just remember the arresto momentum, alright?”
Arresto— no!
But Bellatrix has already pried her fingers off of her, and tipped the broom upside down, giving Hermione a harsh shove.
Falling— just— she—
“Arresto momentum!” Hermione cries out.
And just in time. Hovers just inches above the heads of the gaping spectators.
Luna smiles up at her, head titled back. “Oh, hello Hermione.”
The spell breaks. Hermione falls on top of her.
Ow.
Chapter 17: Formulate a Response
Chapter Text
Hermione pushes herself up off of Luna. “Sorry. Are you okay? I didn’t mean to— oh, thanks.”
Luna hands her back the egg. “You’re welcome. I think you need to go back down now. I’m very curious to find out what your score will be. And Bellatrix Black’s.”
Uh…
Right.
Hermione brushes her robes down and squeezes past a still dumbstruck Neville. “Sorry. Excuse me. Just need to— thank you.”
She walks down the steps awkwardly, feeling more than a hundred eyes fixed on her.
Bagman clears his throat. “Right then. Uhh…well, usually the champions have to stop off at the first aid tent to be checked over, but seeing as Miss Granger appears unharmed…and…uhh…we’d best get on with the scores!”
She reaches the bottom. The keepers have already taken the Horntail away, and now the judging table is fully visible once more.
Hermione looks up at them. Shrugs helplessly. She…has no idea what score she’d give herself either.
Dumbledore trails his wand through the air, gold magic streaming from the end. An eight. Oh. Well that’s…more than she expected.
Madame Maxime huffs at his side. Drags her wand through the air jerkily. A two.
Also fair enough. Hermione hadn’t used any kind of advanced magic. And had…needed saving.
Crouch is next. Looking very pale and shaken. A five. Neutral. Easy.
Bagman gives her a three with an apologetic shrug. Looks like he doesn’t have any wagers placed on her then.
And Karkaroff…looks even more terrified than Crouch. Hesitates for a long time, before slowly raising his wand.
Glances at the sky.
Draws a shaky nine.
Dumbledore clears his throat. “Thank you, Miss Granger. I believe that concludes the first task. I would advise that you do stop off at the first aid tent for Madam Pomfrey to check you over before you return to the castle.”
Hermione nods quickly, turning and jogging towards the exit. Time to get out of here. She’s had enough of all the staring, and really needs to just—
She rounds the corner. Slows to a fast walk, her eyes blurring with tears and—
She brings a trembling hand to her mouth. The adrenaline is wearing off. This always happens. The built-up panic.
The tent flaps open, and Madam Pomfrey hurries out. “Dragons! What were they thinking? What— What is the matter, Miss Granger? Come here. Where are you hurt? Can you tell me?”
Hermione shakes her head, rubbing at her eyes. “Nowhere. I’m fine. Honestly, Madam Pomfrey. It’s the— it’s the—”
Madam Pomfrey pats her hand and leads her to a bed. “The shock. Yes, it’s alright. Happens to the best of us. You just sit here for a few minutes and drink this. A calming draught. Now let me just have a little look at you…”
Hermione sips at the calming draught, her heart immediately slowing. Hands unclenching. Stomach untensing.
Madam Pomfrey looks at her critically. Searches her eyes. “No burns, as I thought. So she was fast enough. Did…And she didn’t hurt you in any way? Use any…spells on you? Anything?” Madam Pomfrey asks quietly.
Oh. She was watching what happened with Bellatrix too?
Hermione slowly shakes her head. “No. She just…grabbed me, and then dropped me so she could leave,” Hermione whispers back. “She told me to use an arresto momentum.”
She saved her. Bellatrix saved her. Came back for her.
She takes another sip of the calming draught as Madam Pomfrey looks her over one last time and then leaves through the partition. Calm down, Hermione. It’s over.
So why is she still nervous?
And Harry, Ron, and Ginny burst into the tent. “Hermione!”
Harry gets to her first. “Are you okay? Are you alright? I couldn’t— She took my broom! I would have helped you, but—”
Ginny whacks her in the arm. “What were you thinking?! That wasn’t the plan! You were—”
Hermione puts a hand over Ginny’s mouth. “Ssh! Of course there wasn’t a plan, the dragon was a surprise, remember?” She looks at Harry. “And I’m fine. Honestly. Not a scratch. I’ll be able to leave soon. I just needed to…sit for a bit. On solid ground.”
She digs her hand into the bedsheet. Safe. Ground. First task over.
Ron looks her over. “Well…it’s good you’re okay. Weird that she… but…so you got the egg!” he says, changing the subject and nodding at it.
Hermione smiles, relieved to focus on something else. “Yes. You can look at it if you want. Here.”
She hands him the egg. “Don’t open it though. It—”
Fleur suddenly steps backwards through the nearest partition, gesturing quickly to someone. “Une seconde! J’arrive. Il faut ranger mes—”
She breaks off and lets the partition fall shut, hurrying over to Hermione, pushing Ron out of the way. “Are you okay?” she whispers. “I thought you were going to—”
She moves to touch Hermione’s face but pauses. “That witch. The Death Eater. Where did she come from? And does she know you? She was faster to save you than all of the professors.”
Hermione flushes uncomfortably, feeling her face heating up even more as Fleur’s fingers move forwards and do cup her face, stroking her skin. Oh dear...
Hermione gently pulls her hands away. “I’m fine. And…I really don’t know why she saved me. She didn’t say. I guess she was fast enough because of the broom.”
“Delacour! Dépêche-toi!” Madame Maxime calls from outside the tent.
Fleur sighs. “She is worried. All of the professors are. We have to return to the castle, quickly. Before they call the aurors and the dementors.”
Dementors?
Hermione shares a worried look with Harry and hurriedly gets up. “We’ll come with you. Let’s go.”
Fleur nods. Glances to the exit. “I cannot be seen with you. They are suspicious. Even more now. I am sorry, Hermione, but I have to go.”
And she kisses Hermione’s cheeks before running off.
Ginny laughs quietly. “She likes you.”
“Never mind that now,” Harry says, following after Fleur. “We have to send an owl. We have to warn Sirius. Dementors. He’s nearby. What if they get to him first instead of Bellatrix?”
Hermione jogs after him, anxiety back, despite the calming draught still sloshing in her stomach. She hadn’t expected— well she understands that Bellatrix is a wanted criminal now they know she’s alive again, but…
It feels…
Dementors? It’s not like she hurt anyone.
…well, not recently.
They all head back around the lake, joining the crowd. Everyone is talking excitedly. Colin Creevey taking photographs. Prefects shouting. Some people looking up at the sky and pointing, as if expecting Bellatrix to swoop down.
Hermione looks too. Searches the sky for a tiny black figure. Feels out…for…Harry. Ron. Ginny. Hogwarts.
No Bellatrix…
Oh. Wait.
Charlie? Tonks?
She grabs Harry and pulls him to a stop. Looks around for— aha! At the edge of the forest. “It’s Charlie! He’s with Tonks. She’s an auror. Come on!”
And they push through the crowd, falling free close to the tree line. Charlie is there, frowning in concern.
Stood next to a wizard about the same age as him that Hermione has never seen before.
Ah.
She turns to the wizard. “Tonks, are they really sending dementors? That’s so dangerous. What are the aurors—”
Tonks clears her throat. “You need to return inside with the other students, Miss Granger. I’m sure Mr Crouch and the aurors will come to speak with you very soon.”
Oh.
Shit.
They’re definitely going to talk to her about Bellatrix. And is Tonks…angry?
Hermione steps closer to her. “I can talk to you? Right? I can tell you—”
Charlie pats her on the shoulder. “Go on. Back to the castle, all of you. Tonks…well she shouldn’t show herself right now, should she? Might be recognised.”
By…Bellatrix?
Ginny grabs hold of Charlie. “Then both of you come with us! You shouldn’t be out here if dementors are coming. We’ll be safe in the castle.”
“Will we?” Tonks asks abruptly, staring at Hermione.
Hermione swallows. Nods. “I— I think so. She told me she needed to leave. To hide. She flew away.”
They all start walking quickly around the lake once more, Tonks at Hermione’s side and Harry jogging ahead, obviously eager to get to the owlery.
“She spoke to you,” Tonks says quietly. “Why’d she do that? Why’d she save you? What’s going on, Hermione?”
She…
What is going on? Everything is just so— so different, and confusing. Nothing like this has ever happened to Hermione before. She doesn’t know why she’s here. She doesn’t know what she’s doing. She just— all she keeps thinking is that—
Bellatrix saved her. There has to be a reason. There has to be something very different about her. Something good in her.
Because she saved her. When she didn’t have to. When she would have had more time to make an escape.
“Well?” Tonks says as they reach the entrance, a crowd still waiting to get in. “You said you wanted to talk. And we all saw her dive in front of a dragon for you, which don’t make no sense unless—”
Gasps and shouts ring out around them.
“Move!” Dumbledore’s voice booms. “All of you. Back. Get back.”
The crowd quickly parts. Everyone practically flattening themselves to the walls, even Hermione. She’s never heard Dumbledore like that.
And now she can see why.
Mad-Eye Moody is standing just inside the Entrance Hall.
She quickly feels out with her magic. Dumbledore, Tonks, Harry, Charlie, Ron, Ginny, Fleur, McGonagall, Snape…
Person after person.
But no Bellatrix.
“It’s me, Albus,” Moody growls. “Black is long gone. Told me to say…sorry about the broom.”
He looks at Harry.
What? Does that have a hidden meaning? That’s a bit of a weird thing to focus on, if not.
Dumbledore folds his arms. “Do you fly, Alastor?”
Moody barks out a laugh. “Prefer to have my feet on solid ground, myself. I’ve done my fair share of flying in my time, and it’s never come to any good, as you well know.”
Dumbledore seems to relax. “I do indeed. What year was it, again? My memory isn’t what it used to be.”
Moody points at his elbow. “Fifty-nine.” Then at his neck. “Sixty-three.”
Then glances around at the crowd. “And that’s all you’re getting with this many witnesses. You happy?”
Dumbledore smiles. “Overjoyed to see you again. And…appalled that it took me so long to notice your absence.”
And he walks forward to shake his hand.
No grin from Moody at this repeated action. No smirk. No searching out Hermione in the crowd.
It feels wrong. So wrong. Like he’s the imposter.
Dumbledore lets go, and turns to smile at everyone instead. “I believe any imminent danger has passed, but the castle will still need to be searched, as well as the grounds. The Azkaban guards are already en route. So if you would all make yourself comfortable in the Great Hall for now, it would be much appreciated, and a weight off my mind.”
Chatter builds once more. Students begin to drift inside, still looking at Moody fearfully. Suspiciously.
Harry stands in the doorway. Clearly torn between doing as he’s told and contacting Sirius.
He opens his bag. There’s the slight shimmer of the invisibility cloak, and then he’s gone. Ducking out of sight and disappearing altogether.
Tonks makes her way over to Mad-Eye, and Hermione takes the opportunity to go with her. Listen in, rather than be walked inside with Charlie like the others.
Crouch, Snape and McGonagall have all gathered too, glaring at any students that are hanging back.
Including Hermione.
Tonks glances at her and back to Mad-Eye. “So what Potter said was true? Polyjuice?”
The magical eye scans over Tonks. A glint to the real eye. Recognition. Maybe this is a regular persona for Tonks at work.
And then the eye spins to Hermione. Moody nods. “We’ll speak about it inside. Somewhere more private. Who’s this?”
“This,” Barty Crouch glares, “is Miss Hermione Granger. And who she is, is yet to be determined. Auror Tonks. Take her inside for questioning. A room within the castle will do until we can safely evacuate to the Ministry.”
What? “Questioning? What kind of questioning?” Hermione protests, looking at Tonks warily. “I don’t know anything! I’ll tell you everything I know, you don’t have to—”
McGonagall moves around between Tonks and Hermione and places a firm hand on her shoulder. “Yes, Miss Granger will not be going anywhere. As her Head of House, she is in my care, and any questions will—”
“This is a Ministry matter!” Crouch snaps, eyes bulging. “A highly dangerous convict has falsified her death and escaped Azkaban, and Miss Granger was conveniently the last person seen with her! After tampering with the Goblet to enter a tournament where both parties are participants! And after appearing at the exact location where the Dark Mark was summoned only three months ago! At the same moment as the convict’s sister, who was conveniently obliviated. Something that Miss Granger was very quick to point out!”
He finishes, breathing fast. Points at Hermione. “Take her in for questioning, Auror Tonks.”
Oh no. Well, that does sound suspicious, but—
“And if she continues to try to talk her way out of it…bring the veritaserum,” he adds, looking at Snape.
Dumbledore chuckles. “Ah, Barty. Your vigour is always commendable. But perhaps it has slipped your mind that veritaserum cannot be administered to a witch or wizard who is underage. Miss Granger is only fifteen. And as she says, is more than happy to answer any questions the DMLE might have.”
Barty’s eyes narrow further. “Veritaserum is permissible. With probable cause and motive. And it cannot have escaped your notice that this fifteen-year-old girl looks remarkably mature for her age.”
Shit.
Hermione takes an automatic step back as he moves closer, wishing she’d begun using glamour charms as soon as she’d arrived here.
Not veritaserum. He can’t. That would be—
McGonagall lets out a sound of outrage. “Mature for— How a student looks is none of your concern. And if you ever mention the maturity of one of them again then a formal complaint to the Minister is the least you’ll be getting!”
Tonks puts a protective arm around Hermione’s shoulders, eyes narrowing at Crouch and sharing a look with McGonagall and Moody. “Alright then, Mr Crouch. I’ll take Hermione inside. We can all sort this out, yeah? Let the kid talk. Your office, Headmaster?”
Dumbledore smiles fondly at Tonks. “Splendid. I’m sure that this will all be resolved very shortly. Alastor, if you would accompany us, and Severus, Minerva, perhaps you may ensure that the rest of the student body and our guests are situated in the Great Hall and well provided for before joining us?”
Snape gives a terse nod, before turning and entering the castle.
McGonagall hesitates. “I would prefer it if I could accompany Miss Granger, Albus. Veritaserum, I ask you! She has nothing to do with any of this, she’s just a girl!” She gives Crouch another disappointed look, which he shrinks back from, authoritative stance slipping into self-doubt.
Dumbledore sighs. Shakes his head at her sadly. “As was another. Of course, I am not suggesting in the slightest that Hermione has anything to do with this. But Bartemius is correct that there are certain connections between Miss Granger and Miss Black, the extent of which needs to be determined.”
He lowers his glasses. Looks at Crouch sternly. “Without the use of veritaserum.”
No veritaserum. Okay. That’s good. That’s better. But still—
And that’s when she feels it. The cold. A cloud covering the sun, darkening the sky.
But not a cloud. Not just warmth stolen from the air. Happiness. Hope. A heavy, nauseating dread.
Tonks tightens her grip around Hermione’s shoulders. “Let’s get inside. Come on. It’ll be alright. Just a chat. Mad-Eye’ll make us a cuppa tea,” she smiles with an exaggerated wink.
Mad-Eye snorts, turning and limping inside, wooden leg and staff tapping on the stone floor and echoing through the entrance. “I wouldn’t count on it. If you’re waiting on that, you’ll be waiting a damn long time,” he growls. “Get me up to speed. Who’ve we got? Kingsley? Dawlish?”
Tonks walks quickly after him, bringing Hermione along with her and knocking them into suit of armour slightly as they go. “On their way. Or might be searching already. I’m off duty but was…uh…around to watch the tournament.”
Moody nods without comment. Carries on leading their small group up the stairs.
Right. Hermione. Think. Last chance to get your story straight.
What…on Earth is she going to tell them?
As it turns out, they do have tea. And biscuits. And sherbet lemons, all sat around Dumbledore’s desk in differently conjured chairs.
Much to Crouch’s obvious displeasure. He’s reluctant to even sit down. And won’t stop glaring at Hermione, which is just becoming very annoying.
He does stop once McGonagall and Snape return though.
Dumbledore rests his hands together, eyes twinkling. “Now then, Hermione. I believe I owe you an apology. You tried to warn me on multiple occasions of Bellatrix’s presence in the school. I am terribly sorry that I did not listen.”
Hermione smiles awkwardly. Doesn’t really know what to say to that.
“Damn should have,” Moody grumbles. “I’ve always told you that you need to be more vigilant. Fooled by Lestrange.”
“Where have you been?” Hermione can’t help but ask. “Did she…hold you somewhere?”
“We’re asking the questions!” Crouch shouts, making them all jump. Except Mad-Eye. And Snape, who just raises an eyebrow and shares a look with McGonagall at this tantrum-like outburst. “How about you tell us what happened on that broomstick, hmm?” Crouch continues. “Or in the arena. Black spoke to you. Touched you. Seemed…familiar with you.”
Everyone turns to look at Hermione curiously. All eyes on her. It’s strangely intense. She’s flustered. Feels like she’s been caught…fraternising or something. Which she— she isn’t friends with Bellatrix. Just because they talk sometimes doesn’t mean—
Hermione shrugs helplessly. “I don’t know why she talked to me. I can tell you what she said. She…in the arena she apologised and said I was going to have to wait a bit longer to fight the dragon, and on the broomstick she— well she swore quite a lot and called me crazy, and then said she had to leave and hide, and pushed me off the broom, telling me to use an arresto momentum. She’s just been…my professor. My fake professor. That’s why she talks to me.”
“And came to your rescue…,” Snape comments.
Hermione turns to glare at him. “I don’t know why she saved me. I guess she just…didn’t want me to burn, or…had fast instincts or something!”
Snape scoffs. “I highly doubt that Bellatrix has any kind of instinct to save someone’s life. Quite the opposite. Especially someone she views to be…less than.”
He gets a few disapproving looks at this, but he’s right, so Hermione just shrugs again. “I don’t know what else to tell you. That’s all she said. All I know.”
“So you can confirm that you have had no interaction with her outside of what we have seen today, or in her capacity as a professor?” Crouch presses. “Nothing…unusual?”
Hermione focuses on her breathing. On keeping it even. On relaxing her expression. “No. Nothing at all. She pretended to be Professor Moody, and taught me Defense Against The Dark Arts. She taught all of us. That’s it.”
There’s a brief silence as everyone seems to weigh up whether to believe her. Hermione tries to remember how she would normally react in this situation. Should she be angry? Offended?
Scared?
She swallows. “How did this happen? I mean…a Death Eater? In the school? I— well I read in the paper that she’s…not considered very mentally stable. She didn’t hurt me this time, or anyone, but…why didn’t she? Why didn’t she try to hurt Harry?”
There. A bit naïve. Half worried. But also brings up the fact that Bellatrix didn’t hurt anyone. Maybe they have some idea what’s going on with that, because Hermione doesn’t. She’s quite lost on that front, to be honest.
Dumbledore nods tiredly. “Yes, we are very fortunate that Miss Black has for whatever reason been very dedicated to her role as professor. I admit that it is quite the surprise, and the very reason I believe that all of us here were quick to dismiss her as an imposter.”
He glances at McGonagall who nods uncomfortably. “It is extremely out of character,” she whispers, as if confessing a shameful mistake. Trying to rationalise it. “Never would I have imagined that she would be capable of, or even inclined to…”
She drifts off. Shakes her head. Dismisses whatever thought or indecision has drifted into her expression, and then is calm and collected once more. “Have we discovered the reason for her actions? Her behaviour? Should we be concerned for Mr Potter?”
Moody clears his throat. “Something strange is going on with Lestrange alright. Or Black. She insists on Black. Claims she’s divorced, not that I’ve ever seen a record of it. She was a Lestrange when she entered Azkaban. But…her personality has changed a lot since then.”
He sees it too!
“Where were you?” Tonks asks, morphing back to her usual appearance. “What happened?”
Moody glares around the room at them all.
Then scans with his magical eye, section by section. Pauses on Snape until even he shifts uncomfortably.
But, like Tonks, Moody eventually seems to be happy that there are no spies in the room, and sits down, taking out his flask.
Looks inside. Grimaces. “She could have washed it better. And the bloody eye keeps—” He grumbles to himself. Smacks the side of his head to get the eye spinning. “She ambushed me at home, not long before the start of the school term. Her and Peter Pettigrew.”
He nods at Dumbledore. And Crouch. “Pettigrew is alive, and working for You Know Who. Saw him with my own eyes.”
McGonagall gasps. Whirls to look at Dumbledore, and then let’s out a disbelieving scoff as she sees the knowing twinkle in his eye.
Looks at Snape, whose expression is suspiciously blank. Folds her arms and mutters to herself.
Hermione fights not to smile.
Moody nods at Crouch, who is one of the only other people showing surprise. “Don’t know exactly how it happened, but we need a file on him. Didn’t see a Dark Mark. Wasn’t time to look. Seems he’s also an unregistered animagus, a rat.”
Moody stands up with a groan, starts pacing around. “So, when I went out to check on the dustbin alarms going off, I didn’t think much of him. Old rat sat there in the rubbish. For one second, I hesitated. One second. That’s all she needed. I cast an homenum revelio first. Readied a stupefy second. They…caught me unawares,” he mutters. “She’s still damn fast. Even if her act has changed.”
“What do you mean her act has changed? Her personality?” Tonks frowns. “From her file—”
Moody waves a hand, interrupting her. “We need new intel on Bellatrix Black too. Need to go over our sources. Don’t know what she’s been up to for the past decade, but she’s a damn sight saner. Didn’t make any threats. Didn’t harmed me. Didn’t even try. I was expecting a fight, but….” He runs a hand over his mouth. “It’s strange. Bloody strange. I don’t know what to think of this, Albus. And I don’t like it. The witch has a plan. Is up to something. And as the weeks have gone on, I’m less sure of her. She started off normal enough but lately she’s been acting…nice.”
He makes a face. Like Bellatrix being nice is the most disgusting thing imaginable.
Hermione almost laughs, his expression is so put out. What did she do?
Moody just scowls. Keeps his mouth firmly shut. Doesn’t elaborate.
Can she ask?
Dumbledore claps softly. “Then it seems we have much to think about. And now that Miss Granger has answered all of our questions, I believe it is time she return to the Great Hall with the other students, and we can begin a thorough search of the castle. Under the sage advice of the Auror Department, of course.”
Moody grunts. “Madam Pomfrey’s coming up the stairs now. About to knock. Must be here to check on the girl, but she’ll have to take her to the Hall, not the hospital wing. We can’t have people wandering about.”
And there’s a knock on the door.
“Come in!” Dumbledore calls cheerfully, breaking into a chuckle. “Alastor is ready for you now.”
Madam Pomfrey bustles in and straight up to Moody, already casting diagnostic charms and shining a light in his eye. “Well, it’s about time! Kidnapped? A hostage for months? He should have been given medical assistance the moment he arrived. Now look here, Mr Moody. Tell me what the year is and who’s Minister for Magic.”
Moody bats her away with a growl. “94, Cornelius Fudge, and if you don’t get that wand away from me—”
“Constant vigilance,” Dumbledore says warmly, a twinkle to his eyes. “We cannot be too careful, under the circumstances. Poppy?”
Madam Pomfrey sighs. “A few aches and pains, but that’s to be expected. No recent injuries, or even malnutrition or dehydration. Of course a patient’s health is confidential, so I can’t go into detail. But given he’s spent months under the…care…of Bellatrix Black? Remarkably unhurt. Not a scratch. Physically or mentally.”
Moody huffs. “As I said. So get out of here with your poking and prodding. We have a castle to search and an investigation to get underway. How we doing this, Crouch? This my operation?”
Crouch clears his throat and gets to his feet. “Yes, yes. I should be getting back to the Ministry, get this officially underway. As for the tournament…”
He pinches his brow. “It shall have to continue. A magical contract cannot be broken. All of the champions would be magically compromised. This…”
He drifts off.
“Is gonna be a bloody pain in the backside on all fronts,” Moody finishes for him, already on his way to the door. “Tonks, with me. Change your face. Don’t care which.”
This seems to be the cue to leave, Tonks changing back into the young wizard she was before, and everyone getting to their feet and filing out of the room, off down the stairs.
Hermione follows with a quiet sigh of relief, keeping her head down in case Crouch spots her and has a sudden change of heart.
That was a lot less interrogating than she’d expected, but she supposes there’s a lot to sort out, and Bellatrix’s behaviour towards Hermione isn’t as suspicious if she’s being ‘nice’ to everyone now.
She wonders—
“Miss Granger, a word,” comes a low murmur in her ear. Then a hand on her elbow. “Now.”
And Snape is pulling her into a classroom. Wha—
She jerks out of his grip. “Get off! What—”
He swishes his wand behind them, locking the door, and then folds his arms, staring down his nose at her. “Oh do be quiet. And stop with the floundering, innocent act. It is becoming tiresome and won’t. Work. On. Me.”
Her mouth snaps shut. Silence falls.
He smirks. “Better. Good. So we’re on the same page. The fact that you just got through that meeting is a miracle in and of itself. So the truth, Miss Granger. Quickly now. If you would. When are you from? For what purpose have you returned? And what is your relationship with Bellatrix?” he asks in quick succession, voice calm and certain. Almost bored.
No no no no—
She takes a step back, bumping into a desk. “Professor? I think there must be some misunderstanding. I really don’t—”
He scoffs. “Now this is just embarrassing.”
And he raises his wand. Points it at her. “Answers, Granger,” he says more harshly. “What is your plan? What is her plan? This is dangerous for all involved and it would be incredibly stupid for you not to answer me. If only you had come to me sooner, we could have avoided this mess. Why put her name in the goblet? You’ve forced her to reveal herself. Forced her to become useless to the Dark Lord. Do you know what he does to things he no longer has a use for? And do you understand who he may now come to to aid him? You are messing with people’s lives!” he all but spits.
Oh. Oh, if Voldemort doesn’t have faith in Bellatrix…then his next most faithful servant would be…
Hermione swallows. “I didn’t mean to. I didn’t put her name in. I— how do you know all this? Are you working with her?”
“Work with her?” Snape sneers. “Of course not, you imbecilic witch. How I know is that the both of you have the subtlety of a stampeding erumpent and just as odd a mating ritual. Now I don’t know what kind of relationship the two of you have fallen into in this distant future, but—”
Hermione lets out a strange squawking sound. “What are you talking about?! I’m not in a relationship with her! And future— She’s not from the future! She’s from now! I’m the one that’s from—”
She cuts off abruptly. Doesn’t quite catch herself in time.
He raises an eyebrow. “…From the future. So you do admit it. But…not Bellatrix? She didn’t travel with you?”
Hermione folds her arms. Looks away. “No,” she says quietly. “Of course not. She’s not from the future, and she’s definitely not in a…relationship with me. She— We don’t know each other. Not now. Not ever. She was on the other side of the War. Hated people like me. The Bellatrix that is here is not the Bellatrix that was there.”
Snape gives her a look.
Then pinches his brow, closing his eyes. “Gryffindors,” he mutters. “So willing to— Has it escaped your notice that you just admitted to being a time traveller within…a two minute conversation, with almost no prompting? As well as revealing major future events such as an upcoming war, your obvious belief that I am on your side in this war, and, somewhat more disturbingly, that you know Bellatrix well enough within this time period to have deemed her different from her future self. A self that you are claiming to not know at all.”
Oh.
She leans against a desk. Rubs her hands over her face. Oh she is so bad at keeping secrets.
Snape sighs. “Please please tell me that no-one else knows of this? That you have not revealed any information to…”
He drifts off, probably catching her expression.
She looks up guiltily. Clears her throat. “I…yes and no. But— but this isn’t the past! Not really! In my fourth year, Bellatrix wasn’t here! She was in Azkaban! It was Barty Crouch Junior that was here!”
At this he pauses. Frowns. “An…alternate universe? I did not…believe that to be possible. Linear time travel itself is only theoretical on a more than six-hour basis.”
Hermione snorts. Gestures at herself. “Not anymore. But I have no idea how it happened. There isn’t some grand plan. I came here accidentally. Woke up here on the day of the Quidditch World Cup.”
His gaze snaps to hers. His wand hand twitches. She grips her own more tightly on reflex, unsure of the expression on his face.
And then it’s gone. He looks to the door. “Back to the Great Hall, then. Before our absence is noted. And try to keep your mouth shut. It’s clear that you have already spoken with Potter and at least one Weasley, is that all?”
She almost argues at his condescending tone.
Then remembers the other person she told. Swallows. “Bellatrix…figured it out too. She knows I’m from the future. She guessed.”
Snape had turned towards the closed doorway, and now rests his hand against it. Leans forward. As if he might suddenly bang his head against the wood in frustration. “Bellatrix? You told— unbelievable. It is extraordinary that you have enough brain cells to function.”
“She guessed!” Hermione huffs. “The same as you did. She was watching me, and she’s clever, so— oh! By the way, is she a legilimens? Is that why you were avoiding eye contact with her?”
Snape sighs. Unlocks the door and walks out, stopping to check left and right and then continuing along the corridor, Hermione following after him. “She is not a natural legilimens, no. That is a highly rare skill. She needs a wand to perform the spell. Thankfully. Otherwise, the amount she would have uncovered…”
He turns sharply to the left, and they head down a stairway. “And Potter? He was not in the Great Hall,” Snape murmurs. “Is he using his cloak to accompany you?”
Snape knows about the cloak?
Of course he does.
Hermione looks down at her feet to avoid stepping on the back of Snape’s robes, shaking her head. “He’s not here. He went to the owlery to—”
She almost bumps into Snape as he stops. “Owlery? That— What is it that that boy does not understand about the words manhunt and fugitive and stay where you are told!”
And then his pace is picking up again, almost gliding through the corridors as Hermione hurries to keep up. “Idiot! The owlery. Yes, I’ll just go to the furthest, tallest tower, alone, surrounded by dementors and in a place that is conveniently accessible by broom.”
“It was urgent,” Hermione puffs out. “But as you say, he has his cloak. I’m sure he’s back in the Hall by now.”
They reach the entrance stairs. “He’d better be. Ten points from Gryffindor, Miss Granger, for allowing such idiotic behaviour. And for your own stupidity, whilst we’re at it. You—”
The doors to the Great Hall open, and Viktor looks through, his shoulders falling in relief as he sees Snape and Hermione. “Sir! There is problem! Is Headmaster Karkaroff. He take sheep.”
Uhh…
Sheep? What?
Hermione actually shares a confused look with Snape it’s such a strange comment.
She walks up to Viktor and clears her throats. “Sheep? What do you mean?”
Viktor just nods. “He go— went. He has gone home.”
He— Oh! Ship. So…he left them and just…ran away? Because of Bellatrix? That cowardly, selfish—
Snape ushers them inside and shuts the door, buzzing conversation reaching their ears from all the tables. “All of you? Are you all accounted for? All here?” Snape asks slowly and clearly.
Viktor points across the room. “Yes. All here with Slytherin. They say you help.”
Snape nods and sweeps past up the aisle, Viktor following after him. This is all such a mess! And with hardly any professors around to—
Someone taps her on the shoulder. Hermione jumps. Turns, for some reason expecting a grinning face and—
It is a similar grin, but not the same. Tonks, still looking like a wizard. “Good, you’re here,” Tonks says. “Thought I might have to go looking for you. We still need a chat at some point, so owl me if you have anything to tell me, yeah? I have to go on patrol, and the protection wards are all about to be put in place, here and on the school gate, so Charlie and me are off out of here.”
Tonks looks over towards the Gryffindor table where Charlie is sat with his siblings and Harry. And Fleur and Luna. Tonks waves to try to get his attention, but he’s too busy laughing with the twins.
Tonks rolls her eyes. Then whistles. Loudly. “Oy! Weasley! Come on, you ain’t a student no more!”
The Hall falls almost silent at the unexpected sound, and Charlie flushes embarrassedly as everyone turns to stare, quickly saying goodbye and jogging over.
Chatter breaks out again. He shoves Tonks. “You know I hate it when you do that. You could have just walked over.”
Tonks snorts. “And get chewed out again? Not on your nelly. Your girlfriend’s scary, Hermione. Thought I was going to get my eyes clawed out. You need to tell her I come in peace.”
What?
Hermione just stares at Tonks in complete bafflement.
Then looks back towards the Gryffindor table. Scary girlfriend? “I don’t have a girlfriend. What are you talking about?”
Now it’s Tonks’ turn to frown. “Delacour. She ain’t your girlfriend? That’s what the Daily Prophet said. I don’t normally believe Skeeter’s bollocks, but then Frenchie came at me. Asking who I am and how I know you and what I was doing touching you and all that. I mean, look at her!”
Tonks looks over at Fleur. Waves.
Fleur gives her a death glare and then glances at Hermione. Her wand twitching in her hand.
Uhh…
Hermione smiles at Fleur and waves too. Pats Tonks on the back. Friends.
Tonks barks out a laugh, shrugging her off. “I’ll leave you to it. Good luck. You seem to attract a lot of strange attention, wouldn’t wanna be you. Two dragons in one day.”
Hermione sighs. “She’s not a dragon! She’s nice! She’s probably just worried about me walking off with a stranger and not coming back for ages. But she’s not my girlfriend. We haven’t— I don’t— What do you mean about the Skeeter article? She said we were fighting over Viktor! Not each other.”
Charlie grimaces. “Oh. You haven’t seen it? She’s changed her story. The love triangle is…a complete triangle now. There’s a photograph of you two drinking in the Three Broomsticks. Of you laughing and touching each other. It was in the paper this morning. Star-crossed lovers. Forbidden love. Something like that.”
Skeeter! And a photograph?! How did she—
Hermione huffs. “No, I didn’t see it. But as soon as we’re allowed out of here, Skeeter is going to get a very blunt letter discussing her journalism methods and how they will not be usable in the near future. Now come on. This is ridiculous. Come talk to Fleur. You can keep an eye on Harry at the same time until more professors get back.”
Tonks shrugs. “Alright. But if she kills me, you’re paying for the funeral.”
Hermione swallows, stomach clenching. Forces a smile and shakes it off. “No funerals. I promise.”
And she walks over to the others, smiling and nodding at them in greeting, and then squeezing in next to Fleur. Leaning to whisper. “Hi. What’s wrong?”
Fleur grabs the side of her head and pulls her even closer to whisper right in the shell of her ear. “That wizard. He is suspicious. How do you know him? What is his name? Why can’t I feel him?”
Feel…oh!
The thrall? That’s why Fleur is suspicious? She can’t feel any reaction from Tonks or whatever she normally feels with wizards?
Hermione smiles. Pulls back to look at Fleur. “It’s okay. I know. It’s a disguise.”
Fleur’s eyes widen as she glances at Tonks and away. “It is her?!” she hisses. “The Death Eater again?”
“No!” Hermione corrects. “A friend. An auror. She’s making sure Harry’s safe. That we’re all safe.”
Fleur slumps in relief. Rubs at her face. “Sorry. I am…suspicious of everything. After the DADA professor…I knew something was different. That he did not feel right. I should have believed Harry when he said it was this witch, but I did not know who anyone was. We do not know much about your wars.”
And then she pats Hermione’s hand with a sigh and stands up. Walks over to Tonks, still stood beside the table with Charlie, and leans up to whisper to her.
Tonks laughs. Smiles. They start talking.
Thank Merlin.
Hermione shuffles along to talk to Harry instead, the Weasleys all distracted talking, and Luna gazing into space. “Did you send the owl?" Hermione asks quietly. "I need to send one too. To Skeeter. I’ve had enough of her articles. Did you see the one this morning? Charlie and Tonks just told me about it.”
Harry grimaces. Runs his hand through his hair and glances at Fleur. “We saw it. But we figured you had bigger things to worry about. And yeah. My letter’s sent. I just hope he gets it in time. Is…”
He looks around at the rest of the table, everyone else still in conversation. “How did it go with the aurors? Everything alright?”
Hermione checks around them too. Notices Ron looking over now, but no-one else at the table…”
And Snape. Across the hall. Talking to Draco. But looking at Harry and Hermione.
She sighs, looking away. “Everything’s fine. They believe me. And now that the real Moody is back, they have more information about whatever Bellatrix is up to. They’ve got her on the run.”
Harry nods to himself. Frowns. Doesn’t say anything for a while.
Looks over at Snape too. “She saved you,” he eventually mutters quietly. Thoughtfully.
Yeah. Yeah, she did.
A hushed lull suddenly falls over the hall. The torches and candles around them begin to light up, shadows creeping in.
The enchanted ceiling is dark. Almost pitch black.
It’s mid-afternoon. And this isn’t a storm coming in.
It’s the dementors. A sky full of dementors.
Chapter 18: Decipher the Message
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They spend the night in the Great Hall, just like in third year. Sleeping bags handed out, and professors on the lookout. The dementors can’t penetrate the castle walls, but they leave a lingering unease, a looming feel of threat that makes sleep near impossible. Hermione and Harry cast patronuses as often as they can, as do some of the older years and professors. McGonagall’s cat slinking past to rub against them. To sit in the lap of a trembling first year. Dumbledore’s phoenix patronus flies overhead every hour. Swooping around the hall and then gone, leaving them to rest in the darkness.
Snape doesn’t cast a patronus, as often as he patrols past. Stands watchfully at the door. Hermione isn’t sure if that’s out of embarrassment…or if he can’t summon the emotion.
It’s difficult. Happiness. The dementors overwhelming. Hermione can’t…even imagine having to spend every night like this. Every day.
Sat alone in the dark, locked away on a far-off island in the middle of the sea…
By the next morning there’s still no word of Bellatrix. Or Sirius. Or Karkaroff.
And the dementors have left the grounds, off searching further afield. It’s still cold out though. Winter is setting in, and even with all the fires lit, there’s a chill in the air.
Maybe Fleur is right about the castle needing better insulation.
Fleur. Hermione…doesn’t know what to do about that. She’s sent the letter to Skeeter. The blackmail. Don’t write about any of the champion’s love lives, or I’ll tell everyone you’re an unregistered animagus. And it seems to have worked. Over a week, and no article.
People do keep staring at Hermione though. Whispering. Pointing. She’s not sure if that’s more because of the ‘dating both Fleur Delacour and Viktor Krum’ rumours, or the ‘saved by a Death Eater’ side eyes. Lavender and Parvati beg her for details on both, but Hermione just rolls her eyes and tells them there isn’t anything to tell.
Other than that, everything goes back to normal. Classes. Homework. The Durmstang students staying in a room in the dungeons near to the Slytherin Common Room now that their ship has disappeared without a trace.
Mad-Eye Moody teaching DADA on Thursday afternoons.
It’s strange for everyone. Like they know him, but they don’t. Used to his barking and growled orders, tapping foot and spinning eye. Even used to defending themselves from unexpected spells.
He gives them all a very dubious look when they say they’ve learnt everything in the book. Tests them. Asks for dozens of counter-curses.
They can all name them. Even Neville. Protego. Rennervate. Relashio. Emmancipare. Expelliarmus.
By the following Thursday, they’ve moved on to magical theory and fighting tactics. Auror drills. She’s never seen Ron and Harry so enthusiastic.
She grimaces across the table as Ron shovels some more eggs into his mouth. “…and Viktor’s told me his diet and training plan too,” he says around a mouthful before swallowing, nodding towards the Slytherin table. “I think I’m getting muscles. See? And I swear I saw Lavender checking me out in class yesterday. Reckon she’ll go to the Ball with me?”
He flexes his arm at Harry, who squints and nods unconvincingly. “Sure. I mean…have you ever spoken to Lavender though? What’s she like? All she ever seems to do is…giggle and talk about dresses and make-up.”
Ron shrugs. “Guess I’ll have to get to know her. Who are you gonna ask?”
The Ball. The rest of the school doesn’t know about the Ball yet. Probably won’t know for another week or so.
Harry puts down his drink and looks around the Gryffindor table uncomfortably. “Umm…I haven’t really thought about it. We don’t have to have a partner, do we? I thought as we’re not champions, we could go as friends.”
Ron claps him on the shoulder. “We’ll still all go together. Just thought we could give it a shot. But you could go with…Hermione! What about Hermione?”
Harry frantically shakes his head, hands raised. “No. No way. I’m not dancing in front of everyone. Champions have to dance, remember? Sorry, Hermione. I really don’t want to—”
Hermione smiles. “Actually, I already told Ginny I’d go with her if we both can’t find a romantic partner. Otherwise she can’t come, because she’s a third year.”
Ron’s expression turns more serious. “Ginny? Oh. So…uhh…but just as friends, right? Or…because you said about Fleur and—”
He looks around and then ducks closer to whisper, both her and Harry leaning in expectantly. “Do you want your date to be a witch? Or a wizard?” Ron asks quietly.
Well…at the moment Hermione isn’t sure she wants a date at all. But that isn’t really what he’s asking, so…
She fiddles with her spoon, looking down at the table. Then looks up and sees Ginny watching nervously across from them, pretending to talk to Demelza Robins but obviously listening in.
Right. She can tell Ron. He doesn’t have a problem with sexuality. Ginny needs to see that. That reassurance.
“I would…rather date witches, I think,” Hermione says carefully but surely. “I’ve never felt that spark or interest in wizards. Only friendship. Nothing more. So I suppose seeing as I have to go to the Ball…I would go with a witch. If I had a choice.”
There’s a brief pause. It’s very tense.
Then Harry just smiles. “Well, that works out then. Bet Ginny or Fleur or someone will be better at dancing than me,” he jokes.
Ron nods too. Thank Merlin. For a moment she was worried he still liked her in this universe. That he was about to turn into a jealous prat or tell her she was just confused.
But no, Ron just eats more eggs and points at her with his fork. “Guess you can ask Fleur,” he says matter-of-factly. “That’s easy. She’ll definitely say yes. And then…Harry can go with Ginny! Right? Then we’re all together.”
At this Ginny spits out a mouthful of pumpkin juice, coughing and spluttering and turning very red. Ah. So the crush is still there, then.
Hermione vanishes the juice with a chuckle whilst a concerned Harry hands Ginny a napkin. Tries to reach to pat her on the back and check she’s not choking or—
Squawks and flapping fills the air. The owls have arrived with the morning post. Hermione’s expecting the Daily Prophet, and hopefully some kind of acknowledgement from Rita Skeeter that…
Oh she has got to be kidding!
Three crows come swooping down over the Gryffindor table, cawing loudly and carry a very long, thin, large package wrapped in crumpled newspaper.
It’s shaped like a broom. It’s obviously a broom.
Unbelievable. Subtlety of an erumpent. Snape is right.
The crows drop it on the table, steal some bacon, and take off again.
Harry moves to touch it—
“Potter!” Snape shouts from behind them, as if she just summoned him by thought alone. Or Harry did, by being stupid. “Don’t touch it. None of you even think about touching it,” Snape spits.
He starts casting detection spells. The newspaper falls away. Harry’s firebolt lies there innocuously on the table. Looking the same as ever.
And an owl flies over to Hermione. Drops the Prophet. And a scroll. Hoots.
Oh.
A…very familiar owl. That— that cannot be Bellatrix’s owl. Or Moody’s owl. Whoever it originally belonged to.
Hermione glances sideways at everyone crowding around the broom, chattering and pointing.
She picks up the Prophet. Opens it.
Picks up the scroll too. Undoes the seal under the table and then brings it behind the Prophet, pretending to read the newspaper.
As she thought. Familiar scribbled handwriting.
Granger,
Detention. Seven o’clock. If you don’t know where, look out for eyes. They’ll find you.
P.S. The owl is called Alastor Moody. You can keep him if you want.
The…owl?
Hermione looks at the owl warily. It’s not…she didn’t transfigure Moody into an owl somehow, did she?
And detention? How? Eyes? What eyes?
More and more people are gathering around now, so Hermione hastily folds up the newspaper with the note inside and puts it in her bag.
Moody comes limping past her down the aisle, which is a bit of a relief. Not a bird. Casting more detection spells and checking the broom, he and Snape and now Flitwick too hovering it over to the staff table to look at it properly.
Harry slumps to sit next to her with a heavy sigh. “I’m not gonna get it back, am I?”
She pats his back, grimacing. “Maybe not. Sorry. And…she’s given me detention again. Seven o’clock.”
Unsurprisingly, Harry gives her an incredulous look.
And the owl flies up to land on her shoulder.
She sighs in defeat. Gestures to it. “And this is Alastor Moody. Junior, I guess. Apparently he’s mine now, or— oh!”
Junior! Alastor Moody Junior. Barty Crouch Junior.
The Marauders’ Map only sees names! So in the defense classroom—
Hermione turns to look at the owl. “You’re who we saw on the map? Because you have the same name? It’s your name?”
The owl doesn’t reply. Obviously. Just stares at her expectantly. Waiting for something.
Hermione frowns. “I…don’t have a letter. Or any treats.”
Moody Junior hoots at her in an almost huff, and then flies away. Off out the window again, possibly to the owlery, or maybe back to Bellatrix.
“You…you do see how crazy you look, right Hermione?” Harry laughs.
She leans down to rest her head on the table. She knows. It’s Bellatrix. She has to be the reason. She makes everything…bonkers!
Harry rubs her back, getting up and grabbing his bag. “Come on. We need to get to History of Magic.”
History of Magic? Ugh, Hermione is so fed up with lessons. She’s done this already! She wishes she could skip her classes. Or at least go with the NEWT students and learn some more advanced magic.
Like time travel theory. That would be helpful. Why the hell is she here—
Someone grabs her hand as she passes the Ravenclaw table, tugging her back. Oh. Is it Fleur? That’s quite bold, and—
No. Luna. Smiling at her softly. “Hello, Hermione. Hello, Harry. I’m sorry to stop you, but Hermione needs to know, she’s going to go the wrong way. The room has changed, you see. You need the room that always changes.”
“The room has changed?” Ron asks as he joins them with Seamus and Dean. “For History of Magic?”
Luna frowns. “You have History of Magic now? I have Herbology. It’s terribly similar, don’t you think? Although we should all be very wary of the puffpod spores. We don’t need any more dizziness right now. I think everyone is dizzy enough.”
Ron laughs. “Right. Okay then. I’ll keep it in mind if I’m going past the greenhouses. C’mon, guys.”
He heads off with the other boys, Harry hanging back to smile at Luna. “I think I know the room you mean. Thanks. Did…umm…did you get an owl today too?” he asks quietly.
Luna shakes her head. “No. I didn’t need a messenger. I had the opposite.”
Opposite?
Different room…but not for this morning…a room that changes…Room of Requirement. So Hermione has to go to the Room of Requirement for ‘detention’. Not the DADA classroom. And Luna didn’t need a messenger…
Oh!
“She told you?” Hermione hisses. “Is she in the castle? Harry! Get the Map. We need to—”
Luna puts her hand on Harry’s wrist to stop him with a light laugh. “No! She’s not here. That’s why you have to help her, don’t you see? I’ll be there too. And Neville, maybe. I think he’d like to come. I haven’t asked him yet. Would you like to come too, Harry Potter? I do like talking to you.”
What— so Luna talked to Bellatrix? And this detention isn’t a secret meet-up or…
Neville? Why Neville?
Harry laughs uncertainly. “Umm…sure. I’ll come. If this detention isn’t just for Hermione?”
Luna smiles wider. “No. The words were for Hermione, what they said wasn’t as important. It’s the thought that counts. You’d better leave now, or we’ll all be awfully late.”
Right. History of Magic.
Hermione begins walking out of the Hall, not really…
A note from Bellatrix. The thought counts. The thought to…give her an owl? Talk about detention? A fake detention.
Oh.
She laughs to herself. Fake detention. Like always. None of her detentions were detentions. Not really. Bellatrix wasn’t her professor.
Just someone who she talked to every week.
They begin climbing the stairs to the first floor. Luckily it’s not far. They are a bit late. Not many students in the corridors now.
Empty. The school feels oddly empty. Quiet.
Should…
Should she write back? To say she got the note? Or to ask about the owl, or about…anything?
Owls are getting intercepted. Searched. You can’t write to a fugitive just to be polite, or because you’re curious. That’s stupid. Don’t be stupid. Snape’s right, where has her brain gone?
She and Harry fall into the empty seats next to Ron, Professor Binns already mid-monologue and not noticing their presence. Or absence.
She takes the note from Bellatrix and the copy of the Daily Prophet out of her…bag. Oh.
She should have checked the paper! Maybe there are clues! Or another message! Or…
Nothing. That she can see. And she can’t feel any magic.
She mutters a revelio.
Still nothing.
Alright then…but maybe Hermione can…
Ah. This isn’t today’s paper. It’s the one from last Tuesday, revealing her ‘romance’ with Fleur. So…
If the article is about Hermione, maybe Bellatrix will look at this section too for a message, even though it’s not on the front page.
She gets out her quill and ink, thinks of what she wants to say, and studies the words carefully.
…Granger, an outspoken, ambitious girl, seems to have her eyes on not only the Triwizard Cup, but also her fellow competitors. And not just the ‘fellow’. Miss Granger and Beauxbatons champion Fleur Delacour, whose heated looks even I once mistook for a bitter rivalry, are reported to be growing closer by the day, often seen laughing, whispering, and sharing drinks in their free evenings outside of school and away from their professors’ prying eyes. Is this the kind of inter-school relations that the tournament is promoting? And what of Viktor Krum, the wizard in the middle? Will he able to keep up with his two fiery opponents? This is a competition, after all, and only one champion can take home the prize. How far are they willing to go? You know the saying. Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer. And it seems this competition is more than friendly. Is this the forbidden love of star-crossed lovers? Or are the corners of this love triangle sharp enough to stab each other in the backs? Only time will tell. The first task will soon be underway, and it’s all to play for, with a grand prize of…
She carefully blacks out the letters. Black. Bit of a clue. She hopes the message makes sense, even if it’s cryptic and will just look like the ink has smudged.
She kind of wants to…acknowledge how open Bellatrix was with her. It’s a bit of an apology. For…not accepting that handshake. She’d been too wrapped up thinking about their past. A past that Bellatrix doesn’t even know about. Something this Bellatrix might never even do, seeing as she seems to want to save Hermione rather than hurt her.
So. Yes. Hermione has said that she wants to talk, and that she’s tired. But really what she means is…she’s sorry. And thank you. And can they start again? Back to honesty and knowing looks?
Not that they can look at each other. Yet.
Hermione needs to try to find her somehow. She’d just ask to meet if it wasn’t so dangerous. Because this is the only anomaly in this timeline. Bellatrix. It all surrounds Bellatrix. Even Snape thought Bellatrix was a time traveller.
So…
She blows the ink dry, and rolls the paper back up. Ties it with some string. Puts it in her bag to take to the owlery later.
What if…
…what if Snape was right. If Bellatrix is different…
What if she’s not from here either? What if Hermione isn’t the only one who has crossed universes?
From somewhere. Bellatrix might not be from here…but she also isn’t the Bellatrix from home…
So is she from another universe altogether?
And if so, why is she here? An accident, like Hermione?
Or did she cause this?
Is this all because of Bellatrix?
It’s seven o’clock. Hermione and Harry stood awkwardly outside the Room of Requirement.
Harry clears his throat. “Do you think we should say something? Ask for…a room?”
Hermione tucks a curl behind her ear as it falls in her eyes. Then fiddles with her robes, fingers still oddly restless. “What room, though? We don’t even know why we’re—”
A door appears. Just a normal door, like all the other classrooms. Well then.
Harry nods. “Okay. Let’s go.”
And he walks straight up to the door, opening it.
But—
Oh.
Oh!
Hermione follows Harry inside, looking around in realisation. In recognition.
Crates and tanks and trunks. Cornish pixies. Hinkypunks. Alastor Moody (junior) on a perch by an open window. Plants and books scattered around.
No rat. Empty cage.
And Luna, closing a trunk and coming towards them. “Hello. Look, Neville. We have some help.”
Neville…
Ah. Sat uncomfortably in a corner. Clutching a Herbology book and surrounded by different potted plants.
Harry moves into the middle of the room. “So…this is her room? All her stuff? It didn’t belong to the school?”
Luna takes his hand and pulls him over to look at the pixies. “Oh, they don’t belong to anyone. Creatures never do. But they do all need caring for. I don’t think Professor Moody is very good at that. At caring. That’s why we’re needed, you see. Like this one. It needs help sleeping.”
She reaches through some bars and strokes her finger down the back of the only Cornish pixie still awake, eyes wide whilst the others drift sleepily. Oh.
Hermione clears her throat. “I think it might be waiting for…a piece of food. An apple, maybe.”
Luna’s eyes spark as she grins at Hermione. “Aha! As I thought. Always in the right place at the right time, isn’t she, Neville? Does anyone have any fruit?”
Uhh…no? Of course not. Who goes around with fruit in their—
Harry pulls an apple out of his robe pocket. Puts it down on a small table and raises his wand carefully. “Diffindo!”
A piece of the apple slices off roughly at a bit of an angle. Harry hands it to the pixie, smiling as it grabs it eagerly with its tiny hands.
Turns to look at Hermione and shrugs. “Ron. He’s trying to get me to eat more.”
Oh.
Hermione smiles fondly. Watches as Harry turns back around to check the other pixies and talk to Luna.
Neville clears his throat quietly. “Hermione?” He says cautiously. “Do— could you—”
He stumbles over his words. Hermione heads over to him. Pulls up a stray stool next to him. “What is it?”
He looks down at his lap. At his book. “You…you knew it was her?”
Oh.
Oh no.
“Yes…” Hermione quietly breathes out. “We— and we did try to tell Dumbledore. But…well…oh I’m sorry, Neville. I’m so sorry. I don’t know what to say.”
Neville takes a slow breath. Nods. “She’s sorry too, I think,” he whispers. Opens his book.
Then moves closer to Hermione to show her. “See? This plant. It’s— it’s supposed to help with— with mind healing. No-one has figured out how yet. Not for anything advanced. But— but with Herbology and Potions—”
He turns the book around so she can see the right way up. Bellatrix’s handwriting is scribbled in the margins. As well as someone else’s much neater, cursive writing, that Hermione doesn’t recognise. Correcting Bellatrix. Crossing bits out and underlining things in green ink.
Oh.
Hermione looks up in complete shock. “This is the book on plants she gave you? What she talked to you about a few months ago?”
He nods, cheeks red with embarrassment or…shame. “I didn’t know it was her. Thought it was Moody. She— and she kept telling me to ignore Professor Snape. To relax, so that I get better at potions. But I can’t! I’m useless! And now I’ll never be able to do it. And my parents— I can’t do it! And— and it’s her fault!” he ends with a shout, standing up.
Harry and Luna turn to look at him. Some of the creatures wake up, hissing and squawking.
Luna skips over. Pulls Neville into a hug, which he accepts awkwardly.
“You don’t have to forgive her,” Hermione says softly. “You’re right. It was her fault. She was…nothing can make up for what she did. Even if she’s regretting it now. And to put this on you—”
Neville pulls back, wiping at his eyes and shaking his head. “It’s not on me. She— she said she’d help. Anything I need. Ingredients. Plants. Money. Said she’d research more. That she knows people who can help too. She just— she said she couldn’t right now. That she had to do something else first, was busy. I thought she meant teaching, but…now I understand why. She can’t help. Because she’s a criminal. Is on the run. Is supposed to— to be in Azkaban because she—”
He breaks off again.
Hermione hears the tap start to run at the sink. Water filling a glass.
Harry comes over and gives the glass of water to Neville. “Here. Just…sip at it. It helps. And— and I get it. If Voldemort suddenly wanted to help me get my parents back then— Well it wouldn’t happen, but I still wouldn’t want to work with him. Even if he could help.”
Neville nods. Sits down on the floor with Luna and obediently sips at his drink.
Harry walks over to Moody Junior to stroke him and give him a treat. Pet him. Look out the window at the stars. “But if she’s right, if there’s a way to help…we’ll help you too, Nev. You know loads about plants, but so does Professor Sprout. And Hermione is great with everything! Right? You could help with potions. And mind magic! What about…Snape! You said he knew legilimency.”
Luna laughs. “Professor Snape reading minds? Oh no, that’s just asking for trouble. He doesn’t understand minds at all. Not even his own. No, to help Mr and Mrs Longbottom, we’re going to need to help somebody else first.”
Neville frowns at her. “Who?”
Luna leans over and takes his book from his lap. Opens it to the earlier page, and taps on the neater handwriting. “This person. See? They’re already helping.”
Neville huffs out a laugh. “Yes, but we don’t know who that is, Luna. Moody— Bellatrix wouldn’t tell me,” he says gently.
Luna doesn’t reply. Just looks at Hermione. Then at Harry.
Harry kneels down to look at the writing. Runs his finger over it. “It looks like…Draco? Is that his writing? It’s neat like his.”
Draco? How could it possibly be— oh!
“Narcissa!” Hermione says in sudden realisation. “That’s why it’s— Of course! She’s the only person who would know about this and be helping Bellatrix. But she—”
“She’s in St Mungo’s too,” Neville finishes for her. “I saw her there over the summer when I was visiting the ward. She didn’t stay for long. They let her go home and get her treatment there because Lucius Malfoy came and shouted at everyone, but— but she has memory loss! It’s the same problem.”
Luna sighs sadly, head in hands. “It is all a bit of a muddle. That silly Bellatrix Black. She does make things very complicated for herself.”
Harry scoffs. “More like for everyone else. This is her fault, Luna. All of it. She obliviated Mrs Malfoy too.”
Luna stands up. Wanders over calmly to the spiders and bends down to look int their small, glass tank. “Yes. She’s quick to take. But it isn’t always her intention. And it seems she wants to give now. If people will let her.”
She turns. Eyes fixed on Hermione. “And Narcissa Malfoy may have lost her memories, but she hasn’t lost her brain. I think if I knew there were some years missing…I’d try very hard to get back what I’d lost.”
So…Narcissa might be trying to cure herself? Is that possible? Is that why she’s at home?
Can she cure herself? How smart is she? She’s just…a pureblood snob. Holds events, and parties, and pays people off. Is she—
Hermione looks back at the Herbology notes. Scans the page. And then Bellatrix’s…
Hmm. Well, that’s one theory. But surely it would need to be sliced. If Bellatrix chopped it like that, then it would lose—
That’s what Narcissa said. If it is Narcissa.
And— oh! Oh that’s so clever!
Hermione quickly imagines a blackboard, and then rushes over to it, grabbing some chalk before the idea leaves her head. “Neville! Did you see what she said about membranes? Plant membranes and phytosterals, but also cell membranes in the brain! If magical plants hold the properties for cell regrowth then…”
Hermione pauses. Wait. If Narcissa wrote that, knew the answer, then…
She slowly turns back around. “This could help Narcissa. It’s her own work. Her own research. Why— why did Bellatrix give this to you? Is she…deliberately keeping the information from Narcissa? Keeping her without her memories?”
Harry runs a hand through his hair. “Well she did obliviate her on purpose. There must be a reason. But…do you think we should send the book back to Mrs Malfoy. Or…I don’t know…give it to Draco?”
Hermione groans to herself. She doesn’t know! She doesn’t know what Bellatrix is doing. What she’s thinking. What if there is a reason, an important reason, and they just haven’t figured it out yet?
She looks to Luna, almost pleadingly. Luna always seems to know what’s going on. What to do.
Luna comes over and takes the chalk from her. And the book. “Lots of very interesting ideas. I am looking forward to the answers. But for now, I would like some help with the hinkypunks. And the doxies. And billywigs. And perhaps you could give the owl something to deliver. He might like another journey.”
Oh. The newspaper.
Hermione reaches around in her bag and pulls it out. Casts a charm on it against the rain.
Takes a breath, and walks over to give it to Moody Junior, stroking his feathers. “Could you take this to Bellatrix? I’m not sure where she is…”
She gets an immediate hoot in response, and the owl leaves through the open window, off into the dark sky.
Well. There’s no going back now. She’s officially corresponding with a fugitive.
Not for the first time. She’s been a fugitive before. Undesirable Number Two.
She wonders which Black cousin is Priority Number One—
She turns as a buzzing fills the air. The billywigs.
“Ow!”
And one immediately stings Neville. He starts to float.
Of course.
Luna sighs wistfully, skipping over to look up at him. “Flying. How fun. You are ever so lucky, Neville.”
Hermione wakes up early on Saturday. Gets an early breakfast. Borrows the Marauders’ Map from Harry just to…well just to check it. Just in case.
Most people are still in the Common Rooms or Teachers’ Quarters. Dumbledore is in his office. Snape in one of the rooms in the dungeons. Alone.
Oh. And here comes Viktor. Up the stairs. Through the Entrance Hall.
She looks up as the doors open. Catches his eye and waves him over.
He makes his way towards her with a nod and sits down, pulling eggs and…salad towards him. And some ham. And cheese. Continental breakfast. She doesn’t really understand how he can stomach it, first thing in the morning.
She just munches on her toast. “How did you sleep? Is it okay in the dungeons? Not too cold? Are the other students friendly?”
He groans. Reaches for some coffee. “You talk too much in morning. Brain awake. Too awake.” He takes a large mouthful. Swallows. Sighs. “But…yes. Is good. In Durmstrang we have castle also. Not as big as this, or as comfortable, I am thinking,” he explains.
Hermione nods encouragingly, even though she’s heard it all before. It’s nice that he feels confident enough to talk to her now, especially with less people around.
“We have just four floors,” he continues. “And the fires are lit only for magical purposes. But we have grounds larger than these — though in winter, we have very little daylight, so we are not enjoying them. But in summer we are flying every day, over the lakes and the mountains —”
There’s a scoff from behind them. “Well thank goodness that you can fly! Mon dieu, another cold castle?”
And Fleur sits down on Hermione’s other side. Oh no. Oh people are starting to look. More and more as they arrive for breakfast. This—
“Fleur!” she hisses. “Are you sure— Don’t you have to stay away from me? From both of us? Madam Maxime—”
“—Is still asleep. She sleeps long in the weekends. It is fine, Cherie. Let me talk to my…well, apparently we are all lovers, non?”
Hermione fights a blush, trying to act casual as Fleur leans past her to reach the orange juice.
Fleur just smiles at her. Quite cheekily. “You know, at the Palace of Beauxbatons, we have ice sculptures all around the dining chamber at Christmas. They do not melt, of course. They are like…huge statues of diamond, glittering around the place.”
She gestures at the empty Hall. Helps herself to some pastries and fruit, putting some on Hermione and Viktor’s plates too. “And the food is simply superb. We have choirs of wood nymphs, who serenade us as we eat. And none of this ugly armour in the halls, and if a poltergeist ever entered into Beauxbatons, he would be expelled like that,” and she snaps her fingers, glaring around at the ceiling. Oh.
Hermione looks around too. “Did…are you having a bad morning or something? Did you run into Peeves?”
Fleur quirks an eyebrow. “Peeves? Non. Not today. But he has ruined my outfit many times this year. It is ridiculous. You should not have to put up with these things. Not in a respectable school. Hogwarts has a reputation! I am disappointed. Everything here is…dangerous! Dementors! Around the little children. And the staircases that move, or the steps that disappear, or the forest, that is forbidden but with no guards or barriers! It is madness!”
Hermione laughs. She does have a point. She’d thought it was just the wizarding world that was always slightly manic, but maybe it’s just Magical Britain and the rest of the world is a lot more sensible.
She grins at Fleur. “But it’s more fun, right? More unexpected? There’s never a dull moment here.”
Fleur sighs. Nods in defeat, a smile pulling at her lip. “Very…unexpected. Yes. Everything is a surprise since I arrive here. Just when I think I understand, there is something else. Usually because of you. It seems you like the danger and the adventure.”
Hermione snorts into her glass. Oh no! Attracting danger and adventure? Is she the Harry of this world? “I can’t help it! It just happens to me!”
Fleur pats her hand. Then…leaves her hand there. Rests it there. “I am not so sure about that. What do you think, Viktor?”
Viktor looks up from where he’d been slowly eating and frowns. “I think…that my parents will wonder what happens here. They will think I am…liking two witches. And that I am in danger from dementors and criminals. And that Headmaster Karkaroff has abandoned the students. I…expect very long letter.”
And he looks over to the window where the owls are beginning to arrive. More post.
It’s been hours now since she sent the message to Bellatrix. She wonders…
Hermione swallows nervously as her eyes scan the birds. Feels her palms begin to sweat and— Why is Fleur holding her hand? She’s making everything more complicated. Even if she’s just joking, and— but she keeps smiling! She’s so beautiful. All the time. How is Hermione supposed to not—
Viktor doesn’t get an owl. Fleur does though, and thankfully let’s go of Hermione to open her letter and some chocolates from her family. Her sister. She must miss them. Tears making her eyes shine as she reads.
Not that Fleur acknowledges it. Just sniffs, shakes her head with a smile, and then makes Hermione and Viktor try the chocolates. Chocolate, at nine in the morning.
Hermione politely declines, pushing the box away. “No, thank you. I’m sure they’re lovely, but they’re yours, and it’s honestly too early for me to even think about— mmpf!”
Fleur just pushes one into her mouth, eyes gleaming. Looking very smug as Hermione realises this is the best chocolate she has ever eaten. Ever. What is in this? Godric, it’s— She might have actually moaned aloud. How embarrassing.
And just as Harry, Ron, and Ginny sit down opposite her. Ginny’s eyebrows raise in question, Harry’s eyes also darting back and forth to her chosen breakfast companions.
She knows, okay? It’s not ideal.
But can she have another chocolate?
Ron pulls some food towards him, still bleary-eyed and not seeming to sense the awkward atmosphere. “Morning,” he half yawns. “Is…uhh…”
He drifts off. Seems to freeze. Looks up to stare at Fleur, mouth hanging open.
Fleur sighs quietly and casts another shield charm under the table at him. “Good morning. I hope you all slept well. Do you want some chocolate? They are the best in all of France. Perhaps the whole world. I have never tasted chocolate so good, wherever I go. My family has sent them to me especially.”
Ginny hides a scoff behind her hand, sharing a look with Hermione that seems to say ‘can you believe this witch?’
Hermione just shrugs back. Tilts her head to say ‘no, but seriously, she has a point this time.’
Harry looks between them, utterly confused, and then just reaches for a chocolate, whispering a thank you. Nudges the box towards Ron.
Amazingly, Ron shakes his head. “I’m good. Got to stick to that diet plan, right Viktor? Can’t have empty calories. Here, Harry, have some of this too.”
He passes a dish.
Ginny takes a chocolate instead, smiling at Fleur. “You hear ‘best chocolate in the world’ and say no? Even quidditch isn’t worth that. Besides, it’s good to stay healthy, but you don’t want to gain too much muscle. You’ve got to be light. That’s what’s good about quidditch. You want to be soaring, not swinging around like a boulder.”
Viktor nods. “This is also what I think. This is why I am seeker. Flight is the most fun. Hovering and following wind like bird. But Ron is also right. He wants to be keeper, see? Must be strong. Big to fill hoop.”
Ginny leans further over the table to talk to him. “Or he could be light and quick. It’s not about size. Trust me. I’m just as good a keeper as him, even if I’m half his weight.”
“Just as good?” Ron squawks, mouth open. “You’re not bloody— You’re fast, yeah. Agile. But keeper? No way.”
Krum chuckles. “I am interested to see. Maybe we ask professors for…friendly game.”
And Ron, Harry, and Ginny all freeze in utter shock, faces draining of colour and then both Weasleys turning beetroot as they croak and splutter about being good but not that good. But that they’re not saying no. But they might need some training. Or warning. And that he must be trying to bloody kill them if—
Fleur leans to whisper to Hermione, putting an arm around her waist. “I think Viktor is needing a ‘quidditch star’ shield. Perhaps you can invent one for him? So they are thinking clearly?”
Hermione laughs again. Tries to ignore how close Fleur is. She might need a shield of her own. How has she never noticed— Does Fleur always sit this close? Whisper this much? Joke this much? She’s so flirty! And— and now that Hermione has kind of realised that she might have an attraction to witches…
Hermione’s head turns without really meaning to. And now she’s very close to Fleur. Oh no. Don’t look at her mouth. Don’t—
And Hermione jumps out of her skin as a crow lands on the table with a loud caw. Shit. Wha—
Crow?
And a piece of parchment.
She reaches—
The crow snaps at her. Hops over to Harry instead and offers its leg.
Harry takes it. Cautiously. The crow grabs his toast and flies off.
“You use these black birds here?” Viktor asks. “It is clever. These birds are clever. But long distance, not good.”
They all just smile nervously at him, not knowing what to say. How to say that the person writing doesn’t have an owl to…
Bellatrix should have an owl. Did Moody Junior not get back to her yet?
Harry scans the note. Smiles confusedly, seemingly surprised. “It’s…from my uncle. He’s in the area…camping, with his dog. He’s just checking I’m okay, and reminding me to stay in the castle. To stay safe with the dementors around.”
Uncle? Dog?
Harry catches Hermione’s eye and laughs. “He even signed it with a paw print.”
He shows Hermione the note.
A muddy paw print. And sharp, slanted writing.
Sirius. Not Bellatrix. He must be using crows too because he doesn’t have an owl.
…and he says he’s camping in a cave up the mountain. Waiting for the dementors to leave. Oh.
That cave? The same as before? And he just told Harry where it is? He should be more careful!
Although to be fair, he probably doesn’t know how suspicious the crows look after Bellatrix’s ‘delivery’.
Fleur suddenly stands up, looking across the hall. “Merde. She is awake. I have to go. Perhaps I will see you all again soon. Tomorrow? I will try tomorrow.”
Viktor stands up too. “Yes, is time to start day. I go train. You come too, Ron? Harry? Or…what is your name?”
And now everyone is getting up, Ginny climbing out of the bench and holding her hand out to Viktor. “Ginny Weasley. And I’m definitely coming for training. What kind of training? If it’s fitness, I bet I can run around the grounds faster than you. Me and my friend Luna do it all the time.”
Viktor laughs loudly, making his way out of the hall with her and Ron. “Maybe. I am not often running. I swim. But today we can do both. We run, then swim. And the winner…I don’t know. What is prize? For winner?”
And Hermione doesn’t find out what the prize is either, because they’ve already walked off and turned the corner out of the door, eager to start. So competitive.
She shakes her head at Harry, who is still finishing his breakfast. “You’re not going with them?”
“Nah. Voluntarily sprinting around the lake and then jumping in? Swimming? It’s December! They’re nuts.” He shudders dramatically. Pouts himself a cup of tea.
Then picks up Sirius’ letter. “Do…I know he said stay in the castle,” he whispers. “But if we use the cloak…can we go see him? Bring him some food? He must be starving if— and you know where he is, right? From before?”
Hermione sighs. “Harry, it’s dangerous. He literally said stay in the castle. Even he knows—”
“I know,” Harry interrupts. “But…we both know how to cast patronuses, and…well Sirius isn’t dangerous. And even Bellatrix isn’t really dangerous. At least it doesn’t seem like she is. Can’t we just go see him? Just for a little bit? I want to check he’s okay. He’s all alone, surrounded by dementors, up a mountain without food, or clothes, or— And he’s here to be close to me.”
Well…
Winter is setting in. They could bring Sirius some blankets. Give him some supplies. Check in on him.
And maybe find out what he was going to tell them about Bellatrix…
Hermione nods. “Alright. But not today. We can go to the top of one of the towers in a bit and check how far away the dementors are. We’re not going if they’re still in Hogsmeade. Only once they’ve left.”
Harry sighs. “Fine. I guess that makes sense. A few more days can’t hurt.”
Hermione looks up at the cloudy ceiling.
No. It can’t. And…Hermione doesn’t know why, but as anxious as she is to figure things out…
She really feels like she needs another day or two. A break. To sort her head out. Everything is just so…confusing.
“So! Hermione!” a voice comes from next to her, making her jump.
She groans. “What is it, Parvati?”
Lavender sits down on her other side. “Oh, nothing. We were just wondering if you had a nice breakfast. With Viktor. And Fleur. You know, Professor Trelawney told us that because of the conjunction between the Moon and Neptune right now, it’s normal to be feeling more dreamlike and passive, so it’s alright if you just let things happen. And you might be quite sensitive and emotional because of Capricorn, of course.”
“But,” Parvati jumps in, “she also said that because of the conjunction with the Moon and Uranus, a new romantic love affair could appear in your life!” she practically squeals. “Isn’t that exciting? Romance is in the air for all of us!”
Hermione holds back a snort and just nods with the pitiful amount of enthusiasm she can muster. Sure. New romance. Because she doesn’t have enough confusion on that front already.
Fantastic.
Harry nudges her excitedly as they sneak out of the trap door and into Honeydukes. “No dementors. See? They’ve left! Come on!”
Hermione reluctantly follows along close to him, not wanting her feet to become exposed as he gets further ahead. There aren’t many people around, only villagers. It’s not a Hogsmeade weekend.
They should be in the castle. She can’t believe she’s doing this, she’d thought the dementors would stick around longer, not be gone the next day!
“Careful!” she hisses to Harry. “People could still hear us. A muffiliato doesn’t cover everything!”
He nods, but still pulls the door open so that it bangs and the bell jingles. Harry!
He grins at her. “The wind. It’s blowing a gale. It’s fine!”
Hermione grips the cloak around them snuggly. Not fine if the invisibility cloak gets blown away!
They make their way awkwardly up the High Street. Past Dervish and Banges, and soon out of the village altogether, wandering up the winding lane past the occasional cottage. The foot of the mountain.
They stare up at it, not looking forward to the climb ahead, and leaning against the stile. “Cloak off?” Harry asks.
Hermione pulls it free of them, glad to be able to breathe more freely, but really feeling the cold now, hastily casting warming spells. “Off. And I brought a thermos too in my bag, so let me know if you want to stop for a drink. It’s pretty high up.”
They climb over the stile and start trudging, pulling woollen hats further over their ears against the biting chill.
“Wish I had my broom back,” Harry mutters. “We could be up there in seconds.”
Hermione just gives him a look, resisting the urge to groan into her hands. “Yes, and let everyone see,” she says slowly. Pointedly. “A broomstick heading straight up a mountain. Not suspicious at all. In this weather. For no reason. After a known fugitive escaped on the same firebolt—”
“Okay, okay, maybe not!” Harry pants as they scramble up the rocky ground. “I just thought there might be an easier way up a mountain. Like…are we forgetting magic or something? What would Ron say?”
Hermione scoffs. Keeps walking. Ron is in the hospital wing with pneumonia, as is Ginny. Apparently diving into the lake in the middle of winter is not a good idea, even with a warming spell.
They’re fine, of course. Nothing a pepper-up potion and a night’s rest couldn’t fix. It’s more that they’re being kept there as a lesson. For their ‘unthinking idiocy’ as McGonagall called it when she found them coughing and shivering in the Common Room.
Viktor is in trouble too. For being a bad influence on the younger years. So…not the most common way to start a new friendship. But a bit of a bonding experience.
Hermione stops to lean against a rock. Nearly there. Can’t be far.
“What about…teleporting?” Harry asks. “Is that a thing?”
Hermione smiles. Starts climbing again. He’s so young. “Apparition. It’s called apparition, but it’s like teleporting, yes. You have to learn to do it and get a license once you’re seventeen.”
He nods to himself. They carry on climbing for a bit, navigating a narrow passage and then a steep incline. “I can apparate,” she eventually continues, now that they’re on an easier path. “So I could side-apparate you. Transport you. But Sirius might have anti-apparition wards in place. He should, if he’s clever. And anti-muggle—”
Aha! There it is!
She points up to the cave entrance. “He should be there. Hang on. Let me just feel out for him…”
Sirius. Come on, can you feel…
Sirius. Yes. It feels like the Marauders’ Map. And a bit like Grimmauld Place. Sirius. It’s strong. He must have wards. So at least—
Bellatrix
Hermione screeches to a stop, grabbing hold of Harry. Casts a muffiliato.
It can’t be.
Bellatrix
But why is she—
Bellatrix. Definitely Bellatrix.
She holds backs a shiver. A shudder.
And throws the cloak over her and Harry. “It’s Bellatrix!” she hisses. “She’s here too! Both of them! I don’t— Come on!”
Harry’s eyes widen, and then narrow in determination as he and Hermione practically crawl up to the lip of the cave, peeking over.
It’s dark. Hard to see inside, even if they squint. No sign of—
Harry edges closer—
“Did you feel that?” calls Bellatrix’s voice. “In the wards?”
Hermione holds her breath.
“Shut up!” Sirius shouts back harshly. Louder. Closer. “You’re not tricking me again, I told you. I’m not talking to you!”
A cackling laugh echoes across stone, sending another shiver right up Hermione’s spine. “But you are talking to me,” Bellatrix sing-songs. “So stop being so stubborn, and—”
Sirius growls. A human growl, but still quite fierce. And frustrated. “Go away! Get— fuck off! I told you. That’s your side, and this is my side. See? There. The line is right there, and you know it. From the rock to the puddle. Don’t pretend you can’t— Bella!”
A sigh. And footsteps. “I’m just coming to get a little look! Didn’t you feel it? Someone tripped the wards! And— Hey!”
A scraping thud. “That’s my newspaper!” Bellatrix shouts. “How did you get it? I sent it to Hermione! Are you stealing my letters now?”
Sirius laughs. A bark. "What happened to sharing? I thought—"
There’s some more scraping sounds. Stone crumbling. Some kind of kerfuffle. Light smacking sounds.
Hermione slowly raises her eyebrows at Harry. Are they…fighting? Squabbling? What—
There’s a bark. A woof.
“Cheat!” Bellatrix calls. “Just admit that I’m stronger than you now, and let me give you some—”
And then a black dog is bounding towards them out of the darkness, tongue hanging out and sniffing the air.
Harry yanks the cloak off them without warning, a hesitant smile on his face. “Hi, Padfoot.”
And Sirius transforms in an instant, pulling Harry up and into a hug. “Harry! What are you doing here? I told you, it’s safe at Hogwarts.”
He pulls back, cupping Harry’s face and bending to look him in the eyes. “I hope that you are not here on my account. I’d hate for anything to happen to you. Your safety is of utmost importance. Do you understand?”
Harry nods, a guilty look forming.
And a scoff echoes out of the cave. “Why are you talking like that, Wagtail? You’re not Cissy. Or Dumbledore. Why have you suddenly turned into the wise, all knowing godfather. Heed my words, young Harry. The road is dark, but there is light ahead—”
Sirius whirls around. “Stay back!” he bellows. “Stay inside! You know my conditions. I said I’d consider talking to you, but only if—”
Bellatrix comes into view. Steps out into the light. Just walks casually out of the cave, rolling her eyes at Sirius.
Leans against the rock. Looks Hermione up and down.
Grins. “Hi Granger. Nice of you to drop in. Sorry I had to leave so suddenly.”
Notes:
So some of you guessed it! There's more than one Black in that cave!
...Sorry not sorry for the awful cliffhanger ;)
Chapter 19: Go Off Piste
Chapter Text
Hermione can’t seem to find any words under Bellatrix’s gaze. Her familiar grin. What is she doing here? How is she just standing there like it’s nothing! Leaning against the rock, only wearing a black cloak over her dress. Nothing else. And it’s open at the front. How is she not freezing?
Bellatrix takes a step forward. “So? Did…you happen to bring anything, other than your lovely selves? Wagtail and I are starving here. He almost ate my rat!”
And she pulls a rat out of her pocket. The rat from the cage. Strokes it. Hugs it to her chest fondly. As if apologising to it.
Umm…
Hermione slowly reaches down and opens her bag. Starts pulling out all the different items they brought. And food. Lots of food from the kitchens. Chicken legs. Bread. Cheese. Some drinks too.
Sirius’ mouth falls open and he practically dives at her, pulling the chicken from her hands and tearing into it with a groan.
Bellatrix just waits. Watches him. Smiles.
Then wanders over. Closer. Chooses some chicken for herself. Tears a piece off and gives it to the rat.
And takes a bite with a moan, closing her eyes. “Knew there was a reason I liked you, Granger.” She takes another bite. “Didn’t I tell you, Wags? Your godson chose the best friends. Bloody mind-reading geniuses.”
Sirius stops eating. Pauses to lick his fingers and look at Bellatrix curiously. “Good friends? You don’t think they’re…bloodtraitors? Beneath you?”
Bellatrix chuckles. “Beneath me? I’m living in a cave! Now, come on. Eat some more. And they brought blankets! Clothes! Go on! Put something on. A hat! You should be wearing a hat.”
And she looks around for one. Doesn’t find one. They didn’t think to bring a hat.
Bellatrix holds her hand out to Harry with a sigh. “Duplicate yours. It won’t last, but it will do for now. Can you remember the wand movement? The incantation? It’s—”
“Geminio,” Harry says firmly, hat already in hand, wand in motion. Looks relieved when it turns out okay. Smiles cautiously at Bellatrix. “Like the apples. Right?”
She grins back. Snatches the hat. “Right. Five points to Gryffindor. But tighten the wand movement a bit more next time. Not so floppy, firmer intent. Then it’ll last longer.”
And she shoves the hat on Sirius’ head.
“Ow! Get off! I can do it myself! Why— you’re pulling my hair,” Sirius shouts, jerking the hat into place, out of his eyes. “Why are you acting like this? What’s got into you?”
Bellatrix folds her arms with a pout. “I’m helping! Let me help. That’s what I’m for. That’s why I’m here. So if you would just listen and let me—”
Sirius hastily puts a hand over Bellatrix’s mouth.
Opens his own mouth. Then closes it.
Glances at Harry and Hermione.
Sighs. “Into the cave. All of you. It’s safer past the wards. And…and if you want to help, Bella, then help them bring some of those things in. I’m still…weak.”
Bellatrix pushes his hand of. Wipes at her lips and grimaces. “And you taste awful. You need to learn to wash your paws. Bleurgh.” She reaches for a bottle of pumpkin juice and takes a swig.
Offers it to Harry. “Want some? Must have been a long walk up here.”
Harry gives Hermione an uncomfortable look and then just pushes the bottle away. “I’m good. Maybe later. Uhh…here, Sirius. I’ll take that. Hermione has this bag that you can fit really big things inside. We wanted to bring a bed, but we didn’t know where to get one.”
They gather everything back up, some in their arms and some back into Hermione’s bag, and walk further inside the cave, wands lit. Bellatrix first, Sirius pushing her inside and her feet dragging and skidding on the stone in protest.
Harry laughs into his hand. “They’re like kids!” he whispers.
It echoes.
“Heard that!” Bellatrix shouts. “And he’s the silly little kid. I’m older, you know. Six years older. Taught him to ride a broom, and swim, and tie his shoes—”
“No, you did not! You just watched and laughed whenever I fell off, or sank, or tripped over. Andromeda taught me. And she taught Narcissa. And…Reg.”
They drift into painful silence. In the dark. It’s quite a small cave. About the size of a garage—
Harry pulls her to a stop. “Buckbeak!”
She’d almost stepped on Buckbeak. Who is waking up. Getting to his feet.
Hermione hastily steps back. Bows low, Harry at her side. Holding eye contact as much as they can in the dim light.
The hippogriff bows back, to her relief, and then trots past her towards the entrance.
Bellatrix follows. Stops next to Hermione. Pokes her bag. “Anything for him? Chicken?”
Oh, right!
She reaches around in her bag and throws some chicken for Buckbeak. He catches it with a snap.
“Poor thing,” Bellatrix murmurs. “He shouldn’t be here. Needs freedom. Freedom to run. Freedom to fly.”
Hermione glances sideways at the witch. Is…she really talking about Buckbeak?
“Are you staying here?” Hermione asks quietly. “Permanently?”
Bellatrix hums. “I don’t know. There are…a lot of options for me to narrow down. Choices to make about…well. You know.”
“Hermione…” Sirius calls warily. “I think maybe you should come away from—”
Bellatrix tuts. “I’m not going to hurt them. I already told you.”
“Well I don’t believe you!” Sirius says. “Why should I? You haven’t done anything for me to believe—”
“She saved me from a dragon,” Hermione blurts out. Flushes as Bellatrix grins at her again. Reaches for—
Hermione jerks back. Was she about to touch her arm? It looked like…
She hastily makes her way over to Harry and Sirius, opening her bag to get some blankets back out that Harry immediately wraps around Sirius’ shoulders.
“Got any drugs?” Bellatrix whispers in her ear from behind.
Hermione rolls her eyes. “No.”
She feels a chin rest on her shoulder. Steps forward out of reach. Why— she’s so close. So touchy.
Bellatrix clears her throat. “Sorry. But what I mean is…”
And Bellatrix walks around to kneel at Sirius’ feet. “I’m worried about Wagtail. It’s too cold. Too damp. He’s too thin,” she whispers quietly. “And he won’t let me help him,” she grits out. Almost growls. Stands up on her knees to press a hand to Sirius’ forehead.
“He’s getting sick?” Harry asks panickedly. “Sirius, if she can help— You shouldn’t be here! You need to get away. Just…apparate away somewhere. I’m fine at Hogwarts. Safe.”
“Thank you!” Bellatrix shouts. “See? Listen to Potter! Get your strength back. Then you can help.”
“I’ve waited long enough,” Sirius mutters. “I’m not waiting any longer.”
Bellatrix puts her head in his lap and groans. “You’re not thinking clearly. Believe me. I’ve been there. So let us think for you. Eat. Sleep. Recover.”
“Is there somewhere he can go?” Hermione asks.
Bellatrix sits up. Raises an eyebrow at Sirius.
He grits his teeth, pushing at her shoulders. “No. I’m not going back there. Never. Get off me.”
Bellatrix snorts, ignoring him. “So you’re going to die out of spite, just like her.”
Her? Who? Where?
Oh wait. Sirius has a house. Grimmauld Place. It’s not being used by the Order yet. And it makes sense why he’s avoiding his hated childhood home.
“Wherever it is, go there,” Hermione says firmly. “You’re not well. Don’t do this to Harry.”
This seems to make him think about it. He glances at Harry. Searches his face, as if he can’t believe he’s there. Can’t believe he gets to look.
Harry nods. “You’re the only family I have left. I want— I’m telling you to take care of yourself, and let other people take care of you. That means a home, and food, and a shower, and clothes. That means admitting when you need help, and talking to people. Maybe— If you don’t want to talk to Bellatrix…why don’t you write to Professor Lupin?”
“Remus will worry,” Sirius sighs. “He has enough troubles. He doesn’t need—”
Bellatrix stands up. “Just ask the bloke to move in with you! He lost his job, right? No money? Nowhere to go? We have money.”
Sirius gives her a disbelieving look. Maybe because she just offered her own money to a werewolf.
And shakes his head, snapping himself out of it. “Had money. We can’t access it, we’re on the run! Do you think we can just show up at Gringotts?” Sirius says, slightly delirious now. Giddy. “Hello, Mr Goblin. My cousin and I are being hunted across Britain for being mass murderers! But can we have our houses and our money back?”
“We already have the house! That’s what I’ve been trying to tell you!” Bellatrix shouts. “It’s automatic! Next male heir. Blacks don’t care if you broke the law or killed anyone! And you didn’t even kill anyone! You’re innocent!”
Harry stands up too. “Then it’s settled,” he says firmly. Authoritatively. A glimmer of his older self shining through. A leader. “You have a house, so you’re going to live there. And you’re going to write to your friends, and take all this food, and Bellatrix…”
He looks at Bellatrix. Studies her.
And the warily hopeful child returns, hand moving to run through his hair before he remembers the hat on his head. “You’ll look after him?”
Bellatrix sighs tiredly, looking at him and away. Looking down at Sirius, still huddled in the blanket. “Of course, Potter,” she says softly. “You’ve got to take care of family. Love the ones you’ve got. Help them out. He’s still my little cousin. And I’ve got a lot of teaching to…make up for.”
“I don’t want to learn anything from you,” Sirius says hoarsely, teeth chattering.
Bellatrix drags him to his feet. “I know you don’t. But tough tits. Neither of us have a choice in the matter. So do you think you can make it to London on the back of a Hippogriff, or— wait. No. That’s a stupid idea. I’ll apparate us like Potter said, and then I’ll find someone to relocate Witherwings. Somewhere with his own kind.”
“Can you apparate him?” Hermione asks. “He won’t get…splinched?”
She shudders. As does Bellatrix.
“What does splinched mean?” Harry asks innocently.
“When part of you gets left behind,” Bellatrix explains, seemingly on professor-autopilot. “A body part. It can happen when you apparate without focusing. Like if you’re tired, or injured, or drunk.”
“Body part…” Harry whispers.
Sirius pulls himself upright. Pushes Bellatrix off. “I’m fine! For Godric’s sake, I’m not unwell, I’ve just been on the run for far too long. I can certainly handle apparition. Bella is just babying me. I’m a grown wizard.”
He hugs Harry tightly, and then walks him towards the mouth of the cave. “It was good to see you, but you should be getting back before it gets dark. And I will look after myself. I promise. I’ll be fit as a fiddle in no time.”
Hermione hands over the bag of food. “So you’ll go?” she clarifies. Sternly.
For a moment he just looks at her.
Then Bellatrix.
Then takes the bag. “Yes. I’ll go. Just over the winter whilst I recover. So now you get going back to Hogwarts. I thought you’d be one to follow the rules, Hermione, but…”
He laughs. Looks at Harry again. “You have chosen your friends well, Harry. Your Dad would be so proud of how brave you’re being. Sneaking out with his cloak and— and kind. Kind and brave, like Lily too.”
Harry ducks his head. Scuffs at the ground. “I just…didn’t want you to be all alone out here. Because you’re not, okay?” he looks back up. “You’re not alone.”
Hermione glances away. To give them some space to share this moment.
And to look at Bellatrix. A Bellatrix with…a strange look in her eyes, standing there shivering.
Did she not get a blanket? Or a hat, or anything for herself?
“Bellatrix, turn around and face inside the cave,” Sirius orders out of nowhere.
What?
Bellatrix frowns at Hermione, but does turn around. “Why? What are you hiding from me? You don’t have to—”
Sirius ignores her and quickly pulls Harry’s invisibility cloak out of his bag, beckoning Hermione over and throwing the cloak over her and Harry.
He holds a finger to his lips, and then motions for them to leave down the mountain.
Oh.
Still doesn’t trust Bellatrix. Keeping them safe. And…thinks Bellatrix doesn’t know about the cloak.
Bellatrix huffs. “Well? Can I look?”
“No!” Sirius shouts. “Just do as I say.”
And he looks around. Reaches out to see if they’ve left yet.
Harry quietly moves back. They back all the way out. Past the wards and down over the lip.
And then Harry jerks them to the side and pulls them to a stop. “I want to make sure he leaves,” he whispers in her ear.
Fair enough. Sirius isn’t…overly reliable when it comes to keeping his word.
They wait. And wait. Can’t hear or see anything with the wards in place.
Sirius comes out, bag on his shoulder and without the blanket anymore.
“—and I’m coming with you!” Bellatrix says as she appears too, running out after him.
Sirius walks over to stroke Buckbeak. Then sighs. “No you’re not,” he quickly whispers.
And he spins. Apparates. Gone.
Oh.
Bellatrix sighs.
Sits down just inside the lip of the cave. Takes the rat out of her pocket. Strokes it sadly.
Then looks up at them. “I can see your feet," she grunts.
Hermione looks down at the uneven ground. Oops.
Harry cautiously pulls off the cloak.
“Uhh…” he says as he stares at the empty spot Sirius had been standing in. “I’m gonna…go see Buckbeak before we go. And have a look at the view from around that side of the mountain. It must be…”
He drifts off. Gives Hermione a look and gestures at Bellatrix, who is now back to staring at the ground.
And then walks off around a corner with Buckbeak.
Great. So…well she guesses she should…
Hermione climbs back up the lip and sits down next to Bellatrix on the rocky, wet floor just inside the cave. “What’s your rat called?”
Bellatrix keeps stroking it. Then hands the rat to Hermione. “Ratty.”
Hermione holds back a strange laugh. This is all very weird, and uncomfortable, and— She’s not the biggest fan of rats, they’re just a bit…
She hands Ratty back. “You keep him.”
Bellatrix just nods. Puts him down, frowning now.
Leans her head against Hermione’s shoulder. “What do you think I should do?” she asks quietly.
Hermione tries to act like this is normal. Keeps her breathing even, and brushes some hair out of her face. “You mean…with Sirius?”
Bellatrix turns to look at her. “He’s the only one I’ve got left. Cissy will be in danger if I go to her. And Andy won’t speak to me. Refuses to see me. How…You’re talking to me. You didn’t want to, before. You wouldn’t even shake my hand, but now you’re talking to me. So why is that? What did I do? What did I do right?”
She…wants to talk to Andromeda? And— oh! She’s staying away from Narcissa to protect her! Is that why she obliviated her? So that when the aurors went looking, Narcissa would have no connection with her? To make sure Narcissa was safe? But then why draw attention to herself and cast the Dark Mark in the first place?
And she wants advice? Isn’t it obvious that— “Well you…you’re nice to me,” Hermione explains. “I don’t know why exactly, but you act like we’re friends. And you saved me from a dragon, so I guess I…trust you more now. Did you…get my message?”
Bellatrix shakes her head. Oh. So where did that— accio newspaper!
The newspaper flies towards her out of the cave. She finds the article. Hands it to Bellatrix, slightly embarrassedly.
Bellatrix scans it. Then her eyes seem to glint. She smiles. Darts her fingers over the words, mouthing them to herself.
Then laughs. “That was clever, Granger. I would have got that. If Wagtail wasn’t slobbering all over my stuff. How do you know me so well? Do we know each other in the future?”
And she turns and looks at Hermione curiously.
Hermione swallows. Shakes her head. “No, not really. That’s— that’s why I didn’t like you. I knew what you did, what you’ve done, but I…never met you.”
It’s true. She hasn’t. She hasn’t met this Bellatrix. The one who wants to look after Sirius, and be close to Hermione, and smiles and laughs all the time. Laughs in a warm, genuine way.
This Bellatrix is different. This Bellatrix is…
Hermione is staring. She’s just realised that she’s been staring. Looking at Bellatrix’s face for ages without saying anything. Her mouth. Her smile.
Hermione looks away.
Bellatrix grabs her chin and pulls her head back around. “So why do you like me? I was nice to Siri, and joked with him, and shared with him, and tried to help him…and now he’s gone home without me. How can I make him let me in?”
Uhh…
Hermione can’t really think right now. Her heart is thundering in her ears. Her jaw caught in a firm grip. Eyes staring into hers, looking for answers.
She wets her lips. “I— you— you were persistent. You were everywhere I went, and you— you’re confusing, and intriguing. You— maybe you should go and see if he’s alright. Maybe the wards will let you in, because you’re family, and you know the address to Grimmauld Place.”
Bellatrix wets her own lips. “Grimmauld?” she murmurs. “Now how do you know that…unless a Black told you?”
Oh. Oh dear. Um—
“How are you here?” Hermione blurts out. “Are you— How old are you? How did you escape Azkaban? What have you been doing for the last ten years? Why did you put Harry’s name in the Goblet? What are you trying to do? Why are you scared of—”
“If I kiss you, will you stop asking questions?”
Wha—
Hermione pulls back with a yelp of surprise. Falls backwards, almost tumbling out of the cave.
Bellatrix laughs. “Okay, okay. I won’t. That’s why I asked.”
Loud footsteps smack across rock towards her. “Hermione? Are you okay? What’s going on?!”
She looks up at Harry confusedly, rubbing her head. Thoughts still—
Mating rituals. Erumpents. Thundering—
“Hermione!” Harry shouts again, urgently now, pulling her to her feet.
She shakes herself. “Yes! It’s fine. I’m fine— I— just unexpected— we should go.”
She turns to look at the view. The sunset. Nods to herself. “Bellatrix, you should check on Sirius. Stay with him. I’m sure he’ll let you in, he did before. And— um— well— I—”
“Focus, Granger,” Bellatrix says firmly. “Remember to put on Potter's cloak, and apparate him down the mountain. The frost’s come in. It’s too slippery to walk down. I’ll…write to you and let you know how Wagtail’s doing. And I’m sorry if— I’m not very good with boundaries.”
Oh. Of course. Right.
She makes herself look at Bellatrix. Makes herself hold eye contact and smile even though she thinks her head might explode from just how—
Bellatrix wanted to kiss her?
To get her to stop asking questions, right? Not because—
“It’s fine,” Hermione says. Again. “You just…surprised me. I’m not— We don’t know each other very well yet.”
Bellatrix’s shoulders seem to relax. She grins. “Yet.”
Yet.
Oh. Did Hermione just imply—
Bellatrix chuckles. Slashes her wand through the air, taking down the wards, and walks back into the cave. “I’m here because Sirius is here. I saw you send Hedwig, so I knew he was around here somewhere,” she calls out of the cave. “I put Harry’s name in the Goblet because at that point I didn’t know what else to do, and it seemed like the best option— Come here, Ratty!”
Some scraping sounds. A thud. Footsteps. “And I’m forty years old. Six years older than Siri, as I said. So not bad, right?” she says, coming back into view.
Then winks. “I think that’s enough answers for now, until I get more of my own.
And she throws on a cloak. An invisibility cloak. Disappears.
There’s a crack of apparition, and then silence.
Harry pulls his own cloak out of his bag with a sigh. “Well that wasn’t enough answers, but it’s a bit better. She seems…well I kind of trust her too. I see what you mean. I still think she’s a bit crazy though. What did she do that made you shout?”
Hermione ducks under the cloak with him, suddenly aware of how dark it’s gotten and how cold she is. “I’ll tell you later. We need to get back. Hold on tight to me, and take a breath. This isn’t going to feel very nice.”
And with a crack, Buckbeak is alone on the mountain.
Hermione doesn’t actually get around to telling Harry about the ‘kiss-question’ incident. More like she deliberately avoids it, in case she makes his head explode like hers did.
But by bedtime, she’s worked herself into a bit of a panic about it. Turned it over in her head hundreds of times, Snape’s comment about relationships and erumpents pinging around her mind, playing on repeat.
So she does what anyone would do.
She walks down the stairs, in the dark, in her pyjamas, to knock on the third-year dorm door and talk to Ginny, who is finally back from the Hospital Wing.
Hermione hugs her knees as they sit on Ginny’s bed, curtains drawn and silencing charm firmly in place. She’s told her everything. From the mountain, and from Snape.
Ginny gives her a strange look.
Then flops back on the bed. “Fleur Delacour and the crazy but weirdly attractive Death Eater lady? What kind of pheromones are you giving off?! Do you go around with amortentia in your pockets? Even I’m thinking about kissing you now, just to see what the fuss is about!”
“Ginny!” Hermione hisses, not quite able to tell if she’s joking. “That’s not helpful.”
Ginny shrugs. “Look, it’s fine. It just means you’re hot. You’re like…one of those wizards in Witch Weekly that everyone goes mad about. Except for witches. I don’t see what the problem is, to be honest. You like witches. They like you. I would have kissed both of them by now.”
Oh…
She’s attractive?
Hermione shuffles around to lie down next to Ginny. Hesitates. “Don’t kiss me,” she says, just in case.
Ginny laughs. “I won’t! I was joking. We’re friends. It would be weird.”
Well that’s a relief.
“Would you really?” Hermione whispers at the ceiling. “Have kissed Bellatrix?”
There’s a brief silence. “If I liked her,” Ginny replies quietly. “From what you said, she seems trustworthy now. She must be from another time, like you. One that's more...normal. Nice." She glances at Hermione. "But kiss her? I’ve never even spoken to her, so I don’t know. I think…”
Ginny turns on her side. “I think for some reason you’ve freaked yourself out about relationships. But it’s okay. It’s meant to be fun, not scary. Don’t panic. It doesn’t have to be a huge decision. It doesn’t have to be serious. If you want to do something with someone, and they want to too, then do it! And if later you don’t want to, then tell them and stop. Easy, see?”
Okay. That does make sense. She makes it sound so simple, it—
Maybe Hermione is a bit scared. Of the commitment. Of the decision. Of accidentally stringing someone along when she’s not sure or ready.
Like with Ron. She’d ended up…trapped. And felt so guilty for hurting him. For not feeling what he felt.
But fun? She’s never thought about relationships being fun. But that’s what Fleur seems to do. And Bellatrix. Flirt and make jokes for the fun of it. Touching her…just because they want to.
She rolls to face Ginny too. Smiles. “Snog, marry, or kill…Harry, Luna and Dean Thomas.”
Ginny gasps. “No! That’s too hard! Couldn’t you give me—”
Hermione shakes her head with a laugh. “Go on.”
Ginny huffs. “Well…I can’t kill Harry or Luna. So it has to be Dean, because even though he’s cute, I don’t know him that well. So…”
Her eyes dart back and forth. “Snog Luna, marry Harry,” she quickly says.
Then sits up. “Okay, your turn—”
Hermione holds up a hand. “Only seventeen or older, and…only witches. I— I’m— I’m gay.”
Ginny freezes. Then immediately falls on top of her to hug her. “You said it! That’s the hardest bit. Well done. I still can’t really say it.”
Hermione lets out a shaky breath. “It’s stupid, isn’t it? Scared of a word. And I’m twenty-five. It shouldn’t— all it means is that I’m exclusively attracted to witches. Why is it so hard to say? I’m gay. I’m a lesbian, I’m gay.”
Ginny squeezes her tighter and laughs quietly. “Fight the fear!” she whispers. “I’m…bisexual. I’m bi. Gah, my face is going to burn off. Can you feel it? I’m radiating!”
Hermione hugs her and then pushes her back, casting a cooling charm at her face. “Better?”
Ginny smiles. “Snog, marry, kill…Fleur, Bellatrix, and…Trelawney!”
What?!
Hermione shoves her. “You did that on purpose! Now I have to—”
“Have to…?” Ginny drags out gleefully.
Hermione huffs. “Well, I’m not going anywhere near Trelawney, obviously. I’m definitely not marrying her, that would be dreadful. And a snog— ugh. No. I’m killing Trelawney.”
“Go on…” Ginny says, practically bouncing on the bed.
And Hermione thinks about it. “So…well I’d marry Fleur, wouldn’t I? She’s my friend, and I know we stay friends for a long time, and that she’s reliable, and—”
“Boring!” Ginny says. “Get friendship out of your head for once. Think wife. Think…touching her. Holding her hand. She’s yours. She loves you.”
She pictures it. Replaces Bill…with herself. Except she wouldn’t have married Fleur so young. Or at the Burrow. But…it is nice when Fleur smiles at her. And touches her. Her wrist, or her back, or hugs her, whispers to her in French and feeds her chocolates or—
“Marry Fleur,” she says. “Because she’s fun, and caring, and beautiful. But also quick-witted, and impressive, and fiery. Hot.”
Ginny smacks the mattress. “Told you she was hot! Okay, now tell me what you really think about Bellatrix.”
Hermione nods. Just goes with it. “So that obviously means I’d have to snog Bellatrix. And— and I would. I’d kiss her. I caught myself staring at her today. She’s just so…argh, I can’t explain her!”
She sits up. To think better. “She…every conversation I have with her is unexpected, and different, and exciting. I never know what she’s going to do, but at the same time it’s like we have this rhythm. Like she can give me a knowing look, and I can follow her train of thought."
She fiddles with the sheets as Ginny looks at her encouragingly. "I…like it when she looks at me. Grins at me. She always seems happy to see me. Excited. And it makes me feel important, and special and— and she always knows when to stop, too. When to back off. When to change the subject. We both do. Everything just becomes…calm. She opens up around me. Asks me questions, and for advice. She whispers to me, and I whisper back. We tread carefully, trying to figure out what each other means, or wants. And even when I’m completely wrong…it feels right. Like there’s a moment of connection. This strange kind of trust, or understanding, so that even though I have no idea what’s happening whenever she’s around…the communication is still open and…free. Whether we’re walking in silence, or asking each other question after question.”
And now there’s a very long silence.
Hermione lies back down awkwardly. “Plus, she saved me from a dragon,” she adds, because that seems significant.
Ginny joins her. Clears her throat. “So Fleur is hot…and Bellatrix is reliable, easy to talk to, and always happy to see you, and is there to support you with clear boundaries that you both understand?”
Hermione just nods in shock.
“Hermione…you’re going to have to switch your answers,” Ginny says in laughing shock. “You want to kiss Fleur…and marry Bellatrix.”
And now the panic is back. Marriage? No no no
And it’s Bellatrix. Have you forgotten who she is?! What she—
Hermione hugs her arm to her chest. “It’s— no. No, this is just a game. For fun. And— and I’m not switching. Fleur— Fleur is kind, and cares about me, and Bellatrix…is attractive enough for me to kiss her. Hypothetically. It’s all hypothetical, it’s—”
Ginny hugs her. “You’re making it all serious again. Of course you’re not going to get married! It’s just part of the game. You don’t have to marry anyone…ever, Hermione! It’s just— I’ll change the words. Kiss, fuck, kill. Is that easier?”
Hermione laughs and pushes her off. “Ginevra Molly Weasley you are thirteen years old and— I forgot! You’re a baby! Come here!”
And she hugs Ginny again. Tiny Ginny. It’s so strange. To think her Ginny back home is married. And pregnant.
Ginny fights her off, squawking and complaining, so Hermione lets her go. It’s getting very late, and they have lessons tomorrow. Monday morning.
She climbs off the bed and creeps towards the door. “Thanks for talking to me,” she whispers. “I’ll see you at breakfast.”
Ginny grins at her. “Sweet dreams!” she shout-whispers back.
And Hermione fumbles the door handle and manages to get out. Climbs the stairs again.
Dreams. Oh she is going to have some very confusing dreams. Her head is…
Gay. Oh Godric she is gay. That’s why she’s been avoiding dating. Dating because she should and it’s what’s expected, but every time a wizard leans in to kiss her…
If Fleur or Bellatrix leant in to kiss her…
Bellatrix almost did. And you pushed her away. And Fleur is making it extremely obvious, so obvious that even Harry saw it.
You shouldn’t kiss Bellatrix. You don’t know for certain who she is. And even if she’s changed, and nice, and interesting and— she tortured people!
Right?
She shuffles through the dark to her bed. Nudges Crookshanks awake and pushes him off. No sharing tonight. Go catch some…rats.
A pet rat? Seriously? Of all the animals—
Fleur. Think about Fleur instead. Much safer option. And unbelievably beautiful. Ginny is right, what was she thinking? Why did she reject Fleur? This is a different universe! She isn’t married! This is your one chance to—
Well, that sounds creepy. She’s not just an object. She doesn’t belong to Bill. She’s a person. Your friend. Your now much younger friend. Who maybe has a crush on you in this timeline.
Definitely has a crush on you. Feeding you chocolates and stroking your face.
Because you’re hot.
Hermione can’t believe she’s hot! When did that happen?
But it’s kind of the only explanation that witches keep wanting to…
She closes her eyes. Just closes her eyes. Go to sleep. Being in a different universe is not an excuse to explore your sexuality without consequences.
Or is it? Why is she here? Why this point in time? Why is she reliving her teenage years with…witches hanging all over her? Harry isn’t in danger right now. All of her friends are happy. Bellatrix isn’t a threat. Sirius is being sensible. She already fought the dragon, knows the next task, and it’s nearly Christmas.
Is Ginny right? Are Lavender and Parvati right? Should she just relax and…see what happens?
Her hand drifts down her stomach under the covers. She casts a silencing charm over her bed.
There is…one way to relax. That she hasn’t done in a while.
Her mind’s eye drifts to her bedroom back home. And the box under the bed. With the vibrator inside, that Ginny got for her as a joke for her birthday, saying she needed to loosen up.
A box she never opened. Too embarrassed.
She does need to loosen up! What’s wrong with her? Why is she so repressed? She’s a feminist! She should be—
She stifles a laugh as she imagines ordering a vibrator through owl post. If any of the professors or house-elves spotted it—
Don’t think about professors right now. Ugh, she just thought of Filch. Go away! Go—
She rolls over. Grumbles to herself and closes her eyes. Sleep. Just go to sleep.
Chapter 20: Come in and out of Hiding
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Ron’s mouth falls open. “I missed all of that? Harry, why didn’t you bloody wake me up and tell me last night?!” he hisses, looking around to check no-one is listening in as they trudge down the hill to Care of Magical Creatures. Luckily no-one seems to be paying them any attention, too busy keeping a hold of their scarves and cloaks in the howling wind. This is the worst day to be heading towards a pumpkin patch and blast-ended skrewts.
“You were snoring your head off!” Harry shouts. “And you’d been ill! I wasn’t going to wake you up just to—”
“—to tell me absolutely everything! Snoring? I’m always snoring! Next time just poke me and—”
“Weasley! Hey, Weasley!” comes a shout from behind them.
Draco?
Draco comes jogging up to them, the other Slytherins frowning confusedly, looking up to watch.
He stops next to Ron. “I’ve got a proposition to make, Weasley. See, I don’t feel like dealing with these blast-ended abominations today. So when we’re told to pair up, or get into groups or whatever the great oaf tells us to do, I think you’re going to pair up with me and sort it out for me. And in return, you can copy the Herbology notes that you were too stupid to understand.”
What? Herbology notes? They just had Herbology with the Hufflepuffs, and Ron managed fine.
But Ron’s eyes widen and he quickly nods. “Yeah, uhh…sure. I mean, you’re sure? Maybe Neville could—”
Draco nods. “You’re right. The size of those things?”
He looks down his nose at the skrewts as they all get closer to the pumpkin patch. “They’ll definitely need two people to handle them. Longbottom! Come here and work with Weasley!”
What is happening? What the—
“Ignore him, Neville,” Harry shouts as Neville looks over panickedly. “Don’t let him boss you around.”
And he pulls Ron a step away from Draco. “Mate, what are you doing? What—”
“Err…right,” Hagrid says confusedly as he comes over. “All of you gather ‘round then. Tha’s it.”
He rubs his hands together and gestures to the skrewts and some large wooden crates that he’s spread out and filled with blankets and hay. “See, with winter coming in and all, I thought these lot might want to hibernate. So I’ve got each o’ them a nice bed, and uhh…well, we’ll see how it goes! As Malfoy said, it’ll take some handlin’, so get into groups.”
Everyone looks around and reluctantly moves closer to their friends, Draco for some reason studying his nails and staying stood next to Ron, Harry, and Hermione.
Hagrid beams at the sight of them. “Good! Great! Of you go, then!”
And Draco marches off towards the skrewt that’s furthest away. “This one’s smallest. You’ll be done faster, and I can get inside. Weasley! Keep up!”
Ron huffs and rolls his eyes. But follows after him.
Hermione shares a very confused look with Harry and follows, jogging to the far end of the pumpkin patch beside some large rocks.
And they all crouch down near the skrewt’s head, avoiding claws and it’s blasting back end, none of them even attempting to get it near the box.
“Muffiliato,” Ron whispers, looking around.
Then turns on Malfoy. “What was that?! I didn’t agree to that! Now everyone thinks I’m your bloody house-elf and too stupid to—”
“You wanted to talk, didn’t you? Malfoy hisses back. “So talk! But don’t look at me. Do you realise what Nott will say if he sees me talking to you lot?”
“Why are you talking to us?” Harry asks. “What’s going on?”
Draco glares at him. And Hermione. “That’s the question you should be answering, Potter. Or more like Granger. What’s going on between you and my aunt? Why would she save someone like you? Why would she even speak to— Why did she give Longbottom that book? And you knew about it. You and Potter knew about a plant that cures memory loss, and you told Longbottom not to give it to me. You—”
There are shouts and screams from around them, everyone else battling their skrewts, who seem very reluctant to hibernate. Obviously. They’re crustaceans. Burying them in sand would probably be more appropriate. Or just leaving them alone.
“Not to worry!” Hagrid bellows. “Easy does it! They’re more scared of you, than—”
Some of the class run into the edge of the forest, the skrewts beginning to go on a bit of a rampage. Parkinson and the other Slytherins even head for Hagrid’s hut and shut themselves in.
Hermione casts an immobulus at their skrewt before it gets any ideas, hovering the box down on top of it and backing away, gesturing for the others to follow.
She ducks behind an oak tree. “Look, Draco. I can’t really explain right now. I get that you’re angry, but—”
“Angry?!” Draco yells. Then more quietly, practically spitting at her. Cheeks red. Coming towards her so she’s backing across the grounds. “She obliviated my mother and now you’re somehow…working with her! She sent the broom back! Spoke to you! She— you have a book that she gave you, that she’s keeping from my mother, and you’re—”
“And why is that?!” Hermione finally snaps. Stops backing away and glares him down. Stands her ground. “Hmm? What do you think would have happened if she wasn’t obliviated? Why are you really angry, Draco, because from what I can see, Bellatrix saved me, she tried to talk to you, and she saved your mother from being investigated by the aurors for harbouring a wanted criminal! Or what do you think would be happening right now if your mother had her memories? Memories of her?”
Draco pauses. Breathing fast, and wand still held tightly, but face conflicted. Wary.
Hermione presses on. “Why do you hate your aunt, Draco? Do you hate her for protecting your Mother? Do you hate her for being a Death Eater? Or for not being one? Do you hate her for saving me, and teaching Harry, and helping Neville, and—”
“She took my mother from me!” Draco yells again, this time raw, and whiney, and childish, and—
He stomps his foot. “I knew about her!” comes bursting out of his mouth. “I knew she was there. She was always there. I saw her through the keyhole. Through the door. I saw her hiding under her cloak. I saw her with her rat, and her birds, and plants, talking to Dobby and— I remember her. I knew. I knew she wasn’t dead. I saw Mother sneak away to her. Make excuses. Pretend she had a headache, or was writing letters, or going out to buy new robes. And I kept her secret. I didn’t tell Father. I let them lie to him. I told him Mother spent the day with me rather than her. I kept whatever their secret was, and now— now—”
He runs out of steam. Realises what he’s revealed. Takes a step back. “She doesn’t care, you know,” he whispers harshly. “Not like normal people do. She doesn’t understand what caring is. What love is. It’s just…a game to her. She cares until she doesn’t. And then she moves on to something else. And if you don’t believe me? Ask her. Ask her how many rats she’s had. Do you really think she cares? That this is the first Ratty?”
Uhh…
Hermione glances at Harry and Ron, not quite…
“Rats don’t live very long,” she whispers back. “And…she does care. I think. She…Did she care about you? Talk to you? Is that it? Are you angry she left? That she didn’t warn you before—”
Draco raises his wand at her. “Where is she, Granger? Where’s she hiding this time? Is she here at the school? Is she hiding with you?”
Hermione raises her own wand. “No! No, she’s not—”
“Then where is she? Where did you and Potter go yesterday? You weren’t here all evening. You missed dinner. And from how defensive you’re being, I think you weren’t alone. So where—”
“We don’t know!” Harry says. “We can’t tell you! We don’t know where she went! But— are you saying she’s not safe? That she’ll turn on people?”
“Not safe?!” Draco squawks. “Of course she’s not safe! Just ask Longbottom! So if you know anything—”
“We can’t tell you!” Hermione grits out. “She’s gone somewhere that we can’t tell you. Somewhere far away. You’re safe. She told me that she wants to stay away from your mother. To keep her safe.”
“Well, she’d better,” Draco mutters. Looks over to where people are beginning to head to lunch, Pansy waiting for him, brow furrowed. “And if you know what’s good for you, you’ll stay away from her too. Not that I care if she hurts you anyway.”
And he walks off, crashing through some long grass and then up the slope, up towards the castle.
They watch him go.
Ron clears his throat. “So…Neville told Malfoy about the book, by the way.”
“Yeah, thanks Ron. Think we got that,” Harry says dryly.
Hermione doesn’t say anything. Doesn’t know what to say. Doesn’t know…
So Bellatrix doesn’t care? Doesn’t understand what caring is?
I was nice to Siri, and joked with him, and shared with him, and tried to help him…
How can I make him let me in?
Make him.
Is that what Bellatrix was talking about? Was she just…faking it? Following the steps? Like a code? Joke. Share. Help. Then people will forgive you and let you in.
But that…that is being nice. She’s just making amends. Just—
She was hiding this whole time. Even from Lucius. Biding her time. Planning something with Narcissa and…Dobby? Did Draco say she spoke to Dobby?
A warming spell washes over her. Harry.
“Come on,” he says gently. “Let’s get back inside for lunch. And don’t let Draco get to you. You know what he’s like. You can’t take what he says literally, I mean, he’s so dramatic. Remember what he said about Buckbeak?”
Right. Yes. Of course. Buckbeak was innocent, and Malfoy…
Hermione turns as they climb the hill. Turns to search out the mountain. The cave.
Looks for a hippogriff. A hippogriff that was left behind.
Left to be free.
Draco doesn’t speak to them again that week, but his words linger. Harry sends a letter to Sirius, asking if he’s okay. If he’s safe. If he’s feeling better.
No reply.
And no message from Bellatrix either. No owls. No crows. The manhunt is still underway, aurors stationed at the school gate or patrolling the grounds, protection charms in place, interviews in the Prophet every day with Fudge or Crouch or other high ranking officials in the DMLE. It’s clear that all eyes are on Harry and Hermione. Professors watching closely. Pityingly. Warily.
On Thursday, after the announcement of the Yule Ball in transfiguration class, McGonagall asks her to hang back. To come to her office.
They walk up there in uncomfortable silence. Hermione is so unsure recently about what she’s doing that she can’t bring herself to speak up, and McGonagall doesn’t try to talk to her.
Until they’re inside. Then McGonagall hovers the chairs from her desk over to the fire. Summons a tea tray. Sits down and gives her a firm look. “Have a seat, Miss Granger. And a biscuit. You’re looking rather peaky.”
Oh. It’s that noticeable? She’s been having trouble sleeping. Keeps dreaming about…the future.
She dutifully takes a bite of shortbread. Accepts the steaming cup of tea.
McGonagall nods approvingly. “Now. Is there anything you’d like to talk to me about?”
Hermione forces a smile. Shakes her head. “I’m fine, Professor. I think it’s just the cold weather. I’m just a bit worn out. I’ll be fine once we break up for Christmas. It’s been...a long term.”
McGonagall sighs. Sips at her own tea. “It certainly has. Especially for you. You’re giving Mr Potter a run for his money. And giving me grey hairs,” she says, a twitch to her lip.
Hermione laughs. “I am sorry, Professor. I didn’t mean to.”
She just gets a hum in reply. They sip at their tea.
Hermione stares into the flames. Enjoys the peace. The warm silence. McGonagall is still very intimidating…but also a relief to be around. Someone she can trust completely. Who never changes. Always has their interest and wellbeing at heart.
Should she ask…?
No. What did Snape say? She’s too quick to tell people things. It’s time travel. She can’t. Even McGonagall told her the rules of time travel. That she shouldn’t change anything. Let alone everything that’s already different. She could give the witch a heart attack!
Hermione puts down her cup. Asks another question instead. “Umm…I was actually wondering, Professor. About the partners for the Yule Ball—”
McGonagall sighs heavily. “I’m afraid it is mandatory. Champions must open the Ball with a dance. It’s tradition. I can find you a book on dancing etiquette if you are not familiar with—”
“Do I have to go with a wizard?” Hermione blurts out. Makes herself say. Feels her heart quicken and her face flush, but ignores it. “Can I— you said the wizards should ask witches but— but what if— can I ask a witch?”
Oh gods she thinks she might die of embarrassment.
It’s fine. It’s fine! You’re gay. There’s nothing wrong with that. It’s just possible that same-sex couples aren’t allowed because of the dancing rules. Ballroom is usually male-female.
“I…assume you have a witch in mind?” McGonagall asks slowly. Carefully. “And if I am correct in guessing which one…that is quite the statement, Miss Granger. Witch or otherwise.”
Oh.
Fleur? Because Fleur’s a champion?
And McGonagall noticed Fleur flirting? Well that is just mortifying. What have they been talking about in the staff room? Are people always watching her and—
“Not— it doesn’t have to be her,” Hermione splutters. “I just— going with a wizard would be lying. Hiding. I don’t want to…lie.”
She looks up. McGonagall is smiling at her softly. “And that is…very courageous of you. Five points to Gryffindor.”
Hermione lets out a breath. “But stupid. Is that what you’re saying?”
Now McGonagall laughs. “I would certainly never call you stupid. But I do wonder what this will say to Mr Krum and Durmstrang. Two of three champions attending the Ball together? It does seem like an alliance.”
Hermione grins. “Well I could always ask Viktor too. Rita Skeeter would be happy. Not so sure about the parents though. Or Crouch. Or how we’d dance.”
“Partner,” McGonagall glares. “One partner, Miss Granger. Or you will succeed in sending me to an early grave.”
Then she stands. “It is up to you who you ask to attend. There is certainly nothing in the rules prohibiting it. I myself would not see a problem in you inviting Mademoiselle Delacour. Or any other witch. For the rest of the school…I cannot say. It is for you to decide.”
Right. Okay.
Hermione stands too and heads for the door. “Thank you, Professor. I’ll keep it in mind. And thank you for the tea and…for…well…”
McGonagall just raises an eyebrow.
Then transforms into a cat. Seemingly for no reason. Walks out of the door ahead of her, and off down a corridor.
Hermione…sometimes forgets she’s an animagus. Can just…decide to do that.
Can Hermione still feel her magic? McGonagall.
Yes. Still there. Stronger, even.
Well. She’d better leave. She has a free period now, but she can’t exactly hang around in McGonagall’s—
A cracking sound interrupts her thoughts, making her jump.
Oh.
“Kreacher?” she says cautiously, blinking confusedly at the grumpy elf hunched before her.
Kreacher glares up at her. “Mudblood filth,” he mutters. “What would Mistress say? Bringing shame to the Noble House of Black. Bloodtraitors and—”
Hermione sighs. “Well? Why are you here then?”
Kreacher stops. Literally bites his tongue, and then clicks his fingers. A scroll of parchment appears. “From…Mistress Bellatrix.”
Oh. Not from Sirius. Right.
She cautiously takes it. He clings on. “Kreacher— will you— please give it—”
She yanks it free. “Thank you. Now…”
Gosh. It’s very long. What is she…
Dear Granger,
Sorry in advance for Kreacher, he’s not quite right in the head. I’ve tried talking him around, but he’s not having it. Still, he’ll do as I say and shouldn’t bother you. (If he does, tell me. Or tell him that I know where he keeps his treasures).
Anyway, bit off track. Guess what? I’m in! Wagtail caved. Or actually the ceiling caved in. He set off a load of wards and nearly got us blown up. We reckon we’ve sorted it now though. Mostly. The doxies are a pain in the arse. Sometimes literally, I’ve got even more potions to brew against the bites. You’d think I’d be done brewing after all that polyjuice…
What I really wanted to say, was thanks for the advice. And that Wagtail is doing better…physically. Mentally, I’m not so sure. Which is a bit fucking worrying with our family history (Can I joke about that? Is it too soon? I’m going to joke about it anyway, seeing as you seem to like me even though you know I went around the twist). Anyway, he could do with some cheering up. Light in the dark and all that shit Dumbledore goes on about. He needs a friend. Someone he trusts. Potter was right about Moony…but I might be in a bit of trouble if he shows up.
So, again. I don’t know. Just wanted to talk to someone.
The next task is in March, isn’t it? Have you figured out your egg? (Or did you already know the answer? From the future you won’t tell me about?) Either way, I recognised what mine was. Haven’t had the chance to stick it in the water yet though. All the baths here are rusting away or full of sludge and who knows what else. I’d probably come out Blacker than when I got in. (I might force Wagtail in one soon though. Wet dog is better than what he has going on).
Salazar, I’m writing a long-arse essay. But it serves you right. Your essays are always longer than the limit. And too wordy. I’ve seen more than one professor fall asleep on your essay, sorry, Granger. So if you fall asleep finishing this, then I’ll call it a success.
I think I just miss talking to someone. Someone who listens. That’s why I like talking to you.
I’m sure you’ll tell Potter all of this, but I’ll send some love from Wagtail too. I talk about Potter as much as I can. As much as he lets me. It’s good to remind him about Potter.
I thinkNo. I won’t tell you yet. I have to be sure first. But it should work. It’s risky, but out of my options…
Sorry. I know that will drive you mad. I’ll stop now. How do you end a letter?
Faithfully yours,
Bellatrix Black
P.S. You might want to destroy this. Probably sensible.
P.P.S. Kreacher should go and get some of my stuff now, so if Lovegood is wondering where it went, that’s what happened. Although she likely already knows somehow. Little genius. Weird that, isn’t it? How does she do it?
P.P.P.S. It’s probably better if you don’t write back, as an owl might not make it through the wards. They’re still a bit strong. You could reply by house-elf if you have/know one. A reliable one. Don’t ask Dobby, he could blab to anyone. Another one who’s missing a few gobstones.
P.P.P.P.S. …I’m looking forward to seeing the photos from the Yule Ball in the Prophet. Shame I can’t be there in person. I have just the dress.
I’ll have to show you later. Or you can just picture me in whatever springs to mind. I’m curious, is it black? Slytherin green? Gryffindor red?There go my boundaries again. Tell me to stop.
Or don’t.
Uhh…
Fuck.
Well…if she had any doubts that Bellatrix was flirting, then they’ve gone straight out the window. And where have her cryptic half-sentences disappeared to? That was…
Chatty. Flirty and friendly and chatty. Like she is in person. More than she is in person.
Hermione rolls the note up. Remembers where she is.
Kreacher is gone. So…
She puts the scroll in her pocket, and just…absentmindedly walks out of the room and down the corridor. Feet carrying her along.
So…that’s good news, right? She does care. About Hermione, and Harry, and Sirius, and even the owls that might get killed by the wards.
Acknowledged that she went crazy. Went ‘around the twist’. Which— She knew? Is she talking about a different version of herself? Or did she…go crazy too? Did she torture the Longbottoms? But— why— this is all so—
A dress…
Hermione is going to need a dress. There’s only two weeks until the Ball, and— well—
She could wear the one from last time. But she’s not sure she wants the memories that go with it. She wants a fresh start. A new look. A new…
Argh, does she want to look good for Bellatrix now? Just because she mentioned it? That is so misogynistic, and objectifying herself and—
Bellatrix not in black? In…red, or green?
Fuck. Shit. She’s imagining it. And even in black—ah!
Her arms windmill as she falls backwards, smacking into a hard chest and—
A hand shoots out and grabs her, unbelievably fast. “Hermowninny! Are you okay?”
She blinks. Takes a breath. Hanging there for a second before she rights herself. “Yes. Viktor. Hi. Yes. Wasn’t looking, or thinking, or…how are you?”
He smiles at her awkwardly. “I…am good. Very good. And is good I see you. Can we talk?”
He gestures to an empty classroom. Where even are they?
Oh no. Is he…nervous? Happy but nervous? Oh no. Not the Ball. Please don’t—
She goes into the room. Can’t think of an excuse. They sit at a table.
He clears his throat. “So…I think you are very interesting witch, and very good friend. I am glad you are champion. Even if you are young, you are good. Clever. Strong.”
No no no no
He frowns. Searches for a word. Then shakes his head. “I try to say more. But all I can say is…will you go to the Ball with me?”
Shit.
Hermione swallows. She could do this again. McGonagall is right, it won’t be easy if she goes with a witch. Even if it’s not Fleur, there’ll be some judgement. She doesn’t think there were any same-sex couples last time. Not even Seamus and Dean went together.
Oh.
Nobody. Which means…there must have been some people in the closet.
So…
She grits her teeth. Right. Be brave. Be an example. You’re a champion, you fought in a war, you can do this.
She smiles sadly at Viktor…and shakes her head. “Viktor…you’re a very good friend. And a very good champion. I’m glad I’m competing with you too. But…well, you see, I don’t like wizards. I’m going to go to the Ball…with a witch. If I can. If a witch wants to go with me. I’m sorry, but we can only be friends.”
He stares at her. Slowly nods back. “O…oh. I…understand.”
Then he frowns again. “Even as friends? We go as friends? I not…want more. I not ask for kiss. Just dance and talk.”
Hermione sighs in relief. Shakes her head again. “Really? You don’t want to go with a witch that likes you? You have…dozens of witches following you around. You don’t like any of them?”
He groans through a smile. Embarrassedly. “Only annoying ones talk to me! They follow, they laugh, they don’t talk. But…I understand. You go with witch. Is good.”
And he gets up. Walks towards the door. Then pauses. “It is Fleur? She is witch?”
He knows too? Oh for…
She sighs . Gives up. Shrugs tiredly. “I don’t know. Maybe.”
Is Fleur too young? Too…interested? She just wants to try it. One date. With one witch. With no pressure, or expectations. Nothing serious.
Is Fleur too serious? Not serious-serious, but…
Will Hermione break her heart?
But who else could she ask? She doesn’t know anyone other than Ginny and Luna, and they’re just too young—
Gah! But everyone thinks she’s fifteen! If she asks anyone—
Fleur. Ask Fleur. Just explain to her that you’re new to this gay thing and that anything serious will freak you out! Just tell her the truth!
Not the whole truth. You can’t. But be as truthful as you can.
Viktor stops. They’ve reached the library. Apparently that’s where they were going.
He smiles at her. Points to a far corner, and then squeezes her shoulder. “Good luck, my friend.”
Hermione follows his…Fleur. Sat alone, writing.
Now?! No! She can’t—
She frantically shakes her head at Viktor.
He just walks away. To a different table. Where Harry and Ron are sat.
They’re here too? Since when does everyone spend their time in the library?
Since it’s blowing a gale outside, and they have essays due next week before the end of term.
Short essays. She needs to shorten her essays. Unless Bellatrix was joking and—
Is that Roger Davies walking over to Fleur?
Hermione quickly makes her way over. Only just beats Davies, who stops nearby, looking at a bookshelf.
Pretending to look at a bookshelf. Unless he’s especially interested in the history of quillmaking.
Fleur looks up at her. Smiles. “Hermione! This is a pleasant surprise. I did not see you in here all of yesterday evening. Or at dinner. I heard that some of your friends were sick from swimming with Viktor, did you…swim too?”
She raises an eyebrow. Doesn’t seem especially worried. Taps her quill on the parchment.
Oh.
Merfolk. She’s researching merfolk. Golden eggs.
Hermione smiles. “In this weather? Of course I didn’t swim. I’m sensible. I’ll…wait until the weather warms up to take a dip in the lake.”
Fleur’s eyes glint. She leans forward on her arms. “Here?” she whispers. “This lake? It is this lake?”
She doesn’t know where the task will be? Madame Maxime hasn’t told her?
Hermione bites her lip, pretending to consider it. “I thought we were rivals? In fact, maybe I shouldn’t be speaking with you. If Madame Maxime—”
Fleur reaches forward and takes her hand. “I am tired of Madame Maxime. She is my headmistress, not my mother. And even my mother cannot tell me what to do. Who I want to spend my time with. A competition? Yes. A fair competition? Well…I hope so. A good competition.”
She squeezes Hermione’s hand and then lets go. Shrugs casually. “I intend to beat you, you know. And Viktor. You will see. I will be the champion.”
Hermione gasps loudly in complete— “You seem very sure of yourself! After asking me for—”
She hastily breaks off, Madam Pince shushing her from across the room, and lots of people looking.
Fleur starts writing again. Chuckles. “I did not ask you. I…found the information. From you.”
Hmmph.
Fleur glances up at her.
Then puts her quill down with a sigh. “Do not be angry with me, Cherie. I hate to see you frown. So. Perhaps I will make you smile instead, yes?”
Umm…how?
Fleur leans forward again. Leans to whisper in her ear. “Will you go to the Ball with me, ma belle?”
Oh.
Belle. Beautiful? Oh no. That sounds serious. That sounds—
Fleur pulls back to look at her. Frowns.
Then rolls her eyes and gets to her feet. “Come. Walk with me. Somewhere we can talk.”
Hermione gets to her feet, hurrying after her as she leaves. Talk? Oh no, they need to talk. Is she cross? Is she upset? Should Hermione have said something by now? She could say yes. Why didn’t she—
And she’s pushed through a door. Into a cupboard. Why—
Fleur shuts the door behind them. Locks it with a collaportus.
This is a broom cupboard. Hermione is standing with one foot in a bucket. In the dark.
Fleur leans against the wall opposite her, just about visible. Laughs quietly. “You are so quiet. It is alright. I am not about to devour you.”
Hermione swallows. Devour her? Did…Fleur mean to say that? Does she know it means— in the dark? In a cupboard? In—
“Do you trust me, Hermione? Am I your friend?” Fleur asks.
Hermione instantly nods. Then remembers she can’t see her. “Yes. Of course you’re my friend. I trust you.”
Fleur sighs. “Then…tell me. Your answer. And why. The truth, away from all the other people.”
Right. Okay. Yes. Time to explain.
Hermione shifts. Moves her foot out of the bucket. Steadies herself, and, well… “I would like to go with you,” Hermione says slowly. “I’ve never been to a dance with a witch before.”
“And I do like you,” she adds as quickly as possible. Gets it out. “I just— I don’t want this to ruin our friendship, because I’m not looking for— I’m not ready for a relationship. I only just realised that I like witches, I’ve never even kissed a witch, and relationships kind of scare me. I guess I must have commitment issues. But you’re my friend, so if anything happened— but I do want to experience this, and I do like you, and you’re so beautiful, I can’t believe you asked me to the Ball, I was going to ask you, and I’ve noticed you flirting but I don’t have a clue what I’m doing and—”
Fleur starts laughing, and a hand covers Hermione’s mouth in the dark. “So…you want to go to the Ball with me, and you think I am beautiful, and your friend, but you don’t want any commitment afterwards because it scares you? You just want this one night?” she says gently, warmth in her voice as the laughter fades.
Hermione slowly nods, mouth still held shut.
Fleur moves her hand away. “Then we are still friends. And it is a shame, but I don’t mind having you for only one night. It is alright. I like you, Hermione. But I don’t want you to worry. To be scared. Do not worry for my feelings. My passion is…always strong. Fast. Here today and gone tomorrow. That is why I joke with you. Flirt with you. To feel it before it is gone. I have lost count of the number of times in my life I have been in love.”
Hermione relaxes. And leans forward, intrigued, trying to catch Fleur’s eye. To see if she’s telling the truth. “Really? You’re not just saying that to make me feel better about…this one-time thing?”
A hand smacks hers lightly. “You are calling me a liar? After I ask you to a Ball and speak of love? Yes. It is the truth. In fact, I think I am in love with someone else already.”
Someone else? “Who? At the same time as me? You…love me too?”
Fleur laughs. Leans forward against her. Wraps an arm around her waist, and leans to rest her head against Hermione’s shoulder. Ear pressed to her, breath against Hermione’s neck. “I will not tell you who. Because you already sound jealous. I thought you did not want commitment?”
Hermione steadies her breathing. Feels her palms begin to sweat. She doesn’t know what to do with her arms. If she can touch. If she should touch, or—
She clears her throat. Touches Fleur’s back. “No commitment. I’m not jealous. I— and I like someone else too.”
Fleur freezes. Stands up straight again. “Please do not say Viktor.”
Wha— Viktor?!
“No!” Hermione says quickly. “I don’t like Viktor! That was all lies and— I’m gay! Do you like Viktor? Is that who you—”
“No! Not Viktor! This is lies, this is why I am surprised!” Fleur shouts back.
They fall into silence.
Hermione laughs. “Well then. Good. We’re going to the Ball together. Because…you love me.”
Love. Fleur said she was taking about love. Falls in love easily. Love. Should she really—
“And because you think I am beautiful,” Fleur replies easily. “And have never been to a dance with a witch. Which is a tragedy, ma belle. Why not? Why have you never asked a witch to dance? It is wonderful. What about this other witch you say you like, hmm? Where is she? Is it…the red-haired little girl?”
Ginny?!
“No,” Hermione groans. “She’s…a little girl! Like you said! Only thirteen, and my friend, and— no the— there isn’t really a witch I like. Just one that— that I’ve realised I…might be attracted to. I haven’t— I’m new to this, Fleur. I’m not like you. I can’t just…admit my feelings so freely. It’s scary!”
She hears Fleur moving around. Then feels an arm brush hers against the wall. A warm body at her side. “Sometimes I forget you are only fifteen,” Fleur murmurs.
Oh. Right. “Well…I used a time-turner for a year. So I’m actually sixteen,” Hermione mutters. Half-truth. Half blatant lie. Plus that logic makes her twenty-six. Even older than Fleur.
Fleur’s hand finds hers. “Alright. But this…is still new to you. I see. I see why you are frightened. I was frightened, when I realised…but I was only ten.”
Ten? Wow, Hermione really was slow on this whole sexual awakening thing.
The hand squeezes hers. “Witches are beautiful,” Fleur murmurs. “Or they can be handsome, too. Even when they are doing nothing. Have you seen a witch stand? Have you seen a witch write? Or gesture when she talks? Or pick up a drink? Incredible, aren’t they? Some witches? The ones our heart chooses.”
Hermione nods mutely.
Fleur’s fingers stroke over her wrist. She sighs. “Or the ones our body chooses. That is okay too. To feel it. There is no shame. The attraction you feel…it is telling you. That one. Get closer to her. She is special. There is something about her that you like. Move closer. Touch her. Feel it.”
Hermione shivers as fingers brush over her arm. Can feel it. Can feel—
“Witches are beautiful,” Hermione whispers back. “When they— when they smile. Or laugh. Or even when they’re angry. When they walk, or sit, or— You’re right. I don’t know how I never noticed. How did I not know? You knew when you were ten. I— gods, I must be so stupid.”
“You know why you are stupid?” Fleur asks. A very sly edge to her voice.
Hermione turns. Squints. Tries to figure out her expression. Can only see the shine to her hair. Maybe pinpoint her eyes. And a smile.
Fingers brush over her shoulders. “You are stupid,” Fleur continues. “Because we have been here for several minutes. And you have not tried to kiss me. Even though you want to, and I want to.”
Kiss? Now? “But— but we said— the Ball. One night,” Hermione stutters.
Fleur laughs again. Then groans. “You’re so sensible! So serious! Do you always follow the rules? I thought that you broke the rules. Like the tournament. You saw what you wanted, and you did it anyway. Do you not want me at all? Am I just practice? For this other witch? That you are too scared to ask?”
Gah, Hermione shouldn’t have mentioned Bellatrix. And— and it’s not about the rules. It’s just to keep things simple. “I just don’t want to complicate things, Fleur,” Hermione sighs. “Because I’m not just using you. It’s…been so nice competing with you. Talking to you this year. But my feelings aren’t as strong as yours. We’re not in the same place.”
She feels breath on her cheek. Feels Fleur lean closer. “And I told you that I always feel more. Perhaps it is the Veela. I don’t know. But I have…freedom with witches. The thrall does not affect you, so I know it is you that wants me. With wizards, I have to be careful. Have to be cold. Have to push them away. Except now I don’t, because you are clever, and you think of a shield for me. You have allowed me to feel. To love. Without fear. I just want the same for you.”
And just as Hermione remembers to breathe, Fleur has pulled back. Moves through the dark. Past the bucket and towards the door. “But if you are not ready, are not in this place, just want to dance, and eat, and talk, then I—”
“Wait,” Hermione whispers. Reaches out a hand in the darkness. Pulse beating in her ears but…
Feel. She wants to feel. Wants to let this...confusion leave. This fear leave. Wants to accept that—
Attraction. She’s attracted to witches. And she wants to—
She finds Fleur’s arm. Tugs her back over. Both of them laughing as the bucket clanks around on the floor between them, trying to kick it out of the way.
Fleur. Magic. Did she just vanish it? Why didn’t Hermione think of that?
Or a light. Does she want a light?
Different universe. Sexual exploration. No consequences.
Hermione should probably remind herself of the consequences. “Lumos,” she whispers.
And squints against the light. Lowers her wand as much as possible, and blinks her eyes open.
Fleur does the same, arm shielding her face and nose wrinkled.
Young Fleur. Eighteen-year-old Fleur. A Fleur who falls in love easily. Strongly. Hermione never knew that. Should have guessed, from how quickly she married Bill.
And is now wondering if maybe their marriage is more open than she realised, or if Fleur falls in love less as she gets older. Or maybe loves Bill more than anyone. Chose him over everyone. That’s what marriage is.
For the love of Merlin, stop thinking about marriage, and—
Hermione just does it. Steps forward. Leans in. Fleur is watching her now. Has lowered her arm. Is waiting, smiling softly.
She’s so pretty.
So yes. Screw it. Fleur wants this. She wants this.
She presses her lips to Fleur’s.
Then immediately pulls back. Because oh gods, what is she thinking, she’s kissing Fleur. She shouldn’t—
Fleur tuts. “That’s it? I thought you were a champion! Come! Face your fear. Get what you want. I can see that you want me. It is in your eyes. You think I don’t recognise—”
Hermione leans in again. Grabs the witch, and pulls her against her. Brings their lips together. Kisses her. Feels her. Because Hermione is brave. And she does want this. And she needs to get over whatever stupid, mental…fuck, this is what kissing a witch is like? Kissing someone she’s attracted to?
A shiver washes over her. She pulls Fleur closer, who melts into her. Hermione feels her back hit the wall as Fleur leans her whole body against her. Deepens the kiss. Hermione thinks every part of her might be buzzing and she definitely wants to— well she definitely—
Fleur breaks her lips away. “Now I am finally warm enough in this castle. So this is the solution,” she murmurs. Kisses Hermione again. And she does feel warm. Feel—
Castle. At Hogwarts. At school. Wearing a school uniform. That Fleur’s hands are edging under.
Hermione pulls back with a laughing gasp. “Fleur. Fleur, wait, we— we’re at school! It’s a Thursday! It’s the middle of the day!”
Fleur shrugs. Leans forward again. “We can skip lunch.”
Tempting. Very tempting. Too tempting— no! Be the sensible one, Hermione. Someone has to be.
She firmly pushes Fleur back. Lights her wand again. “We need to get back. People will wonder where we are, and it’s not— we can’t— I’m going back outside. Does my hair look okay?”
Fleur sighs. “Yes,” she grumbles. “I did not even touch your hair yet. But…you are right. It is not appropriate to stay in this…closet.”
Hermione snorts. “Did you say that on purpose?”
Fleur frowns at her. “Is it the wrong word? It is not a room, or a…wardrobe. Closet?”
Hermione shakes her head. “A cupboard. But— kind of a closet. You don’t know the…coming out? We’re going to come out.”
Fleur nods in recognition. “Ah. Le coming-out. That I understand.”
And she brushes her clothes down. Uncreases them. Does the same to Hermione, tugging her robes back into place. “There. I think…you are ready. Are you ready?”
Hermione just watches her for a second. Can’t believe she just…
Yes. Yes, what is she waiting for? What is she scared of?
Hermione smiles at her. Walks to the door, and rests her hand on the doorknob. “Ready when you are, ma belle,” she winks at Fleur. Winks. She’s never winked in her life!
But Bellatrix winks sometimes, and it feels…
She pushes the door open. Just a crack. Checks the coast is clear, everyone at lunch…
Comes out. With Fleur. Out into the—
A cat is sat watching them. From the end of the corridor. By the corner.
Not Mrs Norris.
But they’ve still been caught. McGonagall
A laugh bursts from Hermione’s mouth. She can’t help it. Oh no! Oh she really hopes—
The cat stands up. Stretches.
Shakes her head at them.
And walks off around the corner.
Fleur takes her hand. “What? It is only a cat. Come. Have lunch with me. And tell me what dress you are going to wear. If we are going together we cannot…what is the word…the colours need to agree in some way…”
Hermione shakes her head and lets herself be walked along. Hand in Fleur’s. Fights the fear. Enjoys it. Fleur. Fleur wants to hold her hand. Good Godric. The old Ron would have fainted at this. Although the shrieks she’ll get when Lavender and Parvati find out will be— and Ginny! She can’t wait to tell Ginny.
“I…don’t actually have a dress,” Hermione says. “Well, I do. But I’m not sure it’s the one I want. I’ll show you later.”
…I have just the dress. I’ll have to show you later. Or you can just picture me in whatever springs to mind…
Her palms begin to sweat. She pulls her hand from Fleur’s. Smiles apologetically.
Fleur smiles back. “I’m sure I can help you find the perfect dress. Something to make you feel confident. You should be confident. That is why I like you, you know. You are brave. You have fear…but you face it anyway. You do not let it stop you. Or let it show, most of the time. When you are not trapped in the closet.”
Hermione laughs. Notices the glint to Fleur’s eyes. “You do know you’re saying it! You must know what you’re saying. Don’t play dumb with me, Fleur. You’re not dumb. You’re very clever.”
Fleur grins. Shrugs. “You reminded me of the phrase. So yes. Shall we go and make everyone’s mouths fall open? Even the girls? Even the grumpy and strange professors? Shall I kiss you in front of the whole school?”
Hermione laughs again. Takes her hand again. “For now, let’s just sit together. This is a school. No kissing at the table.”
Fleur scoffs. “I am French. We always kiss at the table.” And she kisses Hermione’s cheek to demonstrate.
A nearby hufflepuff boy walks into a pillar.
Fleur sighs. “Fichu bouclier,” she curses to herself, before waving her wand to form the Veela shield. Ah. The corridors are getting more crowded. Boys staring.
Hermione hesitates…
Then puts an arm around Fleur. Around her waist. Shields her. Holds her. Stop staring. Will they just stop it? Can’t they fight it? It isn’t that hard, snap out of it!
Fleur laughs quietly in her ear. “As I thought. Jealous…”
Notes:
So.... Hermione did kiss a witch!
(Not quite the right one. She's getting there. Pitchforks down please haha)
Chapter 21: Attend the Ball
Chapter Text
As expected, the school is abuzz with gossip over the next few days. Hermione thinks all eyes might actually be on her at all times now. Even Harry and Ron give her the odd look occasionally, as if they can’t believe what she’s doing.
Not that she’s doing anything in particular. Other than…beginning to flirt with Fleur. Trying it. Much to Ginny’s glee. And maybe slight envy. But definitely a lot of grinning and eyebrow wiggling.
Not everyone is as pleased as Ginny though. Madame Maxime is furious, which is slightly terrifying if she happens to walk past, towering over them. Snape is…she doesn’t know what he is, but every look he sends her seems to scream ‘idiot’. And of course there are some rather nasty comments from the Slytherins, as well as some less accepting students in other Houses.
Lavender and Parvati are definitely more self-conscious getting undressed around her, for one, which is…just stupid. She’s the same person, and they seemed to want her to have a ‘romance’ with Fleur before!
“I know, ma belle, but people can be strange about these things,” Fleur sighs, holding a dress up against herself. “Just ignore them. And tell me I am beautiful.”
Hermione rolls her eyes, leaning back on her hands on Fleur’s bed. Madame Maxime would murder them if she knew Hermione was in here, but she’s off with Hagrid down the Three Broomsticks. Hypocritically.
“You’re beautiful,” Hermione says. “You know you’re beautiful. You’re always beautiful.”
Fleur turns. Smiles at her. “Then tell me you think I am beautiful. Like this. Hermione, I cannot choose a dress for you for the Ball, because I think you will look beautiful in all of them.”
Hermione smiles bashfully. Looks away. It’s so direct.
But… “Really?” she asks instead, biting her lip. “You don’t know…if maybe you want to look at my legs, or my arms…or find a dress that hugs my figure?”
Fleur laughs in an almost gasp and walks over, throwing the dress on a nearby chair. “You’re learning! You finally see that you are beautiful!”
And she sits on the bed, leaning to kiss Hermione’s cheek.
Hermione turns her head. Expecting it. Catches her by surprise. A peck on the lips, before she breaks away with a smile. Stands up and walks over to Fleur’s wardrobe. “I don’t think I can wear your dresses anyway,” Hermione comments, looking through them. “You’re taller than me.”
“It is just to get an idea. Colours, style. But as I said, you will look beautiful in anything. Perhaps we should forget dresses.”
Hermione laughs, turning around. “What, not wear anything to the Ball? I think McGonagall really would have a problem with that. And Madame Maxime.”
Fleur smiles widely at her. Raises an eyebrow. Pulls her robes up to expose her legs. Slowly higher, and higher—
And there’s a knock at the door.
Hermione freezes.
And Fleur runs towards her. Pushes her into the wardrobe, shutting the door. “C’est qui?”
Seriously? In the closet? Again?
“It’s Ginny! Is Hermione with you? Camille said—”
Oh, thank Merlin.
Hermione stumbles out into the room, rubbing her neck where a hanger had stabbed her.
And Fleur lets Ginny in.
A red-eyed, pale Ginny.
Hermione quickly goes over and takes her hands, pulling her towards the bed to sit down. “What is it? What’s wrong? What happened?”
Ginny shakes her head. Smiles weakly and shrugs. “Oh…Nothing. It’s nothing. Just…”
Her voice breaks. Chin wobbling. She shrugs again. “Harry asked Luna to the Ball. She said yes. So now…I guess I— well—”
Oh. Oh Ginny.
Hermione pulls her into her arms. Feels her slump in relief. “Oh, Ginny, I’m so sorry. If I’d known...”
They just hug in silence for a bit.
Then Ginny pulls back. Wipes at her eyes and smiles thankfully when Fleur passes her a box of tissues. “It’s fine. It’s not— stupid crush. It just sucks that it’s both of them and—” She breaks off, laughing. “Just my luck. I should have had the guts to ask Harry if I could go with him, or— or told him…anyway. Too late.”
Hermione wraps an arm around her waist. Squeezes her sympathetically. “You…well there’s always Dean? If you didn’t kill him?” she jokes.
Ginny laughs again wetly. “He’s going with Seamus. Thanks to you two and your…big gay statement. Which is great, by the way. Wish I was as brave as you.”
“Hey,” Hermione says firmly. Gives her a stern look. “You’re brave. You’re so brave. Way braver than me. Always have been. You don’t let anything hold you back. You’re always standing up to your brothers. And…you fooled Bellatrix! You hoodwinked You Know Who’s Right-Hand. Using muggle tricks! That’s brave! And a stroke of genius.”
“What?” Fleur asks confusedly.
Oh. Oops. Oh she forgot that— gah, again? Can she never keep her mouth shut? She’s just so used to being open with Fleur, not keeping secrets. Actively fighting against her need to hold things back.
Hermione sighs in defeat. Shares a look with Ginny, and then turns to Fleur. “Ginny put Bellatrix’s name in the Goblet. As a trap. That’s how she ended up in the tournament. It’s…a long story.”
Fleur’s eyebrows raise up her forehead. “It…sounds like it. I think you should tell me about this Bellatrix Black. Who she is. What she is doing. Because I am…not sure I understand the ‘fourth champion’.”
Ginny snorts. “Welcome to the club. None of us know what’s going on with her either. But Hermione probably knows her best. They have this weird thing going on.”
What— weird— Ginny!
Hermione gets up. Goes over to the wardrobe to look at dresses. “There isn’t a thing. It’s not a thing. It’s just— I’m trying to figure out who she is. Like you say. And if she happens to speak to me sometimes, then— then I can’t help that!”
“But isn’t she dangerous? A terrorist? The dementors are searching. Her and her…brother? Cousin? Sirius Black. They are criminals. Why are you talking to her?” Fleur asks. Her voice closer now, and sounding concerned. Moving towards the windows. The door. Checking.
Hermione shakes her head. “Sirius isn’t dangerous. He was framed. Wrongly imprisoned. He’s Harry’s godfather, and even Dumbledore knows he’s innocent. There just isn’t proof, so the Ministry doesn’t believe us.”
“And Bellatrix?” Fleur tuts. “Hmm?”
Hermione runs her fingers over an olive-green dress. Pulls it out to look at it. Hold it against herself. “No,” Hermione says softly. “I…don’t think Bellatrix is dangerous either. Or at least…not a threat. That’s why everyone is so confused by her right now. She hasn’t hurt anyone. And…well I did speak to her. A few times. She doesn’t seem to follow You Know Who anymore. She treats me like an equal. A friend.”
It’s very strange. But it’s true. Bellatrix wrote her a letter. Just to talk. Friends. Hermione should really find a way to write back soon…
And Fleur suddenly gasps “Non. No, Hermione, s’il te plaît. Tell me she is not the witch you like.”
Hermione fumbles the dress. Almost drops it. Hastily puts it back, next to a…black dress? She can’t wear black, can she?
She’s grabbed from behind. Turned around by the shoulders, wide eyes staring into hers. “You are not answering me. Hermione— the Death Eater?! The imposter? The one the whole country is searching for, the— there are aurors patrolling— she killed people!”
Hermione pulls herself free. “I know that! Of course I— I’m not stupid, Fleur. But she isn’t—”
Fleur laughs. Darkly. Disbelievingly. Throws her hands in the air. “And I thought I was bad with the…attraction to danger! Putain.” She begins pacing. Angrily. Wand waving everywhere. “Oh you are— this is— merde, Hermione! Merlin, why—”
Ginny pulls Fleur back and pushes her onto the bed. “Okay, sit down before you faint or…hex us or something. Wand away, Delacour.”
“Wand away?! There is a criminal—”
Ginny grabs her wrist. Glares at her. “Do you trust Hermione? Is she your friend?”
“Yes,” Fleur grits out. Turns to narrow her eyes at Hermione. “Unfortunately, I love her. Even if she is very very stupid.”
Ginny drops her wrist. “Love? Shit. I didn’t know— I thought— Hermione, this isn’t fair. You need to tell her the truth. Right now. She loves you.”
The truth? The whole truth? She can’t. For one thing, Snape will kill her. And— but—
She walks over to Fleur. Sits down next to her. The anger is still there. But confusion seems to be the main emotion now.
Hermione sighs. “Alright. I do owe you an explanation. But it’s not what you think. I’m not…going after the danger, or the thrill, it’s not…I like her because she isn’t dangerous. She’s not—”
She swallows nods. Nods at Ginny too. “We think that this Bellatrix, the one we’ve met…is from another reality. Another universe. A different time. And…and I know that sounds crazy, but— but it—”
She takes a sharp breath. Here it goes. The truth. Because Fleur deserves it. “Fleur…I’m from the future. From a different future. That’s why I look older. I’m older.”
And there’s a horrible, horrible silence.
Fleur scoffs. Smiles. Looks at Ginny. Waiting for the punchline.
Ginny nods too. Very uncomfortably.
Fleur’s smile falls. She looks back at Hermione.
Then gets off the bed. “Non. Non, this is a joke. There is…time travel is not possible. C’est pas possible.”
Hermione shakes her head sadly, heart clenching, and the guilt rising up inside her. Filling her stomach. “It is. It’s possible. It’s true. I don’t know how it happened, but I’ve travelled to the past. A different past. I wasn’t in the tournament before. Bellatrix wasn’t here before. I never really spoke to you before. Not in my fourth year.”
Fleur edges towards the door. Raises her wand at Hermione. “You know me? From before? So you— How old are you? When are you from? Why are you here? Why are you in the tournament?”
She— how much can she say? There’s so much about the future she can’t tell Fleur. Shouldn’t tell her. About the War, and Harry, and Voldemort, and— and...
“How are you here?” “Are you— how old are you? How did you escape Azkaban? What have you been doing for the last ten years? Why did you put Harry’s name in the goblet? What are you trying to do? Why are you scared of—”
“If I kiss you, will you stop asking questions?”
Is that why Bellatrix did that? How much is she hiding? Because this is feeling very familiar.
Hermione lowers her hands placatingly. “Fleur, I’m sorry I lied. But you are my friend. I do care about you. I’ve…you’ve been my friend for years,” she says softly.
Fleur’s wand rises. “How. Old. Why are you here? What are you— who are you?”
No. Oh no this is so bad. She knew she shouldn’t have— why did she—
Hermione shakes her head. “I— I’m— I’m twenty-five. I came back from— from 2004. And I— I’m in the tournament to save Harry. I’m doing everything to protect my friends. And I know I shouldn’t have— I like you. But I didn’t mean to—”
Fleur steps to the side. Lowers her wand. “Get out, Hermione. Both of you. Get out of here and— and leave me to— barrez vous! Out!”
But—
Ginny pulls her towards the door. “Come on, Hermione. I think we’ll get more than a bat-bogey hex if…” She pauses them in the doorway. Looks at Fleur. “She really does care about you. About all of us. So please…”
“You knew?” Fleur whispers. “You all knew? The little girl knew, that you— from the future? The future. You already knew me. Tricked me. You…I trusted you.”
And tears begin to fall. And that is so much worse than the anger. So much—
Hermione reaches for her. Tries to—
Fleur smacks her hands away. “Don’t touch me. Don’t you dare— go away. Sors d’ici. Now. Before I decide to tell everyone who you are, and that you are friends with the Death Eater.”
Shit. Hermione sharply pulls back. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I— we’ll go. But just— please talk to me. We need to talk about this. It isn’t— I just—”
Tears fill her own eyes, and she backs away, unable to face the look of…betrayal on Fleur’s face. She can’t—
She stumbles out of the door. Out of the carriage and into the snowy grounds. Backs away towards the horses, the pegasi, drinking hot malt whisky from their trough. The smell fills her senses. Makes her dizzy. Light-headed. Alcohol and—
What if Fleur does tell? What if— it’s only a few days until the Ball. And then the tournament will continue. What if Fleur tells Madame Maxime? What if the aurors come back to question her? What if they already—
Someone bumps into her. Red robes. Grabs her. The aurors.
She steadies herself on the snow. Finds her wand and—
“Whoa, wotcha, Hermione. You alright?”
Tonks?
Hermione wipes at her eyes. Looks up.
An unknown witch. With blue hair. In red robes. Smiling softly. Concerned. Confused.
Still alive. Tonks. Tonks.
And Hermione starts sobbing. Hugs her. Feels her breathe. Tonks. Tonks. Why— why did she have to die?
Tonks hugs her back, clearing her throat. “Uhh…it’s alright? You…hey, Ginny? Maybe you should…well, I don’t know if hugging is really allowed when I’m on duty, or…not that I’ve seen a written rule on it or nothing,” she laughs to herself.
Pulls back. Pats Hermione’s shoulder and leads her towards Ginny.
Hermione just keeps staring at Tonks. Not her face. It isn’t her face. But her expression. Those eyes. The life in them…
Ginny leads her away. Inside. She’s not sure where. Through the corridors. Everyone staring.
So many stares. So many questions. So much to decide. She can’t just relax and be herself. She isn’t herself. No-one knows her. No-one…
She wants to write to Bellatrix.
And she knows it’s stupid…but she’s the only one who might understand this.
But she can’t! She can’t send an owl. Can’t trust Kreacher to deliver a letter. She’s not his Mistress. He’s not reliable.
Neither is Dobby. Bellatrix is right. He can’t keep a secret. Hermione should have kept all of this a secret. Should have kept her mouth shut. And her lips. And her— how could she do that to Fleur. She knew it. Knew this was wrong. That she was going to hurt her. Break her heart. Betray her. Again. She’s done it again. Hurt someone who loves her when they shouldn’t have.
They’ve reached the Common Room. Harry and Ron are sat by the fire, but getting up. Coming towards her. Questions written on their faces. Mouths opening.
She shakes her head. Shrugs away from Ginny, and heads up the stairs. To her dorm. Locks herself in.
Climbs into bed and closes the curtains. Just lies there. Reminds herself how stupid she’s being. That she’s surrounded by children and should— shouldn’t have made such a mess of this! Snape is right. She’s an idiot. She’s so…
She needs to get out of here. She shouldn’t be here. Doesn’t belong here. She must have been sent here by mistake. This is all a mistake. A huge mistake.
She still goes to the Ball with Fleur. They haven’t really spoken, but for one, it’s too late to find someone else, and for another, they are kind of role models for the rest of the school now. Neither of them want any animosity to spread. Not because of them.
So now they’re stood waiting to go in. Side by side. Still not talking to each other.
Hermione is wearing the periwinkle blue dress she wore last time, just magically altered to fit her. She didn’t have the energy to find a different one. And it…goes with Fleur’s own silvery-grey dress. No clashing colours. No clashing words. Just…silence.
Hermione turns to look over her shoulder. Forces a smile for Ginny. Ginny, who asked Viktor to the Ball when she found out he still didn’t have a date. As friends, of course. And of course he’d said yes. They haven’t stopped talking about quidditch for two days straight.
It’s…strange that Harry isn’t here. And that…well, three champions. Two going together. It’s going to be a very empty dance floor.
Fleur sighs. Takes her hand. “You…know how to dance?”
Hermione lets out a quiet, disbelieving breath. “Yes." She chances a glance at Fleur. "I’m not brilliant, but I’ve been to a few events. Do…can you lead? I’ve never lead before.”
Fleur nods. Expression hard to decipher. Blank. “Yes. I’ll lead. You just follow.”
Hermione nods sadly. Looks down at her feet. Their feet.
Fleur’s fingers stroke her wrist. “I…do not mind that you are older,” she whispers. “I just wish you had told me. But…I want you to explain, after this. Just tell me if— Have we dated before? In this future? I must have loved you, if I knew you.”
Oh.
Hermione looks up. Meets her gaze. “No,” she whispers back. “No, you didn’t love me. Or you didn’t tell me if you did. As I said, we didn’t know each other very well at first. Harry was in the tournament. And…I knew you later, from a family friend. You…married someone I know.”
A curiosity fills Fleur’s expression. “Marriage? Oh. Who do I— wait. Don’t tell me. I don’t want to— You know who I marry?”
Hermione hastily shakes her head. “Different future. This is all…different. Different world.”
Fleur looks away. Toward the doors. “Like this Bellatrix,” she murmurs. “She is different.”
Hermione squeezes her hand. “The Bellatrix in my past…was horrible. I’d never talk to her. Like her. I…don’t know who she is. I don’t know why she’s here, and I don’t know why I’m here. I have no idea why any of this is happening, Fleur. I’m lost. But I know you. You’re my friend. And so are Ginny, and Harry, and Ron. I guess I…just wanted my friends. But it isn’t fair. Because you’re younger. So I— I shouldn’t have kissed you. I’m sorry.”
She hears Fleur tut. Feels a kiss press to her cheek. “You are too serious. And…I have forgiven you. But I want to know more. You need a friend? An adult? I am an adult. Not these little children.”
Hermione chuckles. Leans against Fleur. “You’re young to me. I’m used to you being older. Telling me what to do.”
Fleur scoffs. “I still tell you what to do. And I think I am more intelligent than this ‘other Fleur’ if she did not even love you. She must have. But if she is married…married, mon dieu. How many years? Ten. Twenty-eight years old. Hmm. And my wedding, what was—”
And McGonagall opens the doors, leading them into the Great Hall. A winter wonderland, walls sparkling with silvery frost, ivy and garlands and mistletoe hung over the surrounding tables along the edges, and a large round table at the back where Dumbledore and the rest of the judges are sat. Applause fills the air.
And they make their way to the top table. Dinner first. Then dancing. Which means small talk.
Hermione takes a seat next to Fleur, forever grateful that Ginny and Viktor sit down on her other side so that Madame Maxime is very far away. Unfortunately though they do have Mr Crouch sat opposite them. Glaring at them.
Hermione cautiously serves Fleur some food, eyes questioning. She doesn’t know if being nice is nice or if she’ll come off as even more a…dick. Sucking up.
Fleur just nods to the salad and shakes her head at the fish. Right.
And then pours Hermione and herself a drink. “Are you having a nice evening, Mr Crouch?” Fleur asks. “I wasn’t sure if you would be busy with your work at the Ministry.”
Crouch’s eyes snap to Fleur.
And narrow. “Interested, are you? In the work going on in the Auror Office?” And he glances at Hermione.
Hermione holds back a smile. Sips at her drink. “Well, you are quite busy at the moment, I’d imagine. Any luck with the…search?”
And now his eye appears to be twitching. And the fork almost bending in his grip. “Why you little—” he snarls. “If you know anything—”
And then his eyes glaze over. The fork slips from his grip. His mouth falls open, eyes dragged from Hermione back to Fleur.
Fleur turns to Hermione with a cheeky smile. “Ah well, it does not seem like Mr Crouch feels like talking. I’m sure he is tired.”
Oh. The thrall?
Hermione leans closer to whisper. “So you can control it?”
Fleur sighs. Shakes her head.
Leans back to reveal Ludo Bagman on her other side. Soup dripping from his spoon as it hovers next to his mouth, dopey smile on his face. “I can only make it stronger, not weaker. There is a…line. A baseline. Some wizards are strong enough to ignore it. Others are not.”
And she takes a slow breath.
Bagman falls forward slightly and then jerks ‘awake’. And Mr Crouch’s chair squeaks against the floor as he stands. “I must be going. Business. Yes. Work. As you say, the search is still on. Weatherby? We’re leaving!” he calls.
Oh, Percy is still here? Still working for him? Hermione hadn’t realised that.
But no, that is Percy, scrambling to get Mr Crouch’s hat and cloak for him.
“You’re not staying for a dance, Bartemius?” Dumbledore asks, standing too, eyes gleaming.
Crouch puts on his cloak. Looking extremely uncomfortable. “Nonsense. I’ve attended the Ball as part of my role as judge, but not all of us have time for such frivolities. Not when there are more important matters at hand. Now. If you would excuse me.”
And he’s already striding away.
Dumbledore shrugs. “Ah. Pity.”
And sits back down. Umm…
He wasn’t serious? Right? Because Mr Crouch? Who would want to dance with him?
Fleur laughs quietly. “Do you think the Headmaster will ask someone else to dance? Another wizard? He does not have much choice. Perhaps…Professor Snape?”
Hermione laughs into her glass. “Oh I would pay to see that. That would be— Where is Snape?”
She has a look around. Searches the tables. Maybe he’s supervising the younger years. She’d thought he’d be…
There he is. Sat next too Moody at a teacher’s table and looking very uncomfortable.
He glances in her direction. Hermione smiles cheerfully.
He raises an eyebrow back.
Well. That is…creepy.
She turns back around.
Fleur gives her a look. “I saw that. You have a secret with the horrible potions professor too?”
Hermione nods. Keeps eating. “Same secret. He knows. And he thinks I’m a complete idiot.”
“He— What, you are friends with him too?”
Friends with Snape? “He’s not my friend! No, he—”
She checks no-ones listening. Leans in to whisper again. “He just guessed. He’s very observant. And…well I don’t trust him completely, but he knows what he’s doing. I trust him to keep secrets. He…was a spy. In the war.”
“You trust the spy?” Fleur hisses back. “That is the opposite of what you should do!”
Hermione shakes her head. “I trust him. He wants to protect Harry. Which is what I want. So it’s fine.”
Fleur doesn’t reply. For a moment they just eat.
Then Fleur gives her a very serious look. Reaches for her hand. “You are here to protect Harry Potter. Because…he is in danger. Because this war you speak of…you have seen it, yes? A war?”
Shit. Fleur is too clever. And it’s probably written all over Hermione’s face because—
Fleur puts down her cutlery. Throws her arms around Hermione. Pulls her close. “I knew it. It is okay, ma belle,” she murmurs in her ear. “You are keeping secrets to protect us, yes? To protect me. You are brave. You think this is your problem to fix. You are stubborn. But it makes you afraid. This is why you come to me. Why you tell your friends. Why you are drawn to this Bellatrix. Because she is also alone. Is also faced with an impossible challenge.”
Hermione hugs her back tightly. Yes. Yes, that’s exactly what she’s thinking. What she’s feeling. That’s exactly why— gods this witch is clever. And so understanding. “Be careful, Fleur. You’re going to make me fall in love with you,” Hermione whispers back.
Fleur laughs. Lips press quickly to Hermione’s neck. “Do it! It is wonderful. I’m sure my future spouse will not mind.”
Hermione sighs. “If you ever marry them. What if I’ve messed things up, and you miss out on that? This is— I don’t know why things are different. I thought it was Bellatrix, but now—”
And a clinking glass interrupts them. A chair scraping back. “Now that we are all sufficiently fed and watered,” Dumbledore announces, “it is my great pleasure to introduce our entertainment for the evening. Please join me in giving a hand to The Wyrd Sisters!”
And thunderous applause breaks out as the band takes to the stage. A lot louder than when the champions entered. Ginny even whoops and whistles between her fingers as they all get to their feet, earning her a grin from Bagman and a deadly glare from McGonagall that they all feel even from across the room.
The band doesn’t seem to mind, getting into position, one of them even smiling at Ginny. Hermione still doesn’t know who’s who. She’s only ever watched a wizarding band perform a few times.
She’s only just now realising that they tune their instruments magically! How fascinating. There really should be a music class at Hogwarts to learn these thing. Magic and music? She can feel…something. Like the instruments are being tuned to the magic. How— but what about vocalists?
“Music is magical? Singing is magical?” she asks Fleur. “I didn’t know singing used magic!”
Fleur smiles. Begins leading her onto the dance floor. “Not all singing. Only if people know to use it with their voice. To sing through their magic. Like sirens, or merfolk…or veela." She stops them. Stops opposite Hermione. Shrugs. "We are related, you know. To the sirens? To harpies? I have never used my magic to sing. It…I do not like the power I have. My mother accepts this. My grandmother…not so much. And you can imagine that she is not so beautiful when she is angry, hmm?” she chuckles quietly.
Oh. Oh! Of course! Sirens are…
Fleur seems nervous, gaze flickering around the room. Hermione can’t believe she’s revealing so much about herself. That she’s been forgiven so quickly. How? How can Fleur trust her after what she did? How does she reveal her heart so easily?
She takes Fleur’s hand. Puts her other hand on her shoulder, and feels one at her waist. “Am I…allowed to tell you that you’re beautiful?” Hermione asks quietly, eyes drifting over Fleur.
Fleur looks down at her. Then looks away, mock haughtily. “I suppose. If you mean it.”
The music starts up. A slow cello.
Hermione leans to whisper. “I think you’re beautiful. And maybe the kindest person I’ve ever met. And the bravest. I could never show my heart like you do. It shines from you. That’s why you’re beautiful.”
And now they’re moving. And Fleur is smiling. And Hermione is sure she can feel the thrall. Can feel something. Or…maybe it’s the music. Magical music. Who knew? How had she never felt the magic before?
Fleur leads them slowly around the edge, and then across so they pass Ginny and Viktor. Both of them terrible at dancing. Laughing as they step on each other’s feet. They’re both way more agile in the air than on the ground.
Fleur sighs at them. “One of you is the player, one is the broom,” she calls across. “Tell her where to go, Viktor.”
Ginny bursts out in even louder laughter. “Delacour, are you telling him to sit on me?”
Thankfully more people have joined the dance now, so her comment goes unheard. Mostly. McGonagall and Dumbledore have drifted into their part of the dance floor. Behind Ginny.
“Miss Weasley, need I remind you that you are representing all of Hogwarts this evening in front of foreign visitors and members of the Ministry and photographers from the press?” McGonagall says sternly whilst Dumbledore moves them back and forth in place, thoroughly amused. "Please refrain from inappropriate comments."
Ginny turns bright red. Starts stuttering and spluttering.
Fleur lets go of Hermione. Winks. “Oh, she is fine. She just does not know the dance. Here. It is simple. I will show her, Professor.”
And she swaps with Viktor, taking Ginny’s hand and waist, and grinning at Hermione as Ginny loses the ability to breathe. Or move.
“Mademoiselle Delacour, that is not what I meant, and you very well know it!” McGonagall reprimands.
But Fleur has already whisked Ginny away, counting aloud in French to show her the rhythm.
Hermione laughs, walking over to Viktor. “Guess I’m your partner now. Rita Skeeter will be very happy.”
He takes her waist and frowns. “If bug is here…we squash her, yes?”
Hermione laughs again, slowly pulling them along backwards and keeping her feet out of the way. “I wish. But we should definitely trap her under a glass or something. You know the unbreakable charm, right?”
He grins. “Ah. Yes. Unbreakable glass. A good idea, my friend.”
Then he trips over her foot. Sighs. Frowns again. “You show me this dance? You are…broom?”
Yes, what did Fleur mean by…oh. How do you turn a broom?
Hermione nods. “You…lean, don’t you? To turn the broom? You turn your body? So tell me where to go by leaning your body. The feet are always the same. One, two, three. But if you want to turn, tell me.”
And she feels him guide her left. Yes. That’s a lot better.
And now she can look up rather than dodging his feet. Looks around the room and sees…Hagrid and Madame Maxime. Ron dancing very close to Lavender, not really moving at all. Whispering and grinning. Hands moving to some less appropriate places.
Snape making his way over, probably to take points, his eyes across the room on…
Harry and Luna. Standing in a corner and looking at the plants. The holly and ivy and…mistletoe. Ah. Looking out for nargles. They’re hanging up butterbeer corks as they talk.
So if Lavender is with Ron, then Parvati…
Neville! So he did ask someone. Parvati? Wow, how did that happen? She hadn’t been paying attention to any of this…
Seamus and Dean. Oh it’s so nice that they’ve admitted their feelings earlier this time. She can remember their wedding—
And she’s suddenly pulled away from Viktor. Back in Fleur’s arms. “Bonsoir.”
Hermione smiles. “Bonsoir. Did you have fun with Ginny?”
Fleur pulls her closer. They just kind of sway. “I think the little girl also has a big heart. I see why she is your friend.”
Fleur is so close. And so pretty. And so kind. And she smells so…
Get it together, Hermione. She’s still talking.
“And I am sad for her, that Harry has not noticed her,” Fleur continues. Gives her a knowing look. “But her crush on me is also adorable. I had to dance with her.”
Hermione shakes her head. “But that’s such a tease! Now she has two people she likes that she can’t have.”
Fleur raises an eyebrow. “Two? Can’t have? What do you think I said to her? Look.”
And she nods towards the corner. Towards Harry and Luna.
And Ginny. Ginny talking to Harry, and Viktor talking to Luna, which…oh Merlin, she’s showing him the mistletoe. Oh that’s so funny. What the hell will he think?
Hermione turns back. Kisses Fleur’s jaw. “I think I’m going to have to start calling you cupid,” she jokes. “Fleur the love guru. The matchmaker.”
They’ve come to a stop. Fleur takes her hand and pulls her towards a table. “Do not call me any of those names. How ugly. But…it is fun, non? And people are stupid. They do not see what is before their eyes.”
And now Fleur isn’t looking at Hermione. She’s looking across the room, towards the entrance.
Wait. “Who’s that?” Hermione asks.
Fleur chuckles. “You do not recognise them? They are your friend. In disguise.”
What?! Bellatrix—
Tonks.
Oh. Tonks. Her friend in disguise.
Ah. Hang on.
She looks back at Fleur. Then over at Tonks. Hmm.
She nudges Fleur. Grins at her. “So…this person you’re secretly in love with. How do you know them?”
Fleur sighs. Leans her head on her hand. “I am this obvious? Oh, Hermione they are wonderful. This auror. They patrol the grounds, past my carriage, almost every day. I do not even know what they look like, or their name. I think she is a witch, because of the thrall, yes? You said she is your friend?”
Tonks. Now this is adorable.
Hermione stands up. “Her name’s Tonks. Come on, let’s go talk to her.”
Fleur hugs her from behind, holding her back. “But this is your night, ma belle. Our one night. You don’t want me to yourself?” she whispers in her ear.
Hermione turns to smile at her. To stroke her cheek. Because Fleur is beautiful, and she can. “You’re in love, Fleur. Talk to her. I’ll be here all year. She might not be.”
Fleur searches her face. “Will you be here? Or are you trying to return? To your time?”
Return?
She hugs Fleur, heart thrumming. Panic filling her. The one thing she tries the hardest to forget. “I don’t know how. I’m— I might be here forever, Fleur,” she breathes out in a rush. “I don’t know how I got here, and I haven’t even begun to think about how to get back. The only clue, is that maybe Bellatrix knows something. She’s the only change. In my time, she wasn’t here. Another Death Eater was here in disguise, and he put Harry’s name in the Goblet. That’s why I put mine in instead. To save Harry. Because last time…well, the tournament went wrong. A champion died. And Harry…he met You Know Who. Voldemort. He used Harry to come back to life. To return.”
She feels Fleur take a sharp breath. Hold her tighter. “Viktor died?”
Hermione shakes her head. “Another boy. From Hogwarts. His name’s Cedric. He’s…”
She pulls away to look around. Spots Cedric sat with Cho and some friends, points him out.
Fleur nods. “Then…this time we will be careful. I will keep watch during the tournament.”
Hermione sighs. “I’m sorry to put this on you. It’s your final year at school. And you’re a champion. You should be…enjoying it. The challenge.”
Fleur takes her hand. “It’s fine. And we can still have fun. Come. Let’s get drinks. You know, I have some firewhisky in my—”
Hermione snorts. “I know. In your wardrobe. I saw.”
Fleur grins. Gestures to the top table. “Not anymore. It is in my bag.”
And she accios her bag towards her. Snatches it from the air. Heads towards the drinks table.
Hermione hurries after her. “Fleur!” she hisses. “Don’t you dare—”
And then something hits her in the chest. A horrifying dread. A wrongness. Like— like the magic is being sucked from the air. The—
Hope. It’s hopeless. And cold. She’s trembling. Reaches out to Fleur.
Who has also paused. Stilled. Everything is still.
Silent. The music screeches to a stop. The frost covering the walls spreads to the floor. Puffed breaths fogging the air.
And then the stillness is broken as the doors to the Great Hall slam open. Bang against the walls.
And a witch stumbles inside. Throws back her hood and clutches a nearby chair, gasping.
“Mother?” a boy shouts. “Mother!”
And Narcissa Malfoy manages not to fall. She’s shaking, as pale as her hair, but she straightens her spine and catches her breath. “It’s— dementors!” she gasps out. Scans the crowd.
Finds Hermione. Nods. “Both of them. Both of— the dog. And— and— by the tree. They can’t— quickly!”
And then she falls. Hits the floor. But Draco is there. Already crouched beside her and—
Dementors. Sirius. Bellatrix.
Hermione sprints for the door. Hears shouting break out around her, but ignores it. Turns the corner and—
Almost stumbles. How many…hundreds of dementors heading across the grounds. No. But—
Harry runs past her. “Hermione, come on!” he yells.
And she keeps going. Fights for breath. Fights for balance in the snow as they skid down the hill— “Where are they?” she shouts. “Can you see—”
“She said the tree!” he shouts back. “Whomping willow! They must have come through!”
“Potter! Get back here!”
And someone else runs past Hermione. Snape. He’s faster. Taller. Catching—
Hermione turns to see—
Tonks following. And Luna. And Fleur.
No. No— “Fleur, go back!” she shouts. Fleur can’t cast a patronus. She never learnt. Not a fully corporeal—
And she almost bumps into Harry. Snape has caught him. Is trying pull him back—
“Relashio!” Harry shouts. “Stupefy!”
And Snape is down. Didn’t expect it. Harry is running again. Argh!
“Wake him up!” she calls back as she chases after Harry. “We need him. Harry. Harry—”
“I can see them!” Harry yells. “Expecto patronum!”
He can see—
She takes a gasping breath. Wipes the tears from her cheeks. Looks at Harry, and Fleur, and Luna, and Tonks is alive. “Expecto patronum!” she calls out across the grounds. Tries to see the base of the whomping willow between the swarming dementors. Tries—
Her otter flies out. Lights a trail. She—
She can see them too. Two figures in black. In the grass. Fighting. Struggling. They’re fighting now? What—
“Expecto patronum!” Tonks shouts. “All you kids get back! Harry! Harry, don’t— Hermione!”
And the figures stop fighting.
“Harry!” Sirius bellows. “Harry, run! Get away! Get—”
“Get the fuck out of here, Potter!” Bellatrix yells. “We can’t— Where did he go? Homenum revelio!”
And the dementors close in once more. Hermione is so close now. Probably too close to the tree. But she’s blind. In the dark. And the feeling is— she can’t— it’s hopeless. What is she doing here? She’s endangering Fleur, and Luna, and—
“Expecto patronum!” comes a lilting voice. A hare bounding past. Luna. Luna’s okay. She—
“Harry, go back to the castle!” Sirius cries hoarsely. “Listen to me! Please! Go! Bella— Bella, get off of me! We have to—”
And Hermione reaches them. Sirius struggling towards her. Crawling across the grass. Bellatrix pulling him back. Trying to force him back into the tunnel under the tree.
Bellatrix spots her. “Oh thank Salazar. Help me. He can hide in there. Stupefy!”
And now Sirius is unconscious.
The dementors move in. Hungry.
“What are you doing here?!” Harry shouts. “What are you— ah!” he cries out.
What? Harry—
Harry falls to the ground. Falls back. And she can’t see—
“Expecto patronum! Lumos maxima!” Hermione yells.
Harry is clutching at his ankle in shock.
And Peter Pettigrew is crouched over him. Frozen and squinting in the light.
Then shrinks.
“No!” Bellatrix shouts. “That— Accio Wormtail!”
It doesn’t work. Harry dives for the rat. Misses.
“Black! Hands in the air! Away from the kids!” Tonks shouts from nearby.
“Tonks, get that rat! It’s Peter Pettigrew!” Hermione shouts. “Accio Peter!”
He’s getting away! Into the forest. But—
She looks between, Bellatrix, an unconscious Sirius half in her lap, Harry, who is now bleeding into the snow from his ankle and— and—
And the dementors. The dementors are…
It falls dark. Her lumos has given out. All of the patronuses have faded away. Nothing is…and she can’t see…can feel…
“Potter…” Bellatrix whispers roughly. “Potter, please. I didn’t— I tried— I didn’t mean to— I tried to protect them. I tried to hide. Please!” she shouts. Raw. Gasping. “Don’t send me back. He’s alive. They’re all— Siri. Siri, wake up. Wake up. Rennervate! Rennervate!”
Hermione follows her voice. Feels a body at her feet and falls to her knees. “Bellatrix? He’s okay. He’s alive,” she croaks out, lungs heavy. “Remember? He— expecto— expecto—”
She can’t—
Sirius is dead. She can feel…his body is there. Cold. And Harry. She didn’t— Harry is hurt. She…
Hands cling to her. “Granger. You— are you hurt? Cissy. Where— did— did she—”
Cissy? Who is…
And that voice. She knows this voice. This voice did something to her. It hurt. It hurt so—
“Hermione!” another voice calls through the dark. “Hermione, answer me! Réponds-moi!”
Oh. Oh—
Fleur’s here. Fleur’s okay. So— So—
She reaches out for Bellatrix. “They’re fine. They’re all fine,” Hermione gasps out. Squeezes her shoulders. “It’s all in our heads, remember? Can you feel it? It’s the— the dementors. Expecto patronum!”
A faint trail of mist. She can’t—
Yes, you can. Magic. It’s in you. Feel it. Don’t let them take it.
“Bellatrix,” she snaps. “Come on. The tunnel is behind you. It’s only a few metres. We have to get to the tunnel.”
“You— you’re— who—”
Hermione feels for Sirius. She thinks he must be awake. Breathing. Bellatrix woke him up, so…
“Harry’s alive,” Hermione says firmly. “But we have to get the dementors away from him. They can’t get in the tunnel. Come on! Before someone gets hurt. Come on!”
And she tugs at them both.
“The rat,” Sirius rasps, beginning to move. In the wrong direction. “I have to kill the rat.”
“No killing,” Bellatrix groans back. “Not…allowed…to kill. Potter— Potter— where’s Cissy?”
Hermione focuses on that. Ignores the dementors. Fights it. Because she has to survive if she wants to find out what the hell is going on.
Cissy. What does that mean? Why is that so familiar…oh!
She grabs hold of Sirius’ robes, pulling him along the slippery, muddy ground. “Narcissa is okay. She’s— she made it to the castle. She told us to find you. She’s with Draco.”
Bellatrix laughs. Manages to stand up and help her, both of them skidding and fighting for balance as they pull Sirius along. “Knew she’d make it. Cissy always makes it.”
And they reach the tunnel. The tree. Luckily it’s frozen. Immobilised. They kind of just shove Sirius inside the hole.
“Tonks!” Bellatrix suddenly yells at the top of her lungs, cupping her mouth. “We’re going underground! Get the kids out of here! I mean it, Potter, or I’m taking points!”
Hermione actually laughs at that. “Go, Harry!” she calls. “We’re okay! All of you— go back, Fleur! Please! I’m okay! Go—!”
And then she’s falling backwards. Bellatrix has grabbed her. Pulled her into the tunnel.
Hermione hastily casts the counter-spell for the immobulus charm as she falls. Watches the tunnel seal itself. Hears branches begin to whip through the air.
And then nothing. Back to calm. Back to silence.
And she’s lying on top of someone. Probably Bellatrix.
She’s so exhausted she doesn’t care. Just lies there. In the dark. Catching her breath.
A dog barks.
“Give us a fucking minute,” Bellatrix grumbles.
A minute.
Hermione might need more than a minute to process this.
Chapter 22: Play Catch Up
Chapter Text
Hermione stares up into the darkness. Feels Bellatrix breathing beneath her. Feels her chest rise and fall.
Right. Time to get up.
She fumbles for her wand as she struggles to her feet. Casts a warming charm at herself because she’s bloody freezing. Then a lumos. Then another warming charm at Bellatrix, because she’s lying in a puddle on the floor.
Hermione reaches down to her. “Need a hand?”
Bellatrix opens her eyes. Grins. Takes her hand and pulls herself up. “No. But I’ll take one anyway, as you’re offering. You look…”
Her eyes run over Hermione. She laughs. “A bit of a muddy mess, actually. Sorry for crashing your Ball.”
Muddy?
Hermione almost steps back, doubt creeping in, but Bellatrix suddenly looks just as uncomfortable. Cringes at her own words and gestures at Hermione’s dress.
Hermione looks down at herself. Oh. She is quite muddy.
She adjusts her dress and casts a cleaning charm at herself. Tries out the French version of the charm Fleur uses that smells nice.
And brushes past a soggy, muddy Bellatrix. “You’re not looking too great yourself,” she says casually, and casts the charm behind her at Bellatrix too. Starts walking down the tunnel, Sirius leading in dog form. “We need to get further away from the school. Away from Harry and the others. What were you both doing here?”
She hears Bellatrix follow. And sigh. “We were tracking Wormtail. Siri has been pestering me to go and kill him for weeks. I said no. So he asked if we could keep tabs on him. Watch him. I said yes. As his Christmas present. Wormtail chose tonight to go after Potter. So here we are.”
Hermione stops. Whirls around. “He’s here for Harry? To kidnap him, or— I thought he just hurt him to get away. Because he was—”
Bellatrix shakes her head. “It’s worse than that. Blood of the enemy, forcibly taken. We need to hurry. Or we’re going to have a Dark Lord on the rise.”
Shit. The ritual. All they need is the blood. Not the— He got blood from Harry?
“Then we have to tell the Order!” Hermione shouts. “We have to stop him! Before it’s too late! If we get to the graveyard in time—”
“And if we don’t, we’re heading to a battle. Or our deaths,” Bellatrix says firmly.
There’s a growl. “Then we fight!” Sirius says, human once more and turning around. “I don’t understand you, Bella. We could have killed him as soon as we saw him. He was right there, and you didn’t react. Now you say you’re on our side—”
“Your side!” Bellatrix shouts. Pushes past Hermione to get to Sirius. “I’m on your side, and Cissy’s, and Andy’s. And that means I’m on Potter’s side too. But that doesn’t mean I’ll be killing anyone. I won’t. If we go there, and He’s back, I’ll defend you, but I’m not killing. Not for anything. Never again. I’m not going back.”
And she pushes past Sirius too to continue along the passage.
Sirius laughs, slightly hysterically. Shares a look of shock with Hermione before it morphs into frustration. “You won’t kill? Now you won’t kill? Won’t hurt anyone? Now?! I can’t believe this!”
That’s— “Look,” Hermione says, jogging to catch up. These two are surprisingly fast for being close to death a few moments ago. “That’s not the problem right now. The problem is getting to the graveyard. Contacting the Order, or the Ministry. Or— Is this our decision to make? Should we tell Dumbledore?”
“There’s no time to involve all of that,” Sirius says. “Bella knows where the graveyard is. You seem to somehow know about it. Let’s go there. I’ll kill them, if Bella won’t. And you can…send a patronus to Dumbledore if it will make you feel better. I’m sure the Ministry will be on our trail as it is. And the dementors.”
They’re heading uphill now. Nearly at the shack. Which means they’re almost outside of the wards.
Sirius transforms back into Padfoot to bound ahead.
And Hermione jogs the last few steps to grab Bellatrix’s arm. “Wait. Just— we need to think about this. Please. You know how…complicated this is. It will change everything. We need to think it through.”
Bellatrix flinches. Pulls her arm back, turning to stare at Hermione.
Then hastily rolls up her sleeve, eyes wide. “No no no, don’t be black, don’t be—”
The Dark Mark. Still grey.
Bellatrix gives Hermione a desperate, almost helpless look. “Wagtail’s right. No time. There’s just no time. Rats are fast. He’ll be past the wards soon. The only advantage we have is that he’ll need to find his way out of the Forbidden Forest, prepare the potion, and feed the Dark Lord milk from Nagini before he weakens. But if we’re too late...”
And she turns, marching up the slope. “He’s only got Wormtail left. He’s weak,” Bellatrix explains, ‘professor voice’ suddenly back. “Half his followers are in Azkaban, Crabbe and Goyle and the Carrows are too stupid, Lucius is too self-serving to get involved yet, plus the Dark Lord doesn’t trust him after he failed with the diary. He doesn’t trust Snape because he stopped Quirrell getting the stone, and that just leaves Avery, Yaxley, Selwyn, Nott, and Macnair.”
Hermione quickly calculates— “So if he calls everyone, there’ll be eleven Death Eater’s waiting at the graveyard?”
“If he calls them. And if Snape goes, which I doubt. But yes. Eleven. Twelve, if you include me.”
Hermione nods. Well then. That sounds like a battle. Twelve including Voldemort. And the Order of the Phoenix has…thirteen at the most right now. Including Hermione and Sirius. And Snape, who also probably won’t make an appearance for them. “We have to stop the ritual then. Now. We can apparate from here.”
Bellatrix looks her firmly in the eyes.
Hermione stares back. She’s not wavering on this. They have to. Or the War will start now.
Bellatrix’s eyes scrunch shut. Just for a second. And then she nods. Reaches into her cloak pocket.
Pulls out another cloak. Whistles.
Sirius tears back towards them.
And Bellatrix shakes out the cloak. Puts it over Hermione. And herself. And Sirius, as he transforms.
Hermione stares at it. At the familiar fabric. “Harry’s cloak?” she mutters.
“So you did steal it!” Sirius says to Bellatrix. “I knew it wasn’t yours! This is James’ cl—”
And they’re apparating away.
Outside of a graveyard. In a small village. In the dark. Only the moon and stars lighting the way. Casting shadows over the headstones and the untouched snow.
“Granger, go see if anyone’s there,” Sirius whispers.
Hermione turns her head to give him a disbelieving look that he probably can’t see. “Why me?”
“It’s not personal! They don’t know you as well,” he hisses back. “Peter will know me straight away. And if they see Bella—”
“I’m in a bright blue dress! I’m the most suspicious—”
Bellatrix crouches, pulling them with her. “We’re all staying under the cloak. Muffiliato…” she breathes out. Then begins moving closer.
They all shuffle along awkwardly. Reach the graveyard wall. Peek over.
Nobody. Empty. She feels out with her magic.
Bellatrix. Sirius.
Nobody else around. Well, that’s a relief.
“Could we…vanish his father’s grave?” Hermione suggests. “No more bones of the father.”
“Or kill the rat,” Sirius says. “No more servant.”
Hermione frowns. “How do you know the ritual?”
“I told him,” Bellatrix whispers harshly. “Now both of you shut up and look for Riddle’s grave. We’ll do what Granger said. Vanish the bones.”
Sirius scoffs. “Of course we’re doing what she said.”
And then he transforms. Pads off. Shit.
Bellatrix mumbles out some curses, pulling Hermione along after him. “See what I have to put up with? Worse than Potter.”
Hermione just nods, already reading gravestones. Looking for the biggest, fanciest one. Harry said Riddle lived in a…manor.
Hermione stops them. Looks around at the surrounding hills instead. They’re in a valley. Houses along…
There’s a rundown manor house on one of the far hills. Looking out towards them.
Light in one of the windows.
“Look!” she whispers to Bellatrix. “Is that Riddle Manor?”
Bellatrix turns too. “Yes. But he might not be there. If they left the fire lit. But maybe…”
She pauses in thought. Hermione just waits. Tensed. Wishes she could cast a lumos to see better. See her expression.
“We can’t kill him,” Bellatrix continues. “But we could stop Wormtail, if that’s where he’s headed. But it would give us away. And then we don’t know what he’ll do next. And if he moves the horcruxes—”
She knows about the horcruxes? And is telling Hermione?
A sound comes from behind them. Digging. That dog!
They both run over to Sirius. He’s found the grave.
“You can’t dig in a graveyard!” Hermione squawks. “If someone sees—”
“A dog digging for bones?” Bellatrix says, laughter in her voice. “Better than human grave robbers. How else can we vanish the bones?”
Well…
Hermione sighs to herself. Steps back out of the way of flying earth, bumping up against Bellatrix. “I can’t believe I’m digging up Voldemort’s dad whilst wearing a…ballgown.”
Now Bellatrix is really holding back laughter. Sniggering. Shoulder rubbing against Hermione’s, up and down as she chuckles. “Welcome to the Black family,” she murmurs as they watch Sirius dig.
Silence falls. Other than the digging. It’s…eery.
“I don’t like this,” Hermione whispers. “They could arrive at any minute. We’re out in the open. If they’re in the house, they can probably see us right now.”
Bellatrix sighs. “I know, but he only has Wormtail. If he sees us, it might just put him off. My only worry is— well, what if they took a bone already? They took the blood. What if they’re doing the ritual…in the house?”
Oh.
“Should we go look?” Hermione reluctantly asks, not really wanting to go near whatever Voldemort is looking like right now.
“And leave Siri?” Bellatrix says worriedly. Turns to face Hermione.
Under the cloak. They’re…very close, under the cloak. And now they’re even closer.
Hermione can feel her breath. Can’t see anything as she blocks out the light from the moon.
“Is…there another way?” Hermione slowly asks. “Should I call the Order?”
Bellatrix pulls back. Hermione can just make her out. Biting her lip in thought. “Maybe you should. So they can be here and at the manor. But again, it’s very visible. They could scare him into hiding. We’d have no idea where he was. I don’t know where else he’d go, other than…well, it’s possible Lucius would let him in. I can’t do that to Cissy again.”
Again?
A bark interrupts them. Bones. Oh Merlin, that’s a skeleton. That’s a coffin.
Well. It looks like a full skeleton. No bones obviously missing…
Hermione takes a breath. Draws her wand and sticks it out of the cloak. “Once we vanish it…that’s it. He won’t be able to use this plan. New plan. Unknown plan.”
Bellatrix takes a sharp breath too. “Fuck, Granger. It’s risky. This is risky as shit. The amount of new options we’ll have if this—”
“Options?” Sirius says, back with them. “If he uses these, he’ll come back. Be back. Kill people, and use the Mark to control all of his followers. Including you, Bella. The answer is fucking obvious.”
He grabs Hermione’s wand arm, still hanging in the air hesitantly. Puts his hand over hers and moves it for her. “Oseum evanesca!”
And the bones are gone. No more Tom Riddle Senior.
Oh.
Sirius grins at them in the following shocked silence. Claps. “So. Now for the servant. Where are we headed?”
Hermione turns back towards the manor. Points…
No fire. No light in the window.
Does that mean—
Light shines from the nearby church. A door opens. Voices filter towards them.
“Siri, back under the cloak!” Bellatrix hisses, already dragging him over.
He transforms instead. A huge black dog. Growls, head lowered, ready to pounce.
And a gasp comes from the church entrance. “Vicar! It’s the grim! See there? A grim, guarding the headstones!”
Vicar?
A throat clearing. Footsteps over stone. “Uh…well, the Lord works in mysterious ways, Mrs Worthing. But I really would prefer that you put aside superstition, especially as tonight is—”
Sirius freezes in place, snarl drooping.
And two people turn the corner of the church. A middle-aged vicar, and a little old lady. Carrying candles and paper booklets. “It’s a dog!” the vicar exclaims. “And it’s dug up the— Here, boy!” he shouts firmly. “Come! Who do you belong to? Do you recognise it, Mrs Worthing?”
“No-one has a great beast like that!” the lady says, candle raised to look. “It’s a grim! Keeping away spirits, like my Nan always said. There’s nowt wrong with a bit of superstition, Vicar.”
The Vicar moves closer. He pats his knee. Whistles. “Come here. Come on. We’ll get you some food, if you’re hungry. And you can come inside out of the snow. It will be warm tonight for midnight mass. Can you believe this, Mrs Worthing? A soul in need at Christmas.”
Sirius runs behind a nearby headstone. Transforms, crouched down. Ducks under the cloak, holding back laughter. “Muggles,” he whispers. “Forgot it was Christmas. We need to get out of here. Up to the manor, Bella.”
Bellatrix nods, curls brushing Hermione’s face. Grabs her arm. But—
And they’re…outside a small cottage. The manor just about visible a few hundred yards behind it.
Bellatrix looks around. Then pulls off the cloak. Walks through the powdery snow up the small front garden and knocks loudly on the cottage door. What the—
Hermione jogs after her and pulls her hand away. “What are you doing? Where are we?!”
Bellatrix knocks again with her other hand. “Frank!” she shouts.
Frank? What—
And a dim light shines from the cottage. They wait. Sirius opens his mouth and then shuts it, shrugging at Hermione. They hear a key turn in the lock. A bolt pulled back.
And then an old man opens the door. Still fully dressed, despite it surely nearing ten o’clock by now. A muggle man, by the looks of it, in his late seventies.
Bellatrix grins. “Hi, Frank. Merry Christmas. Sorry it’s so bloody late. Can we come in?”
Frank grumbles. “Only if ye give out with the foul language. And tell us the latest. Because something’s been going on in that house. Just like ye said.” He turns and shuffles back inside. “I’ve kept my distance so far, but I have half a mind to—”
Bellatrix follows him inside with a tut. “To leave it alone! They’ll be gone soon. But they’re dangerous. And you understand how dangerous, after what happened to the Riddles.”
Frank hobbles over to a small kitchen table. Falls down to sit in a chair and light a lantern as Bellatrix…puts a kettle on the stove. And takes a hot water bottle out from under the sink.
Definitely muggle.
Hermione shares a look with Sirius as he shuts the door and hides her wand.
“It wasn’t me that did it,” Frank croaks out. “And I told them. I told those plodders, it was a young fella. The teenage lad. He was the last one in the house at the time. This was gone…fifty years ago, now. But I still remember him. Something up with that lad. The look in his eye. And pale, he were. Dark haired. I told them…”
Bellatrix sighs. “I know. I told you. I believe you. Here.”
She hands him the hot water bottle.
And casts a warming charm at him behind his back. Then starts making him a cup of tea by hand. “So? Any news for me? This is important, Frank. Have you seen anything tonight?”
But Frank is frowning at Sirius. Tapping his lip. “Haven’t I seen ye before? Swear I’ve seen ye somewhere. In the paper, or...” His eyes slide to Hermione. “And that’s quite the party frock. What have you been up to this time, Bella?”
Sirius walks over to the window. “Yes, what are you up to? Because we don’t have time for this little catch up.”
Bellatrix plonks the cup of tea down. “That’s my cousin. Everyone calls him Snuffles, because he’s like a dog after a bone, won’t sit still. And Hermione is having a worse night than you. We stole her from a ball. Because this is important, Frank.”
Frank shakily picks up the cup of tea, sipping it with a sigh. “Alright. I did see something. I’ve been keeping watch, like you said. Staying away. But I actually reckon he’s off and left, whoever he was. Not long ago. Fire went out, which it never does, mind. Then this dumpy, pudgy sort of fella walks past. Reet suspicious. Twitchy. Carrying something. Could be a basket, or even a bairn. My eyes aren’t what they used to be. I almost went out there, but I did swear to you and all—”
“Which way? Which way did he go?” Bellatrix asks firmly.
Frank gestures back down the hill. “Well, he started off down’t. Had a light on him. Must have been a torch, a bright white light. Heading off to the other side of the dale, I reckon. Over yonder.”
Sirius walks over to the other side of the cottage, looking through the opposite window, cupping his eyes and leaning close to the glass. “A light. Over there, can you see?”
They all crowd over, squinting across at the hill opposite.
“Try these, lad,” Frank says. Passes Sirius some binoculars.
“It’s him!” Sirius shouts.
Then gives the binoculars to Bellatrix. “Is it a trap? He’s walking. Why is he walking? What could be nearby?”
Bellatrix scans along with the binoculars. The faint light disappears. “The Gaunt Shack,” Bellatrix whispers, almost fearfully.
She looks at Hermione, then at Frank. Points out a spot on the hill. “That’s where they used to live, isn’t it? The Gaunts? Old family. Strange. Talked to snakes. Up on the other side of the valley, out in the woods.”
And Frank has barely nodded before Bellatrix is kissing his head and heading out the door. “Thanks, Frank. You should be safe now. Think they’re gone. So get some sleep, and—”
“Now hang on a minute, lass. You’re allus doing this. What’s really going on, hmm?”
Bellatrix sighs, ushering Sirius and Hermione outside and through the snowy front garden. “I can’t tell you that. Just keep drinking the remedy I gave you. It’s good for your hip. And your ears.”
“You know, your sister stopped by,” Frank says slowly.
Bellatrix freezes, halfway down the garden path. Turns. “Really? When?”
Frank gives her a look. “Not long after ye were last here. July, I should think. Brought a remedy of her own. A better one.”
Bellatrix smiles back at him, shaking her head. “You’re a lucky one, Frank. I told her about you. Didn’t think she’d visit though.”
Frank just nods. Then slowly shuts the door.
Bellatrix takes a loud breath. “Right. So…that gives us a lot more time, but I think all our options just multiplied. Tenfold. It…might be time for you to contact the Order now, Granger. Because I know my stuff, but I think we might need old Dumbles for this one.”
“So you don’t think Wormtail has a bone?” Hermione asks. “He’s not just doing the ritual over there?”
Bellatrix shakes her head. Walks them around the corner past some hedgerows and pulls out the invisibility cloak. “If he had the bones, he would have stayed. But he’s gone off to Grandfather’s house. To the ring.”
“What grandfather? What ring?” Sirius asks. “And who was that? A muggle? You have old men muggle friends keeping watch for you? That also know Cissy? That was Wormtail! He’s over there. Why are we stopping?”
Bellatrix glares at him. “Because we don’t know what we’re walking into. And we’re not going to go running in and get ourselves killed. Don’t underestimate the opponent, Siri. They had a view of the graveyard. They saw us. Saw you. And now they’re shining their way through the village. The Dark Lord isn’t stupid. And neither is Wormtail, even if you won’t admit it. We need help. We need a plan. There will be enchantments on that shack. Worse than Grimmauld.”
And she looks up at the sky. “And we need to get out of the open. To get some chocolate. For all of us. We’re shaking.”
Shaking?
Hermione looks down at herself. Notices how pale she is. How much her wand is jerking in her grip. Muscles spasming as they clench and unclench.
Bellatrix gently takes her arm. Wraps the other one around Sirius. She’s shaking too. All of them are. Trembling from the dementors. Late shock. “Don’t underestimate the opponent,” Bellatrix whispers again. “And don’t push your luck. Can’t save anyone if you’re dead. We did our bit. Time to count our loses, and go home. To London.”
And Hermione is being squeezed through a tube. Apparating.
Staring up at 12 Grimmauld Place.
She swallows. Looks to the people next to her, and can’t quite believe she’s ended up in such a strange situation. With both Sirius and Bellatrix. At Grimmauld Place, once again.
“Will the wards let me in?” she asks cautiously.
Sirius grins at Bellatrix. “So you were right. She can see it, and she’s not surprised. She’s been here before. You, Hermione Granger, are more than you appear.”
And he walks up the steps. “And of course you can come in. What do you think Bella and I have been up to for the last few weeks? We had to get the house ready for visitors. I’m not getting stuck with only her for company forever. I did tell Harry he could live with me.”
Hermione hesitantly steps closer. Looks at Bellatrix. “So…no deadly wards? Can owls get through? You said…”
And Bellatrix smiles at her. Drags her forward, tapping her wand to the door to let them all in. “Just get in here. Before someone spots us on the doorstep. We can chat inside. Oh wait!”
And she puts a hand over Hermione’s mouth as they follow Sirius in. Points at the wall opposite.
Oh yeah. The portrait of Warlburga Black. Sirius’ mother. She’s impossible to get off the wall. And won’t be happy if she hears Hermione.
Bellatrix very carefully shuts the door behind them. One handed. Other palm still pressed to Hermione’s lips.
Hermione pulls out of her grip. Follows after Sirius along the corridor and down the stairs into the basement…kitchen. Wait.
“It’s clean!” she whispers to Sirius. “Everything is…you did all this? All this cleaning and tidying and polishing?”
The fire is lit. The pots and pans are shining. Surfaces clean and cleared.
She sits down at the kitchen table. Sirius gives her a strange look. Grabs some bread, cheese, and chocolate from a cupboard, before sitting down opposite her.
“You’ve been here before…” he murmurs. Then louder. “You’ve really been here before! I can’t believe she was telling the truth! You’re from the future!”
What?! That was a secret!
Bellatrix falls into the chair next to Hermione. “Of course she is! Look at her face. Or look at her tits. Is she the same girl you saw a few months ago?”
Hermione quickly folds her arms over her chest. “Don’t look at my— Neither of you look at my— And you’re not from here either!” she shouts at Bellatrix. “You’re all…different! You know things you shouldn’t know. Or at least— Are you from the future?”
Bellatrix snaps the bar of chocolate into thirds. Hands her a piece. “Eat this first. And then contact Dumbledore. You can ask more questions later.”
Hermione chews on some chocolate angrily, feeling the lingering chill of the dementors leave. The magic of chocolate. Not that she can fully appreciate it right now when— “Or you could just answer me,” she says, mouth still full because she’s fed up with waiting. “Tell me anything! Could you just answer one of my questions?”
Bellatrix bites off a piece of chocolate. Raises an eyebrow. Then looks at Sirius. “It’s all clean and tidy in here because Cissy found us,” she says slowly, smiling. “I was trying to keep her away, but she read the Prophet and saw we were both alive and on the run. She wrote to Draco a couple of weeks ago asking what he knew, because she saw I saved you from the dragon, which meant I was interacting with students.”
Bellatrix looks at her. Breaks off another piece of chocolate. “And Draco found out where I was from you too, not that he knew it. You and Potter said you couldn’t say where I went. Well. That screams fidelius charm, doesn’t it? Cissy was here the next day. Brought house-elves. And charms. And rules.”
Narcissa. That’s why Narcissa was with them. But…
“But her memories,” Hermione says slowly. Cautiously. “You…obliviated her.”
Bellatrix nods. “Had to. And I was going to keep her that way until the heat died down. But she put the pieces together. Knew it was me. Told me to give the memories back. So I did. Memory charms are much easier to undo by the person that cast them.”
True. Like Hermione’s parents…
Sirius pushes his chair back and grabs some drinks from a low cupboard. A lot of dark, dusty bottles. Nods at Hermione. “Go on, now. Bella’s good at avoiding questions. We’ll be here all night. I think you should tell Dumbledore you’re safe before we have kidnapping added to our list of offences. And tell him You Know Who’s moved to…What did you call it? The Gaunt Shack?”
Bellatrix reaches for a bottle. “Yep. The Dark Lord’s Mother’s house. He’s half Gaunt, half Riddle. Half muggle. Half-blood.”
Sirius barks out a laugh. “Half-blood?! You’re kidding! I thought Riddle might be a wizarding family I hadn’t heard of!”
Bellatrix shakes her head. Sirius laughs again. Keeps laughing. Laughs at the ceiling. Gestures at the house. “You hear that, Mother? A half-blood!” he shouts.
Okay…
Bellatrix is right. He’s still not particularly mentally stable. Bit of a live wire.
Hermione casts a patronus.
The room seems to calm. Like everyone can breathe a little easier.
She clears her throat. “Could you take this message to Dumbledore, please, once he’s alone or around only members of the Order.”
She hesitates. It’s strange talking to Dumbledore.
Just do it. He’ll know a bit about what’s going on now anyway, if he’s spoken to the others. He always knows more than he lets on. “We followed Pettigrew back to Riddle House in Little Hangleton, and have vanished the remains of Tom Riddle Senior to stop a ritual taking place,” she says slowly. “I know you might be shocked that we know this, but…Bellatrix and I know more than you think. We should probably talk soon. You Know Who and Wormtail have left the manor, and we think they’re now at the Gaunt Shack across the valley. We know for a fact that the shack is under some very strong, very dark enchantments, so we decided not to go inside. All three of us are now at…a Black safehouse. And we’re safe. I can promise you that I’m safe here, Headmaster. I can’t explain right now, but I’ll be in contact…tomorrow.”
There. That was…not the best message, but she’s tired. It’s late. And she just…wants to stop thinking and get out of this dress.
Her otter flies off.
Bellatrix sighs. Passes her a bottle and a glass. “That was good enough. It’s hard to know if we should get him involved but…I don’t fancy sorting this out by ourselves. Plus, he can tell your friends you’re alright. Or he should. Hey, maybe we should send Kreacher to let Potter know we’re okay. Kreacher!”
And Kreacher appears. After about thirty seconds. Taking his time. “Mistress,” he spits. Glances at Sirius. “Master.”
Looks at Hermione. “Mud—”
Bellatrix slams her hand on the table. “What did I say about that word?”
Kreacher bites his tongue. Shakes his head from side to side. Ears flapping. “That— That Kreacher doesn’t deserve treasures if— if he doesn’t respect—”
Treasures. Wait. His treasures! The locket! It’s still here. Mundungus hasn’t stolen it! The horcrux is—
“Kreacher!” Hermione shouts excitedly. “I know about the locket! I know how to destroy it!”
And Kreacher freezes. Stares at her. “Destroy…the locket? You know how to do it?” he croaks out.
Then pops away. Pops back. Holding the locket. And beginning to cry. “Master— Master Regulus told Kreacher to destroy it. Kreacher is trying everything. Fire. Smashing. Poison. But is still whispering. Kreacher tried for Master Regulus. You…you know how?”
And he shakily offers it to her.
“Reg?” Sirius whispers hoarsely, face paling. “Hermione…what is that?”
Hermione takes it. Pushes down the growing nausea as the dark magic seeps into her. Calls to her. Worse than before. Dark. Wrong. Broken. Torn.
She looks at Bellatrix instead. “Regulus…didn’t run away” Hermione explains softly. “He didn’t just desert the Cause. He wanted to stop it. He wanted to kill Voldemort. But he knew Voldemort had a secret. Something keeping him alive. So—”
“This is one? Reggie found one?” Bellatrix asks. Reaches for the locket.
Hermione hands it over. “Yes. He had to drink a potion to get it. It weakened him. He didn’t…he told Kreacher to destroy it once he was gone.”
“But Kreacher couldn’t!” Kreacher wails. Looks at Sirius. “Kreacher tried, Master. And it was being a secret. Be sworn to secrecy. But Master was so young. Kreacher tried to help. Tried to save him.”
Sirius stands up. Walks around to sit next to Bellatrix. “He died…to stop him? He died for that?”
And tears fall down Bellatrix’s cheeks. “I didn’t know. I never knew. He just disappeared. I didn’t— Siri, I’m sorry. I should have— have looked out for him, or— or—”
And then she grits her teeth. Stands up. Puts the locket on the table.
Draws her wand.
“Bellatrix…” Hermione says. “Maybe…maybe think this through. Now might not be the—”
Her wand hand is trembling. Tears still fall. She shakes her head at Hermione. “Open it. Go on, open it.”
But—
Sirius opens the locket. Or tries. It doesn’t work, no matter how hard he pulls. It needs…parseltongue.
Hermione looks at the desperate grief on both of these cousin’s faces. On Kreacher’s face. At the fearful determination set into Bellatrix’s features.
Not anger. Grief. Regret.
Well…if they want to do it. It’s what Regulus wanted. His last wish.
“Open,” Hermione hisses. The one word of parseltongue she knows.
Bellatrix flinches.
And the locket clicks open. Falls open. Tom Riddle’s dark eyes staring out at them from each window.
It laughs. The locket laughs, in a strangely warm voice. “Ah, Bellatrix Black. Such a disappointment…”
“Destroy it, Bella!” Sirius shouts. “Don’t listen to it. Kill him!”
“Yes,” the locket hisses. “Listen to him. Kill me. Kill someone else. It’s who you are. I’ve seen your heart, Bellatrix Black. I’ve seen your dreams. Your hopes. But we all know…you’ll never do it. You always fall at the last hurdle. The last step. Time and time again.”
Bellatrix stumbles back. Shakes her head. Her wand lowers.
“You could have stopped me tonight,” the locket continues, “but you didn’t. You’re too afraid. Afraid of what will happen to you. You’re weak. They’ve made you weak. You’re worse now than you ever were with me. Making all the wrong choices. You’re lost without me. Come back, Bella.”
“Bellatrix, don’t listen to him!” Sirius urges. Grabs hold of her. Raises her wand arm. “Whatever he’s talking about, it’s not true. You helped us tonight. You helped me. You’ve been helping me for weeks. And I don’t know why, but— Yes, I do. I do know. It’s because you love me. So thank you. Thank you for being here. You’re— you’re my family, Bella. Don’t listen to him. He’s gone. That’s just a locket. A locket Reg found for us. This is the right choice. Choose this. Choose me. Trust me. Trust yourself. Because you’re a hell of a lot better without him.”
Bellatrix laughs wetly. Nods. Raises her arm. “Avada Kedavra!”
The green light hits. The locket screeches. Worse than the egg. Worse than a dragon. Hermione slams her hands over her ears and watches Sirius close his eyes.
Bellatrix doesn’t. She watches too. Her eyes are wide as she looks around the room. Stares at Hermione. Grabs hold of Sirius, grip so tight she’s white knuckled. As if bracing herself for something.
And then there’s silence.
Sirius’ eyes blink open. Hermione cautiously lowers her hands.
Bellatrix stays frozen in place. Not even breathing. Like she doesn’t dare move.
Sirius hugs her from the side. “You did it! Whatever that was, you did it! Look at that. There you are, Kreacher. Problem solved.”
Bellatrix shakily reaches up and touches her own face, her hair. Pats herself down. “I did it? I…killed it? I did the right thing? It’s gone?” she whispers, still staring across at Hermione.
Hermione nods, not really sure who Bellatrix is talking to. Hovers the locket off the table and over to Kreacher.
Bellatrix laughs. Soft shock. Happy disbelief.
Then turns around to hug Sirius properly. “Merry Christmas, Siri.”
Sirius laughs. Hugs her back. “Merry Christmas, you crazy nut,” he says softly. “What was that about? What— Are you crying all over me? Gross. What a wimp.”
Bellatrix doesn’t reply. Sirius begins cautiously stroking her back.
Hermione tears her eyes away. Gives them a moment, even though she really wants to keep staring. Can’t help it. It’s just so…sweet. But heart-breaking. Bellatrix and Sirius.
Was…this inside Bellatrix all along? Deeply buried? Did she regret killing Sirius, in Hermione’s universe? Or did the other Bellatrix just…never have that relationship? That caring? Where did this come from? When?
She pushes all questions aside for now. Smiles at Kreacher, who now has the locket around his neck, staring down at it in awe.
“Kreacher? Thank you for keeping your promise to Master Regulus. He would have been proud of you. You’re helping to defeat the Dark Lord, just like he wanted.”
Kreacher looks up at her.
Hermione nods. “When you have a moment, could you let my friend Harry know that we’re all okay? That we’re safe? And take a message from him if he has one for us? Harry Potter. He’s Sirius’ godson, and he got hurt tonight. By one of You Know Who’s followers. He’s probably in the Hospital Wing at Hogwarts.”
Kreacher walks towards her. Stands proud. Shuts the locket and tucks it under the sheet he’s wearing.
A clean sheet. Hermione should have noticed the difference. More evidence of Narcissa.
Although why she let Dobby be dressed that way...
Kreacher nods gently. “Of course, Miss Hermione. Friend to the House of Black.”
And he disappears with a pop.
Hermione leans back in her seat with a sigh. Right. Well that’s…everything.
She pulls the bottle of alcohol towards her. Doesn’t know what it is, no label.
Pours a glass and drinks it anyway. Grimaces. It’s strong. Some kind of spirit.
She looks down at her dress and tuts. Of all the outfits. Stuck in this dress. And there won’t be any cosy pyjamas to borrow around here. Unless these two secretly have matching pyjama sets and fluffy dressing gowns.
She laughs to herself. Gods, she’s exhausted. Delirious.
Bellatrix flops back down in the chair next to her.
Sirius pulls up a chair on her other side. “Are you laughing to yourself? Oh dear. That’s the first sign of madness, isn’t it Bella?”
Bellatrix leans closer on one of her hands to look at Hermione, elbow on the table, tears dried. “Nope. Talking to yourself. That’s the first sign. Laughing comes later. She’s further gone than we thought.”
“And she’s drinking. She shouldn’t be drinking. Not at fifteen. Oh, wait…” Sirius hums.
“Yes, how old are you, Granger?” Bellatrix asks innocently. Twirls a curl around her finger. “I told you how old we are, it’s only fair…”
“…that you tell us,” Sirius finishes for her.
Oh Merlin’s balls, what have they unleashed? This is like having the twins on either side of her!
“If I tell you, will you find somewhere for me to sleep?” she groans. “And a change of clothes for the night?”
Bellatrix laughs. “Well there’s somewhere you could sleep. Somewhere you can slip out of that dress.”
Sirius rolls his eyes. “And a spare room. Or six. You’re safe from the cougar.”
Bellatrix reaches over Hermione to smack him on the head. “I’m forty, not a hundred and forty, you cheeky bugger! And I was joking! Granger knows I’m joking, right?”
Hermione stands up. Just laughs. “Joking? Well, that’s a shame,” she smiles, eyes flitting bravely over Bellatrix. “I guess I will go find a spare room, if you’re not offering yours. Maybe Narcissa has left behind some pyjamas I can borrow instead.”
And she heads for the stairs before Bellatrix has a chance to respond. Time for her to get a taste of her own medicine.
Barked laughter echoes after her. “I like her,” Sirius says as she shuts the door. “I can see why you like her, Bells.”
Hermione smiles to herself. Carefully makes her way up the stairs, past the portraits. Watches her step so Warlburga continues snoring.
Off to bed in the House of Black. With a few questions answered, and a thousand more to ask tomorrow.
To her own bed. Alone. Because she’s not that crazy.
Yet.
Chapter 23: Gather for the Holidays
Chapter Text
Hermione ends up sleeping in her underwear, because despite what she said, she would never dare even try to borrow some of Narcissa Malfoy’s clothes, and going in search of Bellatrix’s room also seems dangerous on multiple levels.
No, she finds a clean, empty room and settles in. Empty wardrobe. Nothing under the bed. No boggart, spiders, doxies or other creatures in the drawers.
So that’s good enough for her at Grimmauld.
She does, however, still get woken up very early. To someone banging on her door.
She wraps a sheet around herself. “Who— what— before you come in can you please find me some other clothes?” she shouts confusedly, half-asleep and not wanting to put her stupid ballgown back on.
The banging stops. Loud whispering starts up.
“Your options are baggy shirt or slutty dress!” Sirius shouts. Then yelps. “What? I didn’t say slutty was bad. I have slutty clothes— what do you want me to call it?”
Hermione shuffles towards the door, trying not to laugh. “Shirt and trousers, please, if you don’t mind me shrinking them?”
This time she gets a bark in response. Scampering feet across wooden floors. And then silence.
Hermione rubs at her eyes. Leans against the door. “I’m…guessing you’re still there. Did something happen? Have Dumbledore or Harry replied? Don’t—” The door handle turns. She grabs it. “Boundaries. Please.”
It stills.
“I won’t look,” Bellatrix says quietly. “I was just going to give you Potter’s letter. I’d push it under the door, but Cissy’s charmed all of them. To stop the drafts and the spiders.”
Spiders? Thank you, Narcissa…
Hermione slowly opens the door. Peeks through the gap.
Bellatrix is leaning against the wall. Fully dressed, in a similar but slightly different dress to yesterday that…well slutty is the wrong word, but Sirius has a point about the necklines being a lot more daring than Hermione would be comfortable showing.
Not that she’s looking. That would be rude. Bellatrix can wear what she wants, it doesn’t mean—
And Bellatrix isn’t looking either. She’s kept her promise. Is staring studiously across the hall rather than in Hermione’s direction, even as the door creaks.
Hermione smiles. “Morning. Sorry. I’m not shy or anything, it’s just…boundaries. I feel like everything is happening quite quickly, and even though I do feel safe with you and Sirius, wearing clothes in front of you feels like…a sensible rule not to cross quite yet.”
Bellatrix’s face breaks into a grin. Still facing out into the corridor. She holds out a piece of parchment without turning. “Sounds sensible. Can’t have you wandering around without any clothes. Yet.”
Hermione takes the letter with a laugh. “You’re always on, aren’t you? Can never miss an opportunity.”
Bellatrix shrugs. “Why hold back? Live a little, Granger. Don’t wait. You might miss it. And hurry up and read that.”
Oh. Right… “Did you read it?” she asks as she unrolls it. Broken seal.
“Wagtail did. Knew it was from Potter and thought it might be urgent. Or that’s what he said. He’s not good with boundaries either.”
Hermione nods absentmindedly, already reading.
Hermione,
I’m glad you’re okay. This house-elf said you’re with the House of Black now, so…the house? Are you at the house? That Padfoot went to?
Everything here is crazy! I’m in the Hospital Wing (even though I’m fine, we’re all fine, it’s just Madam Pomfrey making a fuss, my leg is already healed, no scar or anything except…the usual) with Fleur, Luna, that Auror Tonks, and Narcissa Malfoy. Snape and Moody were here too for a bit, but they managed to get out of staying the night (Snape tried to take a hundred points from both of us and said I should be expelled for stunning him, but they wouldn’t let him).
We’re all just here because of the dementors. It was really bad, but once you were safe, we got away, and then Dumbledore, McGonagall and Moody arrived too and the dementors slowly left. Did they follow you?
I think the Ball is over, but I’m not sure. I can’t hear music. And Dumbledore has been in to talk to each of us about what we know. Me and Fleur had to explain some things…and you and Bellatrix are really going to have to explain yourselves. Sorry. What could we say?!
The good thing is, Tonks saw the whole thing and believes us about Pettigrew and Sirius. I didn’t realise she’s Sirius’ niece, I’m kind of related to her now! (And Bellatrix, that’s still weird. As well as Mrs Malfoy. Sirius is related to everyone!) Tonks says Moody already warned the aurors about Pettigrew after he saw him with Bellatrix over the summer. So Sirius could be given another chance! If only we caught Wormtail…
I told Dumbledore that he cut my leg. And it was deep! It was really bleeding. Dumbledore asked if he took any of the blood, like in a vial or something, but I didn’t see. Does that mean he could have used it for that ritual? Do we need to go to that graveyard? Will Voldemort come back? I don’t think he has yet, because Dumbledore would know.
Mr Crouch wants to talk to all of us too, but Madam Pomfrey won’t let him in. Says we need to rest. And everyone is wondering where you’ve gone. McGonagall keeps whisper-arguing with everyone. Dumbledore. Snape. Moody. But I think they all kind of trust Bellatrix a bit now. Because she’s with Sirius, and Sirius is innocent.
But yeah, they all want to know why you went with them, why you helped them, why you didn’t wait in the tunnel and then come back… which is why I think Sirius and Bellatrix are up to something and you’re helping. That’s why they came.
Oh, and Narcissa Malfoy won’t say anything. She says she doesn’t remember how she got here, but I think she’s faking this time. Snape gave her this weird look, and she stepped on his foot. I think on purpose. Maybe it’s a message. And I remember what you said about him being on our side. If Narcissa can’t remember, why was she with them tonight? (I think she’s fake sleeping right now. She’s too still. Has been ever since the house-elf showed up. I had to ask him some questions to prove he came from you, which he did, but he also called her Mistress Narcissa. I’m going to ask her if she wants to send a message. Sirius did say she’s just a spoilt snob like Draco, not evil, and she ran through the dementors to get help…)
Ok, she’s still ‘asleep’. But Tonks, Luna and Fleur say hi. Well, Fleur says you’re an idiot, but she loves you, and something about…if that witch gets you killed, she’ll kill her? So that must mean Bellatrix. Tonks keeps asking about Bellatrix too. I don’t know what to say!
I have way more to say to you, and to ask. I just hope you can come back tomorrow and sort this out. I can’t figure out what you’re going to do, but you always do. Dumbledore said not to worry and that he’ll contact you tomorrow. He says as we all did the right thing, we have nothing to worry about. That we were all brave to help save those in need, and that…it pays to be cautious? I don’t know what that means, because we definitely weren’t cautious.
Anyway, he said he was going to the Burrow tomorrow to order some things and have a Christmas gathering. I didn’t know he saw the Weasleys over Christmas. I’ll have to ask Ron and Ginny about that. He said all were welcome. I might ask Ron if I can go home with him tomorrow as it’s still the Christmas holidays and the Ball is over now.
I feel bad for Fleur and Viktor though, they’re kind of stuck here. Madame Maxime wants to take all the Beauxbatons back to France because it's not safe here, but Fleur has to keep competing, so she can’t go home. Unless…she just comes back for the next task. She really doesn’t want to leave though. It was all in French, but it sounded angry, and Tonks had to pull her back into bed.
I’ll send this now. Sorry I was so slow writing it and that my writing’s not great, we’re supposed to be sleeping and Madam Pomfrey keeps checking on us so I’m writing in secret and have to keep stopping.
See you soon, and say hi to Sirius and Bellatrix for me.
And Merry Christmas!
Harry
Oh. That…is a lot to think through.
But the main thing is—
Sirius skids around the corner, human once again, and stops in front of the door. Mock bows to Hermione and offers her some clothes. “Milady.”
She takes them. Smiles despite herself as he straightens and…Wait.
What is he wearing? Is that…
Hermione laughs. “Is that your ‘slutty’ outfit?”
His shirt is unbuttoned very low, open from just above his belly button. And he’s wearing tight trousers. And knee-high boots. All black. His whole outfit is black. Rings on his fingers. A long necklace.
Is this…to make fun of Bellatrix? Or his actual style when there aren’t any teenagers around?
Bellatrix is staring at him too.
And now glaring.
So there’s the answer.
Hermione quickly shuts the door on them and starts getting changed, relieved that this shirt has buttons up to the neck and that the material is magically alterable.
She shrinks it around her, doing the same with the trousers. Hears some kind of scuffle in the hallway and sighs. “So? Did you figure out Dumbledore’s message too?” she shouts.
“Order meeting at the Burrow today,” Bellatrix calls back. “And he wants us there.”
Hermione walks over to a slightly warped, rusted mirror to check her clothes are alright. And her hair.
It’ll do. She’s seen these two at a lot worse.
She goes back to the door. Yanks it open. “All of us? I really don’t think— well especially you, Bellatrix. You—”
Sirius is tied up on the floor. Tightly bound in black satin ribbons that criss-cross over his back like a corset. Stuck on his stomach, arms trapped to his sides.
He seems okay though. And probably deserved that.
Bellatrix takes her in. Smiles innocently. “Worried? I can defend myself, you know.” She glances at Sirius, her smile turning smug as he wriggles and rolls around.
Hermione folds her arms. “Against the whole Order? Including Dumbledore?”
Bellatrix turns and saunters off down the corridor, hips swaying. Then starts skipping. “What do you mean? I’m the person Dumbledore wants the most. He won’t let anything happen to me. It’s you and Wags that have to be careful.”
What?!
Hermione follows after her. “Why do you think that?! That’s completely—”
Bellatrix scoffs. Turns around. Walks backwards. “He knows I’ve abandoned the Cause. That I'm on the run from both sides. That my life is tied to his tournament. And that I’m an excellent fighter. What’s not to want?”
Oh.
“So…you think he’ll…use you?” Hermione asks slowly, feeling slightly queasy. The Greater Good…
Bellatrix nods. “Time for an exchange. Information for information. Fighting power for political power. I need him too. To let me compete in the tournament. I’m not losing my magic.”
“Hello?!” Sirius shouts from back down the corridor. “I don’t have a wand, you know!”
He doesn’t have a wand?
Of course he doesn’t. Azkaban. He had to use Ron’s wand before, in the Shrieking Shack. So this whole time—
Hermione turns around. Casts a relashio. “You were doing all this without a wand?! You were going to kill Wormtail as a dog?! I can’t believe—”
She spins back around to give Bellatrix a disbelieving look. “Why did you let him do that?! That’s so stupid! Where— How do you have a wand?”
Bellatrix rolls her eyes. “Cissy got mine when I ‘died’. And I told you he’s an idiot. He doesn’t listen to me! Cissy was going to get him a wand from Ollivander’s, but the old crackpot just smiled at her and said ‘the wand chooses the wizard, not the witch’. We’ve sent off for a Gregorovitch one instead. It hasn’t turned up yet.”
Sirius snuffles past them, tail low. Thumps down the stairs.
Definitely an avoidance tactic.
Hermione takes the opportunity to talk to Bellatrix a bit more privately. Joins her, leaning against the banister and looking down at the entrance hall as Sirius pads down and out of sight. “So…you thought this through already,” Hermione whispers. “You told me to tell Dumbledore.”
Bellatrix nods. “Best option,” she murmurs back. “And…you should be alright too. You have information too. Just don’t go giving it all to him straight away. Tell him there are things you can’t tell him. That only you know. And don’t say you’re here to help Potter. Say you’re here by accident.”
Hermione sighs. “I am here by accident.”
Bellatrix snorts. “I know. You have no idea what you’re doing. Worse than me. I read you wrong. Thought you had a plan. But you’re clueless, aren’t you?”
Hermione ignores the jab. And the question. “What’s your plan?” she asks instead.
Doesn’t get a reply. Of course. Bellatrix just keeps staring down at the lower floors. Leans further over the banister.
And further.
Further— tips forward—
Hermione pulls her back.
Bellatrix laughs. “Oh you so care about me! How weird! What the hell kind of future are you from? So you don’t know me? Really?”
Hermione groans frustratedly. “Do you know me? Do you—”
Hermione leans up on the banister too. Tips forward. She’s not worried. She has her wand. Can cast an arresto momentum—
Bellatrix pulls her back, fist clenched in her shirt. “I already saved you from a dragon, what more do you— fine! No! I don’t know you, alright? I just know you now.”
Hermione turns to face her. Finally. “And your plan is—”
“To get through this!” Bellatrix shouts.
Her voice echoes off the walls. Hermione stills.
“To get far away from Azkaban, and never go back!” Bellatrix continues, gesturing wildly. “To make sure Sirius doesn’t get himself hurt, or killed! To teach these bloody kids how to really fight. How not to fight. To take a step back, and be rational, and not be on the frontlines for once. To persuade my sisters to talk to me again, and trust me, and stop looking at me with such…disappointment! I fucked up my life! I’m trying again. And I have no fucking idea if I’m in the right place, or if I’m doing it right, or if I’ll just make another mistake and be sent right back. But then— but then there’s you!”
She waves her hands confusedly at Hermione. Splayed fingers. Empty hands. Cracking voice. “You’re not supposed to be here! You’re from the future! Which means— which means you must know if I fuck this up.”
And her words fade once more. Spiral down. From the penultimate floor to the bottom, no longer loud enough to set off the portrait of Warlburga.
Bellatrix leans against the banister again. Rests her arms on it. Her head on her arms, face half hidden. Looking out. “And you…you keep watching me,” she says quietly. “And I can’t tell…if you’re scared…or not.”
Oh.
Answers. Some answers.
Is…Did Hermione get this wrong? Is Bellatrix from another universe?
Or is she from this one? And just decided to change?
But then how does she have Harry’s cloak?
Hermione…takes a slow breath. And releases it. Tries to decide…how much to say.
Stands next to Bellatrix. Against her. Sides brushing.
And…places a hand on her arm. Okay then. Answers for answers. “I’m…not from here, Bellatrix,” she says gently. “I’m not from this…future. So I can’t tell you what will happen. But I can tell you that…I don’t know you. I only know you now. And I— I’m not scared of you.”
Because…she’s not. Not really. Whatever fear she had…has faded. Or split off. There’s the Bellatrix that hurt her…and this one. That hasn’t hurt her at all. That has probably done some horrible things too, just admitted that, but is ashamed of it. Of what she did. Of her actions. Her beliefs. Her prejudice. Has spent ten years hiding.
Bellatrix turns her head. Still resting on her arms.
So now her mouth is very close to Hermione’s hand.
Bellatrix raises an eyebrow. “Not scared? Not even a little?”
Hermione smiles down at her. Almost shakes her head. Because right now, Bellatrix is anything but scary.
But other times... “Well, okay,” Hermione admits. “Maybe a little. Is anyone not intimidated by you?”
Bellatrix bites her lip. Considering. “Yes. A lot of people. Cissy…Frank…Lovegood…Ratty...”
Hermione laughs. “Ratty isn’t a person. And how would you know? How can you tell if a rat is intimidated?”
Bellatrix smiles. Stands up straight.
Reaches under her dress and pulls out a rat. Which…where on Earth…?
No explanation, Bellatrix just runs down the corridor. Puts the rat at the end. Runs back.
And crouches down. “Come here, Ratty! Come to Bella!”
For a moment, the rat just sits there. Cleans its paws. Its face.
Then walks away.
Bellatrix laughs, standing up. “See! If he was scared, he would have done as he was told!”
She— What— what? “That’s complete nonsense!” Hermione exclaims. “That’s— So if he’d come to you—”
“—Then that would show he loves me,” Bellatrix finishes with a grin. Leans closer to Hermione, cupping her hands around her mouth. “Sometimes, the rules are fixed!” she whispers loudly. Winks.
Hermione laughs again. Smiles back. She’s so…
Cute.
Uh oh.
And Bellatrix grabs her. “Now, come on! Breakfast. Then the Burrow. You’re going to need your energy if you’re going to play human shield for me and Wagtail. Dumbledore didn’t say a time, so we’re going to have to just show up and hope Molly Weasley doesn’t have a heart attack. Or kill us.”
Killed by Mrs Weasley? Well that’s an unfortunate—
And she starts dragging Hermione down the stairs.
Hermione tries to push her off. Then clings on as she accidentally misses a step. “We’ll both die in a second if you don’t— careful! Stop— why are you pulling me and—”
“You’re not scared of me. So I don’t have to hold back anymore. Such a relief. Do you know how hard it’s been avoiding getting too close or—”
Hermione casts a silencio at her to cut her off as they reach the last staircase, next to the portrait. Finally manages to pull Bellatrix to a stop. Walks them slowly and calmly to the kitchen door.
Cancels the silencio, and gives the witch a stern look. “Boundaries. Just because I’m not scared doesn’t mean you can touch me without my permission. Don’t you know that? You must do. You were a professor, and you never touched anyone inappropriately.”
Bellatrix ducks her head. “I wasn’t friends with anyone as Moody. He’s a paranoid bastard. Wouldn’t touch anyone. Wouldn’t be friends with anyone.”
Friends?
Hermione clears her throat. “Oh. You’re…touching me because we’re friends?”
Bellatrix’s head shoots up. She smiles slyly. Leans past Hermione to push open the door. Leans close. “We can be more than friendly if you want,” she purrs close to Hermione’s ear. “My room’s still open. Were you cold last night? We—”
Nope! This is not— focus, Hermione! Ignore— hot breath and—
Hermione turns around. Trots down the steps into the basement and takes a seat at the kitchen table. “Good morning, Kreacher. This looks nice. Thank you for…”
Breakfast. And Sirius reading the Prophet whilst he drinks his coffee.
There’s a picture of Hermione and Fleur on the front page. Dancing. Uhh…
Sirius smiles at her toothily from over the paper. “The ball looked fun. We really did interrupt, didn’t we? French? Witch? Veela? Stunning blonde? All of the above?”
“What?!” Bellatrix shouts. “Delacour?! I told you to stay away from— give me that!”
She snatches the paper from Sirius. Leafs through it. Paces behind Hermione. “Bla bla bla…dementors…cut short…Harry Potter…mysterious disappearance…Hogwarts champion and date, Fleur Delacour! What— She’s a rival champion! What kind of diplomatic nightmare is that?!”
Hermione scoffs. “That’s your problem? She’s a champion? I told you, I like her. And I trust her. She’s my friend.” She takes a sip of orange juice. Shrugs. Probably time to come out. “And a very good kisser. She’s taught me a lot,” she manages to say calmly, even if her face is heating up a bit.
There’s a beat of dead silence.
Then Sirius bursts out laughing. Points behind Hermione at Bellatrix. “Ha! Oh! Oh, you were stuck in a creepy old man’s body and— and now Granger— Gods, that’s the best thing I’ve heard in ages! So she’s your girlfriend?” he asks Hermione, wiping tears from his eyes.
There’s a suspicious silence from behind her. It’s…still quite intimidating, actually.
But Hermione just pours herself some cereal. “We haven’t labelled it. Nothing exclusive. We’re just…having fun whilst she’s here for the tournament. She really is a very good friend. A very talented witch.”
“I bet she is,” Sirius snorts.
The door to the kitchen slams shut.
Oops.
Hermione turns around. Gone.
She cringes. Turns back to Sirius.
Eats some more cereal in the awkward silence. Watches him sip his coffee. “Does…was that…does Bellatrix really like me?” Hermione whispers cautiously. “I thought she was just…flirty!”
Sirius frowns. “That’s what I thought too,” he muses. “I was just teasing. I didn’t think…shit. She’s a bit hard to gauge.”
Hermione drops her spoon. Well, obviously! “You think?” she says sarcastically. “She’s the most difficult person to gauge. What— what has she told you? About who she is? Or about me?”
He sighs. “Not very much. She avoids it. She’s hiding something still, I just don’t know what. But… I think I was wrong about her. Didn’t give her the benefit of the doubt when— she spoke to me in Azkaban. Years ago. Spoke to me the whole time she was there. Told me that she was going to make things right. No more killing, ‘sharing her power’ or something like that. She didn’t want to…be selfish anymore. Kept telling me she loved me, and that I was going to get out. That it wasn’t my fault. That she knew I was innocent, that my— my friends would be proud of me. That I— I had to— that Harry needed me, so I had to be strong. She—”
And the door bangs open again. Bellatrix. With the Prophet still, but also some parchment, and a quill and ink.
She walks around the table and sits down next to Sirius, passing her armful of stuff across to Hermione. “Here. You should write to Delacour and let her know…well, whatever. It must suck for her being stuck at the Castle without you. And she hates the cold. She must be miserable. And worried.”
Oh. Well—
Will she stop changing her personality every five seconds! So she wasn’t angry or jealous or—
“You know her?” Hermione asks as that fact registers in her brain. The cold. How does Bellatrix know that Fleur is always so cold?
Bellatrix gives her a weird look. “I was the DADA professor. The only DADA professor. I know all the students. All of their strengths and weaknesses. She…well, you’re right. She’s talented. Quick. A good fighter. Too quick to anger, but it works well for her. But too arrogant. That will cost her. She’s probably never failed in her life. If she wants something, she gets it. She’s a bit like Cissy that way. It’ll be a steep learning curve when she enters the real world.”
Hermione frowns. “She understands the real world. She’s part veela. She’s had to put up with that. How people see her. Or don’t see her. In the real world.”
Bellatrix reaches for some toast with a considering nod. “True. I’ll give you that. Must be a fucking nightmare having wizards all over her all the time. Or wanting to be all over her.”
And she suddenly grabs Sirius’ face. Turns him towards her. “Promise me you won’t flirt with her, Wagtail. That you’ll leave her alone. Resist the thrall.”
Sirius pulls back, coughing and rubbing at his face. “I was drinking! What was that— I’ve never even met the witch! But fine, I promise, I guess.”
Bellatrix nods. Butters her toast. “Good. Because you will meet her. She’s eighteen. A champion. Has to stay here for the tournament too, and…well, she won’t be leaving Hermione. Dumbledore will snap her up in an instant. New recruit. She came to help with the dementors, remember? But didn’t cast a patronus. Another brave soul with a bit of self-sacrifice in them.”
Hermione stares across the table at Bellatrix. “You…do this with everyone? Figure them out?” she murmurs. “Strengths and weaknesses?”
Bellatrix chews. Swallows. Shrugs. “Have to know people’s weaknesses to help them. Plus it’s interesting. Plus she’s got herself involved with you, which means she’s involved in all this. Plus…”
And she grins. Picks up the Prophet again to look at the pictures on the front page. “Plus, she’s part veela. Stunning. You think I’m not watching her? I’m not blind! Ugh, and she can dance too. You can both dance? Why couldn’t I have gone to the Ball? Siri, we miss out on all the fun! And look at the way she—”
Don’t—
Hermione snatches the paper back. Folds it up. “No more staring. It’s rude,” she grits out. “And we need to hurry up and finish breakfast.”
She looks down and focuses on her cereal, not that she’s very hungry. Her stomach is— will people stop gawping at Fleur for her looks? It’s…it cheapens her. So what if she’s part veela? Yes, she’s beautiful, but she’s also so kind, and warm, and funny and—
“Lesbians,” Sirius mutters under his breath.
“How’s Moony, Wagtail?” Bellatrix asks. “Hmm? Written to him yet? You know, he’s a member of the Order. Guess we’ll be seeing him today. You going to change your outfit, or—”
Sirius jerks to his feet, chair falling over. “You think he’ll be there? Shit!”
Hermione looks up. Oh. Oh!
She smiles at Sirius. “Maybe you shouldn’t change your outfit. It might be a good distraction. A talking point. If you’re nervous, or—”
“I’m not nervous!”
He’s so nervous. She’s never seen Sirius this…jumpy.
Bellatrix cackles. Stands up and pushes at him. “Then let’s get ready to go! I think we’re done with breakfast. Go wash your paws, and clean your teeth, and—”
Sirius walks off. “I’m having a bath. I haven’t had a bath in— Which bath works now? Which one did Cissa— never mind. I’ll find it. I’ll ask— Kreacher!”
The door swings shut behind him.
Hermione laughs. “He likes Lupin? They’re together?” She’d never known that. Although she’d had some suspicions. She’d caught a few looks. Softly spoken words.
Bellatrix shrugs. “Dunno. They had something going on at Hogwarts, and maybe after, but I wasn’t…Cissy thinks so. But she was out of the loop too.”
Hermione starts clearing up, smiling to herself. Sends some dishes to the sink. “You…gossiped with Narcissa about this?”
Bellatrix hovers things back into the cupboards too, peeking into them as she drifts around the room curiously, still munching on some toast. “Of course! Wags loves the bloke, either as a friend or more. We needed to know about him. And there isn’t much left to talk about after a decade of—”
She breaks off.
“Right,” Hermione says. “Draco…told us you lived there. Hid there. For…most of his life, I guess.”
Bellatrix pauses. Strokes her hand over a cupboard.
Then turns to smile. “He was a really annoying toddler. Always crying, and whinging. Snotty. One of those permanently snotty kids. Gross.”
And she walks off too. Up the steps to the door.
“You saw him? Met him? He said you were a secret,” Hermione calls.
Bellatrix laughs. “Who really remembers being two? Or three? Had to meet my nephew, didn’t I? Even if I…had to disappear afterwards. I was imaginary…for a while.”
She opens the door. “Write that letter to Delacour, Granger. It’s still early. We have time.”
And she’s gone.
Hermione looks down at the Prophet. Unfolds it. Watches herself dance with Fleur. Watches them smile. Laugh.
Photo-Fleur meets her eye. Over her other self’s shoulder. Stares through the paper at her.
Hermione waves.
Fleur rolls her eyes through a smile. Pulls Hermione close and turns them around.
Dances away across the ballroom.
They decide that Hermione should be the one to go through the floo first. No-one will raise a wand at her. Hopefully.
She takes a last breath. Grabs the floo powder. “I’ll come back in a few minutes to get you. Or not. Depending if— don’t come through until I’m ready.”
She aims that mainly at Sirius. Because he’s an idiot, and Bellatrix isn’t.
He crosses his heart. Over his bare chest.
The slutty outfit has stayed. These cousins are quite the pair.
Oh gods what has Hermione gotten herself into?
Just go! It’s Mrs Weasley, not a dragon!
She throws down the powder, shouts the address, and spins away into green flames—
Steps out of the fire. Into the living room. At the Burrow. Straight into a group of people.
Silence.
And then Hermione is being hugged tightly. Red hair tickling her chin. “You’re okay! Thank fuck—”
“Ginevra Molly Weasley! When did you sneak in here? Out! Up to your room! Now!”
Ginny pulls back. “But Mum! She’s my friend! And I know about Sirius, and Bellatrix, and—”
Mrs Weasley pushes past Moody and Tonks, almost knocking them over, wand raised. “And you will be sent back to Hogwarts in a minute if you don’t do as you’re told. Upstairs with the boys!”
Ginny freezes.
Glances at a suspiciously empty corner of the room.
Are they under the cloak?
And Ginny is ferried away up the stairs by Mrs Weasley.
Hermione looks around. It really is everyone. Dumbledore in a nearby armchair. Mr Weasley hovering anxiously but excitedly. But also more people at the long dining table. McGonagall. Kingsley.
Lupin. He did come. He…Oh Hermione forgot…
There he is. Looking tired, but younger than she remembers. Sipping at a cup of tea. Alive. It’s so strange, so ordinary, so…
And with Tonks here too. But they haven’t gotten together yet. Probably don’t know each other at all, Tonks standing with Moody instead. She might not even be in the Order yet. This might be her first meeting.
No Snape. The only noticeable absence. But everyone else…
Dumbledore stands up. “Welcome, Miss Granger. As Miss Weasley so…colourfully put, I’m sure everyone here is very relieved to see you unhurt. You are…unhurt, of course?”
Hermione smiles. Shrugs awkwardly, gesturing to herself. “I’m fine, thank you.”
Then doesn’t know what else to say. Where to start.
Lupin clears his throat. “Come and sit down, Hermione. You’ve had a difficult night. Arthur, do you have any chocolate, or—”
“Bellatrix and Sirius already gave me some,” Hermione interrupts. Walks over to sit with him as the silence grows thicker. “Because that’s who I’ve been with. The reason we’re all here, right? Partly?”
Dumbledore laughs. “Quite right. Perhaps we should move things along.”
He takes a seat at the head of the table. McGonagall on one side, Kingsley on the other.
Everyone else joins them. Mr and Mrs Weasley opposite Hermione and Lupin. Tonks next to her.
Moody stays standing, even though there’s a space next to Kingsley. Stands in the corner by the back door instead, watching the door and the fireplace.
It’s still weird seeing him.
Dumbledore sighs. “Now then. First things first. I believe it is now abundantly clear, and needs to be officially acknowledged, that Sirius Black is innocent. He was not the secret keeper for Lily and James. Peter Pettigrew was. Peter Pettigrew betrayed his friends, framed Sirius for the murder of many innocent bystanders, and faked his own death by hiding in his animagus form. As a rat. A rat, that Alastor, Miss Tonks, and I believe many of the children have seen.”
Muttering breaks out. Lupin nods. “It’s true. I saw him too, last year. Last summer. Sirius was— he is truly innocent. Should never have gone to— he should— why wasn’t there a trial, Headmaster? Why—”
“You’ve known all this time?” McGonagall interrupts. “Whilst the poor man has been in hiding? And Mr Potter! Does he know? Does—”
“But he was with Bellatrix!” Tonks shouts.
All falls quiet again.
Tonks turns to look at Hermione. “What’s with Bellatrix? She’s the one that’s the big mystery. She saved you. She didn’t hurt Mad-Eye. She taught all you kids to fight. And she was yelling at Potter to get away right before Pettigrew attacked. My mum don’t even mention her or nothing because she’s so horrible. After the things she’s done. What she believes about bloodpurity, that we’re traitors, that my Dad ain’t worthy or all that crap. So what gives? What gives with her talking to you?”
Hermione looks around at everyone. Raises her chin. Looks them all in the eye. “Bellatrix has changed. We’ve all seen it. And I…I’m vouching for her. She’s not a bloodpurist anymore. She’s not a Death Eater anymore. She’s…my friend, and I trust her. Because I know what she used to be like, but she’s changed. She wants to change.”
Lupin bursts into hoarse laughter. As do a few other people. Scoffs of disbelief. “You don’t know her, Miss Granger,” Lupin says softly. Patronisingly. “Not at all. If you really knew who she was, you never—”
“Sirius trusts her,” Hermione snaps. “And she loves Sirius. She told him. She’s looking after him. She found him.”
She stands up. Begins listing, counting on each finger. “She’s caring for Sirius. She saved me from a dragon. She gave Neville Longbottom a book that could help him heal his parents. She has pet creatures that she cares for every day. She’s forbidden her house-elf from calling me a mudblood. She has a friend who is a muggle. And last night she helped me and Sirius stop Voldemort from returning from the dead.”
Her voice echoes around the room. She glares at them all. Daring them to argue. “So. There’s seven reasons. Seven ways I know her. How many more do you want?”
“Stopped You Know Who…returning?” Mrs Weasley whispers.
Oh.
Hermione deflates. Sits back down. Looks at Dumbledore. Then at Tonks. “That’s why Pettigrew came to the Ball. He came to get blood from Harry. To perform a ritual. Bone of the father, unknowingly given, you will renew your son. Flesh of the servant, willingly given, you will revive your master. Blood of the enemy, forcibly taken, you will resurrect your foe.”
She rubs at her eyes with a sigh. “Bellatrix and Sirius were tracking Pettigrew. Bellatrix knew about the ritual. Knew where to find the grave of Voldemort’s father. She took us there. Sirius vanished the bones in time. Because she told him. Because she helped us.”
“She’s changed sides,” McGonagall says quietly. “Bellatrix Black.”
Oh. Hope. Such hope. Such…sad hope.
Hermione nods. “And she wants to come here. To share information. They both do. They’re waiting for me to tell them it’s safe. That you won’t hurt them, or send them back to Azkaban. That you won’t turn them in.”
And muttering breaks out once more.
“Here? Here?! My children are here!”
“— two of them at once—”
“— the whole Order! Access to—”
“Now? Sirius is coming now?”
“— and we can’t forget the Longbottoms—”
“Hey!” comes a shout from the living room.
And Harry is suddenly there. And Ron, looking like he wants to sink into the carpet. Or vanish back under the cloak as his parents glare at him.
“Hermione is right,” Harry says, coming forward, head held high. “They’re not dangerous. I’ve met both of them too. And— and think how scared they are! They’re trusting all of us. We could send them back to Azkaban. They’re outnumbered. And if what Hermione said is true, they just betrayed Voldemort! They almost died from the dementors to try to save me. Neither of them can cast a patronus. There were hundreds of dementors. But they came anyway. Even after Azkaban. They were brave. Shouldn’t— shouldn’t we be brave too? Let them in? Sirius is my family. My only family. And— well I guess Bellatrix is too. And you, Tonks. They’re our family.”
A few mouths open to argue, but no argument comes. Harry gets soft looks instead. Teary eyes.
Lupin clears his throat. Stands up. “Well said, Harry. But…I’d like you to know…that we’re your family too. You can choose people to be your family. Blood doesn’t matter.”
Harry runs a hand through his hair. Smiles awkwardly. Looks at Ron and Hermione. “I know. The…well the Weasleys are my family too—”
Mrs Weasley gasps wetly, tears already filling her eyes.
“— And Hermione,” Harry continues. “And…and all of you are…you fought with my parents. Fought for the Light. You are the Light. So if people want to join us and help…shouldn’t we let them? Forgive them? Like— like Professor Snape, right?”
Dumbledore chuckles. “Like Professor Snape indeed. I should no longer be surprised at how wise you are, Harry, but it seems I keep forgetting, and you continue to surpass my greatest expectations.”
And he turns to Hermione. “Why don’t you go and fetch our guests? I believe there is room at the table for two more. They are most welcome.”
Okay. Okay, it…feels like he means it. Seems like they’ve done it. They won’t fight in front of Harry, right?
Hermione moves over to the fireplace.
“You cannot be serious, Albus!” Moody barks.
“Extremely,” Dumbledore says firmly.
And Hermione throws the floo powder in and shouts the address, knowing the fidelius charm will stop anyone hearing. Sticks her head in the flames.
Looks up at two very quiet, twitchy Blacks. Smiles. “You can come through. Both of you. Harry and I have talked them around. It’s a full house though, just to warn you.”
“Harry’s there?” Sirius whispers.
Then almost steps on her head.
Hermione crawls back. “Sirius! Be careful! You—”
And he walks through. Alone.
Steps into the living room, brushing the powder off himself.
Then turns and grins at the table. “Good morning, everyone! Or is it lunchtime yet? Anything cooking, Molly?”
“Sirius!” Harry shouts. “You’re— you look—”
He drifts off confusedly as he notices the outfit.
Sirius laughs. “Dashing? Merry Christmas, Harry. I’m sorry I couldn’t send you a gift in time. I’ll have to think of something, once my assets are a bit more liquid and less frozen.”
“Spent your inheritance already, have you?” Lupin calls. Smiles fondly. “I told you not to buy that motorbike.”
And Sirius is already across the room, pulling him up to hug him. “You’re looking pale, Moony. Time of the month?”
Lupin laughs. “Just passed. You’re safe. And looking…”
He pulls back. Looks Sirius over. “You look…alright,” he says in surprise.
Sirius barks out a laugh. “Alright? I look bloody fantastic— sorry, Molly, language, kids, I know, and oh, hi, Dora. Tonks. Remember me? Probably not. Your mum kept me away. Bad influence. She wanted to keep you out of the war. Looks like you took after me, though. Or maybe Bella—”
And he finally stops talking. Snaps his mouth shut. Wow. What was that? Very manic. Rambling. He really is nervous.
And now looks like he’s biting his own tongue.
Steps back from Lupin. Looks towards the fireplace. Whines. Doglike.
“Is Bellatrix coming too?” Harry asks innocently from the edge of the sofa.
Molly gets up. “Upstairs with you. Come on. You shouldn’t be down here anyway.”
“And neither should Hermione!” she adds, as if she just remembered. “Hermione, dear? Why don’t you go upstairs to Ginny’s room and—”
Hermione laughs gently. “No, thank you, Mrs Weasley. I think I’m better off here. I’ll go and see what’s keeping Bellatrix.”
Mrs Weasley frowns. Pauses, pushing Harry and Ron up the stairs. “What? Oh. No. Now, I know what you said, and it’s very kind of you dear that you feel…sorry for the witch. But what you don’t understand is—”
“I do. I really do,” Hermione pushes.
Sirius laughs. “Knows more than all of us combined,” he mutters. “Go and get her. She went looking for her rat, but I think that was just an excuse. She’s scared.”
And he ruffles Lupin’s hair. “We finally found it, Moony. Something Bella’s scared of.”
Lupin frowns, hair stuck up everywhere. “And what’s that?”
Sirius sits down where Hermione had been. “Brightest witch of her age? She’s scared of failure. She’s trying to be good. To do the right thing. So. This is quite the test, isn’t it? We’d better send our other brightest witch to help her along.”
And he turns to smile at Hermione. Gestures to the fireplace.
Failure? That’s her fear?
That is kind of what the Harry-boggart said…
Brightest witch of her age. She hadn’t expected her own fear of failure to correlate quite that closely. But it does make sense.
She glances at McGonagall, suddenly hit with the strange image of her coming out of a wardrobe for teenage Bellatrix too.
Then shakes the thought away. Walks over to the fireplace. “None of you draw your wands,” she says firmly.
Grabs the floo powder—
And the floo sounds just as she moves to step in. Bellatrix steps out. Smacks into her. “Oh shit! Granger!”
And they go falling onto the carpet. Oof!
Ow.
Hermione groans. Rubs her chin. “Ow! You head butted me in the— What are you—”
Bellatrix is reaching between them. Hands groping, and searching, and—
Hermione pushes her off. “Seriously?! Boundaries! What is wrong with—”
Bellatrix finds the rat. Grabs the rat.
Ratty.
She sits up and looks him over carefully. “We almost squashed him! Do you think he’s hurt? Can you do a diagnostic spell on animals? Diagnostico!”
Some lights shine off his little body. Different colours. “Uh…is that good or bad?” Hermione asks.
Bellatrix tuts. “I don’t know. But no red, so that seems good.”
She taps his nose. Strokes his head. Runs a careful finger over him. He doesn’t squeak or flinch.
Hermione strokes him too. Checks his ribs. Smiles. “He seems okay, Bellatrix.”
Bellatrix smiles back. Sighs in relief. Puts him back under her skirt somewhere, winking at Hermione.
Then looks up. As does Hermione.
Everyone is staring at them.
Which is kind of expected. Shock, luckily, rather than fear or anger.
Bellatrix smiles weirdly. “It’s not Pettigrew, I swear. Different rat. My rat. Real rat. Ratty. Oh. Hi, Potter. Nice socks. Christmas present?”
Hermione rubs at her face tiredly. Blacks. They really are awkward when they’re nervous.
And always know how to make an entrance.
Chapter 24: Get a Room
Chapter Text
Harry looks down at his sock, taking a few steps down the stairs. “Uh, yeah. Luna got them for me. Or made them, I think. Did…you have a nice Christmas?”
Oh. He actually does have quite unusual socks on. Mismatched. She can’t quite see—
Stand up, Hermione! What are you doing?
She gets up off the floor, accepting a helping hand from Bellatrix, who laughs softly. “Yeah, our Christmas was okay. Other than the dementors. And we didn’t exactly get each other any presents. Can’t go shopping when you’re on the run.”
She turns to point accusingly at Dumbledore. “Which Sirius shouldn’t be! When are you going to tell everyone he’s innocent? You’ve known for ages now! You should clear his name!”
Dumbledore raises an eyebrow. “And your name?”
Bellatrix lowers her hand. Twitches. Glances to the fireplace.
Looks back to the table. “Well, I’m not innocent, am I?” she says quietly. “The Ministry will want me…back behind bars. Safe behind bars. Where I can’t hurt anyone else.”
“Ah,” Dumbledore says. “So you have hurt people?”
And at this Bellatrix frowns. Steps closer. “Yes? You know who I am, right? You all— Do I need to introduce myself? I thought it was obvious.”
Tonks scoffs. “You don’t need no introduction. We all know who you are. It’s just fishy you’ve had such a personality flip.”
Bellatrix looks at her. And looks at her. Stares at Tonks, almost longingly. It’s a bit weird.
Hermione nudges her. “Stop it!” she hisses.
Bellatrix nudges her back. “No. Stop telling me what to do!”
And she walks over to sit down at the far end of the table, two empty seats from Tonks.
Everyone watches her warily. Wands twitch. But don’t draw. Although some chairs squeak back, and there are a lot of glances at Dumbledore.
Who seems as calm and relaxed as ever.
Hermione glances at Harry and Ron, still stood at the bottom of the stairs. Waves and mouthes a hello. Gets a couple of smiles.
Then goes to sit next to Bellatrix.
Dumbledore clears his throat. “Miss Granger, If I might ask you a rather personal question?”
Personal?
Umm…has he caught her staring at Bellatrix or something? Has she been staring? She doesn’t think so. She’s kind of pushed those thoughts aside. It’s more sensible. Even though she knows it’s fine and— Is this a gaydar thing? Has he picked up on their…whatever it is? Like everyone did with her and Fleur?
Dumbledore chuckles quietly. “I thought that might be a bit of an uncomfortable question, but in the spirit of trust and openness for which you have so valiantly advocated, I would just like to ask…how old are you, Miss Granger?”
Oh. Shit. Fuck.
“Well, she’s fifteen, I think, Headmaster,” Mrs Weasley says. “Yes? Your birthday was in September, wasn’t it dear.”
Hermione smiles weakly.
“Yeah, that’s right,” Ron says from behind her. “Few months older than us, isn’t she Harry? Almost a year older than you.”
Harry clears his throat. “The oldest in our year.”
Bellatrix and Sirius both start coughing. Hands over their mouths. Not disguising their laughter at all.
Not helpful.
Tonks looks back and forth between them. “What is it? You two had better not give us some weird illness. Because it sounds weird. Whooping cough? What you laughing at?”
Bellatrix stops laughing. Leans to whisper to Hermione. “He knows. No point hiding it any longer. Go on. Tell us.”
Hermione holds back a shiver, because apparently her body just does that now when witches whisper in her ear. She blames Fleur.
Fleur, who also knows. Fleur knows. Bellatrix knows. Sirius knows. Harry and Ron and Ginny know. Snape knows. Dumbledore knows.
And it would mean she might get out of going to fourth-year classes. No more History of Magic…
She sighs. “Fine. Fine, I—”
She turns to look at Bellatrix and Sirius instead. Tells them. “Twenty-five. I’m twenty-five. Happy?”
There’s a pause.
Bellatrix looks her up and down again, eyebrow raising. “Hmm. I was about right, then.”
Tonks blinks at Hermione too. Realisation spreading across her face. “You…ain’t a kid. You ain’t a teenager. I thought you looked my age! Just thought cos you was with Ginny— But how?”
Hermione smiles. Shrugs. Remembers what Bellatrix said about answers. “I can’t tell you much. Time-travel. Accidental. I’m not here on purpose. And I probably shouldn’t say anything else. There are rules.”
Bellatrix laughs again. Loudly. Bursts out laughing. “Sorry! Nothing! Didn’t mean— You wouldn’t get it. Inside joke. Me to me.”
She keeps laughing. Obviously trying to stop, but whatever it is has tickled her.
Hermione smiles nervously at everyone’s slightly terrified faces. “Ignore her. She’s a bit mad,” she jokes.
And now Sirius is laughing too. “She’s mad? You, Hermione, are completely insane! So casual. ‘I’m from the future, but don’t mind me, don’t ask any questions. Don’t ask why I’m suddenly best friends with Bellatrix’. Even I don’t understand how that happened!”
Wha— “She’s not my— best friend? It’s not— she’s your cousin. I just…this just…”
Bellatrix’s laughter stops. “Are you two fighting over not being friends with me? Well that’s just great! Thanks a lot! Nice to know.”
Sirius grins at her. “Sorry, Bells. My best friend spot is already filled, right Remus?” He throws an arm around Lupin. “You could try someone else.”
McGonagall clears her throat. “Would you all perhaps take this a bit more seriously?” she snaps. “This is— Time-travel? This is a serious matter. A serious claim.”
“Serious,” Tonks mutters under her breath. Or maybe ‘Sirius’.
McGonagall glares. “Miss Tonks. Sit up straight and behave. You are not too old for me to take points from Hufflepuff House.”
Tonks quickly straightens, hair flickering to mousy and back.
“It is serious,” Bellatrix suddenly says, humour gone. A dark edge to her voice. “So Granger is right. The less we talk about it the better.”
“And who made you the expert, Black?” Moody barks. “You’re sitting there very confidently for someone who infiltrated Hogwarts not long ago. Who is responsible for the torture of two of our own, and the deaths of countless others!” he growls. Hits his staff on the floor, making everyone jump.
Bellatrix doesn’t jump. Tilts her head sideways. Gives him a considering look. “I can take three to one,” she says gently. “You have eight to one. Eight to two, if you don’t trust Sirius at all, but he doesn’t have a wand, as you’ve probably noticed.”
She gestures lightly at the back door. “Four exits. One nearest you.”
Moody’s eye whizzes around. His fingers tap on the staff.
“I have killed,” Bellatrix continues quietly, not needing to raise her voice in the silence. “I have tortured people for information. I fought in a war. You think I’m self-serving. Can’t be trusted to stick to a side. I’ve turned on the Dark Lord. But I’m a Slytherin. I have goals. Ambitions. And I’ve decided that Voldemort isn’t all he’s cracked up to be. Doesn’t have the right view of the world. That bloodpurity isn’t as significant as my family made it out to be. That the world is a hell of a lot bigger, and more complicated, and pretty pointless, actually. There’s no rhyme or reason to anything. Except for love. Except for family. Except for what you make of it, and the people by your side, and the fight you choose. And I think you know that I’m not self-serving. That I can be trusted to stick to a side. Because I may be a Slytherin, but that means I’d do anything for what I believe in. I’ve stuck my neck out here, Moody. I’ve rolled the dice and come here knowing it might be the bloody end of me. That I might be shipped off back to hell on Earth. But I came. And I want the Dark Lord fucking dead, do you?”
He just nods in response. Grunts. Probably because…what the hell do you say to that? Wow. What— that was…
Hermione stares at Bellatrix, slightly in awe of how…
She’s not sure. Doesn’t know what it is. That was just very impressive. She’s so impressive.
Bellatrix nods too. “Good. Because I am the expert. Here I am. Dark Lord Expert. Right-hand gone rogue. Want to know what he eats for breakfast? Used to eat. Now he milks a snake. Or Wormtail does.”
There’s a pause as her words sink in.
Hermione grimaces. “Snake milk? I thought you were joking. Snakes don’t produce milk! That’s so disgusting— what does that mean?”
Bellatrix turns to Hermione and bares her teeth. Taps her canines with her nails. “No, milk the venom. Extract it. For a potion. Of course there isn’t milk.”
Right, because drinking venom makes so much more sense.
Dumbledore claps. “I think perhaps now would be a good time for Miss Granger and Miss Black to excuse themselves so we might deliberate on how and what information they should provide us with. As Bellatrix and Minerva have pointed out, this needs to be taken seriously. Too much or too little knowledge could have drastic consequences. So, for a moment…perhaps they might adjourn to another room?”
Uhh…
“Just them? Not me?” Sirius frowns.
“Do you know anything?” Moody huffs bluntly.
Sirius opens his mouth. Closes it. “Well, no, I suppose not.”
“I’m not leaving him in here alone!” Bellatrix hisses. Walks around to stand behind Sirius. “What are you planning? What— he’s staying with me!”
Lupin turns to look at her. “He can stay. No-one here will hurt him.”
There’s a bit of an emphasis on here. That doesn’t go unnoticed.
Sirius squeezes his shoulder, looking at Bellatrix apologetically.
“Where exactly should they go?” Arthur cautiously jumps in. “When you say another room…well, I suppose there are the bedrooms. Percy’s is free. But the other kids…”
“It’s alright, Dad,” Ron says. “It’s just Hermione. And…uh…well we’ve been at school with Bellatrix almost all year without anyone knowing.”
Bellatrix laughs. “Don’t think you’re helping there, Weasley.”
“I think the children would enjoy a nice walk in the snow, don’t you?” Kingsley says calmly. “It’s Christmastime. They can go out and enjoy the fresh air. Throw a snowball or two.”
“Oh yes!” Mrs Weasley says, jumping on the idea. “Ron, hurry on up there and get your sister and the twins—”
“But Mum!”
“—And don’t forget your hats and scarves. Harry, I’m sure you’ll find some warm clothes by the door—
“Mrs Weasley, I—”
“—Might want to borrow some wellies, yes, there’s a good lad, by Mr Moody. And Hermione— oh.”
And Mrs Weasley finally runs out of steam, staring at Hermione as she remembers. Twenty-five. Not one of the kids.
Sirius sniggers. “Hermione can go get a room with Bellatrix,” he mutters to Lupin and Tonks, overly loudly.
There’s a weird lull. Oh no.
Argh, Sirius! That sounded so—
Now everyone is wondering what he’s talking about, and— why did he—
Lupin is looking at her very strangely. Eyes widening. Sniffing the air. Glancing at Bellatrix. He might think— well Snape thought that—
“We don’t know each other in the future!” Hermione blurts out, gesturing at Bellatrix as she gets up. “Nothing— don’t know her.”
Bellatrix groans. Grabs her arm and pulls her up the stairs, past Ginny, Ron and the twins who are coming down. Squeezes them past. “Stop telling people things. You’re a bloody nightmare! Can you not keep your mouth shut for five seconds?”
Wha— “I’m allowed to talk!” Hermione complains. “And stop pulling— sorry, George, stepped on— or maybe Fred. Is it—”
Bellatrix pushes a hand over her mouth. “Am I going to have to gag you or something?”
Some chairs screech back. And Ginny starts laughing.
Hermione pulls Bellatrix’s hand away. “Joking! She’s joking!” she calls down. “We’ll— we’ll be in Percy’s room! Carry on!”
And she runs up the stairs, now pulling Bellatrix with her. Up and up again to the second floor.
Bellatrix snorts. “Eager to get me alone, are you?”
Hermione laughs exasperatedly. “Eager to get us both out of there because I think neither of us are very good at holding our tongues.”
Bellatrix sighs. “You have a point. Ups and downs, weren’t there? I should have said— or not said— ah well. We’re alive and free, that’s what counts.”
They reach Percy’s door. It’s locked.
Bellatrix casts an alohomora. “Smart move. Don’t think it would have kept those twins out though, even if they’re not supposed to use magic.”
And they walk in. A neat, boring, almost empty bedroom. A desk, but no books. Just a quill, ink, and parchment.
Bellatrix starts looking in all the drawers. And the wardrobe. Behind the open curtains. Takes Ratty out of her dress and puts him on the desk. “Stay.”
He stays. But that’s probably a coincidence.
“I don’t think Percy would want you looking at all his stuff,” Hermione says, shutting the door behind her.
Bellatrix keeps looking. Flicks through some parchment. “He’s Crouch’s assistant. He might have some stuff on a case…or…”
She stops. Sighs. Jumps to sit on the bed. “No. Nothing. Thought he’d be too goody-two-shoes to take any files from the office.”
Hermione sits down at the desk. Checks the drawers herself. Because if Crouch knows anything? That feels almost worse than Dumbledore.
Bellatrix is right though. Nothing. Even after a revelio spell.
Bellatrix sighs again. The bedsprings squeak. “So. What do you want to do? We could be in here for a while whilst Dumbledore gets his players in position. Reshuffles the cards. Did you notice Snape wasn’t there? That’s suspicious. And that can’t have been everyone. He must have sent some people to watch the Gaunt Shack.”
Hermione keeps facing away. Because…well Bellatrix is sat on a bed. And is always five seconds from an innuendo.
And it is tempting to make some. There’s so many things she could say. About keeping themselves entertained. About staying quiet. About sealed lips, or wagging tongues, or bedsharing or—
“I know a few more Order members. It wasn’t quite everyone,” Hermione says. “Should we be worried about the shack? The ring? Do you…what do you know about it?”
Bellatrix hums. “I know about the ring. And the stone. Why don’t you come sit with me? So I’m not talking to the back of your head. It’s creepy. You’re not Quirrell.”
Hermione turns around, curiosity getting the better of her. Walks over and sits on the bed, taking her shoes off. Someone’s shoes off. She’d only had her ball shoes, she found these in a wardrobe. They’re a bit too small. “How do you know about Quirrell?”
Bellatrix smiles. “Cissy knew. From Draco. And other sources.”
Hermione crosses her legs. Fiddles with the bedspread and frowns. “I think…I underestimated your sister. I thought she was just a snobby, rude housewitch.”
Bellatrix laughs. “She is. But don’t call her rude. She might kill you. What do you think housewitches do? They talk. They gossip. Make snide remarks and find out everyone’s business and how to play it against each other. Pureblood circles are small. Closely knit. Everyone knows everyone. It’s political for the witches as well as the wizards. Cissy does her own kind of underhanded politics, not just Lucius.”
“And she knows…you’re not a Death Eater?”
Bellatrix tuts. “Yes. She disapproved at first. But I explained some things. Told her some things. Broadened her horizons.”
“Introduced her to old muggle friends?” Hermione asks.
Bellatrix pauses. Smiles at her. “Cissy’s still scared of muggle things. And hates it. You’ll have to help me introduce her to some stuff. I think you’d be good at that. Teaching. If you don’t get too frustrated.”
Hermione shrugs. “I’ve never really taught anything before. Just…lectured at Ron and Harry. You’re right. I don’t have much patience. You’re a good teacher, though.”
“Do you miss me teaching you?” Bellatrix asks slyly. “Want me to teach you something else?”
Oh. Shit.
Hermione looks up. Meets her eye. Notices her expression, her smirk, hands stroking the sheets…
“What do you want to teach me?” Hermione asks quietly, eyes beginning to…she can’t help it. Bellatrix on a bed. Looking at her. Her gaze so intense, legs so close, and…
Bellatrix sits up. Shuffles closer. Leans closer. “What do you want to find out?” she asks lowly, mouth still twitching with a smile.
That mouth. Hermione…really wants to find out what that mouth can do.
Shit. No. Don’t— don’t be an idiot. Not here. Not now. Percy’s room. At the Burrow. Everyone is downstairs.
But…
But maybe…
She grabs Bellatrix’s necklace. Because it’s just hanging between them. She recognises it. From her own time. “When did you get this?” she asks, knuckles accidentally brushing Bellatrix’s collarbone.
Bellatrix sighs. Moves closer. “Does it fucking matter right now? Ages ago. What are you doing?”
She’s distracting herself. That’s what she’s doing. Because her body might want this, and she can definitely feel it, that urge to get closer, to touch, but she’d be stupid to— it would be stupid to—
She touches Bellatrix’s dress at the shoulders. Feels the fabric. Old. Thick. “Isn’t this uncomfortable to wear?”
“No,” Bellatrix says. “But you can try it, if you want. Want to get in my clothes?”
Yes.
Her eyes drift down Bellatrix’s neck.
She forces her gaze back up. Then takes a sharp breath, because seeing Bellatrix’s face this close is even worse because she’s so beautiful and—
Hermione leans in. “Want to find out if you kiss better than a veela?” she finds herself asking.
Bellatrix huffs. “The schoolgirl? I’d fucking better.”
And she grabs Hermione’s collar. Tugs her forward. And stops. Achingly close. “Go on then, Granger. Pick an option. Choose,” she murmurs.
Hermione’s eyes have fallen shut. Head heavy. So close. So warm. Breath on her lips.
She shakes her head. Just slightly. Only a millimetre, so she doesn’t touch her nose to Bellatrix’s. “This isn’t an option. This isn’t a big…decision. I just…want to kiss you because you’re pretty, okay?” Hermione murmurs back, heart pounding.
Bellatrix lets out a breathy laugh. Cups her cheek. “Pretty? Fuck. It’s been a long time since someone called me pretty. I’d better kiss you prettily, then.”
Gods, she doesn’t even know what that means but it sounds so…
Soft lips.
Slow, soft, delicate lips. Like a flower petal brushing against her…upper lip. Lower lip. Drifting…
Oh…
She lets out a shaky sigh. Breathes in through her nose. Still can’t quite catch her breath. Like the oxygen has been sucked from the air. Everything is still.
She presses slightly closer, tilting her head. Feels fingertips begin to dance over her cheekbones…
Slowly reaches out with her own hands. Gentle and hesitant. Wants to touch…her shoulders. And maybe her hair. She’s curious about Bellatrix’s hair. Is it tangled? She can’t figure out…is it half tied up? It feels soft. Slips through her fingers. So it must be…does she have pins in her hair?
She searches for one, fingertips brushing over Bellatrix's scalp. Feels a warmth grow in her chest and settle in her stomach as Bellatrix adjusts her head once more, leaning into Hermione’s palm and kissing a fraction more firmly. Nudging Hermione’s lips apart, just slightly. Not forcefully though. Slow and warm. Stoking the flames. Kissing prettily…
A hand settles on her hip. Thumb rubbing back and forth over her waist. She shivers. Her skin tingles, even under her shirt. But it tickles when—
She flinches away. Gasps.
“Sorry,” Bellatrix whispers.
The hand slides to her back. And Bellatrix tilts her head in the other direction. Captures her lip once more from a different angle.
This is…such a long first kiss. Is this a second kiss now? Or the second dozen, lips swiping over hers again and again. She’s lost count. Lost track. Losing herself to it. Sinking forward. It’s heady. She wants…
Hermione tries a more daring peck of her own. Parts her lips and sucks gently. Kissing Bellatrix. She can’t believe she— Merlin. It took her less time to go mad than she—
She rests a hand on Bellatrix’s neck. Rubs her thumb over her jaw…the column of her throat…below her ear…reaches back and strokes her fingers over the nape of her neck. Just touching. She wants to touch…
Bellatrix’s hands disappear from her back. Flit between them. Skim quickly over Hermione’s stomach and her thighs and lap and— “Bellatrix,” she warns softly, pulling back. Because touching below the waist really is going too far right now.
Bellatrix moves back too. Hermione watches her eyes open. Drag open. As if she’s forcing herself from a dream. “No, I…” Bellatrix says quietly. Roughly. “I was…”
And Bellatrix pats the bed. Feels around…
Pulls out her wand, from where it was lost under the cover near Hermione. Holds it up. Smiles sheepishly. Shrugs. “I was going to lock the door. None of these people understand boundaries. Except maybe Potter and Lupin.”
Oh.
Hermione smiles back.
Then laughs.
Then holds a hand to her still tingling mouth because… “What are we doing?” she whispers.
Bellatrix brushes a finger over her own reddened lips. Runs her tongue over her teeth. A hand through her hair and down her neck. Huffs out a laugh. “I don’t know. To be honest, I thought you were just going to ignore me like usual. Or shout at me for being inappropriate. Not…call me pretty.”
She actually…does look kind of flustered. Awkward.
Nervous?
Hermione raises her eyebrows, fighting another smile. “You are pretty. Do you like being called pretty?”
Bellatrix grabs a pillow off the bed, squeezing it. “I— no! Yes! Wha— I— who doesn’t like being called pretty? It’s just…not very…it’s too—”
“You kissed very prettily,” Hermione teases, enjoying being the least panicked person for once. “And that’s a very pretty blush to your cheeks.”
Bellatrix throws the pillow at her. “Stop it! I’m not— Let’s go see if Wagtail is okay. We can listen in. I have my cloak.”
And she pulls the cloak out from under her skirt, walking over to pick Ratty up off the floor.
“How much stuff do you have under there?!” Hermione asks, baffled.
“Wouldn’t you like to know,” Bellatrix quips.
“Well, I would! That’s why I asked. How—”
“Expanded purse,” Bellatrix sighs, throwing the cloak over them both.
Oh, okay.
And they’re close again. Breathing the same air. Warm air. Face to face for a moment. Eye to eye...
Wait.
“Moody can see through the cloak, can’t he?” Hermione remembers.
And the cloak is pulled back off. “Shit. That bloody eye. I don’t miss it, but it was useful. Do you know how much it can see? It’s a bit creepy, really. I had to practice it, so I wasn’t seeing everyone naked all the time.”
Hermione reflexively covers her chest. “Naked? You didn’t— did you—”
“No!” Bellatrix shouts, nose crinkled even as her eyes dart down and back up. “I’m not some disgusting pervert. I do have some sense of boundaries. I kept everyone’s clothes on. And didn’t look inside any bags unless I needed to. People need privacy.”
Well, good.
Silence settles again.
Hermione looks at Bellatrix out of the corner of her eye as they both stand there, gazes flitting around the room. This isn’t going to be weird now, is it? Because it was a good kiss. An unbelievably good kiss. Hermione probably wouldn’t have stopped if—
Bellatrix suddenly grabs her arm, staring intently at the floor. “What if he’s been watching us the whole time? With the eye? He’s paranoid. And he can look in two directions at once.”
Hermione looks down too, panic rising. “He— would he have been able to see? The angle would have been weird, right? Maybe? And— and would he tell— and it’s fine!” she convinces herself. “We’re both adults. They might think it’s…unexpected, but— but—”
Bellatrix laughs. “Oh they’re going to be so confused about you. You might be even more of a mystery than me now.”
Hermione scoffs. “Not possible. I still have about a thousand questions to ask you.”
“So? I have a thousand questions for you, and you don’t see me complaining— oh for fuck’s sake!” Bellatrix suddenly shouts, storming over to the windows and throwing them open, leaning out of one.
And with a good reason. Because Ginny is hovering just outside on a broomstick. Flying out of her reach and towards the ground. Slowly. She only has a very old cleansweep.
“Ten points from Gryffindor for being a nosy— get back here, Weasley!” Bellatrix shouts.
Hermione runs over too, sticking her head out of the other window to look down. Sees Ron, Harry and the twins not far away, wrapped up in hats and scarfs and looking just as guilty.
“You can’t take points!” Ron shouts. “It’s the holidays. And you’re…you!”
Bellatrix folds her arms. “Want to test it? I could take a hundred!”
“Both of you stop shouting before someone hears!” Hermione shouts. Then realises she’s shouting.
And Tonks comes jogging around the house, skidding slightly on a frozen puddle. “We can hear all of you. These walls ain’t that thick, you know. Hermione, Bellatrix, the Headmaster is coming up to see you!”
Coming up?
Ginny laughs, landing next to the boys. “Good job I interrupted, then! You can thank me later,” she calls.
Oh no. She saw? How long was she watching?
“Interrupted what?” Harry says.
Uhh…
Bellatrix twirls her wand at the snow. Sends a snowball at Harry that hits him in the head. Then one at Tonks. Then Ginny. Then slams the windows shut in the chaos.
Turns around. “Maybe we should make the bed before—”
There’s a knock at the door. “Miss Black? Miss Granger? May I come in?”
Hermione hastily waves her wand at the messy bed as Bellatrix fights laughter, heading for the door. “One second, Headmaster! Let us get our clothes back on!”
Bellatrix!
“We didn’t take our clothes off!” Hermione squawks, thinking she might combust from embarrassment as Bellatrix opens the door.
Dumbledore is stood with his hand still raised, looking down at Hermione’s shoe-less feet. “They were too tight!” she clarifies.
Dumbledore gives her a confused look. “Pardon?”
Bellatrix laughs again. “I put a silencing charm on the room, he can’t hear us until he comes in.”
Oh. Oh, thank Merlin.
When did she do that?
Bellatrix steps back to let him in. Sits down on the bed. Pats it.
Hermione guesses that means her…
She sits next to Bellatrix as the Headmaster takes the desk chair, turning it around to face them.
Then produces a small paper bag from his robe pocket. “Cornish fudge?” he offers.
Bellatrix reaches out. Then stops. “You didn’t turn the Minister of Magic into sweets, did you?” she grins.
Cornelius Fudge? Was that a joke? That was such a bad joke.
Dumbledore chuckles anyway. “Cornelius is alive and well, and breathing down my neck as to your whereabouts, I assure you.”
Bellatrix nods. Plucks a piece of fudge from the bag and pops it in her mouth. Licks some sugar off her lips.
Stop looking at her mouth, Hermione.
It still hasn’t quite set in that they just…she just…she’s felt those lips. Tasted them.
Bellatrix swallows. “Damn. Oh well. And everyone downstairs? I didn’t hear yelling. Have they called the dementors yet?”
Dumbledore shakes his head. “No dementors. Something I have been very firm with Cornelius about. The use of these creatures has caused injury to many of my staff and students. They shall no longer be used outside of Azkaban. And their use within Azkaban is now under investigation by the Department for the Regulation and Control of Magical Creatures.”
No more dementors? “The Ministry agreed to that?” Hermione asks. “How? As you said, Fudge must be scrambling to show he has things under control. I thought there’d be stricter measures in place.”
Dumbledore smiles. “That was before the dementors caused harm to Narcissa Malfoy. Her husband is rather displeased. And to Fleur Delacour. France is rather displeased about that. Nymphadora Tonks. An auror impeded in their duty and unable to apprehend an attacker due to the overuse of dementors. And finally, Harry Potter, who bravely ran to intercede, and could have almost lost his soul for it. Quite the story for Ms Skeeter.”
“And our story?” Bellatrix asks. “How are we spinning it? Was I there? Or Sirius? Hermione?”
Dumbledore stands up. Walks over to look out at the view. “You were not there, no. Sirius Black entered Hogwarts to hunt down his old foe, Peter Pettigrew, using a passageway only they were aware of. Sirius is innocent, and wished to protect his godson, Harry. Despite the threat of dementors, he entered the grounds to warn us.”
“And Narcissa?” Bellatrix pushes.
Dumbledore hums, hands clasped behind his back. “The poor witch is still rather confused. Her personal healer believes her memory is slowly returning, but not fully. She came to Hogwarts to look for her son, and saw her cousin and another figure surrounded by dementors. She ran for help, although it is unclear how she entered the school gate. Perhaps it was…mistakenly left unlocked with the excitement of the Ball.”
Oh. So he’s…sorted it. Kind of. No-one from the Ministry saw Bellatrix, except Tonks. And…
“What about me?” Hermione says.
Dumbledore turns around, eyes piercing. “Yes. Quite. You really do pose some problems, I’m afraid.”
Well that doesn’t sound good— ah!
Hermione jumps in surprise, not expecting Bellatrix to take her hand.
Uhh…
“Was she kidnapped by Pettigrew?” Bellatrix muses. “He took her…because she’s friends with Potter…but she managed to escape. Because she’s a champion. Stronger than he expected. Smarter. Tricked him.”
Dumbledore hums once more. Looks at their joined hands, eyes twinkling. “That is possible, yes. It was dark. Miss Tonks was preoccupied, and did not notice Miss Granger’s disappearance before it was too late. Did not know of the nearby passageway.”
Why is Bellatrix holding her hand? Is this a plan? Or just— she’s laced their fingers together! What—
Bellatrix laughs. “Then she’s not a problem at all, is she? Back to school in…well, whenever you want. How long should this kidnapping last? Maybe…three months? Two? And then…she escapes with some unexpected help. From an ex-Death Eater. Someone who…saved her from a dragon. Has a bit of a habit of saving her for…some reason.”
Oh…
That could work. And they might let Bellatrix compete in the tournament if she’s seen as redeemed. Saved Hermione twice. For…some reason.
Hermione smiles. “Two months? I’d rather not be kidnapped for that long. Can’t you save me after a couple of weeks?”
Bellatrix rolls her eyes. “You want to go back to school?”
“No! But…I’d have to hide the whole time!”
“Oh poor you, two months hiding. How unbearable for—”
“And my parents!” Hermione suddenly remembers, interrupting the witch’s grumbling. “What if someone tells them? Reporters could— are they safe? Wormtail saw me too! Could he—”
She forgot they were in the UK! She keeps forgetting she has…guardians! She’s a minor. People could go to her parents about things!
Bellatrix lets go of her hand. “Ow. Don’t squeeze so— Can’t you just tell them? To fake it? Or…I mean they’re muggles, I don’t think anyone would dare go talk to them. Or you could send them away! On holiday for a few months. Do what I did, fix their memories a little bit.”
Hermione freezes. Searches Bellatrix face. She can’t know that, right? Even if— nobody knew that. It must be a coincidence or— is it? Is she hinting at something?
Bellatrix smiles. “What? I know it’s difficult, but as you say, only a few months. They shouldn’t be too angry.”
Dumbledore clears his throat. “It just so happens that we already have people keeping an eye on your parents,” he says slowly.
Hermione’s head whips around. How— what—
She stand up. “Spying on them?! And you didn’t tell me? What— who? For how long? Why?”
Dumbledore just nods. “Since the first task. I saw that Miss Black had…taken an interest in you, and naturally worried for your safety, and the safety of your relatives. A good friend of mine lives not far from you, and stops by on occasion to check that all is well. Nothing more.”
Oh.
Considerate? Or presumptive and interfering?
“What do you want from me, Headmaster?” she mutters. “From us.”
He sighs deeply. Looks at her wearily. Then rubs at his eyes, removing his glasses. “I would like to know…ah but what to know. How much to…”
He holds his wand in both hands. Lays it in both palms. Flips it. And again.
The Elder Wand.
Bellatrix clears her throat. “You’re right about the diary. We know about more…so what we need is time. And to know where he is, and what his plans are, because those might change.”
Dumbledore’s head shoots up. “More?” he asks hoarsely, face paling. “And you know of them? He told you—”
“He hinted about a couple. The others I guessed. And Hermione knows about more,” Bellatrix says firmly.
Dumbledore falls back in his chair. Seems to age before their eyes. Runs a hand over his mouth. “I see. And how many...?
Hermione glances at Bellatrix. Then just comes out with it. “Seven.”
Silence settles around them. Hermione looks back at Bellatrix. Tries to figure out what her plan is. Because from the sounds of it?
She wants to go Horcrux hunting. With Hermione.
There’d better not be any camping.
Dumbledore shakes his head. “How shall we keep in contact? Exchange information? And perhaps you could provide memories for me to view, to better understand his mindset and—”
“No,” Bellatrix interrupts. Shakes her head firmly. “I’ll tell you what you need to know. We both will. Only Hermione knows what she should or shouldn’t tell you. Only I know what should be revealed. Otherwise, things could change. If I tell you a place he might visit, an object he might use, then he could spot one of your people there and—”
“My people are discreet,” Dumbledore urges, voice too calm to be natural. “Perhaps you are labouring under the misapprehension, Miss Black, that this is for you to oversee, as was once your role. It is not. I am here to direct. And as part of my direction…you and Miss Granger shall return to Hogwarts by March, ready for the second task. Is that any clearer for you?”
Bellatrix stills. As does Hermione. She is not liking that tone of voice. That…
Bellatrix laughs darkly. “Guess we can use a protean charm to communicate then, Director. Would you like me to pledge my allegiance?”
Dumbledore just smiles softly. “No no, that won’t be necessary. And I would like further information before you depart. I think it would be wise if you stayed here over the next few days. Settle in. Let the others become accustomed to you. Trust you. We are on the same side, after all.”
Or he wants to keep an eye on them. Learn more. Make sure they can be trusted.
Hermione forces a smile. “It will take a few days to make the protean charms anyway. How about galleons? Charmed galleons, with words or dates written along the edge? It would be discreet. Hidden. We could give them to trustworthy members. That way we can all talk. And Harry. I’d like to keep in contact with Harry. He needs to know what’s going on. To feel safe.”
Bellatrix takes her hand again. Squeezes very tightly. Ow.
“Potter will be fine. He’ll be at Hogwarts, remember? Normal kid. Going to class,” Bellatrix says lightly.
Ow ow ow!
She pulls her hand free. “Yes. Sorry. Forgot— Don’t worry about Harry,” Hermione hastily corrects herself. “Um…yes. Everyone will be fine. Except— well if I’m ‘kidnapped’—”
Dumbledore raises an eyebrow. “I’m sure everyone here will be able to keep that little fact to themselves. Including Harry, Ronald and Ginevra and the Weasley twins. Very sensible and trustworthy young people.”
“Most of the time,” Bellatrix mutters to herself.
Hermione opens her mouth to defend them. Shuts it. Because there’s really no arguing with that.
Dumbledore gives Hermione a very long look.
Then stands with a sigh. “Excellent. Then I must be going. I’m sure there is many an owl waiting for me at Hogwarts. Merry Christmas to you both. It is wonderful to have you on board.”
And he’s leaving.
Umm…he doesn’t want to know more? Or to…Do the Weasleys know they’re staying?
“One question,” Dumbledore adds. Turns. Smiling.
Lowers his glasses at Bellatrix. “You attempted to put Harry’s name in the Goblet, did you not?”
Bellatrix slowly nods. “Best option. At the time.”
He nods. Sighs. “Yes. Yes, I believe you are correct. And so…your own name?”
Bellatrix scoffs. “That wasn’t me. Why would I do that? That was one of you lot. Hermione, I think.”
And she turns to glare at Hermione. Mock glare. More of an impressed look, actually.
Hermione stays silent. Ginny can decide this one. Her secret to tell.
Dumbledore chuckles. “Ah, the tangled threads we weave. Good luck!”
And shuts the door behind him.
Hermione rubs her hand. “You didn’t have to squeeze so hard! Your ring dug into my— there’s a mark!”
An indentation! And nail marks on her palm!
Bellatrix tuts. “What do you want me to do, kiss it better?”
And Hermione's heart lurches as Bellatrix quickly kisses her hand. Front and back. Not even pausing. Still talking. “I told you not to mention Potter. Didn’t you see that? He wants to be in control of this. His operation. You’re lucky he’s not separating us all off. In fact, we’d better check Siri is still downstairs.”
And she’s already up, heading for the door.
“So you’re just going to kiss and run?” Hermione calls after her. Can’t stop herself.
Bellatrix pauses, hand on the door. Huffs out a quiet chuckle. “No, I’m kissing and staying. That’s the point. Now come on.”
And she opens the door.
Hermione sighs to herself, but follows. She probably needs to stay close to Bellatrix. If she talks with any of the Weasleys alone…
At the Burrow. With Bellatrix. It’s just hitting her. Ordered to stay here.
These next few days are going to be very strange.
And she kissed her. Oh Merlin, they kissed. She kissed her.
Prettily.
Chapter 25: Settle in
Chapter Text
Hermione pauses next to Bellatrix halfway down the stairs as the ground floor comes into view. Sirius is still there, which is a relief. Sat at the table talking to Arthur.
Lupin has left though. It seems like everyone has. Except the Weasleys and presumably Harry. No more meeting.
Huh.
“Lunchtime!” Mrs Weasley shouts out the back door. “Come and wash your hands! And take your wellies off outside!”
And then she bustles back in—
Freezes. Stares up at them. At Hermione and Bellatrix, coming down the stairs. Mostly at Bellatrix.
Bellatrix clears her throat. “Need a hand? With…anything? Setting the table?”
Mrs Weasley just keeps staring.
Ginny brushes past her, carrying some plates. “You can do the washing up, if you’re offering. Thanks, Bellatrix,” she grins.
“No she won’t!” Ron says, bringing some cutlery in, Harry following him with a stack of glasses. “It’s your turn. You can’t get out of it just— Or you can do the drying.”
Bellatrix wanders down the last few stairs. “Washing? Drying? Why don’t you just use magic?”
Mrs Weasley edges between Bellatrix and the others. Ushers them behind her towards the table. “Because they can’t use magic outside of school. And— and it’s all sorted now, so why don’t you sit down…dear.”
Sirius laughs. “Yes, come and sit down petal and stop scaring the kiddies.”
He pats the seat next to him.
Bellatrix stomps over. Sits. “It’s not the kids who are scared. They’re far too cocky.” And she glares at Ginny.
Ginny sits opposite her. Smiles back innocently.
And the twins sit next to Bellatrix. Side by side. She can’t tell if it’s Fred or George next to Bellatrix. But it’s still suspicious.
Hermione hastily moves around to sit with Ginny, Ron and Harry still handing out cutlery and glasses, Mr and Mrs Weasley at the far ends of the table looking pale and wary.
One of the twins holds out a hand to Bellatrix. Palm up. “Toffee?”
Oh.
A ton-tongue toffee?
Should Hermione say something?
Bellatrix looks at it. Slowly reaches out.
Takes it. “Thanks. I’ll save it for after lunch.”
She puts it under her skirt.
No-one says anything. But Hermione isn’t the only one biting her lip.
Mr Weasley clears his throat. “Right then. If we’re all ready?”
He waits for Ron to sit down next to Hermione, and Harry next to Ginny. “I would just like to say…that whatever circumstances have brought us all together…everyone here is welcome. The past…is what it is. So now is the time to go forward.”
He pauses. Glances uncomfortably at Bellatrix. At Hermione.
Then wags his finger at them. “But if anything happens to my family…”
He drifts off. And the silence is very awkward.
Ron reaches for some peas. “We’ll be alright, Dad. Honestly. Look at the clock, if you don’t believe us. Peas, Hermione?”
Hermione nods absentmindedly. Turns, like everyone else, to look at the clock on the wall.
Three hands pointing to ‘work’, Bill, Charlie, and Percy. The rest pointing to ‘home’.
None pointing to ‘mortal peril’. Well, that’s good.
“Handy,” Sirius comments.
And everyone begins passing things around. Hermione smiles across at Bellatrix. Swaps the potatoes for the parsnips. Christmas dinner a day late. Leftovers, maybe.
Bellatrix winks at her. “Thanks for letting us stay,” she comments, nodding to Mr and Mrs Weasley. “We’ll earn our keep, if we can. Can’t have Wagtail eating you out of house and home.”
Sirius pauses where he’s heaping potatoes onto his plate. “Uhh…everyone got enough spuds?”
Mrs Weasley sighs. “Oh we’ve got hundreds, dear. You can have as many as you’d like. You’re far too skinny, you know. Make sure you have seconds.”
Bellatrix huffs at Sirius, adding some carrots to his plate. “See? Told you to eat more. Weasley, pass the— I mean Ron, could you pass that? Thanks.”
Ginny clears her throat pointedly. “Guess we’re not ‘Weasley’ now. Too confusing. Does that mean you’ll call Hermione and Harry by their first names too?”
Bellatrix shrugs, smirk tugging at her lip. “I guess. What do you think, Hermione?”
And her gaze flicks up. Eyes meet Hermione’s.
Oh. Oh that’s…very strange. Bellatrix has said her name a few times now, but never…to her. At her.
She swallows. Nods mutely.
Ginny sniggers. Nudges Hermione in the side. “Speaking of names. Here. I should give this back.”
And she passes a small slip of parchment across to Bellatrix.
Wait!
“Ginny!” Ron hisses. Harry’s chair squeaks. They all recognise that piece of parchment. What it means.
Bellatrix frowns. Doesn’t touch it. “What is it? What does it…”
Ginny flips it. Makes it disappear. Reappear. Holds it so Bellatrix can read it.
“Harry Po…” Bellatrix whispers to herself. Then snatches the parchment. “No! It was— you— how?!”
“What’s this?” Mr Weasley says.
Hermione starts laughing. Can’t help it. Bellatrix’s face. The complete confusion. Face scrunched. Staring at the paper like it’s got hidden magical properties.
And now the confused look is directed at Hermione.
She laughs harder, Harry and Ron chuckling too. “I never said it was me,” Hermione smiles. “Don’t you remember bumping into Ginny?”
“Bumping into her?” Sirius frowns.
Bellatrix’s eyes dart back and forth. Then still.
She laughs. Gasps. “Oh shit! I mean— sorry— it—”
She smiles wider at Ginny. Grins at her. Eyes moving over her. “You…pick-pocketed me? Swapped the—”
Ginny nods. “Yep. You have loads of stuff in your pockets, by the way. I thought I was screwed.”
“Ginevra. Language,” Mrs Weasley snaps. “And what’s this about picking people’s pockets?”
Ginny rolls her eyes. “Picking Bellatrix’s pockets. For a good reason, Mum.”
Bellatrix nods. “Oh if anything you should be praising her. Steal from me? Without me noticing? With a magical eye that sees everything and— genius. Ten points to Gryffindor, Weasley. Or maybe I should give them to Slytherin, because that was sneaky. Devious. You sure you’re not a snake?”
Ginny eats more peas. “You sure you’re not a lion? I mean…saving someone from a dragon…fighting off dementors without a patronus…coming here and basically turning yourself in…”
Sirius’ head whips around excitedly. “She’s right! You’re such a Gryffindor! Bravery. Chivalry. Loyalty.”
Hmm. True, but not quite right. And Bellatrix definitely doesn’t seem happy with the idea. Jaw clenched.
“The hat wanted to put me in Slytherin,” Harry pipes up.
Everyone stops eating to stare. Except Hermione. She knew already. Just smiles fondly. Supportively.
“Really?” Sirius whispers.
Harry nods, ducking his head. “I didn’t know much about the houses. But Ron told me Slytherin was…bad. And Hermione and Neville were already in Gryffindor. The hat said I could be great in Slytherin. But I asked not to be. So I’d be in the same house as my friends.”
Sirius sips his drink, eyes distant. Nods. “I did the same. Not that the hat really wanted me there anyway,” he says quietly. “And not that I knew I’d have friends. I just…anything but Slytherin.”
Bellatrix puts an arm around his shoulder. “Don’t blame you. We were a rotten bunch,” she says softly.
He looks at her. Almost nervously.
Bellatrix smiles. Squeezes him. “I mean…Cissy?” she says, grinning wider. “She was so annoying. I wouldn’t want to be in class with her either. Such a tattletale. A tie is part of the uniform, Bella. So put one on right away or I’m telling Mother!” she squeaks haughtily.
Sirius laughs hoarsely. “She spoke to you like that?”
And now Bellatrix is the one with the odd look in her eye. Her arm falls away. “When she was young,” Bellatrix murmurs. “Before she…realised who I was. She didn’t realise, you know. Not until she was at Hogwarts for a few months. She noticed then.”
They continue eating. Or try. Hermione isn’t very hungry anymore. Wants to ask…but doesn’t. Really doesn’t.
“So…what are we going to tell Percy?” one of the twins asks. “Because he’s a bit of a tattletale too.”
Oh. Oh dear. Yes, how—
“Actually, Percy has had the opportunity to move in with Mr Crouch. As a live-in assistant,” Mrs Weasley says proudly. “We got the news this morning. Isn’t that wonderful? It seems like he’s really being appreciated for his dedication and hard work. He even— well he’s so busy…that he’s not coming home. He’s already…left.” And the pride turns to sadness. Doubt.
She looks at the clock.
This…well that didn’t happen before. Percy left later. But…
Hmm. That’s a point. What’s the history with Crouch? What happened to his son? Because if Bellatrix is here…is he still in Azkaban?
“Great news,” Mr Weasley nods. “And lucky, as now we have more rooms to spare!”
And once again Ginny nudges her in the side. Wiggles her eyebrows.
Hermione ignores her. But also avoids looking at Bellatrix, because…
Because…
“Which room, which room,” Sirius mutters. Then hisses under his breath. Winces. Bellatrix?
Mrs Weasley frowns at him. Looks at the twins suspiciously. “Yes, there are two beds in Bill and Charlie’s old room, and then there’s Percy’s, of course. I don’t know if you’d rather…usually the girls share, and the boys share, but…”
“Hermione and I can take Bill and Charlie’s room, then,” Bellatrix says casually. “Unless you’d rather be with Ginny?”
She— well— but—
“You don’t want to share with me, Bella?” Sirius grins. “Why not?”
“You snore,” Bellatrix snaps.
“But I suppose, well Hermione really should have the single room,” Mrs Weasley mutters to herself. Then bites her tongue.
…what?
Everyone looks at Molly. What did that mean?
“You…saw the Prophet, didn’t you?” Ron says quietly after a long pause. “With the picture of Hermione and Fleur. That’s why you want her sleeping alone.”
Oh.
Hermione shrinks back in her seat, suddenly wary. Charlie had said…so is Mrs Weasley not…but in the future…
Mrs Weasley turns steadily redder. “Well. I just mean— well it isn’t appropriate for— she’s an adult witch, and she has shown interest in— in— it’s nothing personal, Hermione. It’s the same as not letting…Harry and Ginny share a room!”
Hermione clears her throat. Raises her chin. Takes a calming breath. “So do you want me to stay with Harry and Ron? As I’m not interested in them?”
Mrs Weasley splutters. “I wasn’t saying— no. That isn’t—”
“I beat for both teams,” Sirius says bluntly. “Should I move further away from Arthur, so you’re not uncomfortable?”
And Molly jumps. Turns scarlet. “No! No, I— this is just a misunderstanding. I don’t have a problem with—”
“Gay people?” Bellatrix says. “Well that’s good. Otherwise we’d all have to leave. But I guess I’ll be rooming with Siri. So I don’t get my lesbian hands on anyone.”
Mrs Weasley stands up. “It— I— I’m going outside!”
And she throws down a napkin and walks off out the back door.
Mr Weasley sighs. “Could you pass those last few potatoes, Hermione?”
She nods. Passes them along.
He adds them to his plate. Pours some gravy.
“Are you not going to say anything?” Ron almost shouts. “It— this is stupid! Who cares?”
“I care,” Ginny whispers.
Oh.
Hermione puts an arm around Ginny. Feels her shake. Holds her tighter.
Meets Bellatrix’s eye across the table. “Maybe we should go,” Hermione says cautiously.
“Hmm?” Mr Weasley looks up. “Oh, no. You’re all staying. As I said. Everyone’s welcome here. Isn’t that right?”
“But— but Mum,” Ginny sniffs. Wipes angrily at her face.
Sirius passes her a handkerchief. Because apparently he carries handkerchiefs around?
Mr Weasley looks at Ginny. Frowns. Then his gaze softens.
He walks around behind her chair. Squeezes her shoulder. “Everyone is welcome. And I’ll say the same thing to you that I said to Charlie. You can bring home anyone, or no-one. But you’ll have a place here at the table, and I’ll be glad to see you. So I’ll go talk to your mother. She’s talked herself into a bit of a muddle. But means well. Honestly.”
And he leaves through the back door too.
It clatters shut.
“Anyone can room with us,” one of the twins says after a while.
“—As long as you don’t mind Georgie’s smelly feet,” adds the other. Fred.
“Smelly?” George says, eating a forkful of carrots. Swallows. “I’ll have you know—”
And then he freezes. Drops his fork. His eyes widen.
“George?” Harry says. “Are you—”
And George’s mouth falls open. His tongue sticks out.
And out. And out. Inch after inch, flopping out of his mouth and trailing all the way to the floor.
Bellatrix cackles at his side. Shoves him lightly in the shoulder. “You idiot! I was your professor. For months! Did you really think I’d eat anything you gave me? Constant vigilance!” she barks.
Everyone jumps.
And Fred starts laughing too. “She got you! She— in with the carrots? When— there’s an idea, George. What about carrots? Can we do anything with—”
George starts swinging his tongue around, smiling very weirdly.
Bellatrix shuffles her chair away out of range, hitting into Sirius. “Ew! Ugh, did you— Siri he basically licked me!”
Sirius laughs. Grabs her. Tries to push her back towards George. “Get her! Get—”
And Sirius is a dog. Jumps up at Bellatrix. Licks her face.
Harry laughs. Ginny stands up. “Get the twins too! Lick them back!”
“Nobody lick anyone!” Hermione shouts exasperatedly, getting to her feet.
And is met with complete silence.
The back door has opened.
Hermione looks around.
Mr Weasley squints around at them all. “Molly has something she’d like to tell you.”
And he beckons Mrs Weasley in. Squeezes her shoulders.
Molly ducks her head. “Yes. Well. I would like to…apologise. For what I said. About Hermione, and— what I meant is that I wanted to treat everyone the same. But I shouldn’t have assumed…and I know that none of you are—”
She sighs frustratedly. Looks up. “I don’t know what I’m talking about, do I? Talking nonsense. Stuck in old habits and old ways. I…what should I say?”
She wrings her hands together, eyes pleading. “Other than sorry,” she adds. “I am sorry. Especially if I’ve hurt anyone. You can all…love whoever you want. And sleep—” She breaks off. Huffs at herself and flaps her hands in the air. “But where should people sleep? Because whatever your sexuality is, I’m not having any funny business going on under this roof.”
Bellatrix starts sniggering. “And…how many kids do you have?” she mutters.
“Bellatrix!” Hermione hisses.
“Ew, gross,” Ron says. “Don’t—”
“Can we not talk about this?” Ginny says, turning bright red.
“I’ll share with Bella, Molly,” Sirius says softly. “And I’m glad you…Apology accepted. Right?”
Hermione nods. A bit reluctantly.
Bellatrix nods too. “Sure. And if you have any questions, feel free to ask us,” she grins at Molly. Walks towards her, drawing her wand and hovering the empty dishes off the table.
Mrs Weasley stumbles back out of her way.
Then frowns. Nods determinedly.
Follows Bellatrix towards the sink where she’s starting to wash up. “That’s very kind of you, dear. You know, maybe I do have questions. I was wondering—”
Ginny slams her hands over her ears. “Lalala I’m going upstairs. Come on, Hermione. I’ll get you some spare clothes.”
Hermione quickly follows. There’s no way she’s—
“Uhh…Hermione?” Bellatrix calls. “Do you want to—?”
Hermione ignores her. Runs up the stairs, Harry and Ron on her heels. Sorry, Bellatrix. You’re on your own. She’s the one who got herself into this with her big mouth. Not Hermione’s problem. For once.
“Oy! Wagtail! Hold it! You’re drying!” Bellatrix’s shout echoes up through the house.
And Hermione bursts into Ginny’s room, collapsing into laughter on the bed, Ginny already wheezing and choking at her side through laughter of her own.
The door shuts behind them. Ron groans. “This is— that was— bloody hell today has been…is it real? Is this a dream? This is the weirdest day ever.”
Then he laughs. Huffs out a laugh.
She hears Harry start sniggering too. It’s catching.
“You— mum— Bellatrix,” Ginny pants out. Gasps for breath. “The washing up. With—”
She— oh help she can’t breathe!
Hermione staggers over to open the window. She needs some fresh air. It’s…how did this happen? This is even stranger for her. If they only knew what she knew. It’s just—
She catches her breath. Stares at the view. Calm, Hermione.
“I know. It’s— maybe this is a dream. This whole thing— but it can’t be, because I’m so tired!”
She walks over to slump back down on the bed with Ginny.
There’s a camp bed on the floor. Probably for her, before they knew how old she was or mentioned the…lesbian thing.
Harry and Ron sit on it. Smile up at her. “Late night stopping a resurrection?” Ron asks. “Or was it…what’s it like with those two? They seem…”
“Chaos,” Hermione smiles back. “Like…the twins. But more manic. And one can turn into a dog.”
“And the other one?” Harry asks, eyebrow raised. “It seems like you two are…closer.”
She freezes. Glances at Ginny.
Ginny raises her hands. “I didn’t tell. I swear.”
Except…she kind of just did.
Hermione sighs. Chuckles to herself and rubs at her face.
Casts a silencing charm at the room. Because she’s learnt her lesson. “Alright. It’s…well…you must have noticed that Bellatrix is quite…flirtatious with me.”
She pauses. Waits for a reaction. Looks up.
Ginny is nodding. Ron is hard to read. Harry looks shocked.
She smiles. “Well she is. Friendly, but also flirty. All the time. And I— well I— I gave in! Couldn’t help myself. Because she— she’s—”
“Really hot,” Ginny supplies for her.
“Ginny!” Ron shouts.
“Are you saying she’s not?” Ginny shouts back.
“I— no!” Ron splutters. “But— but you shouldn’t—”
“Shouldn’t think girls are hot? Is that it?” Ginny snaps, standing up. “Well I do! I— I like wizards and witches, and if you have a problem with that—”
“What?” he yells. “I’m not— stop shouting and listen! I don’t— I know you like witches, alright? It’s fine. I don’t care! I just— you’re my thirteen-year-old sister, I don’t want to know that you find Bellatrix hot! I don’t want to know that you find anyone hot!”
Silence settles.
Harry laughs quietly. “Well, I didn’t know. About anyone, other than Hermione and Fleur. How have I missed all this? Maybe Luna’s right and I do need new glasses. I hadn’t even noticed that Sirius was…wait. Professor Lupin! Is— are— oh!”
A lightbulb seems to go on for Ginny and Ron too. “Oh...”
Hermione rolls her eyes. Idiots.
Not that she was much better. She must admit, she really has been seeing the world through a very straight lens. Half the people she knows aren’t straight, how had she not realised?
Ginny snorts. “So…back to Bellatrix and her lesbian hands?”
Her hands…
Hermione shakes herself out of it. “Oh. Right. Well we kissed in Percy’s room before lunch. Ginny saw. That’s about it, other than the flirting.”
“You kissed her?” Harry whispers excitedly.
Wha—
Since when is Harry eager to talk about her love life? Or gossip about…whatever this…
Kiss. It was a kiss. But more than a kiss. It was—
Hermione lies down on the bed.
Ginny grabs her shoulder and shakes it. “I didn’t see the whole thing. But I saw the end. And it must have been good, because Bellatrix was blushing,” Ginny says smugly. “She was like…dazed. I bet she really likes you if she’s flirting with you all the time. Do you think in her universe you’re her girlfriend?” She gasps. “Or her wife?! Hermione, you kissed Fleur, what if—”
Hermione bolts upright. “She is not my wife! What— no! No, she told me she doesn’t know me. She only knows me now. And— and I think it’s the truth. Because the way she kissed me…”
She drifts off awkwardly. Fiddles with the sheets. “It…felt like a first kiss,” she quietly admits. “She was hesitant. And…accidentally tickled me. If she was my— if we’d been in a relationship before, she’d know.”
She looks up. Starts to doubt herself. “Right?”
Harry runs a hand through his hair. “Dunno. I’ve— I’ve never kissed anyone, so...”
Ron pats him on the shoulder. “My first kiss with Lav was really bad. Like…wet. And sloppy. And too fast. And I stepped on her foot.”
Hermione smiles. Yeah. Her first kiss with Viktor was a lot like that. And her kiss with Ron was so uncomfortable. Embarrassing. She’d been hot with embarrassment. Heart beating fast with nerves. Stomach squirming with anxiety.
She’d misinterpreted it. All the signs…for the wrong reasons.
It makes sense now.
Ginny clears her throat. “I could kiss you,” she says to Harry. “If— well— so we know what it’s like.”
Oh. Oh Ginny that was so brave.
Harry seems to have frozen. “I— uh— that—” he stops and starts, staring at Ginny.
Ron frowns. Glances at Hermione.
Hermione tries to give him a ‘be cool for Godric’s sake!’ look.
And there’s a frantic knock on the door. “Hermione!” Bellatrix hisses. “Help. Let me in!”
And now all eyes are back on her. Knowing eyes. Smug looks.
Except for Ginny. She looks like she doesn’t know if she should be relieved or hex someone.
Hermione goes over to the door. Opens it.
Bellatrix hurries inside and closes it behind her. “Too many questions,” she groans, closing her eyes and leaning against the door. “You don’t want to know. I wish I could scourgify my brain. You might have to obliviate me. And Siri keeps answering her.”
Hermione grimaces. But laughs. “Uhh…well you did tell her—”
“I was joking!” Bellatrix snaps, walking over to lie down on the bed next to a surprised Ginny. “I was trying to make her uncomfortable! To mess with her, not—” she shudders. Hides her face in Ginny’s side.
Ginny gives them all a panicked look.
Hermione clears her throat. “Bellatrix. Boundaries. Look what you’re doing.”
Bellatrix freezes.
Then scrambles off the bed, almost falling on Ron and Harry. “Shit! Sorry! Wasn’t thinking— Why didn’t you tell me?” she asks Hermione, standing up and backing towards her.
“I did!” Hermione huffs. “I didn’t realise your boundaries are bad with everyone.”
Bellatrix turns to grin at her. “You thought it was just you? Hmm, well it is worse with you,” she practically purrs, crowding closer and tilting Hermione’s head to look at her. “Don’t worry. You’re still special.”
Uhh…
“And she’s special because…?” Ginny asks.
Bellatrix frowns. Let’s go and breaks eye contact to turn to face Ginny. “Because she is. Hello? She’s Hermione Granger. Of course she’s special.”
Oh. What? What does that mean? What—
“Am I special?” Harry asks.
Bellatrix pauses. Looks him over.
Opens her mouth. Closes it. “No,” she says softly. “You’re perfectly ordinary. Just like any other fourteen-year-old boy.”
Harry smiles. “Liar.”
Bellatrix laughs in surprise. A flash of shock. Takes a step back.
Shakes her head. “Cheeky sod. Fine. You’re special too. More than special. And do you know why?”
“Why?”
And Bellatrix walks over. Sits down between him and Ron. Squeezes between them. Puts an arm around Harry. “Because you’re Siri’s godson. Yep. No escape, kid. You’re stuck with us now. So I was wondering…What’s with the glasses?”
Harry looks at her awkwardly. Pushes his glasses further up the bridge of his nose. “What about them?”
Bellatrix sighs. “Well, is it a fashion thing? Or to look like your dad? You’re a wizard. Why haven’t you asked Madam Pomfrey to fix your eyesight? They have potions for that now, and they don’t cost that much. You’re young. Only old wizards need glasses. Like Dumbledore. Although I think that might be a fashion statement too.”
Harry just stares at her.
Oh.
Why does Harry wear glasses?
The snow may have melted over the next few days, but there’s still frost over the windows. Ice on the pond. The clouds hang heavy in the sky, and their breaths still fog up the surrounding air on the occasional trip outside the warm huddle of the house.
Which is why Hermione is inside. In the warm. Wearing her latest Christmas jumper from as she stares out the kitchen window, thoughts drifting. She’s just finished charming the galleons. Protean charms. And it’s…
Nostalgic. Bittersweet. Feels…right, but so wrong. Doing things early. She’s not just reliving fourth year, she’s stumbled into fifth year, straight through sixth year, and into seventh. Except Dumbledore is still here. Still alive. And it feels—
Hermione jumps as someone taps her shoulder, almost cutting her thumb on the potato peeler.
“Wotcha, Hermione. Or more like watch it. That was close.”
Oh.
She turns to smile at Tonks.
Who has blonde hair today. Silvery-blonde. Huh.
“Hi,” Hermione says confusedly. “I didn’t know you were stopping by today. Is there a meeting, or…are you here for the quidditch?”
She gestures out the window to the crazy quidditch match that’s going on. Four a side. Even Arthur’s playing, so they have even numbers, Molly watching on nervously but everyone else in the air and screaming at each other.
Tonks leans over the sink to get a better look. Her hand accidentally slips in. “Shit,” she mutters. “No, didn’t know about the quidditch. Dumbledore told me to check in as…well…just to see. I was at Hogwarts, but my shift ended. I…”
She drifts off. Her hair flashes through a series of lengths and colours. Then back to blonde.
Wait. Is this…like with the dragons? Accidental? Because Tonks is thinking about…someone blonde?
Someone blonde. Hermione recognises that shade of blonde. Not Malfoy blond.
Tonks sighs to herself. Wanders over and puts the kettle on. Grabs a couple of mugs from the cupboard. “I was…well I know it ain’t none of my business, but…”
Hermione laughs gently. “Do you want to ask me about Fleur?”
Tonks drops her mug. “What? Oh bollocking— how did you—”
Hermione hovers it back onto the table. Taps her head. “I’m bright. And…so is your hair. It’s a bit of a giveaway.”
Tonks frowns. “Hair? Why…damn it!”
She tries to look at her reflection in a spoon. Concentrates, tongue sticking out. Then her hair turns pink. “I’ve gotta stop doing that! And it’s not—”
She sits down cross-legged at the table, knee jiggling. “She keeps asking me what I know. She knows that I know some things about you, and Bellatrix, and she was asking about the war. About what happened the first time, and why I’m an auror, and what I think about Harry and…” She huffs. “She’s very persistent, you know, your girlfriend. And by the way, you’re a good liar. Telling me she ain’t your girlfriend. I believed that.”
Hermione hovers the teapot over and sits down with her. “She isn’t my girlfriend. She wasn’t when you asked, and she’s still not…we’re casual about it.”
Tonks scoffs. “Fleur ain’t casual. She loves you.”
Hermione smiles even more softly. Meets Tonks’ eyes. “I know,” she whispers. “But…I’m not the only person Fleur loves. If you ask her about it…I’m sure she’ll explain how she feels. Our relationship isn’t exclusive. I just…”
Hermione sighs. “But she is mixed up in this. She’s brave. She’ll want to fight. And she won’t be fooled if we try to lie to her about what’s going on.”
Tonks shrugs. “And if we tell the truth, she’ll be in on our war. Because that’s what all this is leading to. With Him trying to come back.”
Right. The war hasn’t started yet. Not the second one. They could stop it from starting. Voldemort doesn’t have his followers with him. If they could just stop him…
Should she leave now? Should they ignore Dumbledore, and do this now? One horcrux has already been destroyed. Two with the diary. They can’t get to the ring or Nagini right now, but they could find the diadem, and the goblet is…
Is it in Bellatrix’s vault already? That might be hard. Seeing as she’s a fugitive.
She laughs to herself. Great. Same problem as last time, except they can’t use Bellatrix’s face.
“Uhh, what’s so funny?” Tonks asks. “I thought Sirius was pulling my leg about you being mad, but…”
Tonks scooches her chair closer. “You’re like, from the future!” she hisses. “That’s just— that’s— And we can’t talk about it? You can’t say nothing? Not even— Mate! Time-travel!”
Hermione laughs. “Yeah, that was me for the first few hours I was here.”
“How long have you been here?” Tonks asks. “Or can’t you tell me that? And— twenty-five. Ten years in the future. Is that— do we—”
Hermione shakes her head firmly. “Tonks, please. I can’t tell you. I really— it was the day of the Quidditch World Cup, alright? I woke up at the Burrow. For no reason. Ten years in the past. And— and that’s all I can tell you.”
Tonks huffs. Nods. Slurps at her tea.
Hermione takes a sip too. Hovers the potatoes over to keep peeling.
“So…Fleur ain’t your girlfriend?” Tonks asks.
Hermione laughs. “No! And— how long has she been talking to you?”
Tonks runs her hand through her hair. Smiles to herself. “A couple of months. Every now and then. I’d walk past her carriage. She’d come out to say hi. To guess my name. Or ask me what training I was doing. Always knew it was me, even when I changed my face, and my height and everything.”
“I told her your name. At the Ball,” Hermione hints. “She was going to talk to you. Before all hell broke loose. Probably would have asked you to dance…”
Tonks grins. A…strangely Bellatrix-like grin. “Really? Damn. Bloody aunts. Ruining my dating life.”
And Bellatrix walks through the back door, as if summoned. Goes straight to the chilled cupboard without looking at them and drinks—
“Bellatrix!” Hermione shouts.
She’s drinking straight from the pumpkin juice bottle!
Bellatrix jumps. Spits it out everywhere. “Shit! Where did you come from? Thought you were— oh.”
She stares at Tonks. Wipes her mouth. That is so disgusting. Everyone pours juice from that bottle.
Bellatrix’s eyes slide back to Hermione. She cringes. “Sorry. Habit. We didn’t have clean goblets for a while. And hey, I’m not contagious!” she grins. Gestures between herself and Hermione. “And it’s not like we haven’t—”
She breaks off.
Was she about to say they’ve…shared saliva? Kissed?
That was a few days ago now. Hermione keeps remembering it. Thinks she might have dreamt about it. Kind of…really wants it to happen again.
“Hang on,” Tonks murmurs. “You two…have you two…if Fleur ain’t your girlfriend…”
Bellatrix skips over. Sits next to Hermione and spins her wand to peel some more potatoes for her. Pats her skirt, as if looking for…
“Ratty’s upstairs,” Hermione reminds her. “No rats on a broom.”
Bellatrix nods in realisation. Waves her wand at her shoes instead to take them off. Hovers them to the back door. Cleans the mud and pumpkin juice off the kitchen floor where she’s left sticky footprints by the cupboard.
And puts her feet up on Hermione’s lap.
Hmm.
“You two?!” Tonks shouts. “Sirius weren’t joking about that neither?!”
Sirius!
Hermione pushes Bellatrix’s legs off. “No! Well— we— we’ve kind of— Be quiet before Molly hears!”
Bellatrix laughs. “So you do like me! You admit it. Finally. Does this mean you’ll kiss me again?”
Bellatrix!
“Again?” Tonks groans. Stands up. “Right. I should— None of my business. Even if this is—You look so much like— Ugh, it’s weird! This is all really—”
Hermione sighs. “Oh just go back to Fleur already! She likes you! And maybe she’ll listen if you tell her to stay out of this war.”
Bellatrix snorts. Pours herself a cup of tea. “She won’t. And if you tell her not to, she’ll just do it faster.”
“You know Fleur?” Tonks whispers fearfully. “Do you— don’t tell me you— shit. Casual relationship. Is it open? Or is— are you three—”
Three?
Oh gods Bellatrix and Fleur at the same—
No!
Bellatrix cackles. “Why do you want to know? Do you have a little crush on her? Aw. Baby Dora, all grown up.”
Tonks pauses. Frowns. “Why are you calling me Dora? Only my parents call me that.”
Bellatrix frowns back. Blinks. “And Siri. It’s what he calls you. Guess it’s catching. But…I’ll call you Tonks, if you want.”
Tonks nods. A bit suspiciously. “Yeah. Tonks is good. I’ll…see you later. I was just stopping by.”
And she’s already off out the front door. They watch her leave.
Strange.
And Bellatrix’s head whips around to check they’re alone.
Then she leans close. “Can I kiss you? No-one’s here. Quick. Kiss me.”
And all the blood manages to somehow go straight to Hermione’s face, and down between her legs at the same time. And this isn’t a good idea, but—
Bellatrix is staring intently at her mouth. Hopeful. Hungry eyes.
She grabs Bellatrix’s head. Tugs her forward until their lips collide. Kisses her quickly. Urgently. They don’t have time. Mrs Weasley could walk in. They really shouldn’t be—
Bellatrix climbs onto her lap. “Screw it,” she murmurs before she kisses Hermione again, a flood of heat. Warm thighs. Hot mouth. “Fuck the rules. I can’t stop thinking about you. Let me into your room tonight. Let me—”
And Bellatrix jumps off of her as the back door opens. Back in the seat next to her.
Hermione catches her breath. Looks down. At the potatoes. At the—
Fuck fuck fuck she’s so turned on right now. Can taste the pumpkin juice. Pumpkin juice is a turn on now? Seriously? She doesn’t need that correlation every time she has lunch or—
She hears people come in. There’s no arguing or questions. So they must have not seen anything, too busy taking their shoes off.
“Bagsy the shower!” Ginny shouts and races past.
Ron runs after her.
Mr and Mrs Weasley go through to the living room area. Molly fussing. Arthur rubbing his shoulder.
No Harry or Sirius. Or the twins.
Hermione reaches under the table. Touches Bellatrix’s knee. “Can you show me the spell?” she asks as calmly as she can. “To peel potatoes?”
Bellatrix moves her chair closer. Puts her arm around Hermione and takes her hand. Her wand hand. Holds her wand steady.
She’s so close. Heat radiating off her. Curls falling on Hermione’s neck.
“It’s a spiral,” Bellatrix says, close to her ear. “You have to turn your wrist.”
Hermione swallows. Turns her wrist.
And begins stroking her fingers ever so slightly up Bellatrix’s thigh, over her dress. Can’t believe she’s doing this, but can’t— it’s been days. Of looks. And comments. And that kiss was just the last—
Bellatrix lets out a breath. “Close. Adjust your grip. Firmer.”
Fuck. Oh she knew it. Knew this was going to get out of hand. Without Hermione holding back…
She tightens her grip. Squeezes Bellatrix’s thigh, hand trembling.
Turns her head. Towards Bellatrix. Doesn’t dare look, but turns.
Bellatrix pushes at her jaw. “No, look forward. Concentrate. It’s a nonverbal spell. It’s difficult. Try again. Spiral. Just change the angle.”
Hermione tries it with her wand. Leaves her other hand where it is. Doesn’t dare…well any further and—
Bellatrix’s legs shift. “Again. Go on. You can do it.”
Hermione aims at the next potato. Spirals. Watches it peel itself. And moves her fingers further up. Further towards— she—
And the back door bangs open. “Any juice left?” Sirius shouts. “Thirsty work, all that riding.”
Bellatrix curses under her breath. “Don’t stop,” she hisses. “Just—”
Hermione moves her hand away as Harry comes to sit with them. She is not doing— what was she—
“I’m going to go for a walk!” she blurts out. Stands up. “Alone,” she adds as Bellatrix stands up too. “Just in the garden. I was about to go out for some fresh air. I’ll only be a few minutes. Just—”
And she’s out the back door, stepping into a spare pair of wellies. Casts a silencio at herself.
And screams. Argh, what is wrong with her! She nearly— she would never have— great time to suddenly get a sex-drive, Hermione. What—
She paces next to the vegetable patch. Around the pond. Looks for a gnome to throw. She can’t believe all it took was one kiss and she was ready to—
She hears footsteps behind her. Cancels the silencio. “Bellatrix, I said I wanted to—”
“It’s me.”
Oh.
Harry.
Oh she can’t talk to Harry. She’s not sure she’d even talk to her Harry about this. Older Harry. He’d probably have a heart attack.
Harry smiles at her. “Are…you okay? I hope we didn’t leave you out. Playing quidditch without you.”
Hermione takes a breath. Smiles back. “No! You know how rubbish I am on a broom. And Tonks stopped by and talked to me anyway. And…it looked fun, did you have fun? Who won?”
He shrugs. “It was a draw. Plus we had to keep swapping people around. Bellatrix and Sirius kept fighting. And Ron and Ginny. It was great. Mr Weasley almost fell off though. He might not play next time. So…if you want to try it again...”
They stare down at the frozen pond.
“I’ll have to go soon,” she whispers. “I can’t— there are things Bellatrix and I have to do for the Order. But…I’m not leaving you, alright? And I— here.”
She hands him a galleon.
He looks at it. “Uhh…thanks. But I have a few galleons of my own, so—”
She laughs quietly. “It’s a charmed one. We can use it to write messages to each other. And Ron. And Ginny. Whilst I’m away from Hogwarts.”
Dumbledore came and explained to all of them. About the ‘kidnapping’. Hermione is officially in hiding now. Everyone else sworn to secrecy.
But she can stay here. Until the end of the Christmas holidays. With her friends. Can relax. Can...
Slowly die of pent-up sexual frustration with Bellatrix one floor above her.
Harry looks down at the coin. She waits for the argument. For him to ask to come with her. To help her. To tell her it’s his problem, and that he needs to—
“Oh, cool,” he says quietly instead. Carefully turns the coin over in his hands. “They look so real. That’s a great idea. It…I wish we could all do this together. It’ll be weird without you at Hogwarts. Especially if we have to pretend we’re worried. But…you know what you’re doing now. You have a plan. With Bellatrix. Don’t you? You know how to stop him.”
Hermione carries on walking. Nods. Avoids eye contact. “Yes. It will be okay. He’s weak right now. And alone, apart from Wormtail. We know what to do this time. We know his weaknesses. How to stop him for good.”
Which is true. Almost.
Except for how to get all the Horcruxes. Like the snake. And the ring. And the goblet.
And Harry.
What will they do about Harry?
Harry crouches down. Pulls some weeds up and throws some snails away into the orchard. “I might be able to stop by and see you, if you’re at Sirius’ place. He said I can come round whenever I want. And— and Dumbledore said they might be able to free him soon. Have a trial to prove his innocence. He said something about using his memories, I don’t know how that works.”
Oh. Oh Sirius might get to be free. And see Harry. And have a house, and a home. And he’s already getting better. More stable. She can see it in Sirius’ eyes. In the way he can follow a conversation without becoming lost in thought. Can join in. And seems…
Relaxed. Happy.
And Harry is happy. Is a kid. Never…oh.
He doesn’t have to face Voldemort. Doesn’t have to face this. They did it.
They protected Harry. He feels safe. Has no reason to blame himself. For anything.
This Harry is different now.
Hermione pulls him to his feet. Hugs him. “That’s great! I’m so happy for him. And for you. He deserves it. You all deserve it. It—”
She squeezes him tighter.
He hugs her back, clearing his throat awkwardly. “Are you sure you’re okay? Did something happen? With Tonks, or Bellatrix, or did Mrs Weasley—”
Hermione pulls back. “I’m fine. Honestly, Harry. Nothing happened. It’s— I’m just happy for you. That’s all. It’s…this has been a funny Christmas, hasn’t it? Strange but…nice.”
He laughs softly. “Yeah. Sounds about right. Strange but nice. Like…everything in the wizarding world. Our world. It…”
He looks down at his feet. “You don’t think I’ll have to go back to the Dursleys, do you?” he whispers. “Not now…that I’ve got a real family.”
Oh and she can feel the tears coming. Get a grip, Hermione. Get—
She grabs his arm. Firmly. Marches them back towards the house. “Not if I can help it. Dumbledore will have a fight on his hands if he wants to send you back there. From me, and Sirius, and Bellatrix and Ron and Ginny and Lupin and— no-one will let you go back there.”
He laughs shakily. “Even if you haven’t killed Voldemort by then?”
She nods. Keeps walking.
Even if Voldemort’s still alive by then.
Which he’d better not be.
Chapter 26: Forget Dinner
Notes:
Hi folks!
Thank you all so much for all the kudos and comments, I have so much fun talking to you all. And you've all been waiting around for this chapter a bit longer than usual.
But this chapter is also a lot longer. And there's a reason
So here is your warning that the second half of this chapter is very not safe for work. And possibly dips into the explicit rating. Yep. It's happening, folks. We've reached boiling point.
Enjoy!
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Another day goes by. Another afternoon. Nearly evening. Getting closer to bedtime.
Bellatrix had knocked on her door last night. Asked to come in.
Then a light had come on. Footsteps on the stairs.
By the time Hermione plucked up the nerve to open her door…no-one was there.
She’s spent most of today with Ginny. Shut upstairs. There was another Order meeting, this time with Bellatrix allowed, but not her.
For some reason. She’s definitely asking about that later.
Later tonight. What if she comes tonight? What if—
She goes downstairs with Harry once the meeting is over. Ginny and Ron are finishing a game of gobstones, which she still hasn’t learnt to play properly, and the goo is always spurting everywhere, so it’s not the best game to be a spectator for. It’s not too long until dinner anyway…
Bellatrix is chopping some carrots at the table. Sirius is a dog. Lying at her feet. On her feet. On his back. Catching the occasional stray piece that rolls off in his mouth.
Harry laughs. “Don’t feed Padfoot at the table. He’ll lose all his training.”
Bellatrix looks up. Snorts. “What training? He skipped training. He didn’t even keep up with his Greek and Latin because he was too busy looking for the nude pictures, or drawing some on Cissy’s parchment.”
Sirius transforms, still lounging on the floor. Still chewing. “Tattletale. And you’re one to talk. Did you ever practice your handwriting? You don’t even write in cursive. How did you get away with that?”
“Cursive is pointless and just makes things more difficult to read,” Bellatrix snaps back. “And you gave up on the piano. I bet you can’t even read music anymore.”
“Oh la di da, the piano,” Sirius says, standing up. “Of course I can read music. I play the guitar—”
“— What, you memorised some chords? Anyone can—”
“—And I sing. Better than you. What’s the point of some dreary piano recital? Where’s the fun in that? You can’t even sing in tune,” Sirius says, laughing at the idea of it.
“What about dancing, hmm?” Bellatrix says, standing too, arms folded. “I can dance better. I have rhythm. You dance like—”
Sirius scoffs. “Better than me? Oh come on!”
By now everyone is crowding around. Ginny and Ron are coming down the stairs. The twins have poked their heads over the banister. Molly has left her knitting to itself.
“She is pretty good at dancing,” Ron comments as he reaches Hermione. “Knew what she was on about when— Uhh…”
He drifts off. Gives Hermione and Harry a panicked look, not wanting to mention the whole imperio situation.
Which is still a bit problematic, now Hermione thinks about it. Did she have to do all that?
Bellatrix nods. “Right. Outside then. Let’s settle it. Do we have any music, Molly?”
“Well, Arthur has a radio in the shed. He’s out there right now—”
And Bellatrix is out the door, Sirius bounding after her.
“Guess we’re having a dance contest,” one of the twins grins, adjusting his shirt collar.
Hermione smiles back. It does seem like it. Although she’s not sure what kind of music they’ll find. Or if—
The floo sounds. Huh? Who—
Ron stands in front of Hermione. Blocks her from sight.
“Molly!” comes an angry shout. “Is she here? Is it true? Because I can’t believe you would—”
Oh shit.
Andromeda? Why is Andromeda here?
Molly hurries forward. “Andromeda, dear! What a surprise. Are you alright? Come and have a seat in the living room and I’ll get you a cup of—”
Loud music starts up from outside. Different music. Switching channels. And arguing.
Hermione stays very still. Glances at Harry, wishing he had his cloak. She can’t be seen. Not with the kidnapping story—
Andromeda walks straight past Ron towards the back door. Pushes Harry and Ginny out of the way. “Let me see. Let me out. Because if this is true…”
“Andromeda!” Molly calls. “Don’t—”
“Go get the cloak!” Ron hisses to Hermione. “We’ll go help Bellatrix. Go on!”
And Hermione reluctantly runs up the stairs as Andy heads out the back door. All the stairs. To Ron’s room. Hectically throws things around until she finds— there!
She puts it on and races downstairs. Tripping down the steps. Through the kitchen and out…
Well, they found a radio station. A song with the right rhythm. But they’re not dancing. Everyone seems to be frozen. Like time has stopped mid-sunset, only the music and their fogged breaths showing signs of life. It's like she’s walked into a still life. Andromeda a few steps from the door. The Weasleys and Harry gathered around her.
Bellatrix and Sirius stood in hold. Ready to dance. Staring at Andromeda.
And Sirius steps forward. Begins the dance. “Dromeda. Long time no see. I was just telling Bella that I’m a better dancer than her. That’s right, isn’t it?”
“Siri!” Bellatrix hisses, somehow waltzing warily. “You need to stop! We need to—Get away from me before she—”
Andy raises her wand. “Get back, Sirius. I don’t know why you’re— Dora said that you’re innocent. The Prophet said— Dumbledore said— Siri, get away from her!”
Hermione takes out her own wand. Readies it. Just in case.
“Listen to her, Wags,” Bellatrix grits out. Tries to pull her hand from Sirius'.
He pulls her back. Spins her. Turns so he has his back to Andromeda, blocking Bellatrix from sight. Obstructing the line of fire. “Remember our dance lessons?” Sirius calls. “Remember the balls? Every yule, and every summer? Remember when we sat under the tables and—”
“Stop it!” Andromeda yells, tears forming now. Angry tears. Wand shaking. “This isn’t funny! This isn’t one of your jokes! This isn’t— You said you’d stay away, Bella! That you’d leave us alone! That— Dora was here. With— with—”
She looks around at the Weasleys. “How could you?” she says harshly.
Molly walks towards her, smiling sadly. Slowly reaching to push her wand down. “I know. It must be hard. But Bellatrix has joined the Order. She’s done what you did, dear. Changed sides. Left—”
Andromeda laughs. Darkly. Steps back. And again. “You believe her?”
“Yes,” Harry says. “And Dumbledore believes her. She’s nice now. She wants to help. She’s my family, like you are, right?”
Andromeda shakes her head frantically. Walks over to Harry. Cups his cheeks. “Choose another family. Don’t— oh sweetie, don’t choose us! Don’t choose her. Don’t choose Blacks. We aren’t— Has she hurt you? If she’s hurt you—”
Andromeda checks his face, his bare arms. Searching for injuries.
“I’d never hurt him,” Bellatrix says. Has managed to stop Sirius. Free herself. Is slowly coming closer. “I told you. I’m sorry. I hate how I was, and what I did, and— and I thought that— when you wrote back—”
And Andy spins to face her, wand up, Harry protected behind her. “I wrote back for Neville. Not for you. I wrote back for the boy whose parents you— Was it fun? Was that it? Did you forget to stop? Did you—”
“I’ve changed, Andromeda,” Bellatrix almost pleads. “I just— I just want to help. Want to— but alright. I’ll go. If you want me to go, I’ll— I should—”
She kisses Sirius’ head. “Sorry. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have— maybe this wasn’t—”
“Don’t go!” Ginny’s says. “Her— we need you. And you promised. To Dumbledore. And— and you still haven’t taught me that broom trick.”
“Yeah,” Ron adds. “What about…our chess game? You’ve gotta stay for that. I’ve got a new strategy and everything.”
“And there’s our latest project,” one of the twins says. “The you-know-what. That still needs a bit of tweaking—”
“—so it doesn’t explode—”
“—and set your hair on fire.”
“That’s what happened?” Mrs Weasley shouts. “You said it was a curling iron! Which, now that I think about it—”
“And Hermione Granger?” Andy snaps.
Oh.
What?
Hermione stills. Holds her breath.
Everyone looks around awkwardly in the silence.
Andromeda steps closer to Bellatrix. And closer. Folds her arms. “Where is she, Bella? What did you do? What did you do to her?” she asks steely.
Bellatrix looks away. “Nothing. It’s not what you think. I didn’t—”
“Didn’t you?” Andromeda asks.
Bellatrix doesn’t reply.
Andromeda nods. “Right. Leave, Bella. Away from the children. Away from…I ran once before. I won’t run this time. This time it’s your turn to know your place. To go find where you belong. Because it’s not here.”
There’s a collective intake of breath. Bellatrix winces. Sirius whines.
Then growls. Pulls Bellatrix behind him. “Leave her alone. You don’t— you don’t know what we’ve— you don’t understand— fucking hell, just look at her, Dromeda! She’s not the same! She’s left. Like we did. Years later, but she’s done it! She’s as fed up with all that prejudiced, self-righteous, bloodpurist crap as we are. So— so get off your high horse. Because the only one hurting anyone around here is you.”
“Siri,” Bellatrix says. “It’s fine. She’s right. Don’t—”
“Hurt?!” Andy shouts. “Oh I’m hurting her? With my words? By telling the truth? When— she’s tortured people. Killed people. Killed things. She’s always—”
She crowds closer to him. “Remember when she practiced the killing curse on all the spiders and doxies in the attic? Remember when she imperioed Kreacher so she wouldn’t have to talk to him? Remember when she used to slash through the portraits if they spoke to her, or looked at her, or breathed in her presence? Do you remember the balls? Do you remember how many wizards became mysteriously ill if they danced with her? Or didn’t dance with her? Or if they stepped on her foot? Maybe you’re too young to remember Archibald Greengrass. He dropped down at her feet and never got up! Aged twenty-three!”
And she grabs Sirius. Yanks him away from Bellatrix. “So no. I don’t believe her. And if you all think Hermione Granger, a muggleborn girl, is alive and well after Bella set her sights on her, then I’m afraid you’re in for a shock.”
She killed…she imperioed…and a wizard…
But…
Bellatrix’s face. The panic. The way her shoulders have tensed. One hand pressed to her sternum. The other…
Patting her skirt. Looking for Ratty. Wandless. Empty handed.
Did she do all that? Did she do any of that? Or was that another Bellatrix? The one from this time?
Right.
Hermione sharply pulls off the cloak. Throws it behind her into the house.
Everyone jumps. Including Andromeda.
Hermione smiles tightly. “Thank you for worrying, Mrs Tonks, but I’m fine. I’m hiding under Dumbledore’s orders, so Bellatrix was just keeping his secret,” she explains steadily.
Andromeda stares back, frozen in shock.
Hermione walks over to Bellatrix. Gives Andromeda a firm look. “She has changed. She regrets all of those things. And won’t do them again. Will you, Bellatrix?”
And she stomps on Bellatrix’s foot.
“Ow! What the—” Bellatrix shouts. Hops around on one foot, massaging the other. “Fuck, why— oh. Oh, right.”
Hermione smiles. “Sorry. Couldn’t think of another way.”
Bellatrix smiles back. Stops hopping.
Then straightens. Grins wider. Holds out her hand. “Dance with me? Hermione Granger? Muggleborn? Golden Girl? Beacon of the light?”
Hermione laughs. Well, the radio is still blaring. And she’s not going to say no.
She takes Bellatrix’s hand. “Beacon of the light? I think that’s Harry.”
Bellatrix pulls her into hold, hand on her waist. Raises an eyebrow. “True. Good point. Want me to dance with him instead?”
Hermione leans to whisper in her ear. Lays her hand on Bellatrix’s shoulder. “No. I want to dance with you. So lead, please. I don’t know how.”
They begin to move. Bellatrix laughs warmly. “I’ll have to teach you. I think you’d be good at that. Leading.”
They turn. Fast. Hermione tries to focus on her footwork, getting breathless. Palms sweating. “Something else to teach me? Does that mean we’re done with kissing? And potato peeling?”
Bellatrix hums. Adjusts Hermione’s posture. Moves them closer together. “I’ll give you…an exceeds expectations for the kissing—”
Hey!
“—For the potatoes…well, we still have a few hours left on that. We barely began. Maybe I’ll have to give you detention again. Catch you up to speed.”
And the world speeds past. Blurs. A Viennese waltz. Faster than the music. Somehow both in and out of time. On the offbeat. Double the speed. They must be dancing to Bellatrix’s own rhythm.
Which Hermione really should have seen coming.
“Maybe we’ll have to study into the night,” Hermione breathes out, dizzy. “I’m sorry I missed you last time. What—”
“Arthur got up for a glass of water,” Bellatrix says, rolling her eyes even as they spin very close to a nearby apple tree. “Then he started talking to me about the stars. We went downstairs. I could have hexed him.”
Hermione deliberately steps on her foot. Glares.
Bellatrix laughs as they briefly stumble. “I didn’t! I swear! Told him everything I knew, and that muggles have telescopes. We were up for hours!”
Hermione laughs. “He must have tired you out.”
“Wish it was you tiring me out,” Bellatrix grumbles.
Then screeches to a halt. Dips her.
Hermione’s heart seizes in shock. She clings on.
Bellatrix grins down at her, hair tickling Hermione's face. “Gonna have to stop there. See if Andy has more to say.”
Oh. Right. Andy.
Hermione sighs. “Help me up, then.” She’s dangling. Dipped very low. Her own hair is almost touching the grass.
And she’s pulled upright. The blood rushes from her head. She steadies herself on Bellatrix’s arm.
Looks over at Andromeda as her vision clears. They’re back near the house. Must have danced full circle.
Or…zigzag. She isn’t really sure.
Andromeda is still staring. Everyone is.
“Okay…” Sirius says. “Maybe you win at dancing.”
Bellatrix scoffs. “You’re just being nice. We barely did anything. Too busy talking.”
Andy shakes her head. “You— she— what— wait.”
Oh, speechless. Well…that’s better than yelling.
She keeps shaking her head. “How did— when did—why don’t you—”
Bellatrix walks over to her with a soft laugh. “I’m not a Death Eater, Andy. I don’t believe in blood status. I don’t think Blacks are better than anyone else. In fact, I’m much happier here with the Weasleys than I ever was there. So I get it. I get why you— ow!”
Andromeda hits her on the head. “Now? You change now? You— I begged you for years to listen to me. To be— you were horrible! How can I forgive you? But— but how can I not when— when— argh, I hate you!”
And she hugs Bellatrix. Holds her tightly. “I hate you so much.”
Bellatrix hugs her back. Sighs in relief, eyes closed, face buried in Andy’s hair, breathing her in. “I know. You should. I was the worst.”
“More than the worst,” Andromeda whispers. “I was so scared of you.”
Bellatrix pulls back. “Scared? I never hurt you. I never— did I?”
“No,” Andromeda says wetly, voice rough, finger wagging. “But you threatened my friends. And then my family. Anyone who— Hurting them hurt me. I was always terrified you’d hurt them.”
Bellatrix steps back. “I’m sorry. Sometimes I forget that— I’m sorry. All those…so long ago…but…and Azkaban…”
Andromeda wipes at her face. Looks around at everyone. “Yes, how did you get out of Azkaban? You never told me.”
Bellatrix’s mouth opens. Shuts. Then she sighs. “You shouldn’t be here, Andy. You’re not supposed to know about me being here. Or Hermione. Sometimes it’s better not to know, rather than—”
“Was it Cissy? Did she somehow…pay someone?”
Sirius snorts. “Who? A dementor? I think she’d have to give away her whole vault to whoever let Bella out.”
“She didn’t pay anyone,” Bellatrix whispers to herself. And a sadness creeps over her. “She didn’t have to. I didn’t…I tried to…but it always had to…”
She shakes her head. Then smiles cautiously. “So…you’ll talk to me now?” she asks Andy.
For a moment there’s silence. A heavy emptiness. Both sisters taking the other in with only their eyes.
And then Andromeda shakes her head. Smiles sadly. “One day. Just not…this is too hard, Bella. I need— I just need time to…I loved you, you know? Completely. And you just…hurt me. Again and again. No matter what I did, or said. And I always hoped that you’d…but now it’s just too painful. I— I think…”
Tears fill her eyes again. She swallows. Takes a step forward and cups Bellatrix’s cheeks. “Soon. I’ll talk to you— I’ll come back— just give me a sec, alright? I need time to figure this out. I’m sorry. I can’t—”
She backs away. Strokes Sirius’ arm and shakes her head again at his mournful expression. “Sorry. I’ll be— Look after each other, alright?”
And she turns. Heads past the house and away down the garden path towards the lane.
Bellatrix takes a step after her.
Then stops herself.
Takes a deep breath as Andy turns the corner out of sight. Clears her throat. Smiles strangely. “Well. That didn’t go too badly, did it? Time. She needs time. That’s fine. I’ve got time. Lots of time. Think I’ll— Dinner soon, isn’t it? I didn’t finish the carrots. Need to do that. And you need to get inside, Siri. All of us should. It’s cold. It’s— and—but maybe— hide. Need to—forgot to—”
And she walks into the house. Quickly. Almost running.
Hermione follows her. Is she alright? What was— “Bellatrix, are you—”
Bellatrix picks the invisibility cloak up off the floor. Puts it on. Her shoes get left behind by the door, and she runs straight upstairs, feet still visible on each step.
Oh.
Someone pats Hermione on the shoulder. Mrs Weasley. “Go check on her, dear. Maybe give her a moment, but bring her some tea and a biscuit. She’s had a bit of a shock.”
Hermione turns in surprise. Searches Molly’s face. “You’ve really…forgiven her, haven’t you. I mean, everything Andy said…you must have known Bellatrix before. When she was like that. During the fir— during the war.”
Mrs Weasley smiles through a sigh. Hovers the kettle over to boil. “Yes. Oh yes, we’d all heard of her. Never met her myself. Not after Hogwarts, anyway. She was only a Third Year when we left, but…”
She glances at Arthur in the doorway. The smile slips. Worry flashes on her face.
And she shakes it away. “But war makes for strange bedfellows, as they say. She’s on our side, and she’s behaving herself. Over a week now, and she’s been good as gold,” Molly laughs to herself. “Never in a million years did I think she’d be here under our roof. In our ‘pigsty’.”
“Oh, Mrs Weasley," Harry says. "It’s not a—”
“It’s alright, Harry,” Arthur says, jumping in to interrupt him, taking off his hat and scarf. “We can take a jab or two. And it was actually a pigsty, originally. This whole ground floor. So you can see why the Blacks and the Malfoys and all those pureblood ‘cousins’ of ours still think of it that way.”
“Cousin?” Ginny asks fearfully, glancing at Harry.
“Yes!” Arthur says excitedly. “Didn’t you know? What was it again, Sirius? My late mother, Cedrella Weasley, born Cedrella Black, is your…”
Sirius frowns. Then gestures in the air. Up, up, up, left, down. “Your Mother is my great grandfather’s…niece. Yes? Yes. We’re…second cousins…once removed. I think.”
“So, distant?” Ginny clarifies.
Arthur shrugs. “I’m half Black. Although my mother didn’t call herself one.”
“Blasted off the family tapestry like me,” Sirius nods. “And Andromeda. Think Bella must have done that…”
And they all look up the stairs again.
Hermione nods. “I’ll go find her. Talk to her.”
Mrs Weasley hands her a tray with some tea and biscuits. Sirius pats her shoulder.
And up she goes. She isn’t sure which room she’ll be in. She should just check them all.
Not Ginny’s. Next floor, should she…
Ah.
Two feet. On Hermione’s bed. Percy’s bed. Bodiless feet.
Hermione knocks, even though the door is open. Boundaries. “I brought tea. And biscuits. Do you—”
“I forgot about Buckbeak,” comes a disembodied voice from the bed. The feet disappear. “We left him on the mountain. By the cave. I was supposed to write…I forgot to…do you think he’s alright? He must be. I didn’t kill him. He has to be alive.”
Hermione puts the tray down on the desk, grimacing at the distant tone. Maybe she should have brought some chocolate.
She grabs the biscuits. Kicks off her shoes. Cautiously crawls onto the bed, feeling for the edge of the cloak. “I’m sure Buckbeak is fine,” she says gently. “He’s tough. And it’s not your fault. He’s not your…Can I come under?”
There’s silence. Then a laugh. “I nodded. Idiot. Yeah, get under here, Granger. Disappear with me.”
Hermione smiles at that. Pulls at the edge of the cloak and ducks under.
Bellatrix is leaning against the wall. Legs curled up. Hugging Ratty.
She grins at Hermione though. Tugs her further under.
“I’m Granger again?” Hermione comments. Moves some hair out of Bellatrix’s face.
“You’ve always been Granger,” Bellatrix mutters back. “Is that a biscuit?”
Hermione settles in beside her. Hands the biscuits over. Watches Bellatrix break off a piece for Ratty and hand it to him first. As expected. Always. Always everyone else first.
She touches the fabric of the cloak that surrounds them. Cocoons them. “This is Harry’s cloak. Not yours,” Hermione whispers.
There’s another pause.
“Is there a difference?” Bellatrix murmurs.
Hermione finds Bellatrix’s hand. Takes it. Squeezes. “Is there?” she cautiously asks back.
Doesn’t get a reply.
Hermione sighs. “About what Andy said. Was it—”
“Can we not talk about her? Please?” Bellatrix huffs back, releasing Ratty so he can scurry off across the bed.
Hermione turns to face her. To look at her. Really look at Bellatrix. “But what she said. Did you do that, or was that a different— You wrote to her. She said you wrote to her. About Neville. So does that mean—”
Bellatrix suddenly launches herself at her. Hugs her. Groans. “I said please. Please don’t talk about her, alright? Anything else. You must have something else in your brain we can talk about. Hermione. Not Granger, Hermione, if that’s what you want. What do you want? I’ll help you. I’ll talk to you. If you want to talk, I’ll talk. If I can.”
Hermione tries to catch her breath. Hugs Bellatrix back. She’s warm. But her nose is cold still. And she smells like…what is…how is her smell a mystery? They all use the same shampoo, and live in the same house. Sleep in sheets washed with the same cleaning spells. How does she still smell so…
She kisses the side of Bellatrix’s head. Smells her hair. “Are you wearing perfume? Or is it your shampoo?”
“Did you just kiss me?” she gets as a response.
Avoiding— why does she always avoid answers?! She said they could talk! Why— is this a Slytherin thing? Is— fine!
“Did it make you blush? Was it pretty enough for you?” Hermione directs back.
And as predicted, Bellatrix pulls away to glare at her. No blush this time though. “You just surprised me. One time. Once. I’m not some shy virgin or blushing bride!”
Bride?
Wait. Wait, what if Ginny’s right? Are they married? What—
Who is this Bellatrix?
This Bellatrix…who is now leaning next to her again. Shoulder to shoulder. Just sat here with her. Came to Hermione’s room when she was upset.
She’s upset. Doesn’t want to talk about it.
So really…does it matter right now who she is? Hermione already knows who she is. This Bellatrix.
She hovers the tea tray over. Slowly pulls the cloak off of them. “Molly made you some tea. We should drink it before it goes cold. And it’ll warm you up.”
Bellatrix nods. Accepts her cup without comment.
They sip at the tea. It is warming. Comforting.
“I should write to Cissy,” Bellatrix says.
Hermione takes another sip. “What will you tell her?”
Bellatrix sighs. Rubs at her forehead tiredly. “I don’t know. Not the truth. But not a lie. I can’t…Oh I’m so fucking tired of this, Granger.”
Hermione puts an arm around her shoulders. “I know.”
“You got to tell everyone,” Bellatrix whines, leaning into her. “But I can’t— it’s more complicated. And what will Andy think now? She saw us dancing. She isn’t stupid. She must think I am a cougar. A pervy— Why do you have to be fifteen? You’re not.”
Hermione chuckles. “That’s the biggest problem? I think the bigger problem is—”
“Wanted fugitive, I know,” Bellatrix interrupts. “But I’m used to that. Walk in a room, people look for the exits. Look for their wands. Try not to piss themselves. That’s me.”
“Not here though,” Hermione whispers. “You’re…safe here. Seen. Wanted.”
Bellatrix sighs. “For now. I forgot that. Never know who’s going to turn up for a fight. For revenge. I got cocky. Forgot to hide. That’s why I need to talk to Cissy. She told me. Told me to stay hidden. That I was safe with her. That I just had to wait.”
Hermione swallows. “Then…why did you go to Hogwarts? Why did you go back to Voldemort, and make the plan for Harry?”
Bellatrix doesn’t reply.
Hermione groans. Hovers the cups and tray away. “Bellatrix, talk to me. I know you can’t talk to the others, but it’s different with me. Why can’t you—”
“I saw you,” Bellatrix murmurs.
Hermione drifts off. Turns in surprise to look at Bellatrix. Is she…answering her? For once?
Bellatrix glances at her. And away. “I told Cissy I’d hide. I had the invisibility cloak. I didn’t leave her house. I stayed hidden. For years. But the house was…it was hard. Lonely. All those walls. Not being seen. Not being— but I did it. I had to. I was supposed to be dead. No-one could see me. But then…”
She smiles. “I got bored. Started doing things. Going places. Places no-one would know me, or I stayed under the cloak. With Cissy, most of the time. She always wanted to keep an eye on me. Still doesn’t quite trust me. But come on! The Quidditch World Cup? Here? I wasn’t missing that!”
Hermione laughs.
Bellatrix squeezes her hand. “But then I saw you.”
And Hermione’s heart lurches in her chest.
Bellatrix continues with a sigh. “And plans changed. Options changed. I couldn’t hide anymore. Not at Cissy’s. I knew I had to be at Hogwarts. Because…you were different. You looked older. And you weren’t watching the match, you were watching me. Something was happening with you. And I had to find out what that was. It was a sign. A sign for me to…you were a surprise. You shook things up. So I did too. And now everything is…a complete mess.”
She came to Hogwarts because of Hermione? She went back to Voldemort because of Hermione? Came out of hiding? She— that’s why she was always watching her? Following her? She literally followed Hermione to Hogwarts?
“So you saw I looked older than I should be…and then stalked me?” Hermione asks with a gentle laugh.
Bellatrix’s head whips around. “Don’t make it sound so creepy! It’s only because you were stalking me. You kept coming closer when we were in the top box. Nearly stood on me. Cissy had to chase you off. But then you followed us into the forest. And then you were watching me from the second I arrived at Hogwarts. Everything I did, and then whispered to your friends. You’re the stalker.”
Oh. Well that is true.
“Because you were different,” Hermione says quietly. “It’s— I don’t know if I should tell you, but you weren’t supposed to be there. I was surprised to see you too.”
Bellatrix chuckles lowly. “So it was both of our faults. Great. Look at the mess we’ve created, Granger. We’ve told bits and pieces to everyone. And now those people are telling other people. Tonks must have let something slip to Andy. Or Dumbledore did it on purpose.”
Hermione closes her eyes, a headache of her own forming as she tries to piece everything together. Remember everything. Oh. “Fleur knows I’m from the future, by the way. And so does Snape,” she admits.
Bellatrix groans quietly. Leans her head on Hermione’s shoulder. “Snape? Balls. Now that’s messy. But…well, I don’t have many secrets from Cissy. It’s hard to hide anything from her. Why do you think I’m so good at avoiding answers?”
Narcissa…
Does she know about Bellatrix? The truth? About whatever she’s hiding? About Harry’s cloak?
“Hiding everything is impossible,” Hermione says to herself. “We can only avoid it for so long. Do you think…we should go? Just leave? Hogwarts goes back soon.”
“But I still didn’t teach Ginny that broom trick,” Bellatrix says, pouting. “And we can’t leave Harry early. Or Siri. I still haven’t figured out where Lupin’s gone. We can’t just leave them.”
Everyone else. Always everyone else first.
Hermione hugs her. Or half hugs her. Wall in the way at their backs. “Ugh, why do you have to be so nice? You’re making things difficult!”
“So you don’t agree with me?” Bellatrix says.
“Of course I agree!” Hermione huffs. “I don’t want to leave either. Where would we go? Where would we start? And should we leave? What if Dumbledore is…planning something?”
“Then let’s not leave,” Bellatrix hums. “Stay here. Keep feeling me up.”
And Hermione hastily pulls her hands away. “I wasn’t— was I—”
Bellatrix chuckles. Grabs Hermione’s chin and brushes a finger over her lips. Looks at her fondly.
Then slowly drags her in. Kisses her. Hot. Firm. Presses against her. Turns and pushes her against the wall. Oh. Fuck. What—
Then abruptly pulls back.
Hermione’s head falls forward, lips still parted. Head fuzzy. She opens her eyes…
Bellatrix smirks at her. Stands up. “Very pretty. But it’s dinnertime soon. It would be rude to miss it. And I told Ron I’d play chess with him. Guess I’ll have to come back later and—”
Hermione stands up on her knees and wraps her arms around Bellatrix. Captures her lips. Tugs at her. Pulls her back down, back—
She casts a silencing charm over the room. Locks the door. Goes back to kissing Bellatrix, hands sliding over her hips and her waist and— “No dinner,” Hermione sighs. “Not tonight. Not— touch me.”
Bellatrix groans. Pushes her down on the bed. “Now?” she breathes out. Kisses Hermione and pulls her lips away again to talk. “During dinner? With the kids in the house and—”
“Kids in the house? Who are you? Molly?” Hermione accidentally blurts out. Then cringes.
Bellatrix leans up over her, face scrunched in disgust. Pulls back even further. “Molly? Don’t— Way to kill the mood, Granger. Salazar. What the—”
“You’re the one that mentioned— fine,” Hermione huffs. Sits up. Pats her hair down. “We’ll have dinner instead. We’ll never do this. We’ll just dance around it forever. Sometimes literally.”
“Tonight,” Bellatrix says firmly. “After dinner. We can even go to Grimmauld. Sneak off. No interruptions.”
Hermione laughs. “So…we’ve scheduled it? That’s— that’s like the least sexy— What’s wrong with us? Why can’t—”
Bellatrix kisses her. And again. Cups her head. Pulls them together. Takes a dragging breath, and then starts kissing Hermione’s neck. Hands slipping under her top. Over her back. “Then fuck me now,” Bellatrix murmurs. Sucks at her pulse. Scratches her nails over—
Hermione shudders. Clings to her.
“Forget what I said,” Bellatrix continues. “Forget dinner. I’ll taste you instead.”
Hermione tips her head back. Gasps for breath, fingers digging into Bellatrix’s hair, whole body thrumming at the wet warmth at her neck.
And there’s a shout from downstairs. “Dinner! Dinner’s ready!”
Hermione laughs through a groan. “Shit. You were right about—”
“Ignore it. Just— hands. Anywhere. Touch me. Wherever you want.”
And lips descend once more. Hermione wraps her arms around Bellatrix. Then decides that there are much better places to touch. If she’s brave enough. This is about as far as she got with Fleur, other than the occasional stray hand. But Bellatrix did say—
And there are scampering feet outside the door. Scratching. A bark.
“Go away!” Bellatrix yells.
“He can’t hear us,” Hermione reminds her.
“Let us fuck in peace!” Bellatrix shouts again. Grins at Hermione. Slides her hands further under her top and cups—
Sirius barks again. Then there’s a knock. “Hermione! Bellatrix!” Harry calls. “Are you alright? It’s dinnertime!”
And Bellatrix pushes her away with a groan. “See? Too many bloody kids here!”
“If we ignore them, do you think they’ll go away?” Hermione sighs, still catching her breath. Staring mournfully at Bellatrix. So close. She should have just touched her—
“Come on, you lot!” Ron shouts up through the floor. “The sausages are going cold!”
Ugh. Ron.
Bellatrix snorts. “And the mood is dead. Well. We tried. Universe is out to get us. Come on.”
She offers Hermione her hand.
Hermione takes it. Stands up. Tugs her top and bra back into place and tries not to think about…nngh.
Another knock. “What are you doing?” Sirius calls. “Don’t forget what Molly said. No—”
Bellatrix opens the door and pulls Hermione through, pushing past Harry and Sirius. “We’re coming! Can we not get a minute’s peace in this house?”
Sirius laughs. “Someone’s in a bad mood. We were just checking you’re okay. Didn’t want you to miss out on dinner.”
“We’re not having dinner,” Bellatrix snaps, dragging Hermione down the stairs.
They’re not?
Mrs Weasley smiles at them. “There you are, dears. We were wondering—”
Bellatrix carries on pulling Hermione past her. Through the living room. To the floo. “Sorry, Molly. Can’t stay for dinner tonight. Hermione and I have some things we need to do.”
She grabs the floo powder.
“Things? What things? Is it dangerous? Should Dumbledore—”
Bellatrix laughs. “Nope. Don’t need him. Definitely don’t need him. Right Hermione?”
Hermione follows her into the fireplace, fighting a smile. “Right. It’s not dangerous, Molly. Just…we’ll be back tomorrow.”
“Oh. Well, alright then,” Molly says with a shrug. “I’ll save a couple of plates for you in case you change your minds.”
Bellatrix sniggers again. “It’s alright. Think we’re eating out tonight.”
Bella— Oh Hermione is going to kill her! She’s so—
And Bellatrix throws the floo powder down. “Grimmauld Place!”
Green flames surround them. Sirius’ barked laughter follows them.
They stumble out of the floo into another living room. A much darker one. “Did you have to say that?!” Hermione shouts. “Oh that’s so embarrassing! What if she—”
“She won’t get it,” Bellatrix chuckles. “Or she might now. But who cares! Relax. Do you want a drink? I’ll get you a drink.”
She walks over to a decanter on a side table.
Is…drinking a good idea? What is that? Firewhisky? Or more of that random spirit from the bottles in the kitchen?
Hermione fiddles awkwardly with her wand. Her sleeve.
Then just sits down on a sofa. Come on, Hermione. Relax. Stop being so uptight. Maybe she does need a drink. Needs to just…
She closes her eyes. Relaxes her head back. Tries to get comfortable on the world’s most brittle and scratchy sofa.
Smiles to herself. “Hear that? Silence. No Weasleys. No dogs. No students or professors. Just us.”
She hears Bellatrix sit next to her. Feels cold glass brush her knuckles.
She opens her eyes and reaches for her drink.
Bellatrix grins at her. Her eyes run down and back up. She holds out her own glass. “Just us.” She clinks their glasses together. Pauses. “And Kreacher,” Bellatrix slowly adds. “But I am giving him the night off,” she says firmly. Pointedly. Looks around with narrowed eyes for a possibly invisible spy.
Hermione laughs again. Takes a sip of her—
Coughs. Splutters. Eyes watering. “What is this? Are you actually trying to get me drunk? Or poison me? What—”
What is that? Paint stripper?
Bellatrix frowns. Sips her own drink. Winces as she swallows. “Ah. Yeah. Forgot. Strengthens over time. It’s been a few…decades. Possibly centuries.”
She gestures to take Hermione’s glass and puts them down on the side. Suddenly seems…
“It’s been a while. Since I was here,” Bellatrix kind of blurts out. “Well, you know that. I mean since anyone else was here. Don’t entertain much. Cissy does that. Not that I went. Wasn’t allowed. Dead. It’s boring being dead. Not much interaction. Then I was Moody. So that was bloody annoying. Still couldn’t talk to anyone. Not that many of the professors were that interesting. Good job you were there. Someone to talk to. Not that we talked much, did we? Too strange. Talked to Hagrid a bit. That was alright. But he’s not the brightest—”
Hermione leans forward and kisses her. Pecks her on the lips. Smiles.
Rambling. So she’s nervous. That’s a bit of a relief. “So…what you mean is…you haven’t…been with anyone in a while,” Hermione makes herself say, hoping she read that right.
And she kisses Bellatrix again. Feels her respond. Feels hands in her hair and on her neck.
Bellatrix laughs against her mouth. Pulls back slightly to rest the sides of their heads together. “It’s been bloody difficult! You try getting any when you’re invisible. Or have your little sister tagging along everywhere. Or when you’re Moody. Not everyone has a French veela show up out of the blue to practically jump on them.”
Hermione rolls her eyes. “She never jumped on me.” Then she considers it. Tries to remember. “I don’t think.”
And she’s suddenly flat on her back on the sofa. Bellatrix very quickly on top of her. What happened to the nerves? To—
“I knew you were jealous about Fleur,” Hermione sighs as Bellatrix does jump on her. As lips find her neck. Teeth graze her skin.
Which she’s definitely not unhappy about. Stretches out.
“I’m not jealous,” Bellatrix mumbles. “But as she’s not on you right now, somebody definitely should be. I should be.”
She should be. She should— they should—
“Here?” Hermione gasps. “Or— your bedroom is— or the other— somewhere better than this. I’m going to fall off the—”
Bellatrix grabs her hips. Stops her tipping off the sofa. Then her hands drift. To the zipper on Hermione’s trousers. “I won’t let you fall,” she says. Undoes the button.
Hermione swallows. Looks up at the ceiling. Now? This is happening right now? Oh. Okay. Okay, but—
But she isn’t— she hasn’t—
She grabs Bellatrix’s hand to stop her. “Wait. Wait, I— You should know that I haven’t— I’ve never— not with a woman.”
And there’s silence.
She carries on staring at the ceiling. Feels her pulse pick up. Resists urge to hide her face. Kind of wants to disappear.
“Oh,” Bellatrix whispers.
Then pulls her by the arm. Pulls her to sit up.
Hermione grits her teeth. Takes a breath.
Forces her eyes to meet Bellatrix’s.
Bellatrix smiles gently. “Never? So…you and Delacour didn’t…?”
Hermione shakes her head. “I was…this is new for me. I took it slow with Fleur. Just fooled around. Nothing…nothing…” She gestures below her waist.
Then laughs at herself. Leans her forehead on Bellatrix’s shoulder and groans. “I’m so repressed. I can’t even talk about it. I thought I— I dated Ron. I’m such an idiot. It took a Veela flirting with me for me to even realise I liked witches. She practically had to dare me to kiss her. I’m the worst lesbian in the world.”
She feels Bellatrix chuckle. And kiss her head. “Well…as I tried to say, it’s been a decade or so for me too. And before that I was married to a wizard. Although not voluntarily. Bloody pushy parents. But…”
She pulls back to grin at Hermione. “Want me to teach you? I’ll take over from where Delacour left off?”
Hermione laughs. Stands up. “Well, I do like learning. And your teaching...” She pretends to consider it. Nods. “Let’s go find somewhere a bit more comfortable. I think I have scratch marks from that sofa.”
Bellatrix begins pulling her along. “No, that was probably me. Need to cut my nails. That’s rule number one, by the way.”
Hermione follows after her, feeling her face heat up. She knew that. But…is Bellatrix really going to teach her? Give her rules? Lessons? Or—
They sneak up the first set of stairs, past Warlburga.
Then run up the next flight.
Go into the nearest bedroom door.
“My bedroom’s too bloody far away,” Bellatrix mutters. “This one will do.”
Then kisses her. Pushes her against a wall.
The bed’s right there. So close. But…
But…oh…
Her lower lip is sucked into Bellatrix’s mouth. Hands grab Hermione’s.
And she gasps as her open palm is placed on Bellatrix’s chest. “Touch,” Bellatrix murmurs. “If you want to. I want to. Can I take your top off?”
Hermione nods timidly. Then shakes herself out of this stupid embarrassment. Stop it. You want this. She’s beautiful. Tell her. Touch her.
She raises her arms, moving away from the wall slightly. “Get me out of these clothes. And then take yours off. That corset looks like a nightmare to undo. But I want to see you too.”
Bellatrix quickly pulls her top over her head and throws it across the room. Kisses her again. Lips smiling. “There’s a charm for it. Want me to teach it to you? So you can undress me whenever you want?”
Hermione smiles back. Kisses her jaw. “Whenever I want? That sounds risky.”
Bellatrix hums. Tilts her head back. “I trust you. Move your mouth lower. And to the right. There’s a spot right—” she breaks off, breath hitching.
Huh. Here? She has a sensitive neck? Right…here?
Hermione brushes her lips across it. Then her tongue. Reaches to touch Bellatrix...
Remembers the corset as her fingers meet tight ribbons. “So…the charm?” she asks against her neck between kisses. “Wand movement? Is there an incantation—”
“Modified emancipare,” Bellatrix gasps out. “Add a charm— wand movement— flick—”
Emancipare with a flick. That makes sense. She’s guessing she means a downward flick. The theory—
Hermione feels her bra fall undone. Was that magic? Or did Bellatrix just move too quickly for her to feel it?
“Is that alright?” Bellatrix murmurs. “If it’s too fast, just tell me to—”
Emancipare. Hermione flicks her wrist down firmly, aiming at the back of the corset. Watches streams of ribbons unravel.
Then drops her wand on the floor out of the way. “I’ll tell you if anything is too fast,” she says quickly, ignoring the lingering embarrassment at being half naked now. Kisses Bellatrix again, gaze drawn to her lips. Has to feel them again.
Then stops to reach for the bottom of Bellatrix's dress. Focuses on the fact that Bellatrix wants this. Wants her. They both want this. “But I’ve been desperate to touch you for days,” Hermione continues, face heating up. “Maybe weeks. You’re so— gods, Bellatrix. Off. Take your dress off. Arms up.”
Bellatrix just pushes closer, eyes moving intently between Hermione’s own, darting back and forth. Shakes her head. “You think too much. Look. Wide neck. Sleeveless. Open back. Pull it off me. Then you don’t have to move your mouth away.”
And she leans in again, pulling Hermione towards her. Licks— oh licks into Hermione’s mouth. And— and the dress is slipping down. Is—
Hermione shrugs her bra off. Tugs at Bellatrix’s dress to help it fall down to her hips. To—
Shit. Fuck. Bare chest. Bare…
She dazedly drags herself back so she can look. She has to look…
Swallows at the sight. Leans back against the wall.
Takes in soft curves, and the black dress half hanging from her waist. Dark curls brushing over pale shoulders. Shadows flickering over her. Oil lamps. This room is lit with oil lamps.
Bellatrix stares back. Reaches out. Runs three fingers down the centre of Hermione’s chest, from throat to stomach.
“Beautiful,” Hermione whispers to herself. There isn’t another word for it. She doesn’t have words.
The dress falls to pool at Bellatrix’s feet. She steps out of it.
And steps forward. Stares into Hermione’s eyes. So close. Nose to nose. Pushes her against the wall. And for a moment Hermione’s chest constricts as she suddenly flashes back to when—
But then lips find hers. And Bellatrix’s bare chest is pressed to…pressed to…Oh gods. Oh—
Hermione drags her closer. Pulls her even closer. Opens her mouth and moans as all of her senses are overwhelmed. And it feels so right. Touch her. Taste her. Smell her. Close and hot and—
Bellatrix slowly pulls back. Steps back. Takes Hermione’s hand. “You’re beautiful too. Come here.”
And she leads her over towards the bed.
Hermione pauses to take off her trousers. Watches Bellatrix sit down. Watches…looks at…just watches.
Bellatrix sighs. Lies back. “Those eyes,” Bellatrix mutters. “I can almost feel you watching me. And when I look back, I’m stuck. Trapped in them. Honeyed eyes. That’s what they are.”
Honey? Oh. Oh no, they’re nothing special. Her eyes are just boring brown. Not even brown. Lighter than that. They aren’t—
You’re beautiful, Hermione. Own it. Apparently everyone else sees it except you.
“Then look at me,” Hermione whispers as she shimmies out of her trousers. Pulls her socks off. “I want you to. And tell me what you…how you…how will this…”
Bellatrix tilts her head to look at her. Leans up on her elbow. Watches. Still. Perfect as a painting. Light and shadows.
Hermione kicks her trousers away and crawls onto the bed. Wants to…
She kisses Bellatrix’s stomach. Strokes a hand over her…arm. Right arm. Not the Dark Mark.
Hermione glances at her own arm. Checks the glamour is still holding. A modified glamour charm. Long lasting. Practically permanent. She always wears it. Forgets about it altogether, most of time.
Should forget it. Forget it. Forget…
She straddles Bellatrix. Tries not to think into it too much.
Bellatrix continues staring up at her. Lies back. Reaches for Hermione’s hand again and kisses her knuckles. Her palm. Her wrist. “On top. Huh. Is that…where you want to be?”
Hermione shrugs uncomfortably. Shifts her weight. Lifts herself up in case she’s too heavy. “Maybe. It is right now. Just to…control things a little. And see you properly. Is that okay? Does it matter?”
Bellatrix’s hands settle on Hermione’s waist. Soft, except for the slight callus on her wand hand and the ring on her finger. They brush over her. Slowly lower. To her thighs. Pull her down more firmly. “There’s no right and wrong way,” Bellatrix says quietly. “Well, there is. But as long as you want it, and I want it, it’s all good. And…I don’t mind being beneath you. Not if that’s what you want.”
Hermione relaxes her weight back down. Checks Bellatrix’s expression. “And what do you want?”
Bellatrix takes a slow breath. Wets her lips. “Right now?” she asks roughly.
Hermione nods. Leans closer, hand on the bed.
And finds herself shifted further up, head nearly hitting the headboard.
“I want to suck…right here,” Bellatrix says lips hovering millimetres from Hermione’s chest. “Maybe bite. Gently though. I won’t hurt you.”
And— oh!
Hermione leans in closer. Resists the urge to grind her hips as a jolt of electricity sparks from her chest. A spreading heat. Lips and a tongue and— “Oh— fuck— no that’s too—” she jerks back as her nipple is sucked harshly. Too sensitive. Too. “Softer,” she whispers. “And— and—”
Say it. Just say it. Stop being a prude. “Around my nipples,” she manages to get out. “Not on them. Just— yes.”
She relaxes down again. Rests her forehead on a pillow. Shit. That feels—so— oh Merlin.
For a while she just lies there. Half wishes she could reach to touch Bellatrix back. But the other half of her is so warmed with pleasure that she can’t bring herself to move. Let’s Bellatrix shift her whenever she wants. Moving from left to right and back.
But Hermione eventually decides to adjust how she’s sitting. Kneels up. Almost whines as she loses the pressure of Bellatrix’s stomach between her legs…but knows Bellatrix is probably feeling the same ache by now. Hopes she is. Wants her to feel—
She nudges her knee between Bellatrix’s legs. Shudders at the vibration against her chest as Bellatrix moans. And thrusts her hips.
Warm. Warm, damp underwear against her knee. Oh gods. Fuck.
Hermione pulls away. Crawls down. Kisses Bellatrix’s temple, hair getting in her mouth. Then her cheek. Her collarbone. Bites around a necklace. Tastes the metal. Moves it out the way. Kisses—
Bellatrix moans again. Arches her back. Scratches the base of Hermione’s spine, sending tingles through her. Electric. Their legs intertwine.
Hermione lets out a shaky breath. Briefly amazed at how she got here.
Then sucks a nipple into her mouth. First time. Here she goes.
“Shit— oh fuck,” Bellatrix whimpers.
Hermione pulls back. “Did that hurt? Should I—”
“No, go back,” Bellatrix groans. “Do that again, it feels fucking amazing.”
Oh.
She does it again. Harder this time. Then rubs her tongue across it. Moves to the other…
Bellatrix begins to pant. Clutch at her. Hands scrambling over her arms and back. Legs shifting.
Hermione smiles, face hot. Her own breathing picking up. Resists the urge to bite, not really brave enough for that yet. “Like this? You like this?” She licks this time.
Bellatrix pants out a laugh. “Do I need to answer that— ah—oh!” she gasps. Shudders.
Hermione mouthes at her chest one more time and then moves down. Untangles herself from Bellatrix’s legs. Moves them apart. She doesn’t need more answer than that. And it shows that maybe she’s not so bad at this. Gives her that final push. A kick of confidence.
And she moves further down. “Teach me?” she asks as soon as her head is level with Bellatrix’s underwear. “Or just…tell me if I’m doing it wrong. But I want to…taste you here, now. So can I—”
“No,” Bellatrix whines. “No, I want to— you should go first.”
Hermione smiles up at her. “I am going first. This is what I want. Please.”
There’s no way she’ll be good at this straight away. So if she’s going to fail, she’s going to go first. Not follow whatever Bellatrix can do with her tongue, because from the satisfying ache in her nipples…
Bellatrix reaches down and hooks her thumbs under her underwear. Raises her hips and wriggles out of them.
Hermione helps her. Tries not to stare. Tries not to panic. Fails.
Bellatrix chuckles. Pulls Hermione by the shoulders. “Come here. Come on. You’re panicking.”
She can tell? Great. That’s—
Bellatrix keeps pulling her. She’s surprisingly strong. Pulls Hermione on top of her. Kisses her.
“But—” Hermione protests.
Bellatrix nips at her lip. Soothes it. “Feel me first, alright?” she sighs lowly.
And then she wraps her legs around Hermione. Oh.
Keeps kissing. Presses up against Hermione. Right against her thigh now. No fabric in the way. So that she can feel…
Hermione groans. Shifts her hips. Can feel a definite warmth. A wet…
Bellatrix gasps. “Good. Gods you feel good. Now touch, if you want. Do you want to touch me?”
And she rolls them onto their sides. Breaks her lips away. Leaves a gap between them.
Her cheeks are flushed again. And Hermione has never seen Bellatrix’s eyes so dark. Breathing fast. Chest heaving, brushing Hermione with each inhale.
Hermione cups her jaw. “Yes,” she murmurs. “I want to touch you.”
She strokes her thumb over Bellatrix’s cheek. A warm cheek. Drifts down her neck. Over the sensitive spot. Feels her shiver.
Leans her head on her other arm and continues. Down over her breasts. Gently now. Searches Bellatrix’s expression.
Shuffles slightly closer. “You’re so pretty,” Hermione husks. And means it. Pretty is the right word. It shouldn’t be, but it is. Pretty eyes, and pretty lips, and a prettily kiss-marked body.
And she moves her hand lower. Drags down her stomach.
Stops at her hip bone. Looks down at it. Circles it with her fingertips, stalling.
Bellatrix grins at her as she looks back up. That familiar grin. Warm and knowing. “So? Ready for more potato peeling?”
Hermione bursts out laughing. “I think this is already a lot further than we got with the potatoes.”
“Not in my head,” Bellatrix smiles back. Wriggles closer. And further up, making Hermione’s fingertips land lower down.
Then sucks at Hermione’s jaw, just below her ear. “It’s alright. Don't think so much. You can’t get it wrong. You turn me on wherever you touch me.”
Fuck.
Hermione slowly moves her hand lower. Strokes hesitantly as Bellatrix hums in approval. Feels her. Feels…
She feels…this feels…oh…
Bellatrix’s eyes shut. Hermione keeps looking at her. Watches her eyelashes flutter.
“Is…can I just ask…” Hermione whispers. Her hand stills.
Bellatrix nods.
Right. Just one last thing she needs to know. “You’d tell me, wouldn’t you, if we’ve done this before?” Hermione asks. Has to. Because she’s ninety-nine percent sure she’s not married to Bellatrix or something, but…it’s still nagging at her.
The same question Fleur had. Have we dated before? Has this happened before? She gets it now. Why that was the question.
Bellatrix sighs. Then strokes her hair. Plays with a curl. Her eyes open. “We haven’t. I promise. This is my first time with you too. Haven’t even got you out of your knickers yet.”
And Hermione laughs again at the cheeky disappointment on Bellatrix’s face. “You will,” she smiles. “I promise. But I’ve waited my whole life to sleep with a witch. And I…I want to do this with you. So me first.”
And she begins touching again. A bit more deliberately. This new angle is slightly confusing, but she does know how to get herself off. So…
Bellatrix gasps. Her head falls forward against Hermione’s. “Alright. Shit,” she breathes out.
Like this then. Slowly. Again. And again.
Maybe a bit faster. Or firmer?
Bellatrix groans. Rolls onto her back. “Keep going. Need more room. Keep— just like that.”
Hermione leans over her. Swallows as Bellatrix spreads her legs. This time not because of nerves. But because…
She cups between her legs. Feels her. Feels her hips twitch up. “You feel so good,” Hermione mutters. “And I want…I’m going to taste you. I still want to taste you. And I…just keep telling me what you like.”
And she crawls back down.
“Do— do what you were doing before,” Bellatrix tells her. “Just with your tongue. Flat tongue. Soft.”
She can do that. Alright.
She spreads Bellatrix’s legs. Ducks closer. Takes a final breath.
And swipes her tongue slowly up.
Oh.
So this is what it’s like. What it feels like. She hadn’t expected…
And she pushes closer. Just begins…tasting.
Hands in her hair. “Like that,” Bellatrix sighs. “Whatever you want. Just— just try it. I’ll— there. Do that again.”
Hermione smiles in relief. She sounds so breathless still. And that…Hermione did that? Is doing that? Could she…
She tries out a slow pattern. One that ends in the spot Bellatrix mentioned. The same direction. Same angle. Same pressure and—
Bellatrix groans. The hands in her hair tighten. Then release. “Yes— Hermione— fuck— faster,” Bellatrix hisses.
She goes faster. Continues the pattern a few times. Then circles. Ovals. Remembers how she’d normally use her fingers to—
Bellatrix jerks beneath her. “Harder. More firm— rougher— left. Up and down— yes keep— fuck yes faster—” she breathes out in a halting rush.
Hermione fights to breathe herself as Bellatrix squirms against her. As she moves herself into the right position. Different positions. Which seems to be higher up. Further up the bed. Tilts her hips. Seems to be—
“Do you want me inside you?” Hermione mumbles, breaking her mouth away for a moment. Looks up at…fuck.
Bellatrix just gasps. Pushes her back down. “No— too— I’m going to— fuck don’t stop just keep going keep—”
Oh. Hermione can feel her fluttering. Pulsing. Already—
She feels a jolt between her own legs in sympathy. Moves firmly and quickly. Tries to find some kind of rhythm so Bellatrix can grind up against her. Meet her tongue, or lips, or chin or whatever she wants to—
“There there there— ah— Hermione!” Bellatrix cries out.
Gods that might be the best sound in the world. And she feels so— tastes so—
Hermione presses closer. Stays exactly where she is, but licks faster. As fast as she can. Rubs up and down over— reaches up to touch Bellatrix. Needs to touch her. Cups the side of her breast—
And Bellatrix cries out again. An incoherent blur of words as her hips jerk wildly. “Yes oh ye— Herm— fuck— don’t— yes yes yes gods—”
Another gasp for air. A keen. Bellatrix freezes. Seizes.
And then she’s still. Ragged breathing the only sound. Filling the room.
Hermione waits. Feels Bellatrix relax.
She pushes weakly at Hermione’s head.
So…did she…
Hermione licks again experimentally.
Bellatrix jerks away. Laughs roughly. “Give me a minute. Fuck. Salazar,” she gasps out.
Hermione crawls up the bed, wiping some hair out of her face. A desperate ache between her own legs now.
Takes in the sight before her. Realises how breathless Bellatrix really is. The sheen of sweat covering her. Oh.
Hermione kisses her neck. Tastes the salt. Nips at her ear. “Did I tire you out already?”
And she’s rolled over onto her back. Feels a mouth at her own neck. “Already?” Bellatrix grumbles, voice low and heavy. “You touched me under the table yesterday. We first kissed a week ago. I had to write a letter to flirt with you. Already? I’m surprised I didn’t come the second you touched me.”
Oh gods.
And now she can’t breathe, because Bellatrix is kissing her so firmly. So urgently. So—
And crawling backwards down Hermione’s body, wetting her lips.
“So you haven’t done this?” Bellatrix asks throatily as she pulls Hermione’s underwear down. “Want me to take it slow? Are you ready, or—”
Hermione groans, lifting her hips. “I’m ready. I’m aching so much. Do something about it. Show me. Teach me—”
And she breaks off with a gasp as lips meet her inner thigh. Loses her breath completely and stares up at the ceiling. Oh. Oh…
Oh and she’s moving— higher—
She melts into the mattress in relief. Exquisite relief. Digs her fingers into the sheets. That feels so good. Fuck. Oh and—
She lets out a few shaky breaths. Gods she needed this. Needs— wants—
She shifts her hips a little bit. Just to see…what she wants…
Feels curls brush over her legs. A hand stroke her thigh. A cold metal ring. Nails dig in slightly.
And that just makes Hermione clench and thrum harder. Bellatrix. It’s Bellatrix. Her mouth, lips, tongue— ah!
“Bella—trix, oh—” she gasps out.
Then shudders at a vibration between her legs. A laugh. “You can call me Bella, if it’s easier,” Bellatrix hums. Moves back. Licks teasingly. Close to where she wants, but not quite— oh but so nice. So—
Bella. It would be nice to call her…
“Bella,” Hermione whispers. Shivers. “Do you like being— being called— go faster if you like being called Bella.”
Another low chuckle.
And then a flickering tongue. Oh— Godric—
Her hips jerk. The heat washes through her. Pools between her legs. Makes her groan.
And just keeps going. Over and over. A fast rhythm. Building and building—
“Bella! Oh I— deeper!”
She needs more. Needs Bellatrix closer. Even closer. In her. Wants—
She moans as a wet heat enters her. As hands grab her hips. Tug at her. Feels Bellatrix’s nose press against her. Worries for a millisecond about her being able to breathe before she loses all thought. All she knows is pleasure. Reaching that— feeling that— yes!
Her legs wrap around Bellatrix’s shoulders, heels swiping across her back as she wriggles and rocks. Rocks and rocks. Yes. Yes. Right there. Right— “Right there! Yes— it— oh Bella oh gods Bella, I—”
She— deeper. More. More more yes yes—ah!
She jerks up as a thumb rubs over her clit. As another hand grabs her arse to pull her closer. She moans and gasps for breath as she— oh gods— she’s—
Her hands thread into Bellatrix hair. Push her as close as possible. Everything is pulsing. Clenching. And— reaches that peak—
Bellatrix sucks harshly, and Hermione lets out a shout. Sees white. Then black.
Her mouth opens. But she doesn’t breathe. Holds it. Can’t think of anything but— but— oh—oh…
Collapses back dizzily, all of her muscles failing her.
And remembers to breathe. In stops and starts. What— that— Merlin— that feels…felt…
Bellatrix slows. Stills. Still against her. Or…no, there’s a hand against her now. Hot breath on her thigh.
Hermione shivers. Trembles. Slowly feels her muscles relax. The pangs between her legs soothe.
She blinks her eyes open as she feels Bellatrix move up over her.
“Hmm. Did I tire you out already? That’s a shame,” Bellatrix purrs wickedly, teeth sharp. Even though she’s still panting too. Face and chest very red.
Hermione would point that out, if she had the energy. Or shove her. But she doesn’t think she can lift her arms.
“Months of waiting,” she manages to croak out. “Years of being ‘straight’.”
Bellatrix lies down next to her. Lays an arm over her, hand brushing over Hermione’s forearm.
Where the scar is. Not that its visible. Or that she’ll feel anything. Won’t know it’s there.
Forget about it forget it forget it.
“So you’re not straight?” Bellatrix murmurs. “That’s a surprise. Never would have guessed—”
Now Hermione does shove her. Or more like nudge her with her shoulder.
Bellatrix kisses it. Maybe in apology. Maybe starting something again.
Hermione rolls sideways to bring their lips together. Slowly. Tastes her lips and remembers. Tastes…
And someone’s stomach rumbles. Hermione isn’t quite sure whose.
They did both skip dinner.
Bellatrix kisses her again. “Ignore it. Who cares about food? I’m still hungry for you,” she murmurs.
Then grabs Hermione’s jaw. Tilts her head so she can run her teeth along it. Graze across her neck. “I still haven’t tasted everywhere. Touched everywhere. So many places…”
Bellatrix’s hand strays to Hermione’s chest.
Hermione takes a shivering breath. Strokes her hand over Bellatrix’s back. Down over her ribs.
Alright. Okay. Dinner can wait a bit longer…
Chapter 27: Take in the Truth
Chapter Text
They don’t have dinner. They forget dinner. Sleep through any possibility of dinner.
But wake up very early for breakfast, stomachs rumbling.
Or Hermione wakes up to breakfast. To Bellatrix passing her some orange juice and toast. In bed. Both of them crazy-haired and bleary-eyed. Naked.
So, for one, she really hopes Kreacher hasn’t seen her naked now. And two…
How does she keep ending up in very ‘marriagey’ situations with Bellatrix? It’s so bizarre that Hermione’s brain doesn’t even have the energy to panic about it, but they’re definitely jumping through relationship hoops very quickly. Kind of live together. Getting a night away from the kids together. It’s strange.
So that’s something not to think about.
So she doesn’t. Just sits with the covers up over her to keep warm in the chilly morning air, and watches Bellatrix. Looks at her in the daylight. New day, same…unbelievably attractive witch in bed with her.
Slightly strange witch, sat cross-legged in the middle of the bed, pillow on her lap, and getting toast crumbs everywhere as she offers some of her breakfast to a nearby rat.
But still. It’s somehow endearing. Sweet. Leaves Hermione with the urge to lean forward and kiss her cheek. Which she does. Gets a sleepy smile in response. Still tired, then. Hasn’t said anything except ‘Morning’ and ‘Toast?’.
But the quiet is nice. It’s nice to get a bit of quiet. Now that she thinks about it…a lot of her moments with Bellatrix are quiet. When it’s just them. Hushed conversations. Even all those months ago, when she was Moody. Giving her detention, just to sit together in silence.
Although she’d quite like to talk a bit more now. To finally know who Bellatrix is. When she’s from. It’s so intriguing. How different is her universe? Why is she hiding it so much? Why did she really call Tonks ‘Dora’? Did Bellatrix run away with Andromeda in her timeline? Is that it? Or at some point during the first war?
That would make sense. Bellatrix is okay with muggle things. Knows about muggle things. And it would mean she’d be closer with Sirius too.
Is that why she stayed with Narcissa for so long this time? Did as she was told? Did she…leave Narcissa behind last time?
Bellatrix finishes her own toast. Licks the butter off her fingers. Steals a sip of Hermione’s orange juice. Probably by accident. Their goblets are right next to each other. “What are you thinking about?” Bellatrix asks.
Hermione smiles. Ducks her head. Tries to…ask around a question, maybe. Lead into it. Feel out for information, so she’s not instantly redirected.
“What does he eat for breakfast? Voldemort?” she asks as the question pops into her head. Looks down at her plate.
Silence.
She looks back up. Maybe that was too blunt. Not the right conversation starter after…
Yep. Bellatrix is squinting at her as if she’s the one acting oddly now. Oh dear.
And Bellatrix gets off the bed. Stands up. Stretches as she goes towards a wardrobe. Completely naked.
It’s very distracting.
“Before?” Bellatrix slowly asks. “You mean…during the first war?”
Hermione nods. First war. She might find out if this first war is the same as her first war. She could catch Bellatrix out. If she’s lying about fighting in it.
Which Hermione isn’t too sure about. Bellatrix does still have that…darker edge to her. Battle-weary. Like everyone who’s lived through the war. Fought.
But which side was Bellatrix on?
Why does she have Harry’s cloak? Did something happen to him? Is that why he’s her boggart?
Bellatrix just shrugs, accioing her dress and corset from yesterday over to her, no clothes in this wardrobe. “He ate toast too, normally. Marmalade on toast. Part of his ‘rich kid’ pretence, I think. He was careful about appearances. Before.”
Oh, right, Voldemort. She knows things about Voldemort. So can’t have left that early. Still has the Dark Mark…
But that’s actually quite interesting.
Hermione climbs off the bed to get into her clothes from yesterday too. It’s so cold in here. “Did he tell you about his childhood, then? Is that how you know about Little Hangleton and—”
Bellatrix laughs, fiddling with something under her skirt. “No! Me? Tell me he’s a half-blood orphan? No, he’s not daft! I found out later. Did my research. It’s how I know Frank. No, I barely knew him at all, really. He kept us in the dark about his background. He’s a Lord. Lord Voldemort.”
She says it with a French accent, half-explanatory, half-mocking.
Then laughs again. Embarrassedly. Self-deprecatingly. “And then he forbade us from calling him even that. Clever. Forbid the fake name, make people forget the one before that.”
Answers. It worked! She’s chatting. Hasn’t changed the subject.
There’s a pause, but Hermione just waits. Waits for more.
“I used to whisper it to myself, you know,” Bellatrix eventually continues. “When I was young and…mad. Completely mad. I used to be insane. Did you know that?”
Oh.
Wait.
Hermione stills. Swallows uncomfortably. “You were?” she whispers, suddenly uneasy.
Bellatrix is still facing the other way. Nods. Drops the skirt of her dress and begins tying her corset by hand. “Completely mad. Delusional. Like Andy said. I thought I was above everything. If I wanted something…I took it. If I didn’t like something…I got rid of it. Like I said about Delacour. And Cissy. Arrogance. But I was…a thousand times worse than them.”
And a cold dread trickles down Hermione’s spine. Her hair stands on end. And not just because of the cold.
She looks towards the door. Pulls her top on and picks up her wand.
Edges closer to the door as her palms begin to sweat.
She…no. No, Bellatrix is supposed to be good. To be different. To not have done any of that. What’s she talking about? What did—
“Everything was a game,” Bellatrix continues. There doesn’t seem to be any stopping her now in her musing. Like she’s not aware of what she’s saying. Searching around at the bottom of the wardrobe for some shoes. Calm. “I thought I was having fun. I was. How could it not be fun? Doing what I wanted. Getting what I wanted. I was a Black. And then a Lestrange…”
For fun. Andy had said…killed the spiders…imperioed Kreacher…killed that wizard…and tortured Neville’s…she really tortured…She tortured—
“Bellatrix,” Hermione suddenly says. “Bella— you’re scaring me.”
Bellatrix spins around. Looks over at Hermione, frowning. Eyes darting to the nearby door in confusion. “What? You’re— no! I’m just telling you what I used to be like. I’m not like that now! I’m different. I’m being better. Doing better. That was ages ago! Don’t worry about—”
She moves closer. Hermione steps back. Hits into the door. Clutches her arm to her chest.
Bellatrix looks at her arm. Frowns more deeply.
Then walks slowly over to a dresser where Ratty is sat. Strokes him and puts him under her dress.
Ratty. What did Draco say? How many… “How many rats have you had?” Hermione asks as steadily as she can.
Bellatrix barks out a laugh. “How many? Now that’s a question. Don’t think I can answer that one.”
Ten years. Bellatrix has been in hiding for ten years. That’s what she’s claiming. Ten years at Malfoy Manor. Ten changed years at the most. “More than ten rats?” Hermione asks again.
Bellatrix nods absentmindedly.
So…they don’t last more than a year?
Why? What does she— “More than twenty rats?” Hermione asks again, heart pattering now.
Bellatrix walks closer. “Why are you suddenly obsessed with— I can’t remember! Why do you want to know? Why are you scared of me again? You knew I tortured people. Killed people. Was a Death Eater. It’s the reason I was in Azkaban. Why— What future are you from? Who do you think I am?”
“What future are you from?” Hermione shouts, hand finding the doorknob. “Where are you from?! Answer me! When— why— what— what have you done?”
Bellatrix presses closer, searching her face. Staring into her eyes. Hermione cringes back. Remembers— remembers—
Bellatrix’s gaze drifts down. To Hermione’s arm.
“Oh,” Bellatrix says softly. “Oh. Oh, you— which— when…”
Bellatrix steps back. And back again. “Sorry. Don’t know why I— Sorry. It’s okay, Hermione. I won’t…”
She sits down on the bed. Kind of falls down. Staring at Hermione. Shock spreading over her face. “You…in your future, did…Was Barty at Hogwarts instead of me?”
Barty Crouch. She knows about…how does she know…
Hermione nods. Distractedly. She thinks she might be in shock too.
“Did the Dark Lord return?” Bellatrix quickly asks. “Was I in Azkaban? Did he break me out? For a battle? In the Department of Mysteries?”
Hermione’s hand darts for the door handle. She turns it—
“Colloportus,” Bellatrix says. Wand suddenly drawn. Sealing the door. “Tell me. Tell me, did the prophecy smash? Did Draco try to kill Dumbledore? Did Snape do it instead? Did you go on the run? Did you meet a goblin? Did you find a sword? Did you go into my vault—”
“It was a fake!” Hermione shouts. “The sword was a fake! I didn’t steal anything!”
And Bellatrix scrambles off the bed. Backs away, as far as possible. Next to the window. “Holy shit! What— you’re from— oh Morgana’s tits! Fuck! Have I fucked up? What is this supposed to mean?” Bellatrix says, almost to herself.
Bellatrix. It can’t be. It can’t be—
“You died,” Hermione croaks out. “You’re dead. You can’t be her— she’s dead! She was killed by—”
“— Molly,” Bellatrix finishes. Laughs in a gasp. “Right? Is that the same too? I tried to kill Ginny during the battle, and…I can’t believe it. You’re from the same time as me,” she finishes with a whisper.
Same time. Same—
“You did this?” Hermione asks tremblingly. Holds up her arm. “It was you?”
Bellatrix blinks. Then her eyes widen. “So it’s— That means I…” She breaks off. A look of panic. “I didn’t know that was you. It can’t be you. I thought…Where is it? I thought it would have scarred. Have you been hiding…but I’ve seen your arm. Touched it. I must have…Oh.”
Bellatrix raises her wand. “You’re using a glamour charm, aren’t you? So it’s…Sorry. I’m really sorry. Want me to try to get rid of it?”
Sorry? She— sorry?
Hermione’s eyes fall shut. She thinks she might faint. She can hear her pulse in her ears. Her lungs are heavy. Her whole body is heavy. She can’t move. Can’t hear. Buzzing. It’s—
She feels a hand on her shoulder.
“Flipendo!” she shouts. Knockback jinx. Knock her back—
Hears a crashing thud. Turns the door handle. Has to escape. Has to— it’s stuck. She can’t— it’s— “Alohomora!”
She yanks open the door. Runs down the corridor. Skids around the corner. Down the stairs. Down—
The portrait of Warlburga wakes up. “Filth!” she shrieks. “Mudblood filth! Tarnishing the House of Black! How dare you set foot in this house! How dare you— Bellatrix Lestrange! You have disgraced—”
Footsteps behind her. Get away. Get out get out escape—ah!
She trips over something in the dark hallway. Goes flying forwards— collides with— soft—
Arms snap around her. Caught.
“What on Earth? Miss Granger— Bella, what is—”
Narcissa Malfoy? That’s who’s holding her so tightly? Oh no. Oh—
“She knows who I am, Cissy! I didn’t mean to— I’ve scared her!”
And Hermione is suddenly blind. In pitch black darkness. And deaf. She doesn’t—
She tries to reach out, but her arms are still held to her sides. Tries to shout but hears nothing.
She struggles. Kicks. Fights.
And her sight returns. Her hearing. The hands release her.
“Don’t do that to her!” Bellatrix shouts. Reaches for Hermione. “How could you—”
“Girls! Get the filth out of here this instant!” Warlburga screams from her portrait. “Both of you stop touching the disgusting beast!”
Hermione sprints for the door.
“Petrificus totalus,” Narcissa clips.
And she’s falling once more. Frozen. Hits the hard, cold floor with a smack.
“Stop it!” Bellatrix growls. “Stop— argh, I can’t think! Kreacher! Find a way to get Warlburga to shut up!”
“What is she doing here, Bella?” comes Narcissa’s voice. “Where have you both been? Where is Sirius?”
Hermione feels out with her magic. Tries to fight the body bind curse. Like Bellatrix did. Narcissa. It’s strong. Narcissa. She recognises it slightly. From the house. The charms around the house.
The shouting from Warlburga stops.
Bellatrix sighs. “Thanks, Kreacher,” she says softly. “And Cissy, I’m going to let Hermione go now. So don’t—”
“You most certainly will not. She was escaping. Knows who you are. Did I or did I not tell you to hide? And wasn’t that your goal? Miss Granger has distracted you from—”
“She doesn’t know that,” Bellatrix quickly interrupts. “She doesn’t— she’s from my time. My time. Can you believe it? She’s— but I didn’t know. Remember what I told you? That’s why she’s scared. But if we just explain, then maybe—”
“You slept with her, didn’t you?” Narcissa sighs tiredly.
Silence.
A hum of disapproval. “Excellent. Well. It seems you have made your bed. Time to lie in it. Release her if you so wish, but when she reveals you to the world, do not come crying to me. Perhaps she’s smart enough to keep her mouth shut. Although I doubt it. Mudbloods—”
“Narcissa,” Bellatrix warns.
Silence once more.
Then high heels come towards Hermione. Stopping in her line of sight.
A low chuckle from above her. Cold. “My given name? My my. I’ve struck a nerve, dear sister. Do you love this one?”
And Narcissa crouches down. Hermione can finally see her. Her stony expression. The usual judgement as her eyes fall on Hermione. “She is…reasonably attractive, I’ll give you that. But hardly worth it.”
“She’s beautiful,” Bellatrix snaps. “And worth a lot more than we are. So either be quiet, or leave.”
Narcissa doesn’t move. Continues staring at Hermione. Right in her eyes. “She’s calmer now. Curious. The panic has receded,” Narcissa hums. “But I would hardly call her nimble-minded. Your love has blinded you to her.”
Bellatrix
And Hermione’s limbs unfreeze with a shiver. She flops onto the floor. Catches her breath.
“Will you stop saying love?” Bellatrix grumbles. “You’re making me sound like a soppy romantic.”
And now Narcissa smiles. Sharply. “You are. And…hmm, you’re right. Her feelings for you are extremely complex. Contradictory. Love and hatred and everything in between.”
And now Hermione is getting up. Stumbling to her feet with a scowl on her face. Wand raised. “Are you using legilimency on me?! That’s so— thoughts are private! Boundaries!”
Narcissa just raises an eyebrow, face blank once more.
“…Maybe stop making eye contact,” Bellatrix quietly suggests. “Glaring doesn’t help against a legilimens.”
Hermione whips around. Shakily raises her wand at Bellatrix instead, even though—
Even though—
Tears blur her vision. “Are you a legilimens too? Have you been lying about that too? Reading my thoughts and—”
“Legilimency is hardly as plebeian as reading,” Narcissa cuts in snidely. “Although I can see where you would be unable to—”
“Shut up!” Hermione and Bellatrix both shout at the same time. Gah. She really is as annoying as Draco.
And Warlburga starts screeching again. “Filth! Deviant! Put the wretched thing in its place! Do not let it speak to its betters—”
Bellatrix gestures helplessly down the hall. “The kitchen? Please? So we can talk?” she shouts over the racket. “And I’m not a legilimens, I swear. Only with a wand. Only verbally. Cissy did start teaching me, but we didn’t get that far, I promise—”
Hermione moves closer to her. Directs her wand at her once more. “Stop making promises. Don’t talk about lies, or— this whole time. This whole time, you— I—” Her voice breaks. She hates herself for it. Hates Bellatrix for it. Wants to— to— “I’m leaving,” she says instead. Lowers her wand, swallowing down the hex on the tip of her tongue. The urge to— to just—
And she knocks past Bellatrix to get to the living room. To the floo. Narcissa is still blocking the way out, but there’s another way.
Footsteps follow her.
“Hermione, wait! I can explain! I’ll tell you— Do you want to know everything? I’ll tell you everything. If that’s what you need, I’ll—”
Bellatrix grabs her arm as she steps in the floo.
They both freeze. Stare down at it.
Bellatrix’s hand. On that arm.
That hand. She knows that hand. Let her touch…
The tears fall. Fall down Hermione’s cheeks.
Bellatrix lets go.
Narcissa clears her throat from the doorway. “Wherever you may be headed…if you care for my sister at all…then you should dry your tears. Harming the Golden Girl could have serious repercussions that will not be easily shaken.”
Oh.
Hermione sniffs. Wipes at her eyes. Looks away. It’s true. If…if the others see her crying after being alone with Bellatrix, then…
But she’s Bellatrix.
And she’s Bellatrix.
The two. Combined. Impossibly.
Same person.
She can’t be—
“So you’re the person who tortured me. In the future. In my past,” Hermione checks, voice low and gravelly. Flat. Dead.
No reply.
She looks up.
There are tears in Bellatrix’s eyes too. A redness, before she looks away. Steps back. Backs away. “A long time ago, yes,” Bellatrix whispers. “That was me. At the Manor. I did that. I hurt you.”
And she walks over to Narcissa. Hugs Narcissa, who just stands there stiffly. Accepts it, but doesn’t move. Wooden. Arms pinned to her sides.
“Where is your cloak?” Narcissa asks instead. “I think it best you disappear.”
Bellatrix nods. Reaches under her skirt. Shakes out an invisibility cloak…
And both sisters disappear.
Hermione wipes at her face again. Then reaches for the floo powder. Feels a horrible mixture of betrayal and guilt meld in her stomach. Turn to nausea. Regret and shame and…sadness. An emptiness.
She throws the powder down.
Spins away to the Burrow.
And is faced with a table full of people eating breakfast.
Ginny smiles at her. Slowly raises her eyebrows as she eats some cereal. One of the twins grins at her slyly. “Morning.”
Hermione forces a smile back. Swallows a lump in her throat. “Morning. I—”
She breaks off. Shit. Come on, Hermione. Just push it away. Don’t let them— don’t let them—
Sirius turns around to look at her, folding his paper. Tilts his head to the side. “Are you…alright?”
Hermione quickly nods. “Fine. Just tired. Need— need a shower. Is it free?”
Her voice sounds strange to her ears, but seems to make sense to him. He smiles. “Oh right. Only one bath. Is that where Bella is?”
Hermione fights a shudder. Feels her hearing begin to warp. A fuzziness.
Nods again. Just nods.
And then walks to the stairs.
Up and up. Breathe. Breathe.
Locks herself in the bathroom. Leans against the door, head resting on a damp towel. Casts a silencing charm on the room.
And breaks. Sobs. Crumples to the floor.
No. It can’t be. It didn’t— it isn’t— she—
She tries to stop shaking. Hugs herself. Stop stop stop. You’re safe. It’s okay. She isn’t—
But Bellatrix. And she— she touched her—
She stumbles to her feet, clinging to the door handle. Pulls her top off. Struggles out of her trousers. No underwear. She never found—
She goes into the shower. Turns it on. Gets some soap and scrubs at herself. Everywhere. Every—
Avoids looking at her arm. Closes her eyes. Her eyes are stinging. Soap and tears. Her mouth opens as she cries. Leans against the wall. “No no no,” she whispers. “She— she—”
She’s sorry.
As if that—
Is Hermione a hypocrite? Telling everyone else to forgive Bellatrix? For war, and murder, and torture, and now— now—
But she didn’t know. She thought this Bellatrix was different. She is different. How— how—
Oh gods and she can still remember. Still— still feels— still cares—
She covers her face. Shakes her head. Hate. Maybe love. Everything— everything—
She can still hear her name. In Bellatrix’s voice. Can still see her. Her eyes and—
That grin. It was just for her. She was special, and now…is that gone? Did it…mean something else? That knowing look?
Bellatrix knew. The whole time, she knew what she did to Hermione. A Hermione. Didn’t know it was her but— but isn’t it the same thing? You can’t torture someone in one world, and then go to another one and— and—
She scrubs at her hair with the shampoo. Grits her teeth. Scrubs angrily. Washes furiously. Fuck her. How could she— she’d better hide! Because if Hermione ever sees her again then she’s going to get a wand pointed right at her and— and—
Like Andromeda did. She was right. No wonder she didn’t forgive her. Why did Hermione disagree with her? Why…
But Bellatrix…is so…
Maybe Hermione should talk to Andromeda. Find out more. Tell her…
Tell her what? That Bellatrix has changed, but Hermione doesn’t trust her anymore? Doesn’t forgive her anymore? For no reason?
Just because it happened to her.
She rubs the conditioner through her hair. Lost in thought. Lost in…
She can still feel her. A phantom touch. Phantom warmth.
She was so kind. So gentle. So funny, and comforting, and…
She thought she knew Bellatrix. Feels like she does.
So…should she give her a chance?
Another tear slips down the side of her nose. She tastes the salt.
Leans back into the water.
Reaches over to her wand lying on the sink. Removes the glamour charm from her arm. Takes a shaky breath as the carefully layered magic slips away. Slides off like tissue paper. A scratched word. Blurred…and then crisp. Jagged and raw.
Mudblood
She did that.
Mudblood. Filth. The mudblood girl. That’s who she was to Bellatrix. That day. At the Manor. She was…her voice…her…
“All except…except for the mudblood.”
“Where did you get the sword? Tell me!”
“You dare lie to me, filth? Crucio!”
“You are lying, filthy mudblood, and I know it! You’ve been inside my vault at Gringotts! Tell the truth, tell the truth!”
“Tell me the truth, or I swear I’ll run you through with this knife!”
The voice is still there. And the feel of…the fear of…the weight of…the terror. Knowing she wasn’t seen as human. Was just an object. That she could die at any moment. That the knife— what if she’d cut off a finger? Or sliced at her hair? Or her eye? All the spells she could have…and Hermione was nothing. No matter what she said, or did, how much she pleaded…there was just a voice screaming at her. A voice breaking with anger and hatred.
And now…
Now there’s another voice.
“Please don’t. I won’t tell anyone about you. Please don’t tell anyone about me. I…really don’t want to go back, if I can help it.”
“I told you. You’re interesting. You’re the only exciting thing going on around here.”
“Hermione Granger. Muggleborn. Friends with Harry Potter. Thinks too fast but moves too slow. I’ve been teaching you for months, I know who you are.”
“Bellatrix Black. And I’m just as confused as you are. Try not to think about it too much. Messes with your head. Just…if you’ve met me before, try to forget all that, alright?”
“I didn’t ask for forgiveness.”
“But then— but then there’s you! You’re not supposed to be here! You’re from the future! Which means— which means you must know if I fuck this up. And you…you keep watching me. And I can’t tell…if you’re scared…or not.”
“She’s Hermione Granger. Of course she’s special.”
“Can I kiss you? No-one’s here. Quick. Kiss me.”
“Get under here, Granger. Disappear with me.”
“You’ve always been Granger.”
“You must have something else in your brain we can talk about. Hermione. Not Granger, Hermione, if that’s what you want. What do you want? I’ll help you. I’ll talk to you.”
“I don’t know. Not the truth. But not a lie. I can’t…Oh I’m so fucking tired of this, Granger.”
“I trust you.”
“You’re beautiful too.”
“I don’t mind being beneath you. Not if that’s what you want.”
“I won’t hurt you.”
“I promise. This is my first time with you too.”
“You can call me Bella.”
“I used to be insane.”
“I’m just telling you what I used to be like. I’m not like that now!”
“I’m really sorry.”
“I didn’t mean to— I’ve scared her!”
“Don’t do that to her! How could you!”
“I’m going to let Hermione go now.”
“She’s beautiful. And worth a lot more than we are. So either be quiet, or leave.”
“Hermione, wait! I can explain! I’ll tell you— Do you want to know everything? I’ll tell you everything.”
“…A long time ago, yes. That was me. At the Manor. I did that. I hurt you...”
The tears don’t stop.
But she turns off the shower. Gets out. Wipes at her eyes, uses the cleaning spell Fleur taught her on a towel.
Recasts the glamour charm on her arm.
And goes to get dressed. Because she’s been hurt before. She’s cried before. She’s crumpled and fallen before.
But she’s Hermione Granger. And she’s fucking special.
She doesn’t need any Bellatrix to remind her of that.
Dumbledore is here.
He’s sat at the breakfast-table too now. Eating some jam on toast.
And his hand is black.
Hermione slowly walks down the stairs. Sits down next to Harry in weary defeat. “Good morning, Headmaster.”
She glances pointedly at his hand.
And he actually looks ashamed. Breaks eye contact. Sighs. “Good morning, Miss Granger. I…well I am sorry to interrupt your Christmas holiday, but it seems we may have to begin…earlier than expected.”
She just nods. So he knows she knows. Reaches for some pumpkin j—
Water. She casts an aguamenti. Water is fine.
“So Hermione has to leave?” Ginny quietly asks.
Dumbledore smiles softly. “I’m afraid so. And Bellatrix too. Is she…still asleep?”
“She went home to have a bath and get some clothes,” Sirius says quickly, putting down his cup. “I can go and fetch her if—”
“No!” Hermione blurts out.
Shit.
But he can’t— Bellatrix isn’t— what if he was right not to trust her? He didn’t before. Told Bellatrix to go away. Not talk to him. Not— And Narcissa is there. Narcissa, who doesn’t seem to be on their side either. Calling her a mudblood.
But now Hermione seems so suspicious. Oh no oh no oh no
Argh! And now she’s worried for Bellatrix! This is so…fucked up!
Dumbledore raises an eyebrow. “No? And why is that?”
Umm…
“I meant I— I don’t want to go. Away,” she says. And honestly means it. Feels the panic setting in. “Can’t— well can’t I just go back to Hogwarts with the others?”
Dumbledore leans back in his chair. Steeples his fingers. “That would be…possible. For yourself. You could be a student once more. Attend lessons. Busy yourself with schoolwork. And you would be safe at Hogwarts, of course. But I did not think that was what you wanted.”
Well— well she really doesn’t want to be a fourth year again but— but—
Oh it would be so much easier. Away from Bellatrix. Away from all of this. Back with the familiar. With her friends. Leaving the war up to the Order.
“And as for Bellatrix,” he continues. “Well without your cooperation, she may have some difficulty being accepted into the tournament. Is there…a particular reason you are reluctant to bring her here?”
Leaving Bellatrix to fend for herself. With Dumbledore, and whatever he has planned.
…and with nobody knowing who Bellatrix really is. Nobody keeping an eye on her.
Hermione stands up. Checks her sleeve for her wand. “No, you’re right. I can’t be at Hogwarts. I want to help with this. And— and so does Bellatrix. I’ll go get her for you. She’ll just argue with Sirius. You know what they’re like. I’ll— just one second.”
She walks over to the floo.
“Perhaps I might accompany you, and we can speak there?” Dumbledore calls over. “Wherever this location may be?”
Dumbledore? At Grimmauld Place? Their one…well, not a safehouse anymore. But the one place he can’t get to them?
She shares a look with Sirius.
Nope.
Hermione moves faster. Grabs the floo powder. “She might not be dressed. As Sirius said, having a bath. I’ll go let her know you want to see her.”
And she takes a last deep breath. Go. You have to go. He can’t be suspicious.
And she whirls through the floo.
Steps out. Into the living room.
Fights nausea. Fights— “Bellatrix?” she calls shakily. “It’s— Dumbledore’s at the Burrow!”
No reply.
Can she not hear her?
She really doesn’t want to go upstairs…
And then there’s a tap. And another. Tap. Tap. Across wooden flooring.
The door opens. Hermione stays close to the floo. Keeps her wand steady.
And Narcissa walks in. Sneers at her, looking down her nose disdainfully. “I do not believe you were issued an invitation to be here.”
Invitation?
Hermione folds her arms. “And I don’t believe I asked for one. Dumbledore is asking for her. Wants to know where she is. I don’t want to be here either, but—”
“Enough,” Narcissa snaps. “You may take your leave. Inform the Headmaster that you were unable to retrieve her. She is elsewhere. So off you go.”
And she waves her hands at Hermione dismissively. Shoos her.
Seriously?!
Hermione huffs. “Elsewhere? Where exactly would she be? Just tell her to come. Now. Because without him on our side—”
“We will manage,” Narcissa growls. Steps closer. “I did not ask for your opinion. Now get out of our house. You are not a Black. You were not invited. And my sister is not seeing visitors.”
This— what—
Right.
Hermione feels out for nearby magic. Narcissa
Anyone else?
Bellatrix. But not as strong. Just…lingering in the air.
Sirius
What? He isn’t here. Isn’t…oh.
Maybe it’s just the wards. His magic is in the wards. If he helped.
But…
The cloak. She doesn’t think she can feel magic through the cloak.
And Bellatrix had said…that Narcissa is clingy. Didn’t let her out of sight. Metaphorically, of course.
Hermione scoffs. “I know she’s here. Come on, Bellatrix. You know we have to go. You have to compete in the tournament. He won’t let us if we don’t play along. He’ll be suspicious of us. And…are you really so cowardly that you’ll hide from me? I came back. The least you can do is show your face.”
Silence.
Movement—
Narcissa reaches out. “Don’t you dare—”
And Bellatrix is stood beside her. Holding Ratty and a half-eaten bar of chocolate.
Narcissa throws her hands in the air and storms off out the door.
Hermione steps straight back into the floo. “He put on the ring. And he wants us to leave now for whatever he has planned. We told him you were having a bath.”
And she throws down the powder without waiting for a reply. Appears at the Burrow and instantly steps forward.
Dumbledore is putting on his purple outer cloak and hat, coming over.
The floo sounds at her back. Right behind her. Bellatrix is right behind her.
Dumbledore smiles twinklingly. “Ah. Good. Now, we’d best be off. No time like the present.”
“Off where, exactly?” Bellatrix asks quietly. Incredibly quietly. Is she…deliberately speaking softly?
Dumbledore chuckles. “Where indeed? I suppose it depends where our conversation leads. The journey, either way, shall be a long one. Molly?”
Mrs Weasley hurries over. Hugs Hermione. Very tightly. Crushing her ribs. “It’s been so nice having you here, dear. I’ve put together some food for you both in case— well, we wouldn’t want you going hungry, would we? And there are some bits and bobs as well from— and I’m sorry. I’m so sorry if what I said the other day hurt you, or—”
She pulls back. Hands Hermione a very heavy rucksack. Then casts a featherlight charm on it.
And strokes the side of her head sadly. “Do be careful. Whatever happens, be safe. You can always come back. We’ll be right here. And I know you’re a very brave and clever girl— woman. Sorry. Habit. I still remember your first visit. Asking me all those questions and—”
She breaks off, tears in her eyes.
Hermione swallows a lump in her throat. Wishes…wishes she’d talked to Molly a bit more. Hadn’t been so wrapped up in— in—
And then Molly is moving her to the side so she can hug Bellatrix too.
Bellatrix. It’s Bellatrix. The same Bellatrix that she— well not killed, apparently, because she’s still alive, but—
Hermione puts her hand over her mouth. Doesn’t know if she’s holding back laughter or— or—
“You keep yourself safe too,” Molly says as she squeezes Bellatrix. “And remember to eat. Honestly, giving half your food away to animals. It’s not healthy, dear.”
Bellatrix laughs weakly. Hugs Molly back, eyes closed. “Thanks for letting me stay. And I’ll do my best to eat more. As long as you promise to feed my dog whilst I’m away.”
Molly tuts. Pats her on the back. “Three meals a day at least. Don’t worry about that.”
She pulls back. Gives Bellatrix a stern look. “And that reminds me. Sirius explained that comment of yours. I think I know what you witches have been up to. And I don’t know how long this has been going on, but I don’t see any rings on any fingers so—”
“I want to say goodbye now!” Harry shouts. Jumps out of his chair to come over. Thank Merlin.
He hugs Hermione. “Bye. Good luck. And I—” he looks around. Then whispers in her ear. “I’ve got the coin you gave me. And we gave you some stuff too. Check the whole bag.”
He goes to pull away. She holds him for a second longer. Just— just because—
Help help help don’t make her leave now. She doesn’t want to go! Doesn’t want—
Bellatrix clears her throat. “Bye, Potter. And…everyone. Weasleys. Siri…Siri…Wags, I—”
Hermione moves back from Harry to watch despite herself. Can’t help seeing…through new eyes.
Bellatrix.
Bellatrix killed Sirius.
This Bellatrix killed Sirius.
And now looks like she’s about to cry as she reaches out to him.
It doesn’t make sense, it doesn’t make sense, how can this—
Sirius swaggers over. Arms wide. “Are those tears? Come on now, Bells. That’s just embarrassing. It’s not like either of us is dying or—”
Bellatrix launches herself forward, up on her tiptoes. Cups his head. Kisses it. “I don’t know if I should— You’ll be alright, right? You’ll— you’ll be sensible. And a wand is coming for you soon. And you’ll listen to Molly, and Lupin, and— and remember you’ve got Potter to look out for now, okay? And all these kids. So no fighting or— or— it’s okay to run. It’s okay to hide. So don’t— You promise? Because I’m coming back, and if you’re dead I’m going to be so angry with you.”
Oh…
Sirius chuckles. Smiles at her. “Okay. I promise. I solemnly swear to flee danger at every turn,” he jokes. “Until you come back. Then we’ll fight together.”
And he pulls away. Or tries. Bellatrix clings on.
Dumbledore clears his throat, frowning in confusion. “I am quite certain that no harm shall come to anyone,” he says slowly. “Miss Black? Are you alright? Bellatrix?”
Bellatrix shudders. “Too many options,” she whispers. “You don’t know. You don’t know the harm that will— No-one’s safe. Never. There’s always— always—”
Shit. Shit, she’s not okay. What…
Bellatrix starts crying. Tears falling down her cheeks. A lot of people look at Hermione. Especially Ron and Ginny. Giving her nudging looks.
But—
But…
She reaches to touch Bellatrix. Then pulls back. Brings her hand to her chest. It’s too…it’s too hard to—
“Expecto patronum,” Harry says firmly.
And they all squint against the blinding light. Shield their faces. Just light. Non-corporeal.
And Hermione takes a deep breath. Soaks it in. The warmth. The comfort. Home. It feels like home. Safety.
Bellatrix takes a gasping breath. Pulls back from Sirius. Laughs. “No magic outside Hogwarts, Potter. But that was a bloody genius move, so— Fuck. Sorry, Molly, language, I know. It’s—”
She laughs again. Wipes at her face. “I’m in a weird mood. I didn’t mean to— Sorry, Wags. I’m alright. Just going to miss you. But it’s fine. I’ll be back. We’ll be back. We…”
She looks at Hermione. Meets her eye. Shrugs defeatedly. “Are we going?”
Hermione just breathes for a moment. Lets the patronus sink in. The calm. The logic.
“Yes,” she replies quietly. “Yes, it’s time to go.”
Away from the Burrow. Time to get her and Bellatrix away from here whilst she…figures this out. Whatever this is.
Bellatrix carries on looking at her cautiously. Nods.
And Hermione is hugged from behind. By someone small.
“Write me a letter about all of this,” Ginny whispers in her ear. “Because something weird is going on, Hermione Jean Granger. You’d better not hide this from me. I’ll find out what it is. I’m sneaky.”
Hermione squeezes her arms. Smiles wobbily. “I know. I’ll write as soon as I can. But until then, keep an eye on the idiots for me.”
“Which ones?” Ginny scoffs, grinning. Then walks over towards Bellatrix.
Hermione's chest seizes. Don’t—
Ginny reaches behind Bellatrix’s ear, moving a curl and somehow producing a black handkerchief from nowhere. “Here. For the tears.”
She offers it to a surprised Bellatrix. Gets an approving nod from Sirius.
Uhh…
This is too complicated now! All of this.
Hermione quickly hugs Ron. Feels him pat her back awkwardly. Smiles. Ron. She’s…quite glad, actually, that he was her first. In another life, maybe they would have worked out. Another world. He’s so…solid. Comforting. Straightforward.
‘Straight Hermione’ could have been happy with him. Maybe.
“Don’t worry about us, yeah?” he whispers. “Just do what you’ve got to do. You’ve got this. You’re bloody brilliant, mate.”
She laughs despite the ache in her chest. “So are you,” she grins, backing away towards the door after Dumbledore and Bellatrix, slinging the rucksack over her shoulder. “And you’ve got some dirt. Right there. Did you know?”
She points to her nose.
He shakes his head with a smile. “Piss off.”
“Ronald Weasley!” Molly shouts.
Hermione just laughs. Leaves.
Leaves the Burrow behind. Picks up her pace.
After Dumbledore. And Bellatrix. And whatever the universe has in store for her now.
Chapter 28: Demand Answers
Chapter Text
They head off down the path towards the lane. Hermione a bit reluctantly. Leaves a gap of a few metres. It’s too strange. Too—
Bellatrix. Bellatrix is Bellatrix. This whole time. That’s the universe she’s from. Hermione’s universe.
Is this a trap? A plan? Is Bellatrix infiltrating the Order?
Hermione brings a hand to her chest. Soothes herself. Even the thought is…
It can’t be. No, it can’t all be…
Can it?
No. No, she has to trust something. And she knows— well she thinks she knows—
It can’t be an act. It can’t be. And if it is…
And then Dumbledore takes a sharp left. Walks straight inside the broom shed.
Umm…
Bellatrix pauses mid-step.
Turns. Gives Hermione a look.
Okay…
Hermione catches up.
“So…in the shed?” Bellatrix whispers.
“Guess so,” she replies bluntly.
There’s an uncomfortable pause.
Bellatrix opens her mouth. “Look, Hermione, can I just say—”
And Hermione goes into the shed. Blinks in the darkness. Almost bumps into Dumbledore.
It’s a small shed. There’s a spider on his hat.
“If you would shut the door behind you?” he calls calmly.
Bellatrix squeezes in with them. Brushes against Hermione as she closes the door. “Sorry.”
Hermione grits her teeth. “Headmaster?”
Dumbledore. He just did something. Magic. Maybe locking the door. Or a silencing charm.
She tries not to panic. Trapped with— trapped— dark—
“Can you just start explaining?” Bellatrix asks roughly. “Not all of us find confined spaces cosy.”
Oh.
Azkaban. She’s Bellatrix. So she did spend fourteen years there. At some point.
“Ah, I do apologise,” Dumbledore hums. Lights his wand. Doesn’t look sorry at all. “This is merely to take measures against spies or eavesdroppers. But if it is too uncomfortable—”
“I’m fine. I’ll live,” Bellatrix mutters. “I’m used to it. Just…you put on the ring, Albus. Not the smartest move. But I’m guessing that means…”
“…the ring has been destroyed, yes,” he finishes for her quietly. Eyes dulling. Smile slipping.
Sits down on an overturned bucket. Suddenly looking very small. Very old.
No ring. No locket. No diary.
Diadem. Snake. Goblet.
Harry. Voldemort.
“Neither of you seem surprised,” Dumbledore comments hoarsely in the silence. Wiggles his blackened fingers.
Bellatrix sighs. Edges past Hermione…touching her hand.
She touched Hermione’s hand! Deliberately—
Bellatrix crouches down next to Dumbledore, moving a broom out of the way.
Takes his uninjured hand in her own. Her gaze is firm. An odd look to…
A tension to her jaw. A braced expression. Determined. Wary. “We all have our demons,” Bellatrix murmurs. “Our regrets. Sometimes there’s no getting away from it. The past.”
Hermione shivers. Wants to tell her to stop. Don’t—
“We know your past,” Bellatrix continues after a deep breath. “You should know that. Hermione knows your past.”
Dumbledore tenses. His eyes snap to Hermione. Pure terror. Pure desperation. “You know? You know—”
He stands up. “What do you know? Tell me. Tell me now, Miss Granger. What you know. Tell me everything that you think you know.”
He comes even closer. Crowds over her. Towers over her. Beard brushing her. His wand is—
Hermione stumbles backwards, wand drawn. Tries to find the lock. Remembers he locked it. That an alohomora might not work. That Bellatrix just revealed his darkest secret. His deepest fear. His—
Bellatrix pulls Dumbledore back. Physically yanks him by the robes, knocking his knees out from under him and pushing him back down to sit on the bucket. “Don’t be the monster,” she growls in his ear. “Don’t you fucking dare, Albus. Don’t you dare use your power against another witch. Not with that wand in your hand. Don’t do that again. Never again. Learn.”
Dumbledore takes a gasping breath. Pales dramatically in the white light. Closes his eyes.
Bellatrix nods, still crouched close to him. Holding his shoulders now. “Do you know how we knew about the ring? Because you always put it on. You’ve done it before. You’d do it again. It’s your weakness. Repetition, repetition, repetition. You blame yourself. You want her forgiveness. You want to know who did it. If it was you. If you’re the reason Ariana is dead.”
What is— what the fuck is—
Dumbledore starts to tremble, teeth gritted. “Let me out,” he whispers. “Bellatrix, release me.”
Bellatrix shakes her head. “So you can ignore it? So you can forget about it? So that you can push it down until there’s another sleepless night, and another, and up you get. Pacing, pacing, pacing. Plan after plan. Plan the lives of all these boys and young men. Young men who don’t know who to be. Don’t know where they fit. All these young people, and you’ll plan for them. Make a future for them. Make the right decisions for them, the ones you couldn’t make for yourself. It’s easier, isn’t it? Moulding someone else. Than going back and fixing yourself.”
And the walls of the shed start to shake. The brooms tip and fall around them. A heaviness to the air. As thick as syrup, closing in. Dumbledore.
“Bellatrix,” Hermione whispers. “I don’t think you should—”
“Tell me what you know,” Dumbledore snaps. Grabs Bellatrix, eyes drilling into hers, all pretences gone. “Tell me who did it," he gasps out. "Was it me? Is that what you’re saying? Are you calling me a hypocrite? A murderer?” he shouts, voice breaking.
The wood is creaking. The door bending. It could explode. It could all—
“I’m calling you human,” Bellatrix says, voice steady and calm. Professor voice. “I’m calling you an ordinary bloke who had an argument with his boyfriend. A young man who was angry at his parents for leaving him in charge. Smart, and bored, and angry with the world. Wanted a purpose. Wanted answers. A goal. A calling. A clever boy in a world that was so so boring,” she finishes with a conspiratorial whisper. Holding him tightly, almost smiling. Almost laughing. Glint to her eyes.
Hermione casts an alohomora on the door. It stays locked. She considers apparating, but can’t seem to make herself. Too…fascinated by whatever the hell is happening. Captured. Drawn to the magic in the air. The power of it. Both of them. The air crackling with it.
“I’m calling you a boy who misses the idea of his sister, and feels responsible for not protecting her, but hates her for existing,” Bellatrix continues. “For holding you back. For being a burden. I’m saying that you don’t really want her back. All you want is the forgiveness. But…you’ll never get it. You know you were wrong, and know you don’t deserve it.”
Pushing it. Bellatrix needs to stop pushing it. This feels too far. She’s right, but she shouldn’t—
“Everyone sees you as good, and faultless, the leader of the Light, and that makes them detached from you. You can separate yourself from them. Because nobody knows you. Nobody sees the truth. Nobody sees the man. You don’t even see the man. You don’t look, do you, Albus? In the mirror? Do you look in the mirror?”
Dumbledore lets go of Bellatrix. Pushes her away. “I look in the mirror. Every day. I see who I am,” he says weakly. Eyes distant. Darting in memory.
Bellatrix shakes her head. “You don’t. And you don’t see them. You’re not living. You’re counting points. Vanquish Grindelwald, one thousand points to Gryffindor. House of the brave and the good. You must be good. You’re the Light. You’ve made up for your past. One Dark Lord down, one to go. That evens it out, right? Balances the scales. Except it doesn’t, does it? Because look who did it again. Look who met little Tom Riddle, and didn’t save him from his fate. Sent him on his way.”
“He was impossible to save,” Dumbledore protests. Stands up. “He has no love. No heart. He’s never understood it. People are objects to him. Things.”
Bellatrix stands too. Nods firmly, brushing her dress down. Professor act gone. Pure Bellatrix. Staring him in the eye. “Then stop fucking acting like him. I’ve had a sociopath as a master before. I’ve been a sociopath before. So before we go on this little quest of yours, I want you to look at us. I want you to cut the crap, and let yourself see that the people around you are people, no different from you, and just as complicated. You can’t fix us. You can’t play games with us. You can’t know us unless you talk to us, and open yourself up to us, and do things to make people happy because you care. Rather than just for the greater good. So stop it. Stop all of this bullshit right now! If you want to be good, be good! Do it! Learn to be good. Move on from your past, and just…be that person! You’re dying, Albus. How long do you have, a year? It will all come out once you’re gone. The act will be over. So be that person now. Love the people that are here. Let them help you, and help them back. Genuinely. I know you want to. I know you can. So just…try! Try to change.”
She’s breathless. Panting. Still braced. Tense. But still holding eye contact. As if daring Dumbledore to argue back. “And rein your magic in,” she adds more quietly. “You’re scaring Hermione.”
Hermione…isn’t scared. She’s in awe. The rush. The rush of magic, all around her. A battle of wills. A standoff. Or…an interaction. An ancient…shivering…melting…
Then the shed falls still. The creaking stops.
And Hermione snaps out of whatever the hell that was.
Dumbledore takes off his glasses. Cleans them. Folds them. Puts them in his robe pocket.
Leans back against the wall, hands in pockets. “Bellatrix Black. I…don’t believe I know you, do I?”
Bellatrix’s shoulders relax, a released breath. She smiles. Brightly. Toothily. “You mean now specifically, or ever? Because either way…well other than a couple of detentions and the odd taunt here and there, we haven’t really spoken, have we? Not outside of Order meetings. So it’s nice to meet you, if we really are. Meeting.”
And she holds out her hand.
A very confused look grows on Dumbledore’s face. Actual confusion. He strokes his beard. Clears his throat. “Well, when you put it like that…”
And he smiles warmly as he shakes Bellatrix’s hand. “Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore. It is nice to meet you.”
...right.
Mad. These two are mad. Bloody bonkers!
Dumbledore just keeps looking at Bellatrix. Happy confusion.
Then casts a geminio charm on the bucket. And again.
Gestures for them all to sit. Together. “I’d like your help in stopping Tom. But I have to confess that his whereabouts at the moment are…unknown to me.”
Hermione sits down. Has to just— “You don’t know where he is?! How? We told you where he— We thought you had people watching!”
He sighs. “We did. But the problem with covert surveillance is that we couldn’t use anyone recognisable. Minerva, for example, would be ideal…but Peter would recognise her in an instant.”
“Everyone is recognisable,” Bellatrix murmurs, sitting down and frowning. “Wormtail was in the Order. Why does it matter if he knows he’s being watched? Surely it’s better if he stays in the shack.”
“If he knew he was being watched, he could have taken a more drastic action,” Dumbledore replies. “The fact that he was within the shack with a horcrux and an ancient relic— But that is neither here nor there. He has left. The shack was abandoned. I took down the enchantments myself…and found the ring. They left it behind. It has since been destroyed. The shack was otherwise empty.”
Left it behind? Why would he do that?
Bellatrix laughs. “Shit. You’ve really fucked up. What about the snake? You didn’t…”
Dumbledore grimaces.
Bellatrix laughs again. “How can you lose an enormous deadly serpent?! In a muggle village!”
Dumbledore chuckles to himself wryly. “Yes, you would think that an impossibility. There were…complications. Nearby muggles. As well as some…rather eccentric individuals who had heard of a sighting of a Grimm. Members of the magical press reporting on…well, differing reports. Dementor sightings before they were rounded up. Your visit caused quite the trail of repercussions.”
Oh. Oops.
But hang on.
Hermione frowns. “So you don’t know where he is, or Wormtail, but he’s not at the shack, he’s lost another horcrux, and is weaker than ever? With…one follower that knows he’s alive? Just Wormtail? Because—”
She turns to Bellatrix. “Barty Crouch. Is he alive?”
Bellatrix looks away. Avoids eye contact. “He only has Wormtail. And they’ll have to stay together for the most part so—”
“Bellatrix!” Hermione snaps. “Answer me.”
She is fucking fed up with all these unanswered questions!
“If you are speaking of Barty Crouch Junior,” Dumbledore says slowly. “Then he died in Azkaban prison. I believe…ten or so years ago. Alongside Miss Black.”
And he raises a questioning eyebrow at Bellatrix. They both do. What’s she hiding now? Is there another Death Eater out there—
Bellatrix curls her feet up on the bucket, hugging her knees. Nods, eyes distant. “He died,” she whispers. “Barty. He…didn’t make it. It was too much for him. He didn’t— I couldn’t— he didn’t want to live. Not enough to make it.”
And a tear slides down her cheek. She wipes it away. Uses the handkerchief Ginny gave her. Clears her throat. “So no. Riddle doesn’t have Barty. But…what happened with his Father? Crouch Senior? Percy Weasley is…living with him? Was that your idea?”
“It was my suggestion, yes,” Dumbledore replies softly. Then reaches out. Lays a hand on Bellatrix’s arm. “I…did not know that you and Barty were close. Was he—”
Bellatrix shrugs out of his grip. “Not there yet, Albus. Thanks, but you’ve got to ease into this friendship thing. Can’t jump straight to dead boys in prison cells.”
He pulls back awkwardly. “Of course. My apologies.”
There’s another uncomfortable pause.
Sociopaths. Is that what’s going on? Is she watching…a sociopath teach a sociopath how to make friends?
Can sociopaths make friends? Is that even the right word? How does Bellatrix know what a sociopath is?
Maybe Hermione should just make a run for it back to the Burrow.
Bellatrix sighs. “So what’s the plan, Albus? What are we thinking? Do you want to hunt him yourself, and we go for the horcruxes? Or do you have…schoolwork to deal with?”
Dumbledore leans his elbows on his knees. Studies Bellatrix closely. “I think…for now…the priority is keeping everyone safe, is it not?”
Bellatrix blinks. Eyes refocusing. On him.
A smile tugs at her lip. “You want to keep me safe? I knew it. Knew I was special to you.”
Dumbledore laughs gently. “You and many others. Harry shall return to Hogwarts soon. He shall be safe there. I’m adding some wards, and blocking some…forgotten entrances. With the help of Bill Weasley, I do not believe you are acquainted? He should be here shortly. Added protection for Headquarters, for the Weasleys.”
Bellatrix frowns. “That’s why you want us out of here? Why can’t I help with the wards? I can—”
“And have Tom sense your presence here?” Dumbledore interrupts. “Your magic is highly recognisable, my dear.”
Oh.
“You can feel her magic?” Hermione whispers.
Both turn to look at her, Bellatrix confused, Dumbledore with a glint to his eye.
“Magical signature,” Bellatrix says. “In the wards. You know that. You studied Ancient Runes.”
Well, yes. But not just— “But can you feel someone’s magic at other times? All the time? Feel someone nearby?”
Bellatrix scoffs. “No! Feel magic all the time? That would be a headache and a half. For every person? No-one can do that. Hardly anyone knows that you can even recognise someone by their magical signature. It’s only if you know someone well enough that you can feel them in the wards. I guess he might be able to sense me, if he’s looking. He has known me…what? What is it?”
People…can’t feel magic? Bellatrix can’t?
Dumbledore slowly nods at Hermione. “It is not unheard of. I have read of wizarding communities in Eastern Europe and parts of Asia that practice the art of magic recognition. And of cases within Britain, although it has not been officially studied, of those who are more receptive to magical signatures. Usually those with a great empathy or dedication to others. Or a dedication to magical theory. I myself…do have individuals that I can recognise by magic alone. As I believe…do you, Miss Granger.”
And all eyes are once again on Hermione as she cautiously nods, not knowing what she should reveal or not.
Bellatrix’s lips part. “Really?” she breathes out. “You can…feel magical signatures? I didn’t know you could do that.”
Such surprise. Eyes so intense. Parted lips.
So pretty…
Hermione looks away. At the spider on Dumbledore’s hat. “Guess you don’t know me then,” she mutters. “You’re not the only one with secrets.” Because it’s true. They don’t know each other. Apparently.
Okay, so she’s still bitter. She’s allowed to feel angry about this.
And doesn’t get a reply.
“For now, the plan is for the both of you to disappear from the wizarding world,” Dumbledore says. “Zero contact. Until we have some inkling of what Tom is up to, his movements, we need to ensure that everything continues according to plan. That he doesn’t try to find either of you. Use you. Or use others to infiltrate our ranks.”
And that makes Hermione look at him in complete surprise. “Hide? He’s at his weakest! Why don’t we hunt down—”
“He’s never weak,” Bellatrix interrupts. Snaps. “Don’t be cocky. You just heard that nobody knows where he is. And that he left a horcrux behind. Does that sound like weakness? Because to me it sounds like taking advantage of our fuck up, hatching a plan, and leaving part of his soul for the chance at weakening the enemy. His soul was expendable. That shows that he has confidence in whatever he’s planning.”
“Well why didn’t you just say that!” Hermione shouts. “I’m not a legilimens. You heard me say he was weak. Why didn’t you tell me—”
“I am telling you!” Bellatrix shouts back. “Right? I’m talking? You can hear me? You’re the one who wanted to know. Wanted to know about him. I thought you were smart, but I guess I have to spell it out. Missing Dark Lord? Not weak! And someone who’s been to Azkaban? Not a fucking saint.”
Is she really fucking doing this right now? Is she—
Hermione stands up. “There’s a difference between not being a saint, and then finding out that the person you— that you—”
Bellatrix stands up too and pushes past her. Rattles the latch. “Albus, let me out. I’m not fucking kidding. I’ll blow the door down. You know I will. You don’t need to be hearing this shit.”
“No, but I also need to confirm two things before you leave,” Dumbledore says infuriatingly calmly.
Bellatrix spins around. “Fine. Now. You have three seconds to—”
“Did one of you write this?” Dumbledore asks, pulling a newspaper out of his pocket. An old copy of the Prophet, opened to a specific page. He points at it.
Hermione takes it from him to look closer, dread settling in her stomach once more. Oh no…
The article. About her and Fleur. With the secret message she left for Bellatrix. “Where did you get this?” Hermione whispers.
“The Gaunt Shack was not…entirely empty,” Dumbledore hums. “There was this stray newspaper. And a snake skin.”
At the shack? How? How did—
Hermione glances at Bellatrix, meeting wide eyes.
“I left it in the cave,” Bellatrix says. “We both did, remember? When…”
When Sirius left. And they talked. Nearly kissed. Neither of them picked the paper back up. It was left at the edge of the cave.
Dumbledore sighs. “Ah. A coded message between the two of you then, as I suspected. And…as perhaps Tom has suspected by now. And now for my second question. May I see your rat?”
Ratty?
Bellatrix backs up against the door. “Why? What do you— no. Leave him alone. I don’t want to.”
Dumbledore holds out his hand. “Someone found that newspaper. Has followed you. Has infiltrated our ranks. You mention the cave. The cave Sirius was hiding in near Hogsmeade. So if he did not hand this to Tom, or you, who else could have found it? Could have followed you? Spied on you? Who is a rat that—”
“It’s not Pettigrew,” Bellatrix snaps. “I told you. I know what Wormtail looks like. You’ve asked. And I’ve said no. So I think your question time is up. Let us out.”
A spy?
What if…
Is Bellatrix a spy?
No. She can’t spy on herself, right? And she’s been with Hermione the whole time. Or with Sirius. Unless she secretly sneaked off—
Is she a triple agent? Like Snape? Because she’d have to be deep undercover to fake all of this.
Impossibly. The Bellatrix she knew would never have done all this. Even Andromeda saw that.
But…if the spy isn’t Bellatrix…
“Bellatrix…can’t we just check?” Hermione says quietly. “It might not be Pettigrew, but it could be another animagus.”
And Bellatrix looks at her. Suddenly seems so lost. So scared. So torn.
Reaches under her dress shakily. “Don’t…don’t hurt him,” she whispers.
Hands Ratty to Hermione. “You do it. Not— I trust you.”
Hermione swallows. Feels her heart ache a little.
But nods. Holds Ratty more gently. Looks at him. Counts his toes. “It’s not Wormtail,” she mutters.
Then casts the spell. To reveal an animagus.
Nothing happens.
Bellatrix sighs in relief and instantly takes the rat back. “See? He’s fine. No problem. Just a rat. Someone else must have followed us. Probably the real Wormtail. He probably followed Sirius.”
“Yes, you are probably right,” Dumbledore mutters. “But we had to rule out the option. Had to be certain, before we go forward. You do see what this means, do you not?”
Voldemort had the newspaper. An article about Hermione. With a secret code. Found where Sirius and Bellatrix were hiding. And where she and Bellatrix sat together just outside the wards.
“He might know that Bellatrix and I are working together,” Hermione concludes. “Wormtail saw us near the Whomping Willow too. They probably saw the article about Bellatrix saving me from the dragon. They know I’m friends with Harry.”
“He knows I’m a traitor then,” Bellatrix says. “And that I ruined his plans. His ritual. He will have guessed that was me. Bones of the father. And he left the newspaper to tell us that he knew. About me. About Hermione. About Sirius. It’s a message.”
Dumbledore nods. “Which is precisely why the two of you must leave. With Harry safe at Hogwarts, and a new plan in place for His return, it is possible you may be the next targets.”
“And Siri,” Bellatrix adds. “He should come too. Why aren’t you protecting him?”
“Sirius is safe here,” Dumbledore says firmly, putting his glasses back on. “You must believe that. See that. He needs stability. Remus shall soon return. Miss Tonks shall be nearby. It is better for him here, and will mean that he will be available once I arrange for his acquittal. He’ll be a free man. He does not need any more uncertainty in his life. Any added pressure. And there are things that I am sure the two of you will wish to discuss openly that he should not be privy to. The rules of time travel are abundantly clear in that regard.”
Madness. Time travel can cause madness. And Sirius isn’t exactly…fully stable as it is.
And he’s right. She has a lot to talk to Bellatrix about. And Sirius can’t hear any of it. Nobody can. Not this time.
Does this mean Dumbledore suspects Bellatrix is from the future too? Snape did. He thought…that they travelled together. Came here together.
Which isn’t true. But he’s closer to the truth than even Hermione had guessed.
Other than the relationship part. Although…
Oh Snape is going to be so smug about this if it ever gets out. Which it definitely will. Sirius never seems to keep his mouth shut about them.
“So…where are we going?” Hermione cautiously asks, shaking herself from her thoughts.
Dumbledore smiles in obvious amusement. The latch opens behind Bellatrix. Unlocks. “As I said. For the moment, away from the wizarding world entirely. Somewhere Tom will neither think to look, nor expect Miss Black to be. You have been provided with clothing, and a portkey. I’m sure Miss Granger shall be able to explain the muggle world quite thoroughly. And I suggest you both alter your appearances in some way. Hair, eye colour, whatever may be necessary. But aside from that, no magic. You need to pick up muggle habits. Cannot risk any accidental slip ups. Tom will have spies of his own soon. Already has one, it seems.”
And he edges past them, ducking so his hat isn’t knocked off on the doorframe. “I’ll contact you once the danger has passed, or at least lessened. Until then, good luck!”
And he walks off, leaving them in the shed. In darkness. Door banging shut behind him.
Muggle world? Portkey? But how—
“The cheeky sod,” Bellatrix mutters. “Didn’t even change the plan. And I thought my speech was pretty good.”
Hermione ignores her. Hastily opens the rucksack. A portkey. It could activate. Where is— “I can’t see. Can you cast a—”
Bellatrix. Light fills the shed. Hermione rummages around for whatever it might be. A random—
Dumbledore
A fork? The portkey is a fork? What if someone was eating? That’s so stupid. Why—
It glows blue. Her eyes snap up to Bellatrix.
“It’s up to you,” Bellatrix says hurriedly. “I don’t have to take it. I can go back to Cissy and—”
Hermione holds it out. “Take it. You are coming with me. And explaining yourself. No more hiding.”
Bellatrix winces.
But takes it, fingers overlapping Hermione’s slightly. “I would have told you if I’d known it was you,” Bellatrix says quietly. “It was just— It’s so unexpected. I never thought—”
And it activates. Hermione clings on for dear life as she feels the awful hook in her navel, dragging her in. Spinning her around, eyes squeezed tightly shut—
And she falls to the floor with a breath-stealing thwack. A carpeted floor. Flat on her stomach. She’s in a living room. In…
A house. A muggle house.
The fork turns into a note on lined yellow paper.
You now live at Number 36a Meadowfield Road. Your keys are on the hook by the door. Your landlady is named Joyce, she lives in the flat above. Your names are Sally Worthing and Elizabeth Fluke.
Your bills and rent are being paid by a Mr White. You will find a purse in a handbag in the hallway with some cash and a debit card for any other necessities.
I hope you have read this, because it will disintegrate momentarily.
Hermione quickly spins the note around so Bellatrix can read it too, lying opposite her. Tries to memorise the names. The address. Joyce the landlady. Sally Worthing. Elizabeth Fluke. Mr White. 36a Meadowfield—
And the note burns to ash on the carpet. Great.
Bellatrix gets to her feet with a groan. “I’d better go find the hoover. The front hallway, do you think? A cupboard somewhere?”
Hoover?
“You’re really not using any magic now?” Hermione says in surprise, getting up too. “Not even for cleaning?”
Bellatrix shrugs. “Magic? What’s that? Wish I could clean with magic, but I’m not Mary Poppins.”
Hermione laughs. Accidentally. It just comes out. Doesn’t— She must be slightly hysterical.
She follows after Bellatrix. “How do you know that? How— you’re Bellatrix. You’re a pureblood.”
Bellatrix opens a door to a bathroom. Closes it. Then a door to a cupboard. Reaches around inside. “So is Andy,” she sighs. “I learnt from Andy. And her husband, Ted. And from Frank. And other muggles. I know muggles.”
And she pulls the vacuum cleaner out of the cupboard.
Andy? When? Andy…isn’t speaking to her.
Right? Or was that all a lie too? An act? “How did you get Andy to— No, there. You have to plug it in there, for the power,” she says as Bellatrix tries to turn it on without it being plugged in.
Bellatrix grins bashfully. “Oh yeah. Forgot. Bloody wires and cables for everything.”
She looks around for the nearest socket. Starts walking—
Hermione puts a hand on her arm. “Wait. Bellatrix…please.”
The other witch stills. Drops the cord. Ducks her head, shoulders slumping. Still facing away. “I know,” Bellatrix whispers. “I’m just…I’m trying to show you that I’m different. That I’m not…her. Even if I am.”
“I know,” Hermione whispers back. “But— you’re making me feel like I don’t know you at all. Like I have to question…everything. I— I thought I knew you, and—”
Bellatrix spins around. “You do!” she says. Reaches for Hermione, as if instinctively. Hands out of control. Pulls back as soon as she realises. “I don’t— You do know me. I think you might be the only person who knows me. I haven’t lied to you. I’ve been—”
“You’re from the future,” Hermione says. Steps over the hoover. Goes back to the living room, and the rucksack, and everything else that is new about her life that she has to figure out. Everything. Absolutely everything. She doesn’t know anything anymore. “You’re from my past, and you lied about it. How can—”
“But so are you!” Bellatrix calls, close behind her. “Right? You didn’t tell me what I did to you either. It’s the same thing! Because you saw that I’m not the same person, and I thought that you weren’t the same person. I never thought I’d hurt you.”
Never?
Hermione scoffs. Turns. Then looks away as she realises Bellatrix is taking her clothes off. The corset is half off. “What are you—”
She looks away from bare skin. Doesn’t let it stop the conversation though. No getting out of it with…whatever she’s doing. “But you did know,” Hermione continues. “You tortured me. You hated me. You— you— that was you. You did that to me. So what if you thought I was a different Hermione? How could you—”
“Then why weren’t you scared of me?” Bellatrix murmurs back, walking over to open the rucksack and look through it, just in her underwear now. “I asked you. I asked you if you were scared of me. And you said we didn’t know each other.”
Well, yes. But she didn’t— that wasn’t—
“So did you,” Hermione says quietly. Steps back against the sofa. Falls to sit on it. Curls up, hugging a cushion.
Half watches as Bellatrix puts some muggle clothes on from the bag. They look like…Andromeda’s clothes. Maybe. Her style. So that could be where Dumbledore…
So many plans. So many people. It’s so confusing.
Bellatrix sits down on the floor to take her boots off. Lots of laces to untie by hand. No magic. “I said that I didn’t know you,” Bellatrix replies calmly. “And that was the truth. I never knew you. Not really. I never knew Hermione Granger. I met you at Hogwarts. The same time you met me. And…I liked you. Wanted to know you. You were interesting.”
Hermione just hugs the cushion more tightly. “I was interesting because I was a time traveller like you,” she says croakily. Wobbily. “You— you saw that I was older, and— and—”
Bellatrix looks up at her. Rests her arms on her knees. “Stalked you. Yes. And…didn’t you do the same thing? You hated me, right? But you kept an eye on me. Spoke to me. You were scared. I should have known. I thought it was just because you saw me obliviate Cissy and cast the Dark Mark, but…it makes sense now. What doesn’t make sense…is how you could ever…ever…”
She drifts off. Stands up. Rubs at her face. “I’ll make us some tea. You— you can decide which name you want to have. Sally or Elizabeth. And we should change our faces in case the landlady shows up unexpectedly. But…then I’ll tell you. I’ll tell you everything. You deserve to know— just— I’m just worried I’ll scare you even more. But— but if that happens just tell me it’s too much, and I’ll leave.”
Everything?
And more? Why would it scare her more?
Bellatrix walks off towards the kitchen. It’s open plan. A kitchen-living room, and then the front hallway with four doors. A cupboard, a bathroom, and two bedrooms. She hopes.
“I’ll be Sally,” Hermione sighs. “And I’ll go change my hair. Maybe my clothes. And my eyes.”
“Your eyes?” Bellatrix whines, putting the kettle on and opening a cupboard for some cups. “But you have such nice—”
She cuts herself off, biting her lip.
Nice eyes. Honeyed eyes. Eyes that—
This is too—
Hermione grabs the rucksack. Walks off in search of a bedroom.
She makes her hair longer. And straighter. And lighter. Golden.
Gives herself a fringe. Then considers just chopping her hair really short. Chopping it all off. As short as she dares.
Stops herself. Knows it’s the anger talking. The frustration. That she’d regret it later.
She doesn’t know what to do about her eyes. Human transfiguration is very tricky. Delicate. She really doesn’t want to have to do it.
But her eyes might be recognisable. Memorable. If they’re as…nice as Bellatrix thinks they are.
Elizabeth. You live with Elizabeth Fluke. Your name is Sally Worthing.
She leaves her eyes as they are. Changes her clothes. Smiles as she recognises Tonks’ clothes. Tonks and Andy coming through with the normal mugglewear. That must have been a weird request from Dumbledore.
She doesn’t want to imagine the kinds of clothes Dumbledore would have put them in. A lot of purple, probably. And patterns. And knitted wool.
Although Tonks’ clothes are very nineties. Nineties grunge. Some things are a bit skater. Some more punk. Either way, not like anything Hermione wore in her teen years.
It’s quite fun. Dressing up. She’s Sally now. She can decide who Sally is. Maybe Sally wears make-up. Or dyes her hair different colours. Or has piercings.
Maybe Sally will be messy and make her roommate do all the cleaning and tidying.
She puts on some red lipstick. Studies herself in the mirror.
She still looks like herself. Is no advanced magic really a good idea? Not even a glamour charm?
She winces at that. Rubs her arm…oh.
Could she?
She removes the glamour charm. Rolls up her sleeves. There. Let’s make Bellatrix look at it. Face it. She can be ashamed of it instead. If she is.
And she makes her way back to the kitchen with the food from Moll—
“Your hair!” Hermione blurts out in shock.
Bellatrix’s hair. What did she…why did she…
Short. Still dark, but short. And straight. Choppy. Just below her jaw.
And her eyes are lighter. Hazel.
It’s…but…
“Your hair,” Bellatrix murmurs back. “And…”
She walks towards Hermione. Smiles, eyes flitting over her. “Well, shit. Guess we both just lost our defining features. And it sucks.”
Hermione cautiously smiles back. Can’t help it. Just for a second. This is too weird a scenario not to comment on. “Defining features? We might have to do something about our jawlines then.”
And Bellatrix grins. Tilts her head. Raises an eyebrow. “I’m not losing mine. Or the cheekbones. What about you?”
Hermione is oddly relieved by that. Shakes her head. “Do you think I look too much like me? Should I…change my mouth? Or my eyebrows?”
Bellatrix’s eyes soften. Her smile warms. “Don’t ask me. I don’t want you to change anything. It’s hard enough not seeing your hair.”
Oh.
And Bellatrix is turning away towards the living room. “Come on, Sally. Elizabeth has some explaining to do, and it will take a while. I found some biscuits in a cupboard. And some sweets. Probably left for us by ‘Mr White’.”
Oh of course! Albus. White. Dumbledore is paying their rent.
Well that’s slightly uncomfortable. They owe him a debt.
Hermione puts the food in the fridge and then goes to sit on the sofa. Can’t stop staring at…her hair. And her clothes. It’s Bellatrix, but it’s not. She’s right. She does miss her old hair. It’s gone. Just like that. No more crazy curls. No more touching…
No more touching. She’s Bellatrix, Hermione. She hurt you. More than hurt you. Remember the nightmares? The therapy? Night after night of—
Bellatrix reaches down to the carpet. Picks up Ratty and dusts the ash off of him. He was burrowing into the ash, rolling in it.
Bellatrix is still smiling though. Holding Ratty up and wiggling her nose back at him.
Okay. Okay, you can do this. She’s still Bellatrix. She’s still Bella.
As painful as that is.
Hermione picks up the tea that’s already been poured for her. Grabs a biscuit. Turns sideways and relaxes into the sofa. “Okay. I’m ready to listen. So just explain. From the beginning, please. And don’t leave anything out. I’d rather know.”
Bellatrix freezes.
Then puts Ratty down and reaches for some sweets. Takes a breath. “Can I sit next to you? Can I…this is hard to talk about. Can I— Am I allowed to touch you?”
Oh, oh don’t ask that. Don’t…but…
“You can sit next to me,” Hermione says. “But please don’t grab me. Don’t…just…Oh just explain, Bella, I’m so tired of this.”
Bellatrix swallows. Nods a few times. Comes to sit next to her, leaving a slight gap between them, and closes her eyes. Head tipped back. “Alright. Here it goes. From the beginning. From— I’ll start from the Battle. At Hogwarts. You were there too. I’ll start from when I died.”
When she died?
And now Hermione does reach to touch her. Lays a careful hand on Bellatrix’s arm. “You died?” Hermione asks softly.
Bellatrix chuckles. “Yes. I died. And that’s how all of this began…”
May, 1998
“Not my daughter, you bitch!”
Bitch?
Bellatrix turns, distractedly flicking a toenail-growing hex behind her at Loony Lovegood just for the hell of it.
And bursts out laughing at the sight before her. Oh! Oh, this will be fun! The Weasley bitch thinks she can fight?
She raises an eyebrow as the angry shrew barrels towards her, pushing into the little ginger and the mudblood. “Out of my way!”
Bellatrix rolls her eyes. Thinks about walking away. She has better things to do. Like finding Potter.
She could kill the mudblood girl, that might send him running her way…
But this is too fun to miss! The weasel really thinks—
A black spell sizzles towards her.
She brings up a protego. Hey! How dare she— That could have decapitated her!
She lets out a growl. Fine. No more playing nice. If people want to act like savage beasts…
She fires off the nastiest curses she can think of. Get her! Cut her open! Or better yet, let’s make her bleed from the inside out!
Spell after spell is deflected into the stone at their feet, rock splintering back up at them. Hot and crumbling. Ha ha! Now they’re dancing! Finally, someone wants a real fight. Someone out for blood and not just backing away like dirty little cockroaches.
“What will happen to your children when I’ve killed you?” she taunts, coaxing the rage out. “When Mummy’s gone the same way as Freddie?”
“You will never touch our children again!” the bitch shrieks. And she’s getting faster! Yes! More!
Bellatrix laughs again in exhilaration. She’s been fucking stuck in Cissy’s house for too long. Why hasn’t she been allowed out? She could have killed so many more—
More—
More… … …
Oh.
She…she’s lying on the floor.
How did she…where did she…
She opens her eyes. Why were her eyes closed? Ah!
She hisses. Shields her eyes from the blinding white light. “Where…how…My Lord?” she croaks.
A huffed laugh of amusement greets her. “Now that’s one name I’ve never been called.”
He—
She jumps to her feet with a growl, reaching for her wand. “Potter! Where have you taken me? What have you— Where is my wand?”
It’s not there. Not anywhere. Not—
She’s not wearing any clothes.
She slaps Potter across the face. “What the fuck have you done to me, you little pervert?”
He smiles calmly. Doesn’t even flinch. “Nothing. If you need anything, just imagine it. It will come to you here.”
Imagine it?
She squints at him suspiciously. Looks around at the…white…empty…nothing…
Imagines her clothes. And a wand. And a knife.
Holds the knife to Potters’s throat. “Where are we? Take us back. Take me back to my Lord.”
He raises an eyebrow. “So you want to go back? Are you sure you don’t want to…move on?”
“Move on to what?” she grits out. Presses the knife in.
He sighs tiredly, rubbing at his forehead. “Bellatrix, where do you think you are?”
She slides the knife against him. Slices. Waits for the blood. None comes.
And shrugs, an uneasy feeling settling in her stomach. “How should I know? You’re the one that’s…taken me somewhere.”
Her knife vanishes. Potter steps back. “I didn’t take you here. You brought yourself here. You were careless. You moved too late. Your time came to an end.”
Now her heart is really speeding up. She really is not enjoying this. This isn’t fun. This— Where is she? She can’t remember…all she remembers is— “I have to go back. My Lord needs me. This isn’t the end. This is— I’m not—”
Nothing. She’s nowhere. It’s impossible. And she feels…something feels…
Wait.
She steps forward again with a laugh. “This is a trick! Like before! I can’t be…gone, because you’re here! The Boy Who Lived! My Lord hasn’t killed you yet. You can’t be—”
“Dead?” the boy says softly. “Yes. I am. And I’m not. Like you. We’re…in between, I guess. I like to think of it as King’s Cross Station. We’re between trains.”
Trains?
Alright then.
She imagines a train. A train to take her back to Hogwarts.
And the Hogwarts Express appears beside them, steam and all.
She smirks triumphantly. “Guess I’ll take this one then.”
And she runs onto the train before he can stop her. Goes into a compartment and sits down. Hears the whistle blow and the chugging of the…
For fuck’s sake.
Potter smiles at her from the seat opposite. “You want to go back then. Fine. It’s your choice. If you’re sure. But I have to warn you, there are some rules.”
Bellatrix leans her head on her hand, looking out the window sulkily. “And who put you in charge?”
He laughs. “I sometimes wonder that too. I’d get out of it if I could, but it seems I’m stuck with the title.”
Title? “Boy Who Lived? Saviour? Pain in the arse who refuses to die?”
He laughs again. “Close. Master of Death.”
She whirls to face him. Master of Death? Is that possible? Is that…
The Deathly Hallows. Wand. Stone. Cloak.
The Dark Lord had the wand.
She rises to her feet. Points her wand at him, trembling now. “How?” she asks hoarsely. “How did you get the wand? How…He was the master. Not you. Not—”
Potter reaches into his pocket. Pulls out—
“No!” she shouts. “You can’t have it! You can’t! You—”
And she shudders as he snaps it in half. Flinches away as he hands half to her.
“I didn’t want it,” he shrugs. “I only had it for a few minutes. But it was long enough. All three. Once you’re the Master…well, time works differently here. That was a long time ago for me. More lifetimes than I can count. More lives than I can count.”
She snatches his half from him. Takes out her own wand and casts a reparo. And again. And again. If she can bring this to her Lord—
Oh!
She gives up on the Elder Wand and moves to sit next to Potter. “You can send me back! You said! You said I could go back…and that time doesn’t matter! So…you can send me back earlier! That’s what I want. I want to go back to before it all started.”
Potter seems to be considering it. Maybe he has to. Because of his title. Maybe he has to be fair to everyone.
“There are still rules,” he mutters.
She waves her hand dismissively. “I’ll do it. I’ll follow all your stupid rules, just send me back so I can change things. Do the right thing this time.”
He pauses. Looks at her slyly. “The right thing?”
Uhh…
She frowns. “Yes? I want to play a bigger part. I was stuck in Azkaban for too long. And then stuck at the Manor. My Lord was alone, had to rely on filth like Wormtail and Quirrell and Crouch. Failures. I won’t fail him. Not like they did.”
And Potter slowly nods. “You want to have your time again. To learn from your mistakes.”
Bellatrix scoffs. “Other’s mistakes. I did everything I could.”
Potter isn’t listening. He’s standing. And the train begins to move, carriage shaking. “If that is your decision, then as the Master of Death, I will grant your request. You have much to learn, so I will give you all the time you need. You’ve already heard of the Deathly Hallows, so at least you’ll have that to guide you.”
She stands up too, steadying herself on the rocking floor. “They can guide me? Is there a way of finding them?”
Potter points at her sternly. “Learn from them. Don’t seek them. You know the story. Don’t make the same mistakes the brothers did.”
Bellatrix huffs. “You just don’t want me stealing your job— ah! Get your hands off me you traitorous—”
He doesn’t let go. He holds her shoulders tightly. Glares into her eyes.
Eyes the colour of the killing curse. Hands that seem to squeeze the life from her. The— stop.
Stop— please—
He releases her. Turns to look out the window. It’s dark out. Pitch black. “Think of it like this,” he whispers. “You are the eldest sister. You wanted power, and you took it. You killed without thought. You were selfish. And so Death came to you.”
She fights to catch her breath, a chill travelling through her. It’s getting colder. Ice spreading over the windows. The glass.
He turns to face her. His eyes are soft once more. “The middle sister never wanted power. She wanted love. She loved…and lost. And loved…and lost. And she loved again. Every time. She didn’t need a stone to bring them back. She kept them in her heart, and held those around her close. She continued on.”
Bellatrix sits down, legs weakening.
Her sister?
She’s not her sister. Why does she matter? She has nothing to do with the war. With her master. With the Hallows.
Potter steps closer. Kneels before her. Begins undoing the neck of his cloak. “The youngest sister decided to hide. She knew death was strong. Would come for her. So she was careful. She didn’t go looking for a fight. She didn’t go looking for love. She stayed hidden. Unnoticed. And when the time came, she taught her son to hide too. To walk from the fight. To escape death.”
Cissy? She’s getting praised for…doing nothing? For sitting around a house? For her spineless wimp of a son?
Potter’s cloak comes off. He hands it to her. It disappears. “Here are your signs. Your rules. Look for them. Follow them. And I wish you the best of luck, Bellatrix Black.”
Rules? Those were the rules? But they don’t make any sense! And she still hasn’t told him when she wants to— Hey!
“Come back!” she shouts as he fades away. “Get the fuck back here, Potter, and tell me—”
The compartment fades too. The seats. The floor. Darkens. “Potter!” she yells.
And someone shoves her from behind, taking her by surprise and sending her flying forward onto the floor.
“Shut up, you crazy bitch. The kid ain’t here,” comes a nearby shout.
Stone. She’s fallen onto stone. And it’s cold.
She shudders. Hears the familiar sound of a metal door locking shut and sealing itself behind her. The distant screams, sobs, and whimpers filter through.
The crash of the waves.
And she laughs. Laughs and laughs. Rolls onto her back and laughs until she cries.
Counts the cracks in the ceiling.
Doesn’t need to see them. She knows it by heart. This ceiling.
Azkaban. Fucking Azkaban.
“I’m going to kill you, Potter,” she whispers to herself.
Chapter 29: Hear the Tale
Notes:
Hi folks!
Thank you all so much for all your comments and kudos, it's been so nice talking to you all.
Just a heads up for this chapter. You might have noticed I've edited the tags, so yeah, references to death and suicidal thoughts this chapter. Nothing too heavy I don't think, but...we're back in Azkaban, so...
And we're mostly in Bellatrix's pov this time. So get ready for a bit of violence. Again, only what can be expected from Bellatrix. The 'lighthearted' tone will continue with a lot of humour mixed in.
Time for more backstory, folks! Enjoy!
Chapter Text
Hermione blinks. Takes a sip of tea. Realises it’s going cold. It…but…
“Harry?” she whispers. “He…he’s the Master of Death? He…sent you back in time? That’s how you came back?”
Bellatrix nods. Then holds a finger to her lips. “Not sure you’re supposed to know that. I told you it was complicated. That I really couldn’t tell you. But— So that wasn’t how you came back too? You didn’t die? He didn’t send you back?”
Hermione frantically shakes her head. “No! I was— I was alive. It was an ordinary night. I was…well I was with Harry. My Harry. But also Ginny, and Ron, and Fleur and George. I had dinner with them and went to bed. That’s it. I didn’t die. I can’t believe you died!”
Bellatrix smiles weakly. “You knew I died. It’s the first thing you said. That I couldn’t be her. Because she died. Well…surprise. I did. I was stupid, and reckless, and arrogant, and Molly took me by surprise. Killed me.”
Hermione takes a breath. Tries to process… “And that’s how you ended up in this time. In Azkaban. And then broke out. You got another chance, and used Harry’s…used Death’s cloak to hide.”
The cloak. The boggart. Master of Death. That’s how— so Bellatrix is scared of—
Bellatrix hums. Eyes closed again. Shakes her head. “It’s not that simple. This is a long story. It— So I was back in Azkaban. Back in time. And back in my old body, by the way. I was back in 1981, starting my sentence in Azkaban from the very beginning…”
Bellatrix grabs the tray as soon as it appears by the door, shouting at the rats so they scurry away, and bringing the stale bread straight to her mouth. Hers. All of it. Last time she’d refused to eat for a few weeks just to spite them, but not this time. This time she’s getting all the energy she can. Staying on alert. Keeping her mind…sharp.
Here they come.
She shuffles back into the corner. The safe corner. The warm corner. Forces herself to keep breathing as her chest constricts. The cold. It always makes you want to hold your breath. But you shouldn’t. You shouldn’t.
She clings to the thought of Potter. Potter. She has to survive so she can kill Potter. Really slit his throat this time. Watch the blood drain from his stupid smug face—
If the Dark Lord will allow her that honour, of course.
He will. Or he might let her watch. After everything she’s done for him, she deserves…
The whimpers and sobs around her subside.
She takes a final shaky breath before stuffing the bread in her mouth again. Hers. All of it.
A rat sneaks closer. Puts a paw on her.
She brings her fist down on its head. Hard and fast. Winces as its broken skull digs into her knee.
Hmm. Rat for dinner too?
She grimaces. She’s not that far gone. Raw rats.
But for the Dark Lord…
She takes another mouthful of bread. Bread is fine. Bread is enough—
Enough—
Enough… … …
Someone shoves her from behind, taking her by surprise and sending her falling onto the stone floor.
What?
But why—
She pulls herself up, feeling strangely strong. Energised.
The door slams shut behind her.
It was open?
No. No— “Potter!” she shouts. “What did you do? Potter!”
“Shut up, you crazy bitch. The kid ain’t here,” someone mutters. That same voice. A nearby cell.
She crawls towards the bars. “Where is he? What year? How long have I been in here?”
“Hmm, now that’s a tough one. I’m not very good at arithmancy but let’s see…”
There’s a pause. “Yep. Thirty seconds. Give or take. Enjoy the rest of your life in here,” the voice replies. Snorts. Laughs at her.
No…
No.
No!
“No!” she howls. “It’s been weeks! Weeks! Fucking— Potter!”
“Shut up!” a voice barks from down the corridor.
She does shut up. But only because she recognises that voice.
She laughs. “Don’t want me talking about your little boyfriend? Don’t worry. I wasn’t talking about James. I was talking about—”
There’s a loud clang. “Shut up!” Sirius growls. “Don’t you dare even say his name—”
She laughs again. Cackles. Tries to spot which cell he’s in. She needs all the entertainment she can get in here, and teasing little Sirius will do as a last resort. “They think you betrayed him. They all do. Do you think that was his last thought? Before he died? You were his secret keeper. And you failed. He died because of you.”
“Because of you!” Sirius roars. “Because of him. They died to stop you, and it worked. He’s dead! Your Lord is fucking dead!”
She stands up. Laughs. Laughs and laughs. “He’s not de-ead!” she sing-songs. “He’s still aliiive!”
She smiles to herself. Horcruxes. She knows where her Lord is. The diary with Lucius. The cup in her vault. And more. She’s not sure where, but there’s more. There’s one at Hogwarts, she’s sure of it.
“He’s not alive,” Sirius spits. “Just give up. It’s over. You lost.”
Then more quietly. “We both lost.”
She rolls her eyes and goes to sit in the warm corner. He’s always been so dramatic. So negative. So he lost a couple of friends, so what? He can make more once he…
Once he…
He gets out. He escapes.
Siri knows how to escape.
She crawls back over to the bars, edging around the food tray as it appears. Opens her mouth.
Can’t get the words out. Ask for help? From Sirius? A mopey, whiney little blood traitor?
She could…just watch him. Wait. Wait for him to reveal whatever his secret is. He’s not that smart. A cocky little kid. It can’t be that difficult to—
Kid! That kid! He got out too!
“Crouch!” she shouts. “Where the fuck are you? Barty!”
No-one answers her. Just the usual sobs and weeping.
She sighs. He should be here. Maybe he’s just ignoring her. She’ll have to ask Rod.
Rod. Hmm. Now there’s something she wants to change. Once she gets out of here, she doesn’t want to be tied to him.
A rat peeks its head out of the wall. She kicks out with her foot…
Oh.
Is that why she’s back?
Rules. Potter said there were rules. The Hallows.
Wand. Stone. Cloak.
“I’m the eldest,” she whispers. “The eldest brother…wanted power. And he got the wand by killing…the…”
The rat. She’d killed the rat.
But—
“A rat?!” she shrieks. “I’m not allowed to kill a fucking rat?!”
Laughter echoes down the corridor towards her. No explanation. Just more and more laughter, barking and loud. Sirius.
She folds her arms and leans against the wall. Contemplates if today should be a thinking day or a conserve your energy and get lost in your head day.
She looks around. Remembers that this is the first day all over again. And that Sirius doesn’t escape for another twelve years.
Closes her eyes and thinks the room away.
Battle of Hogwarts. Let’s do it again. But this time she won’t leave her Lord’s side for one second.
“You got sent back again?!” Hermione shouts. Stands up. Pacing. Panicking. “That can happen? There are rules? I didn’t know there were rules!”
Are there rules for her too? Could she get sent back too?
Bellatrix shoves more sweets in her mouth and reaches for Ratty. “Yep. Welcome to my world. Do the wrong thing, and get sent back to Azkaban circa 1981. No warning. No time for goodbyes. One wrong move, and off you go.”
“But what are the rules?” Hermione asks. Sits back down. “No killing? That was one? Because of…”
The rat.
She looks at Ratty. A rat. The rat…
Bellatrix strokes him. Then hands him to Hermione. “That’s what I had to figure out. The rules. It took me a while, and I’m still not quite sure. But…well here’s your answer. How many rats have I had? How many have I looked after? I don’t know, Granger. I just…it’s been too long. I just don’t know anymore…”
Someone has been crying for hours. Won’t fucking shut up, even when the dementors do the rounds. Calling for his mother. Pathetic. And stupid. Wallowing only makes you die faster.
Bellatrix eats her last mouthful of…bread. Hmm.
The rat is back. Watching her. Coming closer.
She freezes warily. Spits the mouthful of bread back out into her hand. “You watching, Potter?” she croaks.
Then drops the bread on the floor. Turns her back and listens to feet scurry across stone.
Fine. No killing the rat. Sharing her power. “That’s what you want, right?” she murmurs.
No reply. Obviously.
And the cries continue. A boy crying for his mother.
Bellatrix grins.
Still here. She’s still here. It’s been months now. And she still here.
The crying has stopped, thank Merlin. It was driving her insane. And no-one has been brought in lately. Everyone has given up. Silence. Blessed silence. Time to think. To plan. No reminders of where she is.
So. Sirius or Crouch? Who should she get to talk?
Crouch. Let’s try Crouch. He got out earlier.
“Barty?” she calls. “Come on ickle Barty, I know you’re there. Talk to Bella.”
No reply.
He dares ignore her?!
She shuffles over to the bars. “Crouch! Answer me! Answer me, now!” she cries out hoarsely.
“He’s dead,” Sirius calls back. “They took his body yesterday, didn’t you fucking notice?”
What?
His body?
“He’s not! He’s not dead! He…he must have faked it!” she shouts back.
No reply.
She leans against the bars. Shit. Fuck.
Barty’s gone? Already? How long has she been here?
A cockroach scuttles past. She squashes it—
Oh crap.
“Don’t send me back!” she yells at the ceiling. “That doesn’t count! Don’t send me—”
She falls onto the stone floor, the metal door clanging shut behind her. “No!” she yells. “That was nothing! A cockroach! A fucking insect! You didn’t tell me I couldn’t kill anything. It wasn’t for power! It was for—”
“Shut up, you crazy bitch. You won’t be killing anyone in here.”
Argh!
She punches a wall— fuck! That fucking—
She screams. Screams as loud as she can. Screams until her throat gives out, and then lies down on the floor, pulling at her hair. It burns. It fucking hurts. But she can’t hurt anything else, so…
She stops pulling. Curls up on the floor and closes her eyes. Stop. Just stop. Just stop now. “Stop stop stop,” she whispers to herself. “Enough now. This isn’t fun. I’ve had enough.”
Another day. She’s not sure how long it’s been now. Another meal.
She eats it all. Makes herself. Energy.
Except the last mouthful. She throws that over to the rat. Curses Potter under her breath.
And crawls over to the bars. It can’t have been too long yet then. Because her knees still hurt. Haven’t numbed to the unforgiving floor. “Barty?” she calls. “Barty, are you there?”
No reply.
She sighs. “Hey, Sirius!”
“Fuck off.”
Ha! An answer!
She grins and pushes closer to the metal. “I’m bored, Siri! Come on, it’s not like you have anything better to do. Talk to me.”
“I said, fuck off!” he growls. “Why would I want to talk to you?”
But you’re still taaalking! “Okay, fine! Just thought you’d want to know that your snivelling little friend is still alive.”
She waits. Listens.
“Snivelling? You mean Snape? He’s more your friend than mine.”
She laughs. “Snivellus? No! I meant the other one! The little fat one. Wormtail.”
And there’s a loud clang. “He’s not alive! He got blown up! How would you even—”
“They only found a finger. Wouldn’t be that hard for him to chop it off and scurry away into hiding.”
A pause.
“What do you know?”
Bellatrix grins. Settles into a more comfortable position against the bars. “Nope. I’m not telling. Think I’ll go back to sleep now.”
“Bellatrix!” Sirius shouts. “Tell me what you know!”
She laughs. Now she’s getting somewhere. “How about you tell me how to get out of here.”
“Wha— argh!”
Another clang. “You’re insane! You’re bloody deranged! How the— Get out of here? You think I can— we’re in fucking Azkaban!”
But he does know! He escaped! She never saw how, but— “Then fucking think about it, alright? How would you do it? Because I don’t know about you, but I’m not spending the rest of my life rotting away in here.”
Her voice echoes down the corridor.
And then silence.
Thinking.
Good.
“How did you know we call him Wormtail?” Sirius slowly asks.
Ugh. He asks too many questions. Can’t he just shut up until he has a plan to get out of here? And what’s she supposed to say? Wormtail is called Wormtail. She had to live with the disgusting rat for long—
Rat. And Sirius is a dog. An animagus. Wormtail had told the Dark Lord—
Is that how Sirius escaped? Can a dog escape?
She pushes her arm through the bars. Feels the gap. The width.
It would have to be a fucking skeletal dog…but it’s possible. “He’s called Wormtail because he’s a little rat,” Bellatrix says slowly. “Funny that. Peter Pettigrew learning advanced magic. You’d think…he had some help.”
Silence again from Siri.
And…this kind of fucking ruins her plans.
She lies down on the floor sulkily. Pouts up at the ceiling. Animagus. If that’s how Sirius got out…then she’s going to be fucking stuck here! Unless—
She bolts back up again. “Siri! If you help me get out of here…I’ll tell you where the rat is! I’ll tell you where Potter is!”
Not that she knows where Wormtail hid himself away for twelve years. Or where Potter lives. But he doesn’t have to know that. She can just use him—
And she’s falling onto the stone floor, metal door slamming shut and sealing itself behind her.
Bellatrix throws some bread to Ratty with a sigh. “Barty, stop crying for fuck’s sake. Come on!”
“Shut it, Bella. Leave him alone,” Sirius yells along to her. Three cells. She thinks he’s three cells along.
Wand. Stone. Cloak.
No killing. Share your power. Hold loved ones close. Hide. Pass your hiding skills down.
That’s what Potter said. The rules. The only way she won’t be stuck in an endless loop.
“Crying makes it worse,” she shouts. “You have to think of a reason to live. Doesn’t have to be happy. It can be anything.”
Cheat the system. It’s all about cheating the system.
She strokes the rat. Love. She’s showing fucking love. Keeping her ‘friends’ close. “Hey, Barty! How would you get out of here? What’s your plan?”
“We’re never getting out of here…” comes a quiet, croaked reply. Shit. He’s not going to die again already, is he?
Bellatrix shakes herself. “Sirius is, aren’t you? You’ve got a plan!”
No reply from Sirius.
This is like pulling teeth.
But less fun.
She settles back against the wall.
Listens to the sea.
Barty dies again. She’s awake for it this time. Hears him shout for his mother.
Sees his mother arrive. Visit. He’s been allowed a visitor.
They’re never allowed visitors. It must be a special favour because his father is the head of the DMLE.
An anomaly. And then Barty somehow shows up at Hogwarts. Is the Dark Lord’s most loyal.
She looks at Ratty, sat next to her and sniffing the air. Nose twitching.
Barty can’t be really dead. He must have already made his escape.
And she missed it.
She holds out her hand to the rat. Waits until it cautiously approaches for more petting or food.
And crushes it with her fist.
There. She broke the rules. Now Potter will send her back. She’s doing it again. Doing it right this time.
She waits.
Nothing happens.
She waits some more. Hears the waves crash against the island again and again.
Stares down at Ratty in confusion. Pokes him.
He doesn’t move.
She places her hand on him. Feels for a heartbeat. A breath.
Nothing.
Huh.
So she can kill things?
She continues staring at the rat.
A tray of food appears by the door, clattering, half the goblet of water spilling on the bread. She absentmindedly picks it up. Tears off a piece of bread for…
Oh.
Right. No rat to share with.
She clears her throat. “Sirius? You awake? Food’s here.”
He doesn’t reply.
She moves closer to the bars. Picks up the goblet and sips at it. Stale. The water’s always stale. Rainwater, she reckons. “What was your name?” she calls down the echoey corridor. “If he was Wormtail, were you…Waggy tail or something?”
Information, right? Codenames. Always good to know codenames. For polyjuice questions. Intel for the Dark Lord.
Sirius laughs, and it’s….the first genuine laugh she’s heard in here. A surprised laugh. Like he couldn’t stop himself. “Waggy tail?” he croaks out. “That sucks. Now I know why Narcissa is stuck with such an awful nickname.”
Bellatrix frowns. “What’s wrong with Cissy?”
Sirius snorts. “How many reasons do you want?”
Bellatrix tears off a piece of bread angrily. It’s her sister. She can call her what she wants. Better than— “So what amazing nickname did you come up with, Waggy?”
There’s a long silence.
She crawls back over to the—
“Padfoot. I was called Padfoot.”
Padfoot? Yeah, because that’s any better.
She huffs. “Well I’m not calling you that. That’s stupid.”
“It’s not for you,” he snaps. “It was for us. And now…now he’s gone. And Lily. Lily. How can Lily not be…”
And there he goes again. Woe is me.
She curls up in the corner to get some sleep.
Looks at Ratty, still lying there.
Dead and broken in the middle of the floor.
“Can I go back, Potter?” she whispers. “I think…I could have done this better.”
There’s no reply. And she doesn’t go back. Just sits there. Listening to the endless waves.
It’s quiet without Barty crying, and without Ratty.
And it smells bad. Ratty is starting to rot.
She’s been staying next to the narrow slit of a window most days. As close as possible, to breathe in the fresh air. It’s cold. Fucking bone-chilling.
She sleeps as much as she can. Or tries. Drifts from sleep to wakefulness to an odd in-between. Loses track of the hours. The days. The world seems to tip and turn. To rock.
“…Bellatrix? Come on…answer me!”
Answer…who? What…
She’s warm. How is she warm? Warm and shivering.
“Have you eaten, Bella? Have you remembered to eat?” the voice calls again. Sirius?
Eat. When did she last…
She rolls over. Looks at the…reaches for the…can’t fucking reach the— “Siri–us,” she tries to shout. Can’t. It hurts her throat. Makes her vision blur. She needs— she has to get out. The walls are closing in. He has to help her— “Padfoot. Escape. Need— to—”
She falls onto the rat bones. Ratty. Why did she— why can’t she—
Potter. Potter, please. I did it wrong. I need to try again. I did something wrong. Please. I’ll make it right. I’ll do it right. Please—
And she’s falling onto stone floor. Takes a gasping breath. And another. Alive. She feels—
She sits up. Runs her hands over herself. Muscles. She still has muscles. And her teeth don’t hurt. Or her knees. Or her eyes. Or her head or—
Ratty! Thank fuck. An alive rat is so much better than—
Ratty hides away from her. But she doesn’t care. Just smiles at him and his little twitchy nose. Not long now until the bread arrives. She’ll give him some bread. And— oh!
She walks over to the bars. “Crouch! Barty! Your mother’s going to come and see you, Barty. And your father. They’re getting you out of here, you just have to wait!”
It has to be. That has to be how he gets out.
“Leave him alone!”
Wagtail!
“It’s the truth!” she shouts. “It’s the truth, I swear. And you’re gonna get out too, Wags. Gonna see your friends again and ickle Harry.”
There’s a loud clang. “Don’t you dare say his name! Don’t you dare talk about Harry!” Sirius roars.
Bellatrix sighs. “Come on, Padfoot. Keep your tail on. Don’t you have a plan to think of? A godson to go find?”
Silence. Good. Little thinky Siri.
“Father…father will come to see me?” a young voice calls cautiously.
Barty! Look who’s talking. “Yep. He’s coming to get you. Your mother’s sick. Guess he doesn’t want to lose you too.”
And the food arrives. Excellent. Come here, Ratty! You get a big piece.
No reply from Barty though. Disappointing. She’d thought they got off to a good start.
“How do you know my nickname?” Sirius calls.
Ah. Oops.
Bellatrix shrugs. “Wormtail told us. Little rat. You should have chosen better friends, Wagtail.”
“So should you,” Sirius spits. “The one you chose just got killed by a baby.”
An immortal baby who is a pain in the fucking arse.
Wand. Stone. Cloak.
Share power. Share love. Share hiding. Wisdom.
“You…chose some very…determined friends,” she calls out hesitantly. “Don’t…don’t forget that. Don’t lose that. They…did everything they could. And so did you.”
Silence.
“Piss off, Bella. Just fuck off and leave me alone.”
That’s what he wants?
Alright. She’ll be nice and leave him alone.
She looks in the other direction. “Barty! When your father comes, think you could give him a message from me?”
Silence.
“When he comes for you,” Bellatrix continues. “Tell him I know what he’s up to. And if he doesn’t let my sister do the same for me…then I might let it slip to the next visitor who walks through. This year. Next year. Ten years from now. Someone will visit. And I’ll tell them what he did.”
It doesn’t work. Barty leaves. Cissy never comes. Years pass, she thinks. And she supposes…
Well. Cissy would never risk her life for her.
Sirius escapes though. She sees him pad past. Padfoot.
So now it’s just her and Ratty. For two more years. Her Lord will break her free in two more years.
She hugs the rat to her chest. For warmth. Not that he has much meat on him. Old. Grey. Skeletal.
She’s not even sure it’s the same rat. It might be Ratty Junior. Or the generation after that. Or after that.
She wonders if Wagtail has reached land yet. Or if he drowned this time.
She hopes he hasn’t drowned. They need him alive. Bait. For Potter.
It would be a waste. If Sirius died.
And she’s falling onto a hard, cold floor. What? What did she do? Why is…
Where is she? This isn’t her cell. It’s bigger. Twice the—
A sobbing comes from beside her. Oh.
She crawls over. “Barty? What’s happening? What am I doing here?”
He ignores her. Just curls into a ball, flinching and trembling from the cold.
She stands up and walks back over to the bars. Oh. Different…
She’s in Barty’s cell. So that means…
“Thank you, Potter,” she hums to herself.
Then walks back over. Grabs hold of Barty and drags him along the stone floor towards the furthest corner. The warm corner. Sits down next to him as he stares at her, eyes unfocused and terrified. She never realised what a wimp he was. Spoilt Daddy’s boy. Or more like Daddy issues. It’s like having Draco here.
She throws an arm around him. “Don’t look at me like that. We have to use this to our advantage. Do you know how lucky we are they put us together? Warmth. Energy. We’re gonna fucking survive. So snap out of it.”
He swallows. Flinches away from her. “I— I don’t want to survive. Not in here.”
And he shivers again. Pale and shaking. Breathing ragged.
Oh. The dementors must be on their way.
She leans against him again. Closes her eyes. “Don’t think about that. Think of…a reason to live. Anything. Imagine a world where you escape. It’s not real. It’s not memory. It’s not hope. But it’s strong. Strong enough to—”
She breaks off as her lungs seize up. Freeze. The cold dread. The ache of it, worse than ever.
Barty whimpers at her side. Gasps for breath. “Mother! Mother, please! I want to go home!” he shouts. “Mother!”
Bellatrix squeezes her eyes shut. Breathes through it. Fights the— the memories—
He’s not Draco. Cissy…
“Father! Help me! I’m sorry! Father!”
No. No it’s—
Why is she crying? She’s heard him scream a thousand times. Why—
She opens her eyes and wipes at her face. Shoves him. “Stop it! Snap out of it! They’re not here. No-one is—”
He curls in on himself. Covers his head with his arms. “I’m alone,” he whispers. “All alone. I have nothing. I shouldn’t have—” he takes another shuddering breath, words becoming mumbled.
She stands up with a sigh. Gives up on him and walks over to the bars. The cold has eased.
Looks for Ratty. Does she not have Ratty anymore?
Sighs again, oddly disappointed. “Siri? You there?”
“…Fuck off.”
She smiles to herself. Laughs to herself. “Do you want to hear a secret?”
Silence.
She sits down. Leans against the bars. Tries to spot him. She might be able to now. Other side of the corridor.
She sticks her arm out. “Can you see me?”
There’s a clang. “Why would I want to look at you?”
She can’t see him. Can’t remember which cell he should be in. “Your friend, Wormtail. He was scared, and went to the Dark Lord. Reckon he’s in hiding now. It was his fault that…well, I know it was him, not you,” she calls.
More silence, other than sobbing from Barty.
Then she sees it. An arm through the bars, about five cells down. “I know. I went after him. He got away,” Sirius says bitterly.
It feels…
It’s nice to see him. To know he’s really there. Not just a voice. It’s something to cling to. To keep her mind from…
She slowly waves. He probably can’t see her. “Guess you’ll need to think of a way out of here then,” she shouts. “To protect your godson.”
The arm disappears. There’s a loud clang. “What do you know?!” Sirius bellows. “What— don’t you dare! Don’t you dare threaten Harry!”
Threaten Potter? She laughs at the thought. As if her threats make a difference. She curses Potter every day! This is the one time she wasn’t threatening Potter.
“Shut up!” Sirius yells. “Stop laughing!”
Bellatrix laughs again. “Why? Come on, Siri. We’re stuck in Azkaban. Why shouldn’t we laugh?”
“You’re nuts!” he shouts back. “You’re bloody— why am I even talking to you?”
Bellatrix shrugs. “Don’t know. Maybe you secretly miss me, cousin.”
This time there’s a long silence. She gives up. Goes back to Barty and checks he’s still alive.
He is. And crying.
She sits next to him anyway. It’s warmer.
“I thought I wasn’t your cousin anymore,” Sirius calls quietly.
Oh. Yeah. Traitor.
She’s just pretending. To get information from him. To follow the rules. To get out of here.
Barty’s head rolls to rest on her shoulder. He looks up at her, chin wobbling. “Kill me,” he whispers. “I— I can’t do this. Just kill me. I know you can.”
Hmm. She could. Could snap his neck. Or smother him. Or bash his head against the wall. Force some bread down his throat.
He is quite annoying. Pathetic. Boring. Weak.
But she can’t. Potter won’t like that.
Plus if the rat had smelled bad, she doesn’t want to imagine—
She retches at the thought. Shudders at the memory.
Shakes her head at Barty and hugs him to her. “You’re not going anywhere. Not yet. Soon though. Soon your mother and father are going to come to get you. You’re lucky. Your daddy has power. And your mummy loves you.”
Barty frowns at her. Doesn’t reply. Looks…more scared of her than before. What— she said she wasn’t going to kill him! He should be grateful. If she wasn’t stuck in this weird time loop, she would have snapped his neck as soon as he dared ask!
“Who are you talking to?” Sirius calls.
He’s chatty today. Now why is that? Did she do the right thing somehow?
“Barty,” she calls back. Sharing information. “Crouch’s kid. We’re in the same cell.”
Sirius laughs. “Same cell? He’s stuck with you? Good luck, kid!”
That’s— He wishes he was sharing with her! She’s a great cellmate. Ratty seems to like her.
Seemed. Where is that rat?
She strokes Barty’s hair instead. Showing caring. Love.
“Barty?” Sirius calls. “You…still there?”
Bellatrix frowns in confusion. Wagtail never talks to Barty. They don’t know each other. And Siri probably knows about those Longbottoms.
Barty doesn’t reply. Bellatrix groans. “Of course he’s still here. He can’t escape until his mummy comes.”
“Until his—” Sirius breaks off croakily. “What does that— you’d better not be making him fuck you!”
What?!
She shoves Barty away in case he gets any ideas and stands up. “No! Where the fuck did you get that idea, you little pervert?!” she shouts.
What did— all she said was…
She cringes. “Mummy? You think I call myself— Siri!”
Sirius laughs strangely. “Okay, okay. That’s just what it sounded— well that’s good to know. If you two get up to anything then…warn me! I don’t need to hear that.”
Now laughter comes from the other direction. Laughter she recognises. “My wife, fuck a wizard? You don’t know your cousin at all, Black.”
Shit. She forgot about Rod. He’s been there the whole time? Heard her talking to Wagtail?
It’s fine. She’s not a traitor. She’s just doing all she can to get out and serve the Dark Lord.
She walks over to the bars. “Hello, dear Husband. Did you have something of worth to say?” she calls mockingly.
“Do I ever?” he calls back. Prick.
She huffs. “Doesn’t seem like it.”
Sirius groans. “Both of you shut up. No-one’s here to make you talk to each other.”
True! No-one’s here to make her do anything. And she knows for a fact that both her parents will be dead in a few years. “Hey Roddie,” she calls. “I want a divorce. An annulment.”
She hears the clang of metal. “Really? On what grounds?”
She grins smugly. She’s been saving this one. “As you said. I’d never fuck a wizard. Our marriage was never consummated.”
Silence.
“Wait, you’re a lesbian?” Wagtail shouts. Then starts laughing. “I knew it! Dromeda said—”
“It was consummated,” Rod calls confusedly. “On our wedding night.”
Bellatrix shakes her head, even though he can’t see. “Nope. You drank too much. I just took all our clothes off and told you we fucked. We didn’t. I have the memory to prove it.”
Sirius laughs again. “And when will dear Bellatrix produce an heir for the Noble and Most Ancient House of Black?” he calls in a shrill imitation of Aunt Warlburga.
Fucking— “You fuck him if you want an heir so badly!” Bellatrix growls at him. “I served our house in other ways!”
She could strangle him. Kill him. Would an avada reach down the corridor to—
Wait—
She didn’t mean—
She hastily backs away next to Barty. Hugs him. She’s showing love. Holding him close. Sharing her warmth. Her power. Her—
The food appears. She nods hurriedly. “Come on, Barty. Let’s eat. You can have the bigger piece. You’re bigger than me. Can’t have you wasting away before you escape.”
“Stop it,” he whispers. “Stop, just stop…”
And he rolls to face away from her.
Fine. If he doesn’t want food, then she’ll listen and not give it to him. Caring. Listening.
She hugs him again to make up for it, and then goes over to get the food. Looks around for… “Ratty!” she hisses. “Where are you? Food! Come on!”
And waits.
No sign of a rat.
She takes the food back to the corner with her. And the goblet. Holds the goblet to Barty’s mouth. “Drink. Go on. Do it. You have to. For me.”
He ignores her. That fucking ungrateful—
She pinches his nose. Waits for his mouth to open. Pours the water.
He chokes and splutters. Pushes at her. Hits her—
She drops the goblet. Grabs his hair in her fists and slams his head into the stone floor. And again. And again. And—
And she’s falling onto a hard stone floor.
A small cell. Her cell. Shit.
“Fine!” she yells. “I don’t want to share anyway! Let him die! See what I care!”
“Shut up, you crazy bitch!”
She laughs. Crazy? She’s crazy? Maybe she is. Maybe none of this is real. It’s all a dream. A nightmare. Or maybe she did die, but this is the afterlife. Her own personal hell, cooked up just for her.
She lies down on the floor, cheek to cold stone. What’s the point? If she can’t kill, how can she serve her Lord? Even Siri is stronger than her now, and he never killed anyone. She can’t even kill a kid. Can’t kill a rat. Can’t even find her Lord. Quirrell found him. Wormtail found him, when she didn’t.
The food appears. Next to her head. She ignores it.
Soon the rat arrives.
Ratty. She watches him cautiously approach. He even steps on her. She’s so cold and still she must seem dead anyway. A rat. Walking all over her.
She watches him eat her bread. Then clean his paws. Wash his face. “Happy?” she whispers.
He freezes. Twitches.
Scurries back into the wall.
She chuckles. Reaches for what’s left of the bread. Fine. If a rat can do it, can live here, can survive here…
She chews on the bread. Then wets her hands in a puddle and wipes her face. Wakes herself up.
Come on. Don’t quit. Do you quit? No. Never.
She walks over to the bars. “Hey, Siri! You there? You eating?”
“Fuck off!”
She sighs. Time to try again…
Chapter 30: Talk Things Through
Notes:
Hi folks,
I'm back! Probably later in the night/day than you expected. And here with another heads up for references to suicide and self harm.
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“So I kept trying,” Bellatrix continues steadily. “It was my only hope. The only way out. But I was back in my cell, and—”
Hermione lays a hand on her arm. “Can we pause for a second?” she whispers. Moves her hand away. Shifts away.
Sits very still. Stares at nothing as it really sinks in that…
Bellatrix is different because of Harry’s rules. She has to follow the rules. Isn’t allowed to kill. So— so—
Hermione rubs at her chest. Glances at Ratty. At the tea and biscuits on the table.
Learning from the tale of the Three Brothers. Bellatrix can’t kill or be selfish, has to show love, and…has to hide? Or teach the next generation to hide? To escape Death? Is that what the cloak is?
She has to. She’s being nice because she has to. All of her redeeming qualities. All of her thoughtfulness. All of her caring. She isn’t doing it because she wants to. She’s doing it so she doesn’t go back. Doesn’t get sent back.
Oh.
“Please don’t. I won’t tell anyone about you. Please don’t tell anyone about me. I…really don’t want to go back, if I can help it.”
Sent back to Azkaban. Back to past Azkaban.
Hermione stands up, brushing some crumbs off her lap. “I’m going to go look through the rucksack. See what else we have. You should find out about our cover story. Look around for clues Dumbledore might have left,” she says quickly. Roughly. Not looking. Says anything. Anything to get out of the living room and—
The doorbell rings.
Bellatrix jumps to her feet with a yelp, wand drawn. “What the fuck is that?”
Wand. They need to hide their wands.
Hermione puts her wand in the nearest drawer. “It’s someone at the door. Maybe the landlady. That’s a doorbell. I thought you knew what— Here. Wand, please, Elizabeth.”
Bellatrix hands her wand over straight away, already running to answer the door. Fear immediately gone.
Running to a muggle.
But it’s fine, because Bellatrix can’t hurt anyone. Can’t kill anyone or anything. Not anymore. Not even an insect.
Or a dragon. No wonder she was stuck with that task. She couldn’t harm the dragon. Couldn't use her 'power'.
And did steal Harry’s idea. Did she know that from before? Like Hermione did?
Sally. You’re Sally now.
And voices come from the door.
“…settling in okay?”
Hermione jogs over, squeezing past the hoover still left in the middle of the hallway.
“Everything’s great, thanks,” Bellatrix says. “We must have missed you when we arrived. Most of our stuff was already here early so— And who’s this?”
And Bellatrix suddenly sounds very babyish. Excited. Crouches down.
Hermione reaches her—
Almost trips over her as Bellatrix falls backwards, an equally excited chocolate Labrador on top of her, snuffling at her face.
The lady in the doorway laughs, trying to pull back on the dog lead. “That’s Puddles. Or Puds for short. Puds, leave the poor woman alone! You’re all muddy! You’re getting mud all over her. It’s where he gets the name, you see. Every single puddle. Oh! Sorry. You must be…?”
Hermione ignores the wet, squirming chaos at her feet. Holds out her hand. “I’m Sally. Joyce, is it? I hope we didn’t arrive too unexpectedly.”
It must be Joyce. And she actually feels so familiar. Reminds Hermione of…her Grandma Jean, maybe? Both her grandmothers passed away when she was still in primary school, but there’s something that reminds her so much of…except taller. Joyce is a lot taller than Grandma Jean. And a lot more stylish. Lipstick matching nails matching bag.
But kind. She seems kind. Her eyes are warm as she shakes her hand. Firm grip.
“No, Brian did say in his letter that you’d be moving in today. It’s lovely to finally have some tenants! Of course he always paid the rent and kept the place clean whilst he was away, but it’s nicer knowing there’s someone downstairs to keep an eye on things.”
Brian. Brian White.
She’s starting to see why Dumbledore isn’t a Slytherin.
Bellatrix gets up, wiping her top down even though it’s just making it worse. Muddy paw prints everywhere. “Is it not very safe around here then? You don’t feel safe alone? Problems with crime or—”
“Oh, no!” Joyce hastily cuts in. “A small town like this? No, nothing to worry about. You girls will be fine. I know almost everyone around here anyway, so if you have any trouble with— which you won’t. What am I saying? Puddles is the biggest mischief maker around here.”
Wherever here is.
Hermione has a little look around, poking her head out the door as subtly as she can. It seems like…this is a detached house that’s been split into two flats. And they’re definitely in the countryside, not a city. Joyce is wearing wellies. And the road is gravelly mud rather than tarmac.
“He’s a little rascal,” Bellatrix says, grinning down at Puddles and scratching his head. “Look what you did to my top. I only just got changed. I’m going to have to clean— wash— oh shit. Do we have a…washing…cleaning…drying…”
She turns her head to give Hermione a subtle ‘help me’ look.
“I saw the washing machine in the kitchen,” Hermione jumps in. “Is there a clothesline out here, Joyce?”
Joyce shakes her head. “Out the back. You’ve got the garden out the back. We share it, but if you’d like we can say that you have the left side, and I’ll have the right? My vegetable garden is on the right. It’s not much though. I try my hardest, but I’ve never been very green thumbed. Just thought I’d give it a go. Of course there’s nothing at the moment, much too cold.”
Bellatrix eyebrows shoot up. “It’s cold!” she blurts out, as if she just realised. “Would you like to come in? You can come in. We were just having some tea. Or coffee? You must be freezing. And Puddles.”
Sharing her warmth. Her power…
But also being nice. She is being thoughtful.
Argh this is such an…ethical…moral…it’s a load of bollocks, is what it is! Merlin's balls, this is all—
Forced to learn to be thoughtful. To show love and caring. Is that it?
But Bellatrix is caring for people. Does it matter why? She’s changed. It’s not just caring. She’s talking to a muggle. Pretending to be a muggle. She never would have done that before.
And she seems so genuine. Happy. Ran for the door.
She did say that she liked figuring people out. Their strengths and weaknesses. So she can help them.
Because she has to.
But also…had seemed like she was changing. In Azkaban. In the story. She did care about Ratty. And Sirius. She was relieved to see Sirius. Chose to talk to him. Chose him as one of her things to ‘love’ and ‘share’ with, even though he couldn’t help her escape.
And shared with Hermione. She’s telling Hermione everything. Just because she asked. Because she’s upset. Bellatrix didn’t have to—
Hermione jumps back to reality at a tap on her shoulder.
Oh.
Bellatrix looks at her apologetically. “Sally? Do you want tea too, or are you still…tired?”
Hermione sighs. Rubs at her eyes. “I’m tired. I’m sorry, I—”
She moves the hoover back into the cupboard. “Sorry to be so rude, Joyce, but it’s been a busy Christmas and— and I didn’t get much sleep…”
Last night. How can it only be last night that she— that Bellatrix— that they—
“Oh you poor thing,” Joyce whispers. “I’ll leave you to it. I did want to tell you a couple of things about…but it’s alright. I can come back later. You won’t want Puddles in here on the carpet anyway.”
“How about I come up to yours?” Bellatrix asks gently. “I’m sure Sally wants a break from me too. A bit of peace and quiet. I’ll just grab my keys, Brian said they were…aha. Gotcha.”
The jangle of keys. Hermione just nods absentmindedly, already turning away. That’s exactly what she wants. No more Bellatrix, please. Just for a moment. As selfish as that is. Probably not very sensible.
She heads towards the bedroom she was in earlier.
“...her get some rest,” comes Joyce’s voice. “The door can stick a bit. You have to lift— Yes, exactly. Gosh, you’ve got some hidden muscles, don’t you? Maybe Puds won’t drag you everywhere. How do you and Sally know each other, if you don’t mind me asking?”
Then the door slams. A key in a lock. A muffled laugh through the wall.
“We don’t, really,” Bellatrix’s voice filters through. “We’ve known each other for a few months, but not properly. Just through friends. I’m sure we’ll get to know each other a lot better now that we’re flatmates.”
Hermione laughs too at that. Lies down on her bed and laughs. Flatmates. Her new flatmate. Elizabeth Fluke.
Bellatrix Lestrange. Black. Did she somehow get divorced in prison? She doesn’t quite understand that part. Or…a lot of the parts, actually.
She rolls over onto her stomach. Buries her face in her pillow with a groan. Did Harry do this? All this…craziness? Can she blame Harry for this? Or Dumbledore?
Or herself. She should probably blame herself. She was stupid enough to get herself involved with Bellatrix. She did all this. Planned this. Bellatrix is right about that, Hermione did stalk her. Talk to her. Go looking for her.
Stupid. Brightest witches of their ages? Yeah right.
And now she has lipstick on her pillow. She forgot she was wearing makeup. This is why she doesn’t wear makeup.
Something else for the wash. She’s definitely going to make Bellatrix do the washing. Show her how. Teach her—
Teach—
She gets up again. To wipe the makeup off her face. And see if her door locks.
And then go to sleep. She really might just go to sleep. Whatever the time is.
She reaches for her wand to cast a tempus—
No wand. No magic.
Right. Bed. Definitely bed.
“Herm— Sally!” comes a panicked shout. “Sally, are you awake? Can you help me— no!”
Hermione bolts up in bed. Where is she? What is— why is— her wand is—
Oh right. New bedroom. New house.
A lot of banging and crashing outside the bedroom door. What the hell?
She hurries out into the hallway—
And a rat runs up her leg.
“Grab him!” Bellatrix shouts from somewhere near the kitchen. “Or just open the door for me before— ow! Fucking— stop it!”
Ratty is too fast. Runs away. And Hermione heads into the kitchen and whatever is…oh.
A cat. A black and white cat that is fighting its way out of Bellatrix’s arms with all it’s got.
Hermione runs to open the back door. It’s dark outside. “Where did the cat come from? Why— No more animals, Bell— Beth. Elizabeth. Is Joyce here?”
Bellatrix shakes her head, practically throwing the cat outside. Not in a mean way. Mostly because the cat was wriggling everywhere. “Shut it, shut it quick before it—”
And Bellatrix slams the door shut. Leans against it. Sighs in relief. And winces as she touches a scratch on her face. “Is Ratty okay?” she asks breathlessly.
Hermione sighs too. Wakes up. Let’s her brain wake up and remember… “He ran into my room, I think. Didn’t look hurt. Just scared. Which makes sense. Don’t you know that cats and rats don’t get on?”
Bellatrix snorts. Goes and gets a couple of glasses from a cupboard. “I know that. I was just feeding the cat because it came and miaowed at the door. I didn’t mean for it to get in. It was hungry. Thought Ratty was on the menu.”
Feeding random cats. Of course.
Hermione can’t help smiling at that. Sits down at the small kitchen table. “Well maybe we should say no feeding cats near the door from now on. What…are you okay?”
Bellatrix is touching the scratch again. There’s one on her cheek. And a few on her hands.
Bellatrix passes her a glass of water. “Just a scratch. You know I— well, it’s nothing. Are you hungry? It’s late. I thought about waking you up for dinner, but I didn’t know what our…boundaries are.”
Hermione doesn’t reply. Just looks at Bellatrix. Tries to…work this out. She needs to work this out.
Bellatrix brings her hand up to her face again. “What? It’s not bleeding, is it? I didn’t see any essence of dittany in the bathroom. Do muggles not…it’s a plant, right? Medicine? Muggles have medicine.”
“Not essence of dittany,” Hermione explains calmly. Stands up. She’s decided…
She walks over to the fridge. “I am hungry. I’ll have some of Molly’s leftovers. I’m guessing that’s what you had? What did you decide to eat?”
“Cold chicken. In a sandwich,” Bellatrix says from behind her. “I didn’t want to use the oven or the hob on my own. It’s not the same as Andy’s.”
Right. Okay. “I’ll show you tomorrow,” Hermione says quietly. “And there might be a first aid kit somewhere. A box where muggles keep medicine. There might be some antiseptic wipes. Did…so you lived with Andy? At some point? Or went to her house?”
Bellatrix doesn’t reply.
Hermione finds a chopping board. And a knife. And a plate. Wants to push for more details, but doesn’t. Just waits.
“Are we okay?” Bellatrix slowly asks.
Hermione chuckles to herself. “After one day? No. No, it’s…but I think…”
She turns around. Leans back against the counter. Nods firmly. “We don’t know each other.”
Bellatrix groans. Slumps down in her chair, almost slipping off. “Not this again. I told you. I didn’t lie. I didn’t—”
“What’s my favourite colour?” Hermione asks, a smile to her lip. Doesn’t wait for a reply. “What music do I listen to? Where did I grow up?”
She turns back around. Goes back to the fridge for more things. Gets the bread from the cupboard. “What’s my favourite food? Or drink? What did I want for Christmas?”
Gentle laughter from behind her. “A book? And you like tea. And orange juice. And…blue? Is your favourite colour blue?”
“That’s not the point!” Hermione huffs. “The point is—”
“I see your point,” Bellatrix says. “Guess we did skip from dragons and graveyards to kissing and fucking without—”
Hermione spins around, gesturing with the knife exasperatedly. “Bella!”
Bellatrix raises her hands in surrender, smiling. “Want to know my favourite colour?”
Her favourite—
Hermione raises her eyebrows. “Black?”
Bellatrix leans on the table sulkily. “Not fair. That was too easy.”
Hmm. And… “And you like dancing,” Hermione says smugly. “Piano. You like the piano. Piano music. You like sweet food. Chocolate. Sweets. Biscuits. But also chicken and—”
“You like cats. You have a cat. A big ginger fluffy one.”
Oh.
Crookshanks. He’s been at Hogwarts for the whole Christmas Holiday. By himself. By…
Hermione takes her sandwich over to the table. “What happened to all your creatures? The…pixies, and hinkypunks and…spiders. Doxies. All of them.”
“They’re at Grimmauld,” Bellatrix replies, pulling at a stray thread on her sleeve. She’s wearing the same top. Faint signs of mud still there. “I told Kreacher to look after them. Don’t know how good he’ll be at it. Guess if they die we’ll know, because I’ll disappear off to Azkaban.”
Hermione pauses, about to take a bite of the sandwich. “That’s how it works? That can’t be how it works. You can’t be responsible for every creature you come across. Is that what happened with the cat? I don’t think it literally means—”
“Would you risk it?” Bellatrix says, eyes darting up. Fixing on hers. “Would you swear on it? Bet your life on it? Do you know that I don’t have to? Why is the life of a cat any different to the life of a rat? Or a spider? Or a person? Do you know? And besides, why not, if I can? I always have enough food. What’s one less bite to eat? There’s always enough for one more creature. One more person. Enough to stave off the hunger at least. It’s…not nice. Being hungry. Or thirsty.”
And the focus in her eyes disappears. Dims. Fades away, hands stroking over the tabletop. Then under.
Bellatrix stands up. “Your room? Ratty’s in your room?” she asks distantly.
Hermione clears her throat. “I think so...”
Bellatrix nods. Walks away.
Then pauses. “Am I allowed? In your room? Just to— I’ll try not to move anything. I can accio— oh wait. Can’t. No magic. No…”
She drifts off. Hugs herself around the waist. Brings a hand up to her hair.
Reaches the ends too soon, hand falling down to her side. Empty.
Oh. This…
Hermione isn’t the only one who lost a lot today. Lost herself. Who doesn’t know anything. Who…
She can’t even imagine it. One wrong move…and back to Azkaban. Just for a mistake. One mistake. And rules that are so hard to follow. So contradictory. Hide. But help. Give yourself. Don’t take. Be selfless. Don’t be cocky. But teach. Pass your wisdom down.
And now Bellatrix is in a muggle house. That she doesn’t quite understand. In muddy clothes. With no magic. Even her hair gone. Her eyes. Her name.
Feeding a cat, because it came to the door hungry.
Hermione stands up. Walks over. Bellatrix is still stood there. Waiting.
Hermione gently takes her hand from behind. “You can hug me…if you want? If…I think…no pushing it, but we’ve been friends over these past few months, right? You’ve had a hard day, Bella. I’m still— we need to figure this out, but I think right now…somebody needs to share their warmth with you.”
It just…feels like the right thing to do. Even if it’s stupid. And terrifying. And Bellatrix. It’s still…yes. If this is all about morals, and doing the right thing, then this is the right thing.
Bellatrix slowly turns. Hermione feels her throat dry up. Her palms begin to sweat. Pulse quicken.
Bellatrix searches her face. Eyebrows pinched in confusion. “You…but I hurt you.”
Hermione closes her eyes. Fights a shudder. “And the cat hurt you. It didn’t stop you though, did it? You’re already thinking about feeding it again.”
There’s a long pause. Hermione considers opening her eyes. Considers backing away.
Doesn’t. She’s Hermione Granger. She doesn’t back away from doing the right thing. Even if it’s Gryffindorishly stupid. Not if she has the logic to back her up.
She feels Bellatrix move closer. “Always pushing your luck, Granger.”
And then arms go around her.
Hermione takes a breath.
Then hugs her back. Holds her. Firmly. “You push it too,” Hermione mutters. “How was it upstairs with Joyce? Anything too…difficult? Or scary?”
Bellatrix leans into her, head on her shoulder. “There were…a few things she said that I didn’t understand. But I wrote it down for you. And talked my way out of it. I’m good at avoiding…uhh…”
Hermione shakes her head. Ignores it for now. Strokes Bellatrix’s arms and shoulders, holding her close. “And…did she ask what we do? For a living? Or how we know Mr White?”
She feels Bellatrix nod. And rock slightly. Sway. She might not even know she’s doing it. “I said Brian was my great-uncle. And that I’ve been living in France, but that he found somewhere for me to live here in the UK. He has lots of money and no children to spend it on. A very generous uncle. I knew about the spare room, and you were looking, so I offered. I said we both work from home doing research. I didn't say what topic. Changed the subject. But I thought we might need a reason for not going to work every day.”
A good cover story. Ish. Research? They'll have to make sure it's a field no-one knows anything about. And what about books? They might have to find a library. But that will invite even more questions. Muggle questions, that will be hard for Bellatrix.
“France?” Hermione asks instead, changing the topic. No muggle problems for now. “Are you French for this cover?”
Bellatrix laughs. “No. I just didn’t want her asking lots of specific questions about where I used to live, or being suspicious if I didn’t know a muggle reference she made. And I speak French. The Lestranges are French. The Rosiers. The Malfoys, originally. We all speak French. Me, Andy, Cissy, Siri. It was part of our education.”
Like the Latin. And the dancing. Music. “You must have been clever children to learn all that,” Hermione says. “I learnt French at primary school, but we only got as far as animals and food. Colours. I tried saying a few things to Fleur, but she kept laughing at me and wouldn’t explain why.”
So frustrating. She can’t have been saying it that wrong. Fleur must have been deliberately teasing her.
“I could teach you?” Bellatrix whispers in her ear.
Hermione shivers. Breath hitching.
Shit.
And the hug becomes awkward. Frozen limbs.
Bellatrix laughs again, arms loosening. “Sorry. We’ve really fucked ourselves by making teaching sexual. Oh shit, I said it again. It— I meant—”
Hermione laughs in defeat. Pulls back. “Want to just watch some tv?”
Bellatrix’s head whips around. “There’s a tv? A television? Where? Oh!”
She runs over to the corner of the room. Looks around. Probably for the remote.
Hermione goes to get her forgotten sandwich and then joins her. Another thing to add to the list of ‘getting to know Bellatrix’. She likes tv.
It comes on. Loudly. Bellatrix turns the volume down. Changes the channel.
She does know this. Weird. It’s really weird.
Bellatrix sits on the floor. “Maybe we should watch the news. People might talk to us about it, if something important happens.”
And they’re back on BBC One. It is the news. Nine o’clock news.
“…Fred West, the Gloucester builder accused of twelve murders, has been found hanged in his cell at Winston Green Jail in Birmingham. He’d been in custody since February last year, awaiting trial for the so-called ‘House of Horrors’ case…”
Hermione flinches. Bellatrix fumbles the remote. “Maybe not! Maybe— is this you, Potter? Still fucking with me? Merlin’s balls. What— I don’t—”
Bellatrix throws the remote at an armchair. The tv goes off.
Silence. Hammering heartbeats.
Bellatrix rests her head in her hands. “Sorry. I don’t…” She takes a few deep breaths. Face hidden. “I’m tired,” Bellatrix eventually whispers. “I’m so tired. This is so…I don’t know…”
“You should get some sleep,” Hermione whispers back.
“I’m not sure I can,” comes a mumbled reply. “I’ve fucked up, Granger. So much. So…this is too hard. I can’t— everything is— the options are— I’m trying.”
Trying. She really is. If there’s one thing Hermione is sure of, it’s that Bellatrix is trying. It’s impressive, really. How strong she is. How resilient. Bounces back, again and again. So many decisions to make. Things to question. Hard choices.
But for now…
“Go and get changed into some pyjamas,” Hermione says. “You can go into my room and get the rucksack. Any clothes you want. And the toothbrush Molly packed. See if you can find Ratty, and then come back here. With your bedding. You can sleep here on the sofa, if it’s easier. No walls. No darkness. I’ll sit with you. I’m not tired.”
Bellatrix’s head comes up. She rubs at her face. “Why? Why…you know the rules are just for me, right? You don’t have to do all that. You don’t want to be near me. We don’t have to—”
“Do you want to be alone right now?” Hermione asks calmly. Already knows the answer. Waits for her to shake her head.
And swallows a bite of her sandwich. “Then go get ready for bed, and come back. Bring the rucksack. Harry or Ginny might have packed me some books to read.”
She doesn’t look up. Hears Bellatrix leave.
And return. A few minutes have passed. Sandwich eaten. Plate washed.
Bellatrix doesn’t say anything. Just puts the rucksack down next to Hermione, and curls up on the sofa. Looking very small. Wrapped in the patterned bedding. Hidden away. Eyes squeezed shut.
Hermione turns a lamp on in the corner. Walks around to all the other lights, turning them off. Checks the doors are locked. The windows.
Sits back down next to Bellatrix’s feet. Sighs to herself.
The right thing…
Is this what you wanted her to learn, Harry?
Because this just seems…cruel.
“I thought maybe you had to follow the rules too,” Bellatrix suddenly whispers. “That Potter sent you to help me.”
Hmm?
Hermione adjusts slightly on the sofa. Shares some of Bellatrix’s duvet. Just the end corner. To lean her book on.
The muggle book she found on a shelf and isn’t reading. Staring into space.
“Can you remember?” Bellatrix continues, voice murmuring into the room. “When we first spoke…you were telling me the school rules. Rules. You said…This isn’t how punishments work here. You said, That’s how everyone deserves to be treated. Talking calmly. Violence isn’t the answer. I thought maybe it was a sign. That you were a sign. Sent by Potter.”
Oh. Hermione said that? When did… “I said that because you turned Draco into a ferret,” Hermione replies, holding back a laugh.
Bellatrix peeks out at her. Eyes and forehead visible. Some hair. “I was teaching him not to be like me. Not to be cocky. He made fun of Molly. Attacked Harry. Sent a hex that missed. I needed to teach him a memorable lesson. I didn’t hurt him. Not really. And I knew Barty had turned him into a ferret anyway, last time. So it would be in character too. Hiding as Moody.”
Three rules at once. That’s how she did it. Don’t be selfish or power hungry, help your loved ones, hide, teach the next generation.
Hermione slowly smiles. “I can see why you’re the Brightest Witch of Your Age. You’re good at this. Balancing all these rules. I don’t think you need me to help you with that.”
Bellatrix smiles back. Kicks the bedding further over Hermione. And leaves her feet in her lap. “Hmm. Maybe you’re just here to keep me warm then.”
Hermione rolls her eyes. Looks back at her book. “You’re pushing those boundaries again.”
Bellatrix chuckles. Stretches. Then moves her feet away. “I know. Night, Granger.”
Goodnight.
She’s lying on a hard floor. And it’s dark. So dark that Hermione can’t see. Can only feel.
Something is weighing her down. And she can’t move her arms. They’re heavy. So heavy. Why are they heavy?
Something crawls over her. A rat. Runs over her. All the way up her leg. Over her face. She tries to twitch away. Tries to—
“What is she doing here, Bella?” a cold voice tuts. “I thought I told you to get rid of the mudblood?”
And now she can see. A heel. A sharp heel stepping on her arm. Ow. Ow, stop. Stop. Why is—
She needs her wand. Where’s her wand? And her clothes. Is she wearing—
She’s covered in mud. In dirt. Earth. A pile of earth. And more falling on her.
“Help!” Hermione shouts. “Someone help! I can’t move! I can’t—”
She holds her breath as more dirt is thrown in her face. What is— it’s a dog. A brown Labrador, kicking dirt over her. Or a black dog. Is it Sirius?
“Stop!” Hermione tries to tell him. But no sound comes out. She— where—
Relashio! Something’s holding her down. Evanesco! She needs to vanish all of this— all of this—
Mrs Weasley folds her arms at her. “Now none of that. You can’t come inside the house. You’re both too filthy.”
Oh. Right. There’s mud all over her clothes. And in her hair. And all over Bellatrix too. They should have had a bath before they came to the Burrow. Why didn’t they?
Bellatrix grins at Hermione. Takes her hand. “Never mind. Who cares about a bit of mud? We can just go somewhere else. Where do you want to go next?”
Mrs Weasley raises her wand. “You’re not going anywhere. I know what you’ve both been up to. How dare you! You’re a disgrace. Now get away from Hermione, she’s already late for dinner.”
Bellatrix just holds on tighter. Frowns. “No. I’m not leaving her. She wants to stay here with me, right?”
Hermione nods. She is supposed to be with Bellatrix. And they can’t go inside anyway with all the mud. Plus Crookshanks will try to eat Ratty if they’re not careful.
Dumbledore steps towards them, coming out of the doorway. “Then it seems I have no choice. I’m afraid Miss Black is going to have to return to Azkaban. Miss Tonks! Alastor! She’s ready to go!”
What? No!
Tonks knocks past Hermione. “Bloody aunts, ruining everything. Come on, Mad-Eye. Let’s get her.”
Hermione tries to pull Bellatrix away, feet stuck to the floor. “Bella! You can’t go back! We have to run! Or hide. Where’s your cloak? Or your wand? I can’t find my wand.”
Bellatrix just smiles. “It’s okay. I won’t hurt them. I won’t hurt anyone, I promise.”
No! No, she doesn’t understand! She needs to get away! She needs to fight! She didn’t do anything!
Ginny takes Bellatrix’s handkerchief. Turns it into a pair of handcuffs and locks them behind Bellatrix’s back. Or tries.
“There’s a trick to it,” Tonks explains. “It gets stuck. You have to lift it.”
“Or we could just kill her?” Harry says. “That’ll send her back. Mrs Weasley? Could you kill her?”
“I’ll do it,” Bellatrix says. Pulls out a knife. “I’m good at it. Here, Granger.”
And she hands the knife to Hermione.
Hermione has to do it? No! She— she doesn’t want to kill Bellatrix! Why—
Bellatrix smiles at her. Brushes some hair out of her eyes and kisses her cheek. “Go on. It’s okay. I trust you.”
No!
Tears fall down Hermione’s cheeks. “I don’t— I don’t want to kill you. I can’t! I can’t do it!”
Bellatrix rolls her eyes. “Yes you can. You’re smart. You can do anything. You have to kill me, remember? For the ritual. To save Harry. You said you would.”
She did?
She shakes her head. Drops the knife. Hugs Bellatrix instead. “I can’t! I can’t do it! I can’t hurt you. I’m sorry!”
“You can’t hurt me? I hurt you.”
But— but that’s different! It was…it isn’t…she can’t choose! She can’t choose between Harry and Bellatrix. She can’t. She doesn’t want to. She—
“Hermione?”
Hermione wakes up with a gasp, heart thundering. Where is she? What is— oh that was horrible.
She rubs at her face. Wet cheeks. Oh…
It’s still dark. She’s still in the living room. The lamp is still lit.
Bellatrix is stood in the kitchen, staring at her. Pyjamas. Short hair. She forgot about that. What…
“Nightmare,” Hermione croaks out. “Did I wake you up? What time is— what are you doing?” she mumbles.
Bellatrix cautiously comes closer. Alive. And free. Thank Merlin. “It…uhh…you were crying. I wanted to wake you up, but I thought— I’d make it worse. So I…do you want some water?”
Oh. So she moved away because—
Sweet. She’s so sweet. And thoughtful. She is. All the time.
Hermione nods. “Yes please. And can— can you come back? It— the nightmare. It was— it’s not what you think. I—” she laughs. “It didn’t make sense. I’m crying because you told me to kill you.”
Bellatrix turns from filling the glasses. Barks out a laugh as she comes over. “What? Kill me?”
Hermione nods again. Tries to fight the horrible twist in her stomach. “It…I think Dumbledore was angry at you. Or maybe Molly. They tried to send you back to Azkaban but…it was horrible. They were going to take you away. I couldn’t stop them. And then…well it was a dream, so…but you handed me the knife. Said I had to kill you to protect Harry.”
Bellatrix sits down next to her. Hands her a glass and pulls the bedding over both of them. Her hair is stuck up everywhere, even without the curls. Bedhead. “Well I hope you’re not a seer,” Bellatrix jokes. “I think in my dream I was…walking Siri on a lead. But he kept pulling me everywhere, through all these gardens and houses. Everyone kept screaming at me and running away.”
“He was in my dream too!” Hermione says. “He almost buried me in all this mud. And Narcissa was there. She stepped on me.”
Bellatrix snorts. “Sounds like Cissy. I’m sorry about her, by the way. I’ve tried to talk to her about muggles, but she’s just too stubborn. Too proud. She knows she’s wrong. But that would mean admitting what a complete bitch she’s been her whole life. She’s still in denial. Which is stupid seeing as she can literally read your thoughts.”
Hermione relaxes back. Curls into the sofa. Leans her shoulder against Bellatrix’s just to…feel her. To chase the nightmare away. “So she’s a master legilimens?”
Bellatrix shifts too. Gets more comfortable. “She taught herself. She’s not a natural legilimens, but she’s always been obsessed with knowing what other people are thinking. She tried to get me to practice it too, but I didn’t care about that. Other people’s thoughts. It was when she was pregnant with Draco that she first managed it. Legilimency without a wand. She’s quite good at it by now…well, sort of.”
Hermione turns to face her. “What do you mean sort of? Wandless legilimency. That’s impressive.”
Bellatrix grins. “Yeah, she can see it all. But it doesn’t mean she understands. I mean, take Draco. Do you think her view of him is objective? If she saw the memory of him arguing with Ron, would she see it? See Draco being childish and petty? No. She’d see a confident leader reminding a lower class of their place.”
Oh. Yes, that does make sense. Although… “I don’t think Draco was being petty,” Hermione thinks aloud. “He…knew we knew about Narcissa. So he threatened Ron’s mum. As a hint. Or to get information. Maybe he thought we’d give something away. He was trying to find out who obliviated her, before he realised it was you.”
Bellatrix closes her eyes with a sigh. “See? That’s why I need you. Can’t even figure out my own nephew.”
“Why did you obliviate Narcissa?” Hermione whispers. “Why did you cast the Dark Mark? Or put Harry’s name in the Goblet?”
Bellatrix slides to lie back down. Kind of just tips sideways. Groans. “Because I didn’t know what to do. Everything was pointless. And all I knew was that Barty was supposed to be there for Riddle, but he wasn’t. He was dead. And I was out. So I thought the best thing to do…would be to stick to the original timeline. Carry on with whatever was supposed to happen. And just…hope it would end. I thought it might. If I made it past the end of the war. Past my own death. That’s all I’m doing, Granger. I’m no hero. I’m just trying to survive.”
Oh. Not on the side of the Light. Or on Voldemort’s side. Just on her own side.
Hermione drinks the rest of the water. Rolls her shoulders back. She’s achy. Must have fallen asleep sitting up. “I have no idea why I’m here,” Hermione says. Muses. It just slips out. “I…travelled back in time. For no reason.” She laughs to herself. “I mean, what the hell? Who does that? I didn’t— I already won the war.”
Bellatrix snorts. Rolls onto her back. “Yeah, I guessed that from the fact that you’ve made it to twenty-five. Alive and well and having dinner with your friends. But you haven’t told me, by the way. Have you realised? I’m guessing the Dark Lord died somehow?”
Oh!
Hermione jolts to sit up straight, mouth falling open in amazement as she stares at Bellatrix. “You don’t know! You died before he did!”
Bellatrix sits up. Hugs her knees. “How did you get all the horcruxes? How did you find them? And what happened to Cissy and Draco afterwards? Or Andy?”
Hermione opens her mouth. Then pauses. A twinge of anxiety. “Should…I really tell you?” Hermione slowly asks. “It’s…time travel.”
Bellatrix takes a slow breath. Lies back down. “Well you don’t have to. I can guess that…Potter gets the wand. So he must have killed the Dark Lord. All of the horcruxes must have been destroyed. And…I hope Cissy survived. And Draco. Even Lucius. And that— he doesn’t deserve Azkaban. Draco. He was just a stupid kid.”
Killed Voldemort? To get the wand?
Oh. But Harry didn’t. It was because of Snape. Because of love.
Is that a clue? Could that mean something?
“The wand didn’t belong to Snape,” Hermione whispers. “It belonged to Draco. Because he disarmed Dumbledore. And then at— at the Manor, Harry disarmed Draco. Snape was never the master. Draco was. And then Harry. So in the end, he didn’t have to kill Voldemort. Riddle killed himself. The killing curse rebounded on him. His own search for power, his own destruction…killed him. Harry cast an expelliarmus. That’s all it took.”
Bellatrix gasps. “It— he— oh. The Eldest Brother…wanted power…and Death came for him. But Potter— Harry—”
“He didn’t want it,” Hermione nods. “He even gave Riddle the chance to surrender. To be remorseful. To end the fight.”
No killing. That’s how Harry won. And he hid. Until the right time. He was a leader. He taught others. And he loved people. Loved and lost. Again and again. But carried on.
Another shaky gasp from Bellatrix. “Remorse?” she croaks.
Then there’s a choked breath. A sob. A quiet…
“But I am sorry,” Bellatrix whispers. “I am. I didn’t— I was—”
She breaks off.
Shit. Remorse? Umm…
Hermione waits. Doesn’t know…what to do. Or say. Should she say something?
“I deserved to die,” Bellatrix murmurs darkly, still curled on the sofa. Nods. “I should have just died. I never should have come back. I didn’t— Why didn’t Siri get another chance? Or— or his friends? The Potters were— I remember Lily Evans. She was nice. She was kind. And Lupin is…And— and Frank Longbottom. I— I— He— he—”
Bellatrix sits up. Runs her hands through her hair. Quite violently. Tugging. “I should have gone back further,” she groans. “Back to the First War— Or I shouldn’t have been born. That would have been better, right?”
Her eyes are darting rapidly now. Breathing heavy. “All of the people…all of the…Tonks. I killed Tonks.” Tears gather. “Why?” she croaks, voice wavering. “Why did I ever— I didn’t even know her. I didn’t even think of her as— as— and you!”
And Bellatrix laughs. Harshly. Almost cackles. Tears dripping from her lashes. No no. Don’t— don’t—
“How is that the right thing? Now you’re stuck with me,” Bellatrix laughs. Sniffs. “You got away. You survived. After everything I— you’re right. You shouldn’t be here. It’s fucked up. You don’t deserve this. You—” She stands up jerkily. “I’m sorry. I’ll go. I’ll leave you alone. I’ll just— sorry.”
And Bellatrix is running away. To her bedroom. Hermione watches her go. Hears the door slam.
Sits frozen in place.
Next to a rat. A rat that cleans its face and then just looks at her, nose twitching.
Crap.
Crap crap crap.
Shit.
She won’t…hurt herself? Will she? Send herself back?
Oh Hermione really hopes she isn’t a seer. The dream—
She sprints to Bellatrix’s door. Knocks on it. “Let me in. Now. Please. Please, I— Remember my dream? I was crying because I didn’t want you to— to get hurt.”
No answer.
Hermione tries the handle. It opens. No locks. No magic. Okay. Okay—
Just lying on a bed in the dark. No bedding. It’s still in the living room.
Hermione walks over. “Bella?”
“Go away,” Bellatrix mumbles wetly. “Boundaries.”
Oh thank Godric.
Hermione falls to sit on the bed. “Sorry. Can’t do that. Not after you said…I’m worried. About some of the things you said. I want—you’re my friend, Bella. I care about you.”
Another sniff. She still can’t see Bellatrix’s face. She’s on her stomach, hugging a pillow.
“Ginny gave you a handkerchief, remember?” Hermione whispers.
Bellatrix reaches into her sleeve. Pulls it out. Hermione hadn’t realised she’d kept it on her.
“I’m sorry,” Bellatrix says. Again.
Hermione lies down next to her. Makes sure the scar is hidden under her sleeve “I know. Don’t…don’t think about all that. It’s late. We have another day tomorrow. Both of us. Day two for Sally and Elizabeth.”
Bellatrix rolls onto her side. The tears have stopped. There’s an embarrassed smile now.
And a hand reaching out. Touching Hermione’s hair. “Sorry you’re stuck with such a crazy flatmate, Sally. I’ll try to get a hang of things a bit better tomorrow.”
Hermione smiles back. Allows the touching. Shuffles closer. “I’m just glad you’re okay. It’s— It must be so hard doing this alone. I’m glad I have you with me.”
“Same,” Bellatrix sighs. “And I wasn’t— You don’t have to worry about me. I never quit. You know that. I just…have a tantrum and then carry on.”
Hermione raises an eyebrow. “A tantrum? That sounded more serious than a tantrum.”
Bellatrix closes her eyes. Shuffles even closer. Shares her pillow. “I regret who I was, and what I did. I think that person should have died. For a while it felt like she did. But…without her, I never would have become me. And I— I think I’m doing alright now, aren’t I? Doing better? Being better? Ratty seems to like me. And Siri.”
Hermione closes her eyes too. Strokes Bellatrix’s hair. Tucks it behind her ear. “And Ginny. And Harry. And Ron. And Molly. And…me. Don’t forget me. I still like you. Even— you make me laugh. And smile. You listen. You understand me. Sometimes we understand each other without talking, don’t we? And…I liked dancing with you. And…well there are more things I liked, but it’s probably a bit dangerous to talk about that right now.”
So close. In bed. In—
Bellatrix tuts. “Keep it in your pants, Granger. I’m trying to sleep.”
Wha— she—
Hermione opens her eyes. Bellatrix is grinning. Eyes still closed but grinning.
Hermione huffs out a laugh. Closes her eyes again. “Just for that, you have to go and get the bedding from the sofa. It’s too cold to sleep like this.”
Bellatrix snorts. But sits up. “Too cold? You should try Azkaban. You’d freeze your perky tits off.”
Bellatrix!
And she’s gone before Hermione can throw the pillow at her. “That’s not funny!” she shouts.
“Ssh!” Bellatrix shouts back. “You’ll wake up Joyce!”
Oh.
Well so will she!
And Bellatrix is back. Jumps on the bed. Lays the bedding over them. “No groping me in my sleep,” Bellatrix mutters. “Unless you want to. Actually, definitely touch me if you want to.”
Hermione pushes her away. “Sleep. Your side, my side. No groping. Or flirting. It’s probably nearly morning now anyway and I’m keeping our boundaries up.”
Bellatrix doesn’t protest. Or reply. Lies down, closing her eyes.
Everything falls calm.
But Hermione keeps her eyes open. Can see from the faint lamplight out in the living room. Bellatrix left the door open.
Azkaban. It must have been horrible. Torturous. A living nightmare. And not just fourteen years. Over and over…
“How many years do you think you’ve lived?” Hermione whispers. “How many times did you go back?”
The bedding rises and falls. Quiet breaths.
“I…I’ve lost count,” Bellatrix replies lowly. “I tried to count, this time. Hiding with Cissy. I had the time. And I think…” She yawns. “Maybe a hundred years. Could be less. Or more. Since I died. But around…I did tell you, Hermione. I hurt you…a long time ago. Ages ago. It doesn’t even feel like it was me anymore. But it was. So I’m sorry.”
A hundred years. But never past her death. Just living parts of the war. The eighties and nineties. Over and over again.
No wonder she didn’t expect Hermione to be from her timeline. The original timeline.
Hermione takes Bellatrix’s hand. Squeezes. “You’ve changed so much that I didn’t think you were the same person. Nobody did. You’re not. It’s what we’ve all been saying to each other, again and again. Bellatrix is different. Bellatrix has changed.”
Bellatrix…
Is falling asleep.
Yes. Time for her to get some sleep. Some rest.
Chapter 31: Step Out Into The Real World
Notes:
Hi folks,
Yet another warning for mentions of death and suicidal thoughts, just to let you know.
Anyway, on with the chapter!
Chapter Text
Bellatrix is still sound asleep when Hermione wakes up. And…Hermione spends some time just looking at her.
Not in a romantic way. Or a sexual way. Just…trying to rationalise the two different Bellatrix’s in her head. Or three. The one from her past. The one she met at Hogwarts, that she thought was a completely different person. And the current Bellatrix. The one who is a bit of both. Sleeping next to her.
In muggle pyjamas. Top riding up so her stomach is showing. Short, fluffy hair haloed around her head. That makes it even stranger. The new look. It makes her less…it keeps the flashbacks away. The memories.
She traces the scar on her arm. Each letter. Tests it.
Still calm. No reaction. Her heartbeat is steady. No dizziness. She can still breathe.
Even when Bellatrix shifts. Rolls over. Sighs.
Kicks all the covers off the bed. Still asleep.
Hermione shivers. Smiles. Okay then. Guess it’s time to get up. To figure out how the shower works here, or if she needs to go to the shop for some bath things. Or towels. Or…
Hmm. She needs to make a list. And look through the rucksack.
So. They have leftovers from Molly, and bread, but no butter or cereal. Tea, but no coffee. Only soap in the bathroom. One pair of trainers each. No coats. No first aid kit. One hairbrush.
Two charmed galleons that they should hide somewhere safe, a broomstick that she’s guessing Harry or Ron shrank and hid in the rucksack for them. Or the twins. There are some stray sweets too. And of course there’s the invisibility cloak hidden away somewhere deep inside Bellatrix’s expanded purse. A cloak from the Master of Death.
As well as a lot of other magical things, probably. Hermione hasn’t looked inside the purse. Boundaries.
She’s put it in a wardrobe though. With Bellatrix’s black dress, corset, and boots.
Bellatrix’s muddy clothes from yesterday were left on her chest of drawers. Hermione puts them in the washing machine for now, but needs to get laundry detergent. Adds it to the list.
And checks the trouser pockets. Finds Bellatrix’s door keys and a scribbled note. Recognises the handwriting.
Land line on kitchen wall. Number on pad.
Sat telight??
Gas heating. Gas for oven. Not
eclecticelectricBins go out on Mondays (Go where?)
Re-cycling. Bottle bank?? Ask Sally
Milk man
High street not far. Can walk or get bus. Bus stop by the corner next to bench. Number 11. Ticket 80p
Can borrow bike from Joyce’s shed. Doesn’t use. Hip. Helmet? Siri?
Parking space for car!
Hermione laughs to herself. She’d forgotten how different the muggle world is. Sat telight? What does that mean? Bikes. Do wizards not ride bikes? She’d never noticed. And the bins! Bellatrix…is going to have so many questions about that. And recycling.
So Joyce has a bike. She could borrow it. Go find the high street. Maybe she should work everything out first and show Bellatrix another time. That might be easier. And faster.
She looks around the kitchen for the phone. Finds it hooked to the wall next to the fridge. And there’s a notepad and pen, as she’d hoped.
She leaves a note telling Bellatrix where she’s gone and what time she’s leaving. Rips it off and puts it on the kitchen table. And then goes to get the bag from the hallway. Right. That should be everything. Off she goes…
Oh.
A cat. Miaowing at the door.
She very slowly peeks around the door. Yep. The black and white one. Hmm…
Hermione sighs. Shuts the door.
Goes to the fridge to get some chicken.
And adds cat food to her list.
She ends up walking into town. The bus comes every half an hour, and she’d just missed it. Walking is warmer than standing around, and she can get an idea of where she is. Follows signs for the church. Churches are normally in the centre.
And it turns out it isn’t far. Only about a mile. There’s a shop, a post office, a café. A pub, of course. There’s always a pub.
No clothes shops though. So still no coat.
She checks her list. Right. She has everything essential except coats and towels. Hmm. Difficult.
And she still needs to figure out where she is. Would it say the name of the town at the post office? She can’t ask anyone. That would be really suspicious.
Now where was the post office?
Oh dear. Which way did she come from?
She slowly retraces her steps, hoping her plastic shopping bags aren’t about to break.
“You alright, love?”
Uh oh. Random man stood outside the pub. In the morning.
She smiles uncomfortably. Pats her pocket before she remembers her wand isn’t there. “Oh I’m fine. Just meeting my friend.”
He jerks his head at the door. “Want to wait inside? We haven’t opened up yet, but it’s pretty nippy out here. You not got a coat?”
Oh. Is he the pub landlord? “Is this your pub?” she asks.
He puts out his cigarette in a nearby ashtray. “Sure is. Well, it’s my Dad’s, but he’s not up to running it anymore. As you can see from the state of the place. Needs a lick of paint, doesn’t it? I’m Mike, by the way. You visiting someone, or…?”
She relaxes. Pub landlord. That’s why he’s hanging around. “I’ve actually just moved here,” she explains. “We’re renting from Joyce? Up the road? Do you know…with the dog?”
He huffs. “Puddles. Mucky pup. Or not a pup anymore, is he? Big fella now. Still muddying the floors though.”
Oops. Not a dog fan, then.
She shivers, adjusting her grip on her bags. “Do you know where I could buy some coats? My flatmate and I seem to have lost ours in the move. And the towels.”
He scratches his head. “Coats? Depends how fussy you are. There’s a charity shop around the corner, up past the café. But towels? Hmm, that’s a toughy. Tell you what, come in and I’ll see what we’ve got. This is a B&B, if you’d believe it. Or was. No-one really stops around here, not since the campsite opened up. And not in winter. Come on. Let’s see what we have.”
And he heads through the door.
She hurries after him. “Oh, that’s okay! You don’t have to—”
He shrugs, heading up some stairs. “We’re not using them. Dad! We still got the bedding and that? The towels?”
Hermione waits awkwardly at the bottom of the stairs, not sure…
Is he just friendly? It’s a small town. More like a village, actually. And the pub seems…
Nice enough. A bit run down and dark, but not as bad as the Hog’s Head or the Leaky Cauldron.
“What’s your name, love?” he calls. “You can come up!”
Argh, she hates not using magic! Everything just feels so…risky! The magical world can be crazy and dangerous, but at least she knows she’s as strong and capable as the average man. Stronger, even. Can petrify them if she has to.
She goes up the stairs. He knows Joyce. Joyce said it was safe here.
“I’m Sally,” she says. “I…I really do have to meet my flatmate soon, so if it’s too—”
He comes towards her, stack of towels in his arms, and an older man with a walking stick behind him. “Here we are. Two each, big and small. Dad said women need hair towels or something.”
The old man chuckles. “And you should know that! In his thirties and still hasn’t stuck with a bird for more than five minutes. I’m starting to think he might be a ‘lifelong bachelor’.”
“Dad!” Mike laughs. Hands Hermione the towels. “I’m not gay, alright? You know I was with Sandra for three bloody years! Just cos I don’t know how she did her hair doesn’t— the pub’s my life, you know that.”
Hermione shifts the towels around with a smile. Tries not to drop anything. Shrinking spells are so useful. And hover charms.
The old man chuckles again. “If you say so. There’s nothing wrong with it if you are that way, is all I’m saying. Your Uncle Jim—”
“I’m not like Uncle Jim,” Mike grins. Shakes his head at Hermione. “This is because he caught me dancing to ABBA one time. Never mind my Kim Wilde poster. Farah Fawcett. Lynda Carter.”
“A lot of birds on your wall,” his dad nods. “But none in your bed that I ever—”
Mike takes some towels back from Hermione and walks down the stairs. “Great introduction to the new girl in town, Dad. And you wonder why I hid my girlfriends from you as a teenager. No filter. Sorry, Sally. It’s the trade, you see, we’re too chatty for our own good. No boundaries.”
Hermione laughs. “Oh I’m used to it. You haven’t met my flatmate yet. She hasn’t got any boundaries either. She—”
Stop talking about Bellatrix, Hermione!
“So where did you say the charity shop is?” she asks instead, getting back on track. “Thank you so much for these. It’s really kind of you. I could pay you? How much—”
He shakes his head, folding the smaller towels and helping her squeeze them into two of the plastic bags. “It’s fine. But you’ll stop by for some chips and a pint later, won’t you? When you’ve got your hands free? It would be nice to have a chat. We don’t get a lot of new people around here. And uhh…well I’m not gay, as we’ve kind of established by now. So…maybe I could get your number?”
Oh dear.
She clears her throat uncomfortably. Shit. Reject him? Tell him she’s gay?
She hasn’t come out to anyone in ‘real life’ before.
He doesn’t seem homophobic…
But he’s the landlord. He’s chatty. He could out her to everyone.
The pause drags on too long.
He releases a whistled breath. “I just made this awkward, didn’t I? Thought I was reaching. Girl like you. It’s Dad. He got in my head. I don’t normally ask anyone out until…uhh…charity shop, right. So you want to follow this road around…”
He opens the door and starts gesturing. So awkward. Really awkward. And he knows everyone. She’s coming across as so shy and quiet. She—
She isn’t listening. She should be listening.
She follows him out the door. “So this way, and then at the café turn right?” she clarifies.
He nods at her. “Yeah,” he points to the very end of the road. “Over by…oh. Is that Joyce’s motorbike parking up? She hasn’t ridden it in years! After she hurt her hip. I didn’t…oh.”
Oh.
Bike. Motorbike. Hip. Helmet. Sirius.
Bellatrix
A motorbike?!
“That’s…that’s my flatmate,” Hermione manages to get out as Bellatrix takes the helmet off.
What…
She can’t plug in a hoover and jumps at the doorbell but she rides a motorbike? What— how—
Bellatrix looks around. Runs her hand through her hair.
Spots Hermione.
Grins. Makes her way down the street, helmet under her arm. A lot of people watching her. She’s mixed and matched some of Tonks’ clothes with Andy’s. Edgier clothes.
Mike laughs breathlessly. “What— where did you both come from? It— I need to get out of town more.”
A low whistle from behind them. “Son, I know you don’t want my advice, and I don’t think you really stand a chance with her. But…you’d be crazy not to give it a go. A woman like that doesn’t turn up every day. Not here, not anywhere.”
Mike snorts. Lights a cigarette. “Sounds like you want to give it a go.”
His dad shrugs. “If I was a few decades younger, I’d happily be rejected by her.”
Hermione shakes her head at them. Why does she feel like she’s back with Ron and Ginny?
And also feels oddly smug that…well…
Been there, done that.
Stop it, Hermione. No objectifying women.
Mike clears his throat as Bellatrix gets closer. “Any advice?” he murmurs to Hermione.
She glances at him. “Umm…I mean…I really don’t think you should…you’re not her type. Sorry.”
She doesn’t want to out Bellatrix either, but the poor guy might get laughed at if he tries to ask her out. Quite likely, actually.
He winces exaggeratedly, rubbing at his chest. “Ouch. Well I’ve had a healthy helping of reality this morning. Still. You’re probably right. Once again, shouldn’t listen to Dad.”
And Bellatrix jogs the last few steps. Looks Hermione over. “You okay? Ah. Towels. Sensible. I didn’t realise until I was in the shower this morning, so that was fun. Would have given you an eyeful if you were home.”
And she takes the towels. Whilst Hermione’s brain shortcuts for a second.
Uhh…
Mike laughs. “So you’re the flatmate with no boundaries. I see what you mean, Sally.” He nudges Hermione.
Bellatrix’s eyes narrow. Flick up and down over him. “And…you are?”
He swallows, laughter gone. “Mike? The…this is my pub. And that’s my dad. And those are our towels. Your towels. Free. For you.” He gestures strangely. A flourish and head bob. Like Bellatrix is royalty or something and he’s some kind of…squire.
Bellatrix continues glaring.
What happened to her being nice?
Hermione elbows her. “Stop it. He’s right. He gave us free towels because there aren’t any at the shop. And was telling me where we can go to buy coats. And what’s with the bike? You’re not wearing any padding or— it’s dangerous! Do you even have a licence?” she hisses, knowing full well there’s no way she does.
And the glare disappears. “Worried?” Bellatrix purrs. “I can handle it. Danger is kind of my thing, you know. Pushing the limits. And besides, it was only down the road. I won’t go far.”
She winks. Takes one of the bags from Hermione. “But it’s good you’re here with the money. New coats, did you say?”
Flirting. In public. Where Hermione can’t shout at her about boundaries.
Well. Looks like there’s no staying in the closet here either.
Hermione smiles through a sigh. “Mike was just telling me where the charity shop is. There might be some coats there.”
“Past the café,” Mike says, still very weakly. Is Bellatrix that intimidating? Hermione hadn’t realised. Or forgot.
His dad comes up behind him, patting him on the shoulder. “You really should get some leathers for the bike,” he says to Bellatrix. “It can be real nasty if you come off one of those, and you never know on these country lanes. All sorts in the roads. Wouldn’t want you hurting yourself.”
Bellatrix chuckles. “Alright, okay. I get the message. No hurting myself. But what about you, stood outside in the cold? You should buy a hat and scarf. It’s the middle of winter. And you, stop looking at me like I’m about to eat you. I don’t bite.”
She bares her teeth at Mike. Gnashes a couple of times. Unbelievable. It’s…so much more obvious how strange Bellatrix is when you get her around normal people. Out of context. Very weird.
Hermione holds back the urge to elbow her again. Ignores her. “Yes, you don’t have to stand around out here with us. Thank you so much for the towels. And we’ll stop by for a drink later, right Be— Beth?”
Elizabeth. Elizabeth.
“Beth?” Bellatrix says with a crooked smile. “Do I have a nickname already?”
Turns and holds her hand out to Mike, eyes warmer now. “Elizabeth Fluke. Thanks for the towels. I owe you one.”
Mike quickly shakes her hand. “It’s nothing. But— uhh— so you’ll come by?”
Bellatrix reaches her hand out to Mike’s dad. “Sure. If you’ve got anything good to drink. What do you drink around here?”
“Oh we’ve got a bit of everything,” the older man says. “I’m Bert. It’s nice to meet you, love. And I’m sure we’ll have something for you. Lagers, ciders, wine, spirits. Depends what kind of girl you are.”
What kind of girl? Now that’s a question.
And he’s looking between Hermione and Bellatrix curiously. Maybe he does have some sort of gaydar.
Bellatrix laughs. “I’ll have to try them all and see. It’ll be a long night. I’m not looking forward to tomorrow morning.”
Hermione laughs too in surprise. “You’re not trying everything in one night. That’s impossible!”
“Or a challenge?” Bellatrix grins, eyebrow raising. “Bert? Can I try everything? If I pay?”
Bert’s eyes gleam. Uh oh. Don’t encourage her.
“We don’t have that much money!” Hermione squawks. “And you’d be on the floor!”
“Then you’ll have to share my drinks,” Bellatrix says. “Halve them. And help me get home.”
“Pubs have hundreds of drinks,” Hermione argues. “I’m not drinking a hundred different drinks. And the cost—”
“Rich Uncle Brian…” Bellatrix says, wiggling her eyebrows.
What—
Hermione laughs again at how cheeky she looks. “The money is for necessities. The whole time we’re here. Like coats. Honestly. I thought you— Come on, it’s freezing out here. Bye, Mike. Bye, Bert.”
And she begins dragging Bellatrix away, as much as she can with all the bags and towels. So not just bad with boundaries, but no impulse control or idea of money or…oh. Oh!
Hermione snorts to herself. “You’ve always been either extremely rich…or completely broke, haven’t you?” she suddenly realises. “You’ve never had to earn your own money.”
Bellatrix shifts the helmet and towels around in her grip, making sure they don’t fall. “I earn my keep. I help people. But how am I ever supposed to get a job? Unless…should Elizabeth have a job? I can get a job for us.”
For us?
“Doing what?” Hermione smiles, curious.
Bellatrix shrugs. “I could work at the pub. Pour drinks. Clean tables.”
“And what if someone asked for…a Malibu and coke?” Hermione grins.
Bellatrix pauses. Frowns. Then nods. “Coca cola. And…I’d just look for the bottle that said Malibu.”
Coca Cola.
Hermione shakes her head. “I think I need more of the story. About you. How— I have no idea what stuff you know and what you don’t. Do you know what a charity shop is? Do you know currency? Do you—”
“I did live with Andy,” Bellatrix whispers. Smiles sadly. “I…a few times. Last time. The one before this time. Sometimes I tried going to Andy instead of Cissy. And it eventually worked. For a few years. But then— well. I must have done something wrong. Back I went. I...decided to hide completely, after that.”
…oh.
They turn right at the café. Then just stop. By the grass. By the church.
Hermione puts her bags down and sits on a low wall. “So…Andy forgave you? Before?”
Bellatrix nods again. Looks away. Adjusts the bag. “And now— now she’s forgotten again,” Bellatrix says roughly. Wobbly smile. Deep breath. “Needs time. Again. It took— I spent a lot of time with her last time. Siri was still in prison, and Cissy was fine with Draco and— so I tried Andy. Even when she told me to leave. I kept coming back. She— she trusted me, and—”
She sits down next to Hermione. “I really thought I did the right thing last time. I wasn’t selfish. I didn’t hurt— I loved them. I hid with them. I really tried to…but back I went.”
Hermione reaches for her hand. Cold hand. “I’m sorry. That sounds…that isn’t fair.”
Bellatrix laughs. “Life isn’t fair. Still. Probably a lesson in it. Teaching me what Andromeda lost, maybe. Because of me. Gave me a family and took it away again. It’s only as cruel as I was to her.”
Karma? That seems like a really harsh lesson, if it is.
Bellatrix stands up. Pats the back of her trousers and grimaces. “Wet arse. And all this stuff to carry is bloody annoying. Wish I…was Mary Poppins.”
Oh. A code word? For magic?
Hermione stands up. Grumbles too as the plastic digs into her fingers. “A bottomless bag would be very handy right now, you’re right. And I have no idea how we’ll get this back with the motorbike. Which I am not getting on, by the way.”
Bellatrix just grins slyly. “Yet?”
Hermione huffs. Leads them over the road. “No. Never. That is not happening.”
“But it’s so cool!” Bellatrix shouts from behind her. “And fun. And fast. It’s like a broom— like flying.”
“I don’t even like flying!” Hermione exclaims. “And how fast were you going? There are speed limits on—”
“I know what speed limits are,” Bellatrix tuts. Comes up next to Hermione again. “Ted tested me. I know all the stupid signs. The theory.”
“Ted Tonks? It was his bike?”
Bellatrix shakes her head. “No, Siri’s bike. Andy got it back off Hagrid for us. Ted would never ride it. Too scared. Aha! Clothes! Look!”
They’ve reached the charity shop. Bellatrix manages to get a hand free and half elbows the door open for them. Smiles at the lady at the desk. “Morning! Freezing out there, isn’t it? I’m guessing you’re open? It still says closed.”
The lady jumps up nervously. “Oh! I must have forgotten to turn it. How silly of me, I’m sorry. Yes, come in. I should have remembered…”
Bellatrix puts her helmet, bag and towels down. “I’ll get it. No problem.” She turns the sign around. “There. Now. Coats. Let’s see…”
Hermione puts her bags down too, unclenching her fingers in relief and rubbing them together. So cold. They might need gloves too.
“Got anything black?” Bellatrix mutters as she looks through a clothes rail. “Oh wait. New style. But…I’m not wearing that. What about…”
The woman hesitantly comes over, pushing up her glasses. “Sorry, we haven’t had much in— well we have. Christmas. People were very generous. But— but I haven’t— oh and I haven’t finished the pricing!”
Bellatrix shrugs. “It’s Christmas. You must have been busy, don’t worry about it. Is it just you here?”
Hermione has a little look around. Hmm. Too big…children’s…weird zip…
Oh that looks…no sleeves? Why?
“Normally Jill is here too. She knows more about everything,” the shop lady sighs. “You could come back and talk to her tomorrow? Oh but that’s silly. What am I saying? Ignore me. I’ll just leave you alone.”
Hmm? Is she okay? What…
The lady walks off to the back of the shop.
Hermione shares a look with Bellatrix.
“No self-confidence?” Bellatrix murmurs. “Shit. I’d better get teaching.”
Hermione frowns. “So you do still want to help people. What was going on with Mike? He was terrified of you.”
Bellatrix’s mouth falls open. “I wasn’t scary! I— I scared him? What did I do? I just thought he was a bit weird. He was acting like you were friends and then— crap. Scary?”
“Not scary,” Hermione corrects herself. “Just…you were glaring at him.”
“He laughed at me!” Bellatrix says. “He started it!”
Hermione pulls a red coat off a hanger. “Because you said you were naked! You— look, forget it. It’s nothing. What do you think of this one?”
She puts it on. It smells a bit like mothballs, and some of the velvet is a bit worn, but she likes the crimson colour, and it fits quite well. Not too long. It might be from the eighties though. And no hood. She should get a hat…
She spots a nearby woolly hat. Pulls it on too. Does the buttons on the coat up. Puts her hands in her pockets. Big pockets. That’s a bonus.
Bellatrix smiles at her. “Very cute. Hmm, maybe red is the colour for you. Not blue. Or maybe you just look nice in every colour.”
And…now Hermione is too hot and flustered in the coat. How— she isn’t used to compliments. To such blatant…flirting. Attraction. Appreciation. She can feel Bellatrix looking at her. Understands now what she meant about being trapped in someone’s eyes.
Except Bellatrix’s eyes aren’t hers now. Hazel, not dark. Not hers.
Hermione…misses her eyes. The old eyes. How they seemed to burn sometimes. Hot coals.
And then Bellatrix pulls on a brightly coloured windbreaker. Grins and raises an eyebrow. It doesn’t suit her at all. Those colours. They drown her out completely.
Hermione shakes her head. “Not that one. It’s just not very you.”
Bellatrix grins wider. Flips the collar up. “Isn’t that the point? Disguise? I could get some big, hooped earrings. Blue eyeshadow. A mullet. Pretend I’m stuck in the eighties again.”
Hermione barks out a laugh. “No! No mullet! Did— Oh my god, please tell me someone had a mullet! Andy? Tonks? You?”
Bellatrix takes the jacket off. “No, but we all had the curls. Didn’t need a perm. Oh, wait. Charlie had a mullet. Charlie Weasley? He was Tonks’ first boyfriend for a while there. Don’t know if they always were or if it was just those times but— so what about this one? More me?”
And Bellatrix puts on a black leather jacket instead.
It’s a bit big, but…
More her. The black. And the leather. And the…swagger.
It’s cool. And kind of sexy.
Bellatrix chuckles. “From your face, I’ll take this one. Bert will be happy too. Got those leathers for the bike. You sure I can’t take you for a ride? I’ll be careful...”
Hermione swallows. “Still not getting on that thing,” she murmurs. Takes off the woolly hat. Too hot. Too…
Shit. Bellatrix is still grinning at her. Has that knowing look in her eyes. The wrong eyes. The—
“I miss your eyes,” Hermione whispers. “And your hair. It’s…nice to see you in black again.”
The grin turns bashful. Bellatrix looks away at the clothes rack. Fiddles with the hangers. “Really?” she quietly asks. “I thought it might be a relief.”
Hermione moves to join her. Stands next to her. “So did I, at first,” she admits. “But no. It was always you that I liked too. It’s strange. You being less you. I…there’s a difference between being selfish and being confident. I— I don’t want you to change who you are. Or doubt yourself.”
Bellatrix sighs. “Well, seems like the universe is really testing me on that. On who I am. But…thanks.”
And she puts an arm around Hermione’s waist. Briefly squeezes. Side by side. “You’re a good friend, Sally,” she whispers. Smiles.
Friends. Are they friends?
Just friends?
Because really…
Hermione hugs her back. Both arms. Pulls her even further sideways. Kisses her cheek. Right next to her ear. “I’m getting you the jacket,” she says against Bellatrix’s ear. “You look hot in it. And that’s my job, right? Keeping you warm?”
And she quickly pulls away, Bellatrix letting out a surprised laugh. Goes over to the till as the nervous shop lady returns. “We’d like these coats, please. And this hat. Do you have gloves too? Or anything for riding a motorbike? My crazy flatmate suddenly has a motorbike,” Hermione grins. Winks at Bellatrix. Gets another shocked but happy look.
“Oh. I don’t— motorbikes?” the lady stutters. “I don’t think— well I don’t know anything about—”
Hermione smiles more gently at her. “Neither do I. Absolutely nothing. It’s alright, if nothing leather springs to mind we’ll just get these. And this hat and…that scarf. What do you think, Elizabeth? For Bert?”
Bellatrix skips up next to her. Kisses the side of her head. Her hair. “Warmth for Bert. Yep. Genius. Add it to the bill.”
Sharing warmth. Showing love. Sharing their resources. Money. Power.
Are you watching, Harry? We’re doing the right thing!
Is this enough love for you?
Is it what he expected?
Because she seriously doubts it. Not even the Master of Death could predict this.
“…so this releases the gas, and then this lights it, you see? But you have to make sure it’s lit, otherwise gas will fill the room,” Hermione explains.
Bellatrix crouches down in front of the oven, looking at the flames and nodding. “Gas is the fuel. Got it. That’s actually a lot simpler than electricity. Real fire.”
Hmm, true. And it seems like she does understand.
She puts the kettle on. Time for more tea. That’s enough lessons for today. Oven, washing machine, and an attempt at what a satellite dish is. A cautious look at the motorbike once Bellatrix brought it back. It…still seems terrifying. Much worse than a broom. But she supposes if Bellatrix can learn all these muggle things, Hermione should at least listen and learn too.
Bellatrix grabs the milk from the fridge and some biscuits, coming over to join her at the kitchen table. “So…now what? We still have a long time until we go to the pub tonight, and it’s bloody freezing outside. Not much to do.”
Hermione clears her throat uncomfortably. There is something…well she kind of…
“Can you tell me more? Of your story?” she whispers hesitantly. “I mean— how you got out. And where you went. And how you…changed.”
Bellatrix doesn’t reply straight away. Just wandlessly accios the kettle over once it boils.
Then mumbles a few curse words under her breath as she realises she just used magic. Makes the tea by hand.
Hermione just waits. Accepts the full cup. Warms her hands with it. “Sorry. I didn’t— only if you want to. Will it be difficult? To talk about? I— you don’t have to. If it’s too upsetting, or tiring, or—”
Bellatrix reaches out with a sigh. Touches the back of her hand. “Different me, right? A whole other person. Just a tale. A story.” She swallows. Nods to herself. “I can do that. Can tell you the story of how I escaped. Or more like…how I was saved.”
She’s back with Barty. She doesn’t know how. Just woke up here. Sat next to him in the corner of his cell.
So maybe she’s finally figuring out Potter’s rules.
Bellatrix cautiously reaches an arm around Barty. Then stops herself. She touched him last time, cared for him last time, and it didn’t help.
She clears her throat. “Barty? It’s cold in here. We’re both cold. Can I hug you?”
Is that what he wants?
Barty’s head rolls onto her shoulder. He looks up at her.
She smiles. “Yes, I’m talking to you, Barty. No-one else here. Except Ratty. Have you seen a rat?”
He shakes his head. “There’s nothing here. And it doesn’t matter. Nothing matters.”
Now Bellatrix does hug him, because apparently he can’t answer a simple question. She’ll choose for him. “It does matter. It matters for you. Because you’re getting out of here. Your mother’s coming. You just have to be patient.”
He frowns at her. “Mother? Here?” He looks around. “She’s here?”
Shit. He’s not hallucinating, is he? How long has he been here? How long—
“Wagtail!” she shouts. “Siri, how long have we been here?”
“How the fuck should I know?” he shouts back. “Long enough that I’m somehow desperate enough to talk to you.”
Hmm. A few months then, maybe, from the way he’s talking to her.
She skipped some months. She can do that? Potter can do that?
She must have done something right somehow. What did she do? She remembers talking to Wagtail. Feeding Ratty. She’d spent a lot of time stroking Ratty. And talking.
Alright then. Showing love. And sharing information.
She looks at Barty again. Brushes his hair off his forehead. Cissy was always doing that to Draco, and you don’t get more sickeningly loving than that. “Tell me what you’re thinking, Barty. Hmm? Talk to Bella. Let me help you,” she whispers. Doesn’t want Siri hearing and interrupting. She’ll try Barty this time.
Barty, who just shakes his head, looking away.
She bites her tongue in frustration. Forces the anger down into her stomach. Focuses on keeping her touch and tone gentle. “Do you want to hear a story?” she tries. “A story about…”
Hmm, what kind of story? Nothing happy or hopeful. But something he can imagine…
Aha.
“Do you know I once stole some firewhisky from Professor McGonagall?” she whispers gleefully.
And his eyes brighten. Clarity. He actually looks at her. Yes! Something new. Okay. Shit. Get him talking.
She grins at him. Nods her head. Waits.
“Stole? How?” he croaks.
And the bread and water appears. Now? But—
She quickly goes to get it. Breaks the bread in half. Hands half to him, but shuffles close. Opposite. So she can keep his interest. “I broke into her rooms when she was in a lesson. It’s easy, actually. The wards on the professors’ quarters aren’t all that complicated. Guess no-one has the guts to do it. But I was bored and had to get through Astronomy somehow. Dull as fuck, wasn’t it? I knew more about the stars than any of them. Blacks are named for the stars, you know.”
His lip twitches. “You brought the firewhisky to your astronomy class? How?”
She blinks at him, confused. “Magic,” she says slowly. “It’s just a bottle of firewhisky. I poured some into a flask. Expanded one of the purses under my skirt. Don’t you do that? Keep things in your pockets?”
How stupid is he? Professors don’t check pockets. You can carry whatever the hell you want. They weren’t exactly going to look under her skirt. Filch might have, disgusting squib. But then she’d have just killed him. Or cut his hands off.
Which she won’t do now. If Potter is listening. No killing rats. Or cockroaches. Or dirty squibs.
Showing love. Sharing wisdom. With Barty.
Oh crap, she forgot to pay attention to Barty. His eyes have gone all cloudy again. He’s stopped eating.
She pouts at him. “What’s wrong? I can tell you another story. What about—”
“I miss magic,” he whispers. “And pockets. Even— and Hogsmeade. I stole so much stuff from Honeydukes. Even bloodpops. And…cockroach clusters.”
He watches a cockroach run past. Raises his hand to—
She grabs his wrist. “Don’t kill it. Don’t— so you stole stuff too?” Keep him talking. Keep him alive.
Barty shrugs. “Yeah, I guess.”
And that’s it.
Ugh. He’s so boring! Why’s she stuck with a mopey teenage boy? He’s like Siri—
Oh.
She never talked to Siri. When he was a teenager. Because he was already a filthy bloodtraitor.
But Potter likes Siri. Loves Siri.
So is she supposed to help Siri or Barty?
Both. Try both.
She passes the goblet to Barty. “Drink. And tell me why you stole such disgusting sweets. Unless you’re a vampire. You’re not, right? Is that why you’re not eating?”
And she bares her teeth at him. Extends her neck enticingly. He is quite pale. Has she ever seen him in the sunlight?
He takes a sip of water. “No. I’m not some deformed creature. I’m a pureblood. A wizard. See?”
A bite of bread. Yes! He’s fucking eating!
She just watches him. Smiles. Breaks off some bread for herself.
He leans back against the wall. “You stole because you were bored?” he quietly asks.
Bellatrix considers it. She’s never thought about why she did it. “Not…I just took it because I wanted it. It was easier than sending an owl for a bottle. But yeah, it was fun getting into her rooms. Looking at her stuff. Messing with her, and knowing I was better than her.”
Minnie guessed it was her, but she couldn’t prove it. Just glared at her disapprovingly. Asked if she ‘had anything to get off her chest’.
‘What do you want me to get off my chest? I’m only wearing a shirt. I don’t think that’s very appropriate, Professor.’
Bellatrix snorts at the memory. Classic.
“I didn’t want it,” Barty mutters, reminding her he’s still there. “I didn’t want any of the crap I took. But…I guess it was fun. Taking it. And then throwing stuff at people. Me and Reg used to do that.”
Reg. Oh yeah. Same year as Reggie.
“Do you know where he’s gone? Reg?” she asks.
He just disappeared. Stopped turning up to meetings. He might be dead for all she knows. Probably ran away. Stupid kid.
Barty curls up in the corner. “Dunno. He stopped talking to me…”
And now he’s crying again. Shivering. The dementors are back.
She crawls over to him with a sigh. Leans against him again. “Come on. Stay warm with me,” she murmurs. “Forget about him. Listen…listen to another story…”
Barty stops eating. No matter what she says. She tries more stories. Tries shouting at him. Threatening him. Forcing him. Tells him his parents will come. Tells him the Dark Lord will need him. That he has to do it. For the Cause. That he’s a traitor if he dies.
He still ignores her. Doesn’t even cry. Goes quiet. Mumbles that he already failed the Dark Lord anyway.
She gives him all her food. Tries that. Says she won’t eat until he does. That he has to eat. For her. Has to live. Doesn’t he understand? He’ll be free soon. He’s the only one of them with actual hope. With a way out. He has to be her way out.
So she doesn’t eat. Or drink.
Neither does he. Sunken eyes. Sharp cheekbones. Dying together. Oh well. Not like she hasn’t died before.
“Bellatrix?” a voice calls. “Are you still…have you remembered to eat?”
She smiles sadly. Wagtail. Sorry, Wagtail. Her turn to die this time.
“Not until Barty does,” she manages to croak out. “This kid is as stubborn as me,” she laughs. Wheezes. “Stay strong, Siri. You’ll get out of here. Just…find the rat. But don’t kill…don’t underestimate…I’m doing the right thing,” she murmurs, head heavy. Thoughts drifting. “Right? No power for Bella. Weak. I’ll be weak this time. Give…give everything.”
She collapses back. Closes her eyes. Leans against Barty. Shares her warmth. Some comfort, maybe. It’s all she has. “It’s okay, Barty,” she whispers. “It’s not real. This is all a dream. A bad dream.”
Sounds drift towards her. Crying. Dripping. Crashing waves.
“Bella, eat! You’re not thinking properly! You’re dying!”
Dying. Again and again. Because she has to…
What does she have to do? Be selfless? Love?
Or hide?
She curls up in a ball. Hides. “I love you, Siri,” she calls. Lies. “I just have to go this time. I’m giving up my power. It’s…the right thing.”
All of her. She relaxes. Feels her magic fade away. The buzzing. All gone…
Wind howling. Metal clanging. Footsteps. Crying.
A witch. A blurry but very real witch, crouching in front of her. Crying.
Reaching for Barty. “Bar— Barty? He…what did…what did you…Barty?”
Bellatrix blinks. Looks at Barty. Strokes his hair.
Looks into his glazed eyes. Empty eyes.
Cold. He’s cold.
“I’m keeping him warm,” Bellatrix mutters. “I have to keep him warm. And…make him eat. He won’t eat. All the…I gave him all my food. He won’t…Barty? Will you eat? Food’s here. Someone is…someone is…”
The witch touches Bellatrix’s face. Still crying. She feels so warm. So…
And then the witch falls to her knees, shaking with sobs. “He— He’s— I’m too late. Too…he…he’s not…no no he isn’t breathing.”
The witch sobs harder. Then breaks into rattling, gurgling coughs. Her own breathing fast and ragged.
Not breathing? Not…
Bellatrix lays her head on Barty’s chest. Listens. She can hear it. A heartbeat. In her ears. Blood whooshing.
She smiles at the witch. “No! He’s alive. He has to stay alive until his Mummy comes. I had to help him. So he can escape. He’s just a stupid kid. His mummy loves him. That’s what I’ve been telling him. Right, Barty?”
He doesn’t reply. Ignores her.
And she’s being pulled away.
“He— He’s not alive. He— my baby boy,” the witch cries. “You told him? You told him I’d come? How…”
Bellatrix pushes her away. Tries. Is too weak. “I have to help him! I have to— he has to stay warm. I’m keeping him warm. I’ll— more stories? I can tell him more…I can’t…”
She can’t see. Can’t hear. Everything is tunnelling. She can’t…
“I don’t want to die!” she cries. Gives in as the panic hits. “I don’t— please! Please. I’ll be good. Don’t let me die. I can’t do this again. I don’t want to do this anymore,” she sobs, fighting for breath. She can’t breathe.
Something is poured in her mouth. Something disgusting, bitter, but she swallows it. Liquid. She needs…
Something feels strange. Her body. Her face. Rippling. Stretching. Her body is…something is…
“You won’t die,” the witch whispers. Coughs. “You cared for my son. Don’t be scared. I was going to take his place here, but— Winky. Take her. Take her…somewhere safe. That’s my final order.”
What? What is…
Bellatrix is too tired. Can’t think. Can’t even question…
Can’t help it. Keeps her eyes shut. Lies in the witch’s arms. Feels a hand stroke her hair…
She wakes up on a hard, cold, stone floor.
Shudders. Shivers.
Squints against the light.
Light?
Why is it so bright?
“Potter?” she croaks.
Arms help her up. “Bella? How did you…how on Earth did you get here?”
Ciss— Cissy? Is it…
Youngest sister. Youngest— “I need to hide,” Bellatrix groans. “You have to— to help me hide. I can’t— I can’t breathe,” she gasps. Fights to…to…
She collapses. Arms catch her. The Manor towering above her seems to rock and sway against the bright blue sky.
Sky. Sky. She can see the sky.
Her eyes slip shut in relief. Safe. She’s safe. Can feel…can smell…can...
“Bella? Are you able to stand? Can…walk…are you…upstairs…open…”
Cissy’s voice wavers and fades.
Everything fades to black…
Chapter 32: Remember the Rules
Chapter Text
Bellatrix wakes up in a bed. Feels like she’s sinking into it. Drowning. Like she’s being smothered.
Manages to roll out. Onto the floor. Feels her ribs bruise on impact.
Sighs in relief. Hard, solid ground. But warm. It’s warmer. It’s…
She stares at a very small pair of feet.
“Miss Bellatrix? You is…on the floor?” a voice squeaks.
Oh. That crazy, traitorous house-elf. Still alive.
Alive. She…
She pushes herself up on her arms. Looks around at…Cissy’s room. What?
She laughs, mouth wide in shock. Can’t believe…doesn’t know how…
She touches her hair. Her face. Her chest. Feels her heartbeat. Alive. She’s still—
“How did I get here?” she asks the elf.
It fiddles nervously with its sheet. Rocks up and down on its toes. “You is…arriving on the doorstep. You has an invisible cloak. Winky is bringing you past the wards.”
Winky?
“Who’s Winky?” she frowns.
The elf cautiously walks closer. Clicks its fingers. A tray appears. With water. And food. And potions. “Winky is a house-elf. Serves the Crouch House. But…is no longer serving. She belong to Mrs Crouch. Mrs Crouch be dying.”
Crouch.
Barty?
What…happened? She can’t remember? Can’t…
“What about their son? Barty Crouch Junior? Is he alive?”
The elf shakes its head, ear flapping. “He dies in Azkaban, Miss Bellatrix. Everyone thinks you also be— oh! Oh, Dobby is ordered to give you potions right away! And food! And— bad Dobby! Bad bad bad—”
And the wack job throws itself at the bedside table. Slams its head against it.
No hurting. No killing. Sharing—
“Stop that!” she snaps. “That’s an order, elf! Give me my potions and eat this food with me. Now!”
It flinches. Stops. Eyes go wide. “Share? Share food with Dobby?” it whispers fearfully.
She huffs. Drinks all the potions. Feels her head clear slightly. The dark spots leave her vision. “Yep. New rule. You have to share food with me. And warmth. Are you cold? Tell me the truth!”
And the bedroom door opens. “What is the meaning of this?” Cissy glares at the elf. “I told you to care for my sister. She is extremely unwell. And instead she is on the floor and— Back into bed, Bella. Come on.”
Bellatrix shakes her head. “It has to eat, Cissy. I have to share my food. And warmth. Ask it if it’s warm. It’s shaking.”
Narcissa gives her a very confused, sceptical look. Slowly nods. “Alright…if that is what you…will you eat and get back into bed if the elf is…properly dressed? And fed?”
Bellatrix rolls her eyes. “Don’t look at me like that. I don’t care. It’s just a filthy animal. But I have to. Otherwise I’ll get sent back.”
Cissy continues staring at her.
Bellatrix struggles forward. Shoves the goblet at the elf. “Drink. Just a sip. I’m telling you. Drink as much as you want, and then eat as much as you want, and go somewhere warm. Wear something warm.”
“Clothes?” it crows excitedly. “You want Dobby to wear clothes?”
“No clothes!” Narcissa snaps. “What is the matter with you, Bella? Stop freeing my elves. I need all the help I can get with the baby.”
The baby?
Draco! He’s a baby again! Ha! Oh, and Cissy—
She manages to stand up. Cups her sister’s face and laughs. “You’re so little! How long have I been gone? What year is it? How old are you?”
She smiles wider as Cissy tries to get away. Smushes her face. Cheeks! Look at her chubby baby cheeks!
“I’m not a baby!” Narcissa snaps. Fights her way free. “Why are you thinking—how much time do you believe has passed? Why are you imagining me in my thirties? Or Draco as— where did that image come from? Why is—”
Bellatrix backs away onto the bed.
Shit. Legilimency. Hide. Don’t let Cissy see. She might go mad.
Or should she see? Sharing information? Power?
Bellatrix decides to change the subject for now. “Seriously, how long has it been? How long was I…in there?”
Cissy is still looking at her fearfully. Wand at the ready, just under her sleeve. Tense. “Around six months,” Narcissa slowly says. “It is the end of April, 1982. It has only been a few months since…since…”
Since the Dark Lord fell. Since the end of the First War. Since Harry Potter…
“Does anyone know where he is?” Bellatrix grits out. Knows the answer. Hopes that this time might be different. Different timeline. Different world. Barty’s dead.
Narcissa clears her throat. Picks up the tray that the useless elf left and hands it to her. “Eat, Bella. Gain your strength. Don’t…you need to regain your strength.”
Right. Food first, then look for her Lord. Or Potter. Either one. She’s out early. She finally made it. She can’t falter now.
Wand. Stone. Cloak.
Selfless. Love. Hiding. Wisdom.
“Do you want to eat with me, Cissy? There’s enough for you. And are you tired? Because of…Draco? How old…April…is he two? Two years old?”
“Almost,” Cissy says softly, sitting next to her. “Twenty-two months. You are back in time for his birthday.”
Back in time. If Cissy only knew.
And Narcissa holds the food up to Bellatrix with a sharp smile. “Now eat. Before I feed you. Like an infant.”
Bellatrix grins. Gets a forkful of potato and holds it to Narcissa’s mouth. “You first, baby Cissy. Follow Bella’s rules. Sharing is caring.”
Narcissa huffs. Opens her mouth to—
Bellatrix shoves the fork in her mouth. There. Excellent. Sharing lunch.
“Mmph, Bella! Why—”
She quickly hugs her. “Love you, Cissy. Little Cissy. Twenty-two and shiny and new.”
She isn’t hugged back of course. They’d never normally hug. Too soppy.
Bellatrix feels Narcissa stiffen. A held breath. A tinge of worry seeping through. Fear maybe, that it’s a trick, and she’s about to get hurt. “Just…eat it all, Bella,” Narcissa murmurs, very slowly easing away. “And stay here. Stay in bed.”
Stay in bed? She can’t do that! She’s back because she wanted more time. And now Cissy wants to shut her up in the Manor again?
To hide…
“I’ll stay right here,” Bellatrix huffs. “But you have to tell me everything. And bring me the Prophet. Newspapers. I need to know what I’ve missed and—”
Asking for things. Is that selfish? Is that—
“And tell Gringotts to give my whole vault to you!” she hastily adds as Narcissa leaves. “It’s in my will. I’m dead now, even if those sneaky goblins think they know better. We can share my vault. I’ll leave everything to you!”
No power. She’s not the eldest brother. She’s not.
She’s not going back. She’s not.
Never never never.
“…and you need to complete the curve at the exact moment that—”
“I know, Bella,” Cissy interrupts her, shrugging her off and raising her wand again. “You have read the same book as I, and I have read it much more recently. So be quiet, sit still, and let me concentrate.”
Bossy. She’s only trying to help. To pass her wisdom down. Cissy should be grateful. Bellatrix could have just imperioed her and put the wards into place herself. It would be faster. And better. And stronger. Cissy’s wand movements are so rigid. Where’s the oomph? The surge of power? She isn’t using her magic at all!
Bellatrix sits on the bed and digs her nails into the quilt. Bites her tongue. Watches the slight shimmer as the wards form. All around the edges of the bedroom. Sees them flicker—
Gets up. Walks over to—
Throws herself back over the bed and grabs the invisibility cloak she somehow owns now. Shit.
“What’s this?” Lucius calls, reaching the doorway and peeking inside, eyebrow raised at Narcissa. "Putting up wards to escape me, dear?"
What’s he doing home on a weekday?!
Bellatrix makes sure the cloak is covering her and sneaks around the bed to watch.
Narcissa’s wand falls to her side. She drifts over to look out the window, her back to Lucius. “You would deny me a place of refuge at this time?” Narcissa murmurs morosely. “I’d thought you might understand. One room where I might…Well. You know I do not do well with emotions, dear.”
Lucius clears his throat uncomfortably. Leans on his cane, fingers tapping in turn. “Ah. I see. I had not realised that you were…so affected.”
Affected? What are they talking about?
Narcissa sighs. “It is not just her death. It is that we cannot grieve her. That we cannot grieve any of it. All that we wanted. All that we worked for— And now the world is back in the hands of bloodtraitors and filth!”
She whirls around. Marches up to Lucius. “It was all for nought! All of it! The war lost. Our son growing up in a world where he must be educated alongside— well, it is unthinkable. And now my sister. My only sister. She— she always used to stay in this room. I thought of it as hers. Thought that one day she might return. And now she never will.”
The cunning little snake! Yes, Cissy! Alright, learning to hide. She can get behind this. Learn from this. So to hide…you pepper lies with the truth. Draw on real emotions. Real thoughts. Real fears. And play into their expectations. Mother, sister, wife. That’s all Cissy is to him.
And now Lucius is hugging her. They hug? They…touch each other?
“I’m sorry for your loss,” Lucius hums close to Narcissa’s ear. “I suppose not having siblings myself, the thought did not occur to me. I did not believe you to be close. But if you would like the room, then you may have it. It is all yours. To do with as you please. I’m sure I can spare one room in the house.”
“Two,” Narcissa corrects firmly. “My bedroom is still my own. A lady needs her own bedchamber.”
Bellatrix holds back a snort. Now that’s a good one. She should have said that to Rod instead of ‘stay out of the East Wing or I’ll shrink your balls’.
“Not every night, I hope,” Lucius murmurs. Ugh. Gross. That is not a tone of voice she ever needs to— get him out of here, Cissy!
Narcissa laughs softly. “So quickly you forget I am in mourning. Must I wear black to make my point? Be patient, dear. Let me lock this room. Spend some time saying goodbye to my sister. And then there may soon come a night where my own bedroom shall be…unlocked.”
No no stop it! At least wait until she’s left! Don’t—
Narcissa kisses Lucius, but pushes him backwards out of the door. Then pulls away. “Go and see Draco, would you please? I’m sure he is missing his father. He has not stopped talking about you all day. He has much to show you.”
Lucius huffs out an exasperated, slightly frustrated laugh. But leaves. Bellatrix can hear his cane echoing down the corridor. Pretentious prick.
Narcissa closes the door behind him. Raises her wand, face set. “Now…where was I?”
“Simple bloodward that you don’t need help with,” Bellatrix whispers in her ear, trying to make her jump.
She doesn’t. In fact, Narcissa smirks. “Yes. A ward that only those with my blood can cross. It is very lonely being the last Black, you know. Perhaps I shall build a shrine to you.”
Bellatrix grins. Nudges her. “Just get on with it. Stop looking so smug and direct some of that Black magic into the wards. Intent. Mean it. This is our room. Flood it with power. Show that husband of yours how strong Black blood is.”
Narcissa’s eyebrows pinch together. Her wand raises higher. She adopts a stronger stance.
There it is. Channel it.
You have to mean it.
Bellatrix paces back and forth in front of the window. Reads through her notes again. Tries to remember…still can’t remember…
Argh, her brain still isn’t fucking working properly! It’s been months! Months hiding behind Cissy’s wards. Recovering. She’s recovered. So think! It’s not that hard! Where did Quirrell find him? Or just remember Potter’s address. It was…
It was…
Surrey...somewhere...near the...
She sets the parchment alight with a frustrated growl. “Elf! Clean this up! And tell me again what you know about Harry Potter!”
The stupid elf appears. Snaps its fingers to clean the ash away. “Harry…Harry Potter is— is now being two years old. But wizardkind don’t know where he is being. Only that he defeated the Dark Lord—”
Bellatrix kicks him across the room. “The Dark Lord has not been defeated! I told you. He’s alive. He— oh shit! I hurt you. I—”
She runs over to its wheezing body. “You’re fine! You’re— I’ll heal you. I’ll help you. I— bruise paste! In the bathroom in— fuck!”
She accios the paste from the cabinet and unscrews the lid. See, Potter? Helping. Caring. Didn’t mean to—
She starts rubbing the paste over the trembling elf. “You’re alright. You’re— and you’re cold. I’ll get you a warmer pillowcase to wear. Or a sack. Not clothes, but— and food! Here!”
She gives him a leftover apple from her purse. There. That’s enough, right? That’s—
She hears her bedroom door creak open, bloodwards allowing entry. “Cissy,” she whines. “Tell the elf to take a break. Sit by the fire. He—”
“Who this?” a squeaky voice demands.
Oh.
Bellatrix turns around. Shit. Where did she put the invisibility cloak?
Draco is stood in the doorway, looking at her warily. Hair freshly combed. Robes making him look like Lucius in miniature.
Clinging to the doorknob above his head, wobbling on his tiptoes as the door moves. Two years old.
“You’re not supposed to be in here,” Bellatrix tuts, getting up. “Go away.”
He comes in anyway. “My house. My Dobby,” he stomps.
“Master Draco,” the elf says. “We be going back to the nursery now.”
“No!” the kid shouts. Runs through the room.
Then crawls under her bed. Starts screaming. Stupid fucking—
“What is your problem!” Bellatrix shouts. “Get out here this instant! Or I’ll drag you out.”
She’s not supposed to be seen! Cissy is supposed to teach her to hide! It’s the only reason she’s here. He’s ruining everything!
“No!” Draco screams again.
No?
…He dares tell her what to do?
She draws her wand, sparks already erupting with her anger. Walks over to the bed. “Accio Draco,” she murmurs through gritted teeth.
He slides out towards her. Grabs the leg of the bed, still screaming.
“No!”
“I am your aunt,” she seethes. “I will soon be the head of the Noble and Most Ancient House of Black. Be silent! Or I will silence you.”
He wails. But isn’t strong enough to keep holding on. “No no no no,” he hiccups pathetically as he flies towards her.
She catches him. Holds him upside down by his ankle so his snotty face doesn’t touch her.
Now, be nice, Bella. “Silencio,” she coos. Smiles, eye to eye.
There. Silence.
He keeps crying. Then stops. His eyes go wide as he stares at her. Realises he can’t make a sound.
She smiles wider. “There. See? I’m stronger than you. I’m your Aunt Bella. Bella is hiding in here. Not you.”
He keeps staring at her, face getting steadily redder. Hmm.
Does…this count as using power? It’s only an accio. A silencio. But…she’s bigger than him. Older. Wiser.
More powerful.
Her heart rate quickens as she realises what she’s done. Slowly sets him down.
Cancels the silencio. “Go…go away, kid. It’s not safe around me,” she mutters. Wisdom. Passing wisdom down.
Then she goes over to the wardrobe. Finds the invisibility cloak she arrived with.
Puts it on. Disappears. Time to go. She’s been here too long anyway.
Draco sits up. Rubs at his face. “Where gone?” he shouts.
Stands up. Waits.
She just watches.
“Where gone!” he roars. Then screeches like a fucking banshee.
Cissy runs into the room, pale with panic. Falls to her knees and begins checking Draco all over. “What’s wrong, darling? Are you hurt? Where does it hurt? Tell Mummy. Tell Mother what happened.”
He keeps crying. For no fucking reason. Bright red by now and rolling around as if she crucioed him. Hits out at Cissy.
Bellatrix just leaves. See? Wimp. Pathetic. What are these two supposed to teach her anyway? She has the cloak now. She can hide.
“Bella!” Cissy growls into the empty room. “Where are you? What did you do? If you hurt my son—”
Bellatrix keeps walking. Down the corridor. Down the stairs. Walks straight out the front door.
She can leave. She’s free. She did the right thing. She’s free now.
Time to find Potter. She needs to talk to a blabbermouth. A blabbermouth that knows Dumbledore’s secrets. That cares about Potter.
So. A trip to Knockturn. For polyjuice potion. And the strangest, deadliest, ugliest creature she can find.
There’s a half-giant she needs to talk to.
Number Four Privet Drive. Little Whinging. Surrey.
The great oaf flew there on some kind of…bicycle with an engine. Belonging to Wagtail of all people.
She just apparates there as soon as Hagrid leaves to get the next round of drinks. Idiot.
She doesn’t apparate into the house of course, there will be wards. But just outside. Across the street. Sits on the curb beneath the cloak, and stays out of the way of the…motorcars.
Waits. Casts a cooling charm on herself against the baking heat. Watches the door. Looks for the wards. Feels for them.
There’s something. She’s not sure what it is. She knows there’s protection against the Dark Lord. Lily Potter’s sacrifice stopped him from touching the boy. And Dumbledore has put up some kind of bloodward…
Against Him though. Not against her. She doesn’t think.
A very strange vehicle suddenly turns into the street. Cheery, pastel colours. Playing music. A freakish carnival waltz. Comes blaring through the street, and then stops.
And children come running. It’s…a vehicle that summons children.
She waits for Potter. Or his guardians.
Moves closer and carefully checks every kid for black hair, green eyes, and that scar. He should be two. The same age as Draco. Should be—
Born as the seventh month dies. Oh.
Is it his birthday? Yes. End of July.
But no-one has come to the house. Strange. Do muggles not celebrate birthdays? She doubts it. Beasts. Probably don’t have a concept of time. Calendars. Just let their young run around.
Except…these ones are queuing for…ice-cream. Using currency.
She tries to look inside the vehicle, wand at the ready. How…does the ice-cream not melt? On a hot day? How—
A kid trips over her invisible foot. Drops his ice-cream and lands in it. Face in it.
She slams a hand over her mouth. Don’t laugh. Don’t—
She casts a silencio at herself. Cackles. Oh that stupid kid. It— oh a muggle touched her, but she doesn’t even care. Ha! It’s in his hair. Dripping down its face, filthy thing.
The kid doesn’t cry though. Not like Draco. Sits up and laughs too. Chuckles. Giggles.
A funny little thing, really.
The ice-cream drips all the way down to the kid’s chin, like a beard. Like Dumbledore.
“Ho ho ho!” the kid shouts in a deep voice as the other children point and laugh at him. “Merry Christmas!”
Christmas? Yule?
Muggles have Yule in the summertime?
Another muggle almost walks into her. She hastily backs out of the way. Hide. You’re supposed to hide.
Wand. Stone. Cloak.
Well, she can’t show love. She can’t love a disgusting muggle. And there aren’t any animals around…
There are a few cats. But she can’t pull one under the cloak with all these people around.
Wand. No killing. Now that’s a problem.
Except…she did kill Ratty once, didn’t she?
And Barty died. She didn’t save the kid.
So…
Cheat the system. How can she cheat the system? It’s about…intent, is that it? She killed Ratty because she wanted to go back, but it didn’t work.
Intent. Choosing the right option. So…could she kill Potter…to save someone else? Like with Barty and Mrs Crouch?
Maybe Potter is a bully. If he’s selfish and using his power on people, being a prat, she could teach him. Could kill him as a lesson, like he’s doing to her.
Right. Save someone from a two-year-old?
She grumbles to herself. She’s fed up with waiting all the time. Maybe she should just go into his house and see what happens.
The Boy Who Lived’s house. The Master of Death. Protected by Dumbledore.
Which means he’s more powerful than her!
That’s it! She’s not overpowering him! And he wants to die. He doesn’t want to be the Master. He told her!
Intent. She’s being nice. She’s letting Potter die. Eternal life sucks, even she's starting to see that. It's not for everyone.
She gets up. Marches down the street. Hidden. Invisible. She wants to help Potter. To do what he wants. To stop the fight early. Then the Dark Lord can just take over, and the Light will surrender without their leader. Much simpler. Much—
She can’t blast down the door though. She has to hide.
For Salazar’s Sake!
Oh wait. The window’s open.
She climbs through the window. Waits for the wards to kick in.
Nothing.
No wards? Seriously?
Did Hagrid lie to her?
She walks straight through the house. Looks into the back garden…
That’s a baby. A toddler. Splashing in a tub of water with a horse-faced woman.
A really fat baby. And blond. Huh? Is it a transfiguration? A disguise?
She goes upstairs instead. Finds a nursery room. A bedroom. A bathroom. Another room full of baby’s clothes, toys, and…no other cot. No bassinet or anything for another child.
She stomps back down the stairs angrily. If that fucking oaf lied to her about the address, then—
Crying. A whimper. Hear that?
She stops. It stops.
Did she imagine it?
She continues down the stairs. Peeks through at the garden. Horse Face and Tubby Boy still there…
“Harry?” she whispers. “Are you hiding?”
And she waits. She’s sure she heard…
“Do you want a birthday present, Harry?” she asks a bit more loudly. “Bella has a surprise for ickle baby Potter!”
Still no answer.
Maybe she’s mad.
Then something rattles. Like…a handle.
She spins around. Oh.
They’ve hidden him under the stairs?
She walks closer to the cupboard. Stays under the cloak, but touches the lock. A lock?
What kind of muggles are they? What—
She slides it open. “Be quiet, okay? Stay still,” she murmurs through the door. Hiding. Sharing wisdom.
And slowly opens the door.
A little boy squints out at her. Sat on a mattress. In his underwear. No glasses, but green eyes wide.
Scar visible on his forehead.
Potter. She’s found Potter.
He bites his lip. Rubs his eyes. Looks straight through her.
Poor little thing. So confused.
Should she kill him? Or take him? She could take him straight to the Dark Lord, once she finds him. Or…hide Potter until Quirrell goes to Hogwarts. She could hide Potter with her. Show love. Care for him. Teach him.
And then present him to the Dark Lord to be killed. Kill him for what he did to her.
She could do it now. Slit his throat. He hasn’t moved. Sat waiting.
And then there’s a screech from behind her. “How did you open the door, you freakish little boy!”
Muggle bitch. Horse Face. Okay. Choice made.
Bellatrix stands up. Whips the cloak off.
Grins as the blood drains from the muggle’s face. “He didn’t. I did. I heard ickle baby Potter left all alone. Shut in the dark. We can’t have that, can we, hmm?”
The woman stumbles away, staring at Bellatrix’s wand in terror. “No— you— you stay away from me! You can take him. He’s one of you. You can—”
Bellatrix cackles. Casts an incarcerous at her, sending her thudding to the floor, tightly bound. “Take him? You'd give him to me? Do you know who I am?”
The muggle frantically shakes her head, wriggling on the floor, arms trapped to her sides. “He’s not mine. He’s my sister’s. He— please. Please, I—”
Bellatrix frowns. His aunt?
Hmm…
She points her wand at Potter. “You don’t want him?”
The filthy bitch shakes her head again.
And Bellatrix smiles. Aha. “So in a way…I’ll be helping you if I kill him, won’t I? One less kid to feed.”
There. She’s being thoughtful. Caring.
But…the woman doesn’t seem happy. Freezes. Looks…even more horrified. Waxenly pale. Like she might be sick.
And Potter grabs the end of her wand with his little fist. “Stick,” he whispers.
Stick?
He—
He doesn’t know what a wand is?
Bellatrix laughs in shock. What kind of hippogriff shit is Dumbledore up to here?
Potter comes closer. Cautiously touches her dress.
Enough of this.
She takes out her knife, sits down, and pulls the kid in front of her.
Holds the knife to his throat and looks at the aunt on the floor exasperatedly. “Well? Do you want him alive or not? It’s kind of important. If I get this wrong, I’ll be sent back to Azkaban. To prison. You understand?”
The useless woman doesn’t reply. Stares at the knife. What is it with people not being able to answer simple questions?
She hugs Potter to her. Just in case. Shows love. She can tolerate touching traitorous halfblood spawn if she has to. “You don’t want to be here, do you, Potter?” she whispers in his ear.
So close. She could kill him right now. He isn’t even trying to escape. She could cut his throat. Watch the blood…
It’s not the same though. It’s not fair. He’s too young. He doesn’t look smug. He isn’t all-knowing. He isn’t backtalking her. He’s just leaning against her. Almost sat in her lap, looking at her curiously.
“Please,” the woman on the floor whimpers. “Not the knife. Not blood. You’ll…get blood all over the carpet.”
The carpet? She’s worried about staining the carpet?
Bellatrix puts the knife back in her purse with a snort. “Oh fine. I’ll use my wand, see?”
She stands Harry up. Turns him around. Points her wand at his head.
Just like the Dark Lord did. Feels a twinge of foreboding, a dread, but pushes it down. “Your aunt has decided she doesn’t want you,” Bellatrix explains. “So I’m going to help her get rid of you.”
The boy frowns at her. Tries to grab her wand again.
She moves it out of his reach. “Ah ah ah,” she tuts. “Not for you. Wands are dangerous. They’re not for children. Now…goodbye, Potter.”
He stares at her. She stares back.
Do it.
Just do it. It’s the right thing. For the War. For his aunt. For him. A world without Potter is better.
He falls to sit in her lap again. Waits patiently. Does as he’s told. Doesn’t touch.
Draco could learn a lesson or two from—
No. Stop it. Don’t think about it. It’s Potter. He’s Potter. This isn’t even the same Potter. It’s a fake. A copy.
She takes a sharp breath. Raises her wand. “Avada kedavra!”
It hits.
Deflects off of him. The world goes green.
And she falls onto a hard, cold, stone floor.
Shit.
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
“That was the right thing!” Bellatrix shouts into the dark desperately. “You’re just…biased! It’s what she wanted. It’s what we all wanted!”
“Shut up, you crazy bitch. None of us want to be here.”
No! Same voice? Same—
She’s back. All the way back. And—
No Barty. Her cell. No no no
She backs up against a wall. Slides down it. Falls to sit on the floor.
Oh. Ratty?
Ratty’s back.
She dazedly grabs the bread when it arrives. Breaks a piece off and throws it to the rat.
A tear runs down her face. She wipes it away. “Hi, Ratty,” she whispers. “I’m back. I…did it wrong. I guess I’m back.”
She slumps sideways. Lies on the floor. Listens to the wind and the waves.
So…no killing. No killing Potter. She should have known. The Master of Death. And it’s his game. His sick, twisted lesson.
She should have seen that it was too good to be true. Potter being so small. So helpless.
So…
The dementors arrive.
Warm corner. She should…should move to…
She shivers. More tears fall. She— she feels…
It’s not her fault he was a baby. She didn’t choose to— to hurt a little…she…
Why was he under the stairs? Locked away? In the dark? Is that why he’s doing it to her?
Is it a lesson? Or is that just how muggles live?
“Siri?” she shouts. “Do— Do muggles lock up their kids? Do— do they lock them in cupboards?”
“What the fuck are you talking about?” he shouts back.
It’s just a simple question. She just— she just wants to know. Wants some answers. Some help. Why—
“Please, Siri,” she whines. “Just— just tell me what I did wrong.”
A dark chuckle. “You know what you did wrong,” he spits. “You know exactly why you’re here.”
“I’m here because I lost the war!” she shouts. Slams her hand onto the floor. “I’m trying to fix it. To do it right.”
He just scoffs. Doesn’t reply.
It’s a war. Potter’s on the other side.
Just like Siri.
It…does she have to show love? Caring? The middle brother— the middle brother missed his love so much that he took his own life. Died to be with her. So if she’s learning from his mistakes…shouldn’t she learn not to love? Not to care?
She watches Ratty eat the bread. Takes a few steadying breaths.
Eldest…sister. That’s what Potter said.
Learn from her sisters.
Hide with Cissy. And…and…
She rolls to face in the other direction. Curls up. One sister. She only has one sister to learn from. The other one is a filthy traitor that disgraced their whole family with her betrayal.
Like Siri.
But he was a stupid kid. Andromeda was older. Almost the same age as—
She was seventeen. When she left. As soon as she was of age.
Loved and lost. She has to learn that? To love…and lose? Keep loving? Keep losing?
What kind of rule is that?
She rolls back over. Wipes at her eyes.
Ratty is still there. Freezes next to the bread as she moves.
She…well she is happy to have him back. Ratty. She loved him…and she lost him…and now he’s back again.
And she does miss talking to Wagtail. Even if he’s a traitor. He’s her traitor. Her stupid little cousin.
“Have you figured out how to escape yet, Padfoot?” she calls. “Because I think your godson might be missing his dog!”
The familiar clang of metal. She smiles. Any second now…
“How do you— what do you know?! How do you—”
Bellatrix smiles wider. Crawls over to the bars. Reaches her arm through. “Wormtail. He betrayed you and your friends. He told the Dark Lord a lot of secrets. I’m…he was a coward. I’m sorry. You deserved better than that.”
A long pause.
“You’re sorry?” he croaks. “I…don’t think I’ve heard you say that before.”
Oh.
She huffs. “Well it’s not my fault. I wouldn’t have trusted him as secret keeper. But still. Being locked up in here is shit. So I guess I just feel sorry for you and your bad luck.”
Being locked up. Is it a coincidence? With Potter? He was locked up too. And lost his parents. And…was selfless. He was a hero. Risked his life for his war and his little friends.
Great. Potter is teaching her to be like him. That’s what the rules are.
“Why are you talking to me?” Wagtail calls.
Hmm. Potter. Be Potter. “Because…you’re my family, and you’re innocent, and I…love you,” she calls back. Grimaces.
Can just imagine the look on Rod’s face right now. Oh well. Can’t be helped.
Be The Saviour.
“Barty?” she shouts as the silence drags. “Do you want to hear a story whilst you eat? You have to eat, remember. It’s what your mother would want. She wants you to stay alive!”
No reply.
She sighs. Leans against the bars. Watches Ratty. “Do you want to hear about the time I stole some firewhisky from McGonagall?” she tries.
She knows that works. Went down well last time.
And this time she gets barked laughter in response. “You’re not serious? No way!” Sirius calls.
She grins. Turns around. Sticks her arm back out. “I’m not Sirius. That’s you. But I did. Swear to Salazar. Pinky swear, if you can reach.”
She leans as far as she can to the left. Right at the edge.
Then jerks her arm back as whoever is in the cell next to her tries to lick her. Fucking weirdos. How dare they—
Be nice. No threats. Be Potter. Be kind. He might let you out again. Send someone to help.
“It was a Friday, I think,” she begins. “And I just knew Astronomy was going to be boring as fuck, so I decided I needed something to get me through it…”
Her voice echoes off the stone walls. Soon Ratty pokes his head out of the wall again. Too timid to come closer yet. Doesn’t know her yet. She just keeps talking. Words.
It seems like words are the only power she’s allowed now...
Chapter 33: Stop for a Drink
Notes:
Hi folks!
Wow, that was a long and unexpected break, wasn't it? Thanks for being so patient, and for continuing to leave comments, of course! I have been reading them, but it's been very busy recently because I moved house last week! (To a very small town/village in the British countryside soo....take from that what you will haha)
Anyway, I won't keep you waiting any longer. Here's some more of the story! Enjoy!
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Hermione takes the empty cups and starts washing them up. They’re back to the firewhisky story again. She can’t believe that Bellatrix—
Well, actually, she can believe that Bellatrix would steal from McGonagall’s rooms. Guess her boggart was never the Professor’s disapproval, even back at school.
She sighs. “You really thought you’d be able to kill Harry and not get sent back?”
Bellatrix comes up next to her. Finds a tea towel and starts drying. “I wasn’t right in the head. Deranged, remember? I was bad enough the first time around, and then getting stuck in Azkaban again? Things got a bit…confusing. And— but I was staring to learn! I didn’t want to kill Harry. Well, I did. But I didn’t. It was—”
She throws the towel down. Rubs at her face. “Tried to kill a baby. Fuck. Gods, I was completely insane, wasn’t I?”
Hermione takes a slow breath. “You...well…”
She drifts off. It’s not really something she wants to think about. Or debate. She could argue that Harry is a bit of a special case. That it’s okay for Bellatrix to be angry at him.
But to hold a knife to a two-year-old’s throat…
Bellatrix puts the cups away. “Just shows how much I had to learn. A few months out, and the first thing I do is find a creature on the Knockturn back-alley market, sell it illegally to Hagrid, get him drunk for information, break into a muggle house, tie a woman up, and then try to kill her baby nephew. To be helpful. It—” Bellatrix laughs. “Salazar, I think we have to laugh at that. At how— Siri’s right. Absolute nutter. Completely deranged. Gods, I need a drink.”
Hermione laughs too. A bit awkwardly. Can they laugh? Is that too dark? But…well if Hermione can laugh after everything that happened…
“You’re not really planning on drinking everything tonight, are you?” Hermione checks, changing the subject. “Because it would be impossible. And I’m not sure drinking is a good idea with— What if you use magic? Or forget our cover story? Or…ask something that sounds strange?”
Bellatrix pouts at her. “But you’ll be there. You can make sure I don’t do any of that. I just…need to relax. I’m always thinking too much. All these rules. I’m fed up! I’m tired! Can’t I just…forget it all? Spend one night down the pub? Can…you look after me? For one night? Can it be your turn to think about the rules?”
Oh.
She trusts Hermione that much? With the rules?
Hermione’s breath catches for a second in panic. That’s a big responsibility
But…if Bellatrix feels that all the time…
She does deserve one night off. A night out. Even if Hermione kind of just wants to stay in and relax herself. Maybe have a long shower and find a good book to read.
Hermione sighs. Nods. Reluctantly. “Dinner first. And I’m cutting you off at midnight. And if I tell you we’re going home, at any time, then you have to come with me. Even if you don’t want to leave early.”
Bellatrix beams at her. Steps forward and wraps her in a hug, kissing the side of her head. “You’re the best. Have I told you that? Best person. You win the award,” she says against Hermione’s hair.
Hermione smiles, trying and failing not to be a bit flustered by the attention. “I didn’t know there was an award. But…I do like being the best.”
Bellatrix chuckles. Pulls away. “I know. That’s why I told you. So. Dinner. I’ll make dinner. What do you want?”
“Oh, you don’t have to—”
“Sharing. Caring. Let me help,” Bellatrix says firmly, already looking through the fridge and cupboards.
Hermione lowers herself down to sit at the kitchen table. Rests her head in her hand. Watches. “Whatever you can cook. Whatever we have. I don’t mind. We…mostly have leftovers that need heating up.”
Bellatrix gets some pans out, frowning slightly now. Eyebrows pinched in thought. “Okay. I’ll think of something. You don’t have to stay here, you can have a shower or something, if you want.”
She does want to have a shower. How does Bellatrix always seem to read her mind? She was just thinking that…
But she’d lost track of the thought. Too busy watching Bella.
Oh dear. The feelings are back. Not that they left. But they’re…making themselves a bit more obvious now. Warm and fuzzy. Happy to just sit and watch Bellatrix, whatever she’s doing.
She could sit here for hours and be entertained.
Hermione clears her throat. Waits for Bellatrix to light the stove. Checks that she did it properly. Waits for the spark to catch.
It does.
“Well…it looks like you know what you’re doing,” Hermione says, getting up. “I’ll go have a shower. So there’s time for my hair to dry a bit by tonight. We don’t have a hair dryer.”
And she leaves the kitchen before Bellatrix inevitably asks her to explain how a hair dryer works. Before her thoughts can run off again. Before—
She grabs a towel. Goes into the bathroom and shuts the door. There’s no lock.
And leans against the door. She seems to spend her life leaning against bathroom doors.
The crush. The attraction. It’s still there. And she knows that. She has flirted a bit over the past couple of days even with—
But they live together. Bellatrix is making dinner. And they’re going down the pub. People will ask about their relationship.
So if Bellatrix flirts with her…
Then they’re going to be the new lesbian couple in the village.
Hermione tugs her clothes off. Gets in the shower. Just gets in the shower and—
This is her weird relationship commitment issue thing again. Freaking out. Freaking out because this relationship is suddenly serious. Suddenly possible again. Suddenly open to the real world.
It’s fine. It’s not even a relationship! It’s nothing. It’s—
It’s complicated. Very, very complicated. That’s what she’ll say if anyone asks.
Whilst she’s in charge of a drunk Bellatrix. What was she thinking, agreeing to that?
Drunk in a muggle pub. This…
Is going to be interesting.
Mike is wiping down the bar when they arrive. And the place is pretty dead. Hermione doesn’t know if that makes it better or worse.
Bellatrix skips over and slams a fiver down in front of him. “Evening, Michael. Is it Michael? Nah, Mike suits you better, you’re right. I’d like a drink, please.”
Okay. Here they go.
Wand. Stone. Cloak.
Selfless. Powerless. Caring. Hiding. Wisdom.
And don’t let Bellatrix accidentally do anything magical.
Hermione follows along after her. Ignores the stares directed their way from…mostly old
men sat in corners.
Mike laughs. “Uhh, it is Michael. And I was Mikie for a bit as a kid. But…anyway, what kind of drink were you thinking? Alcoholic, I’m guessing?”
“How about a cider? Or a lager?” Hermione suggests. “I’d quite like a cider.”
“Apples?” Bellatrix frowns at her. “If I’ve only got until midnight, I’m going to need more than that,” she murmurs.
“And if you want to remember or taste any of the other drinks, you can’t start with spirits,” Hermione smiles back.
Bellatrix’s eyes glint. “Tasters. That’s what I want.”
She turns to Mike. “I’ve been in France. I’m completely new to drinking here. So I want to try everything to see what I like and how good it is. Weakest to strongest. I’ll rate them, if you want? Honest review.”
“France?” an old man coming over to the other end of the bar calls out. “Bet you’ve never had a real beer then, have you? Pour her a bitter, Mikie.”
“And Mikie’s back. Fantastic,” Mike mutters under his breath. “But here we go. One bitter, one cider, coming up. Off the tap.”
Hermione smiles. “Thanks. Half a pint for her, though. And maybe we should start a tab…”
The old man comes up behind them, getting some change out of his pocket with shaky, fumbling hands. “No need. The bitter’s on me.”
“Oh, Alf,” Mike protests. “You don’t have to—”
Bellatrix turns too, panicked. “On you? No! No, I’ll buy you one. For the recommendation. Add a pint, Mike. For Alf, right? Where are you sitting? I’ll carry it over.”
Alf huffs at her. “That’s Alfred to you, Missy. And I’ll be six feet under before I let a woman buy me a drink.”
Oh.
“Alf, play nice,” Mike warns.
Bellatrix stills. Then folds her arms. Raises her chin.
Reaches out and closes Alf’s fist around his change. “Then you’d better hold your breath and start digging. I’m buying you a drink, Alfred. No arguments. And I’m carrying it, because you’ve already dropped 40p on the floor.”
She gives him a very firm look. Crouches down to pick up the coins. “And then you’re going to tell me what’s what and who’s who around here, because I’m from out of town and don’t know squat. Deal?”
All falls silent.
Other than Mike awkwardly putting the drinks down.
Bellatrix picks up her half a pint. Drinks. As if the whole room isn’t watching. Drinks it down in one.
Then grimaces. Wipes her mouth. “Four out of ten. Bitter really means bitter, doesn’t it? Nope. This beer isn’t for me. Got anything sweeter?”
Alfred barks out a hoarse laugh. Turns and makes his way off towards an archway, shaking his head. “You had me for a minute there. Get one of those girly drinks. A schnapps. Or a gin and tonic. And come and sit with me and the boys. We’ll catch you up to speed with what’s really going on around these parts.”
What’s really going on?
That sounds ominous.
Mike puts a bottle of lemon Hooch down on a tray next to Alf’s bitter and slides it towards Bellatrix. “Looks like you’re in with the old boys’ club,” he whispers excitedly. “Go on! Go!”
Bellatrix picks up the tray. “A club? What club? What did I— what’s this?”
She looks at the bottle of Hooch.
Mike shrugs. “Alcoholic lemonade. Everyone’s drinking it. Well, young people anyway. We haven’t sold many here. Give it a go.”
Bellatrix looks at him dubiously. But does wander off after Alfred.
Hermione takes her cider and—
“Well, she’s just as intimidating as I remember,” Mike says to himself, letting out a breath. “So how are the towels? You got everything you need now?” He nods at Hermione. “It looks like you found some coats.”
Hermione hesitates. She really does want to stay with Bellatrix, but she did also say she would chat with him for a bit…
Bellatrix should be okay for now. She just got here. She can handle a few old men.
Hermione pulls up a nearby stool. Reaches into her bag. “They’re great, thanks. And we actually got something for your dad. Elizabeth didn’t want him out in the cold so…here.”
She hands over the scarf.
He takes it, eyebrows raising. “Oh. Thanks. I’ll make sure he gets it. That’s really nice of you. He does feel the cold a lot more nowadays. Says he feels it in his…hips and knees and stuff. Bloody awful, getting old.”
“Are most people older around here?” Hermione asks. “Retire to the countryside, or…?”
Wherever they are. Just say. A town name would be good right now.
He just collects some glasses from a small dishwasher around the corner and begins drying them. “Not retirement, really, no. The younger people just tend to move away. I used to have friends that hung around, but there aren’t many jobs going. They’ve all slowly made their way to different cities. But I…I couldn’t leave the pub. Or Dad. And I just know it has potential. I mean, not a bad location, right?”
She nods as convincingly as she can. He seems to buy it. Nods back.
“Not quite coastal, but not too far at a push,” he continues. “Tourists still drive through. Families.”
Near the coast.
Which could be anywhere.
She takes a sip of her cider. Remembers that no-one paid—
Swallows her sip and searches for her purse. “Mm! The drinks! How much— where did that fiver go? And I really think you should open a tab. I’m sure Beth will be back any second with another request. Or suggestion,” she sighs. But smiles. She should have known. Try everything.
Mike holds up the fiver. “Got it already. And I’ll give her halves of everything. How about that? Half the price.”
Hermione smiles. “Perfect. Otherwise, I’ll never be able to get her home. Maybe I should go check on her. Boys’ Club? What exactly…”
He leans in to whisper. “A few old codgers who somehow missed both world wars, and have created their own war with the town over for a bit of entertainment. Compete growing vegetables or say their sheep are being stolen. That the wrong sort are moving in because there’s a cinema and a bowling alley being built.”
A war?
“And why…do they want Elizabeth?”
He shrugs. “Beats me. Although she sure told Alf. She’s a bit scary, actually. Maybe they’ll send her in to frighten people off.”
Hermione laughs in a bit of a panicked squawk. Oh dear. How—
How has it happened again already? Does Bellatrix have like a magnet for power hungry old men that want to use her for her…well…power?
Hermione stands up. “I should really get back there then.”
He gives her an odd look. “You sure? It’s okay, she’ll be fine. I was joking, really. They’re just big gossips. They’ll be telling her how people trim their hedges, or what time they go to bed. Who put a lot of bottles in the bottle bank. And…she seems like she can handle herself.”
Oh.
Is Hermione overreacting?
She’s probably overreacting. He’s right.
She sits back down.
But does want to see Bellatrix. Is that rude to just leave him?
She stands back up.
He gives her another look. “So…no offence, but you and Elizabeth seem like very different kinds of people. How do you know each other?”
Ah. This question.
Hermione shrugs casually. Sits back down and looks at her drink. “Oh, we don’t. Not really. Just through friends. But I’m sure we’ll get to know each other a lot better now that we’re flatmates,” she says, fighting a smile as she repeats Bellatrix’s cover story to Joyce, almost word for word. Sips at her drink.
“Huh,” he hums. Ducks under the bar to put the glasses away. “I assumed you’d known each other for ages. Just the way you talk. The back and forth.”
Oh.
It’s noticeable? That they…know each other?
Hermione bites her lip. Well. How long have they known each other? Days? Weeks? Months?
Years?
Time isn’t a very exact measurement for them anymore…
“I…she is easy to talk to,” Hermione admits. Fiddles with her glass as she talks. Then undoes the buttons on her coat. Too hot. Too restricted. “She’s a very interesting person,” she tries to explain. “We really haven’t known each other that long, but it feels like we’ve known each other forever. Maybe it’s her. Her lack of boundaries and…” She laughs. “Well, you’ve seen what she’s like. She kind of crashes into people’s lives. My life. I can’t even…explain how we met! Or how this happened! I’m just as confused as you are. You’re right. We’re so different. But we’re living together.”
Mike gives her an odd look. “She’s a bad person to live with, then? You two clash a lot?”
Bad?
Clash?
Hmm…
“No,” Hermione quietly muses. Sips at her drink. “Not clash. I suppose…” What can she say? “This move has been difficult. Getting here. Making arrangements. But…we mostly see eye to eye. And we talk a lot. We always talk things out. And laugh! She’s so funny. We argue sometimes, but I also haven’t laughed this much in ages. Smiled. Oh she’s going to be such a handful tonight, but I think my cheeks will be hurting from smiling by the time we leave.”
They already hurt a bit from today. All of the muggle things, and Bellatrix meeting people. It’s so hard to keep a straight face.
She smiles into her drink.
Tries to get her face under control.
Obviously fails. Gets another odd look from Mike.
Tries again to stop thinking about Bellatrix.
“No!” Hermione sighs as Mike stares at her in amazement. “I’m not kidding. I honestly haven’t heard it. I don’t listen to the radio, or buy many new cassettes, so music isn’t—”
And then she throws her arms forward to catch herself against the bar, only narrowly avoiding knocking her pint over as she’s hugged from behind. Warmth at her back. Arms around her neck. Cheek pressed to hers.
Bellatrix
“Be— Beth!” she squeaks out. “I’m drinking!”
Bellatrix clings on. “I know. You’re a slow poke. How haven’t you finished that yet? Mikie, I’m here for my next drink. Whisky. Bottle and two glasses. I’ve got to outdrink George before he’ll let me drive his tractor.”
Whisky— George— tractor?
Hermione whips her head around. “What?” she half laughs. “You—”
And then jumps. Bellatrix hasn’t moved at all. They’re practically nose to nose, wide smile on Bellatrix face.
Hermione wriggles out of her grip, sliding off the barstool. “Again, you need a licence,” Hermione says.
Bellatrix rolls her eyes. “He lets his grandson drive it. He’s fourteen. And I’m teaching the old guy a lesson. He said I was too posh to be a farm girl. Too pale and dainty. Said I’d never done a day’s work in my life. Dainty. I mean—” she gestures to herself. Then scoffs. “I’m not Draco.”
Draco? That’s her go-to dainty person?
Bert comes out of a side door and joins Mike behind the bar, obviously listening in. “So you’re saying you’re not posh, are you?” he grins pointedly. “Your voice says different.”
Bellatrix leans against the bar. “Pssh. My family’s as posh as it gets. What I’m saying is I can’t help being born posh. But I can still work hard. Learn. That’s why I have to prove myself. And I might not like ale, but I can drink whisky. So come on. What are you waiting for? I’m about to drink an old man under the table.”
Hermione rubs her forehead. Then gently squeezes Bellatrix’s arm. “Is that the wisest thing to do? The kindest? If you’re good at drinking, then shouldn’t you…”
Bellatrix leans in again. Whispers in her ear. “Lose? I know what I’m doing, Sally. Everyone knows the newbie doesn’t win the jackpot. But I’ve got to give them a good game…”
Oh. Oh!
“You’re going to fake it? Bluff?” she smiles back.
“Yep.” Bellatrix pops the ‘p’. “And then next week I’ll be lifting some hay bales for him. Getting up early to milk the cows. Helping.”
Hermione continues smiling. “So no tractor?”
Bellatrix doesn’t reply. Just smiles back. Holds out a hand to Mike. “Bottle. Glasses. Pretty please, barkeep. You can come and watch, if you want.”
Mike reluctantly passes a bottle over—
Bert stops him. “Hold your horses. Sorry, love, but I’m not letting that sort of drinking happen in here. You’re going to have to think up a different wager.”
Bellatrix pouts at him. Leans over the bar to reach. “But—”
“No buts,” he insists. Waves his cane at her hands. “George Landman is eighty-eight years old, and only ever drinks a pint or so a few times a week. It’s all he’s ever drunk since he came over from the Caribbean almost fifty years ago and decided our rum wasn’t up to scratch. So I don’t know what he’s been talked into with this whisky drink-off, but it’s not happening. You can have a glass each, and that’s that.”
He pours two glasses. Puts the bottle back, holding eye contact with Bellatrix.
“He’s not a drinker?” she whispers to herself, eyes darting in realisation. “Shit.”
She leans in again to whisper to Hermione. Loudly. “You have to notice things for me! I’m getting things wrong! What are you doing sat over here anyway? You promised to stay with me!”
Hermione frowns. Holds her by the shoulders. “It’s only been about twenty minutes. I was talking to Mike and…are you okay? What have they been saying to you? And how much have you had to drink? You seem…”
A bit out of it already. And the boundaries have disappeared completely. She’s still standing too close. And her hand is sneaking beneath Hermione’s coat to fiddle with her belt…
“Half a bitter, that bottle of lemonade, and I tried something called a shandy, and a different beer that was lighter,” Bellatrix admits. “But only a taste. A few mouthfuls.”
In twenty minutes. Ah. That explains it.
Hermione finishes off her last few mouthfuls of cider and picks up the whisky glasses. “Then you might need to slow down. And I’ll come with you. I did promise. Which way is your table?”
Bellatrix takes one of the glasses for her, and then takes Hermione’s hand with the other, pulling her along. “Good. Wand. Stone. Cloak. Don’t forget, Gr— Sally. Shit. Forgot. See, this is why I need you.”
And Hermione is dragged through the archway and up a step into a more secluded back room. With three old men at a table.
One rubs a hand over his mouth thoughtfully “She go for a whisky and come back with a blonde. It seems this place is magical tonight.”
Bellatrix sniggers. “I always bring the magic. It’s how I got into your club so fast. Alf was charmed.”
Bellatrix!
Bellatrix passes the glass of whisky over to him as he chuckles. “This is my flatmate, Sally. The one I told you about. Sally, this is George, you remember Alf, and that’s Peter, pretending not to fall asleep in the corner.”
“I’m resting my eyes,” Peter murmurs, eyes still shut. “It’s how I keep them sharp, don’t you know.”
The other two nod simultaneously as if this is a regular occurrence. “Five minutes an hour. Every hour,” Alf explains. “Sounds cuckoo, but before you say he’s lost his marbles, you should know he’s regional darts champion over in County Cork. Or was, when he was still a lad.”
“Many moons ago. How long now since you did see Pete pick up a dart?” George chuckles. “And where’s the bottle of whiskey you did promise, girl, hmm? You backing out of our wager?”
Bellatrix takes a couple of folded notes out of her jacket pocket and hands it over to him with an exaggerated sigh. “Sorry. No can do with the bottle. Bert wasn’t having it. But…darts… did you say?”
Oh. Oh wait. Darts. She—
“You play darts?” George hums, eyes glinting.
Bellatrix shrugs casually. Sits down. “No. But it can’t be that hard. Throwing. Aiming. I’ve always had quite good coordination. I mean, I couldn’t go against Peter. Or I could try. You’ll have to help me keep score, I’m not sure how it works.”
Hermione holds back a scoff of utter disbelief. Has to turn her face away.
Liar. Oh she is such a liar! Wizards have darts. Wizards play darts. She’s seen a dartboard in Regulus’ old room at Grimmauld Place.
And for Bellatrix to say she has quite good coordination? Understatement of the century!
George smiles. “Oh I’m sure we can teach you the basics. Peter? Shall we see if she has the potential?”
They all begin getting to their feet.
They’re about to get played.
Bellatrix seems as relaxed as ever. Takes the glass of whisky from Hermione. Tries it. “Mm. Now this one’s good,” she murmurs. “Smooth. Eight out of ten. Want to share?”
She holds it to Hermione’s lips. Tips it—
Hermione quickly takes it. “I can drink by myself!”
But she does take a sip. Shivers at the burn of it.
And nudges Bellatrix in the side. Can’t seem to stop touching her either. Or break eye contact. “Thanks. For sharing. Now go teach those men not to underestimate a woman.”
Bellatrix grins. That cheeky, familiar grin. Still there. Looks around to where the men have reached a dartboard in a corner, finding the darts in a cupboard and chalk to keep score. “Should I really try?” she whispers. “Straight away? Or bluff some more?”
Hmm. The rules…
“I think…” Hermione starts.
Then smiles back. Shakes her head. “Just have fun. I want to see what you can do too. But don’t be cocky. Learn from them. The learning and teaching can go both ways. And Peter must be good if he was champion. Don’t underestimate the opponent. But…it’s your night off. So show them some moves.”
“You think I have moves?” Bellatrix grins more slyly. Reaches for the whisky.
Hermione pulls it out of her reach. Laughs. Flirt. “I know you have moves. You always have moves. But you might want to stop drinking before you’re throwing sharp objects around. You could hurt someone if—”
And Hermione breaks off.
Watches Bellatrix’s expression freeze. Smile drop.
Knows they’re both thinking the same thing. Both remember how deadly Bellatrix’s aim can be.
If she can throw a knife at an apparating elf…
“Elizabeth?” Peter calls. “Are you still wanting to give it a go?”
“I…” Bellatrix calls back over her shoulder. “I think—”
Her voice falters. Just a touch.
“I actually…don’t know if it’s the best idea. Not sure I should be trusted with it.”
And she looks back to Hermione. Too-light hazel eyes asking. Questioning. Hands back in her pockets.
Leather jacket. No wand. No knife.
Night off. Friends with muggles.
Hermione reaches an arm around her. Turns her around and walks her towards the old men. “Oh, go on. You’ll be fine! It’s just a bit of fun. And no-one’s around to get hurt.”
“You’re sure?” Bellatrix mutters.
Hermione quickly leans to whisper to her, close to her ear. “Different person. New start. Making friends.”
And then pulls back to speak more loudly. “I bet you’ll be great! And you have a real expert here to show you how it’s done. I’m excited to watch.”
Bellatrix continues forwards, and Hermione hangs back next to Alf, who sips at his beer, giving her a brief nod that she can't figure out the meaning of.
Bellatrix takes her hands out of her pockets. Rolls her shoulders back a few times and shakes her arms out. Adjusts her sleeves as they fall back over hands. “Alright. I’m in. How about…if I win, I get to drive George’s tractor. But if he wins…I’ll muck out the stables.”
Win-win. Such a slytherin.
George hands Bellatrix a dart and then sets his whisky down, mostly untouched. “Then you have a deal. But seeing as you’re new to this, I’ll let Pete give you little bit of coaching. Whatcha say, Peter?”
He turns his back. Takes off his hat and coat.
Peter doesn’t reply. And hasn’t moved from his position leaning against the nearby stone wall.
But his eyes have drifted down. To Bellatrix’s hand. The way she’s holding the dart. Kind of twizzling it between her thumb and finger.
George turns back. “You want a few practice shots, then? Or do we start right away?”
Bellatrix nods. “Yeah, let me just try it. I’ll aim for the middle and…how far back do I stand? Where’s the…here?”
She takes a couple of steps back. There’s a faint chalk line on the floor.
And she holds up the dart at eye level. Brings it forward and back. Testing.
Alf huffs out a laugh. “Now, I’m no expert, but isn’t one of you going to tell her she should be standing sideways?”
“Just let her do her thing, Alf,” Peter murmurs.
Sharp eyes. Sharp. And yet he’s so still. Leaning steadily. Less for support, and more for a gentle ease. Definitely more spry than his friends. Younger, maybe.
Bellatrix’s eyebrow raises a touch as she glances his way.
Then smiles.
Stands side on. Raises her hand to chin height. Wrist back. Perfectly still. Held breath.
Whips her wrist forward and releases. Quick as a snake. The dart strikes in an instant.
Bullseye. Fifty points.
Hermione releases a breath.
Impressive. She’s always so impressive.
Bellatrix cackles in the astonished silence. Leans on her knees. “Oh I was going to keep up the bluff! But you bloody had me pegged, didn’t you, Peter? There’s no fooling you.”
He straightens, saunters over, and hands her another dart. “Moment you touched the dart. Are you professional, like?”
Bellatrix shakes her head. “Not really. Just for fun. But I…have a lot of experience with fighting. For work. I mean for research. Archery! Yep. That’s it. And guns. Pistols. And knife throwing.”
And she throws the next dart at the board without turning. Gets a…triple fourteen. Forty-two
“Archery, and guns, and knives?” George slowly asks, coming up next to her. Gives Hermione a questioning look.
“She was a stuntwoman,” Hermione says quickly. Nods as convincingly as she can. Gives Bellatrix a look that hopefully says go along with it, I’ll explain later.
Bellatrix just smiles widely and points at George with both hands. “Told you I could work hard and learn things quickly!” She pats her pockets. “Anyone got a knife? I could show you how to throw—”
“Okay!” Mike suddenly shouts from behind them, near the archway. Hermione hadn’t noticed him arrive. “Can’t believe I’m saying this, but no knife throwing allowed. And I see you, Alf, penknife away.”
Alf slips his penknife back into his pocket with a humph.
“I’ve brought drinks,” Mike continues. “More tasters for Beth. On her tab.”
And he carries a tray over. With half-pints and shot glasses. All with different coloured liquids.
Bellatrix’s face lights up. She throws another dart. Hermione didn’t even see her pick up another one. Where it came from. But it hits the dartboard, even with Bellatrix walking away to meet Mike and the drinks.
Hermione swallows.
Puts the whisky down on the table.
No more drinking for her. She’s definitely going to need her wits about her tonight.
“Peach,” Bellatrix declares, sipping from one of the shot glasses. Smacks her lips. “Tastes like peaches. I like it. Seven out of ten.”
Alf shuffles over next to her. “Didn’t I say to you? One of those fruity, girly things. A schnapps. Archers, it’s called. I can’t stand the stuff. Like drinking the syrup from a peach tin.”
Bellatrix drinks the rest of it. Huffs. “Exactly! And who doesn’t like peaches? What’ve you got against fruit? Men don’t eat fruit?”
“It’s just how it is,” Mike shrugs, joining the conversation and clearing some empty glasses. Looks like he’s being careful not to brush against Bellatrix as he does so, but keeps glancing her way. “Women like fruity things. And fruity smells. Like all that…body cream stuff.”
“Fruit or flowers,” Bellatrix nods. Frowns. Moves closer to Mike and sniffs at him around shoulder and neck height. “What do men smell like, then? What scents are you allowed?”
Mike freezes, eyes widening. Deer in the headlights as Bellatrix hovers. “Uh— well I— soap? And I think…black pepper or sea foam or something in my shower gel? I dunno. There was one bottle down the shop and…what do you think?”
Well Hermione thinks he’s going to get the wrong message if Bellatrix doesn’t learn some boundaries.
She edges closer and subtly pulls Bellatrix back. “I’m sure you smell nice. Men don’t get as much choice, do they? With shower things. Um…how about we sit down, Beth? Or you could play more darts? Have a game against…Peter?”
“Or she could show us some of her stunts,” George pipes up, sitting down and sipping at his whisky. Hat and jacket back on. “What kind of stunts is you doing? Maybe we know? An action woman?”
“Lara Croft,” Mike says. “She’d be a great Lara Croft. You know, Tomb Raider?”
Bellatrix frowns. “I’ve never raided a tomb. You mean like pyramids? Or grave robbers? What—”
“He means a video character. A game character,” Hermione explains, trying to use words Bellatrix will know. “Lara Croft is a character you can…pretend to be. I’ve never really played it, but she gets artefacts from tombs and fights people, I think.”
“Oh!” Bellatrix says, reaching for another glass and then sitting with George. “Like Indiana Jones! I like him. Good with a whip. Love a whip.”
Indiana—
TV! She’s watched TV! Films!
Wow. She must know…quite a lot about the muggle world, then.
But imagining Bellatrix watching a film is just bizarre. They definitely need to have a film night. Or just watch some more tv.
Wait. What did Bellatrix just say? Love a whip?
Oh dear. Not very normal. Good job they said she was a stunt woman.
“But never use a whip without training!” Bellatrix quickly blurts out. “They can hurt people! And they’re more difficult to use than you’d think. Longer. Heavier. You have to get the right angle and momentum on it.”
She’s standing up again. Kind of demonstrating. Arms moving through the air, flicking her wrist.
Clear liquid flying onto the floor from her glass. That looked like vodka.
Mike gives her a pointed look.
Bellatrix sheepishly sits back down. Places the glass back on the tray. Waves her hand—
Cleaning spell!
Hermione lurches across and grabs her wrist before she can finish casting it. Takes her hand. “Never mind! At least it wasn’t the red wine. No stain.”
No magic, but there’s no way of reminding her…oh! “Shame none of us are Mary Poppins though, you must have a lot of cleaning and tidying to do around here,” Hermione adds to Mike.
Bellatrix squeezes her hand. So she got the message, good.
Mike is looking at their hands too…
Hermione slowly pulls away. Glances around at the other men. Isn’t sure…we’ll they’re old, and a bit sexist, and…
Peter has a glint in his eye too. Shit.
What should she do? What’s the best—
Wand. Stone. Cloak.
Powerless. Love. Teaching. Sharing.
Hermione reaches for another drink. A green one. Apple sourz.
Passes it to Bellatrix, and then takes her left hand instead. “Here. Try this one. Apple with a sour kick.”
She gets a smile for that. A bright smile from Bellatrix. And a thumbs up, once she’s tried it.
Nine out of ten.
And Bellatrix stands back up. Edges around the table and pats Peter on the shoulders. “So. Peter. How about a game? It’s your turn. Want to show me how it’s really done? I’m ready to learn from a professional.”
He looks up at her. “Oh I think we both have a lot to learn, don’t we now?”
He pats her hand. “Go fetch the darts for me. We’ll have a game, alright. Your Sally can keep score.”
Her Sally?
She shares a look with Bellatrix.
Bellatrix winks.
Uhh…
Right…
Well. Hermione had better go get the chalk. Apparently she’s keeping score.
“Now this apple, I can get behind,” Bellatrix says as she falls with a thump to sit on the cushioned window ledge next to Hermione, arm slung over her shoulder.
“I can tell,” Hermione smiles back. “Your tongue’s going green. Have you made some more friends?”
The younger crowd has arrived. A few teenagers playing pool in this room down the stairs around the back. The old boys’ club has disbanded for the night after the darts game ended in a draw for the third time, Peter not the only one with his eyes shut once it hit ten o’clock.
Bellatrix’s mouth falls open in surprise, revealing exactly how green her tongue is. Damn it. She must have ordered another one just now when Hermione went to the toilet.
“It’s green? I’m going green?” Bellatrix whispers fearfully. “I didn’t know it did that.”
Going green?
Hermione pulls Bellatrix’s hands back down from where she’s touching her own face. Maybe checking for greenness. “No! It just temporarily stains your tongue from the colouring. Like dye. You’re— you’re not going green,” she laughs.
Does she think muggle drinks could turn her into the Wicked Witch of the West? That’s so adorable.
Bellatrix expression relaxes. And she shuffles closer. “Stain? Hmm. Maybe I’ll share some green with you then.”
Coming closer. Moving closer. Leaning in—
Sharing green? Wait, is she going to kiss—
Hermione grabs her shoulders and turns her head to stop her. “Wait. Wait, I don’t know— you’re drunk. And we’re in public. And we haven’t— not since— we shouldn’t—”
Kissing isn’t a thing they do anymore!
Right?
Bellatrix pulls back.
Looks down at her hands. “So you don’t want to kiss me anymore?” she mumbles. “I thought…but I’m the same person. Different person. Same person. I’m the same person but different. But you thought I was different. Which I am. But I’m not. Not really. But I am. Where it counts. But I’m not—”
Hermione presses a finger to her lips as the rambling continues on and on. “I know. And that’s why. It’s all so…jumbled! Complicated.”
Even though…with Bellatrix sat here, staring at the floor, looking so disheartened…
Bellatrix flops her head back against the wall. Smiles sheepishly at the ceiling. “It’s not complicated. Not for me. I…like you. Whoever you are. Whichever Herm— Sally you are. Even if you’re Sally. Out of everyone I’ve ever met, it feels a lot nicer being with you. And I’ve met lots of people. Lots of times. But…this time feels like the best one. The right one. And that’s because of you.”
Oh. Oh why does she have to be so— how can Hermione resist…
She’s so sweet. And funny. And kind. And pretty. Not just pretty. Beautiful. And smart. And brave. And strong. And—
Hermione moves closer—
Bellatrix abruptly stands up. Sighs. “But you’re right. You’re a good friend, Sally. And I’m pissed. And it’s nearly midnight. You need to walk me home before I roll home. Turn into a pumpkin. Like in Cinderella, get it? We have that story too. But the godmother is a witch, not a fairy. Obviously.”
…what?
Hermione blinks. Shakes herself out of…
Bellatrix didn’t see. She was too drunk to notice that Hermione nearly moved closer. Nearly leaned in. Thought about—
Bellatrix wobbles. Staggers to lean against a wall.
Hermione stands up with a smile. Gently but firmly takes her arm. Too many drinks. Hermione lost count, but she’s definitely had at least ten over the course of the evening. “Let’s get you home before midnight, then. Ratty will be wondering where we are. Where’s your jacket?”
Bellatrix leans against her heavily. Holds onto her, hands shifting over her as she turns her head left and right. “I think…can’t remember…got too hot. When was I wearing it?”
Hermione leads her up a few steps back to the main area with the bar.
An empty main area. So the teenagers are the only ones who made it till midnight, playing pool in the back room.
Hermione looks around. Tries to spot a stray black jacket…
Mike waves at her. Holds it up.
They make their way over.
“It’s your boyfriend,” Bellatrix huffs in her ear.
Hermione laughs. Mike? Boyfriend? Where did that come from? “Actually, I think he likes you more,” Hermione whispers back. “He’s just too scared to ask you out. You might want to stop standing too close to him, so you don’t break his heart.”
Bellatrix trips on nothing. Sends them both stumbling forwards against the bar. Ow.
“You alright?” Mike asks with a frown. “Need a hand getting home?”
“I’m not going home with you!” Bellatrix snaps. Pulls them upright. “I’m going home with Sally.”
An arm goes around Hermione’s waist. Holds her very tightly.
“I…guess you are,” Mike says slowly. Looks between them. His lip twitches as he meets Hermione’s eye. “But don’t forget your jacket. Can’t have my best customer catching her death.”
He holds out the jacket. “By the way, you have a lot of surprising things in your pockets.”
She does?
Bellatrix snatches it from him. “And you are a nosy barker. My pockets, my stuff. No looking at— I mean, uh…wait. Wait I…”
She lunges to whisper to Hermione. “Rules? Wand? Stone? Sharing?”
Hermione falls back a step on impact. Whoa! Careful—
She reaches a fumbling hand into her bag for her purse. “Why don’t you pay the tab, Beth? Before we forget.”
And lips brush her jaw. That definitely felt like a kiss to her jaw.
“Yes,” Bellatrix whispers. “Sensible. Money. Always have money to…how much…card. Credit card. Debit card. Rich Uncle…beardy face.”
Hermione barks out a laugh. “Brian!” she hisses with a smile. “Your Uncle Brian.”
Bellatrix just takes some pound coins from the purse instead. Gives him…five pounds. In pound coins.
Hermione slips out a tenner and surreptitiously passes it to him too. Oh Bellatrix. Pounds, not galleons. She’s drank a lot more than that, even with the fiver she gave him earlier.
Mike hands Bellatrix two pounds change. “There you are,” he says softly. “You two get home safe. And thanks for stopping by.”
Bellatrix nods floppily, hand missing her pocket a few times before she manages to get the change into it. “You’re a nice guy, Mike,” Bellatrix sighs. Reaches across the bar and pats his cheek. Or more like his face as she blinks a few times, staring into space. “So nice. You’re an unlucky sod though. Isn’t he unlucky, Herm— Sally? Us. We turned up in his town. Poor guy. Poor Mike.”
Mike gives Hermione another look. “Umm…why’s that unlucky? I like having you both here. It’s good you showed up. You’re…both very interesting people. And nice too.”
Bellatrix laughs. “Nice? Really?”
She leans up on the bar. Stands on a slight lip at the bottom. On her tiptoes. Leans up to his height. “You think I’m nice?” she grins, right in his face.
He laughs back, still a bit awkwardly. “Am…I not supposed to think that? What do you want to be?”
Bellatrix stills. Searches his eyes.
Slowly lowers herself back down. “I want to be nice,” she whispers. “I want to…I’m sorry. If you were scared of me. If you’re ever scared of me. I am trying not to scare people. I swear.”
Hermione gently draws her back again. Finds the zip of her jacket and does it up for her.
Puts an arm around her back, to hold her steady as they walk. “He isn’t scared of you,” Hermione quietly reminds her. “Nobody is. Now come on. Let’s go home.”
Bellatrix turns to look at her. Searches her face this time. Her eyes. And even without her usual burning gaze, it still feels like she’s looking into Hermione’s soul.
“Nobody’s scared?” Bellatrix murmurs.
Reaches to touch Hermione’s face. Strokes her face. “Not even you?”
Hermione stares back. Looks at her. At the way she can’t quite keep her balance, rocking into and away from Hermione’s grip. At the redness to her cheeks, from the alcohol.
The openness to her expression. The real question in her voice. A slight…doubt. A need for an answer. A fear of an answer.
Hermione takes a slow breath. Glances at Mike, still stood awkwardly and confusedly to their left, behind the bar.
“Not scared,” Hermione whispers.
Then touches her back. Strokes her cheek back. Thumb rubbing over a cheekbone that’s still the same. Down and around over a familiar jaw.
“But—” Bellatrix stutters out. Glances at Mike too. “Hiding—”
“Caring,” Hermione interrupts. Smiles. “I care about you. I tried to fight it, but I can’t. And if— if you weren’t so drunk right now, I’d kiss you to prove it.”
Not hiding. Shit. Shit, should she have said that? Bold move, Hermione. Too bold. Too Gryffindor. Argh, her heart is beating a mile a minute.
Maybe Bellatrix won’t remember this tomorrow? And Mike…
She smiles bashfully at Mike. Kind of shrugs at him. Sorry. It’s probably best that he knows—
He doesn’t seem surprised. He’s shaking his head at her, and smiling too as he dries the glasses. Oh. Did he guess— ah!
Hermione tries not to fall over as Bellatrix pulls her towards the door.
“Bye, Mikie! Thanks for the booze!” Bellatrix shouts over her shoulder as they leave, out into the night air. “Sorry again for getting stuck with us!”
“Bella— What are you— you’re going to make us fall over! What are you doing?!” Hermione shouts. Probably a bit too loudly. Wrong name!
Bellatrix does fall off the curb, but luckily the road is empty, so they just stumble over to the other side, where Hermione manages to get a hold of her properly.
Against a wall.
Bellatrix’s arms go around her neck. “I’m getting us home,” Bellatrix grins. “Because you do want to kiss me. Once I’m less drunk. So I’m not going to let you change your mind or freak out about it. I need to get back and drink a pepper-up potion so I’m sober again, because I know you’re too Gryffindor and noble to do anything otherwise. The right thing. You always do the right thing.”
Oh.
Hermione sighs. Bites her lip against a smile.
Removes the arms from her neck, and walks them along, Bellatrix next to the wall and away from the road. “Umm…you thought we had pepper-up potion?” she says slowly. Quietly, as their feet tap down the street. “It…we’re not Mary Poppins. Our medicine isn’t magical.”
Bellatrix leans into her again. Then overcorrects and hits into a post-box. “Ow. I know that. But the…equivalent. Medicine. Some…pill or something. Sober pill. Hangover pill.”
Hermione laughs. “Uhh…that doesn’t exist. Did you think— oh no. I thought you knew! I thought— you’ve mixed so many drinks tonight. But all we have is water and paracetamol. Pain killers. Sorry. That’s it.”
“There isn’t— no!” Bellatrix shouts. “Hermione!”
Hermione covers her mouth, shushing her frantically. “Sssh! There are still houses around here! People are sleeping. And I’m Sally.”
“You’re not Sally,” Bellatrix whispers in her ear, leaning on her shoulder. “You’re Hermione fucking Granger, and you should have told me!”
“Sorry!” Hermione whispers back. “I don’t know what you know and what you don’t. Didn’t Andy tell you about what medicine we use?”
“No! She had pepper-up in the cupboard like every other witch and wizard with a brain and a bottle of Ogdens. Why wouldn’t she use potions? Especially as she’s a potioneer. And a herbologist!”
Potioneer? Herbologist? “Her and Narcissa?” Hermione frowns. “Why are they both so good at Herbology and Potions? Is it a family thing?”
“Both?” Bellatrix scoffs. “What do you mean? Cissy is all about her charms, she never bothers with all of that other stuff. Not now she’s out of school and she doesn’t have to. She thinks it’s disgusting. Down in the dirt.”
And Bellatrix begins listing on her fingers, rolling her eyes exaggeratedly. “The fumes. The smell. It ruins her robes. You have to chop up disgusting creatures. Risk of explosions. Hours hunched over, ruining your posture. The harm it does to your skin. Your hair. The—”
“But the book!” Hermione interrupts. “The notes in the Herbology book! For Neville!”
Bellatrix pauses. Stops for a moment.
Looks up at the starlit sky. Smiles sadly as she sways. “Ah. So you all thought it was Cissy,” she murmurs. Shakes her head. “Cissy with the fancy handwriting in the book. Cissy bringing remedies to Frank for his ears and his joints.”
Well…yes. Her sister. And the handwriting looked like Draco’s.
Bellatrix continues them walking again. One hand trailing over a railed fence, the other arm wrapped around Hermione. “I have two clever sisters,” she whispers. “Two clever sisters with fancy handwriting. Who paid attention to their tutors, unlike me. Same tutor. Similar handwriting. But do you really think Cissy would be so cliché and gauche as to write in green ink? Or would go and visit an old muggle caretaker without me knowing, just to help him?”
Oh…
Damn it! Why didn’t she think of that?!
Bellatrix laughs quietly. Maybe at Hermione’s expression. “Cissy is still scared of muggles. Hates them. You must have seen that from the way she talked to you. She still thinks the Longbottoms are bloodtraitors. On the wrong side. The Potters. The Weasleys. And Siri. Living with her...I tried. I tried to hide with her. But I couldn’t behave like I should. Like I wanted to.” She fights a yawn. Continues. “Hiding under her rules meant hiding those things too. Empathy. Compassion. I— well, I think she loves me. She tolerated my new ideas about things. But it was more…”
Bellatrix snorts. Laughs to herself. Kicks at a stray stone as they turn onto a country lane. Luckily it’s a clear night. Full moon. But they might need to buy a torch. It’s hard to see away from the streetlights.
“I guess it was like being in the closet,” Bellatrix chuckles. “A closeted ‘muggle lover’. Don’t ask, don’t tell, you know? Like she didn’t understand my ‘lifestyle choices’, but put up with it because I’m the only family she’s got left.”
Hermione smiles awkwardly at the comparison. It’s a good metaphor. She can almost feel it. The sore subject. Imagine it. Prejudice. Narcissa is still prejudiced. “Couldn’t you…just teach her the way you learnt?” Hermione cautiously asks. “However…whatever made you change your mind. It— I mean— weren’t you worse than her? Before?”
Bellatrix grimaces. “Well that’s a fucking understatement. But…she’ll get there eventually. I had a lot more time. That’s what it was. And a lot more…well, you know. The rules. More incentive. More chances. And…options. I saw almost all the options, eventually. It helps you see things from a different point of view.”
And she reaches into her pocket.
Pulls out a small torch. Clicks the button.
“Where did you get that?” Hermione asks, just…baffled. Is she Mary Poppins? Or a mind reader? A legilimens?
Bellatrix grins. “I found it in the house in one of the drawers. I always used to wonder how muggles cast a lumos. I thought they only had fire, at first, and that torches were just fire on sticks, but Frank has a torch. It has a bulb inside. Like a lightbulb. But it’s powered with batteries. Like a tv remote.”
Hermione smiles. Almost says that she knew that already. But doesn’t. Hugs Bellatrix from the side instead. Slips her hand into Bellatrix’s pocket to keep warm. “You’re so clever,” Hermione hums. “Always a step ahead, too. What else do you…do you have sweets in your pocket?” She can feel a wrapper. As well as what feels like…marbles? Some string. And a paper clip. And…
“Chocolate,” Bellatrix nods. “I always keep chocolate on me, if I can. Against the dementors. Sneaky things. Always come back…somehow…”
Oh.
Hermione checks Bellatrix’s expression. Her eyes have closed. Brow pinched.
Hermione kisses her temple. Takes the torch. Takes the lead.
“Did you just kiss me?” Bellatrix mutters, eyes still closed. Then yawns again.
“Just keep walking, sleepy,” Hermione smiles. “Nearly home.”
Bellatrix’s eyes open. “You’re sure…which way…” she mumbles.
Hermione steers her as she tries to turn them the wrong way into a fence.
“This way. I know the way. I’ve got you. Trust me,” Hermione whispers.
Bellatrix seems to relent. Her feet shuffle back into the road.
And her hand moves into her pocket, with Hermione’s. She takes out the chocolate bar.
Oh. Is she upset? Is she sad? Does she need chocolate for—
Bellatrix doesn’t eat the chocolate. Frowns with concentration, but manages to put it into Hermione’s bag. “More room,” she mutters.
Then reaches back into the pocket, and Hermione feels a hand slip into hers. Squeeze gently. Doesn’t let go.
All the way down the lane. Holding her hand the whole way home.
Chapter 34: Listen to your Heart
Chapter Text
The next day somehow passes quickly and slowly all at once. A sleepy Sunday. A quiet Sunday. Hermione finally gets the relaxing, book-reading, tv-watching day she wanted.
Because Bellatrix is out of action. The drinks have hit hard, and the lieutenant is down, only managing to drag herself out of bed at around midday, and drag her duvet to the sofa where she cocoons herself in once again, squished up next to Hermione. Still and pale.
Hermione just brings her water, paracetamol, and later some crackers and soup. Gets a whimper in response, Bellatrix sitting up to offer a cracker to Ratty first…
And then a mad dash to the bathroom to be sick.
Oh Bella.
Bellatrix wanders back in a few minutes later. Not in pyjamas anymore. Toothbrush in her mouth. “Great job with the rules, Granger,” she mumbles.
Then goes to spit the toothpaste out in the kitchen sink. Splashes some water on her face.
Hermione turns to the next page in her book,a twitch to her lip. “Are you feeling better? There’s more crackers and soup if you’d like to try—”
Bellatrix holds up a finger. “Mm. Uh uh. No. No mention of— Don’t talk about—”
And she pales once more. Sheen to her forehead. Closes her eyes.
Wow, she really can’t handle her alcohol, can she? Probably never has. Always had a house-elf to bring a remedy with a snap of their fingers. All the potions she could want, no matter the rarity or price.
Hermione puts down her book and wanders over. Presses the back of her hand to Bellatrix’s forehead. Hot. Warm.
She gets some ice out of the freezer and wraps the tea towel around it. Presses it to Bellatrix’s head. “Headache?” she whispers.
Bellatrix lets out a sigh. Leans into it and takes it from her. “And my mouth still tastes strange. And everything smells strange. I think I’m sweating alcohol.”
Hermione laughs. Can’t help it. “So next time, maybe you’ll listen when I say you shouldn’t drink everything?”
Bellatrix’s lips purse into a grimace. “Don’t talk about— shower. I’m having a shower. Need to wake up and…but then I’ll have to move.”
She looks forlornly at the bathroom door.
But doesn’t move. Stays exactly where she is.
Hermione gently tugs her along. “Come and sit with me for a bit. Drink some more water and try some crackers. It does help. I’ll put the tv on a low volume for you.”
And they curl up once more. Hermione shakes out the duvet a few times. Adjusts the cushions.
Gets a pair of feet in her lap.
She huffs. Rests her book on Bellatrix’s ankles.
Glances over at her, every now and then. Watches eyes widen in curiosity, even as the adverts play.
Watches eyes drift shut. A hand absentmindedly stroking a rat before it falls still. Asleep.
And the day continues on. Into the evening. Into the night.
It isn’t long though before Bellatrix is back to her old self. Or more like her new self. Elizabeth Fluke. Hermione gets used to coming into the kitchen in the morning and finding a scrawled note left for her on the table.
Getting bread for Joyce
Gone to bottle bank!
Feeding sheep
Walking Puddles
Broken gate at Alf’s
Washing needs to go on line
Need more cat food.
Where is Ratty??Found in pocket!
Sharing. Caring. Hermione isn’t sure how much of it is habit, how much is curiosity, and how much is just Bellatrix not being able to sit still or stay in the same place for long. But she certainly gets around the town, popping in and out of the house from dawn till dusk.
Most of the time. There are some days…
A few days now. Maybe once or twice a week. On a Friday, or usually Sunday. Weeks where Bellatrix has been flying around everywhere, either on foot or on her bike…
…when Hermione wakes up to Bellatrix in her bed. No explanation. No sign of when she arrived. And on those days, she stays with Hermione all day. Hovers. Asks about the book she’s reading, or the food she’s making. Rests her chin on Hermione’s shoulder, whatever she’s doing, and watches. Calmly. Stands with her. Sits with her.
Hermione doesn’t admit it aloud, but she likes those days the best. A small part of her…selfishly happy to have the woman all to herself again.
So she’s slightly disappointed when she wakes up this Sunday with no Bellatrix in her bed.
But there is a cat. A black and white cat.
Hermione sighs and picks it up from where it’s getting hair all over a pillow. “Now how did you get in?” she whispers to it. “Did you sneak past Bella? Or has she been letting you in?”
Bellatrix swears she doesn’t let the cat in on purpose. But it’s happened a few times now. And it’s cold outside today. No frost, but rain lashing at the windows. Wind howling.
It’s almost like their little house is out in the middle of the ocean.
So. Well. Hermione won’t push the issue.
She takes the cat to Bellatrix’s room instead, so she can deal with having a hairy pillow.
An empty bedroom. She looks around for Ratty…
No sign of him either. And the cat quickly curls back to sleep.
Hermione makes her way to the kitchen. Time for another solitary breakfast. She wonders what note will greet her…
Today.
Oh.
All of the curtains are drawn tightly shut, which never happens. And Bellatrix is sat on the sofa. In the dim light.
With long curly hair. And a black dress. Corset. Boots.
Wand in her hand.
She jumps guiltily. Caught. Wand going up her sleeve.
Then bites her lip. Brings it back out. “I…well I just…”
Hermione…can’t take her eyes off her.
Bellatrix. She finally looks like Bellatrix again. It’s a breath of fresh air. She hadn’t even realised how much she missed…
She walks around the sofa to sit next to her. Reaches out. Touches her hair.
Bellatrix takes a sharp breath. “You don’t think— I’m never good at the hiding part, but— I just needed to—”
Her eyes. Dark eyes. Burning eyes. Sharp contrast to her pale skin. Nothing softened. Nothing altered, or tamed, nothing muggle. Magic. Magical. A witch. Noble and ancient—
Hermione takes Bellatrix’s hand. Her wand hand. Closes her eyes. “Do me too,” she whispers. “Undo the transfiguration.”
She hears Bellatrix release a surprised breath. A laugh. “What? You’re supposed to be angry. To stop me. You’re the sensible one. We’re supposed to hide, to not— I haven’t used magic in a month. Not even to—”
“Use your magic on me,” Hermione insists. Holds the hand up higher. “Please. I miss magic. I miss your magic. And it’s fine. We’re hidden. It’s early in the morning. And raining. No-one will— Don’t you want to see me too? Me. Not Sally.”
Silence greets her.
Bellatrix hums. “Don’t tempt me,” she murmurs lowly. “Do you know how tempting it is? I feel like my wand’s been calling to me for days. I can’t stand it. Knowing it’s there. Knowing what I could do. I don’t— We still have over a month until the second task. If I use magic now—”
Oh.
Hermione opens her eyes. “It’s hard for you? Not using magic?”
Bellatrix’s hand twitches. “Why do you think I spend so much time outside? Around the village? With the muggles? I have to remind myself who I am. How they see me. I have to copy them. Blend in. Not let myself…”
She runs a hand through her curls. Twists one around her finger. Strokes the other hand down her dress. Over the corset.
Then picks her wand back up. Points it at Hermione. “But…I do miss your hair.”
And Hermione feels the counterspell wash over her. Nonverbal. But so intense. That familiar, shivering awe. Washing from her scalp down her neck. Bellatrix
She clenches her jaw as she shudders. Brings a hand up to touch…curls. Her hair. Hers. Oh it’s so nice to—
Bellatrix’s hand joins hers. Her fingers tangle into Hermione’s hair.
“Bella…” Hermione whispers. Isn’t sure if she’s protesting, or agreeing, or asking, or just…
She slides her hand around to the back of Bellatrix’s neck, eyes still closed. Gets a fistful of curls too. Feels— touches— wants—
Her other hand touches the corset. She’s never been more happy to feel the corset. The shape of it. And what it means. What it—
Bellatrix is leaning into her. A hand has moved to her shoulder. Presses. A suggestion to...fall back.
She lets it happen. Moves with it. She’s pushed down onto her back on the sofa. “Open your eyes. Look at me,” Bellatrix says firmly.
And there’s no way Hermione isn’t obeying. Her eyes fly open. Take in… “Lumos,” Hermione breathes out. More light. She needs to see…
Bella above her. Bella staring into her eyes. Staring right back. Dark curls brushing her neck and collarbone where they fall.
And then Bellatrix grins slyly. “Hermione,” she says. Deliberately slowly. “Your name’s Hermione.”
Hermione’s arms come up. Around her shoulders. Rest there as she smiles back. Looks her over. Up and down. Looks. “Bella,” she whispers again. “Hello, Bellatrix Black. Not in disguise anymore? Are you sure that’s allowed?”
Bellatrix sinks lower. Leans her forearms on the arm rest behind Hermione’s head. “Definitely not allowed. A very bad decision. Everyone wants a piece of me. The Ministry. The Dark Lord. And I’m a witch in a muggle village, surrounded by farmers with pitchforks. The Master of Death himself told me to hide. So…what do you think, Hermione Granger? Brightest witch at Hogwarts. Should I be a good witch and hide away again? Follow the rules?”
She shifts her weight. And her smile has passed from cheeky to deadly. Stealing Hermione’s breath.
So fuck the rules.
Hermione drags her in by the nape of her neck. “If you want rules to follow, then follow mine,” she murmurs, close to her lips. Nudges her nose against Bellatrix’s as her heart thunders in her ears. “It’s Sunday. It’s my day. I decide what we do on Sundays. And today…I want you to kiss me.”
Bellatrix lies down on top of her with a soft groan. “Then I’d better do as you say.”
And lips inch forward to find hers. A whole body slots into hers like it never left. Like the last month of confusion never happened. As if their bodies were just waiting. Waiting for this moment.
Hermione sighs into it and lets herself become boneless. The warmth. Body glowing. She wouldn’t be surprised if she was glowing. Brain screaming yes yes yes. Lips hungry. Perfect. Just perfect. She feels—
She clings to Bellatrix. Hands sliding over her. Lips break away. “I missed you,” she breathes out.
Bellatrix chuckles. Then nibbles at her ear. “I’ve been right here. This whole time. You do know that Elizabeth is still me, even with the—”
Hermione grabs the skirt of her dress. Adjusts it so their legs can tangle together. So she can move. So she can lean up and do some biting of her own at a pale neck. “I missed your clothes. And your hair. And— and your confidence. You act differently. You would never have done this as Elizabeth.”
Bellatrix stills.
Pecks softly at her cheek, and pulls back. Strokes some hair out of her face. “The reason I didn’t do this, is because I thought you didn’t want it. I thought that it might scare you. Hurt you,” Bellatrix says softly. “I thought…that now you know who I am…having me…I’m on top of you. I’m pinning you down. Is…but you like seeing me like this?”
Oh.
Hermione considers it.
Glances at her forearm.
Then looks back up. Smiles. “Different you,” she says calmly. “You’d never hurt me. It doesn’t matter what you look like. I know it’s you. I know you. And you didn’t do this.”
She reaches out. Pulls the sleeve of her pyjama top back, revealing—
Bellatrix covers the word with the palm of her hand before Hermione can even look at it. “But I did. That was me,” Bellatrix says firmly. “And you never have to forgive me for that. Or try to forget it or— I don’t deserve forgiveness for it. For any of it. I told you. I don’t want forgiveness. I don’t want you to make excuses for me, or to—”
“Will it ever go away?” Hermione asks.
Bellatrix swallows. Slowly raises her hand. “The…the scar? Or the…I don’t know. It— I wanted to hurt you. My magic wanted to hurt you. To— to permanently— to mark— I’m sorry. You shouldn’t hear about— I don’t want to tell you—”
Hermione sits up. Bellatrix on her lap. “Why did you do it?” Hermione asks. “Please. Please tell me. I…want to know why.”
And her voice breaks. On the final word. Doesn’t quite make it. And she feels a tear spill down her cheek. Her heart flutter. Almost seize. But she breathes through it. Grips Bellatrix’s dress and fights through it.
Bellatrix glances at her, and then instantly tears her gaze away, off to the side. “I— it was— so long ago. So long ago. Before— before everything. And I was— it was—”
“Why?” Hermione croaks again. “Why— why me? Why the knife? You— you had Harry, and you still chose me. You must have known it was Harry. Or at least suspected. And— and I told you. The truth. I didn’t know anything, and you wouldn’t stop. No matter what I— how much I—”
“I enjoyed it,” Bellatrix whispers.
Then crawls backwards. Off of her. Curls her knees up. “I…I think— I think deep down I was scared. Because you had the sword. It was in my vault. With the cup. He’d trusted me with it. With one of his things. His belongings. His soul. And I had it.”
She’s staring at the sofa. A hand brushing her throat.
Enjoyed it? Scared?
“It could have been Potter,” Bellatrix continues. “Very likely. He was with you. And a Weasley. I didn’t recognise which Weasley. Didn’t care at the time, there were so many of them. But I recognised you. Knew you. Cissy told me about you, the little Know It All…muggleborn that was always bossing Potter around. And talking back to Draco. So I…”
She swallows. Clenches and unclenches her jaw, like she’s forcing the words out. “I knew I shouldn’t hurt Potter, just in case. He was for the Dark Lord only. But I needed information. Needed to know about the sword. And…I wanted to hurt someone. Something.”
She looks up. “It wasn’t…personal. I was just angry. Frustrated. I didn’t think of you as…you were…”
“A mudblood,” Hermione whispers.
“She was deranged,” Bellatrix whispers back. “And cruel. And selfish. That’s who she was. That’s— that’s why Andy won’t forgive me. And why none of the professors at Hogwarts could believe in even the possibility that I was Moody. Because I would have hurt someone. I wouldn’t have had the self-restraint not to. Or even the idea of self-restraint. I saw…when we were at the Burrow…their faces. McGonagall’s face when I was sat with you. Or looking after Ratty. It was…I would have killed you for touching me. I would have crushed a rat as soon as look at it. That’s who wrote that word on you. In you. I was…it’s like I was in History of Magic and carving a word into a desk. An act of boredom, and frustration, and anger. And rebellion. And a message. Except more rewarding. Exhilarating. Because you screamed.”
Hermione closes her eyes. Hugs her arms around herself. Breathes.
Not personal. It wasn’t— she didn’t know you. Like you thought. You were an object. A thing. A prop. A—
“But— but now— how?” she whines. Confused. Falling. Trembling. Desperate. It doesn’t make sense. How— “How is— how are you— I’m a person. I was a person. A girl. A scared girl, and you— couldn’t you see that? How could you not see that? That I was like you. That I— that I had a family. And friends. And memories. And thoughts. And—”
“I thought I was different,” Bellatrix says quietly. Then shuffles closer. Hermione can feel it. Hear it. “I was…delusional. I thought I was above everything. My family always told us that Blacks were…above everyone. Better than everyone. That we were more intelligent. That our magic was stronger. That we were pure. Ancient beings. True witches and wizards, as godlike as Merlin, or Morgana, or the founders. And I was the eldest. The head. I thought— I thought our magic was sacred, and that everyone else was tainted. Watered down. Unimportant. Like— like cockroaches. Like rats. Like an annoying fly that you bat away. That’s why…it was so disgusting to me that Andy married a muggleborn. It’s like— like someone marrying a gorilla, and everyone telling you it’s okay and natural because they’re just like us. They’re not.”
Hermione’s eyes snap open. “Are you calling me an ape?”
Bellatrix’s eyes go wide. Hands come up. “Thought. Past tense. Very past. I was bonkers!”
“You went to school with muggleborns!”
“I didn’t talk to them!” Bellatrix shouts back. “And it wasn’t— it was like a mental…I don’t know! It’s just how I was raised! I didn’t even have friends. People were things. Puppets. I only cared about them because they…belonged to me. Like Cissy, and Andy. They were mine. But I even thought they were stupid. They were just…things for me to play with. To dress up. To order around. When I was really young, I used to push them out of windows, if I could, because I liked watching the house-elves catch them."
Oh gods.
Hermione stands up. “So you had no conscience? No empathy? No— you were a psychopath. A sociopath. An actual—”
“But I care now!” Bellatrix pleads. Hands wringing together. “I do. I know I was wrong. I know I’m just as stupid as everyone else. That I was just clever because I was taught things. Had money. Had everything. My world was small and— and— and if I was so great, how come I couldn’t figure out how muggles stopped their ice-creams melting? Or how their carriages moved without horses? I knew it wasn’t thestrals. I can see thestrals. So I didn’t know. I didn’t know lots of things. I didn’t know anything. I was the brightest witch of my age, I was the Dark Lord’s right-hand, his most loyal. His strongest fighter. But I slowly realised…that I didn’t know anything! And that even a baby was stronger than me, because Dumbledore was right all along, and I didn’t know how to love! The Master of Death has to be selfless and loving and hide. To put others first. And…I’d never done that. Ever. Not until I died. Not until Potter showed me how. Until other people showed me how.”
Hermione sits back down. “Everyone knows how to love,” she murmurs quietly. “Even babies know how to love. Cry when their guardians leave.”
“I didn’t,” Bellatrix mutters bitterly. “I only ever cried when I wanted something. And then I got it. Or cried more out of anger at being denied it. I’m…like Draco. A snotty, whiny, stuck up, spoilt little brat.”
Hermione smiles to herself. It’s…well its oddly enjoyable to hear ‘Bellatrix Lestrange’, the purest of purebloods, badmouth herself and her family. Because they are stuck up. And spoilt. And elitist.
But…
She reaches for Bellatrix’s hand. “Draco, who loves his mother so much that he wanted you to pay for hurting her? Who loves his father so much that he talks about him almost every day at school? Who loves you so much that he wouldn’t admit how betrayed he felt when he thought you abandoned him and then hurt his mother?”
Bellatrix huffs. “Great. See? I was a bigger idiot than Draco. Even Draco is better at it than me.”
“You are a bit of a slow learner,” Hermione teases. “A hundred years to learn to love.”
Not that she really thinks that’s true. You can’t learn to love.
…can you?
“I think I loved Ratty first,” Bellatrix muses. “Or maybe Siri. Or…I did care about Cissy. And Andy. I could have…and then once I met Tonks…”
Hermione just waits. Shuffles back to sit more comfortably on the sofa. Rests her head back and glances sideways at Bellatrix.
Still can’t stop looking at her hair. Her eyes. And the slutty dress…
“…and losing Barty was always hard, but I was always dying at the time,” Bellatrix frowns. “So maybe…and Potter. Harry. Don’t know what to think about him. Then there’s Frank. I’ve known him for a while. I hope he’s okay. Even Dobby. He’s a weird one, isn’t he? But I only had him for…well, I must have spent years with him. Not that we talked much. He frustrated me too much. Keeping him safe was— I hope the creatures at Grimmauld are alright. In the spare room. There’s that one pixie that never goes to sleep unless—”
She’s rambling.
Nervous?
“I know you can love, Bella,” Hermione says reassuringly. “And I know you’re sorry. And I know…”
She rolls up her sleeve. “I know that if you could get rid of this, you would. I believe you.”
Bellatrix doesn’t reply.
Hermione puts her hand over the scar…and feels it. Bellatrix. Oh.
It feels…
Different. Ever so slightly. Almost imperceptibly, but there. Still shivering. Still a rush. Still awe-inspiring…
But it’s like…
It feels like…
“Bella,” she whispers. “Your magic. It…it feels…different.”
She reaches out for— Bellatrix
Then feels the other— Bellatrix
They could be twins, the magic is so similar. Identical twins.
But not the same person.
Huh. Maybe she’ll be able to tell the difference between Fred and George now. Even with all ears intact.
Bellatrix. Her arm…the tingling comes with force. With fear. Like…plummeting. Like when your stomach drops. When you miss a step, or start your descent on a rollercoaster. It’s like a broom flying out of control. Or a dragon making a sharp turn through the air. Fast. And powerful. But terrifying.
And Bella…
She touches Bellatrix. Her shoulder. Her neck. Her throat. Brushes her pulse and feels…
Bellatrix. It’s different. It is. There’s…there’s…
Beauty. And hope. It’s a flood of relief. Like being thrown from a broom onto soft grass. Or catching yourself on a handrail as soon as your foot misses the step. It’s the moment after the adrenaline. The shivering release.
The moment after.
“You can feel it?” Bellatrix whispers back. “I thought…thought I was imagining it. But my magic is—”
“Different,” Hermione nods. Turns to her. Nods again. “Similar. Very, very similar. You’re still you. But it’s like—”
“My intentions have changed,” Bellatrix nods. Nods quickly. “That’s how people differ. What makes a difference. What changes magic. Intent. It’s all about intent. And I— Hermione, I want to be different. I want to help people. I want to do the right thing, and do what I can, and make a difference. If I can help, if I can share, if I can bring warmth, or wisdom, or hope, then what’s stopping me? I’m still me. I’m still powerful. I still feel the same magic inside of me. And I still have…the same anger and frustration when— but now I feel it for others. Why should a rat go hungry? Or a muggle have aches and pains that magic could cure? Why should— why should good people die, but worse ones go on living, just to cause more pain? But maybe…why should I be trapped in this endless cycle when I’ve done everything, everything I can think of to escape it? And I…”
Her eyes fall to Hermione’s arm.
And she raises her wand. “Why shouldn’t I be able to fix this?” she murmurs. “I…want to. That’s my intention. I have the magic. I have the will. I just need…the words.”
“Do you know the words?” Hermione whispers back, not daring to believe. “The countercurse?”
Tears fill Bellatrix’s eyes. She laughs harshly. “I made up the curse. There isn’t a counter curse. I didn’t— I created the curse. Off the top of my head. Just to hurt you. I just…wanted my message to stay. I’m sorry. I permanently— but let’s try. Nothing is permanent. You know that, Bella. Come on. Use your head. Just use…”
She begins tracing each letter with the tip of her wand.
And murmuring in Latin. Fast. Hushed. Hermione can’t decipher…a single word.
Her arm begins to glow.
Bellatrix grips her other arm in excitement. Whispers faster. Then louder. Not whispering. Chanting. Eyes flickering down and up and down and up. From the scar to Hermione’s eyes. Back and forth. Back and forth.
Hermione shivers. It goes all the way down her spine. And her arm—
She resists the urge to jerk away. It tickles. Horribly. Like a vibration travelling under her skin.
“Does it hurt?” Bellatrix quickly asks. Then back to Latin. No pause for breath.
Hermione shakes her head. “Strange, but not painful. What are you—?”
Bellatrix holds a finger to her lips and rolls her eyes as she continues the incantation. It’s not a chant now. It’s like a speech. New sentence after new sentence.
Hermione is definitely learning Latin now. She’s decided. It should be a mandatory class at Hogwarts. Or at least offered. How ridiculous. No wonder purebloods think the other students are so stupid. Spells are so much simpler to understand if Latin is—
“— vulnera sanentur!” Bellatrix finishes with a gasping breath.
Well, that, Hermione understood.
And they both close their eyes against the blinding light. Hermione’s skin is buzzing. It’s like…it’s indescribable. But whatever it is, it’s so uncomfortable, she really hopes it—
The sofa shudders beneath them—
There’s a crash.
“The house is shaking!” Hermione shouts as a lamp tips and falls over, shade hitting her in the head.
“I know!” Bellatrix shouts back. “Must have overpowered the—”
“Can’t you stop it?” Hermione yells back. Tries to get to her feet. Her wand. She needs her—
A dog starts barking. Puddles. Joyce. Oh no.
Bellatrix finds her feet. Raises her wand. “Arresto momentum!” she whispers harshly, wand looping around the room in the wrong wand movement.
And everything falls still.
Even Hermione. She can’t move. Still stepping towards the coffee table in slow-motion.
Bellatrix takes her arm. Then taps her on the head with her wand.
Hermione falls forward. “Ah!”
Bellatrix pulls her upright. “Okay. No more magic today. I should have remembered Joyce. Can you put my wand in the drawer and—”
The doorbell rings. And then there’s a lot of knocking. Uh oh.
“Out of those clothes!” Hermione hisses at Bellatrix. “And your hair! Our hair! Do the—”
Bellatrix waves her wand at her and Hermione feels a gust of wind blow through her hair.
“You’re all done. Go talk to her. I’ll…do something in here.”
Something? What is— fine, fine.
Hermione hurries to the front door. “Coming!”
And unlocks it, yanking it open. There’s Joyce. And Puddles. In a puddle.
The black and white cat streaks past Hermione, out of the door and away.
“Hi!” Hermione says, probably too enthusiastically. “Sorry about that. We…uhh…were using a drill. To put up a bookcase. Must have been too powerful as it shook things about a bit. Glass everywhere, so I wouldn’t come in if I were you.”
“A drill?” Joyce says dubiously, looking over Hermione’s shoulder. “Is that what it was? It felt like an earthquake! I thought the kitchen cabinets were going to come down on top of us. Are you both alright? Is Elizabeth—”
“We’re both fine,” Hermione nods. “And I really would invite you in out of the rain, but the bookcase smashed everywhere. Elizabeth must have had the drill on too high a setting or…something. I don’t really know. I was…in bed.”
She looks down at herself. Pyjamas. Early in the morning. Yep. That makes sense.
Oh this is such a bad lie.
And Hermione feels a chin rest on her shoulder. “Joyce! Puddles! You’re out in the rain! It’s pouring! Come in!” Bellatrix says from behind her.
Joyce looks between them. “Umm…that’s alright, Elizabeth. Thank you for the offer. I was only just up myself…but as long as everything is okay…”
“Just the drill,” Hermione says, very aware of the warmth at her neck and the short tufts of hair tickling her ear. “We won’t be using it again. Hammer and nail should do it. And we’ll clean up the mess.”
“Drill?” Bellatrix whispers in her ear. “That’s what we’re—”
“Probably wasn’t the right drill for it anyway,” Bellatrix continues more loudly. “Too powerful. I hope we didn’t wake you up?”
Joyce smiles strangely. “No. I was already up. But…I do need to get back inside…so…well, I’ll see you around next week perhaps. For a walk with Puds?”
Bellatrix pushes past Hermione to stroke Puddles. “Yes! Count me in. As soon as the rain holds off. I can even take him for a run, if you want? You can rest your legs.”
Joyce chuckles. “I’m sure he’d like that. Anyway. I’ll be off. You two…take care.”
And up she goes to her flat.
Bellatrix shuts the door behind her with a relieved sigh.
Wait.
“Are you wearing my pyjamas?” Hermione asks.
Bellatrix shrugs, walking past to the kitchen. “Our pyjamas. These were clean. You’re wearing the top I wore last week.”
True. Andy’s and Tonks’ clothes are completely mixed up now. It is hard to say whose clothes are whose.
Hermione pulls her sleeves down against the cold.
Oh.
Oh!
She rolls it back up, hardly daring to look…
And her stomach sinks.
Still there. Each jagged letter. Even after…
She traces her finger over it. Tries to ignore the lump forming in her throat. It— still?
Bellatrix wanders back around the corner. Leans against the wall. Just looks at her.
Hermione shakes her head. Shrugs. Forces the disappointment from her face.
Pulls her sleeve back down. “Never mind. You tried. Guess it didn’t work.”
Bellatrix just continues looking at her.
Then turns her back and turns the corner. “Yet. I’ll try again once we’re somewhere more magical,” Bellatrix calls back. “Now, come on. What do you want for breakfast? It’s your day. Your choice. What are we doing?”
A kettle begins to boil over the sound of the rain. Cupboards open and shut.
Hermione just listens. Closes her eyes, leans against the wall, and takes in the familiar sounds. Focuses on that. Too overwhelmed by…
The lump in her throat. The tears pricking at her eyes. Her whole body still on edge, and tingling and—
A whispering sadness. And yet happiness, breaking through. A spark of hope. But also anger, as she grips at her arm. Frustration. She’s…never been so conflicted in her life. Every emotion. Every single—
Love. Her heart is screaming at her to love this witch. And to not love her. To be sensible. To be logical. To be— she’d be mad to love her.
But she can’t help it. She can’t. How could she not be falling in love with her? She’s falling. She never understood that before. Why it’s falling in love.
But it is. She’s stumbled across it, and fallen through the air. Straight towards Bellatrix. With nothing there to stop her.
The kettle clicks off.
“I’m making tea,” Bellatrix calls. “You want tea, right? And toast? What are you doing? Are you getting dressed?”
Hermione wipes at her face. Smiles against the tears. Pushes gently at her bedroom door so it doesn’t creak, and slips inside. “I’m just finding something warmer to wear!” she shouts, hoping her voice doesn’t sound too strange. “I’ll be right there! Thank you!”
“There’s a hoodie in my wardrobe, I think,” Bellatrix calls back. “The black one.”
The black one. The one Bellatrix wears all the time and has obviously decided is her favourite. It was probably originally one of Tonks’ hoodies, with Scooby Doo and the gang printed on the back. Oversized, black, and soft.
Hermione throws some jeans and a t-shirt on, and then goes to get it. Finds it folded on the chest of drawers, not in the wardrobe.
Shared clothes. Favourite clothes. Okay, Hermione. Don’t panic.
And she puts it on. It’s warm. And smells…gods, how does Bellatrix always smell like that? What is that? Does she have secret perfume? Or some kind of…oils or spices or…
And now Hermione is too hot. Much too warm. Can’t help remembering how good it felt to kiss her again. Be beneath her again. And if today is her day, and she’s still in charge, and can still decide—
She goes back out into the kitchen. There’s a pot of tea on the table. And Bellatrix is buttering some toast, humming to herself.
Ratty is on the kitchen counter.
Hermione tuts. “No rats in the kitchen. You know the rule.”
Bellatrix scoops him up and reaches him out behind her back towards Hermione. “I’m keeping him company. He’s lonely. And scared from all the noise and falling things. I found him under the sofa. Here. Talk to him.”
She hands him over, and then goes to the sink to wash her hands. Resumes toast buttering. And honey. She adds a thick layer of honey for herself, it’s too sweet for Hermione.
Hermione rolls her eyes at the rat in her hands and puts him down on the sofa. “Sorry, Ratty, but we’re having breakfast. I’ll talk to you later and find you an…apple or something,” she sighs, feeling a bit ridiculous. She talks to Crookshanks all the time normally, but Crooks always looks like he understands. Ratty…
Is looking at her. Nose twitching. Backing away behind a cushion.
Okay…
Maybe…
Hermione sits down next to him. Opens the big front pocket of the hoodie. “Do you…want to go in here?”
And he scampers onto her lap. Peeks inside.
Goes inside. A little lump of warmth over her stomach.
Huh.
Rats in her pockets.
She is going mad.
A throat clearing from behind her. “Breakfast’s ready. Could you— would you—”
Bellatrix breaks off.
Well that’s just…bizarre. Stuttering?
Hermione turns around in her seat to look over the back of the sofa at her.
Bellatrix avoids her gaze. Runs a hand through her short hair, twisting it between her fingers at the ends. “Do you think— do you think you should hide my wand from me? So that— so that I’m not selfish again? So I don’t slip up, or forget to hide? Or— I upset you. I shouldn’t have told you what I— was it cruel? To tell you? And to— am I doing it wrong again?”
Hermione quickly stands up. “No. It’s okay! It wasn’t selfish. I told you to tell me. I’m glad you did. It helps.”
She walks closer. Reaches out and takes the witch’s hand.
It’s a bit sticky from the honey.
“You told me even though you didn’t want to,” Hermione continues anyway. “And you— you’re doing it right. It’s okay, you didn’t break any rules. You— come here.”
And she pulls Bellatrix towards her by the hands. Pulls her into her arms. “Be careful, Ratty’s in my front pocket,” she whispers as they embrace. As hands slip around her back. As a chin rests on her shoulder.
Bellatrix shifts herself to the side, leaving Ratty more room. And sighs. “It’s so hard to balance everything. But you…seem to manage it. Without even thinking,” Bellatrix hums quietly. “Ever since I met you, you’ve done the right thing. Do you realise? You’re always caring. You put others first, and share your power. You’re so clever, but it hasn’t gone to your head. You’re humble. You hide it. And always try to learn more. I think…I think Potter did send you to help me. It’s the only explanation. I have to learn to be good. Like Harry. Like the Weasleys. Like you.”
Oh.
Hermione smiles awkwardly. “Humble? I’m not exactly humble. I’m a Know It All, bossing everyone around.”
Bellatrix tuts. “Teaching. Sharing your wisdom. Do you think you’re better than anyone else? That you were born better?”
“No!” Hermione huffs. “But I’m not— I’m not some…paragon of goodness! I’m not special. I’m just…normal! I just like reading and learning! And of course I help people when I can. Anyone would—”
She feels fingertips lightly stroke through her hair. “Not just anyone,” Bellatrix murmurs. “You’re special. There’s no-one else in the world who would be stood in a kitchen hugging me.”
Hermione fights to keep her breathing steady.
Trails her fingers up and down Bellatrix’s spine.
“Sirius would,” she whispers. “Sirius has. And…I bet Andromeda has. At some point. And Tonks. There are good people in the world, Bella. People who will love you. Who care. Who will forgive—”
“Don’t forgive me,” Bellatrix says firmly, an edge to her voice. Hugs her from the side tightly. Avoiding Ratty, but squeezing her around the middle. “Please. Don’t forgive that. Never that. You can be angry at me for that forever. The same as— as all of the other—”
She cuts off again.
Hermione brushes some hair out of the way and kisses her cheek. “Okay. I won’t forgive it. That first lifetime…you were cruel. And heartless. And…lots of people were hurt. Good people. I won’t make light of what you did to them. It wouldn’t be fair on their memories.”
Bellatrix relaxes. Seems to slump in relief. Kisses her cheek back. A chaste brush of lips that leaves a lingering warmth. “Thank you. I thought you might— I couldn’t stand it. Forgiveness from you. From— it’s hard enough with Tonks, and she doesn’t even remember. Or Neville. And I can’t even tell him why I’ve changed.”
Hermione pulls back slightly to meet her eye, a sudden thought. “Yes, how…how were you trying to help Neville? With Andy? I mean…she hasn’t spoken to you. How did she write in the book? Or know about Frank?”
Bellatrix smiles sheepishly. “I wrote to her. About a hundred times, whilst I was stuck with Cissy. Even snuck off to her house once…but then she put up a bit of a fight. Yelled at me. Was scared again. Angry. And I couldn’t— couldn’t stand it. She never replied to my letters. Refused to talk to me. To talk back. Except for the book. We wrote back and forth in the Herbology book. For Neville. No…no other contact,” she finishes, voice rough.
Oh…
“I thought…that you decided to hide completely,” Hermione whispers. “That you…gave up…with her.”
Bellatrix’s hand slips into Hermione’s pocket. Stroking Ratty. “The three brothers. Three sisters. Andy…was supposed to teach me to love. And…she did. I loved her…I love her...there was no love with Cissy. Or less love. I was used to— Cissy doesn’t hug back. And she took her hiding role very seriously, once I told her. Wanted me to be invisible. Silent. A ghost. You wouldn’t hug a ghost.”
Hermione holds her even more firmly at that. Can’t…imagine not having any kind of love or affection for so long. Especially after the trauma of losing her connection with Andy and Tonks. Tonks is very tactile. Even Hermione has hugged Tonks fairly recently, and they barely know each other. So if Bella was used to that, had love, and family, and friends, and then…
The cold, empty manor house. That soulless house.
Hermione pats Bellatrix on the back. “Breakfast. Let’s have breakfast. Before the tea goes cold. And…I’ll put some music on. There’s a cassette player, did you see? I think there might be some classical music…”
She knows Bellatrix likes piano music.
Bellatrix pulls back with a grin, skipping around to the other side of the table where she falls into a chair and starts pouring tea. “Classical shmassical. See what new muggle music there is. Something more cheery. Siri’s right, who wants a dreary piano recital? That was the one thing I did get with Cissy. Her playing the piano after lunch almost every day. Usually the same piece. She plays until she has it perfect. Perfectly mind-numbing."
Cheery and muggle…
Well, she’ll see what there is. There’ll definitely be something…
Oh. There’s radio too.
She turns it on.
Hmm, just a lot of talking at this time in the morning. Breakfast talk show chatter.
She fiddles around. Tries to find a better, non-staticky station.
Piano music fills the air. Light and plinking. Background cellos. Great. The one genre they aren’t looking for.
She huffs at it. Starts looking through the tapes instead—
And a sticky hand takes hers from behind, pulling her backwards.
“Come and have breakfast,” Bellatrix says softly. “I don’t care what we listen to. Tell me…tell me a story. About you.”
A story?
Hermione sits down opposite Bellatrix at the table and sips at her tea, warming her hands. Then takes a bite of toast. Tears off a tiny piece and passes it to Ratty, still in her pocket under the table.
Bella smiles across at her.
Hermione smiles back. Isn’t even in control of her face anymore. Can’t stop the smile tugging at her cheeks. “Well…seeing as we’ve had so much…muggle stuff recently, how about I tell you a magical story? About…do you want to hear about how Harry, Ron and I got past all of the enchantments in first year to stop Quirrell getting the Philosopher’s Stone? Or…what about how we tried to sneak into the Slytherin Common Room to spy on Draco in second year?”
Bellatrix grins. Takes a large bite of toast, honey dripping off, and leans on her elbow, chin in hand. “Both. Obviously. We have all day. Tell me everything. Including your favourite colour, whilst you’re at it. Was I right? Is it blue?”
Hermione laughs.
She doesn’t know. She thinks her favourite colour…
…might have changed to black.
Chapter 35: See the Other Side
Chapter Text
Many lifetimes ago…
Bellatrix rolls an apple beneath her palm along the polished wooden floor. Head in her hand. Stares out the window.
Underneath the invisibility cloak. Looking out at the stupid fucking peacocks.
“Hey, elf, you hungry?” she mutters half-heartedly.
The elf appears. Looks at her with a healthy combination of fear and awe. “No, Miss Bellatrix. Dobby— Dobby is not hungry.”
She didn’t think so. She did ask it only a few minutes ago.
She rolls the apple to her other hand.
Pauses. “Are there…any other animals on the grounds?” she murmurs thoughtfully, eyes following the birds out the window. “Animals that eat apples? Or any…beasts that need feeding?”
Sharing. She’d better share something quick. She’s managed six months this time without being sent back, but with Cissy away, Potter might be eager to teach her some more rules.
The elf swallows, eyes widening. “Oh. But Dobby…Dobby already be feeding the peacocks. Master Lucius be very particular— is— Dobby is speaking badly of his master! And not finding animals for Miss Bella!”
And it wails. Throws itself to the floor and—
No!
Bellatrix stands up, letting the cloak slip off of her. Picks the elf up by its pillowcase and holds it swinging in the air. “Stop it! You can’t hurt yourself! I’ve already ordered you to— shut the fuck up! Now!” she growls. “It doesn’t have to be a peacock. Anything will do. A bug. A rat. An owl or—”
“Oh! Dobby promised to deal with the pests!” it whimpers, slowly rotating now as its arms and legs flail. “Mistress Narcissa has told Dobby to deal with any infestations. Dobby has the doxicide ready for the attic!”
Doxicide? Poison? That little—
She throws the elf down. “No killing. How hard is that to— The attic, you say? Right.”
She puts the cloak back on. Hiding. And then goes to the door. Down the corridor, elf following fretfully, probably under Cissy’s orders. Spying on her.
She continues up the main stairs. Then the spiral staircase at the other end of the hall. She would kick the annoying little hanger-on back down the steps, but she can’t risk him breaking a leg. Plus she should share her wisdom. Teach him how things have changed around here.
She finds the latch to the attic. Hovers the ladder down.
Climbs up, lumos at the ready. “Where are the doxies, elf?”
“In…behind the curtains, by the sheets,” it points. “But Dobby can clear this—”
Bellatrix shoves the apple in his mouth to stop him talking. And to have her hands free. “Eat some of that and be quiet,” she mutters.
A choked gasp. “You— Mistress’ sister gives Dobby food? Feeds Dobby? Does chores for Dob—”
And now the elf is really choking. Spluttering. Apple stuck in his throat. Salazar’s—
“Anapneo!” she groans out. Fine. No choking. But if he doesn’t leave soon, she might just kill him anyway. Rid Cissy of the annoying little pest.
Wait. No. She has to put up with pests now. Put up with everything.
She takes a slow breath. Speaks through gritted teeth. “Go…rest by the fire in the kitchen for five minutes. That’s an order.”
And he disappears with a squeak.
She leans against a wooden column. Five minutes of peace.
Hmm.
Nope, something’s still bothering her.
She kicks over a pile of buckets. Watches them roll and clatter around. Aha.
Sound. Finally, some sound. That’s what it is. She’s going to go mad if she’s stuck for much longer in this house of silence.
A doxy flies out from behind a curtain on the far side of the room and back in again.
Oh yeah. Saving poisonous pests from Cissy.
She slowly raises her wand. Now how…to catch them?
Hmm.
She moves carefully forward.
And sharply draws the curtain aside. “Immobulus!”
Aha! It worked!
She smugly opens a nearby crate. Hovers the disgusting beasts inside.
Closes it. Shrinks it. Puts it in her pocket. She can take them back to her room.
See, Potter? More creatures saved thanks to her brilliant brain and—
There’s a smashing sound from behind her. Glass shattering. That bloody—
She spins around. “Elf! I told you to…”
Oh, it’s a bird.
A stupid fucking bird that’s just flown straight through the windowpane. Glass sticking out of it. Blood and guts and bones. Dying. Serves it right, brainless twit.
Dying.
Oh shit. Is Potter going to blame her for that? That wasn’t her fault! She only moved the curtain to get the doxies anyway. She can’t—
“Don’t send me back,” she mutters, kneeling down. “Not again. Not again. I can fix this. I can—
Okay. Okay, healing spells. How do you heal something?
Call an elf.
“Dobby!” she shrieks. “Elf, bring…a blood replenishing potion. And…”
How do you mend a broken bone?
“Episkey!” she shouts.
But no elf. No potion. Where is that ruddy…oh, she told it to sit by the fire and rest. For five minutes. It hasn’t been five minutes. For the love of Merlin! Merlin’s hairy bollocks. How do you take care of something? Water? Food? Warmth?
She pulls the curtains towards her. Makes a nest. Puts the bird on it.
Is that better?
She watches the bird for a long time. Counts the seconds. Twenty. Twenty-one. Twenty-two.
Holds her wand between her teeth and climbs back down the ladder. She’ll get the potions from the cabinet herself. She is not letting it die! She’s not going back!
Bellatrix tears at the piece of bread, sat under the invisibility cloak and staring out the window.
In the attic. Dips some bread in a water goblet and offers it to the bird. Come on, Birdie. No dying allowed. It’s been…thirty-six hours. Just keep pecking.
There’s a rustling, scraping sound from the corner. She doesn’t even turn.
Just holds out more bread. Smiles. “Hi Ratty,” she whispers. “Come on. There’s enough for three.”
The rat hides from her again. This Ratty is too timid. Wary. Shy.
Smart. She’d hide too. She is. Has been hiding in the attic for two days. Can hear Lucius occasionally, downstairs. It’s the weekend.
Cissy is still off with Draco. Visiting the Parkinsons. If that’s really what she’s up to. Who knows what she’s hiding?
Youngest sister. Cissy’s good at hiding shit. Apparently. She hasn’t figured out what yet. Hid. 'Walked from the fight'. What did Potter mean by that? Cissy was there. At the Battle. She didn’t fight exactly, but…
Ah well. She’ll have to wait and see. Once she starts the war again.
Whenever that will be.
But to get there, she needs to figure out Potter’s rules. So. That’s some mind fuckery for her. Learn from something you never even knew.
Bellatrix bites her lip and lies down on her back in the dusty old sheets. Sighs to herself.
Three sisters. That was Potter’s hint. His guideline. She’s doing okay so far with Cissy…
But if she’s going to ever find the Dark Lord, maybe she needs Potter on her good side. Needs to show she’s listening. No killing. Powerless. Hiding. Loving and caring.
Learn to love and lose…from her bloodtraitor sister.
No. Not happening. She’s not going begging to her for help. She’d rather die.
Throws the bread to the rat. “Least I know what you want,” she mutters. “Unlike Birdie over here. Ingrate. Doesn’t even try to eat.”
She glares at the bird. It just lies there. Stock still. Breathing fast.
“Eat!” she shouts.
It doesn’t. Hmm.
Maybe it’s stubborn. Like Barty. He always dies, every time, no matter what she does. No matter what she says, or what she tries. Every time…
He just cries. And then stops. And the light leaves his eyes…
She swallows. Rolls over onto her stomach and spins around. “What am I doing wrong?” she whispers to the bird. “I’m…I’ve given you food. And water. And shelter. That’s all animals need…”
Isn’t it?
She waits. Waits for the bird to get better. Counts to ten.
Still nothing.
She frowns. Sighs. “Dobby? Bring me…bring me a book about birds.”
She buries the bird in the garden when it dies. Angrily. Master of Death. Potter killed her bird on purpose! Just to spite her.
She’s not even sure why she buries it. It’s…just the only way to care for something that’s dead.
She thinks. And it doesn’t get her sent back to Azkaban, so she must be right.
Plus, she has Ratty back now. She keeps him in her pocket. Something to love whenever she needs to. To stroke, or feed, or put in the grass to run around.
He doesn’t always come back. But she catches him in the nicest way possible.
Or, when that doesn’t work, asks Dobby for another Ratty.
She likes this one. It’s completely black. And it bit Lucius on the ankle once when he came walking down the hallway unexpectedly. She might name it Bitey.
Nah. Ratty always sounds better.
And speaking of biting…
She looks across the little nursery table at Draco. Shifts her weight on the tiny chair.
Holds out a spoonful of yoghurt. “Alright. This time, no games. No grabbing. You just eat it, and then you say thank you.”
He’d better be thankful. She’s been sat here for half an hour, and all he’s done is get food all over his face, the floor, the elf, and her.
That’s why she’s tied his arms to the chair this time. Smart.
He presses his mouth tightly shut and wriggles. Tries to turn his face away. “No! I do it myself!” he yells at her.
And rocks some more. The chair tips. She casually flicks her wrist, casting an arresto momentum so the idiot doesn’t smack his face on the floor. “You can’t do it yourself. Obviously. You’re a little baby that can’t move a spoon without spilling it. Pathetic. How are you going to use a wand? Or fly a broom?”
And Draco’s face screws up in defiance. Turning steadily redder. The chair continues to fall, and ever so slowly comes to rest sideways on the carpet.
The door behind her clicks open. “What is the meaning of this?” Cissy hisses.
Uh oh.
In two steps, Narcissa has Draco is instantly untied. Picked up. A handkerchief wipes his face clean.
And her wand is swiftly pointed at Bellatrix. “How dare you. How dare you treat him like this. It— out! Out of my house, Bella.”
Bellatrix gets up with a huff. “Oh, calm your tits, Cissy. I’m not poisoning him. It’s pumpkin flavour.”
She takes the spoonful of yoghurt and tries it herself. “See? I’m just feeding him. So I don’t get sent back. He’s the one making it difficult. Wimp. And no respect for his elders. If either of us ever acted like him in front of Aunt Warlburga, we’d have no teeth to chew with. We’d never dare!”
Narcissa holds Draco even more tightly to her, eyes wide with disbelief. Checks his mouth. His gums.
For teeth. Still there, of course.
Hmm. Maybe Bellatrix should vanish them. Then he’d learn.
“He isn’t one of your beasts to be used to your advantage,” Cissy snaps. “You degrade him. You upset him. Have taught him to fear magic with your actions. I am not risking my son becoming an obscurial or Merlin forbid a squib," she mouthes. "So, out. Get out. Take your cloak, and hide elsewhere. I don’t know what has got into you, but your erratic behaviour and odd…fixations have gone on long enough.”
She’s…being kicked out?
Oh.
“You’re…banishing me?” Bellatrix whispers in disbelief. Feels the shock of it close around her heart. Dropping deep into her stomach. Her own sister. Her baby sister.
Who doesn’t say anything. Stone faced. Stares back, wand firm.
Bellatrix raises her own wand. “And how…are you going to make me leave, hmm?” she whispers. Then smiles. “You gonna fight me?” she coos. “Duel me. Is little Cissy going to throw me out of her oh so fancy manor house? Going to follow through on your word for once?”
Narcissa swallows warily. Real fear in her eyes, which she tries to hide with a sharp smile. “Don’t make this more difficult than it needs to be. You are still my sister. You may still visit. But I think it best for all of us that you find a place more…suited to you.” Narcissa takes a breath. Finds a neutral facial expression, and nods dismissively, beginning to tidy the nursery with a flick of her wand. “A few months have passed now. Your funeral has taken place. Your obituary was in the paper. I understand your…need to hide here, but—”
“No, you don’t,” Bellatrix spits. Drags her wand towards herself, slamming the door shut. “I must hide with you. I have to. Do you think I want to be here? Do you think I want to be wasting away when— In fact, no.”
And she thrusts her wand forwards again, changes her mind, sending the door banging back open. Cissy jumps. Flinches away. Draco starts to cry.
Bellatrix brushes past them. That’s it. Enough. No more hiding. She’s learnt to hide. She did it. And now it’s time to move on to the next thing.
Sharing her wisdom. She’s going to find the Dark Lord, and she’s going to tell him everything she knows. About the future. About the war. She’ll share her wisdom. Share her power. And make sure he ends up with the wand this time.
She smiles to herself. Makes her way down the corridor. Down the steps. Of course! She should have thought of that before! Her Lord is the only person who has ever offered her anything worthwhile. The only one to teach her anything. To appreciate her strength and her power rather than cowering from it or asking her to reign herself in. And he died! So that’s what she should do! Offer her power to him earlier. Go find him. Save him. Like she always planned.
And she…walks out the front door. Storms out. Nothing stops her. Down the gravel path. Past the peacocks.
And a strange tension builds in her stomach.
Is she hungry?
She ignores it.
But does feel around in her pocket for some kind of food. Passes it to Ratty when she feels him in her pocket too. Right. Can’t kill the rat. Got to look after…
She taps her wand to the gate to unlock it. Slips through.
Looks back. Can’t remember if she gave any food to the elf today. And it’s cold out. Did she give it another pillowcase? Or a teacosy. She thought about sticking a teacosy on its head for the warmth.
But no. Cissy told her to leave.
It’s not her problem anymore. The doxies are still in her room, but if the elf is smart, he’ll leave them alone and—
Her heart flutters. Just for a second. A strange…indecision.
Go back for the doxies? Or leave them to possibly die?
Is this a test? A rule?
She takes a breath. Scoffs at herself.
Strokes the rat. And apparates away.
She can’t kill Potter. Has to use her power to help.
So she’s going to track down the Dark Lord. If Wormtail can do it, so can she. Perhaps she can offer her own body to him to possess. She’s stronger than Quirrell. She knows when the Philosopher’s Stone will arrive at Hogwarts, and she’ll be ready.
Albania! Yes! That’s where he was. Although how he got there…
Why did he never tell her how he got there? This would have been much simpler.
But that doesn’t matter now. Four years and two hundred and eighteen days of searching, and she finally knows where to find his disembodied form.
She found the region. And then the village.
The village where they last saw a giant snake.
Nagini. It has to be. He’s summoned enough strength to possess Nagini.
So he should be…somewhere…in this forest.
She hisses around. Knows the Dark Lord forbade anyone attempting to learn parseltongue. It’s a mockery. Blasphemous, to use his true language. But if there are any snakes nearby, if this finds him, brings him to her—
Nagini? she hisses. Carefully pronounced the syllables. A word she remembers well. Will call both of them to her.
Not a sound. And it’s hard to see in the dark. It’s past dusk. Snakes can be nocturnal. Come out at night to hunt. She read about it. She knows what snakes want. What they need.
But still, nothing. And after an hour, nothing.
After three…
She considers the black rat in her pocket.
Bait?
She…she isn’t sure…well, it is a life.
A useless animal. She can get another one.
Death. Killing. Killing the weak and vulnerable.
She slumps down against a tree. Nagini…
Dinner. Say dinner. Say food. Say rat.
She takes Ratty out. Puts him on her lap.
He’s been asleep. Looks at her dozily and then licks his paws. Washes his face. His ears.
She strokes his head, and then cuts off a slice of apple for him with her knife. And a piece for herself. Nagini? she tries again. Stays still, to listen for a rustle.
And then shouts as a sharp pain hits her shoulder. A weight. She’s knocked over. To the forest floor. Lies gasping on her side as her brain scrambled to process—
Snake. The snake. Is it— she can’t see—
“My Lord?” she pants out. “My— is it— Master—”
A hissing sound fills the air. She tries to listen. Tries to decipher…
Oh. Oh she needs to look at it. At Him. That’s it. He can use legilimency.
She rolls over on the ground.
And watches the snake rear up.
Nagini.
Their eyes meet. My Lord? Is it you?
No reply. The trees shake and creak around her in the wind.
Hmm. Maybe not. She’d thought…but she can’t feel the venom. It should be pulsing. Burning. The pain in her shoulder is manageable. She can breathe. No spasms.
No venom.
After all this time…you come to me only to betray me? a very familiar, long-ago voice whispers into her mind.
She gasps.
It is him. Him like he was before. That voice. Drawing her back in. Sending a shiver down her spine in memory. A voice of change. Of power. Of hope.
She crawls to be closer to him. Then stops herself. Holds back. Ducks her head.
Then remembers that he needs eye contact. He must be so weak.
Weak? he shouts into her mind.
And Nagini rears back again. Higher. Standing tall and hissing furiously, jaw unhinged, dropped wide.
No! Bellatrix quickly corrects herself. Your strength is unimaginable, my Lord. Unrivalled. I only meant your body. I’m here to offer myself. To you. Whatever you need of me—
And yet you defy me! You have mimicked the language of my ancestors to call me forth like some kind of…household familiar! Where did you learn such a thing? When did you go behind my back, against my orders, and build such a poison on your tongue?
When?
Bellatrix smiles. “In the future!” she breathes out. “My Lord, I have so much to tell you. All I have done to find you. To return to you. I’ve remembered your every word. Spent years, years suffering in— I died for you. But I have returned. And now—”
Silence! I do not need to hear these lies. Only I can conquer death. Your excuses are feeble. Suffering. You do not know suffering. Do not know pain. Do not know the sheer torment of living on the very edge of death.
Bellatrix…laughs. It just bursts from her. The…
“I don’t know death?” she laughs hollowly. “I…”
Tears fill her eyes that she tries to blink back. This is wrong. All wrong. Why is he…why is this…why won’t he listen to… “I just want to help you,” she whispers. “To save you. Like you saved me.”
Doesn’t he remember? She was his lieutenant. His first in command. Has always been there for him. Fought for him. For the future. For the Cause. He showed her what she could be. What the world could become. He’s the one person…that isn’t boring. That isn’t dull, and feeble, and weak. The only person to see that there is only power…and those too weak to seek it. She chose power. She has always chosen power. Like him.
The snake…tilts it head at her.
Begins to circle her.
Bellatrix feels an unease settle in her stomach.
And spots her rat. Still nearby. Frozen in fear.
She slowly reaches out and slips him back into her pocket.
A cold chuckle. Saved you from the boredom of an ordinary life. Of a wasted existence. Yes, I know the feeling well. I admit, Bella, you have come close. But it seems…you’re just as much a disappointment as everyone else.
It punches her in the gut, stronger than any snake bite. A disappointment?
Because…she learnt parseltongue? Spoke his language? It is sacred to him…but surely it’s alright? It worked. It led her to him.
Surely she did the right thing.
She frowns. “I came here. I found you. I’ve offered myself to you. My body. My magic. My mind.”
Your word? It seems your word is quickly broken. Only I am descended from Salazar Slytherin. And only I shall speak his tongue. You knew this to be my order…and yet, here we are.
His voice is a whisper. A smirk. The turning flat blade of a knife.
She tenses against a shudder.
And the snake moves closer. Pity. I really do believe that you are the most loyal follower I have ever had. So much potential. But as always…not enough.
She shakes her head. Stares into the slitted pupils. “I am. I have the potential. I have the strength. I won’t fail you again. Just trust me, my Lord, and I’ll tell you—”
The snake strikes. And this time it burns. Again. And again. A stab to the heart.
Her lungs seize. The numbing spreads. The dark forest turns to hues of grey. No light. Only shadow. Only…
Her body gives out. Everything tips and turns. But she can still smell the leaves. The dirt. Lying in the mud, snake eyes staring down at her.
Why? Why is…
She came. She did everything right. Everything. She survived. She fought. She died.
She died.
Many lifetimes later…
Bellatrix closes the front door behind her, locking it as quietly as she can and hanging her key on the hook. It’s still early. Not even seven in the morning yet. Hermione will still be…
Asleep on the sofa?
She smiles to herself as she spots the blonde head in the lamplight. It’s still weird. Blonde. She’s never really been into blondes.
Until now. Sally is pretty cute.
She eases off her shoes and tiptoes over. Peeks at the cover of the book the other witch has obviously been reading…
Latin. Oh yeah. Learning Latin. Bellatrix is supposed to test her today on those flash cards. Are—
Hermione curls sideways. And all of the flash cards that were held in place under the book on her lap start falling—
Bellatrix casts a wandless hover charm.
Then almost smacks herself. Shit. No magic. How hard is that to remember?
She sighs under her breath and hovers them towards her anyway. She’s already done it now. Might as well stack them and put them on the table.
She walks around the sofa, flicking through the cards, curious. Hmm. Yes. Yes. Yes. This one needs…
She sits down on the carpet and pulls a stray pen towards her, uncapping it with her teeth. Underlines the emphasised syllable and alters a declension. Writes a note underneath explaining why it’s irregular, and how—
“Good morning…Professor,” a slightly bleary voice drifts towards her. Confused but amused. Gentle.
Bellatrix finishes her sentence. Takes her time. Holds back a smile. Cheeky witch.
Then looks up. Enjoys the somehow sleepy but still glinting gaze directed her way. Halo of messy hair, fringe eschewed.
Bellatrix lets the smile show. Grins around the pen lid, still held in her mouth.
And taps the cards on the floor. Puts them on the coffee table, pen and lid returned too. “Morning, Granger. Late night study session? You must be looking to impress. Shame you didn’t come to me earlier though. I could have made some corrections.”
Hermione bites her lip and slowly gets to her feet. Looks to the cards. “Are there really that many mistakes?” she frowns. Brow crinkled.
Bellatrix rolls her eyes and stands up too. “One mistake. And I told you. I’ll help. It’s no big deal. What are you doing up so early? Or late? I didn’t see you when I left…I don’t think.”
She was up at five to go meet George at the farm. A bit late though. She had to run out of the house to make it in time. Maybe she ran right past Hermione.
Hermione shrugs. “I…think I heard you leaving. Just missed you. I couldn’t go back to sleep, so…anyway. How was your morning?”
Missed her?
Bellatrix finds herself suddenly closer and wrapping the blanket around Hermione’s shoulders. She looks a bit cold. Feels a bit cold. “Missed me? Or missed me?” she murmurs.
It earns her a laugh. Somehow. She’s not sure if it’s what she said, or her breaking their boundaries again. Standing so close. But it does mean she can watch the laugh break over her face. Feel her shoulders move with it.
And the blanket is adjusted around her too. Around her shoulders, so they’re both enclosed in it. “Well…maybe I did miss you,” Hermione quietly admits. “And you’re cold! Did you wear your jacket? It’s barely light outside!”
She did forget her jacket today. But she was wearing her hoodie and running around a lot, so it was warm enough. It’s only now that she’s stopped that it’s more noticeable.
“Good job I came back then,” Bellatrix smiles. Moves closer so they’re touching. “I’ve got you to keep me warm.”
Hermione’s head ducks. Shy. Still so shy. Sometimes.
But not scared. Thank Salazar. The fear seems to have disappeared. The anger.
Still not quite as sure though. This witch can be fucking confusing to say the least. She’s a brilliant witch. Incredible. Steals Bellatrix’s breath sometimes with how…certain she is. The drive behind everything she does. Determination. And resilience.
But one suggestive comment, and there she goes, honeyed eyes not knowing where to look.
Not that Bellatrix doesn’t enjoy it a little. It’s nice to know there’s something that fazes this witch. Something to give Bellatrix the upper hand. Because if those eyes didn’t look away sometimes, she’d be a puddle on the floor. Pathetic. But she can’t stop. Even now. Can’t look away.
Oh shit. She’s looking back.
And Bellatrix is caught. Captured. Mesmerised.
It just…doesn’t seem real. Someone looking at her like this. Such warmth. Such caring.
She really wants to kiss her, dammit. Those lips are screaming to be kissed. And her cheeks. And her forehead. And her nose, and her neck, and…
Can she? Are they back to that? Can they do that?
Is it selfish? To act? Or to ask?
She tries to think of what the right thing is here. Tries to think of someone good. What would they do? What would…Harry do?
Nope. That doesn’t work.
What would Hermione do?
Hermione…
Is still watching her. Looking at her. Hands on the blanket.
Come on, Granger. You know how this works. Make the first move. Tell her it’s okay. Say it.
No order comes. No rules. Just silence.
No, wait. She’s moving.
She’s closer. Did Bellatrix accidentally move closer? Her hands are on Hermione’s back, and in her hair. She can’t remember doing that. So—
Hermione laughs again. Softly this time. Tucks some hair behind Bellatrix’s ear and moves in oh so close. Smiling. Dimpled cheeks. “What’s that expression?” Hermione whispers. “What are you thinking?”
Uhh…
Bellatrix shrugs. Tuts. “Isn’t it obvious? What are you thinking?”
Stop being such a mystery for once and say it, Hermione! What is this? How long are they going to go back and forth and back and forth before—
“I’m thinking about kissing you,” Hermione whispers.
Bellatrix almost groans. So much talking. Won’t she just act on it? It’s driving her insane!
Well, not insane, but—
“Then that makes two of us,” Bellatrix huffs hurriedly. “So come on. Kiss me. And next time don’t wait so long. You can kiss me whenever you want.”
And that idea makes the heat travel through her. Hermione kissing her all the time? No more waiting? No more stumbling around each other, walking on eggshells, testing the waters? Because they’ve tested it. She knows what she wants. So if Hermione wants this again—
Lips press to hers and dart away. Playful. And fast. It takes her completely by surprise. Knocks her off guard. Oh.
“Whenever I want?” Hermione smiles.
Bellatrix smiles back, hope rising. “That’s what I said. Words have power though, Granger. So use your power wisely.”
She’s not sure what she’s saying anymore. Just repeating any inner mantra she’s constructed over the years. Anything that makes sense. Because this…
She has a feeling things are about to change. New path. New option.
Or a continued path. One she thought she might have lost for a second.
She tries it. Goes for it. To hell with it. Let’s just see…
She cups Hermione’s face, her jaw, and leans in. Closes her eyes. Just feels this. This magic. This…connection. She’s never felt anything like it. For so long everything was detached…and now here’s someone that her whole being wants to cling to.
It’s terrifying. It’s a rush. It’s a sign.
So this time, she captures those lips without asking. Rests there. Breathes with this. The warmth of it. The body leaning into hers. Not away. Someone coming closer. No-one ever comes this close…
The blanket falls to the floor and she feels Hermione shiver, before lips part and a hand…a hand…
A hand takes hers.
She pauses. Stomach flipping. Fuck. The tenderness of this is a bit…it’s…
Hermione’s lips continue to brush against hers, and she manages to kiss back, even under this strange cloudyheadedness.
She squeezes the hand in hers.
And pulls back. Nope. Be careful, Bella. Be very careful here. Don’t fuck this up.
She searches Hermione’s face. No fear. Still no fear. But there’s something. Something held back. An anxious…
She seems anxious.
Bellatrix smiles reassuringly. Steps back. Maybe she’s too close again. Too much. That’s always her problem.
She walks over to the kettle instead. Skips. Fine. Casual. Puts the kettle on. “Breakfast?” she asks. “And do you want to go for a walk later? I’m taking Puddles through the woods up to the field. I was going to do the long route, but we can go the short way back if you want to come?”
The kettle is making a really weird sputtering noise. Uh oh. What did she—
Hermione brushes past her, grabs the kettle, and goes to the sink. Gives her an odd look and then pops the lid open. Steam hisses out. She adds water.
Water.
“Water helps,” Hermione smiles. “When you make tea. And you just put the sugar in the fridge, by the way. Did you know?”
She did?
She did. She is. Sugar pot in the fridge.
What is she doing?
Bellatrix picks up the milk. Raises it at Hermione. “Just getting this. I know where the sugar goes.”
She puts the sugar back, right where she got it from. Then goes to get the bread for the toast. Puts it in the toaster, pressing the…springy, lever things down firmly. Whatever they’re called. Is there a name for them?
Another laugh from behind her. “Are you just…tired? Or…” Hermione drifts off confusedly. Understandable. She is acting pretty fucking strange.
Bellatrix shrugs again. “Maybe. I was up early. Maybe I need a break.”
Or maybe the tension is just killing her. Merlin. Hermione is always too close. Or too far away. Sometimes Bellatrix just wants to grab her. Shake her. Like— like she needs to break her open and find out what’s inside.
Which is fucking nuts. Deranged. She can’t think like that. She doesn’t want to break her. She doesn’t want to break anything. Break this. It’s just like an itch in her brain. Hermione. Bellatrix wants to know more. Wants to understand. Wants to be as close as possible. All the time.
But she shouldn’t. Don’t do it. Don’t be too much. Don’t scare her. Scar her. You scarred her. So you can’t. You can’t get close. Don’t be selfish. Don’t be greedy. You have to hide. Have to be sensible. Have to—
She reaches into her pocket for Ratty. Strokes him. Breathes.
Feels a hand on her back. “Do you want honey on your toast today?” Hermione asks. “Or…umm…here.”
Bellatrix blinks.
Looks down at the bar of chocolate placed in front of her on the counter. Oh.
Shit.
“Chocolate for breakfast?” she jokes, trying to not give away how fast her heart is right now.
How did she know?
A tut from behind her. “And toast. You can’t survive on just sugar. I don’t know how you always have all this energy without crashing! You want to go on a walk? I bet you haven’t sat down all morning.”
Bellatrix opens the chocolate, turns around, and takes a bite.
It helps. It really does. It’s calming. Chocolate is magic.
Or maybe it’s just looking at Hermione that helps.
“I sat down when I was on my bike…” Bellatrix smiles slowly.
Then dodges a swatting hand. Laughs. “Only around the corner! I didn’t go far. It was just to—”
“Without a jacket?! Be—Beth!” Hermione shouts, eyes darting upward to Joyce’s flat.
So protective. It’s hilarious! Who— she’s being scolded for being unsafe! Her! Incredible!
Bellatrix grins wider. “I didn’t fall off, but you can still kiss me better, if you want?”
Come on. Let’s turn that irritation into something else. The fire in her eyes is so hot.
It doesn’t work. She gets an eye roll, and Hermione sits down at the table. “That won’t work. Don’t change the subject, I’m being serious.”
Being Sirius? Well in that case—
Hermione holds up a hand. “No. I know. I know what I said, and I can see that look in your eye. I’m not going on the bike with you.”
“You can wear my jacket,” Bellatrix hums back, sinking slowly into the chair opposite her. “And the helmet. I won’t let you get hurt. You can trust me.”
And she means it. Really wants Hermione to understand. Never. She’ll never hurt her. Not this time. Never again. She’ll do everything in her power to make sure that doesn’t happen. Will keep her safe. Wants to keep her safe. Wants to.
Wants to wrap her up in thick leather. Wants to feel her arms holding on oh so tight as they speed through the air. No looking down. No looking back. She tired of looking back. Of looking ahead. Wants to live right now.
To act right now.
Her eyes fall back to Hermione’s lips. Move to her eyes. Back to her throat.
Hermione swallows. “Well…maybe I’ll go with you. As long as…as you promise to be careful. No getting hurt.”
“Not a hair on your head,” Bellatrix swears.
Hermione smiles back. Shakes her head exasperatedly and stands up to get the toast. “Bella. I meant you. No getting hurt. You have to be careful, okay?”
Oh.
Bellatrix nods again. Looks down at the mug of tea steaming in front of her. The open bar of chocolate. This table that they sit at every day. Hears toast being buttered. For her.
Nods again. Okay. Hermione is right. This time, she needs to be safe. This time, she needs to be careful.
Because she’s powerless. And teaching. And hiding.
And if this isn’t love…she doesn’t know what is.
Chapter 36: Enjoy the Ride
Notes:
Hi folks!
So...I'm alive? Wow, it's been way too long since the last update. Thank you so much for all the comments in the mean time, I promise I've read them all and will be replying soon! It was so so nice to see them, and I felt bad that I didn't have an update for you, but I guess after posting so much for so long my brain got a bit burnt out and my muse...wandered off. The amount of unfinished WIPs I now have hanging out in my docs trying to get it back is crazy.
So my updating schedule...won't be scheduled haha. Definitely not daily or weekly. But it seems (fingers crossed) that the words are flowing a bit again. So the story will continue. Apparently at it's own pace.
Much love to you all! And on we go...
Chapter Text
The days drift by, winter turning to spring. Evenings longer. Days longer. The first signs of life, green shoots breaking through hard earth.
The days continue on, memories of a long distant future becoming a strangely distant past… and Hermione has come to a decision.
A terrifying, stupidly brave decision, but there it is. She’s thought it over, and it’s really the only option now.
She’s stuck in the past. For some unknown reason. Either to learn something, or help someone. Or maybe she’s here by accident. Maybe there isn’t a reason at all.
But as time ticks on, one thing is becoming certain. Becoming clear.
She doesn’t know why she’s here. She doesn’t know what she’s doing. Doesn’t know what options to take, or what the future might hold, or what she’s changing for the worse or the better with all of her latest decisions.
And that’s it. Nothing at all she can do about that.
But one thing she does know…
Is that she wants to stay with Bellatrix. Be with Bellatrix.
Basically all the time.
It’s very embarrassing. She tries to argue her brain out of being so clingy and…obsessive.
But every day now, her first thought, Bellatrix.
And before she goes to sleep, Bellatrix.
And when she’s trying to read. Or make a plan. Or write down her memories from fourth year, just in case…
She’ll be interrupted by Bella. Whether she’s there or not.
Every step of the way. In a way…the one certainty she’s had since she arrived in this time.
Bellatrix is always there.
And Hermione likes that.
So. She has made a decision.
She’s giving in.
She can see Bellatrix outside through the window in the pre-morning darkness. Six in the morning. On her way to the shed to get on her bike and ride off for the day. Another day without Hermione.
Well.
Hermione puts on her coat, grabs her own set of keys from the hook to lock the door, and jogs around the side of the house after her. “Hey!” she calls, half-shouting to get her attention, but holding back so she doesn’t wake up Joyce.
Not that the bike will be quiet, now that she thinks about it.
And there it goes. Sound of the engine humming. Too late.
A headlight shines out of the shed. And here Bellatrix comes, helmet on, black leather jacket and secretly dragonskin boots that she’s started wearing again. Over jeans.
Stops, just outside the shed. Takes the helmet off. “Herm— Sally?” Bellatrix quietly questions. Moves to get off the bike. “What are you doing up? Is everything okay? What—”
Hermione just smiles. Continues up to her and past her, closing the shed doors. “Got the key for the padlock?” she asks casually.
Bellatrix sinks back to sit on the bike, patting her pockets. “Uhh…yeah. Yes. Got them when I opened it. Umm…”
Hermione nods. Clicks the lock shut. Keeps her breathing slow and steady. Tries to distract herself from what she’s about to do, without a wand, in the pitch-black night in the middle of the countryside—
Shakes her head at herself and moves over to Bellatrix. Raises her eyebrows at her. “So? How does this work? I sit behind you, right?”
And she swings her leg over the bike, grabbing hold of Bellatrix’s shoulders to help shift herself on properly. It’s higher up than she’d imagined.
Bellatrix let’s out a shocked sound. Wobbles. The bike tips a bit too, but steadies before Hermione’s heart can really jump out of her mouth.
“You’re— What are you doing, Granger?” Bellatrix whispers, smile to her voice and breath leaving puffs of mist in the frosty air. “You hate this.”
Hermione smiles back. Forces it. Buries that shouting voice in her head telling her to ‘be sensible’ and ‘get off right now!’.
Because…well, screw it! What’s the worst that can happen? So she might fall off. And she has no idea always she’s doing. And Bellatrix could fall off too, and they’d both get hurt. Or die.
How many times has Bellatrix faced death? Faced danger?
She always survives. So the odds must be in their favour, really.
…And Hermione is best friends with the Master of Death. Apparently.
She breathes in and out a few more times. Wraps her arms around Bella’s waist. Sinks forward to put her chin on her shoulder, teeth gritted against the cold and jittery with nerves.
Remembers that Bellatrix should put the helmet back on.
And wonders why motorbikes don’t have seatbelts. Why? Is it better if you’re flung off the bike? Is there some kind of…procedure? Are you supposed to roll? She thinks when you fall from something you’re supposed to bend your knees and roll. Is that—
Bellatrix sighs. “I can feel your heartbeat. You’re scared. Why are you…I was only teasing you about doing this, you know. Why…what…what do you want me to do?”
Oh, Bella.
Hermione breathes her in. Feels her warmth. Smells the leather. Opens her eyes…and looks out. Down the lane. Empty lanes. Clear night. Bright and starry.
“I trust you,” Hermione whispers. “Just…go. Show me…show me what it’s like. It’s beautiful out here. Peaceful. Quiet.”
She waits a beat. Grins to herself. Squeezes Bellatrix tighter. “Too quiet. Too boring. We can do better than this. Let’s make some noise. Wake some people up. Disturb the neighbours.”
Bellatrix laughs. And stands up to kick the engine into action or…whatever it is she’s doing. Hermione doesn’t know. Her eyes pressed tightly shut the moment Bellatrix moved.
“You want to be a rebel?” Bellatrix says a bit louder over the noise.
Hermione laughs. Lifts a hand to blindly hit her leg. “I am a rebel!” she shouts back. “Undesirable Number Two!”
Bellatrix snorts. “You rebelled against a rebellion. My rebellion.”
What?! That still counts!
“I had a wanted poster!” Hermione shouts, opening her eyes. “I had to sneak into the Ministry! And Gringotts— ah!”
When did they leave the drive? They’re already on the lane. Going towards— Which way is— isn’t there a bend in the road—
She closes her eyes again. “You’re not wearing the helmet! I didn’t think you’d just drive off and—”
Something hard nudges her shoulder.
“Put it on, then. Here. You’ll have to do it yourself, because—”
Hermione’s eyes fly open. “Both hands!” she practically screams. “Why are— oh.”
They’re going very slowly. Very, very slowly now.
Bellatrix slows to a stop at the edge of the road.
Turns to smile sadly at her. “You’re scared. And you don’t trust me. Not enough.”
Hermione swallows. Turns the helmet over and over in her hands. “I…I am scared. But…I do trust you. A lot. So…stop testing it. Please?”
That must be what Bellatrix was doing. Tricking her. Making Hermione think she was being more dangerous than she was.
And bringing up the War. Saying she wasn’t a rebel. Hermione was a rebel. She fought in the War. She can do things that scare her. Bellatrix isn’t…endangering her!
Hermione nods firmly.
Puts the helmet on.
“See?” she says, voice muffled and ears slightly blocked. “You get the jacket, I get the helmet. And we’ll be fine. You know what you’re doing. And we both have magic to protect us if we have to.”
Bellatrix stares back at her. Unsure.
But then the worried expression…disappears. Becomes a bit…
Cocky. Casual. Too casual.
Oh.
She can see her own reflection in the helmet, can’t she?
Hermione smiles. “You can’t see, but I am smiling. I want to do this. You said it was like flying! Well…go! Fly! This is much more comfortable than riding on a dragon.”
Bellatrix sighs.
Then turns back around. “Always pushing your luck. But alright. If you want to…then hold on tight. And if you want to stop, tell me.”
And they start to roll off again on the empty road.
Then Bellatrix makes a U-turn, leaning them so far to the right that surely they’ll end up on the ground. Hermione clenches her teeth, holding her breath and bracing to roll off—
Oh.
They don’t fall. They’ve somehow defied gravity.
“Change of plan,” Bellatrix says calmly, as if that was nothing. “Forgot. Going this way first.”
And there’s a sudden burst of speed. Whoa!
Hermione clings on. Fights to catch her breath. “Where— where are we going? The farm is—”
Bellatrix laughs. “The other way. But we have a few things to do first, if that’s alright? My day.”
Things?
“Umm, okay,” Hermione breathes out. “As long as—”
There’s a corner. Is she going to slow down for the—
She shuts her eyes. Feels the bike tilt horribly far again, this time to the left. No no no—
“Need to breathe,” Bellatrix croaks out.
Oh. Oops. Hermione is squeezing her a bit too tightly.
She loosens her arms as much as she dares. “Sorry.”
Bellatrix laughs. “I did tell you to hold on. But I’ll go a bit slower if you— but open your eyes. They’re shut, aren’t they? But you’ve got to see this.”
See what?
Hermione peeks her eyes open.
Oh. Oh they’re at the top of a steep hill. Still on a road, but—
“It’s just us!” Bellatrix shouts over the sound of the wind. “Only ones on the road, all the way down. And we need some speed to get up the other side, so….”
And they start their descent. Gaining speed. The bike is mostly steady beneath them, but Hermione still feels her stomach flip. Can’t help but scream and cling to Bellatrix for dear life.
But then they’re at the bottom. They made it. All the way down and making their way up the other side.
Hermione lets out a relieved breath. Then laughs. Shakily. “You— that— that was so fast. Speed limits!”
“We were going fifty,” Bellatrix chuckles. “In a sixty. National speed limit.”
She pats Hermione’s hand. Which means one hand is off the… steering wheel or whatever you call it.
“Rebel,” Bellatrix says. “Under the speed limit. Oh no!”
“I guess I’m just not used to it,” Hermione huffs. “It felt fast. And it just feels so unnatural! Like there’s nothing stopping me from hurtling off!”
Bellatrix nods. Turns right, down another lane. “It’s probably because you’re on the back. It’s actually scarier back there. No control. Less to hold onto. And your balance isn’t quite right. I tried it with Andy, and even I panicked a few times.”
She panicked? Got scared?
“Really?” Hermione asks.
Bellatrix shrugs. “Yeah. She took different turns than I would have. At different speeds. Judged things differently. I…like to know what’s coming,” Bellatrix says. Then laughs to herself. “When you live the same lifetime over and over, you get used to some predictability. And…everything was a bigger risk than I was used to. If she got hurt, I could be blamed. Could be sent back. Or I could go down the wrong path. Lose that option.”
Oh…
Hermione manages to let go with one of her hands. Tucks some hair behind Bellatrix’s ear. A cold ear. “What about me?” Hermione cautiously calls over the wind. “Are you worried about me?”
Bellatrix doesn’t reply.
Hermione looks around. Takes in their surroundings. They’re driving down a flat road, along the edge of a field and towards a village. Bellatrix slows for the thirty zone.
Sunlight is creeping in. Just about. The first hints of the day…
“I’m always worried about you,” Bellatrix replies, just as uncomfortably. “I…”
She drifts off again. Hermione holds her breath. Doesn’t know…if she should say something…or leave her to…
Hermione lets go again. Finds the courage to get a hand free. Squeezes Bella’s shoulder.
Bellatrix slowly breathes in. Hermione can feel it. Ribs rising.
“…but maybe I’m thinking too fast too,” Bellatrix continues. “Thinking too much. I miss that. Being able to just…feel. React. That’s why I like this. When there’s no-one around, just me and the bike, I get to just…be.”
Oh.
Hermione clears her throat. “That must be nice. And I get that— you can drop me home, if you want? Sorry. You deserve to have some alone time. It must be such a mental weight, all the time. I didn’t mean to—”
Hermione tries to move back a bit. Be less suffocating. Less clingy. She wants Bellatrix to be happy, not—
Bellatrix let’s go with one hand to grab her. Pull her closer again. “Be with me,” Bellatrix blurts out.
Hermione stills.
Slowly relaxes forward.
Bellatrix turns slightly to look at her. A quick glance before she has to keep her eyes on the road. “Just be. With me,” Bellatrix murmurs. “It’s dawn. A new day. No…past. Or future. Just now.”
Hermione feels her breath catch. Heart pattering. Fluttering. Rising into her throat.
She suddenly wishes she wasn’t wearing a helmet. So she could…be closer. Press closer. Nose in her hair. Lips to her skin.
She lets out a breath.
Holds Bellatrix gently. Looks around. Listens to the wind rush past. The night sky begins to fade to a pale blue, signs of an orange glow to the horizon, blanketing the distant hills.
She slips her hands into Bellatrix’s pockets to keep them warm. Smiles as her numb fingers fuzz back to the life and she feels the edge of a chocolate wrapper. Some muggle coins. A key. A scrunched-up ball of paper. A…
“A lighter?” Hermione asks as she recognises the shape of the plastic. “When did you get that?”
“Can I not have any secrets from you?” Bellatrix replies jokingly. “My pockets, my stuff. Remember?”
Yes. That’s…what she said to Mike. When she was drunk at the bar. So…
“You can remember the night down the pub?” Hermione asks. “I thought you might have forgotten.”
Bellatrix glances around at her again, bike slowing. Smiles. “Nope. Crystal clear. All of it. Why? Did you want me to forget?”
Forget that Bellatrix tried to kiss her. And was jealous of Mike.
And that Hermione wanted to kiss her too.
They haven’t kissed since…a while ago. Too long ago. Days. It never feels like the right moment, but Bella did say she could. Whenever she wanted…
Hermione resists the very stupid urge to kiss her right now. Kiss those still grinning lips, inches from her own. Only the helmet in the way.
“Of course not,” she says instead. “Eyes on the road, Bella.”
Bellatrix does turn back around. But chuckles. “Elizabeth. Don’t forget that I’m Elizabeth, Sally.”
Hermione pulls her closer. “Not here. Not now. It’s just us. So you can be Bella.”
The road curves gently to the right. Hermione closes her eyes for a moment.
Feels the bike slow even more.
Huh?
Bellatrix stops them at the edge of the road near some houses, pulled up slightly into the gravel. Leaves the engine running, but turns in her seat. Tugs at Hermione’s helmet.
Smiles wider as it comes off.
Rests it in her lap and reaches into her pocket, giving Hermione a handful of coins, her other hand absentmindedly brushing Hermione’s hair back into place. “We’ve reached our first stop. See that little wooden box over there? At the end of the path? There are eggs. We need half a dozen eggs. I normally leave about one pound for them.”
Oh. That’s what they’re doing here. Getting eggs.
How does Bellatrix normally hold the eggs at the same time as—
She doesn’t want to know.
Hermione nods and accepts the change. She can do that. Can go and…
“Uhh…what’s the correct way to get off?” she asks Bellatrix with a frown. She doesn’t want to tip or wobble the bike like she did before. Is she supposed to slide? And her legs have gone all shaky from the adrenaline. What—
Lips rush forward to meet hers, stealing her breath. A shock of cold. Cold lips. Cold face. Cold fingertips under her chin.
Oh…
And pull away. Bellatrix moves back to meet her eyes. Smiles softly. “Stop thinking,” she whispers. “Go on. It’s my day. Jump off and run around a bit. It will keep you warm. You’re freezing.”
…uhh…
Well, says her! She’s cold too! And—
Hermione leans back in. It’s too tempting. Finally gets to kiss her, and face her, and touch her. Hold her close, hair tickling her face.
Use her to cling onto as she shifts herself off of the bike. Solid ground. Wobbly legs.
Bellatrix breaks her lips away and gasps against her cheek. Foreheads pressed together.
A rooster crows nearby. Other birds chirping too. The beginning of the day.
“I’ll go get those eggs,” Hermione whispers. Doesn’t move.
“Normally I bring a bag,” Bellatrix murmurs back. “The rucksack Molly gave us. But I left it at the farm with George.”
Ah. There’s that question answered.
“Shame magic doesn’t exist,” Hermione smiles. “I’ll just have to be careful holding onto them.”
Bellatrix laughs softly. Pulls back to grin at her. “Flying around holding an egg? Hmm. Now why does that sound familiar?”
Hermione laughs too. Begins walking over to the end of the path. “Well hopefully these ones aren’t as heavy. Or guarded by anything too fierce.”
She heads towards the box. Opens the latch.
Aha. A basket of eggs, and a note saying whatever change you can manage is welcome, and that there are some egg cartons…
There.
She drops a few coins into the little jar. Takes the carton and gently places each egg inside, checking they’re not already cracked.
So. Eggs for breakfast? Is that what’s happening? They normally just have toast.
She smiles at Bella as she returns. Bella…
Who is taking off her jacket.
No. No, don’t even—
“What are you doing? We had a deal. I wear the helmet, you wear the jacket,” Hermione says firmly as Bellatrix tries to hand it to her.
“I never agreed to that,” Bellatrix says. “And you’re cold. You need to—”
“You’re cold,” Hermione tuts. “I felt your cheeks. I told you. Don’t forget about yourself! Put it back on. I’m already wearing a coat, Bella.”
Bellatrix huffs and pouts a bit, but does put her arms back through. Zips it back up grumpily.
A smile breaks through. “Okay. Hop back on, then. Oh. Hang on. Let me see—”
Bellatrix pats her pockets. Pulls out the ball of paper and unscrunches it, flattening it out on a handlebar.
Nods. “We’ll do that on the way back. Got to wait until the shop’s open. But that’s okay, because I need to stop by…and then there’s…”
She frowns in thought. Then smiles again. Smiles at Hermione and pats the bike. “Busy day today, Granger. Shops and farms and fields.”
Then pauses. Taps a finger to her lip. Tilts her head to the side, chasing a thought. “We might even go to a grange. Is that who your ancestors were? Farmers? Grangers?”
Her ancestors?
Hermione shrugs. “I don’t really know. My grandparents all died when I was still young, and no-one has looked into our family tree. I know a great uncle was a doctor during the war. And…my great grandma was a governess before she had children of her own, I think. No farmers that I know of. I don’t know where the name Granger came from on my dad’s side.”
“You only know up to your great grandparents?” Bellatrix snorts, helping to tug her up onto the bike and taking the eggs whilst she puts the helmet on. “That’s nothing! That’s only…a century ago, if that.”
Hermione huffs. Takes the eggs from her. “Not all of us have…tapestries and portrait galleries! And wizards live longer! I’m sure my parents know a little bit more than me, but I never asked that far back.”
“Live longer?” Bellatrix mutters. “Not in my family. You’re lucky if you get to fifty. Other than…well there was my great, great, great Aunt Elladora. You know, the one that started the house-elf-beheading tradition. She hung on in there until the nineteen thirties. Probably just to keep her claws on Grimmauld. She never really liked great uncle Arcturus, but she never had any kids, so don’t know what she expected really. Next male heir.”
She turns to face forward with a shake of her head. Hands back on the handlebars.
Pauses.
Another idea sparks in her eyes as she turns back around. Eyes that move over Hermione quizzically. “What about other witches and wizards in your family?” Bellatrix asks under her breath, shuffling closer and looking around for muggles. Clears her throat, an unsure and…slightly embarrassed look to her. “Not that it matters, but, I mean…are you really the first one? It has to come from somewhere, don’t you think? The magic?”
Hermione has never really thought about it…
Well, she has. When she first got her letter. But once she learnt muggleborns like her were relatively common, and that not everyone grew up in the magical world, she spent more time focusing on learning about the world she was about to enter than wherever her magic came from. She had magic, just like everyone else. She had a wand, and was allowed into Diagon Alley, and had so much to discover. To read.
And her parents definitely weren’t magical. They were dentists. So that was that.
She shakes her head. “As I said, not that I’ve heard of. I don’t have a very big family. No siblings. It’s just…Mum and Dad and me. An…ordinary family. No mysteries. No secrets. Nothing special.”
Except…except for her. Her whole life had to be a secret. And then…when she had to obliviate them…
She feels the guilt return. Like it always does. Settling into her stomach and climbing up her throat. She swallows it down. Shakes it away.
It was for the best. It was the best decision to make. It saved them. And they’ve forgiven you.
They’ve forgiven you.
They’ve…
They live in Australia. And sometimes, when they look at her…the way they look at her—ah!
She reflexively grabs hold of Bellatrix as they go over a bump in the road.
Road? When did they start moving again?
“An ordinary family,” Bellatrix muses. “Only child. Huh. Can’t imagine it. You sure you don’t have a bad one in the bunch? Or a scandal? You know, child out of wedlock, someone locked away in prison, an aunt whose husbands always die? Not even a family pet that mysteriously disappeared?” she jokes.
Hermione laughs. “Nope. A witch in the family is the biggest scandal I’ve heard of.”
Bellatrix squeezes the breaks, the bike tilting as they enter a bend. “Told you. You’re special. Now feet up! This is the fun bit!”
Feet up? Up where? Up—
She spots the red rimmed, triangular warning sign coming up on the side of the road.
Oh no no—
“We’re going through a ford?” Hermione shouts, looking ahead for the stream. “We’ll get soaked!”
“It’s not too high today! It’s just like a big puddle. Make sure the egg carton doesn’t get wet though!”
The carton? But what about—
The road turns to cobblestone, and they coast downhill into a dip. There’s a small stone bridge for pedestrians off to the left, and then she can see the stream they’re about to cross—
Plow straight through. Bellatrix is right, only a few inches of water that sprays up around them.
Hermione lifts her feet out to the side and curls forward to protect the eggs between her stomach and Bellatrix’s back. Laughs and squeals as the water splashes up in all directions.
Bellatrix laughs too, looking a bit worse for wear. Hair wet and water dripping down her neck. “Deeper than I thought. At least this short hair will dry faster. Especially if we pick up some speed!”
And she revs the engine. Curves around the next bend. Leaves the village behind, houses lost to hedgerows. The speed climbs and climbs.
Hermione uses her legs to cling on, not wanting to crush the eggs. Looks around for a speed limit sign. Leans to check the speedometer…
Fifty. Okay. Not too fast then. It just feels like it.
She takes a deep breath and releases it. “Where are we going next, Black?” she shouts.
“The next village!” Bellatrix replies. “We’re dropping the eggs off at Alf’s sister’s, and getting some of her jam to bring back! But on the way we need to stop to get some logs from the Grange, and then stop by the shop in another village closer to the farm!”
“All of that before breakfast?” Hermione laughs in surprise. Is Bellatrix the errand girl for the whole county?
Bellatrix breaks smoothly and turns left, this time quite sharply. Another steep downhill, with lots of turns, almost slaloming down a narrow dirt road.
“Shortcut!” Bellatrix shouts. “Hold on, Granger!”
Hermione already is. Is clinging on with all her might, breathing wild and eggs precariously clutched between them.
She looks over Bellatrix’s shoulders to try to see what she’s doing. Where are the gears on a bike? Is there a clutch? Is she using her feet, or her hands? It looks like both.
Bellatrix breaks. They crawl to a stop.
The engine cuts off. They’ve pulled into a side track, next to a wooden fence.
Bellatrix puts a finger to her lips. “Well done. That was a steep drop,” she whispers. “But come here. Come on. Come see. We have time.”
See? See what? Why is she whispering…oh.
Bellatrix creeps towards the fence and silently climbs to sit on it, moving slowly so as not to startle them.
The lambs. Sheep and lambs. It’s lambing season, and a few are beginning to wake up and start the day.
Hermione eases her helmet off, leaving it on the ground with the eggs, and wanders over, careful not to step on any dry sticks and scare the sheep off.
Bellatrix reaches out a hand as she nears, pulling her over by the coat sleeve. “Those two are new,” she says under her breath, pointing. “See up that hill? By the hedge? The mother with the black head? Those two. Weren’t born yesterday.”
Hermione leans against the fence. Rests her arms on it and follows her line of sight…ah. There. Two little lambs.
New-borns. But they’re already walking. Bleating. Stumbling over tufts of grass in innocent play.
It’s warmer here. Their backs to the wind. Or it could just be Bella, sheltering her from the brunt of it.
So…she must come here every day. To know they were just born. How strange. Bellatrix really does have a whole secret life out here.
Hermione steps up onto the middle rung of the fence. And again. Swings one leg over, and then the other.
Sits on top. Hand next to Bella’s on the wood. “Do they have names?” she whispers in her ear. “The lambs? Or the mother?”
Bellatrix huffs out a quiet laugh, nudging her with her shoulder. “Maybe you should name them. Unless you want them to be called Lamby and…Sheepy. Names aren’t really my strong suit. Crookshanks, though. That’s an original name.”
Hermione ducks her head. “He was already named Crookshanks when I bought him. And I’m sure you can think of good names. I mean…you can make up spells! You’re good with words, Bella. Much better than me. I’m…amazed, most of the time, just listening to you. The way you…talked to Dumbledore. Or the way you taught defence. Words have power. You taught me that.”
Intent. Magic is intent. It’s in your head. It’s what you make it. It’s the words you choose.
That’s what Bella tried to teach them. Be careful of words, because they can shape your magic. Your world. Your destiny.
Bellatrix stays silent at her side.
Hermione glances at her. Tries to read her expression, as she stares out over the field.
A hand brushes hers. Hermione looks down. Watches cautious fingertips trace over her skin.
“I…maybe you’re right,” Bellatrix murmurs. “I think I…that’s why I don’t like naming things. It might sound stupid, but words are…powerful. So powerful. Important. It’s a responsibility, to name something. Someone. To create that identity. Who am I to do that? To decide what I think a sheep should be? Or a rat? Or a bird, or—”
Her hand moves up Hermione’s arm. “I tried to name you, before. I…I labelled you.”
Hermione knows it’s probably her imagination, but her scar seems to itch beneath her coat. Beneath that hand. Oh.
“I forced a name onto you,” Bellatrix whispers. Still doesn’t look her way. Her hand stills. Falls away.
“I know,” Hermione whispers back. Says calmly. Looks back over the distant hills and far-away forests. “You did that. Before,” she nods. “Lifetimes and lifetimes ago. See the sun over there? Think how many sunrises it’s been since then. I’m sure you can think of a better name now.”
Another long pause.
“A name…for you?”
Hermione searches out a hand without looking. Brushes her thumb over a ring. Feels her heartbeat quicken at the sly tone of voice. Doesn’t answer.
Hears a huffed chuckle. Then a sigh as Bellatrix stretches. “Hmm, another name for you. Let me think. Let me look.”
And Hermione can feel it. Can feel it without turning. Eyes on her.
“I could call you…Red…” Bellatrix muses, “You have the coat for it. But that’s a bit too…Weasley.”
Hermione’s nose scrunches at the idea. Weasley? Oh no, definitely not. She—
“Or Blondie, if we’re going with colours. Or …Goldilocks, how about that?”
Hermione shoves her with her shoulder. She’s deliberately picking awful ones! “Bella! You are not calling me—”
Bellatrix cackles. “Ooh, a feisty one. Bites back. How about a lion? Gryffindor staple. You can be…Simba, king of the lions.”
Hermione keeps swatting at her as she laughs, trying to knock Bella off the fence. “What— why a male lion? That’s so stupid, that’s— and I could at least be…Nala!”
Bellatrix ducks and weaves out of the way, half standing on the fence now, calves leant against the top rung for balance. She raises a very cheeky eyebrow. “Alright, fine, if you want to be remembered for the lion-sex-scene instead of revenge-killing your murderous uncle, then by all means, Nala it is.”
Hermione gasps in mock outrage even as she holds back more laughter. Lion sex?! What is—
She stands up too. Balances on the middle rung and shoves Bella’s shoulders, walking along the wood and pushing her back. Tapping her on the head, and the sides of her arms, and anywhere she can get to with her ducking and dodging. Infuriating grin still on her face. “There is not a lion sex scene. I can’t believe you! We both watched the same film, and it’s for children, and there wasn’t—”
Bellatrix walks backwards along the fence in retreat, foot behind foot without looking, only slightly wobbly on chunky heels. And a cackle erupts from her which she quickly covers with her hand. “Sssh! We’ll scare the sheep away! Calm down!” she chuckles. “And I’m telling the truth, anyway! We both know exactly what was going on between— crap!”
Her heel catches on the thin wood. She falls sideways—
Hermione reaches out and grabs her—
And tumbles down after her, the momentum sending them both down with a softened thwack on grass. Panicked bleating fills the air. And Bellatrix groans from beneath her.
Hermione sits up slightly. “Are you okay? Did you hit your head?”
Bellatrix winces but smiles, rolling her shoulders as she leans up under Hermione, leaning on one hand. “Don’t think so. Can’t believe I didn’t cast a cushioning charm though. Old Uncle Brian has managed to knock the witch right out of me with this plan of his. Not even a hover charm.”
Hermione smiles, brushing some grass out of Bellatrix’s hair. “It seems like I’m the one always falling onto you. Or you falling on me. It’s lucky Ratty isn’t in any of your pockets this time,” she says softly. Falling. She’s always falling. It shouldn’t be a surprise anymore.
Bellatrix’s eyes widen. She pats herself down. “Ratty! Are you sure— where is—”
“At home,” Hermione interrupts. “I saw him before I left. Curled up in your bed.”
Bellatrix relaxes.
Then looks at her curiously. “And…what were you doing in my room, exactly? Looking around under my covers?”
Oh. Well…
Hermione shrugs bashfully. “I…came to see you. I wanted to see you. Before you left. You always leave so early, but I wasn’t sure if you were still asleep, or— but you’d already got up.”
She can feel her heartbeat quickening. It’s…so vulnerable, feeling like this. Especially with the way Bella looks at her. There’s nowhere to hide. No time to rationalise how she feels. How much she…
How much she…
“I like being with you,” Hermione whispers instead. “You make me feel…”
She searches for the word. For the words. Can’t quite…explain it.
Bellatrix just waits patiently for her to finish. Plucks a few bits of grass from Hermione’s hair. Seems casual. Unfazed.
But her eyes are very alive. Flickering over Hermione and away.
Restless.
Bellatrix clears her throat. “You make me feel safe,” she murmurs. Looks away at some long grass blowing in the breeze.
Then back. Runs a hand through her hair and shifts her legs. “You…you make me think that maybe…maybe this time…everything is going to be okay. More than okay. Like— like I get to have fun again. But in a good way. Not like before.”
A guilty wince. Bellatrix shuffles back in the grass. Creates more distance. “Not that— you’re not just fun to me. I didn’t mean— I’m not using you. You’re so much more than— fuck I am not good with words. What do you mean I’m good with words? Because around you—”
Hermione laughs gently. Reaches for her and pulls her closer before she ends up sitting in sheep poo or falling down a hill. “Bella. Bella, come here. I know what you meant. It’s okay. I have fun with you too. Sometimes it feels like we shouldn’t be allowed to have fun, doesn’t it? That with so much going on, we should be spending all of our time making plans and saving the world.”
Now Bellatrix does relax. Sitting close to her in the grass. Ducks her head, twizzling a longer stem between her thumb and finger, and grins up at her. “Saving the world? Well, there’s a first time for everything. I always preferred the idea of ruling it. If the world is so broken, then don’t you need to rule it to make it right?”
Hermione laughs. It’s nice to see Bellatrix joking about the past. “Or work together with people who know best. Did that ever factor into your plans? That maybe you didn’t know the best solution for everything?”
Bellatrix scoffs. “Did you ever factor that into your plans? Hmm? The eighteen-year-old with a sword?” she says slowly. Finishes carefully. Checks Hermione’s expression.
Hermione…takes a slow breath. Sits…in the feel of it. In the memory of it…
And nods to herself. Okay. She thinks she’s okay joking about that too.
She squeezes Bella’s hand. “I do sometimes wish I’d relied on adults more, rather than putting it all on myself. Doing all that so young, without quite understanding the world yet…was hard. Some guidance would have been nice.”
“Be careful what you wish for,” Bellatrix mutters wryly.
And Hermione…can’t quite tell what she’s thinking now. From her expression. Voldemort? Or Harry? Some kind of regret…
Hermione shuffles to sit at her side instead. Wraps an arm around her side and leans against her. “Want to watch the lambs for a bit longer? And do you have some chocolate? It must be nearly breakfast time by now. I’m hungry.”
Bellatrix hums to herself.
Then reaches into her pocket. There’s the rustle of a wrapper. “I know what you’re doing, Granger.”
Hermione smiles to herself. It is a bit obvious. Chocolate to fight the dementors. “Half for me, and half for you, right? Sharing,” she says innocently.
Bellatrix gives her a long look.
Then breaks the bar in half. Hands it over. Looks far out over the field, shielding her eyes from the rising sun. “All for us. Everything the light touches,” she says, drifting into a mock deep voice. “Except that shadowy place over there, Simba. You must never go there.”
Hermione snorts. Oh gods, this can’t be the nickname that sticks. “I think I might ban you from naming things from now on.”
“I did warn you.”
“You did. I should have listened.”
“It’s too late now, Sally. You’ve left the Pride Lands. You’re not in Kansas anymore.”
Hermione groans. “And no more TV! Film night is over!"
“What a world, what a world!” Bellatrix screeches, lying back in the grass and pretending to melt. “Who would have thought some little girl like you would destroy my beautiful wickedness!”
Hermione barks out a laugh. Tries to hold back, but keeps laughing.
The sheep run away from them again. But this time they don’t try to hold in the laughter.
What a world, what a world.
What a crazy, magical world.
So why not just enjoy the ride?
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