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It had been a few days since the events at the safehouse, Both Sarah and Cosima haven’t spoken a word about what went on there. All Mrs S,Alison,Donnie,Paul and Felix knew was both Art and Delphine had been killed by Mark.
Cosima was laying down on her bed upstairs away from everyone else in the house, everytime she closed her eyes she had flashbacks of Delphine seeing the horror etched on her face as Mark repeatedly drove the knife into her chest. Before hearing Delphine’s final words to her “au revoir mon amour”.
Cosima was suddenly brought out of her flashback by a knock on the door, Cosima rolled over to the other side to see Mrs S stood at the door holding a mug.
Mrs S- Brought you a cup of hot chocolate, can I come in?
Cosima- yeah she said in a low tone
Mrs S walked in, setting the mug down on the bedside table before sitting beside Cosima and holding her hand tightly.
Mrs S- Do you want to talk about what happened at the safehouse? What happened to you and Sarah, Art and Delph-
Cosima- Don't say her name …….. Please
Mrs s- Chicken you need to accept Del- She not coming back
Cosima- I want to be left alone now
Mrs s- Look cosima I know i wasn’t there -
Cosima- Yeah you weren’t so don't try and tell me you understand what i’m going through because you don't
Mrs S- I’m not going to do that but what i was going to say was it might help you to talk about what happened, If you want you can talk to me
Cosima- I don't want too, because talking about it isn’t going to bring Delphine back
Mrs s- No it won’t but it might help you come to terms with her death and the events that happened a little bit better
Cosima didn’t say anything; she just sat staring at the white wall across from her bed.
Mrs s-Well you know where I am if you need to talk
After Mrs s had left the room Cosima slumped back down into the bed and began to cry into her pillow. She could feel her heart still aching for her deceased French wife.
Elsewhere Paul was equally concerned about Sarah who hadn’t spoken about anything that had happened at the house. She just spent all her time looking after Kira and Benjamin but anytime Paul would try to comfort her she would shy away from him as Paul would notice the fear in her eyes everytime he was around her.
Paul was watching Sarah feed Benjamin as Siobhan came down the stairs, she shot him a look that told him to follow her outside. The two left the house and went and sat in Siobhan's car.
Siobhan- I tried with Cosima she wouldn't say anything apart from what we know that Mark killed Art and Delphine. Any luck with Sarah?
Paul- No she was the same, she just focused on Kira and Benjamin, I can’t even touch her without her flinching.
Siobhan- I think we just need to give them both time
Paul- For how long? A month? A year?. Kira already knows something wrong with Sarah
Siobhan- Look she will come to you when she ready but right now we just drop it
Paul- Ok but I want answers!
Siobhan- You don’t think I do. You don’t think I want to know what's happened to my foster daughter and Cosima?
Paul- I’m sorry Siobhan i shouldn’t of spoken to you like that
Siobhan- It’s fine, I know it’s frustrating but we need to be there for them both
Later that evening
Sarah was getting ready for bed when Paul walked in, she shot him a weak smile as he closed the door behind him.
Paul- Benjamin was out like a light tonight hopefully he sleep all the way through
Sarah- Yeah hopefully she said in a quiet tone
Paul- I’ll sleep on the sofa tonight give you some space he said grabbing a pillow
As Paul turned away from the bed he felt a tight grip on his wrist he turned back to see Sarah holding his wrist with tears in her eyes
Sarah- Don’t leave me, I don't want to be alone, please stay…..Please
Paul threw the pillow on to the floor and sat on the bed cradling his broken lover as she began to cry harder.
Paul- shh it’s ok I’m not going to leave you, I’m right here.
Sarah- I’m so sorry I’ve been like this
Paul- You’ve got nothing to be sorry for.
Sarah- I can’t stop seeing him, feeling him on me
Paul- Who?
Sarah- Mark, he attacked me and the k-killed Art in front of me before he-he rap-
Sarah began to cry uncontrollably unable to finish her sentence but Paul knew why she would let him touch her before was because Mark had raped her after killing Art.
Paul- It’s alright Sarah he can’t hurt you anymore. No one else is going to hurt you I promise
The Next Day Siobhan was up early making breakfast for the house when she heard someone coming down the stairs, Siobhan knew it was Kira coming to watch tv.She turned around from the stove,
Siobhan- Morning Kir- Oh Cosima I thought it was Kira, how are you today chicken
Cosima- Um can we sit and have that chat
Siobhan- Of course I’ve just made a fresh brew
Siobhan sat down at the kitchen table with her foster daughter Genetic identical, she was able to notice Cosima was visibly shaking.
Siobhan- Where do you want to start chicken
Cosima- Um that night that Delphine …….died, I don't really remember how they got in, but i remember me and Delphine were you know having time together in bed
Siobhan- Yep I understand what you are trying to say
Cosima-And at some point during that I saw Ferdinand stood at the end of the bed and before either of us could react he and Dr Nealon grabbed us and dragged us upstairs. When we got in Sarah’s room she had been tied up and Mark was on top of her with his trousers down.
Siobhan didn’t say a word but Cosima noticed her hand making a fist at what she was telling her.
Cosima- I then noticed Art and the pool of blood around him, I checked for a pulse but it was too late he had gone. Mark then got off of Sarah and dragged Delphine across the room, I tried to get to her but Ferdinand held me down. I watched as Mark made Delphine angry with his threats that he was going to hurt me and make her watch. Cosima began to cry at the table
Siobhan- What happened next love
Cosima- I don't know all I remember next is Sarah being in front of me before seeing Mark on top of Delphine ……….. Stabbing ……her …..over and over again. I screamed and next thing I know Sarah has shot Mark. I then ran to Delphine, there was so much blood, I kept begging her to hold on, telling her that when this is over we can start thinking about having a family of our own. Then she told Sarah to look after me. I told her she was gonna get through this, she stroked my face and kissed me before she said goodbye I still hear those last words
Siobhan- What did she say?
Cosima-au revoir mon amour and then she stopped breathing and Sarah told me there was no pulse
Siobhan- I’m so sorry Cosima, I know how much she meant to you. But I know she died in a horrific way but if there is any comfort and peace you can take from what happened is that you were with Delphine during her last moments, holding her and making her feel comfortable. At least you were there when she took her final breath.
Cosima- I know but I just want her back, I miss her so much she said breaking down as Siobhan engulfed her in a hug as the identical began to sob harder.