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All of the boys just finished recording for their debut album. It was definitely a new experience. Not because they never recorded any song before, not because of that but because of the sheer pressure and how strict anyone with this album.
Sunoo completely understands why everything has to be beyond perfect with everyone's expectation but he didn’t know that it was going to be this exhausting? It will be fine if he’s only tired physically, then he can just sleep it off. But it’s starting to test his mental endurance too.
That part, he hated the most. He would be tired as soon as he awake just because of the bad thoughts that haunt him.
“You okay Sunoo hyung?” asked Jungwon while feeding himself a bowl of cereal. It’s 7 in the morning and there’s only two of them.
The rest of the boys tired themselves last night after a very hard session of dance practice. If he can choose, Sunoo will try to get more sleep but the bad thoughts just won’t let him, hence the reason he’s awake.
Maybe after getting some breakfast, he’ll try to get some more practice on his dance. He still feels like he lacks a lot and burdening the other members is the least thing he wants to do.
“I’ll be fine after some yummy breakfast, won-ah. Why are you already awake? It’s Saturday, you don’t have any school and our practice starts after lunch anyway” answered Sunoo while checking the fridge for some hearty breakfast but ended up finding nothing. Well, cereal will do.
“I could ask you the same thing, hyung. But to answer your question, the company actually asked me to come earlier than you guys, something about the leader test i guess? I’m not quite sure, they told me yesterday when I can barely think straight after that practice” said Jungwon while playing something on his phone.
“Oh god Jungwon, i can’t imagine doing anything related with test in this condition, good luck to you then”, Sunoo answered while sitting down after getting a bowl of cereal
“You haven’t answer my first question hyung, why are you already awake?”
“Oh you actually asked that?” Sunoo said while stifling his laugh, he actually thought Jungwon wouldn’t notice but of course that’s not what a leader candidate would do.
He still kept quiet thinking that Jungwon would let it go, but what happened instead was Jungwon putting down his phone to look his hyung in the eye. Guess he needs to answer this.
“My head is quite loud lately, getting more sleep don’t really help me anymore since i would wake up tired anyway. I’m planning to get some more practice after breakfast to make it go away, let’s hope it’s working”
“If extra practice can give your head the silent it needed then go ahead, but you know pushing your physics too much would make it worse in the long run right? I may not be the leader hyung, but as your dongsaeng i really hope you also pay attention to your body”
Sunoo stopped eating and then looked up to Jungwon, “I’m not weak Jungwon, I can handle extra practice just fine. If Heeseung hyung and Ni-ki can practice more than 3 hours then i can too”
Hearing the defensive tone Sunoo used, Jungwon just sighed and let the topic go, “I never said you’re weak hyung. Even the fittest person would crumble eventually if their body constantly got pushed to the limit. I’m not stopping you from getting any practice, I'm just reminding you to take breaks whenever you need.”
The talk stopped because Jungwon stood up to put out his bowl and start getting ready to go to the company. The topic of getting a break starting to be offensive for Sunoo. At first he appreciated his members for always taking care of him. But lately he started to saw some comments, a bad habit of his.
Those comments about his body, how his condition could be an obstacle for the group, how other people would fit more for Enhypen. Combine reading those comments with a tired body and you get negative thought materials.
Since then, everytime someone reminds him to take a break, all he can think about is how they saw him as a weak person.
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Ni-ki wasn’t the only one who noticed Sunoo’s reaction. How he keep making face every time someone told him to get some rest. He also get up earlier than the rest of them to go to the company, he knew cause he would sleep with him in his arms and wake up without him.
Ni-ki keeps trying to ask him about it but the only time he can be alone with him is on the bed just seconds before one of them falls asleep because of how tired they are.
“Why is he getting pressed over me saying he needs some rest?”Jake was complaining while slurping on his ramyeon for dinner in front of the tv. Jake, Heeseung, Jay, and Ni-ki were having ramyeon as their dinner in front of the TV tonight.
“You know how a fussy baby will get fussier when you tell them to rest? Maybe that’s the same case” Jay answered while shrugging his shoulders
“he’s not a baby, we told him to rest cause he started to look out of it, why is he so mad about it” Jake said in his natural pout while stirring his ramyeon.
“The problem is not on us, it’s in his head. If he haven’t figure it out by next week, i’ll try to talk to him” Heeseung said in final, putting an end to the discussion.
All along the talk, Ni-ki just kept silent. Tonight it is, he’ll talk to his hyung tonight.