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Welcome to "Don't Forget The Sun"

My creepypasta x ftm reader/self insert
story!!

I hope yall enjoy this story!!

Y/n=Your Name
D/n=Dead name
H/C=Your hair color
E/c = Eye color
F/C = Fav color
F/A = Fav animal

The reader is written with He/Him pronouns! but please let me know if i should change it to maybe He/They or He/It!

This is the first xreader/Self insert I've ever written so I'm extremely sorry if it's not the best!

Context: i wrote the reader as a chaotic trans[masc]15-year-old with ADHD, tics and a stutter-
he's honestly portrayed as a dorky chaotic dude.
I also include the reader being scene/emo/punk but please change that if you don't like that!

i also forgot this was a xreader haft way through so it's more of a self-insert i guess because i believe there's details on like hair color and stuff- but once again please change that if you don't like it or it doesn't fit!

TRIGGER/CONTENT WARNING:

•Cursing/Strong language
•Possible g0re[not in detail]
•Gender/Body dysphoria mentions
•Trans/homophobia/deadnaming[only in the first and second part,really]
•Slight mentions of su!cide/SH[Not in detail, NEVER IN DETAIL. ]

I will always put a TW/CW at the start of the chapter or paragraph that requires one!

Note:

Some characters also address Slender-Man by different names of some variant,mainly because I was torn to make it more true to the manipulative,horrible and all Slender Man or to make it the sorta classic fanfic "SlenderDad"- I ended up doing a hot mess mix that creates a Intresting but pretty good Slender man for this story.

The point of this is to let yall know that he will be addressed by different names and to avoid yall getting confused since I know some aren't used as much as the "classic Slender man/Slendy"

Slenders names in this story:
Slender Man,Slender,Slendy
The Operator, Boss,The tall man,The no face man

and I'm sure there are many others ill use through out because I personally love using alternative names for characters when possible!

Fem people can/are welcome to read this but please keep in mind I'm writing this for the ftm/trans/masc/NB/GN ppl rather then for the fem ppl out there. Don't get me wrong,yall are great n I love yall-

but please don't ask me to switch this to a femreader,there are so so soooo many stories out there for yall compared stories out there for masc/trans/GN people.

And if yall are going to fetishize the mc/reader being trans or just trans people in general please don't continue further. that's one of the few things I refuse to put up with because yall genuinely make me sick because I know how yall are. I say all this kindly and am simply just attempting to set bound.[my stories are for everyone but trans fetishizers:]]

-Luv Neon<3

11/9/2022

11/19/2022

11/22/2022

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Welp, there I sat, staring off at the back of the passenger seat Infront of me that my older sister sat in while our mother drove home from a shitty appointment with a new doctor.

You know I never thought I'd be sitting miserably in the backseat of my mother's car on the way to what feels like my doom, but here i am!!

And it's all because my sister snitched on me, not even in a mean and bad intentions way but in a way that was from concern and fairly good intentions, but as per usual that had just backfired.

She meant good but now I'm stuck on our mother's bad side and with one shitty summer break...fun, am I right?

When we pulled into the driveway of our home, our mother turned the cars' engine off and removed the keys before grabbing her purse and exiting the car, leaving me and my sister there

"Y/n.." my sister said softy and I looked up at her, raising an eyebrow as a signal for her to continue

"You know I didn't mean for this to happen...and I know moms overreacting but just put up with it okay?" She said still in a soft tone, I nodded and exited the car, then made my way inside and up to our mother who was standing at the kitchen counter

"Ma-" I started to talk but was cut off by her

"Sush Y/n, I don't want to hear your apologies nor excuses anymore, you're going to stay with your father and the decision is final, I'm tired of dealing with you and your shit." She said bitterly as she lit her cigarette, I didn't even try to talk as I knew she wasn't done talking

"Just go pack what you need because you have to leave soon" She finished and waved me off, I sighed and walked away not having the energy to try to bargain or bicker with her knowing it would only ruin things more.

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I was laying on my bed with my cat while scrolling through Tumbler and surrounded by shit that needed to go into my luggage, I only got as far as getting most my stuff ready to be packed, just not actually packed because my attention span just isn't real sometimes.

"Hey, Ya almost ready to get goi-" my sister trailed off as she walked into my room and saw the mess. She sighed and rubbed the corner of one of her eyebrows before speaking again

"You need help packing?" She asked in a haft caring haft sarcastic tone; I nodded as I got up from my bed

"Alright, well let's get this done before mom flips and loses her shit" she said, shooting me a small smile and I gave a small one back before sitting on my floor while she sat on the edge of my bed and helped me start packing my clothes, necessities, some books and some other things.

After my bags where finally packed and my sister had gone to handle her own things before we had to leave, I sighed and sat on my bed next to my cat again, I pet her has she flopped in my lap lap, making me smile a bit at her adorable action and give her a small kiss on her head and a boop to the nose.

"Common Y/n, it's time to go!" My sister shouted from what I assume to be the kitchen.

I sighed, giving my cat a few more kisses on her head then stood up and grabbed my backpack, I shoved my laptop, chargers, F/c/a [fav color and animal] stuffie and medicine case into it, also making sure my wallet, notebook, journal and pens where in there, I put my phone in the side pocket and flung the bag over my shoulder.
I grabbed my luggage, Camra (and its bag) and brought them to where my mother was waiting at the front door, I gave her a small smile and opened the door so I could go outside to put my stuff in the car.

After putting my stuff up, I went back inside and said goodbye to our mother, my cat and the dogs, making sure to sneak my cat a goodbye treat

"Are you ready to go now?" My sister asked as she went to walk out the door

"Y-yeah I'm rea- actually wait a s-second!" I nearly shouted, realizing what i had forgotten before i ran to my room, grabbing my hoodie, throwing it on and then grabbing my skateboard.

as I went to run out my room i stopped in the doorway, looking back at my now nearly empty bedroom and frowning a bit

"Goodbye my dear shadow demons, I won't really miss you!" I dramatically whispered as a joke before sprinting down the hallway, out the front door and to my sisters old chevy truck that she was waiting for me in after she had finally gotten to start.

I threw my Skateboard in the bed of the truck with my other stuff besides my backpack then slipped into the car seat.

"Now are you ready?" my sister teased, and I rolled my eyes playfully as I held up my middle finger.

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The car ride was mostly just us listening to our old mix CD she had made for me when I was younger and every now and then some small talk, I slowly let myself lose my sense of reality and let my thoughts consume me for the rest of the drive.

I was snapped out of my thoughts of the all too familiar feeling of this truck driving into the rocky driveway of my dad's house, with that an unknown anxiety made itself known.

I guess my sister noticed my now anxious state

"You know you don't have to do this, well you kinda do but you know you can always come stay with me and Connor if you're not comfortable here, I know returning back to your childhood home is hard" she said softly as she leaned on the steering wheel and looked at me with pity in her eyes.

I smiled a bit and shook my head

"No, I'll b-be fine b-b-but I might h-h-have to t-take you up o-o-on your offer" I replied but my stutter making an appearance, I mentally cursed the stuttering and forced myself out of my sister's truck.

Glancing over I saw my father standing on the front porch, I sighed and grabbed my duffle and skateboard from the bed of the truck while my sister helped me out and grabbed my suitcase before walking me up to the front porch and my father.

He looked at me and gave a small haft fake smile

"you've grown since I last saw you" he said trying to start a small conversation and I just shrugged and looked at him blankly, my sister apologized for me and handed him my suitcase before turning to me and giving her usual small soft smile

"I'll give you two time to say goodbye, it was nice seeing you Scarlett be careful on the drive back and thank you for getting d/n here safely" my father told my sister before he took my suitcase and walked inside.

Right as he shut the door Scarlett pulled me into a hug
"I'm gonna miss you, sunny" she said quietly, using the nickname she has pretty much always called me

"I-i'll miss you too s-s-scarlet" I mumbled and hugged her back, we stayed like that for a few more seconds before she moved away and put her hands on my shoulders

"You sure you're gonna be okay?" She questioned, I nodded and hummed to say yes

"Okay..you kno-"

"Yes-s I know to c-c-call you if anything h-h-happens or if I n-need you" I cut her off and smirked, she let out a quiet chuckle

"Alright, welp I better hit the road, it's getting dark and over here is more of a wooded area and I don't want to run into a deer." She said, we both chuckled at the deer part, she's terrified of deer's and it's hilarious. She took her hands off my shoulders and kissed the top of my head before walking back to her truck. Just as she was about to get into the vehicle she stopped and looked at me

"Hey, Sunny.. You behave, okay? Try to stay out of trouble" she shouted, I rolled my eyes and gave her a thumbs up, she waved and got into the truck before pulling out of the driveway and disappearing in the distance as I waved goodbye the entire time. Sighing I grabbed my duffle again and walked inside, closing the front door behind me.

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"Oh, hey d/n, I put your suitcase in your room so you can go ahead and get unpacked, and Brooklyn should be home with Stella soon!" My father shouted from the living room

"Okay, Thanks Melvin" I mumbled and slowly made my way to what used to be my old room.

Walking down the hallway I haven't walked down in years brought back memories, any of the remaining pictures on the hallway walls also did so, though there where only 2 or 3 of the original pictures from my childhood in the main part of the hallway as most as the old ones had been replaced with pictures of Melvin, his new wife and new daughter, he had basically just completely removed us from his memory, didn't he?

Once I got to my old bedroom door, I reluctantly put my hand on the doorknob, taking a deep breath I turned the knob and flung the door open, I stepped into the doorway and glanced around the dimly lit room.

It's pretty much just how I left it and that's shocking.

I know Scarlett came and packed up some of the old junk s few years ago so it's not the exact same but it's pretty damn close. 
I walked into the room further and tossed my duffle next to my bed and my backpack on the bed before walking around the room.
As I ran my fingers along the old hard wood desk, I glanced at the corkboard that hung above it and was still filled with messy crayon drawings and papers with messy, childish handwriting in crayon.
Looking at those pictures made me feel weird, almost panicky, some of them...okay most of them are unsettling.

'Just unsettling pictures that a child with too big of an imagination drew, its nothing else' I told myself in my head and looked down at the desk to avoid the pictures.
The messy crayon drawings of the monster-human like creatures would make anyone uneasy, they aren't exactly normal, they are sort of weird and freaky

I shake my head as memory of it all started to pop up,I sighed at the memories before flopping on my bed

"W-we're really back here, a-aren't we?" I asked to a person who wasn't even physically in the room as I put my arm over my eyes.

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About an hour after I got here I was finally unpacked, I had put all my clothes in the dresser, I had hung up some posters and other decor but what was still up from when I was a kid kinda fit in so it stayed, I had set up my lava lamp on my dresser, all my books had been placed on the sturdy hard wood bookshelf and I had taken down most the old unsettling pictures and had put them in one of the desk drawers.
 moving those felt wrong, just removing the small blob flower shaped tack that held them up felt wrong, it felt like I was disturbing something that should just be left alone for good, as it would probably be better that way.

I could tell the slight comfort being mixed with the unsettling-ness of being back in this house was only the calm before the storm.

'Maybe a walk would do me some good' I thought to myself as I grabbed my ear buds, phone and skateboard and then made my way to the front door as I put my earbuds in and hit play on Spotify.

"I'm going for a walk!" I shouted before quickly running out the door and down the rock driveway, almost falling as I ran through the rocks because it's been years since I even saw a driveway like this.
When me, Scar and Ma moved we went into more of a city rather than a small town, a village if you want it call it that.
 We had also left when I was so young but also just old enough to remember small details of this place as I got older, it was weird going from such a small town to a bigger city but as a little kid I thought it was great because I had assumed it was some vacation and that we would go back home after a bit but when we never moved back, I ended up finding the city boring after living there for a bit and quickly learned to hate it, but Scarlett always said this small town was suffocating and she was happy to be out of it, I guess everyone prefers different places.

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I had gotten lost in my thoughts and ended up skateboarding along the side of the road for a while and had ended up fairly far from the house, the only reason i noticed this and came to a stop was because there was this feeling that i was being watched and that something just wasn't right, but it very well could just me my imagination and paranoia as both hate me and like to make me think I'm going insane.

With those feelings alone, I turned around and started to skate back to the house, I don't trust this area like I used to, I don't trust something bad not to happen again.

After I had gotten back to the house, I wandered around the front yard area for a bit and wished I had my camera on me when I found a caterpillar just chillin out on a leaf and being all cute

"D/n! Come on in! Its dinner time and getting dark out!"

Oh, screw you Melvin, I was having a moment with my caterpillar friend and I'm not freaking five anymore!

After watching the caterpillar for another minute, I finally just picked it up then rushed inside.

I hope being here won't be too bad.

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Pov switch 

"So, that little scrawny kid who was just talking to a leaf, is the one slender is so interested in? The kid seems like a waste of our time"

"Jeff, would you shut up; we don't question the operator's orders, you'd think out of all the people who would know that it'd be you by now that by now!"

"Whatever E.J" Jeff said as he rolled his eyes

As the two bickered the main proxies just stood there, Toby stood awkwardly, and Hoodie had to stop Masky from losing his shit on the two.

[11/11/22]

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3:14am
That's what the alarm clock next to my bed read when I glanced over to it from where I was sitting at my desk, being back "home" is weird and unsettling but also oddly reassuring and nostalgic.

The way I've been sitting at my desk, listening to music quietly and writing [or drawing] with only my lamp lighting up the small area due to me being unable to sleep is bound to get me in trouble, or at least it would if I was at mother's place.

I looked down at my work, I've been working on a story [or drawing] all night and it's honestly still not the best, could definitely use some tweaking to be better.

Putting down my pen and taking out an ear bud I spun around in my chair to face the window above my bed, it was nearly pitch black outside my window, only the streetlight a bit past the house illuminating the street and end of the driveway dimly.

I stood up and stretched my arms above my head before I walked to my bed and crawled onto it and over to the window, squinting as I looked out of it, struggling to see but being able to make out...the outline of something standing at the very end of the driveway, it seemed to be a person?...maybe a dog??

I don't know but I honestly am not even going to question what it was or why it was there because foe all I know it could be fake and just my mind playing tricks on me, plus I've seen so many weird and creepy things that I never knew if they were real or not.

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"Beep beep beep!"

That's all I heard as I laid in my bed haft asleep, assuming it was just my alarm I had lazily grabbed my phone from under my pillow and forced my eyes open so I could see my phone screen too shut off any other obnoxious alarms that might be set.

Once i finally got my phone unlocked and the alarm app was open I was slightly confused when I was met with zero alarms set, but then again i have zero memory of even setting my alarms before I fell asleep last night that I started to move my phone so I could just go back to sleep but when I moved my phone I was met with the face of a 7 year old in my face

"Ah! What the hell!" I yelled as I sat up and swatted the kid away

"Good mornth'ng!!" The little girl shouted, a lisp present as she did so, then smile widely

"S-s-screw off ya little freak b-because it's-s-s not a 'Good morning' when you wake s-someone up like that!" I scowled but felt kind of bad when the little girls smile dropped and a sad expression appeared on her face, I sighed and rubbed my eyes

"I'm s-s-sorry s-st-stella, I did mean too s-snap" I apologized to the little blonde girl who stood in front on my bed but stuttering with just about every 's' word.

Maybe I should have actually gone to speech therapy, that might have helped, probably not though.

Stella stood there for a moment, seeminly lost in her thoughts before a smile made it back on to her face

"th's oth'ay bubba! Mama t'id to come get t'ou up!"

I nodded as I forced myself out of bed, standing up and stretching before I put my hand on Stella's shoulder and led her out of my room, closing the door as soon as she was out of the doorway and into the hall.

I quickly changed into black ripped skinny jeans and an old showcase shirt from last year's showcase that I actually didn't part take in like I had planned too.
I also threw on a pair of socks and then my vans before heading to the kitchen
[If you don't like this outfit, please change it to something you prefer!]

Apon walking into the kitchen, I was greeted by Stellas mother, Brooklyn, and Stella in the room.

I sighed, not quite ready to deal with this lady or try to meet Stella's energy so early into my day.
I walked into
the connected dining room area and sat down next to Stella at the dining table, she smiled at me then offered me one of her coloring books that sat next to the one she was coloring in

"Stella, let y/n eat, he just woke up so don't go bothering him and trying to get him to play with you!" Stella's mother fussed at her

Brooklyn isn't a horrible mother, she treats stella better than I thought she would when her and my dad had announced they were going to have a crotch goblin, and she also does use my preferred name and pronouns so bonus points for being a haft decent human, i guess.
though she does tend to fuss at her daughter for dumb things quite often, I guess it's something her and my mother have in common.

"No n-no it's okay Brooke! She's not bo-othering me at a-all and I w-w-want to color with her" I said before Brooklyn could fuss anymore at the small 7year old girl who sat next to me and was now upset, with that Brooklyn gave me a small smile and nod then walked back to the kitchen

I turned to Stella and put a soft small smile on my face
"S-So, what coloring books do you have again?" I asked and she immediately perked up and pushed her coloring books back to me, I grabbed a Lisa Frank coloring book and some crayons then started to color with Stella for a bit.

After about 10 minutes, Brooklyn came and sat across from us

"So y/n, do you have any plans for this summer?" She asked,trying to make small talk with me.
I thought for a second before looking up from the coloring book I had and shrugging

"Nope, not really. I might s-s-see if maybe some of m-my old friends wanna hang out at s-some point, but bes-sides that nope." I answer

Brooklyn nodded and went to say something but quickly stopped herself, I knew what she was about to say but still gave a questioning look, after waiting a moment for her to talk she just shook her head and gave me and Scarlett a small smile before dismissing herself from the table.

That was weird, I know she wanted to say something that referred to the past and I'm haft thankful she didn't but am also curious on what exactly she was going to say.

I was snapped out of my thoughts by the suddenness of Stella's shouting

"Loo'th I'm done colo'thing!" I looked at her and then the finished coloring sheet she was holding up to show me, I gave her a small smile before speaking

"It looks great s-s-stell!!" I said and I swear I didn't think this kid could look any happier than she already did

"Th'ank you!"

"Wan-n-na go put it on th-he fridge, kiddo?" I asked as I stood up, she was quick to nodding and hand me her coloring page before getting out of her chair and dragging me to the fridge, with that I hung it up as she clapped and jumped around happily.

I guess Dad and Brooke don't hang her stuff up or give her much praise on her work, but I guess that's to be expected from them but it's still kind of shitty.

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"H-hey Mrs. Brooklyn, can I as-s-sk a question" I asked as I approached her

"Sure, what is it y/n?" She replied

"Is-s it okay if I go int-to town for a bit?" Once I asked that she seemed to think for a minute before nodding

"I don't see why not, just make sure to be back before it gets dark, okay?" She said kindly with a small smile, and I nodded and quietly said a 'yes ma'am' before rushing to 'my room' and grabbing my now empty backpack, I threw my camera, notebook, hoodie and my meds and ear buds in it before slinging it over my shoulder and rushing back into the dining room and out the door.

Once outside I quickly made my way around the property and to the 'workshop' also known as the shed, I opened the door to find everything nearly the same as when we left, I quickly spotted what I was looking for, the bike that's been in here for years. I quickly grabbed it, surprised it still had air in the tires when I checked, then made my way to the street, when I got to the street I got onto the bike and made my way into town.

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I rode my bike through town until I got to the entrance of a familiar looking neighborhood, I stopped outside the neighborhood entrance, hesitant to keep going.

I stood there for a moment contemplating my decisions and staring blankly at the stop sign across the street before shaking my head slightly and sighing

"Fuck it" I mumbled before getting back on my bike and starting into the neighbor.

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[12/2/2022]

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Tw: Some parts contain underage drinking [towards the end]

I rode my bike through town and into a nicer neighborhood, spotting a specific house almost instantly.

"Oakley.." I mumbled, losing most my confidence and just wanting to turn around and go back to my father's place but forcing myself to drop my bike outside the house and walk up to the door, hesitantly knocking on the door.

After a moment a kid around my age, who had green eyes and blond highlights mixed into their light brown hair opened the door.

"Hello?" They asked as they opened the door.

"E-Eyo Oakley" I said awkward and did a small wave, after staring at me for a moment a look of realization and then happiness showed on their face and then before I knew it the person's body collided with mine, nearly knocking me over. I chuckled as Oakley hugged me tightly.

"Oh my God y/n! It's really you!" Oakley shouted as they let me go and stood in front of me with a big smile on their face

"Wait does Eddie know you're here?!" They questioned and I shook my head no with that they gasped and ran back inside their house before returning a few minutes later but coming from the side of their house with their bike.

"Well let's go tell him then, sunny!" Oakley said while they struggled to get onto their bike, i just smiled and shook my head before getting onto my bike and following them out of the neighborhood.

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After we made it to 'Eddie's' also known as Edwin's place, Oakley ran inside, leaving me outside but after a few minutes returning with a confused looking teen with black and pink dyed hair, who only looked at me in disbelief and confusion before hugging me and mumbling a hello, I kept quiet during this whole event, just having a small smile on my face as I reunited with two of my best friends since childhood.

"So, I guess the gangs back together for the summer, aye?" Eddie said looking between me and Oakley

Me and Oakley both exchanged a look before both nodding our heads in agreement.

"Well then what are we waiting for? Let this hell of a summer begin!" Oakley shouted and I couldn't help but giggle a bit.

"Common, wanna play Zelda like we used to?" Eddie asked us

"Y-es-s!" I shouted in excitement at the mention of a video game and that put a smile on both my idiot friends faces since I've kept quiet.

"Oh! can we also watch twilight?" Oakley asked as we walked up the steps of the poarch that's connected to eddies grandma's trailer. Me and Eddie both groaned at the mention of Oakley's favorite vampire movie, which made them give us an offended look

"Look Oak, i love ya but i don't think i can stand to watch either of those movies again" Eddie said as we all stopped at the top of the steps.

"Y-yeah i don't th-think i can watch t-twilight again either, m-m-my sisters totally obsessed w-with it and if i have t-t-to watch it again i might go c-crazy and s-st-stab someone" i haft joked in agreement with Eddie, which made Oakley sigh in defeat.

"Fine, but the new one is coming out in the fall, and we are all going to the theater to see it!" Oakley said with a smiled that said 'fuck yall' as they crossed their arms over their chest before walking towards the door. Me and Eddie both jokingly rolled our eyes before we all made our way inside to go play Zelda.

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"B-bye!" I waved as I walked away from Eddie's place, putting my ear buds in and putting on my music before getting on my bike and heading back towards my dad's place.

A small smile stayed on my face the whole way back, it was nice seeing those two since it's been a while.

I had zoned out the rest of the way home because before I knew it, I was nearly back at the house. apparently, I hadn't noticed I had entered the wood surrounded area for some reason.

The last few minutes of my ride home were uncomfortable, I felt like I was being watched again, though I just brushed it off as paranoia.

Once I arrived at the house, I went and put my bike on the side of the house towards my rooms window before heading inside and straight to my room.

once in my room i sat at my desk and logging onto my laptop before plugging in my headphones and wasting no time to send Eddie and Oakley friend requests on Myspace and then emailing them to make sure i had the correct emails since I had finally got their new contact info since their old ones stopped working like 3 years ago.
We also all exchanged our new socials and phone numbers so that way if any of us ever lose one way of contact we'll have backups and hopefully won't ever completely lose touch with each other.

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tap tap tap

That's all I heard as I lied in my bed, staring at the ceiling and wanting to go smash the tap in the bathroom across the hall.

God it's getting annoying.

I sighed as I sat up and pulled the covers off myself, swinging my legs off my bed I walked over to my desk and logged onto my laptop, instantly opening up Myspace and then my messages, I clicked on Eddies user and messaged him to see if he was awake.

Sceneh0e- 2:10am
Hey Eddie, u up still?

PunkWhXre -2:15am
Yeah I am, what's up [y/n]?

Sceneh0e-2:18am
Nothin, just can't sleep as per usual and am getting bored lol

PunkWhXre-2:20am
Alright then, want to see if Oakley is still up and maybe meet up somewhere if yall are down for it?

Scenh0e-2:21am

I'm down for that, just lmk if it's a go or not

PunkWhXre is offline -2:22am

PunkWhXre is online! -2:28

PunkWhXre-2:28am
They're up and down for it, meet at our old spot?

Sceneh0e-2:29am
Alr alr, see yall there

PunkWhXre-2:30

Alr, be careful and don't get caught lol

PunkWhXre is offline

Sceneh0e is offline

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I stared at my screen for a moment, debating on how I would sneak out having said I don't exactly have a strategy for here like I did at mom's place.

I bit my lip as I thought and the best, I could come up with was breaking the child safety locks on my window and jumping out it, with that I shut off my laptop and stood up, my body slightly jerking after I did so.

I grabbed my same black ripped jeans and threw them on, after that I quickly threw on my binder, an old random graphic-t[your choice] and a zip up [F/C] and black stripped hoodie along with my shoes [your choice].

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After getting dressed I grabbed my backpack, threw my beanie in it and my extra pocket knife that I didn't keep on my person and then flung it over my shoulder, I rubbed my eyes and looked over to my window, seeing the silhouette of a tall human like figure in the dim street lamp light yet again, I don't even really question it much, assuming it just the lack of sleep causing me to see things.

My body jerked again, making me shake my thoughts, grab my phone off charge and shoving it in my pocket as I stand on my bed and try to undo the safety locks.

once undone I quietly opened up my window and pushed the screen window off before jumping out and quietly closing the window again then quickly making my way to where I have my bike.

I grabbed it, trying my best to quietly make my way towards the street while avoiding the one security camera on the property.

Once I reached the road and was about a block away from the house I got on my bike and then started my way to meet up with Oakley and Eddie.

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Tw: Underage drinking

When I had passed familiar light yellow, white and blue trailer I knew that I was a little bit more then haft way to where we were meeting up.
Right after i passed that trailer that same damn feeling of being watched surfaced again, I scanned the woods around me as I rode past and tried to shake the feeling, but it just wouldn't leave.

As soon as I reached a specific, seemingly empty lot and spotted two figures near it, I stopped my bike and hopped off it, walking with it and towards the two people.

"Hey losers!" I called out to my friends who were waiting for me.

"Actually, you got here last, so you're the loser y/n" Oakley joked, Eddie just shook his head.

I rolled my eyes and dropped my bike next to theirs that were off in a ditch as a way to try to hide the fact that there's obviously three teens trespassing.

After that we all made our way over to and then down the short, makeshift path that led to a small little pond, a smaller, old, abandoned house that was a good distance away and an odd concrete slab near the pond that seems to be the only thing left from what was probably someone's workshop that once stood on the property.

"I haven't-t s-seen this p-p-place in forever" I mumbled.

"Yeah, that's why I said we should meet up here. Honestly, I don't think any of us have been out here within like the past 2 or 3 years" Eddie said as he came to stand next to me, smiling.
I smiled a bit as I looked around at our surroundings, it was a nice night, the small gusts of wind made it so it was slightly chilly outside, the stars were really bright, and it was just peaceful.

The moment was peaceful.

But of course, that momentary peace was interrupted by a whistle then click, ah yes, a vocal tic of mine.
Oakley looked at me, a confused look on their face but that confused look was quickly replaced with the look of like he had remembered something.

After a slightly awkward moment of silence Oakley broke it by clapping their hands

"Alright enough of this! I brought about haft a bottle of whiskey and tiny bottles of various alcohols! So, let's get this night mother fucking started!" They shouted as they waved their hands in the air then went and sat on the large concrete slab.

I looked at Eddie and he shook his head before walking off to join Oakley. I started to follow Eddie before pausing when i heard and saw something moving in the trees that surrounded the abandoned property, that paranoid feeling started to make itself present again but before it could be fully there and in my head i quickly put it off as just an animal and turned my attention away from the trees and back to the two teens that were sitting down and talking while waiting for me.

I made way to where the two idiots were sitting and sat down next to Oakley, who had pulled out what was definitely haft a bottle of whiskey and a large Ziplock bag of mini alcohol bottles from their backpack.

"Dude how the hell did you even get any of this?" Eddie asked and Oakley just shrugged.

"I have my ways and connections" they said smirking as they opened the whiskey bottle and took a sip from it before passing it to me, I took a sip before I handed it to Eddie.

This little routine went on for a while with both the whiskey bottle and mini bottles while we talked about everything but nothing at once all while we practically got wasted.

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Eventually our drunk asses were all running around the abandon lot chasing each other for no particular reason while shouting absolute nonsense and laughing like little kids.

After taking a small breather and watching Oakley jump and tackle Eddie, making them both fall into the tall grass near the pond i quickly made my way over and flopped into the grass next to the two who were both laying on their backs laughing, i moved to lay next to them, putting my arms behind my head and looking up at the sky before letting out a content sigh.

These nights are the nights I will forever remember and love.

This is what I love doing no matter who I'm with or where I am but doing this with people who i actually care about and have a weird sibling like bond with makes it all the better.

People think this is crazy, and maybe it is but hey why waste one of our few summers as teenagers doing nothing but sitting at home watching cable game shows and listening to our legal guardians lecture us instead of having some fun and feeling alive for once?

"Ya know, i didn't th-hink bout how t-the hell i was gonna get b-back home" i said breaking the comfortable silence and laughing a bit

"Oh shit neither did i" Eddie said, turning his head to look at me before we both turned to look at Oakley.

"Hey, don't look at me! i just have the connections for the drinks not the ride home" Oakley laughed out which made me and Eddie both laugh a bit too

"Ah f-fuck, we are all s-s-so dead if our guardians find out bout th-this" i said still chuckling and putting one of my arms over my eyes.

"Eh, maybe" Eddie replied in a nonchalant way but still chuckling too

"Al-alright, as much f-fun as I've had i th-think i better go and t-try to get home" i said as i pushed myself up into a sitting position before standing up and going to grab my bag from where we had left our stuff on the concert slab.
After grabbing my backpack and all off us making sure we all had everything the three of us all made our way back down the makeshift path that is actually quite hazardous when sorta wasted and tired.

When we got back to our bikes Oakley pulled us into a hug as we all said our goodbyes before parting ways. On my way back to the house i just zoned out, not paying too much attention to my surroundings and just listening to my music while trying to not fall off my bike and trying to form a plan of what i would do if i got caught.

Once i got back to the house i put my bike back on the side of the house near my window and quickly but quietly and quite hazard climbed back through my bedroom window before landing on my bed and quickly shutting it. i climbed off of my bed and stood up, nearly losing my balance as i did so, i threw my backpack down next to my desk before grabbing a pair a pajama bottoms and another baggy graphic-t from my dresser and (somewhat) silently making my way out my bedroom and into the bathroom down the hall to change.

After i changed into my sleep clothes i went back to my room and lied down on my bed, still paying little to no attention to my surrounding before passing out.

Maybe if i would have been paying more attention i would have noticed the rustling in the trees around me or figures in woods or the taping on my bedroom window as i drifted off.

...or the fact that i was being followed the whole way home.

[1/22/2023]
[1/24/2023]

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Dark. Everything is dark and foggy.

Trees? The woods?

Footsteps? no, running?

Metallic smell. Blood? Is that blood?

Pain. So, so much pain.

Yellow hoodie? Stripped brown hoodie? Weird yellow jacket? Orange...orange something...

Tall white faceless man?

What?...

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I jolted awake to a loud knock on my door, I rolled around, not wanting to wake up but the way the sun shone through my bedroom window and right into my eyes forced me to wake up a bit more then i already was due to whatever that dream was and the knocking.
I groaned and covered my face with a pillow, laying there for a few minutes until I was fully woken up by another loud banging on my door.

"D/n! Wake your ass up!" My father yelled, I hit myself in the face with the pillow once before sitting up and replying just as he started to bang on the door again

"I'm u-up, I'm up! J-Jesus, I'm up!" I shouted back before flopping back down onto my pillow and grabbing my phone from the windowsill that I use as a little place to put things.

I turned on my phone, looking at the screen to check the time
7:40am is what my screen read, I dropped my phone down next to me and sighed.

Why do I have to wake up so early when it's literally freaking summer?

After laying there for a few minutes I finally forced myself up and out of bed before sluggishly making my way to the front room.

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When I entered the front room, I saw Stella sitting on the front room floor with a small stuffed lamb in her lap and painfully close to the old box TV that sat on top the hard wood entertainment stand, how that TV still worked was beyond me.

"Mornin St-Stell" I said ruffling her hair as I walked past her and sat in the armchair nearby, pulling my legs up onto it to sit with my knees to my chest.

"Morn'tin" She replied quietly, not really taking her attention of the TV that was playing whatever cartoons that were on cable.

"Have you-you eaten breakfast-fast yet today s-stella" I asked the small blond girl, pulling her attention from the TV, she looked at me and shook her head

"No, mama ish't still sleepin'ths and dad lef' for wor'th already" she said looking back at the TV, i sighed before getting up and kneeling down next to Stella

"C'mon kiddo let's ge-get you s-s-something to eat" I said to her as I picked her up then put her on my hip and carried her into the kitchen with only minimal struggle.
I know that if I didn't bring her to the kitchen, she would never leave her spot Infront of the TV.

I sat her down on the counter before moving to look inside the cabinets for something that was edible

"Cereal okay with ya S-stella?" I asked looking back at her, earning a nod in response.

After grabbing the box of cereal down from the cabinet I nearly dropped it as my body jerked and my head jerked to the side, I took a second to breathe before turning around and setting the box on the counter near Stella while I went to get the milk from the fridge [or lactate/milk substitute]and bowls from another cabinet.

I grabbed the milk [/milk substitute] and the bowls and turned back around towards Stella, if I had a free hand right now, I'd face palm so hard because Stella was just eating the cereal straight from the box, happily kicking her legs that dangled off the counter.
I shook my head and sighed, walking up to Stella and sitting the things in my hands on the counter before hoping up onto it to sit next to Stella.

I asked for the cereal and the menace of a child allowed me to take the box from her just long enough to make my bowl of cereal before she took it back and continued to eat from the box.

I just let her be, not really feeling like bickering with her about using a bowl, spoon and milk.

"What in the world are you two doing?" A voice asked from the kitchen entrance, making me look up at the owner of the voice.

"We ea'thin brea'thfast mama!" Stella replied, smiling

"G-good mornin Mrs B-Br-Brooklyn" I said quietly and went back to eating my cereal as Brooklyn walked up to us, taking the box away from Stella and taking her off the counter, telling the small girl something that my ears had blocked out.
After that Brooklyn put on a pot of coffee and leaned on the counter next to it

"So, y/n, I have to go into town and go to the grocery store today, would you like to come?" Brooklyn asked breaking the semi awkward silence that filled the room.
I thought about it for a moment and nodded a yes before setting down my bowl next to me and hopping down from the counter, I quickly put the cereal and milk up and put my bowl in the sink to be washed later on.

"I'm gonna go ge-get dressed, c-call me when you're about to-to leave" I said as I walked out the kitchen and back to my room.

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I quickly pulled out some clothes, tossing them on my bed before grabbing a pair of shoes from under my bed.

I put on the clothes I had tossed on my bed; my chest binder, a pair of black cargo pants with f/c stitching that I had gotten from hot topic a while ago, a black and f/c studded belt, a [fav band] band-T and my Ed Hardy high-tops that had pony beads near the toe where the shoelaces start.

I look at myself in the mirror as I tie my stripped hoodie around my waist, I glance in the mirror again before giving myself small approving nod and then going to sit at my desk.
I pulled out my notebook from a drawer in my desk and sat it down on top the desk infront of me before I started to flip through it, evaluating all my past and current work before starting on something new[story/drawing].

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About ten minutes into just writing[/sketching] and practically making no progress due to the constant tics, a slight ringing or static started to become known.
After not even a minute it had gotten progressively louder, I quickly covered my ears trying to muffle it, but it was like it was in my head and wouldn't shut up.

It only stopped after another twenty seconds that felt like torture. I took my hands off my ears, looking around aimlessly and accidentally hitting myself in the process

"Ah, f-fuck that hurt.." I mumbled as I rubbed where I hit my arm

"Y/n!! It's time to go!" I heard Brooklyn shout, I quickly shook off the slight pain and shook my head as I stood up, grabbing my backpack from under my desk and shoving my notebook in it in the process and grabbing my skateboard before headed out my room and towards the front door where Brooklyn and Stella waited for me

"S-sorry" I mumbled as Brooklyn opened the front door, letting me and Stella go out before her so she could lock the door behind us.

After making sure the door locked we made our way to the car, while Brooklyn got into the driver's seat I helped Stella into her booster seat but took a step back to allow her to buckle up her own seat belt, I gave the small child a thumbs up with a small smile to make sure everything was okay before I shutting the door for her; earning two thumbs up as a reply I nodded and shut the backseat door before going and hopping in the front passenger seat next to Brooklyn, putting my Skateboard board and backpack in-between my legs on the floorboards.

After everything was situated, the car was backed out of the rock driveway and started down the oddly bumpy road and towards the grocery store in town.

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9:08am

"Mamaaa, im bor'th" Stella whined as she sat in the shopping cart Brooklyn pushed while I walked along side it, Brooklyn sighed and shook her head, ignoring Stella's whining before turning to me

"Y/n do you mind going and grabbing a few things off this list while I get the other stuff?" Brooklyn asked holding up a small list of three items to give to me, I nodded my head before taking the list and walking off.

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I quickly walked onto the cereal aisle, looking down at my list before feeling my body collided with someone else's, making me stumble and nearly fall before the person I had bumped into put a hand on my shoulder to steady me.

After a second of processing what happened I quickly glanced up at the person who I'd ran into, it was a guy who was maybe a few years older than me, he had messy chestnut color hair, hazel eyes and he wore a Greenday band-t under a plain black zip up hoodie, a pair of dark-wash distressed jeans and a plain black face mask

I quickly glanced around and saw two slightly older men, maybe in their mid 20s, standing not too far away seemingly watching the scene I accidentally created

"A-are you o-okay?" The guy I bumped into asked making me snap out of my thoughts that I didn't even know I had become lost in, I quickly blink before nodding

"Y-yeah, s-s-sorry" I mumbled as I stepped back a bit, avoiding eye contact like it was the plague and mentally cursing my stutter

"I-it's okay, n-no harm done" He said in a reassuring tone, I nodded and gave another small 'sorry' before awkwardly making my way past them and a bit down the aisle to get the cereal from the list.

I kept a bit away from the actual shelf, just staring blankly and repetitively blinking at it before hearing a quiet 'Woo' followed by a whistle, after hearing that my neck immediately jerked to the side and an accidental copy of the 'Woo' left my mouth in a slightly quieter voice and was followed by a whistle.

I immediately felt eyes on me, I messed with the sleeves of my hoodie before finally going to grab the cereal so I could book it out of this aisle of awkwardness.

I grabbed the box down from the shelf, nearly dropping it as my body slightly jerked. after I had the damn box of what seems to be forbidden cereal in my hand, I stood there for a second, waiting for the feeling of eyes on me to leave, when the feeling did ease up after a few seconds I cringed a bit, sighing and slightly shaking my head before quickly exiting the aisle.

Fuck I hate grocery stores.

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"Here's the c-cereal and other st-stuff Mrs. Br-Brooklyn" I muttered as I dropped the items in the basket and crossed my arms behind my back

"Thank you, y/n" Brooklyn said as she checked the ingredients to some pasta or something

"I-is there anyth-thing else I can d-do?" I questioned, Brooklyn shook her head slightly before speaking

"No, me and Stella can handle the rest of this list ourselves. How about you go look around the local shops or something? I'm sure you're bored" She replied with a small smile as she looked up from the box and towards me.

At first, I was going to insist on helping more but after haft a moment of contemplating, I noticed I could ride my Skateboard around the area or back of the parking lot.
I nodded with a small smile before taking off towards the car for my Skateboard.

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10:21am

Was skateboarding at the back of the grocery stores decrepit parking lot the smartest thing I've ever thought of?

No, no it was not.

if anything, it actually wasn't a very well thought-through thought.

Yes, it had the lack of cars, only two or three parked in the back, and the lack of people to accidentally run into, or at least I thought it did. but it also lacked the nonhazardous cement, I say that because I've been tripped off my board and hit the ground several times thanks to the chunks of cement missing from the parking lot.

After getting back up and trying again, I was doing well, but when I saw three figures coming near me out of the corner of my eye and noticed that I was about to hit one of them I quickly tried to go around them only to end up back on the ground.

"Ah f-fuck" I groaned as I tried to push myself back up off the ground and onto my knees with my elbow only for my body to collapse back to the ground

"Jesus, are you alright kid?" I heard a gruffer voice question, as I looked, I met the owner of the voices eyes, it was one of the same men from inside the grocery store, he had ebony color hair and wore jeans, a plain dark grey t-shirt and a tan jacket over it.
I huffed and rolled my eyes before replying.

"Y-yeah I'm g-gr-great!" I replied sarcastically as I pushed myself up and onto my knees, the acing from falling repetitively making itself present, I looked up to see the same guy I had ran into earlier standing Infront of me, I raised by eyebrow at him and gave him a questioning look

"H-here" He mumbled as he offered me his hand, I muttered a quiet 'thank you' as I took his hand and allowed him to slightly pull me up onto my feet.

"S-sorry" I muttered as I picked up my board and took a step back, looking around to see where the guy in the tan jacket had gone, turns out him and another guy in yellow hoodie with dirty blonde hair were now leaning against what I can only assume to be their truck while talking

"Uhm, I'm Toby" the guy Infront of me said awkwardly with a warm smile as he scratched the back of his neck before his neck jerked and cracked

"Y/n, t-the names y/n" I said, trying to put on a small smile but the increasingly acing pain making it a tad hard to do.

"Your p-pretty good at sk-skateboarding" he said trying to break the awkward tension, I couldn't help but laugh a bit, earning an odd look from him

"N-nah, I'm literal s-s-shit at it" I said still laughing quietly

"Y-yeah you are, I th-think I saw you fall like three t-times in just the sp-span of putting groceries in t-the car" He admitted, chuckling.

After we both stopped laughing, I looked up and noticed that Brooklyn was a good bit away loading the groceries into her car, I couldn't help but sigh at the thought of already having to go back to the house but knew if I didn't go back now, I'd be stuck here with no actual way to get back.

"I-I've gotta go b-but it was nice me-meeting ya T-toby" I sighed, picking up my backpack from the ground near my feet and digging around in it for a second before pulling out a random sticky note and pen and writing down my number on the sticky note.

"Here's m-my number" I said as I handed him the sticky note and started towards Brooklyn's car.

As I got into the passenger seat of the car the realization of my actions finally hit me; I just gave some random guy who was at least a year or three older then me, my phone number.
Like that's not a totally idiotic and dangerous thing to do. What if he's a creep? a weirdo in a creepy way or a serial killer?

Or even worse, what if he doesn't like Avril Lavign and Britney Spears?

I sighed and threw my head back into the car seats headrest. God am i that stupid?

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"So, who was that you were talking to back at the grocery store?" Brooklyn asked as she turned the corner and onto one of the long backway streets on the way to the house, I shrugged as I looked out the window watching the trees pass by.

"J-just some guy I had b-bu-bumped into" I replied quietly, Brooklyn hummed in response, not continuing the conversation thankfully.

After a few minutes I felt my phone buzz up against my leg from where it was in the side pocket of my backpack on the floorboard, I grabbed my phone from my bag and looked at the screen haft surprised to see two different messages; one from Oakley and one from an unknown number, I opened up my contacts then opened up the unknown numbers message.

Unknown:

Hey y/n, it's Toby, I was just msging u so I could save ur contact. Btw it was nice meeting u and ur not that bad at skating, I wish I knew how to do that lol

ME [Y/N]:
Hey Toby, thx for msging me because I completely forgot to ask for ur contact so now at least I can save ur number under a name lol

Btw thx and maybe we could meet up sumtime n i can try to teach u what little i know

Seen at 10:45AM

I smiled a bit at the fact he had already messaged me, and it wasn't just me giving out my number to him just for it to be thrown away and for the interaction to just become a useless memory in my mind. Though I'm still praying he likes Britney Spears.

After saving his number under the contact name 'Toby:]' I went to read Oakley's message.

Gay weirdo:] [Oak]:

Eyo y/n! Me n Ed are planning on hanging out sumtime this week n wanted to ask if ur down. Lemme know if u r and ill send details when I get home or tmr!

Btw Eddie's cousin might end up tagging along, just lettin u know:]]

ME [Y/N]:

Yo Oakley, u know I'm always down for any shitz w/ u2! Also no rush to reply, just lemme know what's goin on soon n I'll msg you later on dude!:]

Seen at 11:01PM

I let out a content sighed as I put my phone down on my thigh, watching out the window as we turned into the rocky driveway, I looked over at Brooklyn as she shut off the car's engine and grabbed her purse before getting out the car and going to unlock the front door to the house.

I hopped out the car and opened up the back seats door to reveal a passed-out Scarlett, I gently unbuckle her seat belt, trying my best not to wake her, before picking her up and carrying her inside the house and into the front room where I gently set her on sofa.

After laying Stella down I rushed back outside to help Brooklyn with bringing the groceries inside the house.

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"Alrighty, is-is that everyth-thing?" I asked as I sat two grocery bags down on the table.

"I think so, but do you mind running out and shutting the trunk? I think I forgot too" Brooklyn replied as she started putting things away into the cabinets, I nodded before heading back outside and towards the back of the car.

As I pulled down the trunk, I could have sworn I saw something, someone out of the corner of my eye in the trees across the street, I shook my head, telling myself it was probably just an animal before slamming the trunk closed and quickly heading back inside.

After making my way back inside i quickly helped put up the rest of the groceries before running off to my room.

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Apon entering my bedroom i threw down my backpack next to my desk before flopping onto my bed.
I rolled over onto my back, staring up at the glow-star covered ceiling fan and letting my mind wonder back to the guys from the grocery and the dream from last night. Those guys didn't seem like they weren't nice, but there was something a bit off about them, the two older ones more so than Toby though.

Also, what was that dream I had? It's not unusual to for me to have weird, dark, oddly realistic feeling or stupid lucid dreams, but that dream was different, it felt more real than any other I've ever had.
Almost alarmingly real.

What the hell does it mean?..

14/4/2023

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trees....again..

running...again..

knife?...gun?...axe?..crow bar?...

car engine?...

yelling?.....

gun shots?...

static?...

what the hell is going on?..

my eyes quickly shot open, my breathing a bit too heavy for having just 'woken up' from a dream. i quickly look around my surroundings, not fully recognizing were i was at first, i rubbed my eyes with my jacket sleeves and attempted to get my breathing under control.

Once i had my breathing somewhat normal again and had calmed down a bit i finally realized were i was. i was sitting on the edge of a bridge that wasn't too far from my dad's place, it ran over a larger ditch and was fairly low to the ground and was on one of the less busy backstreets.
 i sighed and leaned forward and up against the railing with my legs dangling off the side. 

"What the h-hell even was that s-s-shit?" i mumbled.

When did i even fall asleep? last i had checked i was just sitting here reading, did i pass out or something? God what time even is it? 
I pulled my phone from my pocket and looked at the screen, the time read 1:33pm. ah shit I've been out here for like 2 and a haft hour and haven't checked in with Brookly, she's gonna kill me. I quickly stood up, grabbing my backpack from the ground next to wear i sat and slipping it onto my back, i shoved my phone back into my pocket before getting onto my bike and starting back to the house.

dropping my bike down in its usual spot on the side of the house, i sprinted to the back door in hopes of avoiding a possibly angry Brooklyn by entering through there instead of the front door.

 The second i stepped inside and had tried my best to quietly shut the door, i booked it down the hallway towards my bedroom.
The second id made it to my bedroom door and put my hand on the doorknob I heard footsteps behind me making me freeze in my place.

"S-shit.." I quietly whispered to myself.

"Shit for sure" Brooklyn said in a mocking tone.
I slowly turned around on my heels to meet a definitely upset Brooklyn who had her arms crossed in front of her.

"So where the hell have you been? You've been gone for like nearly four hours and didn't check in with me once. I thought you went missing or something y/n!" She said in a stern but not angry tone that was mixed with concern, it was more of a 'you've fucked up and had me worried' tone rather than the stern angry 'you totally fucked up and are so punished or grounded' tone my mother got on her better days.
i stood there awkwardly for a moment before replying. 

"I've jus-just been out r-riding my bike around the area" i mumbled, my reply being haft assed and partly a lie.

"You sure about that?" She pushed, raising her eyebrow.

"yeah I'm p-p-pretty frickin s-sure Brooklyn" I snapped but immediately regretted it and a feeling of guilt washed over me.
 I'm in no place to get an attitude with her, she's just concerned, I'm the one who's lying.

She sighed and shook her head a bit.

"You're lying but I'll drop the subject for now because that bad temper of yours is making a reappearance" she said, a joking tone lacing her voice as she spoke the last bit.

I blinked and tried my best to keep a blank expression on my face but couldn't stop myself from frowning a bit at the mentions of my temper, I got it from dad, it's one of the many traits I got that my sisters seemingly dodged, well for the most part, we've both got fairly short tempers but hers is nothing like mine, Scarlett is much more patience and calm, defiantly not nearly as short fused and easy to set off as i am.

I stared pass Brooklyn an at the wall behind her, lost in my thoughts before she spoke up again.

"Look, you and Stella both had doctors appointments today but because you decided to go missing, we missed yours and are going to be late for Stella's appointment now. I'll reschedule yours but we need to leave to make it to Stellas." Brooklyn started to explain.

"And normally I'd just tell you to come but I'd honestly rather not bring you to the doctors off unless needed because I don't want anyone getting sick, so do you mind staying behind y/n?" Brooklyn further elaborated.

I blinked, glancing down at my shoes.
Getting to skip the doctor's office and stay home alone? Hell yeah, I haven't been home alone in so long because mom rarely trusted me to be alone and Scarlett always assumed the worst so she never left me home alone either, but it's not like something will ever actually happen so what can really go wrong? And If I'm alone that means I get to blast the stereo in the kitchen!

"Yep s-s-sure!" I answer with a bit too much pep in my tone, Brooklyn raised a brown at that before brushing it off and saying that she was going to go grab her purse and asked for me to get stella who was playing in her room. 

"St-stella! st-stop running a-a-around and g-g-get in the damn car!" I shouted as I chased the 7-year-old girl around the living room.

"No! T'ou can'th make me!" She shouted back before dashing behind the armchair in the corner. i took a deep breath as i pinched the bridge off my nose. after a moment of thinking a smirk made its way onto my face, i slowly started walking towards the armchair, i climbed onto the chair trying my best to not make any noise while doing so.

 
Once i was kneeling on the seat cushion i leaned over the back, looking at stella who had her back pressed up against the back of the chair and her knees pulled to her chest as she was played with her shoelaces.

"Whatcha doin?" i asked, the sudden break in the silence making her jump and her to shoot up and look at me, once she noticed the sudden voice was just me, she hummed while shrugging her shoulders in response then went back to messing with her shoelaces.
I sighed before getting up from the chair, making my way around to the back of it and slipping behind it with her.
I just barely fit back there with her but was still able to sit somewhat comfortably with my legs crisscrossed while leaning up against the wall that was across from her.

she sat there ignoring my presences and avoiding eye contact until i finally spoke again.

"Wha-what's wrong St-stell?" i questioned, she stayed silent.
I sighed again, putting my hands in my lap, leaning my head up against the wall behind me and closing my eyes.

"i don'th wanna go to tha' doc'thors" she answers after a minute or two of us sitting in silence.

 I opened my eyes and raised my brow at her.
'Well, that's something i can work with i guess' i thought to myself.

"And why is that?" i asked, leaning forward a bit, moving my arm to rest on my knee and my chin to rest on my knuckles.

"be'tus! they i'th scary and gonna st'thab me!" she replied shouting a bit.

she's scared of having to get a shot? God i miss when that was one of the very few things I had to be freaked out about, didn't have to be scared of getting jumped when walking home from school or anything like that, just of getting a vaccine and going to the doctors off and other simple things.
i nodded my head in understanding before scooting closer to stella

"y-ya know, the doctors may s-seem sc-scary but they j-just wanna make s-sure you st-tay healthy and d-don't get sick" i tried to reassure her, but my attempt at making it better seemingly only making it worse as she curled into herself more.

I sighed, turning my gaze to my lap and tapping my hands on my thighs, trying to not tic and to think quickly, Brooklyn is already waiting in the car because i said id handle it. apparently i had a bit to much confidence towards handling a stubborn child.

Hey, bribery always works, right?
I mean that's what Scarlett always did whenever i didn't want to go to the doctors, school or help clean up the house on the weekends. she used to bribe me with little things shed knew id agree to, like stickers, a sucker or small things of the sort, or sometimes if it was really important and I wasn't willing to agree to the stickers she'd bribe me with a trip to the mall and a few dollars she had stolen from our mom's wallet to spend while there. I honestly just wanted some time out of the house and with my big sister, but getting to go off to the mall was another perk.

I stopped the tapping and looked back towards Stella, i smirked a bit, leaning forward with my elbows on my knees then I started to speak again.

"Hey, St-stella, look at-t it this way, when you go to the d-doctors they let you pi-pick one of those s-super cool sti-stickers out from the basket at the front desk, ri-right?" I asked in a more hushed but cheery tone, silently praying they still did that since i wasn't too sure because we stopped taking the drive out here for doctors appointments at that office around three years ago. The small girl glanced at me and slowly nodded her head.

"W-well how about you go and g-get that sticker and if they give you a s-sh-shot you ask for another sticker? I'm sure they'd ha-happily give you another one" I told her, she perked up at the mentions of an extra sticker and after a moment of thinking she smiled while nodding her head multiple times.

"Alrighty, now l-let's get you into the c-c-car before you're late and get no-o stickers" I said with a soft smile as I stood up and started to walk away, I heard stella stand up and her hurried foot steps behind me before feeling a weight collide with my back, making me stumble forward a bit but not making me fall, stella wrapped her arms around my neck and her legs around my waist loosely and giggled, I rolled my eyes a bit, my small smile not leaving my face

"Welp p-piggyback ride to the car it is th-then, hold on ki-kiddo" I chuckled, holding onto her legs that were on either side of me so she wouldn't fall and made our way out to the car.

Once at the car I opened up the passenger side back seat, turning around and dropping her into the car, she quickly got into her booster seat and struggled to buckle up but after a few trys successfully buckled herself in.

Before shutting the car door for her I leaned in towards her
"Hey, when no one is lo-looking, steal me a st-sticker, kay?" I whispered before moving to stand up straight again and putting my hand on the door.
she looked back up at me and smiled brightly while giggling and giving me a thumbs up. I smiled back, shutting the car door and quickly rounded the car to the driver's side.

"Thanks for getting her y/n and I guess I'm happy i had to make yalls appointments nearly two hours apart" Brooklyn thanked with a small smile, I nodded in acknowledgement before turning away and taking a few steps back towards the house before hearing Brooklyn shout out to me.

"Oh, Y/n! i forgot to mention this but can you please do the small list i left on the counter?" She asked me, i sighed before turning back around toward the car, saying a quick 'yes ma'am' and giving a thumbs up before turning back around and making my way back up to the porch and inside, making sure to lock the door behind myself.

I walked into the kitchen, staring blankly until my eyes fell onto a piece of notebook paper sitting on the counter, i groaned quietly as i walked over to where the paper sat.
I picked it up before pulling myself up and onto the countertop to sit. 

"d-do the dis-shes..wipe the counters...blah blah blah.." i mumbled out to myself as i scanned over the short to do list Brooklyn left.

"at lea-ast it's not like ma's li-list's" i thought out loud as i sat the paper back down and went to hop down from my spot on the counter, as i pushed myself off the edge of the counter and my feet hit the floor i felt my knees buckle underneath me, i tried to quickly push myself back up to sit on the counter but i was a second to late, causing me to flop to the floor and contemplate my life a little bit.

i clicked my tongue and pushed myself up into a sitting position. 

"I've gotta stop doing that.." i sighed then slowly stood up, grabbing onto the edge of the counter to steady myself.

once i had made sure i was okay to walk without (hopefully) falling again i slowly made my way to my bedroom, grabbing my cd case from the small shelf that was above my computer on my desk.

 I zipped the Cd case open and flipped through it before deciding on a [fav band] CD, slipping the cd out from its spot in the case, i sat the case down on my desk, not bothering to put it back up, and headed back to the kitchen.

once i entered the kitchen again i went straight to the small stereo that was attached under one of the cabinets, I hit the power button then put the CD in the disc slot, hitting play and turning the volume up nearly all the way before going back to read over the list Brooklyn left for me so I could quickly get the few chores done.

while sweeping the kitchen i nodded along to the music playing in the background, totally lost in my thoughts, as i swept around the counter i was snapped out of my thoughts by the sound of a knock.

Confused and slightly paranoid, i scanned the kitchen and dining room. after finding nothing out of the ordinary, i brushed it off as the broom just hitting a cabinet or something.
But after a few more moments i heard knocking again.

'Yep, defiantly not just the broom hitting something' i thought to myself as i paused the stereo and turned my attention towards the front door, being able to make out a figure standing at the front door from where i was standing by the way the sun shone through the small gaps of the closed blinds that covered the window on the upper part of the door. i stood there, staying as still and quiet as i could with my tics and waited two or three minutes, hoping whoever was there would just simply go away, because dealing with a sales person, girls scouts or anything along those lines sounded less than appealing at the moment.

also just possibly opening the door to a possible robber or weirdo while home alone didn't sound very fun either, but probably still wouldn't be as bad as having to deal with a chatty and scammy sales person or a freaking girl scout who's practically trained to guilt trip you into buying cookies.

after not hearing any more knocks while waiting, i hoped the person had left and that the figure that still shown through the blinds was actually just a tree or something along those lines. just as i turned away and went to hit play on the stereo again there was yet another series of knocks at the door.

i quickly glanced through the blinds of the kitchen window, but not being able to see who exactly is at the door due to the window being set up to point more towards the side yard, i did see a old pick-up truck at the very end of the driveway, but it seemed to be parked more in the street though, maybe it's just one of dad's friends or something?
or maybe Ed finally convinced his uncle to sell him that old truck? either way the situation had an unsettling feeling to it.

after coming back to reality and noticing i had zoned out for a few moments, i somewhat hesitantly made my way to the door and started to unlock it

is this the smartest thing a 15 year old kid left home alone can do?

yeah, hell no, but i don't think I've ever been known for my good and reasonable decision making.

I opened the front door, expecting at least one guy in his mid 20s to late 30s and who was questioning where he went wrong in life to be standing there, but no, there was nobody there, and the truck was gone too.

...weird? i guess?

"Huh welp guess they fucked off on their own" i mumbled out loud, closing and locking the door again before going back into the kitchen and over to the stereo, hitting the play button while glancing at the digital clock that was displayed on it that read '1:46pm'

maybe if i get these chores done soon enough i can maybe see if Toby wants to hang out since we've only somewhat hung out like once or twice since we met.

well, one of those hang outs it was less of a hang out and more of a good ol game of tic dominos at the grocery store again and us both leaving who we were with to go skateboard and talk in the parking lot, or i could at least see if Oakly and Ed are down to finally make plans.

I picked up my phone from the counter and quickly sent Oakley a text letting them know I was still down for whatever plans him, and Ed have in mind and to message me back when they can. After hitting send I sat my phone back down and glanced towards the kitchen sink full of dishes

"A-ah fuck, that's su-ure as hell no f-fu-fun" I cursed before dragging myself to the sink to get it over with.

'2:17pm' is what my phone screen had read when I glanced down at it, Oakly still hadn't messaged me back, so I can only assume that if they aren't actually busy, they're just on their computer on myspace or reading fanfiction, I sighed at the lack of reply and looked back up at the box TV in front of me.

It's been awhile since Brooklyn and Stella left for the doctors to, Brooklyn had called and said it was taking longer than expected and that her and Stella were going to get ice cream or a late lunch afterwards and offered to come pick me up before, I'd declined that offer because it's not my place to invade on Brooklyn's time with her daughter, especially since I'm not even actually her kid, and also because I was really hoping to figure out plans with my friends and go out with them.

I clicked my tongue and messed with the lose threads on my shirt while starting off at the tv before moving to pick up the remote next to me to flip through the channels.

i spent a bit flipping through the tv channels until i had finally settled on some old horror movie and had zoned out while staring off at the screen.

after around twenty minutes of staring at the tv screen but not following along nor actually paying attention to the movie on screen my head had started to slightly ache and a low static or buzzing had started to fill my head, i placed the palm of my right hand on my temple and slowly blinked before moving to rub my eyes then attempting to ignore the growing static and ache.  as the static grew louder, my head started to get worse and my ears began to also hurt, i groaned in pain, placing my palms over my eyes.

why the fuck is this even happening? what the fuck is even happening? did i take medicine or something i shouldn't have? no, i don't remember taking anything besides my normal meds.

what the fuck.

after what felt like hours the ringing abruptly stopped, i sat up a bit straighter, glancing around the room in caution then slowly took my hands away from my ears, as soon as i had removed my hands and was able to hear normally again i heard what i assume to be the back door being basically slammed shut then heavy footsteps coming down the hall. my thoughts instantly went to the possibility's that someone had just broken in or something of that sort but them quickly recognized the footsteps.

"So, want to explain why you couldn't fuck answer the damn phone or damn door, d/n?" i heard my fathers harsh voice from behind me, i quickly moved to hit the off button on the tv in front of me but still staying sitting in my spot on the floor before nervously turning to look in my father's direction, i bit my lip as i tried to quickly come up with an excuse.

"Uh, i d-didnt hear the ph-phone ring, the ringer m-m-might have accide-dentally gotten turned o-o-off" i answered in a low and nervous tone but my answer came out more as a question, my rather raised his brow, and looked at me with a mix of a pissed off and disappointed expression on his face.

"Whatever, make sure to turn it back on then and try to fucking answer it next time, also make sure the damn front door is unlocked before i get back from work if your gonna keep my damn house key" he said in his still harsh tone but it held a little bit less aggression to it, i nodded my head and mumbled out a 'yes sir', after a few second of uncomfortable silence my father had turned to walk away 

"and get up and do something or make yourself useful, quit being fuckin lazy" he added as he walked away and towards him and Brookly's room, i waited a second before turning back around, my shoulders slumping and letting out a sigh i didn't even know i was holding in.

i slowly picked up my phone from next to me and looked at the screen that now read '2:55''

a confused and slightly shocked expression crossed my face as i realized that while whatever exactly was happening, whatever that static was, hadn't actually lasted hour like it had felt, but really had only lasted maybe ten minutes or so.

Trying to not dwell on it, I moved to look at my notifications expecting to see nothing but couldn't help the small smile that crossed my face when I saw that Oakley had finally messaged me back, I opened up our messages to see what exactly they messaged.

Gay weirdo:] [Oak]:

Alr good to know that ur down bc i fr missed our hang outs!

Welp details are kinda not rly detailed butttt, first Eds cousin will probs be driving if Ed doesn't and we were planning at meetin up at Eds work after his shift bc that way we can also get a bottle of whiskey or smt if he's at the very end of his shift.

ME [Y/N]:

Alr sounds good but Eds cousin driving sounds like a nightmare and a death wish:']

also, not to be a buzzkill but how tf will Ed be able to sell us alchol? u have to be like legal drinkin age to be able to sell here, right?

Gay Weirdo [Oak]:

Alcohol *

Ur dyslexia is showinggg. also, fake Ids n his co-workers help, Duhhh

ME [Y/N]:

1.Stfu loser2. Alr then lol

now what abt the actual details of what we're doin?

Gay Weirdo [Oak]:

1.Rude :/ 

2.we aren't too sure on what we're actually doin but we have ruff plans. After we meet up with Ed n all that we were thinkin of just kinda drivin around, maybe goin to the lakefront or pier. So like i said not rly detailed details bc we r just gonna kinda play it by whtevr happens

Btw  Ed  gets off at like 7:30 so b ready for us to  pick  ya up at like 7pm

ME [Y/N]
Mk thx for giving me the shitty details n all lolz also imma assume that since itz a play it by wh8er thing  I  shouldn't dress overly complicated lolz

Talk 2 u n see u l8er Oak:]

Sent    3:02pm

I sighed contently before moving down into my contacts and clicking on one that read 'Toby:]' before shooting him a quick text asking if he wanted to hang out, I've got a few hours to kill before I have to meet up with Oak and Ed so why not see if Toby is able to hang out.
I mean maybe we can try skateboarding again but without making a near death experience.

Last time really was not fun...
We had to put what little loose cash we had on us together to be able to buy band aids, and we bought nearly all the band aids the nearest convenience shop had.
Let's just say I assume we'll both be keeping band aids or small first aid kits in our bags when we hang out from now on.

Not wanting to waste any more time I quickly got up from where I sat and made my way to my room to quickly change.

Once I was in my room, I closed the door and made my way towards the dresser and pulled out a pair of black ripped skinny jeans, along with a [fav band]-T.
after I had changed my pants and shirt I then put on a [f/c] and black studded belt and my Ed Hardy high tops.

as soon as I had finished getting dressed I picked up my phone that I had tossed onto the bed apon entering my room and checked the time assuming it'd taken me forever to get dress but it had only taken around ten minutes, I also checked my messages to see that Toby had messaged me back saying he's free and that we can meet up near the convenience shop we bought all those damn band aids from.

I smirked at the message then shoved my phone in m

y jeans pockets then grabbed my usual [f/c] and black stripped hoodie from the back of my desk chair and then my backpack and skateboard from the floor next to the chair.

I double checked I had everything before rushing to the back door.

"Dad, I'm going out!" I shouted, not waiting for a reply before flinging open the back door along with the screen door and then somewhat slamming the back door closed and I stepped down the few steps of the mini back porch.

I grabbed my bike from next to the house making my way towards the road and starting towards where me and Toby are meeting up.

But as I road my bike down the roads that were heavily wooded, I couldn't help but feel like I was being watched.

..now that I think about it the feeling of being watched seems to be nearly constant and just feels more intense.

I'm just being paranoid as fuck.

....right ?

10/6/2023

Chapter Text

SUP, IM BACK YA MOTHER FUCKIN LOVELY PEOPLE!!:]  (and I apologize for the stupid ass chapter title yall, it was cruel asf-)

Welp, atleast I hope I'm back! I haven't started writing the next chapter yet....and am currently rereading my own story, drafts and notes and am going to hopefully get my writing journal with my physically written and more important notes soon ish since it's at my parents house in my room. But I'm really hoping to get back into the swing of things and back into writing after around roughly a year break.

In regards to the topic of my hiatus and a sorta life update in a way and explanation on why i dissappeared(writing related further down if you wish to skip this)

I will say that my break was originally meant to be short and just so I could get my motivation back and come up with ideas, because at the time when even my updates and random stuff posted on my activity/convo board (Qoutev+Wattpad) had started to slow to absolutely nothing, was actually around the same time my grandpa had been in the hospital for awhile due to medical issues, and also a big part outside of my family was that I'd gone off my adhd medication due to not being able to refill my prescription and my mom not having time to bring me to a med check, and around the same time my mental health hit a low i hadny hit in awhile. I did infact end up back on my meds in like late March of 2024 or something, but by then I was very out of the writing spunk and ideas and just kinda stayed in that low, and continued to stay in that low pretty consistently to the point I wasn't getting in any form of a better mindset and I stated roughly like that until late july to August, and just around when I started feeling like I was doing better I'd gotten stuck with a puppy I didn't particularly want, and I'm by no means a puppy person but we had found a super sick stray like three month old puppy and taken it in and I ended up super attached despite the fact I'm not someone who by any means should have a puppy but I did it, and it's been rough and draining and has left me with little time to write or to myself, especially since he had to be kept separate from my family's other three dogs while he was getting better and then still has to be separated because my mom's dog is reactive thanks to our neighbors dog (which I won't get into) but since early October I've been living with my sister consistently and just have been busy and still not totally doing great, and more family stuff in regards to grandparents and their health has been consistent since late September of 2024 again even to now in February of 2025. But my puppy who's named Douglas and I now love with my whole being is finally starting to calm down and is getting to point where I can have a bit of free time to myself to do things like write again, hell I'm also hoping I'll be feeling better but won't jinx anything by being overly positive there.

In regards to writing again-

I don't promise that the next chapter of DFTS will be very long or overly amazing, I'll try my best but if there ate inconsistencies or more grammatical errors then before I'm apologizing now because I'll be trying my best. I have to completely start from scratch now, I need to find my writing style again, and while I've written small short wips that are trash here and there for my own entertainment I won't be posting those as they aren't related by any means and...they're just trash. But the POV of my writing might shift, as well as my language, grammar and just style as whole but since I'm still me ill assume it won't be to drastically different. I might work on a few old requests feom tumblr before jumping straight back into DFTS so I can practice and get back a sense of my writing style but we'll see what i end up doing because I'm still not sure of it all yet. But I know I do still love writing and reading even if I also took a huge break from reading stuff as well. 

-More DFTS related specifically I guess- 

I had drafts for the next chapter, I swear I had two rough drafts and different versions of how chapter six would go, and I think I have the plot line in the notebook I dony currently have which sucks but I'll hopefully aquire soon. I had more recently messed around with the one of two versions I have, which is actually the only version I have access to because I can very specifically remember the second one but also can't and I can't find it anywhere on my phone(which I did infact switch phones....but all my notes transferred so I don't really know there). But anyway I have tweaked and messed around with the one draft I have access to, and I decided i actually hate it but I'm thinking I might make it a short under 2000 word filler and teaser for the upcoming chapters I hope to make good. I also have a super old ass draft I found for like what was i think originally chapter two, but its still a really cute chapter and I think one of my first real fluff chapters, and I'm thinking I'll post it on my behind the scenes as a scrapped draft since I don't hate it but it just doesn't quite fit the storyline anymore. This is super long and I'm writing this in my notes, if my grammar here isn't great then I apologize, I'll edit it later from my laptop. I just wanted to make this announcement or author's note or life update or whatever before people either think I've died, abandoned my stories for good or similar plus before I post a new chapter out of no where. I just wanted to speak and clear stuff up and make it known I didn't quit, not for good atleast. I make no promises when the next full chapter will be but I might post a filler one out of a draft just for fun and post that old draft fifteen year old me wrote back in 2023, which feels so weird to say....I will add this is also a means of me getting back into the Creepypasta fandom and the Slenderverse fandoms and all too which I'm actually looking pretty forward to since I'd kill to binge watch Marble hornets all the way for once or start watching EMH again and reading up on creepypasta fics since I have no idea how the Fandom is like now or if it's changed any...but knowing the Creepypasta and Slenderverse fandoms, I'll assume it hasn't changed much and is still the super cool Fandom and community as before.

Anyway I'm making myself shut up now, I'm supposed to be folding laundry not writing this. Please remember to stay hydrated and to take care of yourselves luvs and I can't wait to get back into the writing, the community and Fandom and talking to everything again because i really do miss it all so much and say everything I've said with a lighthearted tone and such, even if some of it's more personal and kinda crappy!

-Luv Lee<3 

2/4/2025

This formated really weird to ao3! I will go back and edit this to for ao3 better from my laptop later on!