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It was surprisingly easy, Adam thought. Talking to someone who struggled to communicate back with words. It was worth it too, as he sat next to Lenny, hand grazing over the older man's as they sat next to one another.
It's been a few weeks of shared glances and awkward touches as they tried to navigate this new routine, after Adam had met Lenny at the movie shop he worked at a few weeks ago. Copenhagen was frightening and new to Adam, but Lenny brought a sense of comfort and peace. Even if the man didn't speak much; Adam felt like he truly listened and the gentle smile he offered each time he spoke would make his stomach feel all jittery.
"Is the coffee okay?" Adam chirped, admiring the way Lenny's hair fell over his eyes. He wanted to touch it, but resisted the urge.
Lenny looked up at him from where he was hunched, elbows rested on his knees. He nodded then, "Perfect."
Adam had made him coffee, unsure of how much sugar or milk he'd want so he brought the packets of milk and sugar with him. So he didn't really make it, poured some bland coffee in the thermos, but he hoped Lenny appreciated the offer nonetheless.
"Is-Is there anything you'd like to do today? After your shift, I mean," Adam said again, just wanting to hear Lenny's voice. It was always so enticing, even if his words were few and far between today. Usually, he'd have a bit more to say, still not too much, but today he seemed more quiet.
"Uh. Movie, maybe?" Lenny shrugged, and Adam only smiled. He could've guessed really, he knew Lenny enjoyed films as that was the one thing he could talk about endlessly.
Adam smiled and him then, putting his hands in his lap. "We can do that. Just not the theatre, please." Lenny nodded, leaning back on the bench and slinging his head back. Adam was enthralled with the motion, his eyes gazing over his cheekbones, all the way down to his neck. He almost wondered-
"My place?" Lenny suggested, catching Adam off guard for a moment. Adam took a moment to close his eyes and relax himself. It was easy to be distracted when he had such a glorious sight upon him.
"We can do that," Adam agreed, distancing himself a bit from Lenny. He didn't realize how close he had gotten, and he didn't want to make the man uncomfortable. It was hard for Adam to tell in general if people were uncomfortable, but with Lenny it was even more difficult as the man struggled to express himself.
They sat there in silence for a bit, before Lenny glanced at his phone and stood. "Breaks over. I'll see you tonight?" He asked, giving the faintest of smiles. It was small, but it was there. And that made Adam smile back with much more enthusiasm.
"Of course."
With that Lenny had turned around, walking down the street, before turning back just a moment later, "Almost forgot," he walked in front of the younger man, placing the thermos in his lap. "Farvel nu."
Adam smiled again as Lenny waved, hurrying off down the street to the shop. Adam signed then, standing with a stretch. Being alone with Lenny at his place was more than exciting.
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Often times when he was alone, Adam would spend the majority thinking of Lenny and their dynamic. Adam liked people to be blunt with him, to help him understand, and that wasn't something Lenny was used to, and that was okay. Maybe in the future Adam hoped, but for now he had to guess a lot of the time. He wanted to ask questions, but he was scared of scaring him away.
After Beth, Adam had a long time of self doubt. It had been three years since he last dated anyone, that person being her, and he wasn't sure if himself and Lenny were headed in that direction. He wasn't sure if Lenny was even into men, for that matter. After weeks of them talking, Lenny had started to speak more and more. Though today he had seemed to be more reserved. He knew progress wasn't linear and things take time.
Adam made a note to ask if he had done something wrong later that night though, just in case he had without realizing it.
It was around seven that evening when Adam heard the knock on his door, his gut filling with that heavy feeling of anxiety. His hands were shaking as he walked towards the door, dressed in what he deemed was his nicest shirt, and a pair of jeans.
Lenny had asked over text if he could come pick Adam up from his little apartment as he didn't want Adam to walk to Lenny's apartment alone, as it would be his first time, which Adam felt giddy at. He felt cared for; it was the little things after all. "Hallo," Lenny greeted, small smile playing on his lips. Adam wish he could kiss them.
"Hi," Adam piped softly, overlooking the older man. Wearing his usual hat, graphic tee, jacket and black jeans, arms behind his back. The way he towered over Adam made the younger blush.
Lenny stood there for a moment in silence, and to any other person it would feel awkward, but Adam just felt at peace being in his presence. But then Lenny was bringing his arms out, in one hand a raccoon plush. "I remember you saying how you missed the raccoons in New York, and I wanted to surprise you."
Adam gasped, reaching out to the small toy, hand that didn't have the plush shaking with happiness. He felt comfortable enough to stim in front of Lenny, and that was a great sign. "I love it, Len," Adam said, the nickname coming out of nowhere. The way Lenny smiled, Adam decided that it was okay to call him that.
With that they left Adam's small apartment, locking the doors behind him. Lenny raised a brow when Adam insisted the raccoon comes along for the adventure, but sure enough was smiling and nodding in agreement. It wasn't too long of a walk, only around 10 minutes. Not much said between the pair, but Adam enjoyed it. Just being next to someone he felt happy to be in the presence of, comfortable silence.
"Sorry for the mess," Lenny said as he opened his apartments front door, "Didn't have time to clean after my shift."
Adam shrugged, "It's okay." They walked in, and Adam looked around. It was a small, albeit homey, apartment. Perfect for just one person. The kitchen and living room being attached, two separate doors to his right for what he assumed was the bathroom and bedroom. Movie posters hung up on the living room walls, couch and coffee table in the middle, and a flat screen on the wall. Adam could handle this.
Usually being in a new, unknown place would make Adam anxious. And well, Adam felt anxious, but for reasons other than where he was. But instead who he was with, alone with. Usually when they were alone, they weren't actually alone as they would tend to meet up in public. But here they are, behind closed doors. Adam had to focus on his breathing.
Lenny took off his green jacket, waving Adam in more as he was standing in the porch, looking almost lost at what to do next. "Any suggestions? I have a whole collection-"
Before Lenny could finish his sentence, Adam interrupted hastily, "Did I say something wrong?"
Lenny stopped from where he was crouching over his rack of movies, looking over at Adam with what Adam assumed was confusion on his face. Lenny then stood, small tilt to his head.
"What?-" Lenny tried.
Adam then felt himself getting frustrated, "Today, when I visited you on your break. You barely spoke to me," he felt small in that moment, trying to get the words out, "I'm afraid I-I might've said something that made you uncomfortable."
Lenny could only show a sad smile then, walking towards Adam. "Not at all, Adam," He said quietly, "I just have been thinking a lot."
"Oh," Adam nodded, eyes lingering anywhere but at Lenny. Usually he struggled with eye contact but had been doing better with it when it came to the older man, but now he couldn't make himself look at him, "What about?"
There was less than a foot between then, and Adam jolted a bit when he felt the others hand on his wrist. Lenny quickly took his hand back, muttering a 'sorry' before making his way over to the couch, patting the spot next to him. Adam obliged, sitting the furthest he could, clutching onto the raccoon plush that was still in his hand. His legs faced away from Lenny, and he was getting flashbacks to when him and Beth would have disagreements. Lenny knew about his autism already, but was it becoming too much to handle?
Lenny cleared his throat, hands folded together in his lap, "I've been thinking... a lot about you, actually." Adam quickly glanced towards the man, and oh.
It seemed Lenny could tell that Adam was thinking the worst about this, quick to correct himself, "Not in a negative way! Not at all."
And Adam let a breath out that he didn't know he was holding in, looking down at his little raccoon. Not in a bad way. That's good. For once it was Lenny doing all the talking, and Adam felt thankful for that.
"You... I like being around you, Adam," Lenny said, almost tentatively, moving so one of his legs were up on the couch, facing Adam. Adam couldn't bring himself to look up.
"And... And I've enjoyed these last few weeks, life was so boring, until I met you. And forgive me, It's-It's hard to find the words."
Adam looked up at that then, making eye contact with the man beside him. It was difficult, but at the same time he felt comfort.
"It's okay," Adam stated, slowly reaching out, placing his hand on Lenny's leg. Lenny bit his lip, placing his hand over Adam's.
"You make me happy, and I enjoy spending time with you," Lenny said swiftly then, as if he didn't force it out then, the words would never be spoken. Adam almost didn't notice his grip tightening around the others leg.
"And I... never thought I would find myself attracted to a man. I like you, Adam."
Adam heard those words and he froze, eyes glued onto Lenny with shock and disbelief. Did he hear that right? He could almost jump for joy at the statement, knowing that the crush was mutual.
"Can I kiss you?" Adam asked gingerly, tightening his grip slightly on Lenny's leg. Lenny only nodded, leaning in slightly. Adam had to turn his body, gaining leverage to lean in and place his lips to Lenny's.
It was chaste, their lips closed. Adam could feel the stubble against his, it felt different. Different from all the times he kissed Beth, but enjoyable. He pulled back for a moment, smiling to himself, before leaning in again.
He felt brave then, pushing in for more. Scooting to be closer until their legs were touching, and Adam let out a
soft gasp as he felt a strong hand on his neck. Calloused fingers running up his neck, cupping his face as the kiss deepened.
Lenny pulled back then, a bit breathless, "Been wanting to do that since I first seen you," He admitted in a lowered tone. Adam could feel the familiar feeling of arousal forming.
"Do-Do you still want to watch a movie?" Adam questioned, feeling the heat all over his body. He hoped the answer was no.
"I would like to keep kissing you for now, if that's okay."
And thank god. Adam nodded slightly, before moving in again, this time deeper and more frantic. His hand started roaming then, around the meaty parts of Lenny's thighs, pulling back to ask, "This okay?"
Lenny huffed, nodding his head. "More than."
Adam pulled back from the kiss, looking down for a moment to see the tight bunch of fabric in Lenny's jeans. "Is it okay if I touch you?"
Lenny let out a soft moan at that, seemingly not being able to find the words, but for different reasons this time. Adam swallowed thickly, hand tracing down before stopping right before he reached the zipper, "Let me know if I need to stop."
Another nod, and Adam took this as permission to pull the zipper of Lenny's jeans down, feeling anxiety and arousal at the act. He's never touched another man's penis other than his own, would it be different than touching himself?
First touch, barely grazing his fingers over the thick line, and he could hear Lenny's breath hitch. At the sound, Adam felt a surge of confidence hit him, and he cupped his hand over the bulge with a new profound feeling. He liked this, he decided then. Sexuality was never something he questioned nor cared for, and it was easy for him to come to terms with then. He liked Lenny, and he wanted whatever that came with.
"Fuck," Lenny let out, the gruffness of his voice sending waves of pleasure right to Adam's dick. He could feel himself already straining against his pants, and he could never recall a time in the past where he got this turned on this fast.
Adam then used his other hand, pulling down on the seam of his boxers. Taking the older man's dick out, feeling and seeing how large the man is. Much larger than his own, he thought. His mind began to linger then.
"Can I taste you?" Adam huffed out, Lenny looking over at him with lust filled eyes.
"Yes, yes. Sit on my lap for a second first? If that's okay," Lenny said, trying to catch his breath from how heavy he was breathing. "I'd like to feel you too, if you're comfortable with that."
Adam nodded frantically, standing for a moment. He looked over the other, seeing how wrecked the man already looked, hat fallen somewhere behind the couch, his cock laying hard and heavy on his shirt, leaning a wet mark. Adam moved closer then, legs outside of both the man's thighs. Lenny held onto Adam's face, very lighting, making the younger man look at him. "You're beautiful, you know?"
Adam blushed at the compliment, head facing down between them, not used to being called that. Not used to Lenny speaking his mind like that either.
He was used to always hearing men call women beautiful, but he liked it more than he would admit. Lenny then gently moved his hand from his cheek to Adam's chin, so they were face to face. He leaned in, lips lightly touching over Adam's, as he moved his hips up into him experimentally. Adam moaned, cock aching. Craving for more, he rolled his own hips, enjoying the way Lenny's hands then hooked around him, holding him tight.
In most situations, Adam hated being held liked this. He hasn't enjoyed it in a long time. But this? This felt right.
Adam proceeded to lace his arms around Lenny's neck, leaning into kiss him once again. This time slowly continuing the motion of his hips, until he felt fingers trace down his back, to his sides and down to the front of his shirt.
"Take his off?" Lenny asked, and Adam nodded. Suddenly the roles were reversed and Adam was the quiet one, too lost in the moment to respond. Lenny then pulled up, discarding the shirt on the floor. He leaned back more into the couch, eyes trailing over Adam's chest, to the soft expand of his stomach.
Adam felt a bit insecure, taking his hands away from Lenny to wrap over himself. Lenny shook his head. "No reason to be ashamed," He assured, "Like I said. Beautiful."
With the praise, Adam felt his anxiety loosen, hands coming to his sides. Lenny then brought his hands to his chest, looking for any sign of discomfort from the younger man. When none showed he started lowering his hands, caressing the smooth skin of his chest, down past his nipples, making them perk up. He ran his hand over them once more before lowering down his navel, then right above the hem of Adam's jeans.
"Can I?" Lenny asked softly, looking up to meet Adam's eyes. Adam wanted to look away, but kept his eyes on the older man's, nodding with his approval. Lenny wasted no time undoing his jeans, popping the button and zipping the zipper, before tugging his jeans down.
Adam was a lot smaller than Lenny, a bit under the average. He remembered when him and Beth first had sex, how he was ashamed at it, how in porn he always seen men always being well endowed, which Beth only shrugged off. Lenny though, only looked with pure adoration.
"I-I know I'm kind of small," Adam started, feeling self conscious again. Lenny only shushed him.
"You're perfect," Lenny said while shushed him, politely though, not wanting to hear the nonsense of Adam seeing himself as anything less than perfect. He looked at Adam like he was a beautiful sculpture, meant to be put on a pedestal and worshipped upon.
Lenny then reached down, grasping the tent in Adam's boxers, much less shy than before. Adam moaned at the sensation, already feeling overwhelmed at the slightest of touches. But it felt too good, as he slowly started to push into the touch. Lenny proceeded by taking his cock out, one hand covering the most of his length. Looking down, Adam realizing this, he felt even more turned on.
"Please," Adam let out, reaching forward to feel Lenny, "Can I taste you now? I-I never done it before, but I want to try."
Lenny let out a groan as Adam stroked him, precum beading at the tip of his cock. "I would love that," the older responded, and without wasting anymore time Adam backed up and off the couch, taking Lenny's pants down with him, the fabric pooling around his ankles.
Adam proceeded to bring his own pants down, not wanting Lenny to feel alone, in which Lenny proceeded to take off his shirt. Adam had to resist the urge to straddle him again, to feel up his chest. Later, he told himself proceeding to lean forward, one hand on the man's knee, other coming up to his dick.
Adam had seen it a few times in porn, people giving blowjobs, and he tried to ignore the thoughts that told him that he wouldn't be good enough. Instead, tentatively licking a small stripe on his head where some precum was. Hearing a moan fall from Lenny's lips too; Adam decided then he could go through with it, as the taste wasn't so bad, and the sounds the man let out was one he wanted to keep hearing.
He took the head into his mouth, licking around it, moaning around it, which had Lenny whining desperately. Strong hands came to his hair, carding his fingers through Adam's softly, saying soft praises. How good Adam felt around him. Adam liked the praise, wanted to hear more, so he started to sink down. Bobbing his head with small motions, using his hand to stroke the parts he couldn't reach. Trying to remember to hollow his cheeks, stopping every few moments to catch a breath before returning.
And Lenny was a mess, words turning into incoherent babbles, hands gripping tigger at Adam's hair before he abruptly moved his hands down to either side of Adam's jaw, stopping his movements.
Adam looked at him, confused, did he do something wrong?
It almost as if Lenny read his mind then. "You're doing amazing," he breathed out, "Too good. Was getting close, didn't want to..."
Adam put his hand on Lenny's stomach, shaking his head, "You can," he said with a reassuring nod, "I can handle that."
Lenny chuckled softly, reaching down to pull Adam up and back on his lap. And shit, the way Adam's cock grazed Lenny's hip felt heavenly. "Wanna feel you too," he spoke softly, as if going back to being shy despite their situation, "Want you to come with me."
Adam bit down at his lip, eyes fluttering shut at the words. "Y-Yeah," he muttered, "Would like that a lot."
Lenny smiled, reaching forward as his arms snaked around Adam's sides, hands tracing up and down his back. Adam copied the action, instead lacing his arms around the older man's neck. Abruptly, Lenny shifted, moving positions so Adam's back was against the couch, Lenny hovering over him and leaving in for a kiss.
Only Adam grunted, feeling a lump beneath him - pulling out the raccoon plush that has long been forgotten. Lenny looked at it and smiled, before Adam chucked in the floor. "I promise I love it, but he needs to look away from this," Adam joked, Lenny only chuckling softly before leaning in to meet Adam's lips.
Lenny reached down between them, lining his cock up with Adam's, looking between them and groaning at the sight. How small Adam was compared to him, how the boy was leaking; the clear fluid smearing onto his own. He continued by grinding his hips down, Adam's head flinging back with pure bliss at the touch. Their cocks rubbing together so easily due to the mixture of their precum, soft angelic loans leaving Adam's flushed lips.
Lenny leaned down, putting a hand up to Adam's hair to direct his lips to his own. They kissed with fervor, as Lenny quickened his pace, bring the hand that was on Adam's face between them. He wrapped it around both their cocks, stroking in tandem with his thrusts.
Adam hooked his legs up, pulling Lenny closer as Lenny's thrusts grew more erratic, less controlled. "'M gonna come," Adam pulled back from the kiss to say, in which Lenny only kissed him harder.
"Come with me, baby," Lenny said, the pet name bring Adam over the edge, releasing in spurts over Lenny's hand and his own stomach. Within seconds Lenny was finishing too, broken moans coming from his lips as he fell onto Adam, body spasming above Adam.
They lay there for a while, Adam isn't sure how long, until he starts paying mind to the stickiness between them starting to dry. Adam felt bad for pushing Lenny off of him, but the liquid squished on his stomach was starting to become a bit much.
"Got something for this?" Adam gestured to his stomach and softening cock, Lenny still regaining his surroundings. He nodded, standing up and going to the other room for a moment, coming back with a soft, warm cloth. He began rubbing it down Adam's stomach, careful around his sensitive bits.
"You really are beautiful you know," Lenny spoke as he wiped him down, eyes meeting Adam's for a second before flickering down to where he was cleaning. He was much more shy again as the lust died down Adam thought, but he appreciated the man trying.
"So are you," Adam complimented back, liking how he could see the faint quirk of Lenny's lips.
"Would you still like to watch that movie?" asked Lenny, and Adam was quiet this time, nodding as Lenny stood, stepping away to throw the cloth in the hamper, going into the other room and bring out a blanket. Adam smiled as Lenny fluffed it out, laying it on top of him as he sat.
"Got anything about space?"
"A few," Lenny smiled, reaching down. Adam watched, confused, until Lenny handed him the raccoon, "Can he stay for this?"
Adam smiled, taking the racoon that was handed to him. "Of course."
And with that they laid next to one another, Lenny behind Adam with his arm around him, hands entwined right over Adam's heart.
Adam couldn't help but feel like he's finally found his person.