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“Lee Sungho, we need you at the principal’s office” It was his biology teacher calling him, he was surprised to say the least. He has never been called to the principal's office in his life, so what was happening? He didn’t do anything as far as he knew, so why were they calling him?

Still shocked by the call, he calmly stood up and went with his biology teacher, not without sending a confused look at his friend Woonkjin.

Student and teacher walked through the halls fast until they reached the principal’s office. The teacher knocked on the door and opened it after hearing a ‘Come in’ from inside the office. Both entered the room and sat in front of the principal.

“Sungho, hello. Well, since you are probably wondering why we called you here” Sungho nodded “Well, we need you to be someone’s tutor” and that’s when the blonde finally calmed down. But something was off, why him? He wasn’t on the tutors program since he didn’t consider himself good at teaching others. So it just didn’t make sense that they went straight towards him for help, there must be something else.

“Okay…but why me? I mean, I’m not even a tutor” the teacher and the principal looked at each other trying to get the other to explain why “Well” the teacher started “It’s just that this person is very particular, and you are the only person who we thought could manage it. Besides every other potential tutor said no”

He frowned, everyone said no? How bad could it be? “Who is it?” both teacher and principal doubted, but the principal spoke “It’s Kim Junhyung”

Oh, that's why. Junhyung was known by teachers and students, not only for being extremely problematic, but for being…well…a…a homosexual. God, he couldn’t even think about the word without turning red.

And they lived in an extremely conservative town so you could guess no one really liked him that much. And less Sungho, who came from a religious and homophobic family, he basically had it prohibited to stand close to Junhyung or people like him.

“Mhhhh, I don't know. My parents wouldn't like it” he was nervous, Sungho couldn't even imagine how it would be to talk to that guy, ‘terrifying’. He doesn't even want to think about it, that would probably go wrong, they're not company.

He's an example for people, attractive, nice, gentle, caring, smart and with the most beautiful girlfriend.

He is basically the perfect son, he doesn't want to get involved with him . Actually, he wants to be as far from him as possible.

“Oh, don't worry about that. I talked to your parents and explained the situation to them, I have to admit they weren't at their happiest at first, but now they agreed to let you help him. Please do it, you are our last opportunity, he truly needs help” the principal was really trying to get him to accept.

And it worked, Sungho accepted, if his parents agreed it must be for some reason. And about Junhyung, how bad could it be? Right? Maybe he could even help him to be free from sin and turn normal again.

“Okay, what do I have to tutor him in?” The teacher and the principal looked happy because of his decision “Oh! Just a few subjects. Math, Biology, History, Philosophy, Physics and Biblical Science” the blonde sighed, it was a lot of subjects; when is he gonna study if he's constantly helping that guy? “If you are worrying about your own study's don't worry, I’ll talk to the teachers so you have more time to do the work and to study.

Sungho nodded, even if he wasn't fully convinced, he liked the sound of that. Besides, he felt like a good person by helping people like Junhyung, you know, people who deviated from the path of god.

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He felt nervous, no, Sungho was terrified . He was waiting in the living room for Junhyung, they never talked before, like never , since the principal was the one who coordinated the study schedule not even for this have they talked

Which was better for the best in the blondes parents opinions. So he was scared, he had never seen him before, he did hear all the rumors, which was enough for him to know how someone is.

Why if he beats him up,? Why? He doesn't know. But maybe he's mad and wants to mistreat the weak, maybe…the bell rang.

‘Dang! He's here’ he got up and went to open up the door. He was expecting someone full of tattoos and ruined by piercings, maybe someone older because if his bad grades weren't enough so he had to repeat a few years.

But how wrong he was. 

The second he opened the door the blonde froze. Junhyung wasn't like he had imagined at all, he had dark long hair, he also had a few piercings in his ears, two on his under lip, one on each side. But against his thoughts, the piercings only made him more attractive, not like he finds him attractive or anything. But if he were a girl, and he wasn't a bad Influence, maybe, he could find him attractive. That's what he's saying.

“Are we studying here or what?” his voice sounded exasperated, but his tone was so shooting Sungho could only focus on that, he soon realized what he was doing “Oh, yeah, sorry, come inside” he truly wanted to be more intimidating in front of Junhyung,he doesn't want Junhyung to step on him ‘what the hell was that?’

Both teens entered the house in silence and walked towards Sungho's room still without breaking the silence.

“Okay, let's start with history. Show me your homework and I'll help you”

And Junhyung did it, the blonde opened imagining the worst, but to his surprise, it was perfect. The letters were legible, everything was in its place and the answers were right. So, why does he have a D on that work if it's basically perfect?

“Why did he give you these grades?”

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“Why did he give you these grades?”

Junhyung looked at him raising an eyebrow “What, do you think it deserves even a lower grade? Because if that's it don’t worry, this is the higher grade you’ll see” what? the higher? It couldn’t be. He didn’t say anything and kept looking through the exercises. The answers were extremely detailed and the vocabulary that was being used was also surprisingly school-appropriate.

But suddenly, he felt the notebook be snatched from his hands, it was Junhyung who was looking at him seriously but didn’t say anything. He looked at him confused as to why he did that. He had to admit he wasn't that scared anymore, maybe because the long-haired boy hasn’t been aggressive towards him, yeah, he looks pissed, but he isn’t treating him badly or threatening him. Anyways, he tried to convince him to give him back the notebook.

“Hey, why did you take it? I was looking at something there. Give it back” he finished by extending his hand as a signal for Junhyung to give him the notebook. But the only reaction he got from the raven was an eye roll “Oh yeah? And what were you looking at? My terrible grades, or were you too shocked by the fact that I did them?” even if the tallest guy wasn’t yelling, he felt…something, like a bitter feeling, like the feeling you get when you see someone being treated badly just because, like that terrible feeling of injustice. Sungho, deep down in his heart, felt something like that just by hearing him talk.

The blonde sighed “I was just…surprised, I mean…people tend to describe you as someone primitive and brainless, you know, because of your history of being violent, but these works are actually great. I just don’t understand how all of them aren't over a B-” for a second after saying that, Sungho, swears that Junhyung’s eyes softened for a second “Oh” both stayed in silence for a few seconds, and then, the blonde repeated his question “So, why do you think he grades you like this? I know you probably don’t trust me, but I'm not trying to do anything bad, I just wanna help. I can help you study, and maybe I could help you to get a girlfriend, mine has a lot of beautiful friends. And also, a girlfriend would make people like you better, since you would be, well, cured. I mean, you would still have a terrible background, but people would forget about it. Oh! You should go to church to confess, priest Sangyeon is the best. Also-” But before he could realize, Junhyung had already packed his things and left the room.

Sungho went after him, the raven was standing at the door “If you don't open it I will” he didn’t even look at him in the eyes, Junhyung was mad, but, why? “Wait, we didn’t even got to study” Junhyung sighed heavily “I don’t want you as my tutor anymore, actually, I don’t want any tutor, I’m gonna fail anyways and it’s gonna be the fault of the people who like to pretend that they care about me, like you. Now, open that stupid door or I swear I will break the lock” and with that, Sungho opened the door and he left.

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“So, how was the tutoring yesterday? He did something to you? Do you want to talk to the principal? It must’ve been terrifying” an he kept talking and talking, but Sungho wasn’t listening to Wookjin, he was too busy thinking about what Junhyung said to him before leaving. What did he mean by that? Pretending to care? He wasn't pretending, in fact , he was just trying to help him, help him to be normal, like everyone else. That’s it, he’s gonna ask him what he meant by that.

The blonde stood up from his shared table with his friend and left without saying a word, and then he started to think, where would someone like the raven go at lunch? He had no idea, he started walking through the halls and trying to think about a place where Junhyung could be. He kept walking until he heard a group of people laughing, something inside of him told him to go there, and he did.

What he saw was definitely not what he was expecting to see. There he was, Junhyung, looking incredibly mad, he was clenching his jaw and fists. He was surrounded by a few girls and a bunch of guys, they were all laughing, meanwhile one of the guys was throwing water at his notebooks, notebooks that were all in pieces on the floor, the guy spoke after the water stopped falling “Hey, don’t look at me like that, you shouldn’t have been flirting with my brother idiot. If you hadn’t, this wouldn’t have happened. What a shame, anyways, it’s not like you study or anything. Now, I’m leaving, but I swear if I hear that you are hitting gain on my brother again, I will get you spelled fag” and with that him and his group left, even before he could think, Sungho went to help Junhyung.

He was expecting to be yelled at by him, but actually, he let him help. After picking up all the notebook pieces and throwing them away in the trash the two stayed in silence, not a single word was said. Sungho tried to make eye contact with the tallest, but he wouldn’t stop looking at the floor, so he decided to speak “Hey…I’m sorry for not doing anything to help you from them” but the raven only shook his head “It’s okay, things would have gotten worse if you had done it” the shorter titled his head to the side “Why?” Junhyung sighed “They would have thought that because you are defending me we’re like dating or something, and then they would have started messing with you” oh “Oh…and why don’t you defend yourself?” “Because I would get expelled, you don’t get it, but i’ve been on thin ice since I came out” Sungho felt bad for Junhyung, he didn’t seem so bad (apart from the fact that he likes men), he just needs guidance in his life, and he’s decided to provide it to him.

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The next few days the tutoring continued without neither of the two mentioning what happened. The first day after the incident Sungho wasn’t sure if Junhyung was even going to show up, at the end of the day, he told him he wasn’t attending anymore. But Sungho waited anyway, he hoped that Junghyung would show up, not sure why, he just wanted to see him, and make sure he was alright.

That’s what friends do, right? Because Sungho considered Junhyung a friend, a confused one, but a friend at the end of the day. Something Sungho noticed after tutoring Junhyung, was his intelligence, he was really smart, and had little to no problem with the exercises the teachers sent him to get better in their classes (even if he never needed them in the first place). So their tutoring sessions were them having a superficial conversation while they did their homework.

They never talked about anything deep, but enjoyed each other's company, at least Sungho did. But he wanted to know more about Junghyung, everything if possible, he feels curious about him. Junhyung doesn’t talk much, and it’s hard to read him since his face stays the same most of the time…but he wants to be able to read him.

Sungho is not sure why though, he already has a friend named Wookjin, they have a lot in common and have been friends since childhood. But being with Wookjin and being with Junhyung was completely different…it felt different.

Sungho felt nervous around Junhyung, but those nerves somehow didn’t make him want to stay away from Junhyung. Everybody in town would recommend him to stay away from him, he was supposed to be violent, and dangerous; and even worse, gay. But from Sungho’s perspective, he didn't seem so bad; he has never been rude towards him even if it's evident that he doesn't trust him yet. He is still in disagreement with his life choice of being gay, but maybe becoming closer he can help him with that. 

Sungho wants to take a step further into their relationship and become closer with him, but he's not sure how, so he does what makes more sense to him. Asking him what he wants to know “Does your family accept your lifestyle?” Junhyung looked at him with a frown “What do you mean by that? Are you talking about me being gay?” Sungho nodded and Junhyung sighed “Why do you want to know?” and Sungho shrugged “I wanna get to know you well, I don’t think you’re as bad as others say you are” Junghyun looked at him directly in the eyes took a deep breath and spoke “Okay, I will tell you, but you can’t tell anyone about it, okay?” and the other nodded “My mom hates me, she says I ruined her beauty and life by being born, so she left when I was around ten. Before that she used to beat me up for almost everything, or would just ignore me to the point that I doubted if I truly existed, but I am a hundred percent sure that she would hate me for being gay. Next is my dad who had to take care of me when my mom left, he wasn’t better than her. He wasn’t only violent, he also made me do everything in the house from the time I got there at age ten until now. He is also really close friends with the priest Sangyeon…he hates that I’m gay, in fact, he hates it so much that he kicked me out, but it was for the best, I’m better off without his violent ass”

Sungho was…shocked, that sounded terrible. Being beat up and ignored by your own parents must be traumatic, and being kicked out by your own father, he felt tears form in his eyes, and suddenly, he’s hugging junhyung, and to his surprise, he hugged him back while caressing his head. Not sure why, Sungho feels agitated by the affection that Junhyung is showing towards him, ‘It must be from sadness, I’m emotional so I feel nervous because he’s being nice to me when he’s usually really distant’ he reassured himself, and decided to stop thinking about how weird his body reacts when he is around the taller guy.

Their hug didn’t last much, but it felt like forever to Sungho, and if he was honest, he didn’t want the hug to end. They finished the hug and stayed staring at each other's eyes ‘Junhyung’s eyes are beautiful’ was the first thing that came to Sungho’s mind, but he quickly brushed that thought out of his mind; or at least he tried to.

“I'm so sorry that happened to you…can I ask you where you live now? Since…you know, you don't live with your parents anymore” he saw Junhyung go silent and look like he was thinking about something, they stayed like that for a few seconds until the raven spoke “Do you wanna see?” Sungo definitely didn't expect that answer “What?” the tallest shrugged “Didn't you say you wanted to get to know me? Since you helped me last week I realized that you're genuinely interested in becoming something like friends, and even if you don't understand some things yet, I don't know…I started to somewhat appreciate you” shocked…he was shocked because of what Junhyung just said, appreciate him? and become friends? Sungho thought that it would never happen and Junhyung would hate him forever. But finding out he didn't, and that he even appreciated him, that made his heartbeat race for an unknown reason.

“You wanna be my friend?”

“I guess I could use some company at school. And you are probably the best person there so…I guess? But you have to stop commenting on my sexuality or then we will have a problem” Junhyung's words seemed honest, inviting Sungho to his place is not an easy thing for someone as reserved as him; the blonde had to admit that he felt a little special, he was getting to know a side he wouldn't have never imagined the most problematic person at school could have.

He still didn't fully agree with some of Junhyung's choices, but if none of them touches the topic, they could make it work.

“Well, then; I would really like to go to your place”

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They left Sungho’s house and started walking towards Junhyung’s place. Neither of the two said much, from Sungho’s side, it was because he was too busy wondering how the raven’s home looked. Around twenty minutes walking, they got there. The house was surprisingly big, too big for one person at least. Sungho had already started walking towards the door when Junhyung grabbed him by the wrist “You are my guest okay? So don’t make homophobic comments towards my roommates or me. The couple that lives here is great and they gave me a place to live when my dad kicked me out. They are gay, so don’t be rude. You can alway ask if you are curious about something, but with respect. Both are really nice people, so respect them. Okay?”

The blonde nodded “Okay” and with that, Junhyung opened the door “I’m home! Kyubin! Taeyeob! I brought a friend over!” friends, they are becoming friends. He liked the thought of being close with the raven, but thinking about them as friends made his chest feel heavy. 

The sound of steps took him out of his mind, and when he looked up to where the steps were coming, he saw two other guys standing in front of him and the raven, both looking at him from top to bottom with curiosity. At the same time, he used those seconds of analysis to take a look at them. The one standing on the left, was tall, shorter than Junhyung but still tall. He had long brown hair and broad shoulders, he had to admit that the man was attractive, but for some reason, he didn't feel like the time he saw Junhyung for the first time. The second person was a guy Sungho would describe as ethereal, he was shorter than the brunette but taller than him and had blonde hair. His factions were delicate and unlike the other two, he was skinny and more delicate looking instead of really muscular. But still, besides thinking how objectively attractive they were, he felt nothing else, and that was starting to scare him.

“So…aren’t you going to introduce us to your friend Junhyung?” it was the blonde guy who spoke, and before the raven could even open his mouth, the guest spoke “I’m Lee Sungho, Junhyung’s tutor” both the blonde and the brunette froze, they looked at Junhyung in a search for answers and he only nodded. Sungho gave Junhyung a confused look with a soft frown.

The four of them stayed in silence for a few seconds until the tall brunette spoke “Isn’t he the one you were complaining about because he made you confused?” and Sungho noticed Junghyun swallowing nervously and looking away, was he blushing?. “Shut up Kyubin. Anyway, we’ll be in my room. Come on Sungho” he finished with a little gesture with his head telling Sungho to follow him.

The first thing Sungho did after entering Junhyung's bedroom was observing every detail trying to see if he could learn anything else about the raven. He saw a lot of things that caught his attention, the first being, how clean the room was. He wasn’t too surprised, since he has already noticed how clean the raven is, always with the uniform in perfect state, and always smelling great. Not that he likes his smell or anything, it’s just an objective fact.

He also noticed how many CD’s, vinyls and albums Junhyung has, plus a guitar, he recognises many bands and groups that he enjoys as well. He had lots of books as well ‘So that's why he has such good vocabulary’ it’s the only thing he can think of.

“I really like your room” Junghyun nodded and gave him a little smile “Thanks…well you can sit on my bed, I’ll sit on the chair. The blonde nodded and did just that, after Junghyun sat down they stayed in silence, awkward silence for only a few minutes that felt like an eternity for both of them.

Suddenly, Sungho broke the silence “Do you know how to play it?” the raven looked at him with confusion, and then he noticed he was pointing at the guitar he had, he nodded “I also like to sing sometimes” Sungho looked shocked, and then he smiled widely “You know, I sing at the church choir, what if we sing something together?” And for the first time, he saw Junghyung smile, it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen. He didn’t even noticed nor question why or when his heart started racing.

“Sure” Junghyun said “Which songs do you like?” Sungho thought for a second “You like Junji right?” and the raven looked surprised “You like Junji? I thought the only music you listened to was christian pop or something like that” the blonde furrowed his eyebrows “¡Hey!, I don’t listen to christian music. At least not when I’m without my family” Junghyun limited himself to laughing at the frustration the shorter guy showed after his joke.

“Okay sorry, I guess I’m just surprised you like things besides the bible” he finished still laughing a bit and laughing more after he saw the blonde pouting at his joke and trying to ignore the fact that he found that cute.

“Okay Sungho, what song from Junji would you like me to play?” He saw the other boy think about it for a few seconds and them he answered “I really like ‘be mine’, we could sing that one”

“Sure, ‘be mine’ It's my favorite song from him” Junghyung practiced the song a little and then both started to sing in the company of the guitar.

After singing both were seated on the bed with Sungho resting his head on Junghyun. He was having a great time, Junghyung had a beautiful voice, and also played the guitar great.

Both were in a comfortable silence, until a doubt about something crossed Sungho’s mind “Can I ask you a question?” Junghyun nodded “Your Housemate. How did you end up living with them? What exactly happened?”