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There's a knock at Felix's door, he frowns as he looks at his phone for the time, it's 1:36 in the morning. Who would be knocking at this hour? Maybe Jeongin forgot something at the cafe that he really needs and came back for it. He walks to the entrance of his apartment, his bare feet padding the cold floor, however, when he opens the door it's to the sight of Hyunjin standing there, looking dead on his feet but with a soft smile on his lips, his hair is hidden by his cap, the dark shadows under his eyes as dark as his black shirt.
"Hyun?"
The idol drops his Versace bag on the floor and surges forward to envelop the blonde in his arms, burying his face into the crook of his neck and taking a deep breath, he squeezes the smaller man impossibly closer until his feet leave the ground.
"Hi."
Felix returns the hug, arms looped around his neck, as he just hangs there, Hyunjin's sweet smell invading his senses and settling something deep inside of him. He missed him so much.
"What are you doing here?"
He knew that Hyunjin would be arriving back tonight, but he thought that he would go straight to his own apartment to rest, he knew that he would be bone deep tired, he already told him he has the next few days off so he can rest. Felix thought that he would show up tomorrow or the day after, but not tonight and, as it seems, straight from the airport.
"I missed you."
The smaller man feels as his heartbeat picks up, cheeks burning as he hides his face in the crook of the other's neck, burying himself deeper into his chest. If he could, he would crawl inside Hyunjin's chest and live there, safe and close to his heart.
"I missed you too."
He murmurs against the soft skin of his throat. After another minute Hyunjin places him back on the ground.
"Can I come in?"
"Of course."
He takes a step to the side to allow the other inside, the dark haired man takes his bag from the ground and walks into the apartment, toeing his shoes off beside the door before walking to the couch and letting his body fall on it with a heavy sigh, he rests his head on the back of the couch, closing his eyes. Felix sits beside him, pushing his cap out of his head before running his fingers gently through his soft hair.
"You look exhausted."
Hyunjin leans into his touch, nuzzling his hand before pressing a soft kiss against his palm making his heart skip a beat.
"I'm exhausted." He opens his eyes to stare at the blonde. "It was so good, but exhausting. I had photoshoots almost every day, Donatella wanted to make the most of my stay, I met a lot of people and went to a lot of parties."
Felix smiles fondly at him.
"The Versace Prince."
He repeats Donatella's words making the idol's lips turn up into a smile.
"What did you think of the show?"
"You were amazing, I loved it!"
"Really?"
"Yeah."
They fall into comfortable silence as they stare at each other for a while, Felix's fingers still running through the dark strands of hair.
"Oh, I bought something for you!"
Hyunjin leans down to take a small, simple box out of his bag.
"You didn't need to."
"I thought about you when I saw it."
The taller man opens the box to show a pair of black and white homaika rings sitting prettily against the dark velvet.
"They're beautiful."
He murmurs, running the tip of his finger gently along the smooth surface of them.
"I wasn't sure about the size, because you have small hands so I couldn't use mine as reference, so I bought yours two numbers smaller than mine." He shows his own pair of black and white rings on his ring finger, he averts his eyes for a moment and Felix thinks that his cheeks turn pink. "I bought a pair for me too, I really liked them."
The blonde feels his breath catch on his throat, he really didn't want to read anything into this, but it's really hard to not to when Hyunjin buys them matching rings.
"Can I?"
The taller man asks with the rings on his hand, Felix nods silently offering his left hand for the other to slide them into his ring finger. They fit perfectly.
"Now we match."
Hyunjin smiles brightly at him and he can't stop himself from smiling back even if he wanted to, the taller man laces their fingers together as he rests his head on the blonde's shoulder.
"It's good to be back home."
Felix leans his cheek against the top of his head and closes his eyes.
"I'm glad you're back."
✧
The next morning Felix wakes with a crick to his neck, face pressed against Hyunjin's chest, their hands still intertwined, they must have moved together in the night. He shallows the mix of excitement and nervousness that rises from his chest and gently traces the other’s perfect features, making Hyunjin scrunch his nose cutely when he runs his fingertip along it, he carefully disentangles himself from the idol to go start his day, but not before leaning down and pressing a kiss against his forehead.
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After the first time, it becomes common for Hyunjin to drop by the cafe and then follow Felix to his apartment, where he will refuse to let the blonde take the couch and Felix will refuse to let him take it too, so they end up sleeping on his bed where they wake up with the smaller man pressed against Hyunjin's chest or with him pressed against his back every time.
Felix loves it, he loves every single moment he shares with the other man and waking up with the idol’s arms around him is like a dream, he never slept so well, never felt so well rested and safe. The nights when Hyunjin can’t come, he’ll bury his nose on his pillow and breath his sweet smell until it can make him fall asleep.
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Usually Felix is the one to wake up first, even if Hyunjin has a tight packed schedule and often needs to be really early at the company, Felix is a baker, he's used to waking up before dawn, most days he uses this time to watch the idol sleep, his pretty features relaxed in his slumber, black hair in disarray, hands reaching for the warm body that left his arms. Felix is not sure if Hyunjin is aware that they spend most of the night holding each other, when they go to sleep Hyunjin lays on his side of the bed and Felix lays on his own, but he doesn't know if the other has ever woke in the middle of the night to find them snuggled against each other.
He gets his answer on the third week of Hyunjin sleeping on his apartment.
For the first time he's not the one to wake first. Yesterday was brutal. Jeongin couldn't come because he had a leak on his apartment and Jisung was already away visiting his parents for the week. it's been a long while since Felix had to take care of the cafe by himself, so at the end of the day, he had been dead on his feet, Hyunjin had eyed his swaying form and taken him into his arms before promptly carrying him up the stairs, ignoring Felix's weak protests that he needed to finish cleaning the cafe.
Now, he blinks his eyes open to warm sunlight coming from his bedroom window, something that he only sees on the weekends, he stretches and feels the immediate absence of the body he grew used to waking up entangled with. Is it so late? Has Hyunjin already gone to the company? Then the smell hits him, fresh coffee and bread, he swings his legs out of the bed, gathering his longish, blonde hair into a small ponytail before walking to his kitchen.
Hyunjin is humming as he arranges breakfast for them. The sight sends a pang of longing through Felix’s chest, he wishes this could have this forever, he would love to wake and see Hyunjin first thing in the morning, hear him singing and just being there every day for the rest of his life. He feels selfish with his desires, because the dark haired man is there almost every day and he has experienced more things with him than he ever thought would be possible, only on his wildest dreams has he ever imagined that his idol would be standing on his kitchen, humming and making breakfast. Yeah, Felix should be really glad with what he already has.
Hyunjin turns to place a plate of eggs on the table and sees him, he stops singing, lips curving into a warm smile.
“Good morning.”
"Don't stop."
The blonde pleads and the smile turns into a smirk.
“Oh, do you want a particular show?”
He walks slowly in his direction.
“Can I have one?”
“Well, that’s very expensive.”
“I can pay you with brownies.”
“Tempting.” He takes another step closer, Felix’s back meets the wall and the taller man is almost touching him, he can feel his hot breath against his cheeks. Hyunjin's arm comes to rest on the wall above his head, dark eyes dart between Felix's own and his mouth, the blonde's lips part into a small sigh, drawing the other’s gaze to them. “Very tempting.”
He whispers, voice almost a purr. Felix’s heart is pounding against his chest, he can feel his cheeks burning, his breath lodged on his throat. He’s becoming lightheaded when there’s a knock on the door and they both jump apart is if electrocuted. A moment later, Jeongin pushes the door open, he looks from one to the other for a moment. Hyunjin is back to rearranging the toasts on the plates and Felix is trying to make his blush go away with pure sheer will.
“Good morning, I’m sorry to interrupt, but Lix I need your help to decorate the cupcakes.”
The blonde nods, wiping his hands against the legs of his pants in a nervous manner.
“Oh, I’ll be down in a moment.”
“But you haven’t eaten yet.”
Hyunjin exclaims, sounding almost like a petulant child, lips puckering into a pout, he looks from the set table to the blonde. Felix’s heart hurts at the sight, he just arranged everything for him and he looks so dejected.
“It’s ok, we still have time until we have to open. You can eat together.”
Felix gives the younger a grateful smile.
“Thank you. Do you want to join us?”
Jeongin looks between them for a moment, his lips curling into a mischievous smirk.
“No, thanks. I’ll wait you down at the shop.”
“Ok.”
The boy nods and closes the door, with that Felix turns and asks the dark haired man.
“Let’s eat?”
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Felix is taking a tray of croissants out of the oven when his phone chimes with a new message, he places the tray aside to let them cool so he can put filling into them latter and looks at his phone.
From Hyunjin-ah: I think I don't have energy to lift my finger.
Attached to the message is a photo of the idol laying on the floor, probably in his dance practice room, his hair wet and sweat running down his face and neck, plump lips parted and Felix can practically hear him panting.
Felix thinks that he could lick him.
Shaking his head to send away his dangerous thoughts, he walks to the front of the cafe where he prepares an iced americano, and puts a cheese and ham sandwich and two pieces of brownie into a box.
Hope this gives you energy. He writes on a post it and sticks it to the box.
"Jeongin, can you do me a favor?" When the younger nods he presses the box and the drink into his hands. "Can you take this to JYP and give to Hyunjin? If they won't let you in, call for Changbin or Chan."
The dark haired boy gives him a knowing smile before walking off with the food and drink.
Hyunjin's response comes before Jeongin is even back. His phone chimes.
From Hyunjin-ah: You're heaven sent. Thank you!
There's another photo attached to the message of Hyunjin taking a big bite out of his sandwich, eyes closed in a big smile. Felix can't contain his own smile at the sight.
To Hyunjin-ah: You're welcome 🥰🥰🥰
A few moments later there's the notification that Hyunjin has a new post, Felix opens his Instagram to see a story with a photo of the food and drink he sent to him artistically placed inside the box with the caption: Saved by an angel!
It makes a wide smile spread on his face, a warm feeling invading his chest and making him press his cellphone against his chest as he squeals.
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This morning Felix woke to the feeling of strong arms holding him securely against a firm chest, a nose pressed to his nape and soft breaths against his sensitive skin. It’s not an uncommon occurrence, it turned into a familiar one recently, but every time he wakes like this, it still sends a delighted shiver down his spine and makes his heart flutter with happiness. Felix always knew from Hyunjin’s interviews that he doesn’t like skinship very much, when they met he was extremely aware of the idol’s boundaries and tried to not touch him unless Hyunjin started the touch first, but with time, it became clear that the dark haired man has no problem with the blonde’s touch.
Felix has always been a touchy person, it’s one of his ways of showing affection, so he was worried that he would make Hyunjin uncomfortable, but after that day when Felix had told the idol that he could touch him, it's like it was everything that the other needed to hear, his touches started small, a brush of fingers against his arm, a pat on his back, a squeeze on his shoulder, than progressed to hugs, knuckles brushing against his cheek, a back hug, fingers intertwined.
Felix thinks that the last step was this, their bodies intertwined together. At first, they didn’t talk about it, they went to sleep each at a side of the bed only to wake holding each other, none of them said a word about it, even if they both knew, until a night that Felix was so tired that when they laid in bed he just snuggled against Hyunjin, burying his face into his neck and falling asleep almost instantly, the taller man didn’t say anything about it the next day, but when he slept over again he pulled Felix against his chest and encircled his arms around him, pressing a kiss to the top of his head and wishing him a good night.
Now when they go to bed it’s natural for them to cuddle and hold each other as they talk until falling asleep.
Felix has never slept so well in his life.
He had woken this morning to warmth involving him, he basked into the feeling for a few minutes in silence before carefully turning around to look at the idol’s face. Hyunjin looked like an angel while he slept, face relaxed and lips slightly parted, he pushed a lock of dark hair away from his face, gently caressing his cheek with his fingertips. He stayed like that for a while, watching the other sleep until Hyunjin slowly stirred awake, dark eyes blinking drowsily to adjust to the clarity until they focused on the blonde and a loving smile curled his lips as he greeted him with a good morning, they fell into easy small talk, making the plans for the day.
Hyunjin has the day off, and since it's a week day he knows that Felix can’t abandon the cafe for a whole day, so they compromised on spending the morning at the cafe and going out after lunch.
Now the taller man watches leaning against the cafe’s kitchen island as Felix carefully confects his succulents cupcakes, he's humming a song that the blonde doesn't know but it's calm and relaxing, it sounds like a love song but Felix can't be sure without the lyrics. He looks around for his pink dye but it's nowhere to be seen, with a sigh he pulls a stool from under the island and climbs into it to reach the upper shelf where he keeps the dyes, he takes the pink and turns to climb down when his foot twists, making him lose balance and fall. He lets out a yelp, squeezing his eyes closed and preparing himself to crash into the ground, but he's met with strong arms that circle his back and under his knees and hold him securely against a familiar chest, he slowly opens his eyes, meeting Hyunjin's startled ones, the idol's expression a mix of fear and surprise.
"Are you ok?"
Felix gulps, he feels his heart beating on his throat, small hands trembling where they hold Hyunjin's shirt in a vice like grip.
"Yeah, I'm fine."
The dark haired man lets out a relieved sigh, squeezing the blonde closer until Felix's face is buried into his neck and he can take a deep breath of his sweet smell.
"You scared me."
He murmurs against his hair, pressing a kiss to his temple. The smaller man runs his nose along the pale column of his neck.
"Sorry."
He leans back to stare into the idol's dark eyes, breath catching on his throat at their proximity, he can feel Hyunjin's breath against his lips, their gazes jumping between their eyes and mouths. Felix feels himself leaning closer, pulled to the other like a magnet, butterflies beat their wings frenetically on his stomach, excitement rushing through his veins.
And then the kitchen's door is slammed open making them jump, Hyunjin holding Felix impossibly closer as they look at Jeongin who stopped on his tracks staring at them like a deer caught in headlights.
"Sorry!"
The younger squeaks and promptly turns around, bumping into Jisung that was coming in behind him. Hyunjin sighs and carefully places Felix on the ground, the blonde's legs feel like jelly and he leans against the counter as he tries to slow his heartrate.
“What the fuck?”
Jisung exclaims, glaring at Jeongin, the younger looks between him and the two inside the kitchen.
“I, uh…”
“We heard a scream.”
Han finally says, looking at Felix.
“I lost balance and almost fell, Hyunjin caught me.”
He looks at the idol for a second before averting his eyes, he feels his cheeks burning.
“You’re so cute!”
Jisung sighs before walking back to the café. Felix buries his face into his hands in embarrassment.
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Felix is worried. It’s been three days since Hyunjin travelled to Japan for a couple of shows and he’s not sleeping well, he knows this because the idol sends him messages at times that even Felix is already asleep and he makes video calls with him when he wakes early to pop the pastries in the oven, the circles under his eyes getting darker at each day that passes.
They haven’t seen each other for the last week, Hyunjin’s schedule packed with preparations for the show, Felix could just send him food, the idol posting it on his story every time, he thought about delivering it himself, but he didn’t want to disturb the other. It wouldn’t be so worrisome if Hyunjin still didn’t have to stay away for more four days, it’s not like he hasn’t been affected too, he’s been sleeping poorly the last week, missing the comfort from the body he grew used to having beside his almost every night, but he’s used to running on little sleep.
Hyunjin had a fan signing last night and people commented that he looked tired, he was still kind and talked with everyone, but if even the fans could tell that he wasn’t on his best, then it must be really bad. Felix just ended a call with him and he could see what they meant. He’s paler than normal, eyes bloodshot and voice slow, almost like he doesn’t have any energy left, he fell asleep while talking to the blonde. Felix chews his lower lip for a moment before dialing Chan’s number.
“Felix?”
The other man seems surprised by his call, and he really must be, Felix almost never calls him, he knows that the other is super busy taking care of Hyunjin, but his worry is too big to be ignored right now.
“Chan-hyung, I’m worried.”
There’s a deep sigh from the other side of the phone.
“Have you seen him?”
“Yeah, what’s happening? He just told me that he’s not sleeping well, but it never happened before, did something happen? Is everything ok?”
“I convinced him to take a sleeping pill almost an hour ago.”
“He fell asleep on the call with me almost ten minutes ago.”
“That’s good, he needs to rest for the concert tonight.”
“What’s happening?”
There’s a long pause on the other side, as if Chan’s thinking carefully about what he’s going to say, but then he sighs again. Felix thinks that he must be almost as tired as Hyunjin.
“I think he got used to sleeping with you.” Felix’s breath catches on his throat. “He hasn’t been sleeping well the last week when he couldn’t see you, these last few days he couldn’t too and with all the shows and fanmeetings, it’s taking a toll on him.”
The blonde thinks that if someone had punched him it would have hurt less. It’s his fault, not intentionally, but it’s still because of him.
“Felix…”
Chan starts but is interrupted by him.
“I’m going to Japan.”
“What?”
“I’m going to Japan.”
“But what about the cafe?”
“I’ll ask Jeongin and Jisung to look after it for me. Can you get me a ticket for tonight’s concert?”
“Yeah, sure.”
“Thanks, hyung.” He pauses. “And please, don’t tell him, I don’t want to distract him from the show.”
“I think he’ll get distracted anyway.”
He hears the other mumble before disconnecting the call.
✧
And that’s how Felix finds himself escorted by Changbin, walking down the hall of Hyunjin’s show between thousands of fans. The bodyguard had come to greet him when he texted Chan telling him that he had arrived, his suitcase had been handed to the staff to be kept in the back along with Hyunjin’s things.
“I’m glad you’re here, he’ll be happy.”
Changbin tells him as they keep walking closer and closer to the stage.
“I’m worried about him, I hope that me being here will help.”
“I’m sure it will.”
The buffy guy gives him a gentle smile as he motions to a seat right in front of the stage.
“Here?” He whispers shout at him. “He’ll see me!”
Changbin raises an inquisitive eyebrow at him.
“That’s why you’re here, isn’t it?”
“Yeah, but…”
The other gently pushes him until he’s sitting on the chair.
“Relax, everything’s going to be fine.”
Felix nods and sits.
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It’s half an hour before the lights turn down and people start to shout, his heart start hammering against his ribcage. He has been to Hyunjin’s concerts before, but never sat so close to the stage and never after the idol started visiting his cafe. He runs his fingers anxiously through his long, slightly wavy blonde hair as the lights blinks and the intro to the first song starts, and then Hyunjin appears. From his place Felix can’t see him so well, because the dark haired man is at the back of the stage, he’ll have to walk to the front of it for him to have a closer look but he can see him perfectly on the big screens. He’s so beautiful, Felix will never get tired of looking at him. His hair is down, looking soft and fluffy, he’s wearing a black tank top with a jeans jacket, fingerless gloves and black and white leather pants. Felix wants to climb him like a tree.
It’s not like he forgot that Hyunjin’s a worldwide known artist, but their months together have been so domestic that seeing him like this, on the big screen and with thousands of people shouting his name, it just hits Felix again how lucky he is to have the kind of relationship he has with the other, he doubts that anyone here knows Hyunjin’s grumpy face in the morning or that any of them knows what it’s like to sleep with him wrapped around them. For them, he’s an idol, beautiful, perfect and distant, but for him he’s Hyunjin, caring, funny and the person he’s undoubtedly in love with.
When the first song ends, he greets the crowd, asking how everyone’s doing and if they’re excited for tonight. Hyunjin’s back up dancers fill the stage and the next song starts. Felix sings along and jumps, he’s already here, so he’s going to enjoy the show.
It’s the fourth song when Hyunjin finally comes to where he’s standing, the people around him turning wild and screaming his name at the top of their lungs. Felix’s heart is beating like crazy, a mix of excitement and anxiety taking hold of him, he keeps singing, Hyunjin is maybe five meters away from him when their gazes meet, the idol looks away and the does a double take, eyes going wide and mouth opening into a surprised ‘O’, he looses the time of the song but is quickly to recover, turning the mic to the crowd, his eyes turn back to Felix before turning away as he goes to the other side of the stage.
That’s how the rest of the show goes, the dark haired man doing his rounds to give attention to everyone around the stage but coming back to where Felix is standing every time, the blonde feels a rush of adrenaline all the times their eyes meet, he smiles at the idol and Hyunjin gives him a brilliant smile back.
When there’s a brief pause, the girls around him start to talk among themselves, they noticed that the idol has payed special attention to their section and they wonder if maybe he’s interested in someone there, they squeal wondering if maybe it could be any of them. Felix watches quietly, wondering what he would feel if he was one of them, if something like this happened before he met Hyunjin, if he was at a concert and he realized that his idol had been paying special attention to his section, would he wonder if it was him? Would he get his hopes up like the girls around him? Wondering if maybe Hyunjin will call for one of them at the end of the show and say that he’s interested. Of course, that before everything had happened he had wondered what it would be like to meet him, if maybe him and Hyunjin crossed paths what would happen, but in the past it was just wishful thinking, now, his reality is so much better than anything he ever could have dreamed.
The idol comes back, half of his hair pulled into a ponytail, loose black leather pants and the tank top. Felix feels his mouth going dry. He has seen Hyunjin in a lot of different outfits, but there’s just something about seeing him in all black, with that godamn tank top and sweat running down his face and neck that just makes it impossible to look away from him, not that Felix wants to, but he thinks that if the other had ever wore anything like this at his apartment he would have jumped him a long time ago.
When Hyunjin does a dance break, a beautiful scarf wrapped around his neck the crowd goes wild, Felix along them, he can’t stop himself from shouting, even if Hyunjin can clearly see him, the idol winks at him and he thinks that the girl that’s on the seat beside his faints.
At the end of the show, Hyunjin runs around waving and throwing flying kisses, thanking everyone for showing up. You can clearly see his happiness, it’s almost like he’s glowing.
The moment that the idol walks out of the stage Changbin is by his side, taking Felix gently by the arm and guiding him through the people that slowly mingle out of the stadium, they pass a couple of bodyguards that nod at Changbin. The backstage is chaotic, there’s people running from one side to the other with clothes and make up, the musicians and dancers as well as the staff, Changbin guides him to a door, where he raps his fingers and it swings open to show Chan, the older man gives the blonde a smile before allowing them in.
“Hello.”
“Hello, Chan-hyung.”
It’s the only thing that Felix can say before he’s being lifted from the ground and squeezed against a familiar body, Hyunjin’s all sweaty but he doesn’t care, he circles his arms around his neck and hugs him back, it’s like a piece of him is finally slipped back into its place.
“What are you doing here?”
The taller man murmurs against his hair, kissing him temple before placing him back on the ground, Felix looks up at him, he cups his face with his small hand, thumbing at the ark circles that are covered by make up.
“You haven’t been taking care of yourself.”
He admonishes, Hyunjin averts his gaze ashamed and murmurs, almost too low for him to hear.
“I can’t sleep well without you.”
Felix feels his heart stop, that’s what Chan said, but hearing it coming directly from Hyunjin hits differently, to know that the other man misses the blonde as much as he misses him makes a warm feeling spread along his chest.
“I missed you too.”
He runs his thumb back and forth on his cheek, Hyunjin leaning into his touch and closing his eyes briefly. Someone clears their throat and they turn to see Chan and Changbin watching them.
“So, Felix. What did you think of the show?”
Chan asks but before the blonde could answer him, Hyunjin asks.
“You knew?”
“Felix called me this morning and told me that he would come, so I arranged for someone to pick him at the airport and for a seat.”
“You could have told me.”
He pouts and Felix doesn’t resist the urge to pinch his cheek. He’s so cute, even if he’s still wearing his last outfit and looks like sin incarnated.
“Felix asked me not to.”
Hyunjin turns his gaze back to him, looking betrayed.
“Why?”
Felix smiles gently, caressing his cheek again.
“I didn’t want you to get distracted, not that it helped.”
The idol’s cheeks turn into a beautiful shade of pink as he looks at the other bashfully.
“It’s hard to not look at you.”
“Okay!” Chan practically shouts and claps his hands making the two of them jump. “What do you think of going back to the hotel to eat and then sleep?”
“Yeah, sure.”
They nod and Felix finally takes a reluctant step back, but Hyunjin is fast to intertwine their fingers together and not let go as they walk through the corridors of the backstage or the ride to the hotel, parting only when the car stops in the front of the hotel and there’s a swarm of photographers and fans waiting there, Hyunjin makes Chan promise to stay with Felix while they walk through them, the blonde passing as one of his staff, when the elevator doors close and the taller man laces their fingers back together, pulling him closer. Felix is still blinking dark spots out of his vision when they enter the room, he has no idea how Hyunjin or other famous people can look at the cameras flash and don’t get blind by it.
He looks around the room, it’s beautiful, all in cream and golden accents with a large sitting area, a small kitchen, a king sized bed and a door to what Felix assumes is the bathroom.
“I already asked for room service, the food must be here shortly.”
They both turn to bow at the manager.
“Thank you, Chan-hyung.”
The older man gives them a soft smile, hand coming up to pat their heads gently.
“Eat and rest.” He points an accusing finger at Hyunjin. “You specially, we have a packed schedule tomorrow.”
“Yes, hyung.”
He turns his finger on Felix.
“I’m counting with you.”
The blonde bows again.
“Yes, hyung.”
With that, Chan turns and walks out of the room, they stare at each other for a moment before Hyunjin looks down at his body, his face scrunching adorably.
“I’m going to take a shower.” He walks to his suitcase, from where he takes out shorts and a sleeping shirt. “Make yourself comfortable.”
“Thank you.”
After looking at him once again, as if he doesn’t believe that Felix is really there, he walks into the bathroom. The blonde takes a water bottle from the mini fridge, walking out to the balcony. They’re so high in the sky, Felix can see all the shinning lights of Tokyo blinking back at him, it looks almost like the stars have fallen from the sky to now illuminate the city. It’s beautiful.
He takes a big gulp from the water bottle, draining almost half of it and sighing in relief as it soothes his parched throat, the buzz of excitement is still running through his veins, his ears still buzzing. He really can’t believe that he’s here, that he was so worried he flew to another country to see Hyunjin. He takes his phone out, seeing a few texts from Jeongin and Jisung telling him that everything’s ok and that nothing bad happened through the day, they’re asking how the concert was and how Hyunjin is, he replies them telling that the concert was amazing and that Hyunjin’s tired but fine, he remembers them that the doughs he left ready are in the fridge and to not worry if they run out of pastries, tomorrow is Friday, so they only have to get through one more day without him.
He’s so lost in his thoughts that he doesn’t hear Hyunjin coming out, he jumps when he feels arms circling his waist and a familiar warm body pressing against his back, the taller man rests his chin on his shoulder, nuzzling his nose into his neck.
“Sorry, didn’t mean to scare you.”
He relaxes, leaning against the other’s hold, arms coming to rest on top of the idol’s.
“It’s ok.”
“Did you close the cafe to come?”
“No, I left most things ready, so they just have to pop the pastries in the oven and when they run out of things, they can close it. Tomorrow’s Friday, so it’s just for a day.”
Hyunjin hums, he feels the vibrations against his spine and his thumb running back and forth on his stomach on top of his shirt, he’s completely surrounded by him and he wouldn’t want it any other way.
“I’m so glad you’re here.”
There’s a kiss pressed to the back of his shoulder, making goosebumps raise the fine hairs on the back of his neck and arms. Before he can answer there’s a knock to the door, Hyunjin sighs, letting him go and walking to the door, allowing a young man to roll in a cart with their food.
They eat in familiar companionship, talking about how the last days went, he notes as Hyunjin’s eyes get heavier the longer they talk, his body relaxing against his chair. Felix is quick to take a shower when they finish eating and come back to the room, he nudges the dark haired man up and to the bed, where he flops down before turning and opening his arms so the blonde can crawl into them. Felix can’t stop his smile as he lays down, snuggling against the familiar body, he takes a deep breath of Hyunjin’s sweet and safe smell, burying his face on his neck and letting his arm rest around his waist.
“Thank you for coming.”
Hyunjin mumbles against Felix’s hair, pressing a kiss to the top of his head and squeezing him closer with the arm that he has around him. The blonde sighs in contentment, melting against his hold, he missed him so much, he closes his eyes, smiling against the soft skin of his throat.
“You’re welcome.”
And like that they fall asleep.
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Felix blinks his eyes open to an unfamiliar room, it takes a moment to reorient himself before the happenings of the last day come back to him, there’s a familiar body pressed to his back as Hyunjin sleeps soundly, he sighs in relief and contentment that the other is getting the rest he needs. His phone buzzes with a new text and he takes it from the nightstand, moving as little as possible to not disturb the other, there’s a few new texts from Jeongin and Jisung on their group chat, he answers them and then he plays Animal Crossing as he lets Hyunjin sleep for as long as he can.
About forty minutes later, there’s the sound of a door opening and a moment later Chan walks into the room, he takes a look at them. Felix on his phone while Hyunjin sleeps clinging to him like a baby koala, he lets out a relieved sigh before mouthing that he needs to wake him in an hour, the blonde nods and the manager walks out of the room again.
An hour later he shakes the idol gently.
“Hyun.” No answer. He squeezes the arm around his waist. “Hyun, you have to wake.”
There’s a whine as the man hides his face into the blonde locks on his nape.
“Noooooo.”
Felix giggles. God, he’s so adorable.
“Chan-hyung said that you have to get up or you’re going to be late.”
Hyunjin grumbles, rubbing his face sleepily against the back of his neck.
“Don’t want to.”
He mumbles, pulling the blonde impossibly closer. Felix melts against him, he can’t help himself, he would stay like this with him for the rest of the day if he could.
“Don’t make Chan-hyung mad at me.”
The dark haired man turns him until he’s laying on his back and the taller man’s hovering over him, looking down at Felix with an adoring expression.
“He could never get mad at you, you’re a ray of sunshine.”
The blonde feels his cheeks burning at the compliment, Hyunjin gives him a satisfied smile, leaning down to press a kiss to the tip of his nose before climbing out of bed.
Felix buries his face into the pillow and screams.
✧
People noticed Hyunjin’s behavior at the concert. Of course they did, fans have a talent to catch on the minimal details of anything that happens to their idol, there are people talking about it on forums and even a few videos of Hyunjin looking at the audience with an adoring expression, his heart stops when he sees a blurry image of himself and someone pointing that he’s the one the idol was looking at, but he lets out a sigh of relief when he notices that it’s impossible to recognize him, he’s just a head of blonde hair in the middle of the crowd and there’s already people debating that it’s impossible to know whom Hyunjin was staring at.
He rolls his homaika rings on his ring finger while he keeps reading along as they drive to the stadium. People bring up a live Hyunjin made a few weeks ago where he sang the lyrics of a song wrong, saying he was going to a picnic with his boyfriend, they are speculating about his Instagram stories too. Felix has to admit that they’re completely right, with the exception of the live, Hyunjin’s behavior yesterday and the stories are connected to the same person.
Hyunjin rests his chin on his shoulder, looking at the screen of his phone.
“What are you seeing?”
He shows him the post with a video of him looking at the crowd yesterday, his eyes shining with warmth e adoration as he stared at someone that the camera thankfully couldn’t get, he reads the caption and lets out a hum, Felix frowns, turning his head to look at him.
“Aren’t you worried?”
“Why should I? They didn’t see you, so you’re not in danger, that’s my main concern.”
The smaller man feels his cheeks heating with the force of his blush, and there’s nothing really that he can say, if Hyunjin isn’t worried, then he shouldn’t be too. The idol presses a kiss against his temple, circling an arm around his waist and squeezing him closer.
“Relax.”
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Felix has always known that a lot of people work for a show to happen, but seeing the dozens of people walking around and checking so everything will be perfect for tonight is completely different. He follows Hyunjin as he explains to him what every person is doing, some people look at him inquisitively but keep going on their way, when they finally emerge into the stage, the sheer size of it amazes him, he can’t imagine what it must be like to be here with thousands of people looking at you, and Hyunjin stands alone, no one besides the band and his back up dancers beside him. When he looks at the dark haired man, he’s staring at him unsurely, almost shy and Felix doesn’t know why.
“Do you want to watch the rehearsal?”
He asks timidly, a blush coming to his cheeks. So that’s why? Felix saw him performing last night and heard him sing countless times before, be it on his apartment or his headphones and now he’s shy? This man is really the most adorable. He gives him a big, sunshiny smile and nods. Hyunjin takes in a deep, steadying breath, before he turns, giving a thumbs up to Chan and that’s when Felix notices that there’s no one besides them on the stage.
A soft melody starts playing, one that Felix hasn’t heard before and he’s pretty sure that he knows all of Hyunjin’s songs. The taller man brings the microphone to his lips, eyes staring directly at Felix.
“Hey you, yes you. How did you make me fall in love with you? Hey you, yes you. At first sight. Can we walk? And maybe share our lives. Can we talk? And maybe love your eyes. And if you don’t know love I will make the best of us and if you know so much. Why don’t you give me love? Can we love? Can we love?”
Felix’s breath catches on his throat at the lyrics, Hyunjin takes a few steps closer to him, the sun is shining on his hair and he looks stunning. Felix wants to kiss him so bad.
“I feel your scent, it came to me as my own breath I would consent to you with no other reason I’ll just fall into you, dive into your heart. Yeah no matter what I will give you my heart.”
As he sings the last part, he takes Felix’s small hand into his own, their matching rings clicking together, he can just stare into his dark eyes, heart beating so hard against his ribs he’s afraid that they’ll break.
“Since you’re living in the breeze that I breathe it’s okay to sell me some pain, love me. Can we walk? And maybe share our lives. Can we talk? And maybe love your eyes. And if you don’t know love I will make the best of us and if you know so much. Why don’t you give me love? Can we love? Can we love? Can we lalalalalalala.”
He lowers the microphone, letting it slip through his fingers as he brings his other hand to cradle the blonde’s face. Felix can see a little bit of fear in his eyes, but more than that he can see adoration, hope and love.
“That night when I walked inside the cafe, it wasn’t because I wanted a pastry it was because I wanted you, I would drive by everyday and see you there, in the morning talking to clients and in the nights cleaning and tidying everything, you were just so beautiful, and everyday I would see you smiling at people, looking like sun incarnated and I just wanted, I needed to get close to you, I wanted to feel your warmth and see your smile up close, and when I did you were so much more than everything I had imagined.” He takes another step closer and Felix can feel his breath against his lips. “You’re so much better than everything that I could ever have imagined, and if you’ll accept me, I would like to stay with you forever.”
Felix can’t really think about everything that Hyunjin said to him, his brain is still processing the last ten minutes and he can’t come up with any words to say to him, so he laces his arms around the taller man’s neck and jumps up, circling his legs around his waist, Hyunjin’s eyes go comically wide before they close when Felix crashes their lips together, he lets out a moan against his lips and his hands squeeze his thighs where he’s supporting him against his body.
Felix buries his fingers into the soft locks of the taller man’s hair as they keep kissing, securing him in place, as if Hyunjin would ever go anywhere that wasn’t by his side. Their kiss is warm, unhurried, full of adoration and love. He can feel the last traces of Hyunjin’s coffee on his tongue, but besides that the taste is all him and he’s fastly becoming addicted to it. The warmth of his body is familiar to him, but somehow it feels so much better like this, when the taller man is squeezing him so tightly that it’s almost like Felix is the very breath in his lungs, when everything he can feel is Hyunjin and everything he can hear is him breathing and everything he can taste is him.
The taller man captures his lower lip between his teeth before he pulls away, making Felix whine against his mouth at the loss of contact. When he opens his eyes to look at the other, he’s met with a loving dark gaze so full of devotion and fondness its almost overwhelming, his plump lips are red and curved into a fond smile.
“Does that mean you want me too?”
Felix giggles, brushing his nose against Hyunjin’s affectionately before kissing its tip. He feels so full of love and affection for this man, he really understands now what people said about fireworks exploding when you kiss the right person.
“Yes silly, I want you too. Forever.”
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