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3.1
Nicole is not freaking out at all.
No matter what Jecka is saying now.
No, she just needed to get some air. Not the fact that a now awake Ari is in her room, talking to Jecka as if nothing is wrong.
Nope.
Not her.
She’s just…
“Fuck…” Nicole mutters as she looks down at the puddle. She can see her murky reflection in the dirty puddle.
She…
She fucking hates it.
Nicole rolls up her sleeve, looking at her old scars.
Maybe she should…
Add
More…?
NO!
“Damn it.” Nicole rolls her sleeve back down.
“I… fuck… Jecka…” Nicole mutters, imagining Jecka’s hurt face and crying eyes if she saw her cutting herself. She walks off to nowhere at all.
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3.2
Ari looks around as she wakes up and thought one thing…
Why is she 12?
Or at least, that’s what it seems like her ago on in the mini mirror next to her. She has a hairpin in and wearing a… she’s assuming handmade sweater.
She gets up from the bed and looks at the 12 year old boy next to her, making her jump as she registers the boy near him.
“Names Dipper. Welcome to the Gravity Falls Loops.” The boy gave her a kind small smile. Ari takes it carefully.
“Ari, class of ‘09 loops, I think.” She says softly.
…
Later that day, Ari meets all the others in the building. She then got to meet Wendy, who was sitting on a chair, relaxed.
“Welcome to the loops kid.” The taller woman says as she ruffles her hair.
Ari looks up at her, her chest going pitter patter. “Can you be my mine?” She asks with a blush.
Dipper facepalms, Stan laughs as he falls to the ground, Soos spits out his soda, and Wendy looks at her blankly.
“Uhm… maybe when you’re older.” Wendy says as she walks away.
“So a maybe?” Asks Ari. Dipper groaned.
“So this is what it looks like on the outside.” He mumbles to himself as he walks off to collect the journal.
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3.3
“Hey Nicole! So, this your… who is she again?” Sokka asks as he looks at his “sister and childhood friend.”
Jecka grins as she walks up to him. “So you’re the mythical Sokka! The first man Nicole got to meet that was it a creep!” She says as she shakes his hand.
“Thanks… I guess?” Sokka rubs the back of his head. “So, you’re the one Nicole is all for?” Sokka says as he chuckles.
The blonde girl blushes deeply as she looks down. “Yep! So, tell me about the sister that Nicole keeps replacing. I hope she has good taste in clothing.”
Nicole looks away. This should be a happy moment. Her girlfriend meeting one of the few guys she can stand. It should be a celebration. But her mind is…
It’s thinking of something else right now…
Nicole walks past the two. “If you need me, I’ll be in the… whatever the fuck these buildings are called.” Nicole said, her voice harsher than usually.
“Nicole…” Jecka whines out.
“Did I catch her at a bad time?” Asks Sokka.
Jecka nods. “Yeah, one of our… friends… started looping. She… her and Nicole have a fucked up history.”
The pony tail wearing boy looks at Nicole’s leaving figure. “You should probably talk to her. You, we’re close, but not that close.”
Jecka nods at her again. “I will. When she calms down.”
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3.4
Ari groans as she talks to the girl who is her older sister in this loop. “I just don’t know what to do, or what to say. I don’t wanna be Nicole’s girlfriend, like, ever again.” Ari shivers at the thought. “But… what if I was… am… unlovable? What if I’m just… doom to be abused?” Ari asks the long haired girl above her.
Yang looks at her with a sympathetic look. “Ari, I I spent a week with you awake and a childhood not awake. You are like, the opposite of unlovable.” Yang hugs her tightly. “You deserve love, you will be loved. Now, got anyone you’re into that’s, you know, not fucked up in the head?” Yang asks with a grin.
Ari blushes as she looks down. “Well… there’s Wendy from the Gravity Fall’s Loops” The red haired girl then grins.
“Oh, Dipper’s old crush.”
“HIS WHAT?!” Ari stands up, eyes filled with fury. “IS THAT FUCKING MIDGET TRYING TO STEAL MY WOMAN?!”
Yang runs out of the room. “Blake! Weiss! We got a code me!”
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3.5
Nicole groans as she looks around. Another fucking regular loop. At least she can have some fun with Jecka.
Nicole pings out, she goes wide eyed.
Jecka’s not awake…
But Ari is.
Forget school. Forget family. Forget life. She’s not leavening the Fuckin bed.
Even as she hears her mom complaining.
And hears her brother laugh.
And hears Ari, eventually, knocking on her door, she doesn’t move off the bed.
She does something she’s been doing more and more of.
Cry.
She doesn’t remember how the loop ends.
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3.6
“So, you three are the idiots you girlfriend gushed about?” Nicole asked the three Ed’s
Double D groaned. “Yes, Jecka did spend a loop with us. Though, I prefer if you keep out the rude remarks.”
Eddy rolls his eyes. “Don’t sweat it sock head. She’s probably just not used to the loops yet.”
Eddy is wrong. Very wrong, but Nicole let’s it be. She thinks to herself, all these buildings, this town, is to similar. No matter where she goes in the loops, it all just reminds her of-
“God damn it, NOT AGAIN!” Ed yells as he loops at the form of Carnage coming out of someone’s house… wall.
Then it uncurled it’s face.
“Time to bring some carnage, dorks!”
“AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!” The three boys scream.
… fuck it, she could use the distraction.
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3.7
Unfortunately, there’s no distractions in this loop. She’s back with Belle, this time not as the beast, but as a fellow villager.
“Hello Nicole, anything new with the girl of yours?” The bookworm girl asks as they walk together.
Nicole looks down. “Yes, we’re dating a fucking and all that, but… say, if a girl I dated in the past started looping…” Nicole began.
3 hours later…
“You stupid! Inconsiderate! Cruel! Barbaric! Sadistic! Bitch!” Belle screams as she hits Nicole with a book again and again.
Nicole I the last would have punched her in the tit for within the first hour, but this Nicole…
This Nicole just took it all with a frown and a far up stare.
“I know. I was… I am a bitch. I’m a psychopath after all…” Nicole said bitterly.
“Well, there’s something going on in that head, but it’s certainly not psychopathy.” Belle mutters as she puts down the torn book. “So, why did you put this poor girl through all this?”
“Huh?”
“Well? There’s got to be a reason?” Belle said as she looks down at the younger woman, her hands on her hips.
“She… stole my excuse.” Nicole mumbles.
“What?”
“I said I had depression to get out of things, then she started using that excuse. She I got… revenge.”
“… Ok, I’m leaving.”
“NO!” Nicole latches into her tightly. “Please Belle, don’t leave me. I… I need you. You… please don’t leave…” Nicole shakes in the impromptu hug.
Belle looks down at her, her face unreadable. “Darling, I won’t leave you. But you do have to understand what you did to her was horrible.” Belle says as she runs the younger girl’s back softly.
“I know. God, I fucking know.”
“You got to apologize.”
“I know. But… what do I do after.” Her shaking becomes bigger.
“Then you learn for your experience. You learn to be better and keep on being a better version of yourself.”
“What… then?”
“Then… you live darling.”
They hug each other for a little while longer.
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3.8
“So, Wendy, wanna date now?” Ari asks the taller girl. It’s her second time in the loop and now she’s in her original body.
Wendy look at her uncomfortably. “Listen, Ari, you’re sweet, but…” she looks away as she tries to think. “Our looping ages are… very different. To me… I my look like a teen, but I’m actually hundreds of years old. How long have you been looping?”
“A… decade.” Ari say with a cracked voice.
“See, it feel like I was dating a child. I’d be happy to when you’re like, a hundred, but right now… I’m sorry, but no.” Wendy grabs the girl by the shoulder. “Maybe look for another girl. I don’t want to keep you wait.”
“But I want you! I want to be loved now!” Ari hugs onto the taller cry as she cries on her. Send looks shocked, but quickly hugs her back, letting her cry.
Wendy rubs her back. “You’ll find love, a girl who’s really sweet to you one day, I’m sure Ari.”
“Ok…” The red haired girl mumbles out.
“Anyone from your loops?” Wendy asks.
“Well, there’s Emily, but she’s a little crazy, then there’s Kelly.” Ari say, a small smile appearing on her crying face.
Wendy smiles down at the smaller girl. “Ok, there’s a start. Once there’s a start, there’s a race on the other side.”
The hug for a little while longer.
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3.9
Nicole, holding Jecka’s hand, looks down at the girl sitting on her bed. “I’m sorry I’ve been avoiding you Ari, but I don’t know… didn’t know how to handle… you.”
Ari nods.
“I… I’m so fucking sorry Ari. I know it doesn’t bullshit everything away, but I am so fucking sorry. I made your life hell.”
Ari nods once again.
Nicole gulps as she holds onto Jecka tighter. “I made your life hell because I wanted to make others feel just as empty as I am, not beachside of the stupid fucking depression excuse. It’s no fucking excuse though just, fuck I’m sorry.” Nicole is very close to crying.
Ari gets up, looking right at Nicole. “The apology is… nice, I guess. Maybe there’s a time where I fill forgive you, but right now, sorry is a start.” Ari stretches. “Now, I’m gonna go to some weed and forget about emotions for a little bit.” With that, the red haired girl leaves.
Nicole grabs onto Jecka, letting the crying start. Jecka looks down at her smaller girlfriend. “I’m so proud of you Nicole.”
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3.???
Emily looks around, realizing that time is repeating. “What the fu-“