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I am comfortably asleep when I feel a sharp pain in my stomach and it slowly runs throughout my entire body, this is a pain that is all to familiar.
"Fuck!" I'm alone since Aegon is currently out ,probably drinking.
I realize I need to find someone but since that night I haven't wanted to go to my mother, I mean I'd honestly rather give birth here by myself.
I get up and I run out trying to find someone anyone, "anyone!, fuck!" The pain is to much to bear but I have to carry on.
Tears stream down my face as I collapse onto the ground holding my baby Bumb, "help!" I realize my water has broken all over the floor, and that I don't have much time.
I get up and start weakly running "SOMEONE!" I screech as a kings guard somehow hears the commotion "holy shit!" He runs up to me and without hesitation lifts me into his arms.
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All I have is 3 midwives and the maester in such haste, "Push!" A midwife yells at me, "shut it you fucking virgin!" I push with everything in me I cannot deal with this any longer.
"Just one more push!" I hear again so I push and it isn't long before I heard the sounds of a screeching babe, "It's a boy, your grace" they lift my baby boy up and I see it.
He's not pale or with white hair like Aegon, he has those brown locks that Jacaerys or rather Ser harwin strong is known for.
It's the pink elephant in the room, after the after birth of course they clean him up and hand him to me.
"Leave us, please" I look up at the midwives before they curtsy and walk off leaving me alone with the baby, "what am I going to do with you?" I raise an eyebrow looking at the babe that's currently calming down.
"Especially when your father is on the opposite side of the war..." I sigh while bouncing him, Aegon walks in and I cover the babies head.
"It's a boy I hear.." he speaks gently before extending his hands to grab the baby and I agree "what should we name him?" I look at Aegon nervous about him looking at his hair.
"Rhaegar-" he lifts the blanket over Rhaegar's head and there he sees that iconic brown hair, Aegon looks at me in half disappointment "It's, Jacaerys' son"he seems angry and hands me the babe back.
"I'm sorry.." I look at Aegon with as much sorrow as I can without being a bitch, "It's not your fault.. the babe is now heir to the iron throne, mine or Jacaerys' it doesn't matter" he sighs and walks off probably to get drunk because I saw how much it hurt him.
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As soon as the court had a look at the babe or now heir, Whispers obviously followed, when hearing about it my grandfather Otto Hightower, was said to have fainted.
I felt a bit bad until I didn't(about Otto fainting), I now had bigger problems to deal with, since now the question of my son's legitimacy is being called into question.
People behind my back were calling my son 'The bastards, bastard' Which I'm not going to argue with it in my head at least, Everywhere I went I felt humiliated.
I'm assuming that Rhaenyra heard it from another spy or perhaps the whisper was so lord it made its way to dragonstone? But never the less she knows.
"Your grace a letter.." one of my ladies says whilst handing me an envelope with rhaenyra's seal on it before curtsying and running off.
"Rhaenyra...?What could she possibly want?" I raise an eyebrow, "your my sister" started Rhaenyra in her letter "and I regret that I have wasted the time since you were born, as I regret that we aren't close" The letter continued.
"But it is my ultimate wish for you to tell me the doings of the usurper, and everything that goes on in the castle, but i understand if you decide against it" I sigh before continuing "I also wish to
Meet my grandson, he should take his rightful spot as Jacaerys heir, But I have been in your situation before, and I completely and utterly understand if the mer thought angers you"
"But id very much like it, and please burn this letter after you read it for your own safety of course, I really could use an ally from the inside" the letter ends with a 'Your true Queen and sister, Rhaenyra'
I immediately get up and throw it into the fireplace, I sigh I could no longer just wait and see how this plays out, I must act, Green or black, I cannot be both.
I'd rather have my dignity and respect the gods and the laws of men...than be queen, this usurping is against everything that is important a stain on history.
I'm sorry Aegon, and I'm sorry Jaehaerys.
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With Jaehaera and my baby strapped on I fly off on Vaessia off to dragonstone.
It doesn't take very long until I arrive, I have been expected obviously, and am greeted by the Queen herself, Rhaenyra.
"Welcome sister" She smiles at me very warmly I notice daemon is currently out of it/traumatized so I try not to engage in conversation.
"Hello, your grace" I hop off of Vaessia with my children and at at least attempt to curtsy before I get down on one knee "I pledge my loyalty and support to queen rhaenyra Targaryen first of her name" rest of her titles etc, she helps me off the ground, Rhaenyra takes me into a rather desperate embrace before leading me inside.
We sit down while a servant prepares us tea, "Have you considered my offer?" The long awaited question "No, but even if it is rather impulsive, i have decided to spy for you on one condition"
"And what might that be?" "Even I feel at all endangered i will back out, if that's alright I'm your eyes and ears" I try to stand up straighter to impress her a bit.
"Of course" she smiles again before looking at me straight in the eye "may I hold him?" She gestures over to the baby in my arms as I smile and nod slightly and hand him over.
She bounces him as he coos in her arms "he looks so much like-" she stops herself as to probably not offend me but I decide to finish her sentence for her, "Jacaerys? Yes he does" I chuckle slightly.
In the background Jaehaera plays with some of the toys that the boys left before going to the vale, "Yes, he does" Rhaenyra smiles softly this time as she starts holding the infant close.
"You're so cute" she smiles ear to ear while Rhaegar giggles (which is something he always does)in her arms which makes her right now the happiest woman in the seven kingdoms.
"What did you name this little one?" She takes her eyes off of him for a split second to focus her gaze on me, "Rhaegar." I smile, "after a great queen." Rhaenyra smiles at me while chuckling.
"He's perfect"
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I walk back out of my talk with Rhaenyra, with Rhaenyra still holding Rhaegar in her arms in awe of everything he does.
Until I see Jacaerys, he stops in his tracks I think he knows the rumors and as soon as I think of that my stomach gets filled with nervousness and butterflies.
"Hello" he chuckles awkwardly I smile at him before responding "hello, you" he quickly looks over at Rhaegar "may I hold him" he seems like a little boy which that makes me laugh a little before nodding.
He doesn't hesitate to talk up to Rhaenyra and scoop Rhaegar in his arms, "you're so tiny.." he smiles gently at the babe as if he's the only thing in the world "I love you" he gently kisses his head before rocking Rhaegar until he eventually hands him back to me.
"It's probably time for him to go to bed" Jacaerys chuckles before squatting down to Jaehaera's level from behind me, "hello" he speaks quietly and gently making sure not to scare her off.
"Hel...hello" Jaehaera is a bit shy right now and definitely not up for conversation but she makes sure to greet him kindly.
"Well I think it's probably best for you three to be off" Rhaenyra says before I get back on Vaessia and ride back to kings landing.
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