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Part 1 of come on and haunt me (i know you want me)
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2025-03-28
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will you be lifted to the heavens? would it change anything?

Summary:

Stupid fucking idea, he thought.

What a stupid fucking thing to do.

He won't even get to see their faces.

Although maybe that'll be for the better. His mum would cry. His dad would be disappointed - he'd think he was a coward, even if he didn't say it. Maybe he would say it, it's not like he'd have to spare Daniel's feelings anymore.
Isaac and Isa wouldn't really understand, it'd be easier on them. They'd forget, eventually. Daniel barely remembered his nonna, and he'd spent every childhood summer over at her house watching cartoons and excitedly telling her about karting whilst she cooked and nodded patiently, up until the scorching July she'd died of a heart attack.

Max would be livid enough to walk all the way to Hell and get him back himself, probably. Drag him screaming and kicking all the way back to the surface.

The thought made Daniel chuckle. Sort of. Almost.

It was hard to chuckle with the coolness of the metal barrel shoved as deep into his mouth as it'd go.

He just hopes they can forgive him, hopefully.

Thankfully, he wouldn't be around to check.

Notes:

I didn't know whether or not to post this because it's my first time posting anything on ao3 and it's also my first time writing any long-form fic so pray for me

If you find the narration confusing it's NOT because im bad at writing (even if you think so shhh) it's because im trying something just bear with me, this is meant to be more of an intro than anything, i promise it’ll pick up, i’m just setting the mood

ALSO please mind the tags!!

This work is heavily focused around depression and suicide, if that's something that might trigger you then by all means go ahead and click out! I can't speak for everyone but personally it's taken me years to be able to consume media surrounding this topic, and even so I have my days, so I completely understand if this just isn't for you. Take care of yourselves <3

Chapter 1: anybody with a worried mind could never forgive the sight

Chapter Text

“The man who kills a man, kills a man. The man who kills himself, kills all men. As far as he is concerned he wipes out the world.”

G K Chesterton

 

 

 

 

April 10th, 2025

[From: unknown number]

Hey grace,

i heard the news

daniel had given me your number some time ago

could i call you?

3:32 AM

 

 

 

[From: Max Verstappen (Dan Dutch Teammate)]

[VOICE NOTE - 17 seconds] 

3:34 AM

[MISSED CALL]

3:34 AM

[MISSED CALL] 

3:35 AM

[MISSED CALL]

3:36 AM

[CLICK TO VIEW MORE MISSED CALLS]

 

 

 

[From: unknown number]

[DELETED MESSAGE]

[DELETED MESSAGE]

[DELETED MESSAGE]

I’m sorry, I just don’t know what to say

This is George, by the way. Lando gave me your number

[DELETED MESSAGE]

I’m sorry, I don’t mean to hound you during this times

Daniel was a very dear friend to me, even if we weren’t the closest after he left F1

Just let me know if there’s anything I could do to help?

5:23 AM

 



[From: Nicole Piastri]

I’m so, so sorry, Grace

Let me know if you’d like me to fly down with Chris

Do you need me to cook you anything?

6:31 AM

I’ve made the bags already, just let me know and I’ll be there before midnight

7:10 AM

Sending you a big hug <3

7:11 AM

Take your time

7:14 AM

I just got off the phone with Michelle and she told me you haven’t had the time to check your phone, it’s okay, you don’t even have to answer me! 

Don’t worry about me, that’s the least of your concerns

Sorry, that came off wrong, you know how things sound odd over text! Haha!

Just know I’m right here for you

From one momma to the other

You’ll get through this

7:25 AM

 

 

 

[From: Heidi]

Hi Grace, I’m sorry to reach out so suddenly, I just heard about Daniel

I want you to know even if the last couple of months between us were hard I never wished for anything like this to happen

I’m so sorry

I just can’t stop crying

7:09 AM

 

 

 

[From: Christian Horner (Dan Team Principal - New Phone)]

Geri and I send our deepest condolences, we've only just opened the newspapers

8:00 AM

Would you be open to RB participating in the funeral?

The marketing team is drafting up an in-memoriam that would really highlight your son’s greatest years and the partnership between us

This isn’t the finished version of the video but here’s a draft

[CLICK TO VIEW VIDEO]

The Netflix guys said they’ll try to get Brian Tyler to compose something, he’s the guy who did the F1 theme

Sort of a full circle moment, eh?

We’re thinking we could gather all the Red Bull athletes and have them do individual interviews about Daniel 

8:11 AM

Just got off the phone with marketing, they’re asking if you want to do a Red Bull themed casket? 

We’re thinking Daniel’s helmet painter could custom make something for us

I'd personally like to say a few words during the funeral service

8:18 AM

[CLICK TO UNBLOCK CONTACT AND VIEW NEW MESSAGES]

 

 

 

[From: Scotty (Dan Friend)]

[VOICE NOTE - 1 minute 22 seconds]

8:20 AM

[VOICE NOTE - 2 minutes 58 seconds]

8:23 AM

[VOICE NOTE - 34 seconds]

8:25 AM

Sorry, I’ll get out of your hair, I know you’re probably busy right now
It’s just so odd to me

We were in Switzerland together less than a month ago and he seemed fine?

8:26 AM

 

 

 

[From: Lewis Hamilton (Dan Coworker)]

Hello Grace, I don’t really know what to say

I feel like words fail me at a time like this

I’d like you to know how important Daniel was in all our lives, how much your son upheld and supported all of us, even the people he raced against

He never felt like a competitor, only a friend

The world lost a great man today

We were very close, I assume you weren't aware, but your son and I spent some time together back in Monaco - I loved him very dearly

As a friend, of course

Anyway

I’d be happy to help if you need a hand - just say the word

8:49 AM

 

 

 

[From: Michelle <3]

[MISSED CALL]

8:58 AM

mum

[MISSED CALL]

8:59 AM

mum please answer me

[MISSED CALL]

9:00 AM

mum check the dailymail

they leaked his note?? who’d even do this??

9:01 AM

 

[ANSWERED CALL FROM ‘Michelle <3’ - 13 minutes and 51 seconds]

 

Already told your father

Don’t let him drive when you two go down there

He’s been having palpitations for the last couple of hours

9:17 AM

 

what the fuck, mum?

you’re not coming to the hospital?

we’re supposed to id him

9:17 AM

maybe it’s not him

9:19 AM

Michelle.

9:21 AM

sorry

don’t you want to see him?

9:22 AM

 

I need to lie down, Michelle

9:23 AM

all day? we’ve got things to do

[DELETED MESSAGE]

9:24 AM

sorry

that was mean

im just

it’s a lot, mum

9:31 AM

i’m going to drop off isaac and isa at their grandparent’s house and then i’ll go pick up dad

don’t worry, i’ll drive

9:33 AM

hold on im getting a call from the precivnt

precinct*

i think we might need a lawyer

9:35 AM

sorry

9:37 AM

love you

9:44 AM

Love you too

Get home safe

9:45 AM

Please

9:49 AM