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    Summary

    Regulus Black is unravelling quietly - one pill, one voicemail, one almost-kiss at a time.
    He knows how this ends. He just doesn't know how to stop wanting it anyway.

    ★★★

    “Why did you do it for her?” It was a guilty question. One he had no business in asking. One he couldn’t stop himself from pleading. “Why did you do it for her? Why not… Why not Sirius?” Why not me?
    “I didn’t.” Regulus spoke so quietly beside him. “I did it for me, she just asked me at the right time — asked me when I was ready.”
    “Were you?” James dug deeper, clawing away from the world around them, shielding them both in the filthy muck and dust of years of dirty secrets and lies. He waited and pried some more. “Were you ready?”
    “I had to be.”

    ★★★

    Sirius is Regulus’ best friend; and worst friend. But that’s just sort of inevitable, when someone is your only friend.
    Regulus is Sirius’ brother, and that’s a fact he spits like a curse.

    ★★★

    It's messy. It's brutal. It's addicting.
    And it's not unrequited. Not really.

    Language:
    English
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