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1. i was born sick, but i love it (command me to be well) by deadpoetry_s

   Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983)  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   15 Oct 2025

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Johnny Cade/Ponyboy Curtis
   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. & Ponyboy Curtis & Sodapop Curtis
   • Ponyboy Curtis & Sodapop Curtis
   • Religious Guilt
   • Religious Imagery & Symbolism
   • Title from a Hozier Song
   • Angst
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Gay Ponyboy Curtis
   • Ponyboy Curtis Needs a Hug
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Period-Typical Homophobia
   • Homophobic Language
   • Gay Johnny Cade
   • Good Brother Sodapop Curtis
   • Good Brother Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr.
   • Stay Gold Ponyboy (The Outsiders)

   Summary

   ponyboy curtis would not consider himself to be a religious person.

    

   despite that, he prays to god every night in the hopes his perverse desires will go away.

   OR

   ponyboy curtis is deep in denial about his sexuality, but still finds a way to tell three people before acknowledging it himself

   Language:

   English

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   Chapters:

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