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1. I am James bucky Barnes by Buckbucky

   Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America - All Media Types, Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Captain America (Comics), The Avengers (Marvel Movies), The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con
   • Gen, M/M
   • Work in Progress

   13 Sep 2025

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Rape/Non-Con
   • James "Bucky" Barnes & Steve Rogers
   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
   • Steve Rogers
   • James "Bucky" Barnes
   • Arnim Zola
   • Winter Soldier Characters (Marvel)
   • Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
   • Nick Fury
   • Clint Barton
   • Tony Stark
   • Sam Wilson (Marvel)
   • Post-Movie: Captain America: The Winter Soldier (2014)
   • Movie: Captain America: The First Avenger (2011)
   • Pre-Movie: Captain America: The First Avenger (2011)
   • POV Bucky Barnes
   • Winter Soldier Bucky Barnes
   • Bucky Barnes Is Not Okay
   • Hydra Bucky Barnes
   • Evil Arnim Zola
   • Pre-Serum Steve Rogers
   • Post-Serum Steve Rogers
   • Hurt Steve Rogers
   • Hurt Bucky Barnes
   • Torture
   • Human Experimentation
   • Hydra Experiments (Marvel)
   • Super Soldier Serum (Marvel)
   • Brainwashed Bucky Barnes
   • Brainwashing
   • Red Room (Marvel)
   • Assassin Bucky Barnes
   • Post-Movie: Captain America: Civil War (2016)
   • Bucky Barnes's Metal Arm
   • Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault
   • Sexual Abuse
   • Physical Abuse
   • Past Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers
   • Steve Rogers Loves Bucky Barnes
   • Bucky Barnes Loves Steve Rogers
   • Slow Build
   • Slow Burn
   • Bucky Barnes & Sam Wilson Friendship
   • Post-The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV) Season 01
   • Established Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers
   • Bisexual Bucky Barnes
   • Bisexual Steve Rogers
   • Amputation
   • Electroconvulsive Therapy
   • Blood and Injury
   • Psychological Trauma
   • Rape
   • Sexual Assault
   • Flogging
   • Drowning
   • Whump

   Summary

   Bucky has no idea what he did to deserve what hydra did to him or is doing to him. Bucky didn't do anything wrong so why did he have to have a fate worse than death.

   Language:

   English

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