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XX/50/XXXX

Dear diary,

Oh gosh! Oh GOSH!!!! Is it possible to love a man this much?!

Does he know how I feel about him? Well DUH! But gosh! I am beginning to feel like maybe, just maybe, Sonic feels the same way! He made me a necklace today, but not just any! One with sea shells! Just like how I made a bracelet for him with tiny shells!

He said he made it himself with actual shells from the beach. Spent all week trying to find the best shells, even asked for Shadow’s opinion because, in his words, we have similar tastes! (I think he means our Hot Honey Concert tickets)

And he HATES being by the water!

He made me feel like a queen today!

We actually went on a walk, not a run, after lunch, and we got to see the sunset together! We spent the whole day outside together, not a moment apart, and we talked about when we were kids and all of our adventures and victories.

He even let me put flowers in his quills while we sat under a tree! He almost never lets me do things like that! Because he has a “reputation to uphold” or whatever he tells himself.

When I asked him why he did all of this with me today, he said something about “just because,” and I swear! I saw him blush! He was acting so awkward, and I’ve seen enough rom-com movies and read enough books to know he felt something for me!

Maybe I am looking a bit too much into this but…

A girl can hope! Can’t wait to tell Mrs. Cheshire!

My Mood: LOVE!!! LOVE!!! LOVE!!! And hopeful!

Weather: Sunny and Bright!!!

Tomorrow I Will…: Thank Sonic for everything!

❀Amelia Rose

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XX/49/XXXX

Dear diary,

Today was so great! Cream, Big, and I went on our annual Perfect Summer Picnic, and as usual, it was perfect!!!

Cream brought her mother’s famous vanilla pudding and bought some raspberry tarts from the local bakery. I met the baker before, she’s really sweet! I invited her to one of our picnics, but she had her business to run and said maybe next time!

Gotta keep her to that promise!

I brought my favorite cucumber sandwiches, honey-ginger tea, fresh fruit, and some peanut butter cookies! I used my Grannie’s recipe, and it was delicious as always! I even added some chocolate chips to the dough and it was extra yummy! I can’t wait to share Grannie’s recipe with my own kids one day and my grandkids!

What did Big bring to the picnic? Well the usual!

Froggy and his BIG appetite!

And guess who joined us? That’s right! Shadow!!!

He was just passing by, but we invited him over and with a little pushing (my pleas and Cream’s pouting face) he sat down with us! He was quiet as usual, but rather pleasant today! He even came with us to the creek to pick flowers and relax.

I only got a short conversation out of him. He asked me if I recall correctly…

“You speak about hope and destiny. But what is your purpose if the world doesn’t give you one?”

JEEZ! Leave it to Shadow to make something as simple as laying on the grass by a creek suddenly into a pondering fest as deep as the ocean. We talked and he excused himself to leave. Even after all these years, he hasn’t changed a bit. I don’t know if that’s concerning or admirable. But he got me thinking.

It’s getting late. I should start getting ready for bed. Tails says we need to talk about what’s going to happen.

My Mood: Thoughtful

Weather: Sunshine! Perfect picnic weather!

Tomorrow I Will…: Finish my quilt!

❀Amelia Rose

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XX/48/XXXX

Dear diary,

Wish I had better news to share with you today. It’s been a week since anyone had last seen Sonic since that fight.. We’re still searching, still trying to hold on to the belief that we’ll find him. He’s disappeared before. Sometimes for days, sometimes weeks!! Every time, just when hope started to slip through, he came back.

He always comes back.

Charmy says that a lot. But when he says it, he calls it a meme.

So why do many of us think this is different? I’ve seen the way Tails stresses out. I’ve seen Rouge comfort us all. She’s here more than out there.

I miss him so much, but I’m confident he’ll be back. I mean, why wouldn’t he fight for us? He WILL be back, and then I’ll give him the biggest hug I can imagine! He will NEVER be out of my sights again! >:(

Plus, he promised me that once the fight was over, he had something important to tell me. To ask. I wonder if he’s going to FINALLY take me on a date.

A proper one!!

He didn’t tell me what, and I hate that! He knows I HATE surprises! I mean, I like PLANNING them, but this isn’t about me! It’s about him.

Okay, no, it’s about me still.

I’ll wait. Everyday. My door’s unlocked. I stiiiiill need to fix up my garden. I’ve let it become undone. Overgrown. That’s the word.

Cream and Vanilla asked me to join them for dinner, and I might go. I don’t know, though. The thought of eating anything makes me sick.

Maybe I’ll just stay home today and make some apple pie. Silver brought some apples over and hinted at pie. Who am I to deny him some apple delights?

My Mood: ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Hopeful! ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

Weather: Sunny without a cloud in the sky!

Tomorrow I Will…: Tidy up my garden!

❀Amelia Rose

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XX/47/XXXX

Dear diary,

I realized I haven’t written to you for a few weeks. Funny because I used to write every day since I was 8! I have all your book brothers and sisters in boxes tucked away in my attic.

I find it really hard to do anything right now. Bake. Fight. Go outside even.

I just stand by the front door or by my windows.

I have a cake ready for him, but it sits and goes bad. I make chili dogs, and they slowly go bad too. Even what flowers I can pick wither before he returns.

I just. I miss him so much.

I miss him so so so much, it’s hurting my heart. It feels like I can’t do anything without feeling tired or like crying. Sometimes I’m fine, sometimes I’m not. Rogue says it’s normal.

I know Sonic is out there, and I know he will come for me. For all of us. But it’s been over 4 months.

Tails says this is the longest he’s been missing for. I’m worried. He used to visit a lot. Same with Silver, Rouge, and Knuckles, but lately, it’s only been Rouge.

She tries to make me happy. I feel a little better when she’s around. We don’t talk about Sonic much, or she doesn’t. We just have a girls day in my house. I don’t want to go outside in case he comes back. Rouge understands.

Sometimes I wish she stayed. Wished anyone could stay, but they always leave anyway.

I miss him so much…

My Mood: Sad :( 

Weather: Last I checked, it was raining

Tomorrow I Will…: Call Rouge

❀Amelia Rose

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XX/46/XXXX

Dear diary,

I saw him in my dreams. This happened again. It happens so much. Sometimes they’re nice. Usually, it’s that day. I wonder if I had done something different, if he’d be here. Home. Safe with me. If I had gone with them? If I had made him stay.

He was there in front of me, in my dream. He was smiling again. He reached for me. When I tried touching his face, he vanished. Then my eyes opened.

These dreams hurt the most. I can relive the moment I lost him everyday, but the thought of him being here and it being a lie? I could never take it.

I need him here with me.

My Mood: Empty

Weather: Snowing

Tomorrow I Will…: Box everything up

❀Amelia Rose