Archive of Our Own ^beta

Ah. Another day of Ella being hopelessly single.

Why couldn’t I fall in love with anyone? Was it a curse? No you idiot. In the 21st century? Pfft. As if anyone says that. My beauty? Probably.. This is like.. so not fair. Why can’t I just be famous, have everyone fall for me, throw bouquets at me, and- I hopelessly look up, daydreaming of what it could be instead of listening to the teacher’s lecture- -Well, more like a Q&A. All these.. dumbasses sitting here, paying attention.. Answering questions as if they have a perfect GPA.. (Oh wait. Doesn’t that make me the dumb one?)

Anyway, We’re going off topic. Ever since I was a kid, I’d have loads of friends - everything I could want, from toys to boys and girls…

Well that was the problem.

I had boy friends, but never an actual boyfriend or girlfriend! Life can be like the ocean. (Well mines a tsunami… TT)

It can be calm, And the storm can unleash from it, as well. Nothing is ever planned, but think of humans as boats. Some make it… while some drown.

Really?

It’s about how much effort you put into it. For example, I could make a paper boat, and it’ll sink.

If I do a bigger, life-size, wooden boat, it would obviously make it.. but some people get the luckier side of the coin, and end up getting metal. (Why wasn’t it me?)

I wish I was someone like Nagisa from Assassination classroom. Being able to work hard, find a prince (even if they didn’t REALLY date), get through conflict, and still have a happy ending! It’s not that hard, I beg you gods (or goddesses, whatever you are) to please, I beg, at least make an arrow shoot down at someone, and let me date!

Why can’t I find someone like Ren from 14 days with you? Ahh.. the ideal man.. if only he was real. I’m tired of being single!!

“Ella.”

Oh.

I forgot I was in a lesson.

“Do you want to get suspended from campus, or what? I have to do this so much a week, for gosh sake. Why can’t you just listen?”

“You don’t talk back to your teacher. Don’t.”

“..Sorry, I’ll be listening.”

Hah.

I hate that old hag.

After class was over, I went to the bathroom. As usual, it was clean. Oh, it slightly stunk of someone’s period blood, but that didn’t really matter, anyway.

Did I forget to say we have a miku poster in our bathroom?

Well yeah. So my college bathrooms are amazing!!

Two girls were talking in the bathroom.

“Have you seen the new guy? He’s so funny. Looks like he would get good grades, a cool person, and basically ANY girls type!”

…“Did you forget I’m a lesbian?”

Well that shit was embarrassing.

Not my problem! I come here to go toilet.

After doing my business, like any normal fucking person would, I was going to go to my next class, although I was pretty upset that my next one was so far apart from my current one, but i did have time to do my extra stuff.

Until I bumped into someone..

WAS IT HYUNJIN??? MY BIAS!! AAHH!

No, go back to sense, Ella.

The new guy. Him. Oh, what a sight for sore eyes. Maybe I would drool if I was stupid as fuck, but he was pretty decent. And I still like Ren, and maybe even Crowe, more. Hmph.

His dark black hair was short, yet cute. I could see why other girls like him. But I might be lesbian, so…

Or am I straight? Or bisexual? Or pansexual? Who the fuck cares. What is wrong with me.

His skin was coated in a rich, olive skin colour, a tan visible on it because he had been outside for quite long, as it seemed. His dark brown eyes were piercing into mine.

And what did I do?

Blushed. Like some 10 year old idiot.

I BLUSHED. AT THIS STUPID MEXICAN BOY WHO WAS NEW TO OUR COLLEGE.

Fuck me and my life. TT

“Are you okay?”

That’s a Mexican for you!

“Haha— no. I mean—!”

Oh shittt.. I fucking keep messing up when I’m talking to people. First it was my mom, then my dad, then my teacher, and now it’s this little annoyingly attractive guy. Go back to Mexico land where the tacos are, you bitch.

And of course, he had to laugh at me. Why? Didn’t we stop bullying at college? Oh no, they carried it on from high school. Well atleast I moved and I am not with those chavvy girls anymore.

My phone also decided to ring! Nice one, Eno, but don’t ring my phone when I find huzz and already make a fool of myself.

“Oh? Is that your phone ringing?”

‘はるか遠い 遠い 昔巻かれた首輪
人が欲しい 人が欲しい と叫ぶ呪いの首輪
怒らないで 見捨てないで どこもいかないで（ねえ）
強く絞める 吐くまで絞める 人がいないいないと—‘

And that had to be my ringtone.

But hey!! It’s peak. And we all like a little bit of Aishite, right?

RIGHT? (yes Ella, we do…)

“Yes… I’m sorry if I bumped into you. That’s my bad for not apologising, bro. And I also suppose you’re Alan?”

“Yeah, I am, why?”

“Oh, no, I just wanted to ask…?”

Oh the tension hanging in the air was visible. And it was so embarrassing too… get the fuck out!!

Fuck you tension and awkwardness!!!

I look at him awkwardly.. and because nobody’s saying anything, i walk away from him.

What a weird experience.