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1. Open Your Heart (I'm Coming Home) by nightmaresinwintah

   Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)  

   • Not Rated
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   28 Aug 2016

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
   • James "Bucky" Barnes
   • Steve Rogers
   • Tony Stark
   • Natasha Romanov
   • Sam Wilson
   • Bruce Banner
   • Clint Barton
   • memory recovery
   • Past Abuse
   • past trauma
   • suicidal behaviour
   • Mentions of Suicide
   • mentions of torture
   • vaguely graphic torture
   • Attempted Suicide
   • Blood
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • PTSD
   • Graphic Violence
   • minor (very) character death
   • Detailed murder
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Homicidal Thoughts
   • Panic Attacks
   • Mental Illness
   • mentions of eating disorders (only very briefly
   • not in detail)
   • self-destructive behaviour
   • Amputation
   • Weaponry
   • injuries
   • Medical Procedures
   • OKAY SO THIS LOOKS BAD
   • But also
   • a road to recovery
   • Hugs
   • Steve it's okay to ask for help mate
   • Bucky is slightly more mentally stable than everyone thought he'd be
   • it/its pronouns for a little bit!
   • Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier
   • I IGNORED AOU
   • oh and I started before CW so CW (kind of) didn't happen in this
   • ??????
   • idk - Freeform
   • There is love
   • THEY LOVE
   • LOOOOOOVE

   Summary

   Bucky Barnes doesn't go through the change from the asset to James to Bucky again step by step. It happens, though. He saves Captain America and doesn't know why. He goes to Captain America when he's hurt and near death, and he thinks he knows why. He leans on Steve, and lets Steve lean on him while they both heal (together), and he definitely knows why.

   Steve Rogers lives in denial. He's not depressed. He didn't really try to kill himself on the Valkyrie. He's not suffering from PTSD. He's not in love with his best friend - the one who is also known as the Winter Soldier. He's not any of these. (He's all of them.)

   Or; Bucky and Steve learn to be Bucky and Steve again, not the Winter Solider and Captain America. (They do it together.)

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   70,242

   Chapters:

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