my bones decide my home
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i'm sorry that i failed you (you deserve better than me) by zashizawa
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
28 Aug 2021
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When he turned on the screen, his blood ran cold.
𝗕𝘂𝗰𝗸: 𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘌𝘥𝘴. 𝘛𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘊𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘰𝘳𝘳𝘺.
(Or, after the lawsuit, Buck can't take it anymore. He gives up.)
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- Part 1 of my bones decide my home
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"What? Eddie, where's Buck?" Hen questioned, her brows furrowed in worry.
"He's dead," he said again, louder this time. He knew they heard him. The silence was sickening. "He killed himself. Buck's dead."
(Or, Buck is dead, and Eddie isn't coping.)
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- Part 2 of my bones decide my home
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they say that it gets better (but i guess that was a lie) by zashizawa
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
25 Sep 2021
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It was only when his alarm went off that he finally dragged himself out of bed, running his hand down his face in a poor attempt to hide the fact that he'd spent hours wallowing in self-pity.
He was so fucking tired.
(Or, Buck makes the decision to end his life.)
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- Part 3 of my bones decide my home
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For a while, he hated him. Hated him for leaving, hated him for not saying goodbye, hated him for being there when he wasn't going to stay. He hated Buck because he loved him, and it wasn't enough, just like it wasn't enough for his mom.
Then came the day of the funeral, and Christopher saw his Buck's face so still, so wrong, and he broke down crying against his father's legs. He tried to be quiet, tried to be good and strong for his dad, but Buck was dead.
(Or, Christopher misses Buck.)
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- Part 4 of my bones decide my home
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now it's 6:15 and you're on your knees (blood is on your sleeves, and your lungs won't breathe) by zashizawa
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
15 Oct 2021
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Tears were still streaking down his face, constricting his vision, and he squeezed his eyes shut tightly in an attempt to clear them.
When they opened, he found his reflection staring back at him, and he didn't know who he was looking at.
(Or, Eddie attempts to follow Buck to the grave, but he can't go through with it.)
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- Part 5 of my bones decide my home
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couldn't even hear a sound (couldn't feel a single thing) by zashizawa
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
20 Oct 2021
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Something in Eddie shattered, and tears shone in his glassy eyes. Pursing his lips, the firefighter dropped his gaze to their hands. "How don't you hate me?" He whispered, his voice shaking.
And finally, the confusion she'd seen in him clicked in her head. "Eddie, do you think I blame you?" Maddie asked, incredulous.
(Or, months after Buck's death, Maddie discovers she's pregnant.)
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- Part 6 of my bones decide my home
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It was a thought he'd never voice aloud, not to Athena and not at a meeting, not even at church.
But it had always been there, that relief that he would never feel the pain of losing a child again.
And then he lost Buck, and he realized he was wrong. By the time Bobby even recognized he loved Buck like a son, he was gone.
(Or, exactly a year after Buck dies, Bobby relapses.)
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- Part 7 of my bones decide my home
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Had Buck forgiven him for how he treated him? Before he died in his arms, had Buck known that Eddie was sorry?
He died in the love of his life's arms, with a smile in his face.
And even after he was gone, those piercing blue irises never left Eddie's face.
But. . .
But, Eddie still wished he knew.
He always would.
(Or, it's been almost two years since Buck died, and Eddie is coping.)
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- Part 8 of my bones decide my home
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Today 4:57 AM
I miss youYou've been dead for a month and I fucking miss you
(Or, a series of texts Eddie sends Buck's phone after he dies.)
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- Part 9 of my bones decide my home
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"Chris is gonna be happy to see his Buck again."
"Yeah?" Buck breathed. For once, he sounded hopeful, and Eddie?
He couldn't help but feel like somehow, he dodged a bullet.
[Somewhere else, he doesn't.]
(Or, what happens when Eddie gets shot in a world without Evan Buckley?)
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- Part 10 of my bones decide my home
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It's cold, where they buried them. It's something Hen's always silently complained about. Whether it's night or day, summer or fall; when Hen visits Green Hill Cemetery, she pulls a jacket tightly around herself, and she still always feels—cold.
On the hottest day of the summer, Hen stands at the space between Eddie and Buck's graves, and she is freezing. The jacket does nothing to help, but if she's being honest with herself, she didn't expect it to.
It didn't help when it was only Buck's grave that she was visiting, and it doesn't help now that she has to buy two bouquets and clean two headstones and grieve two brothers.
(Or, eventually, everyone has to move on.)
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- Part 11 of my bones decide my home