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Snapshots through the game as Gale and Astarion slowly stumble into love with each other.
AKA: The prequel fic to my inevitable smut character study fic that we all know I'm gonna get roped into.
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Tav is a Ilmatari monk with budding mastery of Ki, the spiritual energy flowing through all things. Astarion is a cornered animal, oscillating between fight, flight, and fawn. Against Tav's better judgement, he becomes obsessed with a bright note in Astarion's Ki, betraying his unrelenting will to live.
Halsin and Tav are kindred souls bonding over their overlapping experiences with Ki and the druidic lifeforce, especially the pain that comes with this insight into a broken world. They become pillars of strength and safety in Astarion's life as he learns to survive in a world not designed to make him suffer.
Astarion feels safest in the reclamation of his body if he has complete control over Tav's. Tav is more than willing to please. Halsin is eager to contribute.
Generally follows the events of BG3. Lots of angst, hurt/comfort, sex, healing, and fantasizing about (and then actually) killing vampire lords. Essentially that song you hear behind Astarion's tent on repeat in fanfic form.
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- Part 1 of The Crown of Madness: Extended Edition
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NOTE: I have consolidated this chapter into the original work in these series. I am new to posting and decided the chapter format works better than multiple works. I will be updating that original work instead.
Halsin proves an invaluable addition to the party during the trek back to the Emerald Grove. Along the way, a chance encounter with a hag forces Tav to relive how he almost lost his voice in a desperate bid for a new body.
Astarion is determined to make Tav use his voice.
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- Part 2 of The Crown of Madness: Extended Edition
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Astarion and Gale prepare for their wedding while trying to help their closest friend heal. All while working through their own trauma and handling the bumps in the road of their new family.
This is a direct sequel to "Another Chance", and it is highly, HIGHLY recommended that you read that fic first.
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- Part 2 of Together, Always and Forever
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The battle is won, the Netherbrain defeated, and Astarion is free. But as he returns to the shadows, someone fails to follow him. His lover, child of Bhaal, condemned to madness by his own father. For weakness, for disobedience, it matters not, Storm is lost. Astarion navigates his grief with Tav's help, and fights for closure.
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- Part 1 of Hope over Power
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Eager to begin their life together, Astarion and Imara embark on their journey to the Underdark with thousands of vampires under their care, but their exciting new adventure proves perilous when life below ground turns out to be much more difficult than they'd expected.
They soon discover that earning their freedom was only the first step toward becoming the people they wish to be, and that neither their happiness nor their love are guaranteed. Faced with seemingly never-ending hardships and danger, betrayals, and the burdens of leadership, their future together becomes uncertain.
To ensure that their love will weather the centuries to come, they must work together to find a way through the darkness.
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- Part 2 of Birds of a Feather
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Tav Valnorin and Valora Feirefitz have a few things in common with one another.
One, they're both artists.
Two, they both suffer from wild, uncontrollable magic.
And three, they're both dating different copies of the same man. Both different versions of Astarion Ancunín. One a vampire spawn from 1492, the other a vampire ascendant who has been trapped in his grave for five centuries.Tav invites Valora and Astarion- Valora's Astarion- over for dinner. Her patron takes special interest in the doppelgangers and decides to shed light on their darkest secrets, one by one.
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- Part 2 of Maelstrom
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Being turned into a vampire destroyed Astarion’s film career as well as his faith in others. Now the only gig he can get is in a tacky production of Andrew Lloyd Webber’s Starlight Express—Waterdeep’s hottest show on roller skates!
There, he meets the show’s nerdy train consultant, who has a few secrets of his own.
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Astarion and Gale both end up being hospitalized in intensive care, having to share a room.
Here, they need to learn again how to trust and love.
As they help each other overcome their traumas, one question lingers...
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On an entirely unrelated mission, Astarion and Octavian stumble upon what appears to be Astarion’s childhood home.
What begins as a quest to reclaim the past soon becomes a journey to reclaim himself.
But as buried memories resurface, another long-awaited moment arrives—Aodhán has done it. The sunlight potion is ready.
Yet hope is a fragile thing. Will it work? Or will his last chance to step into the light slip through his fingers, swallowed once more by the darkness?
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- Part 18 of Symphonies
- Part 11 of BloodWing
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Several months had passed since Gale’s marriage to Mystra ended, and the idea of diving back into the dating world held little appeal. After a series of disastrous first dates arranged by well-meaning friends, Gale reluctantly agreed to try out a new dating app, only to discover it was more geared toward casual hook-ups than finding a meaningful relationship.
Despite his initial reservations, Gale spent an evening testing the app, scrolling through profiles until he paused on one that caught his eye—a stunning, pale elf with the username Starlight69. On impulse, he marked the profile as a favourite and decided to call it a night. But just as he was about to put his phone away, a message from Starlight69 appeared on his screen…
Starlight69: Hello, darling~ 😈
Without hesitation, Astarion attached a rather flattering photo of himself—nude, of course.
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In the picture-perfect suburb of Szarr Hills, behind every smile is a secret. Astarion plays the charming housewife for a man obsessed with life, death, and something in between — orgone energy, he calls it. But what Cazador really wants is control: over people, over bodies, over pleasure itself. And he keeps Astarion tethered through pills, alcohol, and fear. With a chronic illness, a quietly traumatic divorce, and a mailbox full of prescriptions from the ex-wife who left him, Dr. Dekarios is not exactly looking to get in the middle of whatever is going on at the Szarr household. Unfortunately, his connections to Elminster and Mystra make him a prime target. So when Gale keeps running into the sultry, pale man, of course chaos ensues.
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After years of dodging social interactions, Astarion decides to go out of his comfort zone and play a game of Dungeons & Dragons at the insistence of his cruel and controlling fiancé, Cazador. When he meets Gale Dekarios—the game’s charismatic, mysterious Dungeon Master—something inside him stirs. Something he didn't expect.
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Astarion seeks out Abdirak with conflicted thoughts about his reaction towards pain. Have his sadomasochistic tendencies been created by Cazador’s abuse, or has he always had a peculiar relationship with pain? Did he invite Cazador’s abuse, or did he endure it? More unsettling still: did he want it? As much as he hates to admit it, Astarion knows that the Loviataran priest will help him find the answer.
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AU were littles and caregivers are known.
Astarion is the only little in camp and will do what he needs to hide it from the others. -
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For centuries, Astarion wanted nothing more than his freedom. Now that he has it, he finds himself falling into old habits to secure his protection—only to discover that Imara is not the easy target he thought she’d be. Though she has dark secrets of her own, her kindness, sharp wit, and even her ruthlessness surprise and delight him at every turn.
With Imara at his side, Astarion begins to understand that life has much more to offer than just surviving. His path toward healing won’t be an easy one, but he is determined to use his newfound freedom to reclaim his body—and his mind—so that he may finally begin to live again.
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- Part 1 of Birds of a Feather
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Gale and Astarion settle in Waterdeep after the defeat of the Absolute, to find nothing is as it used to be.
Betaed by lovely Peanut from the Bloodweave Brainrot discord server!
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Astarion does NOT reach for Gale in a moment of panic. He does NOT. Do you hear him? He would NEVER.
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“It’s ugly,” Astarion breathed, eyes cast down toward his hands, clasped tight and folded in his lap. “It’s so ugly.”
“Hush,” Gale chided softly. “Heat isn’t ugly, or pretty, or anything all that special. What heat is, is natural. This is what your body was built to do. It’s just biology. Not good, not bad, not ugly, not pretty. It’s just part of what it means to be alive, my love.”
Fingers met sweat-damp curls, gently pressing them back behind a pointed ear as the electricity ignited within his fingers; fucking pathetic, how the mere brush of fingertips went straight to Astarion’s cock. The fever was setting in faster than he hoped, slowly eating away at his rationality, but he refused to surrender to it entirely, not yet. He wanted to cling to himself, to this moment, to these quiet exchanges of adoration, to this sudden fleeing of all his fear. Gale would show him all the reverence of a deity, bowing down to the only god that he had ever cared to worship, and Astarion would show him the same.
“Besides,” Gale teased softly, drawing Astarion’s sweat-slicked forehead to his own, holding his gaze. “You’re always pretty.”
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- Part 1 of Breath of Life
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The morning before heading to the Shadow-Cursed Lands, Astarion finds himself in a state of desperate pining for Tav (the Dark Urge), who just so happens to always be in such a state for Astarion. They make love as the sun rises before heading into the shadows.
There are two sections that are the same scene but from each of their perspectives: first from Astarion's POV, second from Tav's POV.