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Buck was halfway through breakfast at the station when Chimney noticed the markings.
“Uh, Buck?” Chim said, pointing with his toast. “Why does your arm look like a toddler used it for handwriting practice?”
Buck glanced down. A faint smiley face and a few pink squiggles had appeared along his forearm. “Oh, that’s just my skin being dramatic again.”
Or Buck has dermatographia.
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- Part 3 of "Buck" But make him special.
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Buck has spent most of his life locked in a tower, happily, he might add. He'd given up his life as a prince, and while he will never regret it, he wishes his dear sister would write back. Desperate to feel the connection they had, he strikes a deal with a trespassing thief to see the floating lanterns up close, one last time.
Eddie Diaz never lets himself want anything. Not when his son’s future depends on him stealing, doing whatever it takes to provide. But when he takes the crown, his last-ditch effort to finally stop running, he realises too late that he’s stolen more than he bargained for. Now, with half the kingdom at his heels, his only way out is a strange man with impossible hair and an even more impossible demand.
Two days. One journey. And a new dream neither of them is ready for.
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All Buck needed was a slither of information from Tommy, just the tiniest twinge of what he was keeping from him and he could loosen all of the fears wrapped around Buck's heart just squeezing it. If Tommy could just refocus Buck’s fears then maybe he could see all their futures ending with them growing old together because if Tommy could let Buck in even if it hurt him then that meant more than denying things in a futile attempt to spare Buck’s feelings
Buck knows Tommy is keeping something from him that not even the exhilaration that is sex with Tommy Kinard can distract Buck from that feeling brewing in his gut.
Whumptober Day Four:
"Don't Be scared I've Done This Before"
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Eddie is thrown in to the deep end on his second shift at the 118, when an earthquake hits lower Los Angeles.
It is at a collapsing Heat House that he encounters a pregnant, heat-crazed, male omega, who kicks and fights with all he has as Eddie attempts to rescue him. Buck.
Six months later, the US government starts a campaign to provide decorated war veterans with a fully trained and submissive omega, and Eddie is left shocked to find a far more docile- and notably babyless- Buck kneeling at his front door.
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“Hey Evan.” she whispered, tracing a gentle hand over his soft, pudgy cheek. “I’m your big sister. I’m going to take care of you.”
Evan blinked slowly as he took in his big sister’s face. As she drew her hand away from his cheek, he reached up with his own and seized her index finger, giggling as he grabbed his prize. His gummy smile was so wide, it crinkled his eyes nearly shut.
It was a contagious sound and a laugh burst out of Maddie’s chest with a sudden euphoric warmth. Evan’s grip on her finger didn’t loosen until they were leaving the hospital room and her dad took him back again. For hours afterwards she swore she could still feel the warm imprint where his tiny fingers had been wrapped around hers. "
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A look into the Buckley siblings' lives through vignettes of them holding hands.
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I was born a Buckley, but I will always be a McGarrett by Buddieforever1111
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV), Hawaii Five-0 (2010)
24 Sep 2025
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The monsters under your bed is a phrase not to take too literally. We tell our kids the monsters under their bed aren’t real and that it’s just an irrational fear of the dark and the feeling of imaginary creatures, but none of it is real. The monsters under Evan Buckley’s bed are real, but they don’t lurk under the bed. His monsters lurk in the house and pose as loving parents...
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Evan Buckley has some pretty shitty parents and Steve McGarrett shows him love and kindness in a way he's never felt before.
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Buck uses sensory toys, specifically oral ones, when he's alone. Eddie finds out when he shows up at the loft uninvited one morning.
Eddie quickly becomes Buck's preferred oral toy.
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"Welcome! How can I help you today?" she asked, her eyes scanning his face, perhaps sensing the loneliness that lingered there, making him feel strangely vulnerable.
"I’m just looking around," Buck replied, his voice low, unsure of what exactly he was seeking. "I… I think I’m ready for a companion."
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Eddie goes to El Paso with Chris, and Buck adopts a dog to fill the space. Healthy coping mechanism? Maybe. Either way, Buck ends up spiraling.
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It starts with Buck saying, "I've been seeing someone." Someone older. Someone at the 118. Someone who wants to keep it a secret.
Eddie's brain, a notorious traitor, immediately presents him with two horrifying options: their Captain Bobby Nash, or his brother-in-law, Chimney. The logic is airtight. His resulting (and highly misguided) investigation is derailed by a Buckley family dinner from hell, a son who's too smart for his own good, and the terrifying realization that the person he's most jealous of isn't Buck's mystery man... it's the idea of anyone being with Buck at all.or: The one where Eddie is a disaster bisexual and a very bad detective, Chris is a tiny, vengeful god, and Buck just wants someone to love him.
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Buck has always talked faster than he can think, but even he isn't sure how he agreed to go on a fake date with the love of his life, and even less sure what the hell to do after it's over. Especially once an overpass collapses before they have a chance to talk about it.
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Buck laughed, but his heart ticked with familiar, ridiculous nerves as Eddie tapped the folder against his palm. When Eddie looked that delighted to share something, it was usually about Chris. And when it was about Chris, it was usually about Eddie by extension—some beautifully earnest essay about bravery or soldiers, or an art project where ‘Dad’ had been rendered with heroic proportions and Buck as the guy in the corner with a goofy smile.
It was fine. It was more than fine. Buck had worked his way from the periphery of this picture, frame by frame, until he stood inside it; he could be the guy in the corner, smiling. He could be the second mention. He could be extra.
Still, the old echo stirred: not necessary. Replaceable.
Or, Chris writes an essay in class about his hero. It isn't who Buck expects.
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To love is to suffer. To love is to be left. Those are the truths that govern Buck’s life. But can you love something if you lose it without even knowing you had it? What makes a family, a family? Can you grieve someone you didn’t know existed? What right do you have to grieve a perfect stranger? After all, it’s not your life that’s affected. And yet…
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There's one more Buckley family secret to discover. One more secret to come to play.
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After a long shift from hell, Buck and Eddie leave after having an argument that neither can remember the cause of. When Buck goes home he gets attacked, and he does everything in his power to keep it secret. With the help of a sweet girl, and a sheer amount of determination, Buck lies to everyone he loves.
But what happens when the walls crumble and he can’t keep the facade going?
What happens when Eddie finds him and starts to help him heal?
What happens when both boys discover that the other has feelings for them too? -
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Maddie: listen they didn’t know any better ok?? i cant believe i have to explain this over texts please come back
Buck: i dont need explanations. clearly you all have decided that.
Maddie: mom and dad made me not say anyhting im so sorry
Buck: youve had years to tell me. even after you came here. NOW it’s important becuz you wanna bring them here
Maddie: thats not why!?
Buck: save it. you konw what maddie you had to tell them where we were right? did it ever occur to you that i didnt want them to know.
Maddie: none of this is ok im sorry
they didnt even have a bonemarrow database back then-----
Buck goes back in time to give Daniel Buckley another chance.
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"What?"
"Nothing."
"No, tell me." He insisted. "What?"
"You just look, I don't know…" Eddie shrugged, realising that articulating himself was much more difficult than just thinking. "You look more like yourself."
"Oh,"The five times Buck thinks he's unlovable because he has a teddy and the one time Buck finally realises he can be loved.
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Before he knows what he’s doing, he’s jogging forward, following Eddie’s truck as it accelerates down the road.
“Wait! Eddie, wait,” he shouts, and he can see Eddie’s brow furrow through the mirror. But he pulls to the side of the road again and stops the truck, waiting for a moment as Buck catches up to him, stepping right up to Eddie’s open window.
Just as Eddie is driving away to move to Texas, Buck has a bit of a crisis and makes a...less than advisable decision, with very little thought for consequences.
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Looking back over, Eddie makes eye contact with the man.
Oh.
His eyes are blue, like the water that surrounds the Santa Monica Pier, his hair is lighter than Eddie once thought, curling down over his forehead, his lips the same pink as the mark on his eyebrow, and all Eddie can think is god, you don't belong in an apocalypse.
And then, he smiles. A hesitant one, but a smile.
And Eddie…
He smiles back.
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The world ends and Buck is alone. Then he meets a man and his five year old son and things change.
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Evan Buckley was in a tragic accident that forced him to medically retire from being a firefighter. Book and Ladder, his bookstore/coffee shop, is his second chance at doing something he's passionate about.
Eddie Diaz is newly divorced and out of the closet, in a new city as a brand new firefighter.
It was practically inevitable that they would cross paths, and they soon find something more than friendship blooming between them.
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"Your belly…" Eddie sighs.
"God, Buck. At the barbecue, when your shirt rode up and you laughed like you were glowing from the inside out, beer in one hand,I couldn’t take my eyes off you. I didn’t want the party. I wanted this. I wanted to press my face right here…" He does exactly that, lays a kiss just beneath Buck’s navel, then another, then licks a broad, wet stripe across his lower stomach. Buck trembles.
"…And kiss the sunlight off you." Eddie grinds down, his cock still trapped in shorts, Buck’s skin hot beneath him, and moans into the contact, overwhelmed.
"I could come just like this." He breathes. "Grinding on your belly, tasting your skin, feeling you under me. You make me lose every fucking thought, Buck. You make me ache."
Or, Tommy makes remarks about Buck’s body, which leads Buck to start skipping meals, hoping to slim down. But Eddie steps in and shows Buck just how much he truly loves the way Buck looks now.