Squash (JeSuisGourde)
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What's worse than betrayal? How do you fix it when there's nothing left to fix? There is no imagination in an autopsy; dead is dead and guilt is guilt. Owen doesn't know what to do. Because Jack was his second chance, Torchwood was his second chance, and now it's all stained with blame and regret and death.
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A sign on the door says 'High Elopement Risk' in bold black and white. He can't stop thinking about the idea of marriages of the mad; vows jumbled in cotton-dry mouths, church bells tolling crooked and joyous, benzo-sloppy kisses, heavily medicated laughter painting the halls. Glassy eyes and white gauze and rings made of toilet paper, promises made for or by the not-quite-there.
It scares him that his fingers itch for Ian's skin. It scares him that even through the clenched heart, the way his stomach is in lovelorn knots, the way his mind shuts down at the thought of Ian doing the things he did, he still wants to stay.
Mickey's POV during the time that Ian is in the hospital.
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His eyes water from the irritation and he blinks the tears back, clamps down on the threat of a cough spasming at the back of his throat. The second floor landing is full of smoke and warmer than it was before. Mickey has a momentary thought: fuck this apartment. He doesn't care if the whole building burns, if everything goes up in a goddamn inferno, so long as everyone gets out safe and he gets back to Ian.
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There's no such thing as forgiveness for something like this. Not when he gets to have more, forever more, and she only ever had this one thing.
Alice, in the immediate aftermath of Children Of Earth.
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“Don't you want to just let someone else be in charge for a minute?” Ianto murmurs. “Not make any decisions? Let someone else do it all for you?”
Jack's gone, Tosh is injured, and everything is overwhelming. Owen's struggling with the responsibilities and stress of leadership, and Ianto knows how to help him shake off the need to do everything all at once.
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History Of Melancholia by Squash (JeSuisGourde)
Fandom: Les Misérables - All Media Types
10 Dec 2019
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Grantaire deals with his depression by documenting it through photography as he and Enjolras try to wade through life with mental illness. It doesn't make it any easier for him or Enjolras, though. It's the blind leading the blind as they try to navigate the waters of depression.
A series of moments in no particular order, showing the paths that Grantaire's depression and addiction has taken him on and the ways he has tried to survive.
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Ianto wonders if this is his brain’s new version of fucked up, falling in love with the people he’s supposed to hate.
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The Musain is Grantaire's element. His workplace, his playspace, practically his living space. And he and Enjolras-- well, they're only missing each other by inches. So Grantaire listens and watches. And Enjolras follows and learns.
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The discovery of a mechanical Weevil beneath Cardiff starts a chain of events that threatens to destroy Torchwood. Jack is still missing, Ianto seems to be going mad after an injury and Owen is forced to confront his worst fears. When the people of Cardiff start turning into clockwork automatons, things seem hopeless. And then, when Owen decides to investigate Ianto’s strange behaviour, they get worse.
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A 1930s circus AU.
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"Inside this room, no one talks," Ianto said, his voice carefully neutral. "It isn't allowed. What goes on here stays here and, outside of it, never happened. Other than that there are no rules, in a manner of speaking."
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16 Jun 2025
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Deep With the First Dead Lies London's Daughter by jmtorres for diagon
Fandoms: Torchwood, Doctor Who (2005)
25 Dec 2006
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The first name Jack Harkness ever called Ianto by was morbid fucker.
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Bookmarked by Squash (JeSuisGourde)
14 Jun 2025
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After a while, you learn exactly how much good waiting does.
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- Part 1 of Things Left Behind on Purpose
Bookmarked by Squash (JeSuisGourde)
14 Jun 2025
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Coda to The House of the Dead, takes place immediately after the last line of the play.
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13 Jun 2025
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Following the events of Countrycide, no one wants to be alone.
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10 Jun 2025