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  1. Public Bookmark 18

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    Suo Gân
    Welsh, meaning “lullaby”
    suo = lull; cân = song

    But this is not my mother.
    This looks nothing like my mother.

    When asked where I am from,
    what can I possibly say?
    I am you, in part, I suppose
    I want to say, but I don't.

    — Erika L. Sánchez, from Lessons on Expulsion: Poems; “Crossing”

    “I have my father's nose and all his rage, but I have my mother's face and her grief. / Rage, I have learned to wear. My mother's grief, however, folds my spine and lives beneath my ribs. It gets heavier and heavier.”

    — Fatima Aamer Bilal

    Mary now speaks to Christ:
    ‘Are you my son?—or God?
    You are nailed to the cross.
    Where lies my homeward road?

    How can I close my eyes,
    uncertain and afraid?
    Are you dead?—or alive?
    Are you my son?—or God?’

    Christ speaks to her in turn:
    ‘Whether dead or alive,
    woman, it’s all the same—
    son or God, I am thine.’

    — "Nature Morte.", Joseph Brodsky (tr George L. Kline)

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    09 Jun 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 69

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    Soulmates are an extraordinary and fascinating magic. As if the name bands are not incredible enough, there is also the Summoning.

    One moment, one moment before you meet your soulmate when you need them most, where you can summon them to your side.

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    A Soulmate AU; Charles and Edwin over the years.

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    14 May 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 66

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    "We offer up," Charles reads, "this virgin sacrifice." He catches Edwin's gaze. "Only technically true. If we're looking for a technicality..."

    "Charles," says Edwin, his eyes enormous.

    "I know. If it gets you out, though, if there's even a chance—"

    Charles and Edwin have sex in Hell. It solves all their problems and gives them everything they ever wanted.

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    07 May 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 44

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    After a few more questions and a few more scribbled pages of his notebook, Edwin gets up and puts his chair away.

    “Alright then, thank you for your time, Charlie. I must leave you alone, now.”

    “Nah, wait. First of all, my name’s actually Charles. Charlie’s just my stage name. Second, now that you’re done with the interview, how about we go out for a drink, yeah? I’m curious to know why a guy like you would choose to spend the show front row.”

    That takes Edwin completely off guard. He stops short and freezes. “Pardon?”

    “I couldn’t exactly miss you and your friend in bright pink in the middle of my other fans.” Charlie gets up and leans on the chair behind Edwin. “And, you prevented me from eating shit on stage by lacing my shoes. Take that as a thank-you.”

    Edwin spins around to face the other man. “Saying thank you would suffice.”

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    Or: the soulmate AU in which one can hear the music their soulmate is listening to. Charles is a singer. Edwin is a journalist being dragged to one of his concerts.

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    24 Apr 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 33

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    "I just think you need to give him a chance! He's really nice once you get past all the grumpiness!" Niko announced as they sat down in the booth Charles had snagged for them in this smallish café.

    Crystal rolled her eyes in response and slammed her drink and food down. "I already gave him a chance and he was a dick!"

    "But you can still give him another one! You can't believe all the things spread about him, he's so sweet, a little awkward but he's really nice!" Niko protested.

    Before Crystal could retaliate about why she couldn't do that, Charles spoke up. Putting his hand up like he was back in Secondary. "Who are we talking about?"

    "Edwin Payne, a rich asshole who's in Niko's course." Crystal bit out.

    The name was like a gut punch to Charles' stomach.

    After losing contact with Edwin in secondary school, Charles never expects to see him again. Charles finds him anyway. And maybe he can finally figure it all out.

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    21 Apr 2025