letsgobuck
Fandoms
- 9-1-1 (TV) (3)
Recent works
-
Tags
Summary
‘You struggled out there today.’ he said, tone measured, even, careful.
‘And I’ve been trying to give you space. Tried not to rush you. Tried not to pry. I thought if I stepped back, if I didn’t push, maybe you’d find your way back on your own. But it’s been months, Buck. And I don’t think this is grief anymore. I think you’re shutting down.’
Or, Buck starts texting Bobby again.
-
Tags
Summary
‘You scare me sometimes,’ Eddie said suddenly. Quiet. Honest in a way that made Buck’s breath pause. ‘Not because of the risks you take. Not because you dive in headfirst. I get that part. I get why you do it. You scare me because…’
He trailed off. Shook his head like he hated the shape of the thought in his mouth.
‘... because you matter more than I know how to handle.’
-
Tags
Summary
The problem was, Buck didn’t have a middle gear, truly. He was either all in or all out. And right now, he was spiralling quietly, performing instead of being, afraid that one more slip would confirm what Bobby (and everyone else) seemed to believe – that Buck was too impulsive, too much, too wrong for this place.
So he shut up. Did his job. Laughed when the others laughed. Kept his head down.
And it worked. Kind of.
Recent bookmarks
-
Tags
Summary
Contrary to popular belief, Buck wasn’t stupid. He was well aware that this was incredibly unhealthy, but he was used to breaking limbs for love and affection, so this seemed small in comparison. It left no traces, and it didn’t require another person reacting. This was all him, it could be his own little thing.
or
Buck has bulimia
Bookmarked by letsgobuck
10 May 2025
-
Tags
Summary
The flu, an old letter and a missed shift culminate into an unfortunate misunderstanding between Buck and the 118. Things go downhill from there.
Or
Buck struggles with undiagnosed bipolar which culminates into a manic episode. He and his chosen family struggle to cope with the aftermath. Timeline is vague but set around season 5.
Bookmarked by letsgobuck
09 May 2025
-
Tags
Summary
He feels like shit when he's hungry, and he plays better when he's empty. The cold air doesn't touch him as much. The floodlights turn silvery-soft.
And he likes eating. Keeps his hands busy, mouth busy, mind busy. Something to chew through, putty in the ears.
Go until he can't anymore. Cycle it back out. Be ready.--
OR: Buck's had on-again, off-again bulimia since he was 14.
--
Updates on Wednesdays. Title from Psychic Friend's "We Do Not Belong".
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 325,487
- Chapters:
- 32/40
- Comments:
- 1,261
- Kudos:
- 861
- Bookmarks:
- 227
- Hits:
- 40,708
Bookmarked by letsgobuck
22 Apr 2025
-
Tags
Summary
“Are you sure? You barely even know me and you’ve been so kind.” Jeno’s voice is shaky as he says it and it’s taking him everything not to fall onto the floor in tears, “I don’t deserve this.”
“Jeno, you deserve so much more than what the world has put you through,” Jaemin says gently as he looks into Jeno’s watery eyes with kindness, Jeno thinks he looks like an angel. “Let me take care of you now. I think you deserve it.”
or; jeno finds a home in jaemin
Bookmarked by letsgobuck
18 Jun 2024
-
This Is Now by colormesherlocked
Fandoms: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia
12 Jun 2020
Tags
Summary
Todoroki Shoto will be a hero.
...But not just yet. Right now, Todoroki Shoto is a bitter, pessimistic, hurt teenager who doesn't want help, friends or hinderances of any kind getting in the way of his misguided goals.
Thankfully, there will soon be people in his life who will be more than happy to drag him into a place of happiness, safety, and acceptance - kicking and screaming the whole way, if they have to. All he has to do is survive his first meeting with them and all the incredible changes that will come after.
This is Todoroki Shoto's Hero Academia.
(Semi-canon compliant up to a point and told from Todoroki Shoto's POV.)
Series
- Part 2 of Catching Icarus
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 193,936
- Chapters:
- 33/33
- Collections:
- 9
- Comments:
- 1,380
- Kudos:
- 2,388
- Bookmarks:
- 504
- Hits:
- 84,645
Bookmarked by letsgobuck
04 Dec 2022