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tutter from Bear in a Big Blue House wearing sunglasses on the beach



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  1. Public Bookmark 63

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    It goes like this: Sophomore Year rolls around, and Kristen is doing great. She's got a great girlfriend, a new god, a new house, and an awesome party. There are a few faults in this happiness, like how she can't seem to balance any of the things in her life that aren't world-endingly cataclysmic, or how she always feels like she's failing everyone, or how even with a new god, her questions are driving her to aimlessness. But that's fine! All she has to do is hold faith that everything will work out. She's totally got this.

    It goes like this: Sophomore Year rolls around, and Riz is happier than ever. He's handling his magic, he's maintaining friends that aren't his babysitter for the first time in living memory, and school is a lot more fun when you aren't trying to find your missing friend or stop an evil dragon from conquering the world. There are a few snags in the glow of satisfaction, like how he has never had this many friends before, and isn't totally sure he's doing it right, or that he can't manage to figure out what the appeal of sex is, or that he still doesn't know who his dad is. But that's fine! All he has to do is keep ignoring all the things he doesn't want to think about. He's totally got this.

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    24 May 2025

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    Kalina was tired of being a shadow. Operation after operation failed because she couldn't get involved directly. She had eyes and ears.

    What she needed were hands.

    And there was a particular pair of hands she had in mind. A child's pair of green hands, already dexterous despite his young age. Those hands were adept at teasing blocks from behind couch cushions and scrawling the correct answers on every assignment, but they grasp at other hands far too often.

    He'd require testing. Refinement. But she'd spent so long as just whispers in ears, she could sink a few years into training her hands. She'd hedged enough bets. It was time for an investment.

    A Kalina kidnaps/trains Riz AU. Ft. newsies, conspiracies, violence, ACAB, manipulation, grief, and a metric ton of crime.

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    23 May 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 57

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    "I'm not - sir - I'm happy having him here." Moxxie raised his hands in surrender. Blitzø's spines deflated in relief. Okay. He wouldn't yet have to put words to the softness inside him that compelled him to take care of the owl. Unfortunately, Moxxie continued speaking.

    "However," the imp said, wringing his hands before catching himself and thrusting them behind his back, "have you considered that... perhaps... Stolas might be a danger to himself?"

    OR: a story told in five injuries.

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    08 May 2025

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    stolas self harms while blitz self reflects

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    Sometimes Blitzø played roulette. He’d go out to the bar without cash and see if he could steal 10 drinks before he got the shit kicked out of him. Or he’d spin the wheel on the night’s hookup and whether they’d be able to keep his mind from wandering.

    And then there were times like tonight.

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    08 May 2025

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    blitz attempts suicide

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    Lucifer heard about the trial hours after the court adjourned, but he couldn’t help but feel like he had seriously messed up. He still wasn’t ready to face the Sins, but that heartbreaking, “What about my daughter?” hit way too close to home.

    Or, post-S2: Episode 11 (Mastermind) but with Lucifer’s reaction.

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    11 Apr 2025

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    the one with satan