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Sasha Braus POV
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I would like to clear something up. Look, I am not, in any way, depressed about my mom. It happened, and I have accepted it. However, I still get sad around the time of her passing because, well, she was my mom. I don’t wear a permanent happy mask to hide some deeper emotions or whatever. I just got a little sad. So, let’s get back to the happy!
Well, happy is a rough term. I am happy don’t get me wrong! Maybe just a little bit Connie confused. Con-fused. I really like him. A lot. Too much actually and it’s not healthy! I just didn’t know what to do! There was no way he liked me! I sat in my bed the day after the emotional roadshow had gone down and thought to myself I’m weird and loud, and now he probably thinks I am emotionally unstable! dammit! Why can’t I just have a best friend who is a guy? Is that too much to ask? Apparently, because I guess acquiring feelings is mandatory now!
Anyway, I was laying up in my bed putting my pants back on to take a shower when my phone started ringing. I quickly picked it off of my bed so the vibrating sound wouldn’t wake up Connie. When I looked at who it was, I was very confused. Jean? What? was all I could think before I jumped out of bed and went into Jean and Marco’s empty room. I closed the door and answered the phone.
“Hello? Jean?” I asked into the phone.
“Sasha?” Jean said in a soft voice. 'What the hell is wrong with him?' “Hey, do you have time to talk? maybe? I mean if not that's fine but I-”
“Jean” I interrupted him, now sitting on Marco’s bed “What’s up? are you okay?”
Jean sighed “No Sasha. I’m not okay. I like Marco okay? I was staring at his ass that one day. I thought he looked incredible! But now all of my chances are out of the window because he thinks he has to settle for Armin. And I know that sounds like a selfish thought, but he told me himself that Armin was the only other gay person so ‘why not?’ Sasha, I should’ve called you earlier. I’ve had feelings for Marco this entire time, but I’ve been too scared to do anything about it. I’ve been too afraid to accept it even! Until I realized that it has been about three weeks, and I’m still upset, he asked out Armin.”
I was shocked. I wasn’t expecting a full confession from Jean. “Jean.” I started “I’m really sorry I meddled into your’s and Marco’s business. It was wrong, and I shouldn’t have done it. I’m glad you came to me for help. I’m sorry to say that if Marco is invested in Armin, then he won’t do anything to show feelings to you. Especially if he thinks you’re straight.”
“Sasha that’s not important I don’t care that you meddled. Hell, I didn’t even know that is what you were doing.” Jean paused and let out a long sigh “I have to tell him, don’t I?”
“If you really like him that much, yes. He has a right to know. If nothing less tell him about your sexuality. If he knows and he likes you back, that might help.”
“But…” Jean started “I’m not even sure of my sexuality.”
“You like Marco right?”
“Yes”
“How much?”
“Enough for me to call someone and tell them about it. Enough for me to lay awake at night and think about him since we have been separated. Enough for me to rather have sex with him in his male form instead of when he was dressed as a female…” Jean trailed off, and I think he realized what he just said “Oh my god! I’m sorry! You didn’t need to know that!”
I laughed a little bit “Just tell Marco that you are capable of falling for guys, and you didn’t want to scare him when you first met. If he thinks you only go for girls, he won’t date you. If he asks how you found that out about yourself, he needs to know the truth about your feelings for him. He deserves the truth” I finished, choking out those last words like they didn’t apply to me.
“Okay,” Jean said as I heard him take a deep breath “I can do that. He’s one of my best friends. I can tell him anything. Thank you, Sasha. I’m sorry I called so early.”
“Don’t worry about it!” I said cheerfully because Marco and Jean still had a chance “I was just about to walk into town to get stuff for Connie’s Christmas present before he wakes up. Also, I’m always here to talk. If it helps, I don’t think Armin has made a decision yet.”
“No, he hasn’t. Marco told me yesterday. And I forgot that Connie was staying with you over break. How is that going?” He asked, like a dad would ask might I add.
“Oh it’s going well, we haven’t fallen or tripped much, so that’s good” I chuckled “We’ve just been hanging out.”
“That’s good. You guys have a Merry Christmas. No funny business now!” Jean laughed slightly.
“Okay, Dad!” I said sarcastically “I only wish you could see me rolling my eyes right now.”
“Whatever Sasha. Thanks again.”
“Anytime Jean. Merry Christmas!” And then we hung up the phone, and I walked back into my room.
Poor Jean, he was madly in love with his best friend and roommate and doesn’t feel like he can do anything about it. If he just told Marco, I’m sure something might happen. I ignored my own advice as I started getting ready to head into town. I needed to get the supplies to make Connie’s present. I know exactly what to get him! He will love it!
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“Saaasha! Wake up! It’s Christmas!” I heard Connie say as I slowly started to wake up.
“What time is it?” I asked pulling the blanket over my head.
“It’s time for Santa!” Connie said excitedly and I laughed at him.
“Fiiine!” I groaned, waking up “But you need to walk over there so I can put my pants on.” I chuckled.
Connie rolled his eyes and walked over to the other side of the room. “Whatever Sasha” he laughed.
“What’s that supposed to mean?” I smiled pulling on my pants and then throwing myself entirely under my covers to put on my bra. Connie still doesn’t know about my bra does he?
“You act like I haven’t seen you without pants before!” He laughed, looking at the wall opposite of me.
“But I wasn’t conscious for that!”
“I’m not talking about the shower Sasha.” Connie said trying now not to be weird. We never really talked about what happened with that. I just said it was okay because I didn’t want Connie to feel bad. I mean I’m glad it was him and not like Jean or Ymir or even Christa, Armin, Eren, or Marco. Okay so that doesn’t leave anybody left, but it was still really embarrassing for me! Connie saw me naked! Like, all of me!
I then thought about what Connie was actually talking about. He helped me put my pants on when I fell. His hands were near my butt that night. “Oh yeah,” I said trying not to stay silent for too long “Damn Connie you have seen me in some pretty vulnerable situations.” I laughed popping my head out from the blankets after I was done putting my bra and pants on. “I’m done you can turn around now.”
Connie turned around, and his face was fighting back red. “I didn’t mean to Sash. I just-”
“Connie, like I said you did what you had to do.” I smiled “Gave you and excuse to touch my butt and see me naked though” I laughed.
This statement made Connie unable to hide his red face “It’s not like it was my fault Sash” He smiled trying to make the situation more comfortable for him.
“I didn’t mean to fall! twice.” I chuckled getting out of bed.
“So let’s just say I accidentally saw you naked and accidentally touched your butt.” Connie laughed.
“Fine,” I smirked “but you still have to make it up to me!”
“I can promise you Sash; you don’t want to see me that way!” He laughed still red “Maybe my present for you will make up for it!”
“I don’t know if I even want to see you that way!” I laughed sitting down next to the tree and wrapped presents. That wasn’t completely a lie. I don’t think I am ready to see Connie in that way. At least not right now. Probably. “Come Connie! Open your gifts!”
“I’m coming!” he laughed and sat down next to me “But you have to open your’s first!”
“No way! I want to see your face!”
“Sasha please?”
“Nope, you first!”
“Ugh fine! But that just means you have to wait longer. You are only hurting yourself!” he laughed and started opening his gift.
I made Connie a thick quilt with squares on it that had things we like to do sewn on them. One had a spider, one had a Gamecube, one had some pasta. There were much more of our humorous antics, but my favorite square was in the middle, and it read ‘Roommates Against Humanity' because that’s where our friendship began.
“Sasha,” Connie started looking at all the quilting “You made this? It’s beautiful! Oh my god Sash I love this! It’s us and It’s perfect!”
“I’m glad you like it” I smiled trying not to blush “Look at the tag.” I said and pointed to a tag that I had pinned on the blanket.
Connie looked at the card and started to read aloud “To Connie, this blanket allows you the proper warmth to finally join the ‘no-pants-club’ when you sleep. Also, this coupon allows you one meal of your choice to be made by me!” Connie laughed and looked at me “Oh my god Sash, this is beautiful and the best present I have ever gotten! But I’m still going to keep my pants on.”
“It’s nothing, really” I smiled “but that does defeat the purpose of the quilt!”
“It’s perfect. thank you.” Connie smiled warmly “now, it’s your turn!” He finished as he pushed a box towards me “I’m not as crafty as you are, but I hope you like these.”
I unwrapped the box and opened it up. The first thing I pulled out was a brand new whisk. The box was just full of cooking utensils. Really nice ones too! “Oh my god Connie, this is just what I needed! You didn’t have to… really.” I smiled and was speechless.
“Look on the handles” Connie said with a large grin.
I was not disappointed when I did because each handle had something relating to us. just like the quilt I made for Connie. There was a spider, a kart, a GameCube, food, and a deck of cards. “Connie, this is amazing. thank you so much!”
“I noticed your cutting tools were a little hard to use, and I bet you could cook faster with newer ones.” he smiled “Merry Christmas, Sash.”
I smiled back and leaned over to give him a hug “Merry Christmas Connie.”
Just then there was a knock on the door. Dammit, I thought. Connie was so warm and hugging him made my stomach tighten and my heart race. Pulling away so he could answer the door made me sad because I didn’t want to let go.
Connie opened the door, and Armin was standing there with a large box.
“Hey, guys! Merry Christmas!” Armin said “Connie, your parents sent this to you for Christmas. They saw me tagged in a photo Sasha tagged of all of us on Facebook and had it sent to me awhile ago because they didn’t trust you to wait until Christmas, and from what you have told them about Sasha, they didn’t trust her either, but in the most loving way possible!” Armin smiled handing Connie the box
Connie talks about me with his parents? I mean I shouldn’t be too surprised, but still, He must have talked enough about me for them to know that I would have totally opened the box!
Connie laughed when Armin finished “Merry Christmas to you too Armin, thank you!”
“No problem Connie! You guys have fun! Mikasa, Eren, and I are going to look at lights tonight so we will see you later. Merry Christmas, Sasha!” Armin smiled.
“Thank you, Armin! Tell everyone we said Merry Christmas!” I said not realizing that it might be weird to wish everyone a Merry Christmas for Connie.
And with that, Armin smiled at us warmly and closed the door. Strange, he's a lot more cheerful than he has been. We hadn’t seen much of Armin, Eren, and Mikasa during the break because they were always out doing something, but when we were together, Armin was never this happy. Maybe it's just the holiday spirit getting to him.
“Man, my parents are nosey. I can’t believe they went through my Facebook to find my friends and send this to them!” He laughed and then noticed something when he looked at the giant box he was holding. “Hey Sash, your name is on here too.” He smiled
“What? My name? But I haven’t met your parents” I said surprised. They barely knew me. I mean I said hi to them on the phone when they called for Connie, but that's about it.
“Yeah, but they think you’re nice, and this is probably a thank you for putting up with me and letting me stay.” He said shrugging it off. Is he trying to distract me from the fact that he obviously talks about me in front of his parents or…
“Aww, that’s sweet!” I said as I watched Connie grab a pair of scissors and open the box.
When he opened it his eyes went wide, and he looked up and me in surprise “Oh my god Sash! Look at this!”
I crawled over to where Connie was on the floor and looked inside of the box and couldn’t believe what I was seeing. Inside the box was a Wii U, Mario Kart 8, Super Smash Bros., an extra Wii controller and nunchuck, and two nerf guns. There was a note on top of all the stuff that read “Connie, I hope you and Sasha have fun with these things. Love mom and dad. P.S. not too much fun ;) love your big Sis!”
Connie quickly tried to grab the note out of sight before I could finish reading it. That was odd maybe, just maybe, he likes me too and talks about me with his older sister? I mean she calls frequently. No probably not.
“Oh my god Connie this is amazing! They didn’t have to do this!”
“Oh trust me Sash, they had to” he laughed “but I know exactly what we are doing today! after we cook Christmas dinner and stuff.” Connie said smiling at me.
“Yes! I get to use my new utensils!” I said a little too excited.
Connie just laughed at me “You’re kind of a dork Sash.”
I opened my mouth jokingly offended “Wow Connie tell me how you really feel” I smiled and then grabbed one of the nerf guns and pointed it at him “But seriously, tell me how you really feel” I smirked.
Connie’s eyes widened as he put up his hands “Come on now Sasha, don’t make any rash decisions now.”
I cocked the nerf gun back, took aim, and fired. The dart hit Connie right in the chest “Oof! I’ve been hit! Goodbye, cruel world! Tell my mother I love her!” He acted overdramatically, falling on the floor.
“No one gets away when Sheriff Sasha is in town!” I smiled in a fake country accent.
“I rest my case!” Connie said laughing “you are a dork!”
“I may be a dork but remember Connie; It’s your fault you know me.” I smirked.
“Oh no Sash, it was my plan all along to fuck up the random roommate request and get you as a roommate. Specifically you. I stalked you before coming to this school.” He joked.
“So you have wanted me all along have you, Mr. Springer?” I joked and laughed while also trying not to blush at what I just said! 'Way to make it weird Sasha!'
“Oh, you know it Ms. Braus!” Connie teased and winked at me jokingly.
Connie and I spent the rest of the day cooking a nice Christmas meal, playing on the new Wii U, and having a full out nerf war! We moved our mattresses and everything to create a respective war zone! When we decided, we were too full and tired to move our beds back to their original spots we moved to the center of the floor with our blankets to fall asleep there.
“Connie,” I said about to fall asleep
“Yeah, Sash?”
“This has been the best Christmas ever.”
“I’m glad you had fun Sash.” Connie smiled.
“You’re the best,” I said as I drifted off to sleep.
I think I heard Connie say something after that, but I don’t know what it was. I had a dream though that he said “No I’m nothing compared to you.” but that was just a dream. It had to be right?
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“Connie!” I said waking him up. “It’s New Year’s Eve! We get to see our friends today!”
“Fuck yea!” Connie said lightly punching the air “Can I go back to sleep now?” He said rolling over.
“Connie” I laughed “It’s noon thirty! Get your lazy ass up! We have the stuff to do!”
Connie peaked his eyes from under the covers looking at me “Noon thirty?” he chuckled.
“Yes! Noon-thirty! Now come on we have shopping to do! I already cleaned the room and got ready!”
“Sasha why?” Connie laughed.
“Because” I smiled “Now get out of bed!” I said ripping the covers off of him.
“Augh! Sasha, it’s cold! Give me my warm quilt back! No take-backsies!” Connie said curling up into a ball to stay warm.
“Nope, now, take your constricting pajama pants off and change into actual clothes!” I demanded with a chuckle.
“Jeeze Sash quit trying to get me out of my clothes,” Connie joked “it’s very unnerving, I may be too uncomfortable to continue living here.”
“Cooonnniiieeee” I whined while laughing.
“Fine, I’m getting up!” Connie groaned.
Connie finally got up, and we left and headed into town to get snacks and party hats. There were many crazy party hats, but we chose the classic party hat cones. Next we went to the grocery store and picked up as much junk food and soda as possible. I didn’t feel like cooking that night, so snacks and pizza were a need!
After goofing off in the grocery store and the party store we finally found the right mixture of soda, snacks, and party hats! Connie drove us back to the dorms, we grabbed our stuff, walked up to the door, and stared at each other.
“Are you going to open the door?” Connie laughed at me.
I didn’t laugh in return. Instead, my eyes went wide “You didn’t bring your keys?”
Connie’s eyes changed in return to my response and looked more concerned “No I thought you had the keys! I only brought my wallet!”
“Oh my god Connie I only grabbed my wallet too!” We both just stared at each other. It was 10 degrees out. Cold as fuck! And we were stuck outside in the freezing cold.
“I can’t believe we have to wait for Jean and Marco to get back before we can get inside.” Connie chuckled and slumped to the ground in front of our dorm.
I sat down next to Connie hugging my legs to keep warm “I would say we could call Erwin or Levi, but one of us has to hide.” Levi and Erwin were our RA’s. They didn’t come around too often, but when they did one of us had to hide, so they don’t see our situation. They totally know about us as roommates, but their policy is “If we don’t hear it, see it, or smell it, we can’t prove it happened."
“No, remember the last time we tried to call? The two were too busy doing it to answer the phone or even the door for that matter.” Connie chuckled shaking his head.
“Oh god, I forgot about that!” I laughed and then sighed “I guess this is our life now Connie, we will live outside forever. Be one with the parking lot, go and live in the woods!”
“We will survive like people once did! We shall create fire!” Connie said triumphantly.
“Connie do you know how to make fire?”
“Not a clue Sash”
“Yup, we are going to die.”
After about 2 hours of waiting in the cold Connie and I finally saw salvation heading towards us. A miracle in a car with a stupid two-toned haircut and a freckled savior in the passengers seat.
At this point, Connie and I were huddled up together trying to keep warm, and I was attempting to keep my heartbeat down. Jean pulled up into his usual parking space, and he and Marco stared at us. Jean had picked Marco up from the airport before heading back to the dorms. Marco was laughing and Jean was shaking his head. I wonder if he was over the whole ‘No Connie you can’t date Sasha!’ thing because I hope so.
“Hey, g-guys! H-how was the break?” My teeth chattered.
“Why the fuck are you guys outside?” Jean asked looking down at us.
“W-we got locked out.” Connie said putting his head down in shame.
Marco and Jean immediately started laughing at us “It’s n-not f-funny guys!” I said to them holding back a laugh “I-it’s so cold.”
“How long have you two been sitting out here?” Marco smiled.
“Two hours?” Connie said.
“Connie, why didn’t you guys wait in your car?” Jean questioned looking at us like a concerned father. Nope, I guess he still doesn’t want us to date.
It took me a while to register what Jean asked and when I did my eyes went wide, and my jaw dropped “Oh my god Connie we could have been waiting in your car this whole time!” I said dumbfounded we didn’t think about it.
When I looked at Connie, his face was in his hands and he was shaking his head “Oh my god why didn’t I think of that!?”
“Well, you guys didn’t change” Jean snorted.
“Please let us in” I pleaded with Jean and Marco.
“Oh my god guys come on.” Marco laughed and finally opened their door.
Connie and I dove inside to the warm room and laid on Marco’s and Jean’s floor curled up in little balls and setting our bags of snacks and hats aside. “Never again will I be in such cold!” I said overdramatically and then looked up at Marco “Marco, why do you only have a sweatshirt on? It’s so cold!”
Marco shrugged “I don’t usually get that cold.”
I finally stood up and gave Marco a hug “I forgot to say that I missed you guys” I laughed and then made the realization that Marco was warm! “Oh my god Marco, you are so warm!”
“Sasha, I need to move my arms.” Marco laughed.
“No, you will never move your arms again.” I chuckled and glanced at Connie, who chuckled and then smirked at Jean.
“You know Jean I’m still cold.”
“No.” was all Jean said.
“Aw come one Jean” Connie laughed “warm me with your French blood.” this caused Marco and me to laugh.
“Hell no!” Jean said throwing his duffle bag on his bed.
“Fine, I didn’t want you anyway,” Connie said rolling away from him.
“What are you talking about, everybody wants me” Jean smirked.
“Nope, you’re probably not warm anyway,” Connie said curling up.
“What? I’m totally warm!” Jean said.
“I don’t believe you. Your heart seems to be made of ice.” Connie joked.
“Fine! I’ll show you I’m irresistibly warm-hearted!” Jean said going over to where Connie was and hugging him for warmth.
Marco and I just looked at each other in shock at how Connie’s stupid reverse psychology trick just worked. “Hey Jean, No homo though right?” Connie laughed after a few moments of silence.
Jean’s eyes went wide as he realized he had just been tricked, and he let Connie go “Aw man fuck you, Connie!” He laughed at his stupidity.
“Love you too bro.” Connie smiled.
After Connie and I had warmed up a bit to where we could move our limbs without fearing they would shatter, we gathered all out stuff for the party and headed back into our room. Everyone was supposed to be there around eight so we had a lot of time to get ready.
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Around 7:50 Marco and Jean opened the door “Hey guys! Happy New Year’s Eve!” Marco smiled.
“Hey, Marco! Sup’ cuddle buddy?” Connie winked at Jean
“Oh my god Connie, you suck.” Was the best response that Jean could mutter.
“Very smooth Jean, the best comeback of the century,” I said sarcastically. Jean rolled his eyes at me, and he and Marco stepped inside just as there was a slight knock on the door followed by a very aggressive knock.
“I’ll get it!” I sang as I jumped over to the door and opened it “Ymir! Christa! Hi!” I said as I gave them a hug. I was really excited to see them, there was one couple that I still had faith in!
“Sasha!” Christa said excitedly.
“Heeeey Sasha” Ymir laughed not expecting my hug. I forgot how scary Ymir actually could be but oh well, she was getting a hug!
"It's so sweet to see you again! How was your break!?" I practically squealed in excitement.
“Pretty cool!” Ymir smirked, “Christa is now an honorary family member!”
“Her family sure is something.” Christa laughed. I chuckled and invited them in with a lot of excitement because I was very excited! I hadn’t seen them for six weeks! Everyone greeted them and we all kind of stood around and talked, well, more like joked around. Connie and I were being teased for getting locked out, Jean was being teased for cuddling Connie, and Connie and I calculated that we had gone about three weeks without a falling accident. This was probably a new record for us; I didn’t know how much longer we could keep it up. Ymir then continued to scare all of us by saying she had a surprise. I was afraid myself to be honest.
After a few more minutes of catching up, Armin and Eren knocked on the door. When I opened it everyone inside said “Heeeey!” at scattered times.
Armin was walking in and went right to Marco and Christa to give them hugs and say how much he missed them all. Eren went to Jean, Ymir, and Connie to tease them some more and continue being obnoxious.
So, the music was playing! Everyone was laughing, and we were all just saying how much we missed one another when Ymir scared us all. Out of nowhere, she pulled out a retractable stick, extended it over Armin and Eren, and revealed the mistletoe at the end of it.
“For this party I am the Mistletoe Queen, and I say you must kiss.” Ymir said smugly. I don’t know about anyone else there, but I was so uncomfortable with what was happening. I thought Armin was talking to Marco still!? And then I thought about how terrible I felt for Eren in this situation, but then it happened.
“Should we tell them?” Armin smiled at Eren.
“Well, they were going to find out eventually” Eren smiled while rubbing the back of his neck. And then Eren put his hands on the back of Armin’s neck and leaned into him for a kiss. Not a friendly kiss! An actual ‘we are dating’ kiss! WHAT!? I was so confused.
“Wait what?” Jean said confused, and I’m glad he said it because I was frozen in shock and happiness! I looked at Connie and he was just as shocked as I was!
“Woah.” Ymir said, “Didn’t see that coming!”
“When did you? I mean when did this happen?” Connie finally asked.
“About two weeks after Thanksgiving.” Armin smiled.
“We were with you the whole time, and we didn’t notice!?” I asked completely shocked!
“Sorry Sasha, we thought you knew” Eren shrugged.
“I thought Armin was into Marco!” Connie said completely confused. Also, the look on Connie’s face was weird. He was shocked, but also relieved in a way like he could relax now. I mean I want those two to get together too! That’s probably why he is relieved! After Connie had said that, there was a faint laughter from Marco, and we all slowly turned to him to stare. “Marco, did you know?” Connie continued.
“Is it safe to tell them Armin?” Marco smiled looking towards Armin.
“Yea we should tell them.” Armin smirked and looked at all of us “So, this is really what happened with Marco and I. I had a massive crush on Eren, but he would never do anything about it or totally avoid the topic when I wanted to talk about it. Marco and I came up with this plan to make Eren confess his feelings for me by making him completely jealous and seem like he was going to lose me. It’s safe to say, it worked!” Armin smiled innocently.
I was stunned. “Oh my god you two planned this!?” was all I could manage to blurt out.
“Awww what?” Eren said which made us all laugh “I was tricked into my feelings?”
“Eren we had to! enough was enough!” Marco smiled. Throughout all of this, I made an effort to look at Jean. He was confused, angry, and relieved all at the same time. The look on his face, however, looked pained. “Why didn’t you tell me Marco?” he asked trying not to sound upset.
“Sorry Jean, we had to keep it a secret. otherwise it wouldn’t have worked.” Marco said seeing that he had hurt Jean.
“I can’t believe you guys!” Connie said still in shock.
“Your plan was so solid and fluent! You pulled it off so well! I’m kind of scared.” I said with a laugh trying to lighten the mood. I can’t believe this was happening. Eren and Armin were finally together! Christa and Ymir are still a mystery, but with this, Marco and Jean still have a chance!
“Marco why didn’t you just tell me!?” Jean asked trying not to be overly aggressive.
“Jean, we both know why I couldn’t tell you, you aren’t good at secrets.” Marco chuckled, but there was also something in him that felt sorry for keeping such a secret from Jean. God I just wish those two would confess to each other already! But I know I can’t force it to happen because I have sworn off meddling! Maybe I could… No Sasha don’t...but…
“What are you talking about? I am great at secrets!” Jean said defensively.
“Jean…” Marco said giving him the mama Marco face.
I wanted to say ‘Marco he’s better at secrets than you think!’ or ‘Oh Marco, little do you know.’ but I think if I said anything close to that Jean would have killed me right there.
“Okay, I get your point, Marco.” Jean said accepting his fate “but who would I have told?”
Marco tried not to make it too obvious, but he looked in mine and Connie’s direction! “Hey!” I laughed “I can keep secrets!”
“That’s not why we didn’t tell you Sasha” Armin interjected smiling “I mean come on, you and I both know that you almost had me fooled when we talked about traveling, but you slipped. It was too risky. You and Connie are too obvious in your attempts.”
“What attempts?” Connie said smiling “Sasha did we attempt anything?”
“No, I didn’t attempt anything I don’t know what you are talking about Armin” I smirked.
“Sure Sasha” Armin laughed “Whatever you say, but if you had attempted anything, that is why you guys were not included in this plan.”
“Armin you tricked me?” Eren asked because he was, as always, slow to understanding situations that happen fast.
“Yea, are you upset that we got together this way?” Armin looked at Eren and smiled.
“N-no,” Eren said trying to hide a blush which was weird because since when was Armin so confident that he made Eren blush? It was so cute! But so strange. I am happy for them, I truly am, and I appreciate that Armin and Marco performed and tricked us so well.
“Well, congratulations guys!” I smiled at Armin and Eren “I’m glad you two are happy and pleasantly surprised to be on the outside of a scheme for once!” I chuckled.
“Ymir, are you going to be the mistletoe queen all night?” Connie asked.
“Yup,” Ymir smirked popping the ‘p’ sound “Who will I choose to kiss? You probably all know already.” She laughed evilly and paused “but maybe not.”
The rest of us looked completely horrified. Jean was scared because how would Marco react? I was afraid because how would Connie react? There was a deep sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach and no; it wasn’t because I was hungry!
“Ymir why?” Jean said with a scowl.
“Careful Jean, or I’ll make you kiss Connie.” Ymir smiled
“Hey, why am I getting punished?” Connie laughed trying to lighten the mood.
“You only get punished if Jean is a grumpy horse.” Ymir laughed “Don’t worry Connie, even if Jean is bad and you are good tonight I’ll hook you up.”
“Why is this happening?” Jean laughed shaking his head. It was very obvious that Ymir’s mistletoe queen position made us all nervous, but we all did our best to hide it with laughter which was mine and Connie’s specialty!
The night went on like usual, fun, laughs, Cards Against Humanity, added excitement hearing about everyone’s break and finally being back together, and added stress knowing Ymir was running around with the power of kissing. We were so distracted by each other’s company that we didn’t notice that it was almost midnight until Ymir yelled “Everyone! 10!...9!...8!...”
oh, shit was all that went through my head where do I go at midnight?
“7!... 6!...” everyone was chanting now.
I can’t kiss him,
“5!...4!...”
But I want my first moments of the new year to be with him.
“3!...2!...”
shit SHIT!
“1! HAPPY NEW YEAR!” We all shouted as I frantically looked for Connie.
I’m going to do it! Who would care? I could say it was a friendly thing! I- Just then my thoughts were interrupted by arms wrapping around me as Connie pulled me into….
A hug. He pulled me into a hug. I guess that was a friendly gesture too. “Happy New Year Sash.” Connie said pulling away way too quickly.
“Happy New Year Connie.” I smiled and then turned to give the others a hug. Eren and Armin had finished up their New Year’s kiss just in time to see Marco and Jean blushing like idiots as Ymir extended the mistletoe stick over them.
“The Mistletoe Queen has spoken!” Ymir cackled evilly.
“Oh, come on Ymir you weren’t serious were you?” Marco said nervously.
“Sorry Marco, you have two forces working against you, the power of the Mistletoe and the power of the New Year’s kiss! You have to do it.” Ymir smirked knowing that she had the two trapped. I was just as excited as Ymir was, but I didn’t show it for Jean and Marco’s sake.
“Jean… we don’t have to-” Marco was interrupted by a quick peck on the lips from Jean.
“There! Happy Ymir? Sorry Marco.” Jean said quickly trying to dissolve what happened. He was completely red and so was Marco as he stood there with his eyes wide!
“It’s okay Jean.” Marco squeaked as his voice cracked. He was so embarrassed! Marco was blushing because he did like Jean! And Jean was blushing because he liked Marco! This was the most frustrating thing to watch! Knowing two people are into each other and watching them fumble around like idiots for a very long time! I had to keep telling myself not to meddle anymore, but that was going to be a challenge because how do you just let two people believe that they will never be together when they are both in love with the other?
“Damn Jean.” You really went for it there didn’t you?” Ymir laughed.
“What do you mean I really went for it? That’s what I was supposed to do right?” Jean defended himself.
Ymir snorted “whatever you want Jean” she ended with a smirk and then looked in mine, Connie’s, and Christa’s direction “four victims have been chosen. Four people remain. Now it’s obvious I’m not going to mistletoe myself, and we all know how I feel about christa.”
“Ymir!” Christa said in shock while her cheeks turned red.
“So,” Ymir continued smiling ignoring Christa’s interjection “Whoever may be left better watch out.” Ymir smirked directly at Connie and me, and I immediately tensed up. What am I going to do? Maybe this would be a good thing… yes! It would totally be a good thing! When we are forced to kiss, I will ask him about it later. How he felt. If he liked it…
Being as forcefully cheerful as Connie and I are, we both laughed at Ymir’s warning “We can’t be caught if we aren’t standing next to each other!” Connie smiled as he walked in between Jean and Marco.
ouch
“Fine,” Ymir laughed “I guess a few people will have to go twice!”
“Nope!” Jean pushed Connie away sending him flying back over near me. Ymir didn’t waste any time to raise her damn mistletoe stick above our heads.
“Ah, Connie, so young, so unknowing.” Ymir laughed “The mistletoe queen has spoken!”
“Nice one Connie!” I laughed trying to hide the fact that I was dying on the inside with anticipation. Our first kiss and we weren’t even together! Is this weird? Am I supposed to be excited, scared, or both?
Connie didn’t say anything for a few moments, and I started to worry until he smiled at Ymir “Fine, challenge accepted!” He then looked at me with the smile that usually indicated that one of us had an idea. However, for the first time, I had no idea what he was thinking “Ready Sash?” before I could even say anything Connie spun me into a dip holding me up with his surprising strength that did not match his body type. My eyes met his, and both sets were wide open staring at each other. Is that a blush? No, it couldn’t be.
It all happened so fast, one moment we are staring at each other and the next moment Connie slapped his hand over my mouth and kissed his hand. That was the only thing blocking our lips.
Our audience was not pleased. “Booo!” Ymir shouted, “That’s not the point of the Mistletoe stick!”
Connie finally let go and brought me back upright on my feet, almost dropping me might I add! “I don’t know what you’re talking about Ymir?” Connie laughed “We totally kissed.”
Being that hap-hap-happiest person I know I laughed and joined in Connie’s joking even though it slightly murdered me on the inside “Yea Ymir, you should get your eyes checked.” I laughed.
I finally looked around the room to see everyone’s reactions. Can someone tell me why everyone, with the exception of Jean, look how I feel on the inside? Why do they look disappointed!? “Someday you two” Ymir laughed. Ignoring her, Connie and I got the party going again. So, this marks the beginning of what I assumed to be a very awkward New Year. I should probably get over this crush on Connie; it’s not healthy.