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Levi couldn't stop the pit in his stomach from festering and taking root. He lay quietly on Eren's bed, trying to wrestle his emotions under control, but all he could think about was Mikasa's harsh words: that this would all be over soon, and Eren would leave him by the end of it. Levi replayed the scene over and over again, letting it wear down his psyche piece by piece. When did it all go bad? Was it from the very beginning?
He remembered being eaten alive by a sudden rut, his entire body succumbing to want, not an inch of his soul remaining once his dynamic was through with him. He'd torn his room to shreds, trying to hold himself back from whatever was calling him, or who was calling him. He could recall a heavenly scent, drifting beneath his door and meeting his nose, threatening to steal away every ounce of strength he had left. Levi had been pacing back and forth, and then suddenly, he was above Eren, his hands caressing the boy’s skin like it was fine silk.
Eren didn’t reject him, at least not immediately, but when he came to, his demeanor shifted, and it hurt. It hurt to see the look in his eyes, the way he pulled the sheets around him to try and hide. To protect himself.
“Levi…get out.” He’d said, face twisted in a grimace. One the alpha would not soon forget.
Levi felt himself lurch, bile rising in his throat and threatening to ruin the carpet. Why did he have to be so weak ? Despite Eren having moved past their first night together, Levi was stuck. How could he have allowed this to happen?
He knew what it was like to be hurt, to be reduced to just a body. Levi’s childhood home in the undercity wasn’t kind to its occupants. The destitute were often discarded by society, leaving them few opportunities other than peddling, and when there was nothing to sell, most would resort to using their bodies to make ends meet.
After his mother died and left him with nothing, he did what he’d seen before. A child his age always attracted the worst customers, leaving him covered in bruises and barely enough money to feed himself. Levi would try to shut it out, to close his eyes and pretend that life wasn’t pain and suffering, but the world would always find a way to creep back in again. He often felt like there was no escape before he joined the scouts, his every morning filled with sharp hunger pangs and every night under someone who stole the rest of his hope away.
Had Eren felt like he’d stolen him? Used his body and claimed him, like he was just a doll. Levi shuddered as he realized he had practically stolen the boy’s virginity. He gripped his arm, boring his fingernails into his flesh to try and quiet his internal strife.
I’ll only be a burden to him, Levi thought. He forced himself to calm down, taking deep breaths in through his nose and out through his mouth, his anxious pheromones settling back towards baseline. Despite the efforts to appear ‘normal’, Levi still reeked of emotional turmoil.
Eren retrieved a cold pack from the first aid station, filling it with ice for Levi. On his way, he stopped at the mess hall and picked up a loaf of bread for them to split for breakfast. He felt a storm of rotten emotions brewing in his stomach as he ran his errands, wondering if Levi had noticed them through their bond.
He knew he was working himself up, that Mikasa had always been the type of person who wouldn’t approve of his mate (if it wasn’t her), and it was hardly a secret. He’d just have to convince her to accept Levi, because there was no going back. He’d found his mate.
Eren had always looked up to Levi as his leader, his captain, and maybe even a father figure when he’d first joined the scouts. Eren’s opinion on the alpha hadn’t changed; in fact, it had become stronger. Levi was a respectable man and someone suitable for the young omega. He was kind, an amazing soldier, and satisfied the boy in ways he didn’t know were possible. Above all else, he felt safe with Levi. Eren stood at his door, a scent of distress wafting to his nose.
“Levi, I’m back.” He called. Levi was in his bed, staring absently out the window. He turned his head, the blooming bruises on his cheekbone and eye contrasting with his pale skin. He looked hollow, his anxious pheromones clouding over him like a thin mist. “Are you okay?”
“I’m fine,” Levi replied in his usual deadpan tone. Eren reached out, grazing his hand over Levi’s and squeezing.
“If you say so.” He held the cold compress up to Levi’s bruised face, his heart squeezing when the alpha flinched from the light touch. Mikasa had gotten him good, and the black eye would probably take weeks to heal.
“I’m sorry, again.”
“It’s okay, brat,” Levi said, grateful for the tender way Eren’s thumb rubbed over his knuckles, his soft smell that was equally anxious but soothing, ironing out the alpha’s pheromones. Eren climbed into bed, curling his body around Levi and crooning.
The alpha couldn’t think of a time were he’d been comforted like this. He’d always had to deal with the side effects of his rut alone, too afraid to entrust himself with another. His emotions would practically eat him alive in that state, reducing him to someone he didn’t recognize. He was so vulnerable when he was a pup. With no family or friends to count on, he had only himself, and it took a while to adapt.
Nothing could have prepared him for his presentation and his first rut. He had been at the market, trying to buy a ration of rice, when he felt an inkling that something was wrong. His skin was oddly sensitive, his clothes too tight and practically squeezing him. The air was hot and oppressive, and a pressure was building, bubbling to the surface. Levi forgone the rice, running back to his hovel, his instincts telling him to get somewhere safe, anywhere but among the public. He collapsed on the straw flooring as the burning began.
He spent days on the tatami mat alone, starving, but lucky. No one disturbed him or cared about the cries coming from his hovel. He was left untouched. Despite having gotten himself to safety, the ensuing rut crushed his spirits, chewing him up and spitting him back out, starving and desperate.
The second he recovered, he ventured out and bought suppressants with the money he’d been trying to save. It was worth every penny lost. He’d be able to retain his dignity now and put a seal on the unrelenting torture that was being an alpha.
Levi felt Eren moving beside him, peering up and gazing into his teary eyes with worry. When had he started crying?
“Please,” Eren’s eyebrows knitted up, and scent flared with worry. He pressed his forehead against the side of Levi’s face and wrapped his arms around the captain’s sturdy form. “Don't beat yourself up.”
“What if she’s right?” Levi murmured.
“Mikasa?” Eren scoffed.
“That you’ll come to your senses after your heat ends.”
“I already told you I forgive you-”
“You shouldn’t have to!” Levi cried, cringing at how loud he’d gotten without trying to. He had dredged up all the past regret and shame he’d stored within for, unraveling like a ball of twine.
“You shouldn’t have to forgive me; it shouldn’t have happened in the first place…” Levi sighed with frustration.
“Neither of us was in control, and I know you didn’t want to hurt me. I'm not an expert on dynamics and how this all works, but it’s not you’re fault. You were made to be with me, and there was nothing you could do when it happened.” Eren said.
“Well, you deserve better-”
“Don’t say that!” Eren grabbed Levi’s face, forcing him to make eye contact. “No more of that. You’re perfect.”
A small blush spread over the captain's cheeks, the dull pain in his chest lessening. Levi could smell the soothing pheromones leaking off of Eren like a steady drip, wrapping around him like a warm blanket.
“Please, believe me.” The omega begged. He pressed his forehead up against Levi’s, trying to will his emotions to transfer through this bond, trying to show him the truth. Eren summoned up his oldest memories of Captain Levi, how he’d saved his life multiple times on the battlefield, and consistently shown up for him, no matter the cost. To Eren, Levi was the same. His fondness for the man hadn’t been dampened. Levi could feel warmth sinking into him, softening his anxiety and caressing him with affection.
“I can feel you...doing that, whatever that is…Is this how you feel about me?” Levi asked.
“Mhmm.” Eren nodded. “You’re so precious to me, now come here.”
Eren coaxed Levi into lying down on the bed and curled up onto his chest with a soft hum. It didn’t take long before they both fell asleep again, already exhausted from the morning's events.
Eren awoke to the familiar warmth building in his core, simmering at a low level, although he was unsure how long that would last. Levi was on his side, facing him, fast asleep, the skin around his cheek and eye bruised heavily from Mikasa’s lethal punch, painted in shades of blue and purple after setting in for a few hours.
Eren gazed at him, his heart tinged with worry, wishing he didn’t have to rely so heavily on the alpha. He knew he had to be exhausted, and the thought of waking him up was unacceptable to Eren in that moment.
He wondered if he could keep himself comfortable long enough for Levi to wake up on his own accord. That was the least he could do that such a terrible morning, right?
The omega kissed his mate lightly on the forehead and decided a shower would be nice. He felt disgusting after falling asleep with cum up his ass, having forgotten to tend to himself after Mikasa barged in and assaulted his lover. Eren’s blood boiled at the bruises she left on Levi’s perfect skin, how she tried to place herself in the middle of them immediately, full to the brim with hostility. She was obviously not in her right mind. Mikasa could be abrasive and rough, but her demeanor was usually soft around the edges and sweeter. Nothing like the aggressive alpha who’d barged in through his door.
Drifting down the hall, Eren felt his legs turn to jelly after barely making it to the bathroom. The world tilted, like he was going to fall over the edge if he wasn’t careful. He slowed down, hobbling into the nearest shower stall and bending over to catch his breath.
“What..hah..the hell?” He could feel his heat rise in temperature, sapping the strength right out of him. It took forever to get out of his clothes, his body refusing to obey him. Finally, Eren turned the water on and got underneath. Despite the blazing heat inside him, the warm water felt fantastic and eased the stress from his muscles.
Eren slowly set about washing his hair, massaging his scalp with his fingernails and applying the nice-smelling soaps he’d bought with his stipend last month. The pressure in his core was beginning to be untameable, threatening to send the omega to his knees with each wave of agony that followed. Helpless groans tumbled out of his mouth, the pain like a sharp blade in his stomach and groin.
Is this what happens if I ignore my heat?
Slick was dripping freely down his thighs, and his cock was hard, weeping precum from the tip and begging to be touched. It was like his body was punishing him, demanding he return to Levi’s side and sit on his alpha cock where he belonged. Eren leaned against the shower wall, sliding down until his butt hit the tile floor, his legs too shaky to hold him up anymore as another wave crashed into him.
“Nnnhh! Ahh-” Eren cried, one hand on his stomach trying to relieve the pressure, another on his weeping cock.
“-god!”
A shiver raced up his spine, his breath coming out in pants as he tried desperately to tend to himself. He pumped his shaft up and down, his head lulling back into the wall, his eyes welling up with tears as the painful stabbing in his core continued. He reached his hand between his thighs, and stuffed 2 fingers inside, slick lubricating them instantly as he thrusted them in and out.
He sighed as the agony in his abdomen dulled, the volume turned down a good ten notches, even if it was still roaring in his ears. He pumped his digits into his pulsating warmth, adding a third and then fourth finger when it wasn’t enough.
“Levi…” Eren whimpered, wishing he had stayed in bed, where his alpha could have taken care of him. Instead, he was alone, writhing in the shower, with his fingers up his ass and strangling his cock. He imagined the alpha’s girth filling him up instead of his dainty digits, and whimpered at how overcome with desire he was.
Eren’s limbs were growing tired, and his head was foggy from exertion. When he could no longer keep up the rhythm to satisfy himself, the agony of his heat returned, and he felt himself growing delirious.
“Levi…Levi…” Eren murmured, calling out to his mate as he slumped against the shower wall, exhausted. He closed his eyes, hoping he would be able to recover his strength and drag himself back to his bedroom.
As the hot water ran out, Eren realized he had been in here for far too long. His legs still weren’t working, and he was starting to shiver as the temperature plummeted. His internal heat only did so much to keep him warm, and every time he tried to move to turn the water off, he felt himself sway like he was about to fall over.
How pathetic, Eren thought as his eyes fluttered closed and he felt the world shift on its axis. He managed to catch himself before he collided with the tile floor and blacked out.
He came to the sound of his name and water pitter-pattering around him. He saw the curtain being pulled aside, Levi standing above him with a pale expression.
“Jesus,” He wrenched the water off and enveloped Eren’s shaking body in a towel. “I was wondering where you went. How long have you been in here like this?”
Levi picked him up, cradling the shivering omega in his arms and rushing back to the dorms, leaving a trail of water in his wake.
“I’m s-sorry,” Eren said through chattering teeth.
“Shhh, it’s okay, you don't have to apologize,” Levi said, and laid the boy down on the bed as another wave of agony hit him, Eren’s eyes going wide and eyebrows knitting up.
“It hurts!” He wailed, clenching his teeth to stifle another cry as he held onto Levi, his knuckles turning white from how tightly he held onto the alpha’s shirt. “Please make it go away!”
“Hold on, it’s okay.” Levi soothed as he pulled his cock out, not bothering to strip. “I’ll make it better.”
Levi was already rock hard, his omega’s needy pheromones exciting him the instant he found him in the showers, lying in a heap on the floor. He reached back, tugging the blankets over them and lying his body down atop the freezing omega, warming him with his body heat.
“I’ll make it go away, sweetheart,” Levi whispered tenderly, sliding the tip of his cock into Eren’s wet pussy. It sucked him in until his pubic bone was against Eren’s, his entire length sheathed inside him.
“Oh god-” The omega cried in relief. He was finally allowing his body what it needed, and Levi was dutiful in his task, his hips moving with passion as he drained the agony out of Eren and replaced it with pleasure. Levi ran his hands up the lithing body, rubbing circles into the omega’s tender nipples as he tugged and teased the sensitive flesh.
“Let me take care of you, Eren.” Levi panted, gazing into his mate's teal eyes that were lined heavily with tears. He pulled the boy’s neck to the side and wrapped his lips around the pulsating scent gland and sucked. Eren cried out, leaving light scratches down the alpha’s back as he bit down hard.
“Ahh-ahhh, Levi! ” The omega whimpered, wrapping his legs around the alpha and pulling his cock deeper inside. “Don't stop!”
“I won't,” Levi promised, fucking the sloppy wet hole, each stroke pressing down on the tight bundle of nerves deep inside Eren. The alpha clutched the boy’s flushed face in his hands, lovingly fucking him with his eyes as well as his cock. “You’re mine. I won't stop until you're satisfied.”
“Ahh! I..I need it.” Eren whimpered, tears falling down his plump cheeks. “I need you to-nnggh!”
“I know, baby, I know.” Levi soothed, wiping away the salty tears. “It’s okay.” He sped up his thrusts, watching as his cock disappeared inside the omega at a rapid pace, his knot growing as he groaned loudly, trying to speed up his impending orgasm. “I’ll take care of you.”
Levi let out a strangled groan, cum flooding the omega’s walls and around the alpha’s dick as he pumped Eren full of cum. The omega cried, his pussy quaking and cock twitching, his orgasm slamming into him without warning. He went silent, his eyes gleaming with tears as he came, his arms wrapping around Levi’s neck tightly and holding on for dear life.
“Good boy.” Levi praised, kissing him passionately on the lips. “You're such a good omega.”
“Ahhh..hnnn-It feels so good!” Eren whimpered, feeling the cum settle deep within him, like it was swimming directly to his ovaries. Levi’s knot swelled, locking them into place as Eren clawed his fingernails up the alpha’s back, struggling to keep himself screaming. The knot stretched his pussy so perfectly, plugging him up, and allowing the cum to soak in.
“So fucking beautiful.” Levi pressed a kiss to Eren’s forehead, tenderly nuzzling him as the boy milked his cock, and sucked every last drop of spend out of his balls.
“Fuck…the way you squeeze me.. it's..” Levi panted, trailing kisses down Eren’s jawline. “I can’t get enough of you.”
“I’ll give you everything. All that I am.” The omega said, blinking back tears. “I’m yours, and no one can take me away from you.”
Levi rested his head on the boy’s chest, breathing in his comforting scent. “Damn right.”
All of his anxieties were temporarily lifted, replaced with tranquility and reassurance that wrapped him up like a warm blanket, and coaxed away his doubts.