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1. The Crucible by Dreadnought

   Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Captain America (Comics), Captain America - All Media Types, Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   18 Feb 2017

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   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
   • James "Bucky" Barnes
   • Steve Rogers
   • Sam Wilson (Marvel)
   • Clint Barton
   • Wanda Maximoff
   • Scott Lang
   • T'Challa (Marvel)
   • Original Characters
   • Arnim Zola
   • Vasily Karpov
   • Aleksander Lukin
   • Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
   • Post-Captain America: Civil War (Movie)
   • Psychological Trauma
   • Brainwashing
   • Teamwork
   • Science
   • Bucky Barnes-centric
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Psychological Torture
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • Sexual Tension
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Bad Parenting
   • Intergenerational Trauma
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Violence
   • Past Bucky Barnes/Various Female Characters
   • Sexual Content
   • Medical Torture
   • Psychology
   • POV Bucky Barnes
   • Hydra (Marvel)
   • Emotional Roller Coaster
   • Stockholm Syndrome
   • Introspection
   • Unreliable Narrator
   • Trust Issues
   • Lots and lots of psychotherapy
   • Homophobic Language
   • Period-Typical Homophobia
   • Heavy Angst
   • Vomiting
   • Gaslighting
   • Anxiety
   • Depression
   • Recovery
   • Character Study
   • Explicit Sexual Content
   • Slow Build
   • Friends to Lovers
   • Psychologists & Psychiatrists
   • parasuicidal behavior
   • Therapy
   • therapy fic
   • complex PTSD

   Summary

   Therapy's a bitch, but PTSD is worse. An in-depth character study of Bucky Barnes as he reconciles his years with Hydra in the wake of Civil War.

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   I don’t really know who I am. I do know that James Buchanan Barnes is dead. He’s a pile of bones at the bottom of a ravine. He’s a side bar in some other guy’s museum exhibit that might not even exist anymore. James Barnes would puke if he could see what he became. His parents and sister and friends would cry.

   I don’t know what’s left over now, but I know it’s not good. And I don’t think it can ever be good.

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