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    It had been hard at first. Eddie was so used to orbiting Buck like the sun, constantly pulled into his gravity and warmth, that the thought of being apart from him seemed impossible.

    Then, his anger had brewed during Buck’s absence from the 118, growing until it rivalled that gravity, becoming a force in its own right.

    Eddie was weak to Buck’s eyes though, always had been, so it became self-defence to avoid them at all costs. The easiest way to do this was avoiding Buck, and so began the cold front.

    The thing with Eddie and avoidance was that once he started it was very hard for him to stop. He was a pro at compartmentalisation, a skill he had to perfect to survive the emotional battleground that was his childhood. A facet of that which he had never quite learned was how to unpack any of it after the fact.

    He knew that was called repression; he knew it wasn’t healthy - hell, he even knew that he was long overdue a meeting with a therapist. But angry Eddie wasn’t logical Eddie, and without Buck to pull him out, he fell further into the well of rage and denial.

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    When Buck suddenly starts appearing happier after the lawsuit, Eddie's jealousy threatens to undo him.

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    Buck’s first shift back at the 118 after the lawsuit was nothing like he’d imagined and Buck wasn't sure how he'd bridge the sudden distance between him and his team. But the disappointment of their brush-off was eclipsed when he came home from that first shift to find an old flame waiting on his doorstep with a choice that was really no choice at all. Buck had no idea how to be a dad, especially without the help of the people he'd come to think of as his family, but he was determined to figure it out; and maybe figure out some things about himself along the way.

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    After the Grocery Store Fight, Buck reacts.

    Trigger warning
    Implied Suicide Attempt
    Mental Health Issues

     
    Sorry not Sorry
    You may cry.

     

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    Something broke inside Buck in that grocery store. Eddie’s final words kept repeating inside his head. He was right; he was always right. All Buck ever did was hurt the people around him. It was why he had never stayed in one place for long before. Because inevitably, something was wrong inside of him, a piece that meant he would never belong. After meeting Eddie, he’d fooled himself into thinking maybe things could be different...maybe Buck could have a place in LA, with Eddie… but like always he was wrong. So, standing alone in the parking lot, Buck decided to do the one thing he did best: run.

    Eddie had never been good at controlling the wolf inside of him. It was always angry, unsettled, at least until Buck came into his life. The last few weeks though, without Buck, he’d lost control more than once. When Buck came to apologize, he really hadn’t meant to snap at him and it didn’t take long to regret what he said. Only by the time he went looking for Buck he was too late. Buck was gone. Eddie had to find him, and tell him how sorry he was, how he needed Buck sometimes much it hurt. He just hoped Buck didn’t get into anymore trouble.

    Or my Buddie werewolf AU that no one needs, but I’m doing anyway.

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    Taps is a bugle call used by the Army and the Navy to signal lights out and at funerals. There are no official lyrics for Taps, but many verses have been written for the tune.

    Buck has not been having a good time. He's had three near-death experiences in less than a year, his found family has turned out not to need him as much as he needed them, and he's just come from a funeral, and he can't drink away the feelings with everyone else because of the blood thinners. To make matters worse, while picking up some last-minute supplies for the celebration of life, he runs into the 118.

    He does not have the mental fortitude to deal with them.

    Good thing his partner, Sarah "Buzzkill" Vaughn, has his back.

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    Rewrite of the lawsuit episode when Buck sees Station 118 at the grocery store
    I want Buck to stand up for himself more; his character needs some development in the “stop fucking with me” area
    Love all the characters, no purposeful character bashing except for the plot

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    After the grocery store Buck has an accident. Alone and heartsick, Buck gives into the inevitable. He always knew he’d die alone.

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    This was what he deserved. The pain radiating from both his arms, the blood that dripped from his wrists, the silence.

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    He’s speeding down the street and veering through traffic and lights to get to Buck in time. He thinks the worst, and his racing thoughts cause tears to stream down his face. He’s quick to wipe them away, though, so they don’t cloud his vision as he speeds to the apartment. Eddie continues to beat himself up, knowing this is all his fault, and partially the fault of the rest of their team, but mostly his own. His best friend needed him, and Eddie was too busy letting out his anger to notice his best friend sinking further down the rabbit hole of depression and guilt.

    Or... Eddie finds a questionable voicemail from Buck and thinks the absolute worst and rushes over to stop his friend from doing the unthinkable. Will he make it in time? And if he does, will Buck come back to the golden retriever he once was, or will his insecurities get the best of him?

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    Maddie is not pleased when Buck escapes her team of baby-sitters while recovering from being struck by lightning. All Buck wants is space and a little time to breathe. Maddie just wants to know where her little brother is.

    Between them, she and Buck trigger Eddie’s panic attack response to past events. A worried Buck hurries home to help his best friend. In doing so, Buck learns some interesting truths about how Eddie really feels about him.

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    After the fight in the grocery store, Buck knows that he has to end the lawsuit and make it up to the firefam, which proves more difficult than he imagined as Buck was expecting it be some hard work and then all would be back to normal but what he didn't expect was the ice cold harshness emitting from the team leaving him isolated and alone until an old childhood habit comes back as he sinks further and further into depression. But can the firefam realise their mistakes and help Buck from the tide that is slowly drowning him and make it up to him before its too late.

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    Buck’s not suicidal, really, he’s not. There have been periods in his life when he contemplated it, but he’s never tried. That counts for something, right?

     

    Where Buck writes more than one suicide note in his life, and Eddie finds them.

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    They got together, and it was going great; they were exploring this new part of their relationship, and everyone was excited for them. It was the best thing that either of them had ever had, but their constant problem was Buck being reckless on calls, which should be a normal thing, but Eddie couldn’t seem to look past that. Now, it’s caused this rift in their relationship that Buck doesn’t know how to fix.

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    Buck and Eddie sort of break up, and everyone suffers.

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    “I know, ‘The Trials and Tribulations of Evan Buckley: A Tragedy in 97 Acts. Now featuring a special 98th titled: Can’t get over his fucking ex, one who claims, and others agree, that said Evan Buckley is unlovable,’” Buck spits.

    “Dios,” Eddie sighs, exasperated. “Buck, no, you know that's not true.” He gets up off his swing and crouches in front of Buck. He puts his hand on the side of Buck’s face in an attempt to make him look up, but it doesn’t work.

    “Buck, Evan, look at me, please.” Buck finally looks up, tears running down his cheeks...

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    the one where buck texts t*mmy to apologize and t*mmy is a bitch. but it's ok bc eddie fixes it!!!

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    This is a rewrite of the grocery store fight post lawsuit this time. It isn’t just some little fight. It ends with blood and lots of it.

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    Buck, the grocery store, and his childhood trauma! I’m sorry…

    TW: brief ED mention, Suicide, passive Self harm mention, Death
    DO NOT READ IF ANY TRIGGER YOU THIS IS HEAVILY DEATH AND MH CENTERED

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    All Buck wanted was to be with his family, but things weren’t the same after the lawsuit. He was sidelined, buried in chores, still on the outs with the 118, especially Bobby and Eddie. Unwilling to give up on them, Buck kept his head down and did his job.

    Until he died, all alone, while his team was out on a call.

    Grief and guilt consume them. They should have been there, should have seen the signs— should have saved him. But Bobby had let his anger blind him, believing there’d be time to make things right. And Eddie had stayed silent, convinced there’d be a someday. Now, Buck is gone, and they can never make it right.

    They weren’t the only ones Buck left behind, however. When a group of Navy SEALs arrives at Buck’s funeral, their presence brings more than just surprise. It brings truths the 118 never saw coming, and more grief than they ever could have imagined.


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    After the lawsuit, Buck and Eddie are in a bad place, but when Eddie tell Buck that he needs him,
    he doesn't hesitate and run to help him,
    he didn't expect what greeted him and where this evening came to...
    he'll do anything for Eddie, even if it hurts him,
    he thinks he deserved it anyway...
    Eddie is eventually sleeping with Buck, He blames the alcohol and he is unwilling to admit his feelings for his best friend (formerly?)

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    The first tears fall down his cheeks as soon as the door to the loft closes.
    He should have known that going to that grocery store was a stupid idea. But as usual, he didn't realize it until Eddie yelled at him in front of everyone. And Eddie... God, he really has every reason to hate Buck. Buck honestly hates himself right now. He made a stupid decision, and it hurt everyone. It's his fault that he's now being hurt by them in return.

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    Buck breaks down crying after the fight in the grocery store and dissociates alone in his loft.
    Eddie brings him back.

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    Yelling at Buck in the middle of the grocery store had him clenching his fists, his nerve endings firing as his brain told him to swing. He couldn’t hit Buck, Buck was his best friend, he hoped Buck was still his best friend. But the rage was bubbling up and egging him on, telling him to just fucking punch him.

    He was drawing his fist back before he even knew what he was doing.

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    The fight in the grocery store gets out of hand and then only continues to get worse.

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    Eddie goes to Buck’s loft after the grocery store incident and then make up- in more ways then one.

    Rated scene between Buck and Eddie.

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