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In another universe, I didn't grow up angry and you didn't grow up sad. by beasarchive
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
27 Aug 2024
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Evan Buckley & Eddie Diaz grew up craving attention and validation from their parents.
It took five years for Buck Buckley to finally find a home. A place he finally felt comfortable enough in his own skin.
It took seven years for Eddie Diaz to finally feel like he could breathe.
Both boys, though on opposite sides of the country, both longed for the same thing and found it within the other.
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The moment Eddie’s foot connects with the man’s nose, he knows he’s gone too far. Even through the throbbing in his head, the blood rushing in his ears, the roaring of the room, he knows. He feels the give of muscle and bone under his heel, hears the muffled, choked gasp, and realizes he doesn’t even know the man’s name.
He doesn’t know what his face looks like when it isn't pulverized.
“Eddie?...Earth to Diaz?”
Eddie shook himself out of the memory, dazedly returning his attention to Chimney.
“Uh, sorry. What’d you say?”
or, Chris leaves, Buck dates Tommy, so Eddie throws himself back into cage fighting.
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“This is about you, and the fact that you’re following her not because you love her, or even because you think she should be in Christopher’s life. No, you’re following her because you are hiding behind this stupid fucking teenage marriage that neither of you wanted in the first place. You’re following her because you refuse to accept that it is never going to work out, because if you do, then you’ll have to acknowledge why.”
“What the fuck are you trying to say, Sophia,” Eddie gritted out through his teeth, voice low and shaking with some combination of rage and the same, bone deep terror that he’d felt every day since he was sixteen, or ten, or eight, whenever it was when he first realised that there was something inherently broken about him.
Sophia’s eyes hardened, her tone dropping to match his: cold, hard. Furious. Scared. “You know exactly what I’m saying, Eddie.”
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Eddie and Sophia at a number of turning points throughout Eddie's life. Eddie can't stop running from himself. Sophia desperately tries to help. Things fall apart.
Because you can shout as loud as you want, but if someone doesn't want to listen, they'll stick their fingers in their ears and start singing.
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Eddie hate El Paso. He hates the way the city makes him feel, hates the drive from the airport to his parent’s house and how it seems to squeeze his lungs the closer he gets. He hates this house that he grew up in, the scolding look from the crucifix in the living room that seems to judge them every time his father raises his tone, everything his mother complains about something and really anytime Eddie has the unfortunate idea to look up to it. As if the little wooden cross on the wall somehow knows there’s something rotten in him that’s undeserving, something he can’t get a hold of, something Eddie himself can’t quite figure out except for that damn feeling at the pit of his stomach that makes him ache all the time. Ache for what, he doesn’t know.
OR : a dual pov story from Eddie and his sister Adriana’s perspective about their childhood and lives under the Diaz’s roof, alongside a common theme of parental expectation, personal self discovery and the guilt of leaving it all behind.
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sit right here and tell you all that comes to me by andtimestoodstill
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
19 Jul 2024
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Eddie couldn’t look at the sympathetic tilt of Frank’s eyebrows for another second, so he trained his gaze over Frank’s shoulder. Ever since Chris had left, it had felt like the earth had stopped spinning. Like Eddie was frozen in time, forced to interminably live in the moment that his son had left him.
But as he looked out the window behind Frank, Eddie could see evidence of the world relentlessly marching on. There were trees swaying in the breeze, a woman walking down the sidewalk, pushing a stroller. In the distance, a plane took off into the cloudless blue sky. If he stood up to get a better view, Eddie would probably be able to see Buck’s Jeep in the parking lot below. He’d dropped him off forty minutes ago and promised to be there when Eddie was done.
(Or, Seven Conversations on Couches)
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- Part 2 of moment of honesty
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Whenever Eddie had a crush on someone, he would do this thing. Late at night, before falling asleep, he would slip under the covers, stare at the ceiling and whisper a goodnight to them. A well-wish for sweet dreams. Good night, Shannon, he’d tell his childhood bedroom ceiling. Good night, Shannon, he’d tell the starry sky amongst the booms of Afghanistan. Good night, Shannon, he’d tell their shitty one-bedroom flat’s ceiling, because he couldn’t say it to his wife’s face.
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OR Eddie goes to pick up Christopher from El Paso and encounters his childhood best friend.
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After Christopher leaves—chooses to leave—does the semantics of it matter when the kid you live for is gone?—Eddie is an absolute mess, and the feelings he's been tamping down for years bubble to the surface. He wants to be there for Chris, has made that the core of his life, but if Chris doesn't want him there anymore... what does he have left?
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Eddie slams his weight down. He can’t look his girlfriend in the eyes because— yes she’s a nun, but he’s been thinking about fucking his best friend instead of her.
“The problem is I can’t look at her without wanting to do this—“ He completes the motions of the Sign of the Cross, “Instead of… Other things,” Namely, he wants the man in front of him to hold him against the mattress. He wants to feel the flex of Buck’s biceps as he holds Eddie against the wall. He wants to rip open the buttons on those tight shirts Buck wears. Or maybe he wants to get on his knees for Buck and mouth at the bulge in his pants. “In fact, I haven’t been able to, uh, y’know… since I found out.”
Buck smiles and wags his finger over Eddie’s sweaty form, “Which is why you’re so pent up.”
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Or, a rewrite of the gym scene in which Eddie is “pent up” not only because his girlfriend is a nun, but also because of some recent subconscious revelations about a blonde firefighter.
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Buck is dating Tommy and that's fine but now Eddie knows that's an option it's killing him. He also knows that he needs to confront a few things before he can do anything about it.
Or, Eddie goes to therapy and treats himself nicely, talks to his friends and does his best to ignore the fact that he loves Buck more than he can breathe.
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For Buddie Week Day 1: Borrowing/stealing/sharing Clothes - Secretly Married - "I'm right here, I always have been."
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- Part 1 of Buddie Week 2024
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all things go, all things go. by dylaesthetics for Daisies_and_Briars
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
29 Jan 2024
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“He doesn’t hate you for transferring,” says Hen, as though reading his mind. “But the guy thinks everything’s his fault. He probably blames himself for it.”
“Why would he? It was solely my choice,” says Eddie. It doesn’t make any sense. “I’m the one who got shot and had to live with the consequences.”
Hen considers him, her eyes a bit sharp. “And he’s the one who watched that happen to you, and couldn’t do anything to prevent it from happening. It might be your trauma, Eddie, but it is also his.”
______OR Eddie comes to terms with the hole in his chest after leaving the 118.
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Before he was legally allowed to drink, Eddie looked out the passenger side window of his dad’s truck, and in the dusty, barren nothing of the Texan landscape, he saw his entire life written out for him in someone else’s handwriting.
Eleven years later, walking out of an emergency meeting at Christopher’s school over his son’s recent “behaviour”, Eddie thinks of the view out of his dad’s truck.
And when Buck asks, “So? What happened?”
Eddie lies.
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If you stop to think about it, a tsunami really happens in three parts. The wave draws back, like you draw your fist back before a punch, then the fist extends, the wave rushes out onto shore and chases people inland. Then it flows back out to sea, like it was never there at all. The tsunami could have gone so differently, but in all the ways it could have gone, Eddie feels terror grip his chest and watches, with his eyes forced open, as the people he loves get hurt again and again and again.
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Three (mostly) standalone tsunami AUs.
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the question pounds my head, what's a lifetime of achievement? by lostinthesounds
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
11 Aug 2021
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Eddie forces his eyes to open and focus on the scene in front of him, and all he gets is a blurry sight of the elevator doors open with only half of the shaft hanging above ground as Buck tries to secure the ropes around himself. There's a rope for him too, but he can't feel his legs or make them move forward. He's only vaguely aware of Buck communicating with the team before he starts getting flashes of the helicopter crash every time he blinks. He was the only one who still had his flashlight off, and in hindsight, his fear of not letting other people see how his body reacts to stress was not worth the panic he feels when he remembers how it felt to have helicopter spotlights shining down on you as you're stumbling in sandy trenches with two wounded teammates under your arms.
[or, a blackout fic where eddie has flashbacks of his helicopter escape while getting out of being stuck in an elevator with buck]
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The topic of phases seemed to come up a lot lately and usually by Buck. At first, he thought he was being overly sensitive to it as it was focused on him, but it kept popping up until there was no denying Buck was doing it on purpose.
A character study into Eddie Diaz set after 3x09.