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One drunken night, Furina bites off far more than she can chew...
Or, Furina deals with the aftermath of the prophecy (and subsequent surprises) the only way she knows how: by running away.
[This fic takes place after the Fontaine AQ, but before the Furina SQ. Chapters are tagged individually, so you can skip the Dead Dove content if you want to, and as of Chapter 7 there is currently no Dead Dove content present in the fic.]
Updates are very inconsistent, but I am still writing this I promise :)
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What if the intervention at beginning of ACOSF went a little differently?
Nesta doesn’t know how long it has been since she was abandoned at the Respite, only that she has not seen her sisters nor her... Cassian for what feels like an eternity. When Azriel learns the extent of Nesta’s isolation, he knows he needs to rescue his sister. But as unrest is growing in Prythian and beyond, will he be able to rescue her from herself, or will it all be too little too late?
An alternate telling of ACOSF from multiple perspectives focusing on Nesta's journey to healing.
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Inspired by Charis' fancomic "BFFs" starting just after chapter 7
What if Stolas' mental health was so low that his fight with Blitz, hearing the demon he loves remind him of their Full Moon fight and Octavia's rejection, pushed him to do the worst?
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Billions of stars. Billions. Yet, Remus only ever thought about one. Sirius. Sirius Orion Black. His best mate. Who in the right mind would fall in love with their best friend?
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Dear reader, I want to write to you by Mikawithme
Fandoms: Warhammer 40.000: Rogue Trader (Video Game), Warhammer 40.000
14 Oct 2025
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“Kiss me, Heinrix.”
“I’ll take you to the flower fields in spring, swimming in summer, mountain peaks in autumn, and in winter we’ll build a snowman—and I’ll hit you with snowballs.”“I trust you.”
Two shattered souls are drawn to each other in a dark universe steeped in lies and violence— on one side, the dogma of the Imperium and the Inquisition’s unyielding loyalty; on the other, the whispers of Chaos and twisted desire. In this deadly game where life itself is the wager, they are both hunters and each other’s only prey.
When saint and demon are one and the same, when love and the will to kill spring from the same root, can they discover an answer beyond faction and fate before they destroy one another? -
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TDAP is a Novel-like fanfiction, a highly ambitious AU of the Zootopian world, with nuanced layers of societal and cultural commentary, focusing on inclusion. The first movie's plot remains largely intact, as do the main characters and their personalities and backstories...
But! a savage light—somewhat comparable to Beastars—shines on everything: the instinct-driven dynamic between Predators and Prey remains nearly as fierce as in olden times and governs daily interaction and societal conduct. No systemic racism; distancing out of mutual fear and choice.
A mix of literary fiction, dark-ish dystopia, eventual romance, and complex cultures à la Robert Jordan, TDAP focuses on Judy Hopps' and Nick Wilde's psychologies/ambitions as they navigate the dystopian city of Zootopia after the Nighthowler case and the much, much more meaningful pit incident—the by-now century-long experiment of the only city on Animalia where sentient Predator and Prey—and their inextricable cultures—coexist and paws-on research for inclusion is done.
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She knew that voice.
She would know it anywhere. She heard it in her dreams and her nightmares. What startled her, however, was that she had never heard that voice singing. Also, the fact that she had not heard it in over four years.
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Hermione and Draco run into each other unexpectedly in the muggle world four years after the war, after having been in a secret relationship at Hogwarts.
Will they be able to overcome their trauma to be together again, or was there too much damage and broken trust?
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Cuniculus Molestus by CatatonicBug
Fandoms: The Long Walk - Richard Bachman, The Long Walk (Movie 2025)
14 Oct 2025
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Through the darker aspects that seem to accompany every college student's life, love seems to be able to still find its way. Stebbins shouldn't have accepted the pair of knitted gloves. That was his first mistake. The second mistake was himself. His weakness, the human side that hadn't subsided despite his father's relentless mental abuse, still made him crave closure. Stebbins couldn't pinpoint exactly the moment it happened. It seemed as if one day he found himself part of a close group of friends. He couldn't allow the crippling doubt telling him it was all too good to be true to ruin everything. This time he wouldn't. Everyone deserves a happy ending, even someone like him and the boy he fell for.
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Rumi knows she needs to explain everything to Mira and Zoey. God, she owes it to them, really. But everything is still too fresh, she can't seem to yet process everything that has happened.
Last night when they got back home, the three of them were exhausted, but especially Rumi.
They made a deal: they'd talk in the morning.But still. The purple haired girl didn't know how to fix this, she didn't know how to open up to other people, she hadn't had the chance to often as a kid.
So she did the only thing she knew at that moment.She ran.
or, Rumi runs away cause she's not ready to talk yet, and something happens.
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Hope is a Fire to Keep us Warm by Void_Voyager
Fandoms: Critical Role: Exandria (Web Series), The Mighty Nein (Cartoon), Wiedźmin | The Witcher - All Media Types
14 Oct 2025
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Caleb gets separated from Essek after a failed teleportation spell. Now he has to try and find him
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My Body Only Remembers You by kndxyz
Fandoms: プロジェクトセカイ カラフルステージ！| Project SEKAI COLORFUL STAGE! (Video Game)
14 Oct 2025
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Mafuyu had let out everything on Kanade, and as a result, she was never the same. The self-isolated composer agrees to meet her once more, regardless. Only at the expense of losing the only fragment of herself she has left.
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Shane loves the farmer. The farmer thinks she loves Elliott. Elliott loves the farmer. The farmer can't seem to get Shane out of her head.
Part two of my work, "The Writers' Wife." Shane and the farmer navigate their complicated emotions towards each other after their night together. Avoidance, attraction, and self-hatred are all interwoven in this story that permanently changes the lives of three Pelican Town residents.
Thank you to my amazing Betas Mongoosing, SillyBilly69, and 7Reya for helping to push this little story to the best it could be! Check out all of their stuff on ao3 and Tumblr NOW!!!!!! Special shoutout to sillybilly for coming up with the title.
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- Part 2 of Sex, Lies, and Vegetable Harvests
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【行商浪人/海因里希】亲爱的读者，我想写给你 by Mikawithme
Fandoms: Warhammer 40.000: Rogue Trader (Video Game), Warhammer 40.000
14 Oct 2025
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“亲吻我，海因里希。”
“所以我要带你春天去花海，夏天去游泳，秋天去很高很高的山里登山，冬天堆雪人，然后我要用雪球打你。带你领略人生所有美好的事情。”
“我相信。”
两个破碎灵魂在充满谎言与暴力的黑暗宇宙中相互吸引、相互试探，一边是帝国的教条与审判庭的忠诚，一边是混沌的低语与扭曲的欲望。在这场以生命为赌注的危险游戏中，他们既是彼此的猎手，也是彼此唯一的猎物。
当圣徒与恶魔实为一人，当爱意与杀意同根同源，他们能否在毁灭彼此之前，找到超越阵营与命运的答案？
tips：长篇。这个标题是有特殊含义的，不过我暂时不能剧透，本作的时间线很长，从海因里希在帝国内政部打杂开始，一直到游戏结束。
前篇是mercy线海因里希，后篇是harsh线海因里希。
那么欢迎您的阅读，有什么讨论或话题可以评论区写给我，感谢！ -
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Will Cipher loves Preston, more than anything in the entire world. He'd never wish harm upon his nebula.
Harm upon himself, however, is quite a different story. The body that allows him such harm just happens to be Preston's
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- Part 10 of Reverse Falls / As above, so below
- Part 14 of AI-less Whumptober 2025
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A schoolgirl and her relationships as winter approaches.
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Brothers.
Born of the same womb.
Dean had practically raised Sam, but it was more than that, wasn't it?
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December Holiday's mental health was never something to write home about; she'd always had a little bit of a manic and psychotic side to her, and it had only gotten worse with each passing year. But with the plans for her future falling apart, she latches on to one last desperate bid to defy her mother and make it out of Hometown her own way. But that little voice of self-doubt remains in the back of her mind, festering as the months go by. If her final shot falls short, then everything... her relationships with family and lover alike, her psyche, and her soul... will all shatter like a fallen Christmas ornament.
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A brain fell from the sky, the city is healing, life slowly returns to the normal and our spawns find it harder and harder to find a place for themselves. Where do monsters fit in a life of normalcy? When you have a constant hunger for blood, how can you pretend to be normal?
And what do you do when people find out that you're not?
This is a follow-up to the Broken Bastards fic, containing a continuation and some cut content. (Is currently being broken-up into smaller arcs and put into a series.)
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- Part 2 of Here be monsters
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Beast Beneath the Moonlight-the Nature of Suffering by obsessed_with_bsd_and_pjsk
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
14 Oct 2025
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Atsushi falls a victim of his own mind. Hurting on a daily basis, he cannot work as well as he used to and others do notice it. His stuggles become so great and prominent that even his so-called enemy-partner Akutagawa starts to feel concerned (though he would rather die than admit it aloud). Many people want to help the silverette out while the darkness envelopes him. However, it proves to be more difficult than anyone imagined...
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"Well, what do we have here," Owen's voice pierced the silence, deceptively light with that ever-present undercurrent of menace, and sent a jolt of fear down Avid's spine. "A little bat, stuck in a cage."
He lowered himself with leonine grace onto his haunches, bringing himself down to Avid's eye level, and gazed at him through the bars. The white hair was still a shock, every time; so different from the nondescript dark-headed lumberjack who had teased him on his first day in Oakhurst. Red eyes narrowed at the corners, studying him like a particularly vexing puzzle. "Hello, Avid."
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Avid locks himself in the vampire holding cell. Owen pays him a visit.