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    For Viktor, a fifth-grade student, the world was full of cruelty. He spends his days hiding from his parents’ shouts and his classmates’ taunts. He can’t help but wonder why Jayce, the popular boy in class, pays him so much attention.

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    01 Jun 2025

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    Every so often Viktor finds himself wanting. He wants so much that it feels like a monster inside of him.

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    or: they're roommates. they're bestfriends. they adopt two cats together. they take naps together. it's definitely not complicated (it gets very complicated).

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    22 May 2025

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    Jayce meets Viktor at a bar one night before classes start, and only finds out afterwards that Viktor is his professor. But even though it’s a bad idea—even though on top of it all, Viktor is forty-three to Jayce’s freshly eighteen—they can’t stop seeing each other.

    And it’ll be fine, as long as nothing crazy happens.

    part one of the fic playlist here! part two is here!

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    11 May 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 2

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    — Виктор, прости, прости, я не хотел.

    Не хотел он, как же. Виктор проходит вглубь на пару шагов, ставит трость между ног и по-хозяйски садится на стоящий у раковины табурет. Джейс останавливает свои ласки, и хотя Виктор абсолютно не держит зла, поддеть его требует заунитская гордость.

    — Нет-нет, ты продолжай, я посмотрю. Расскажи-ка лучше, как тебе понравилось представлять меня сзади. Я не видел и половины веселья. Мои пальцы вместо своих, да? Ладони на твоей коже, губы, прижатые к спине? Я что-то упустил?

    Блять. Блять. Блять.

    Джейс сейчас натурально умрет. И почему только вселенная не может схлопнуться, сложившись пополам в сингулярность? Было бы кстати.

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    11 May 2025

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    He pictures the funeral sometimes.

    He pictures someone he doesn’t know saying Viktor’s name wrong. He pictures screaming in public. He pictures stealing the ashes and keeping them in a protein powder container because it’s the only vessel big enough. He pictures lying in those ashes like a widow bird. He pictures baking the ashes into bread and feeding them to pigeons in the park.

    He pictures swallowing them himself.

     

    Or: When Viktor chooses a quiet death, Jayce learns how to love him to the edge of the end and carry what’s left through the sad art of letting go.

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    25 Apr 2025