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  1. 1

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    After moving cross country to New Jersey with your boss, Saul Goodman, you meet a tall, mean yet charming doctor named Gregory House and things start to get a little confusing.

    - spoilers in tags -

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    Spencer shows up to Emily’s funeral sluggish from a high. He grips flowers in his hands with too much force, and when tears stream down his cheeks, they bear his shame and his grief rolled into one.

     

    At least it doesn’t hurt.

     

    He was going to celebrate four years clean just a few weeks from now. He has no idea who he was going to celebrate it with, but he would have celebrated. April 12th would have been spent joyously, full of grief as he’s fully unable to forget Hankel, but celebrated because he had something under his belt.

    Spencer relapses after four years clean, finds comfort in a bracelet, and makes peace with Emily.

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    He’s sitting on the floor in front of Andrew’s leather studio couch and using the cushions as a backrest, surrounded by small stacks of flashcards. Now, among those stacks lies children’s markers, one of every color.

    “Once upon a time,” Andrew begins, “you said a map of my body would be useful, to see where you were allowed to touch.”

    “And this circles back to the Crayola…”

    Andrew flings the orange marker back at Neil, who dodges. “Map. Should you want to act on that idea, use those.”

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    AKA: Two idiots explore each other’s bodies and pretend that isn’t as romantic as it sounds.

    Things that are definitely not romantic according to them: touching self-harm scars, knowing intimate psychological details about your partner, choosing your underwear according to their tastes, trusting them with your body utterly and completely, and avoiding getting bodily fluids in their piercings so they don’t get infected.

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    Grian, as the victor for a game of life and death, was granted all the time in the world to spend with his partner in crime.

    Or: Grian slowly descends into madness, but at least Scar is there for him, right?

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    “Do you ever feel like you’re in the backseat of a car and you’re kind of carsick? And you want to get some air but the window is stuck, and then you realize there’s no door handle.”

    Fyodor paused for thought. “Not really. You’re speaking in metaphors with absolutely no context to make them understandable.”

    “Have some imagination, Fedya. Aren’t you supposed to be good at reading?” Mykola laughed, back to his usual joking self, but with something hollow underneath. “You almost done with my hair?”

    [or: fyodor and nikolai are best friends in a rural midwestern town. surely, nothing could go wrong...]

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    "DON'T LEAVE !"

    And her last request shook the world to its core. A fuchsia wave spread around her. And there Rumi stood, at the junction between worlds. On this tenuous frontier that was a breath away from breaking. Standing on this unspeakable point.
    That was it. The epicenter of chaos.
    The event left the young woman speechless. Shocked, like the two other spectators, by what had just happened. Rumi had nothing left to defend.
    You can't reason with fear. It's the beauty of it. Intuitive, wild, unreasoning. And her hunters... They were terrified.
    Rumi had stopped fidgeting, caught like a wounded deer in the headlights of a car hurtling across burning tarmac, its glare flooding her field of vision a little more every second. Until it dazzled her. She had little time left before she was struck, and the impact promised to destroy a little more than her flesh and hollow carcass.

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    Rated mature for mention of eating desorder, self harm, suicidal behavior (light tho)
    Post canon, they performed Golden and scealled a golden Honmoon. Rumi never went to Celine.

    Takes a while, but everybody heals eventually. Somehow love is found in all this mess.

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  7. 3

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    When Rumi was rejected by Mira and Zoey after the disastrous Idol Awards, she asks Celine to kill her. Celine refuses, and the Honmoon drags her back to her partners.

    After the defeat of Gwi-Ma, Rumi tries to leave again. And again, and again.

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    Caelus was meant to be a pawn.

    A leash.

    He was a recessive, barren omega, born into luxury and opulence in the shape of a cage. Yet, he was chosen by Lady Gorgo for his silence, beauty, and obedience, to be married off to her son — Mydeimos, dominant alpha, and heir to the Amphorean Duchy.

    Mydeimos never wanted a bond. Never wanted an omega. He hated what omegas did to alphas. Despised how they twisted logic, down to the very biology that turned honed discipline into something base and primitive. Something disgusting.

    What began as disgust and cold duty slowly twisted into something unbearable that neither one could name. But in the estate of power and legacy, nothing is simple, is it?

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    “Dick...”
    Right. He needed to focus. This couldn’t wait.
    “What’s wrong, Little Wing?” Dick’s tone softened, as if sensing that Jason was teetering on the edge. He always knew. Always could feel it from a mile away.
    “Dick, I think… I think you have a son.”

    Peter felt himself falling into the abyss, a faint panic creeping in. He let his eyelids close, surrendering to the darkness. His heartbeat slowed, and an eerie calmness washed over his thoughts. The last image that flickered through his mind was May’s lifeless eyes.
    Peter hoped he wouldn’t wake up again.

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    Art for my work

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    Tim is a mess. Always has been. Chaos and synthesis and electricity are his constants. He’s St. Elmo’s fire and burning plasma. Steph had called him deranged when she walked out, and Tim hadn’t had one word to defend himself.

    He needs someone strong enough to stop him, or to stop the world for him.

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    A sex pollen fic where most of the sex got left at the altar.

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    • 07 Aug 2025

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      Really, it shouldn't be so surprising that I am so damningly weak for fuck-or-die angst. Maybe if I relabel/refile the genre as "forcefully-lowered inhibitions angst," I won't be this gutted next time.

      So much dedication put into this story and it shows. I feel the keen urge to wrap myself in cashmere and bite my tongue dangerously hard. Discordant desires to match discordant characters. No wonder Schumann made for such an excellent soundtrack to reading this.

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    Delirium finds her brother in a fishbowl. Which is a weird place to be. Dream is terrified for his sister's safety in this place.

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    It’s a cold spring in 1897, just before the century turns, and the reclusive Professor Henry Hidgens has sent out coveted invitations to the Hatchetfield Symposium. This is no mere academic conference, however- it’s a party, a meeting of minds, one of the most secretive social events of the decade! Among those lucky few invited is one Paul Matthews, a milquetoast reporter for the Hatchetfield Post with nothing whatsoever to recommend him for the honor. It must be a mistake, the invitation meant for someone else- it could never actually be for Paul! But Paul’s editor insists he must attend, and he arrives to a collection of eclectic personalities and notable names. At first confused, then frightened, over the week of his stay Paul begins to recognize a much more sinister force than a postal mistake is at work on the Hidgens Estate, and that these violent delights may, indeed, have their promised violent ends.
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    or, Paul Matthews collects the horror stories of his fellow guests and finds, too late, that he's living one of his own.

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    He is the Dazai in the mirror.
    He isn’t the Dazai in the mirror.
    Osamu Dazai isn’t human.
    Osamu Dazai shouldn’t exist.

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    Dazai accidentally starts wrapping gauze over his eye and quickly spirals downward into whether he's still the man he used to be when he was with the Port Mafia.

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    Dokja's toughest battle did not come with the scenarios. It was his depression.

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    “Leorio wanted to bookmark that moment: Kurapika in his arms like this, safe and warm and happy, their bodies connected in perfect communion.

    Everything was as it should be.

    One and the same, Leorio and Kurapika, Kurapika and Leorio."

    Leorio never expected to meet his soulmate at a psych ward. Saving a broken Kurapika won’t be easy, but Leorio will put his pieces together if it’s the last thing he does. Through pain comes beauty, and Leorio wants to make Kurapika’s soul shine like the sun.

    *Illustrated*

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    Wherein the Yuu spirited away to Twisted Wonderland is a cursed golem who really must get back to their world before their mistress dies.

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    Prologue [1-14]
    Heartslabyul [15-?]

    ~ ~ ~

    Currently covers material up to Episode 1-14

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    Running from everyone and everything he's ever known with nothing but a duffel bag and the hat on his head, Chuuya hesitates when a stranger covered in bandages offers him a ride for free—all fake smiles, sharp edges, dark eyes. Maybe, he thinks, he isn't the only one trying to escape the ghosts of the past.

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    Rumi has always known exactly who she is. What she was supposed to be and what her purpose on this earth was.

    A popstar on stage, pleasing the fans for a strong Honmoon. Perfect in the eye of the beholder.

    A soldier off the stage, trained and hardened to fight the demons that threatened the souls of those she held dear. Hunting the very thing that held the deepest part of her shame in a chokehold.

    A mistake that never should have existed in the first place. Doomed to right her wrongs and get forgiveness from the world for her horrible nature.

     

    But one mission doesn’t go as planned, as Rumi stumbles upon one thing that could easily blow away everything she had been born to believe.

    A terrified child, the epitome of innocence and most in need of protection. With burning yellow eyes and purple scars.

    And Rumi hesitates, just once. Which is all it takes to make everything go to shit.

     

    or: What if, instead of meeting Jinu, Rumi finds a little demon child that makes her question everything she and her group stand for? Everything Celine had told her to hide.

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  20. 15

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    Contents on page 1.

    Before you read:

    -This story includes badly-written sex. (I'm aroace and also have no sex experience lol)

    -There are themes of sexual assault and self-harm. These are not romanticised; I write about them to cope.

    -I hate Flutter. I write hate about her to cope with my mental health issues, if this makes you uncomfortable don't read.

    -I'm a proshipper. This doesn't mean I condone that stuff in real life. It means I'm fucked up and use it as a coping mechanism. There isn't much of that in the story, just a bit of rxd, but if that makes you uncomfortable then don't read.

     

    I only write male omorashi, requests are closed cause I get writers' block, sorry

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