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  1. 61

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    Season 5 AU. Merlin gives Mordred a chance. Mordred wants to please Lord Emrys. A slow and very rocky road to friendship or at least understanding. Merlin is a God! What happens when Arthur finds out exactly who his manservant is?

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  2. 16

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    Mordred wouldn’t trade Camelot for anything, but he can’t help but feel separated from his home culture when it’s a significant druid holiday and he’s unable to celebrate, as he still has to keep who he is a secret.

    He thinks he can handle it, but the homesickness overwhelms him. Fortunately, Merlin and Arthur are good friends.

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  3. 27

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    Mordred wasn’t as confident as he seemed to be, when a night terror really seems to spook him while they're on a hunt, he freaks out and his magic goes a bit haywire.

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    A drinking game gone wrong. A broken God. An insolent knight.

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    "Ah, Merlin," Arthur said, looking up from his desk. "I expect you have my speech ready for tomorrow?"

    Merlin nodded and approached the desk. He bowed his head as he put the scroll down then kept it bowed before moving back and standing in front of him.

    Arthur, immediately, was suspicious.

    "Merlin? Is something the matter?"

    Merlin didn't answer, just keeping his head down.

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    "With a secret like that, at some point the secret itself becomes irrelevant. The fact that you kept it does not." - S. Gruen

    where arthur slowly comes to figure out who merlin truly is— a liar.

    (but he loves him anyway)

    ~

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    Merlin has failed he can't stop the inevitable until he can. If fate is going to play with him he will play with it. This isn't oven yet, Arthur is worth all of what he will do.

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    Merlin challenges fate to give his friends a choice, a choice to end it all if they are willing to learn their and his mistakes.

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    Mordred saves Kara but is betrayed. Now, imprisoned by Morgana, Merlin secretly leaves Camelot behind Arthur's back to find him, intending to kill Mordred.

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  9. 29

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    Golden Age AU where I try my hand at fixing the entire damn show.

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  10. 35

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    Merlin tells Mordred that Arthur gave Kara a chance to redeem herself, then tells him about Freya

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  11. 38

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    Mordred is loyal to Emrys above all things. When he learns of his own destiny, he takes the only path his conscience will allow him.

    I sat down to write and this came out.

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  12. 15

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    "I know what you’re trying to do. You know that if I go to Morgana then she’ll know who Emrys is. But you can’t take that, can you? So you’re trying to lure me back to Camelot so that your identity is safe. So that your king is safe.” Mordred snarled.

    “This is not about Morgana or Arthur. I pushed you away. I made decisions that I’m not particularly proud of.”

    Mordred shook his head. “You hated me. Don’t think I didn’t see it. You nearly tried to kill me as a child and I still looked up to you. I’m done with that. I always thought that Emrys would be our savior but you’re nothing but a failure.”

    (aka the mordred reveal)

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  13. 4

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    He swallowed, trying to wet his throat. “Why?”

    “Why, what?”

    “You brought me back.” He shifted, wincing at the pain. “I can feel it.”

    Merlin pulled away. “You know why I did it.”

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    Near death and welcoming it, Mordred finds himself being pulled away with only Merlin to blame.

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  14. 13

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    "I'm pretty sure it's another initiation attempt. He tried to convince me to participate in....some sort of 'prank' against the queen?" Mordred shrugged, still confused by the conversation. "I'm just concerned. If someone fell for that, they could seriously upset Morgana!"

    Leon starred at him blankly for a moment. A long, slightly awkward moment. He slowly tilted his head. Mordred felt a shiver run down his back.

    "If only things were so easy." Leon finally sighed, "If only the king could be so lucky."

    --
    or; there is a secret civil war in camelot that Mordred is only just now learning about, and his doesn't get why no one else seems to see the problem with it.

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    But Mordred's hopes, despite being strong against its own malnutrition, were fading little by little.

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  16. 19

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    After enduring Emrys’s hostile gaze throughout the Yule feast, Mordred retreats to his chambers, lighting a candle at his humble altar and praying to the Triple Goddess for guidance. But as he finishes his plea, he’s startled to find Emrys himself standing in the doorway.

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  17. 56

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    For better or for worst, Merlin has chosen to live for Arthur.

    If that means being a punching bag, he will handle it.

    If that means letting things go, so be it.

    That doesn't make it hurt less.

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    • 31 Mar 2025

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      Didn't know I needed this so bad but it's a breath of fresh air when you're used to having Merlin grovelling for 20 to 50 chapters because Arthur's having a crisis over his one true friend lying to him when Arthur had like an entire knighthood of friends (+ Gwen) willing to fight or die for him and be there for him a. and b. Merlin being magic doesn't change the fact that Arthur owes him his life and kingdom tens of times over. Like he's not even lying for his own safety because it's clear he values him over that, he's instead lying so Arthur wouldn't be too racist to stay friends/wouldn't remove his best protector despite all the assassination attempts, spells and enchantments Merlin knows he's vulnerable to. Like damn.

      Anyway. I love this fic. It's so good to see Merlin kinda grieve the show with us, and sort of self-acknowledge that season 5 was ... a breaking point where everything that was supposed to be better by now wasn't or was only incrementally better despite Merlin killing himself to get them to the point of the golden age. Also the vindication I felt over someone addressing the dolma/the lamia episodes in the same fic AND having Merlin come clean with Mordred? Wish fulfilment story right here. I hope Arthur gets a reality check, anyone else would've quit both as a friend and servant (and why is he the only one who wasn't elevated from servant status out of all their friends) years ago, even without all the murder.

    • 16 Dec 2024

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      ch 9 good sad time

    • 16 Dec 2024

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  18. 16

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    Mordred returns to Camelot, no longer a child, but a man, with an agenda that eventually changes the kingdom as a whole for the better.

    Call to action: https://end-otw-racism.tumblr.com/post/716978822501875712/fandom-against-racism-a-manifesto

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  20. 1

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    This series contains all stories that belong to my Merlin gen fic advent calendar 2023 as well as a few revised stories that were created that year. Enjoy! ❄️🕯️

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